Backup Plans To The Backup Plans

 

Today is my Lil Brother's Birthday, he's 2.5 Years Younger than me. I have this general feeling of Malaise, I can't shake it and it is Today's Word, since I think it's Nationally contagious in the current Political Shitshow.  Which, we've got to figure out some kind of way to shut down as soon as possible.  Otherwise, it all could become Terminal I think?  I have to go about doing daily stuff, but as another Blogger, Ms. Moon, so eloquently put it, everything seems so Useless now.  Yeah, that was another Word I was searching for, about how it just Felt... Useless.  Blogging is the thing right now that feels less Useless, and so, here I am again pecking away at the Keyboard and Creating long Posts that are way Too Much.  *LOL and Sorry about that!  But, it's still Cheaper than Therapy my Friends!*

I think Winter might be over, since, it's now over 80 most days already! Which, I don't mind NOW, but come Spring and Summer, it's a forewarning that things might be extra Toasty?   For the past Two Summers we've had ancient Saguaro Cacti exploding from the record breaking Heat.  Anything that can last over a Century and then just explode becoz of Climate Change, is rather unsettling.  If Saguaro, which have a lot of Water inside them explode from it boiling, what's it doing to us Humans, which have a lot of Fluids inside us too?  Shitshow Politics is unsettling enough, without Mother Nature going on her rampage coz she's really fed up with us Humans too.  I do feel in Survival Mode lately, I ain't gonna Sugar Coat it, I've got Backup and Safety Plans to the Backup and Safety Plans.  I'd usually keep such Dark Thoughts and Premonitions to myself, but I feel that would be irresponsible right now... people Need to Know... for their own sakes.

Anyone trying to Sanitize or Normalize it, I'm shying away from and not cozying up to, since, that's Zombie Brain Activity IMO.   When things get dire, acting like you've got Zombie Brains, probably means you're not gonna make it, thru anything, and be okay.   I plan to make it thru anything, and be okay, and don't need Zombie Brain folks getting in the way and being obstructionary.   If something needs to happen, I'm not letting anyone prevent it from happening, becoz of their stupidity and denial.  I have been lurking on some Book of Faces Social Media Feeds and some of the inane things some people are saying, well, it really appears Brain Dead and I have no Words!  But, there they are, Posting it, as if it's profound and makes sense, to still support the Fuckery going on.  There's little to no Hope for them, there just isn't.

Moving On, I got ALL my Tests and Appointments and Surgery set up now, all happening within the next Fortnite.  So, it's gonna be a busy February.   My Stress Test will be Two Days worth, with restrictions for Day Two.  The Ultrasound on my Legs, to look for obstructive Thrombosis Clots, is what's happening this Friday, so at least now I know what the Friday Appointment is for.  *LOL*  And the 17th, a Monday, since Princess T doesn't Work that day, is my Surgery to implant the Heart Monitor.  I had thought it was a simple procedure, but, they made it sound like it's more than I understood it would be.  I needed a Driver after the "Surgery" they said!  I'd assumed it was a simple "Procedure" but it's an actual Surgery, they asked if I could bring a Living Will if I had one!?  No, I don't, and what the Fuck would I need that for?   How risky IS this Voluntary Surgery BTW?  And, it won't PREVENT anything, so, I'm having 2nd Thoughts already.  And now they might have to re-schedule too, so... perhaps I may Opt Out?

Okay, so, I don't have a Driver, since The Son is the only other Driver in the Household and he'd be at Work.   But they made it clear if someone didn't come and vouch for being my Driver, I couldn't leave and they don't allow an Uber or Taxi for transportation Home.  Well, The Daughter knows how to drive but isn't Licensed.   She has permanent restrictions due to her Mental Health.  I don't mind having a Crazy Driving me if I can't Drive and have no other Options.   So, during my Stroke, she provided Transport before, so, she agreed to drive my Truck again... shush... it's the only damned way I'd get Home and it's not far, so, we'll be Fine.  *LOL*  The Man was like, I remember how to Drive, and I'm like, yeah, that's NOT happening!  I'd rather have a Schizophrenic Driver than a Dementia Driver with TBI as an added Bonus, Thank You though.  *Bwahahahaha*  Otherwise I'd have to sit at the Hospital, Post Surgical, all Day, waiting for The Son to get off Work and come get me... also NOT happening.

Anyway, other than that, everything is Swell.  *Bwahahahaha*  So, the Calendar is filled to the brim with Doc Appointments for February, since, there's more later in the Month too.   I have only The Renaissance Festival and One Event Calendared for February that is Recreational and not Medical, Fun Times.  *Le Sigh*   Once I get all this Medical shit out of the way tho', more Recreational Plans are going to be given a Priority.  I also have to make Time to go to the Gym with regularity, I haven't been back since that Saturday I got turned away due to restricted Senior Member Hours on the Weekend being ridiculous.  I can go after 9:00 in the Morning on a Weekday, but I've had too many Appointments to squeeze a Workout in before any Tests, Labs and Doc Appointments after my Stroke and Hospital Release.  So, it's just been hard to coordinate regular consistent Workout Time yet.   I will tho'.

I was looking in the Way-Back Machine Photo Archives I'd Saved from Blog Friends who no longer Blog, but I keep in Touch with via The Book Of Faces now.   This Necklace was made by a Friend whose Madly Talented and I've Loved her Unique Aesthetic since the early 2000's.  I do Wish they all still Blogged, so many great Bloggers fell away and left The Land Of Blog and never came back.   Most of them still do Events or have Booths at Antique Malls in their Communities across the Country, but, I still miss their Blogs, it's how I really got to Know most of them beyond what they Sell or Create.  And formed Friendships that have lasted now for Decades in some cases.   Others fell away so Mysteriously that they're completely Off the Grid and I have no idea what happened to them?   I just always Hope their Story is having a Happy or Fairy Tale Ending of "And They Are Living Happily Ever After",  and not a Tragic One?

And speaking of Epic Tragedies.  Well, now the Regime wants to Own Gaza, remove the Surviving Palestinians, if they can't manage a complete Genocide, bulldoze the War carnage and build a Beach Resort for their obscenely Wealthy Friends.  Why did I see that coming?   Probably for the same reasons none of this really Surprises me at all, now they have been Installed and everyone seems impotent to stop them and shut down the Shitshow.   He's shipping off American Prisoners to Banana Republics for a Fee.  Their Families will never see or hear from them again... and I doubt any American Prisoners can or will Survive the types of Prisons those Countries run.  And, pretty sure it'll be all the Prisoners of Color.  And who knows, perhaps all the "Political Prisoners" he'll be locking up coz they oppose him, he'll Offshore Warehouse them too and make them Disappear.

 I'm not being hyperbolic.   I have Stolen... um, I mean Borrowed, a Brilliant Word from a fellow Blogger for all that is happening Daily now, "Dramedy", and Spellchecker recognizes that Word, who knew?  He knew!  I'm learning New Words all the time, especially Helpful when I just have no Words that are adequate for what is happening in our Country.  It's fallen without a Bullet being shot, Lost in a single Election from Enemies within, or Ignorance within, mebbe some of both I would imagine.  The Daughter has been in Mexican Prisons and Jails, and Prisons and Jails in America, she says that American Prisons and Jails are like a Fancy Country Club Resort by comparison.  In most of them, if you don't have Family bringing in your Food, you don't Eat.  And they're better than the South American Prisons Diaper DonOld is now considering Exporting American Prisoners to apparently, like El Salvador!  My Friend Arleene at the DA's Office was Born and Raised in El Salvador and her Family sought and were granted Asylum in America, her Stories of her Country of Origin were beyond horrific!

Speaking of The Daughter, she came back from another Yard Job.  She got Paid $100, but it was all Day and very hard Work clearing out an overgrown Irrigation Ditch for another Mini Farm, among other Yard Work on their Acreage.   She's lost about 25 Lbs. from all the hard Labor she's been doing for Months now.  To make ends barely meet for basic essentials she doesn't want us having the hardship of providing for her.  She said they fed them too and gave them some Ahhhmazing Pulled Pork, so she brought enuf Home to make Dinner for us on some Toasted Hamburger Sesame Buns, it was in a Word, Sublime!   If it wasn't Homemade Pulled Pork I Need to know where the Family bought it from?!   It might be the very best Pulled Pork Sammie I've ever had, and I've had some excellent ones.   It also meant I didn't hafta cook Dinner and there was no Goat Chili Leftovers now, so, Lazy me, I was also Grateful.  *Smiles*  

The Goat Chili scant Leftovers was consumed by this Morning.  Princess T had it for BREAKFAST!!!   That's when you Know your Chili was damned Good, when a very fussy Teenager, who only Likes about Four Foods on the Planet, is eating it for Breakfast! *LMAOROTF*  We did do some more Environmental Cleanup, since it was over 80 Degrees again and a Glorious Sunny Day to be Outside in doing something Positive that we enjoy doing.   There's an operational Dairy which also has an Old, long since non-operational Horse Ranch, that we went along the parameters of this Day and picked up all the discarded Aluminum Cans outside of their Exterior Corrals.  There was a lot of it, I don't think anyone had ever done any Cleanup before this, so we hauled about 20 Lbs. or so of Cans off.   

The Dairy Farmer still has a lot of Cows, but Residential Subdivision Hells are quickly encroaching around his Property and will soon complain about his long-time Business and the smell.  He quit Raising Horses some time ago.  But the Exercise Track still exists around the Parameter of his Acreage.   He's one of the few Dairies still inside City Limits left, the rest, along with the Egg Ranches, have long since been forced to move even further Southwest of here.   The Agriculture that used to dominate the West Valley Landscape, is a thing of the Past now, as a Sea of Cookie Cutter Subdivisions and massive hideous Apartment Complexes now stretches as far as the Eyes can see, and Urban Sprawl continues unabated.   I don't know where all the people are coming FROM to occupy all these new Builds, but they're expecting a massive Exodus from SOMEWHERE, clearly?!  Most of these new Apartment Complexes resemble Chinese Prisons with Thousands of Units!  And if the Population explodes, we WILL run out of Water, this is a Desert and Metro Phoenix shouldn't even Exist at the Size it already is, which is give or take, about Five Million.

And, it's not AS IF it's bringing Affordable Housing to the Locals already here, who can't afford current Rents, they are Priced in the Stratosphere even tho' they're not that Special!   The Son keeps checking out the massive new Complexes to see if he could afford one, he can't.  None of his Friends can either and his Friend Q just told us he had to give up his Apartment coz the Rent just increased too much to afford.  So now he, his Wife and Two Kids are moving in with his Brother and Family!   This is the 3rd time they've had to Move in only Two Years due to Rental increases by Landlords!   He's trying to stay in the same School District and Community for his Sons benefit and his Work tho'.  The Son helped them to Move this past Weekend.   Q works for a very large Gravel Pit running and repairing all the massive Machinery used, so it's not like he doesn't have a good Job.  But, he still can't afford current Local Rents.

Q and The Son used to work together at the Gravel Pits {above}.  But The Son doesn't like the Work, it pays well, but the Mandatory Overtime means you have no Life beyond Work, and it's brutal.   All the Work is Outside, Dangerous and they expect 14 Hour Days 7 Days a Week, often starting at 4:00 a.m.!   He just didn't wanna do that anymore, but Q has stuck with it.  So, the fact someone working that Hard, that Long, at Skilled Labor, and STILL can't afford a fucking Apartment, is ridiculous.   Q said it makes him feel very depressed at times and he doesn't get to spend much time with his Wife or with his Boys, and he's an exceptional Father who dotes on those Boys.   He's the type of Dad to take them Fishing and Camping, to do Sports and whatever they are interested in doing... yet, Working those kinds of Hours, he has to Squeeze it in and use his Vacation Time to do it.

Q recently took some Vacation time to spend with his Wife and Kids, he also came to the House for a BBQ and to visit, so the Guys were hamming it up for my Pathological Picture Taking.   I always have them do all my Muscle Work when they're over here, since, well, Stud Muffins who are strong as Oxen are mighty handy here on the Ole' Mini Farm when I have them amenable to performing chores for me.   I can delegate like a Pro.   I 'Paid' them in BBQ and Alcohol, the Currency preferred of Young Men when Moms need something done and no Cash will exchange Hands. *LOL and Winks*   Q calls me Mom and most people don't know he's not another Son of ours actually.  I've known him since he and The Son were Toddlers and he IS like Family.  So, they're like Brothers from other Mothers anyway.   When he's come to visit me even in Hospital he just tells them he's my Son.  *LOL*   If he and The Son shaved off those silly Beards, they'd still look like they're in their 20's.  Nobody ever Believes they're almost 40 now.

But, we've got Grandkids who are Middle Aged now, where the Hell does all that Time GO?!   Lord Jesus... it's like I got stuck in some Time Warp and didn't realize Time did NOT stand Still!!!  *Le Sigh and LOL*   The Guys were here at the BBQ talking about how they're "Getting Too Old" for the really Hard Physical Manual Work now, and are the Old Guys on The Jobs... and I'm like, this is MY Baby talking, WTF!!!!!!!!!?????? *LOL*   And, it was Funny when The Grandsons were still living here and I'd be having The Son and his Friends helping to do the really Physical shit too.   And Allen would be like, "Gramma, aren't they too OLD for you to be asking them to do that?  I'll do it for you, I don't want them to risk getting hurt!"  Coz, he's strong as an Ox too and under 30 still.  And The Young Prince would just say, "I'm just Surprised my Gramma isn't still doing it herself, she's as strong as any of us!"  *LMAOROTF*  Yeah, but just coz I CAN still do it, and still have the Muscle to, doesn't mean I SHOULD!  *Bwahahaha*

As a matter of fact, now The Son gets MAD at me if I'm doing anything stupidly Physical, and will give me a LOOK like this and say, in his best Borat Impersonation, "What ARE you doing Old Crazy Gypsy Woman!?!" He has gotten so Protective since this Stupid Stroke, that I almost can't stand it!   You'd think I had a Foot already in the fucking Grave by how concerned he's acting when I try to do anything now and how upset he gets, and worse, how SERIOUS!!!   OMG, us Gals will be having hearty Dark Gallow's Humor Laughs about it, Yes, it's inappropriate, we don't Care   The Son and The Man are like, "That's NOT Funny!"  Which just makes it FUNNIER!  Like the Goat Chili turning out SOOO Good and Princess T comments, "Pretty Good for No Stroke Chili!  But, I did Like your Stroke Chili Best Gramma!"   And we Laugh and Laugh, but The Guys aren't Laughing and get actually upset with us. 

 Coz The Daughter, Granddaughter and I are rolling with Laughter 'til our Sides and Belly Muscles hurt and Tears are streaming down our Faces, we can't Stop.  The more Upset they get the Funnier it even IS!   We can't Help how Twisted we are about what we can find Humor in.  And I'm Thankful I'm not the only one who can Laugh about this shit, coz Laughter IS like a Good Medicine.   That's Biblical BTW, or at least I Think so?  *Bwahahahaha*   Proverbs 17:22, just Googled it.  *LOL*  Pretty sure Scientifically and Medically, Laughter is Helpful, so, Why Not Laugh about shit, even if it's not appropriately Funny?  *Winks*  It's better than Crying over all this shit, that's for sure.  That just wouldn't even be Helpful or Beneficial at all.   Plus, after a good Laugh I feel great and appear more Radiant, after a big snotty Cry I feel dreadful and look terrible too!  *Smiles*

I went and got my Oil and Filter changed on the Truck this Morning, I have Four Years of Free Oil/Filter Changes when I Purchased it.  The Car Salesman who Sold it to us is a Sweetheart and always comes up to talk with us.  Their Service Dept. is wonderful at this Dealership too, and while you're waiting they have a comfortable area with Big Screen TV and Free Gourmet Coffee Machine.  It's just a couple Blocks from Home as well, so if we wanted to, they'd take us Home and then pick us back up when the Vehicle is ready if we didn't want to wait.   I've got just over 10,000 Miles on the Truck now and I do Love the 2024 Nissan Frontiers, they greatly improved them from 2019, which was my Trade In Nissan Frontier.   Both Purchases the Terms were excellent too.  I used to always have Paid Off Vehicles and Paid Off Homes.  That's getting harder to do now that we had to Sell the last Paid Off Home to be able to Adopt The G-Kid Force and The Man's Catastrophic Accident was in my last Paid Off Truck.  Shit happens... you just Move On...

I don't think any of my Carefully made Retirement Plans accounted for the shit that just happens and you can't Plan for.  Que sera sera.   I don't even Plan my Blog Posts now, I pretty much take Life just One Day At a Time.   And some Bloggers are confessing that they are telling themselves and reciting Mantras that they will not Talk or Write about our current Politics, they will not, they will not, they will not.  Yet, how can we NOT, and so, they do, becoz it's just necessary, isn't it?  We can't avoid or ignore it.  All happening so much faster than we could have possibly Imagined and it's extremely unsettling what they've already gotten away with and our Government has been absolutely impotent to shut down the Shitshow and stop any of it!   Yes, they're running it thru the Court System.  Which, BTW has also been seriously corrupted all the way up to the Supreme Court, so... Good Luck with that!   Plus, do you know how long it takes to run anything thru the DOJ?  I do.  So, it's not making me feel the least bit Encouraged lemme tell ya.

And, more importantly, if they do nothing to the Perps, especially the most Lawless ones who won't abide by anything Lawful anymore, coz they'd just be Pardoned like all the January Sixers, and most especially the sitting President, whose been given complete Immunity to commit any Crime he wants to, what IS The Point?  I'll wait...   My Thoughts turn very Dark about what could be a Solution, so, I won't even Go There.  If in only 2 Weeks this much damage has already been done without a single consequence, then, each Day they are ascending is not gonna get better, that's for damned sure.   And as they shut Media down, perhaps the only way we'll even know what's going on is Word of Mouth and thru the Social Grapevine.   I Hope you have your Reliable Sources that go up the Food Chain and haven't yet been consumed or compromised becoz they joined Ranks to Save themselves and curry Favor with the Devils?  I'm not Selling my Soul to any Devil.

Today I think I'll just Focus on sorting thru some possessions and vigorously Downsizing.  Perhaps a Useless Project at this juncture, but, whatever... it keeps me busy and distracted enuf to remain semi-sane and less Broody.   Is it a Priority anymore, Nope, it isn't.  I'd be lying if I said it remained on my List of Priorities as High as it used to be, it has dropped down The List considerably.  I don't even Care if I Complete it now, tho' it is still a Goal to, I have no Timeline now I'm shooting for.  If it doesn't happen in 2025 I could be Okay with how far we've gotten.  I haven't told The Family that, but I suspect my Avoidance has been a Clue and Why they are always asking me now if I'm Okay?  The Short Answer to that is NO.   Not Okay.  Trying NOT to just go Mental and see what happens?  *Winks*   I Plan to be very fucking Expensive if and when that happens and there's no getting or bringing me back and I'm completely Broken.  That's actually a Thought that makes me Feel good. *Bwahahahaha*

You see, there's no Downside in my Thought Process to deter me if or when that actually might happen.  And, truly, it Could Happen.   How heavily Sedated would they Need me to be to Manage me?   Very, I Suspect, from Experience.  *Winks and Snicker*  And then, I Metabolize shit quite differently than they expect and give less of a Shit, so, it can get Interesting and quite Hairy.  So, I really do not Care if I go Wheels Off during this whole Political Shitshow.  They will have to figure out in Real Time how to Deal with all the Americans completely Losing It on account of making things Hopeless for the 99% and that's gonna be an Epic Task, no doubts about THAT!  They already aren't Thinking Thru the consequences beyond just implementing reckless and foolish shit they're already doing and rolling out on The Fly.  So, they just clearly aren't Solution Oriented whatsoever to Deal with whatever they Create... and the Monster they're Creating for themselves to Deal with later is formidable.  They clearly have no Idea.

I suspect Elon will just flee the Country once he's sufficiently Fleeced it.  He's already the Richest Man in the World and has now Stolen the most valuable Data to Sell on the Planet.   It's not like any Country wouldn't Welcome him with Open Arms if he threw enough Money at them, that's how Governments tend to Work, just Follow The Money.   And, he wasn't Born here and I doubt is all that attached to America, if at all.  He got in thru the Back Door since he knew he couldn't be Elected and he duped all the Right Americans to just let him in and do whatever he wanted.  Pretty sure various Payoffs were involved, Trace the Money, it should be quite Interesting what Offshore Accounts various Politicians have that he fattened or what Debts he's Paying that they Owe and can't Pay, including Felonious Don who Owes a LOT of Bad Actors a shitload of Money, plus all the Victims awarded huge Judgments for Crimes that he can't Erase... it's up past $500 Million and Counting just for that.

The Daughter {Above at a Home she Helped the Resident Move from}, feels one of his own will take him out, she could be Right?  There's just some shit even Bad Actors don't Dare to do if they're Smart, and he's NOT Smart.  We already know some International Bad Actors had put a Bounty on him for Offenses they won't Forgive or Forget, he's Crossed, Threatened and Sold Out some of the Wrong folks.   And those sorts are tenacious and relentless, I'll give 'em that.  So, I do think he won't last long, definitely not a whole Term, which won't be the end of America's Troubles by any means.   Even if by Natural Selection he succumbs to his own Bad Habits and keeps Mentally declining to the point of not only shitting his Diapers, but drooling all over himself at some point, he's installed some serious Bad Actors to replace him.  They might try the whole Weekend At Bernie's with him for a Minute, if they think that would still be Useful for continued Manipulation of his Devoted.  But Trust and Believe behind the Curtains, the most insidious folks already have Backup Plans to their Backup Plans too, without him.  And, The Cult, they really never needed to Weaponize further after all, did they?  All were just Useful Idiots.

  And Fish that got reeled in coz they bought the Lies and Con, Hook, Line and Sinker.  I don't feel Sorry for anyone he got on The Line and Hooked.  I'm in my Golden Winter Years so it doesn't really impact me as much as it does our Future Generations.  Who now have been so utterly betrayed by what their Future now looks like in America.   They will have to Be The Change now and forcefully so.   Whatever the Young People have to do now to ensure they even have a Future, I would fully Support their endeavors to do so.  They deserve better and have been Sold Out, and most of them aren't even Old enuf to Vote yet, so, they had no Voice and no Options available to them.   And it really does concern me for my Kids, Grandkids and Great-Grandkids who will be on this Planet long after I'm probably exiting it and going on to whatever Realm awaits us in the Afterlife?  I won't go Deep into the Weeds there, but, frankly, it's looking preferable by the Day, isn't it?  *LOL*

There's many that have Gone On Before us and hanging out with whatever Energy they Changed Form as would be preferable to all of this Fuckery.   I am a Firm Believer that Energy never Dies, it just Changes Form.  That doesn't even have to be Spiritual if you don't want it to be, could be Scientific perhaps?  *Winks*  I don't really Care which it is actually.   I'm Feeling rather like my Great-Grandson, Picture Below, where, No, We don't wanna LOOK!   So are just Peeking Out from Time to Time.  *Bwahahahaha*  Hey, it Works for me.   I decided to do something last Night for the 1st time since the Takeover.   I will watch some of the more reliable News Channels so long as, and until they show "It's Face" or I Hear "It's Voice", and then I Change The Channel immediately.   This Works for me to keep Informed Just Enough, but not Too Much that my Head Explodes and I potentially Stroke Out again or completely Lose my Shit and go Wheels Off Mental.  *Winks*

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Limit your Exposure to whatever you can Peek at without Imploding too my Friends... Dawn... The Bohemian