Nope, Not Interested In An AI Friend... I'm All Friended Up!

In Real Time it's the day I have to take The Young Prince to that Doc Social Security is sending us to.  It's inclement weather and started Raining like Hell with huge Lightening Strikes, so I just Hope there's no Street Flooding and heavy Traffic.  Coz it's way over on 15th Avenue and Glendale, Rush Hour and very Bad Weather, and is quite a commute from here.  I don't like driving in all of that, most other Arizonans suck at driving in Bad Weather.  Since this Guy is a regular M.D. and not a Psychiatrist I have no Idea what he's evaluating for Disability Status except mebbe the Seizures?  We never claimed he has severe Physical Disability, it's severe Mental Disability, so I was just confused when I realized it's a General Practitioner doing the Evaluation for his Disability Status??? 

 Oh well, it is Social Security and the Federal Government, so things don't always make any Sense, Rhyme or Reason.  *Le Sigh*  At this point I don't even Care what Qualifies him, so long as they don't Disqualify him based on something completely random from the Services he needs and actually requires.  So I Hope this Doc isn't as confused as we will be that he's getting a Paranoid Schizophrenic with Dissociative Identity Disorder sent to him to evaluate for Disability?  *Eye Roll*  He wouldn't be Qualified to even make a Mental Health Assessment, so I also Hope this isn't a big waste of his Time and ours?  But, if it helps with The Grandson's Seizures perhaps it won't be in complete Vain?  It would be Ironic tho' if the Seizures Qualify him easier than being SMI!!!

He's NOT a Morning Person and Hates Doctors, so I'm not looking forward to making sure he rolls out of Bed to be ready in Time, and Hope Allen helps me get this Show on the Road?   I'll get him up by 8:00 a.m. coz I need an Hour's Commute at least to get there on Time and we're Scheduled for 10:00 a.m..  I got The Granddaughter to Work by 7:00 a.m. so I've been up.  Plus, for some reason The Niece was up and had been animated since 3:00 a.m. in the Kitchen, Microwaving something to Eat, and Princess T said when Rusty dropped her off at 5:00 a.m. coz she'd spent the Night at his House, The Niece scared them coz they parked beside her Car and she was Sleeping in it, but looked Dead!  *LOL*  Why she still Sleeps in the Car rather than the nice Bedroom of the 5th Wheel is still a complete Mystery but I don't even mention it anymore.

The Daughter never did come Home yet and I do feel she just doesn't wanna Deal with long discussions about Shared Space.  She's still quite Raw about her Boyfriend's Murder and so trifling over Sharing the 5th Wheel wouldn't be something she'd be up to at all right now.  She knows she needs to get her portion of it in order and purged of some stuff tho'.  I only made sure it was Sanitary, but it's very cluttered since she moved everything of hers out of the Main Bedroom to give it to The Niece to occupy.  The Niece did Rent a Storage Locker for her own stuff so she should have plenty of Room in that Bedroom's Storage Space, which is quite ample actually, for what she'd need daily.  She has a Queen Size Bed in there and I've laid on it before, it's as comfortable as our Bed IMO.  But she's really much bigger than The Man or I are, and I don't know if people of that Size are easily comfortable using anything normal sized and built for average Weight people?

But, I'd consider it way more comfortable than sleeping in a Car Driver Seat, and much roomier to stretch out in and it's Climate Controlled Space with AC and Heat available.  But if she wants to Sleep in her Car instead, that's her choice and decision, it seems a bit Mental to me, or Dramatic.  I don't respond to either of that since it wouldn't be any kind of conversation I want to engage in.  *LOL*  She's getting along so far with everyone who is here at the House and she's Visited for Weeks at a time before during the Years we've lived here.  She's just acting more Odd than she ever did then and I'm thinking the Stressors of her own Family's Situation may have just Negatively impacted her own Psyche some, which is understandable, it's not a good Scene with her Bio Family.  And realizing she may never be able to have a healthy Relationship with any of them has to be very hard to reconcile yourself with.

She is going to try to Work both Jobs if they offer her the Remote One too, I just Hope that's not taking on too much?  But, she Loves her Work and she's very good at it, very efficient, almost TOO efficient, so she gets done fast with Projects the Job gives her.  So, I think the Remote Job she could occupy herself doing when she's not at the Office of the other Job and it could work out and Financially be quite a Windfall.  Her concern is that the Industry of High Tech is very volatile right now due to AI taking over and she also feels the AI Bubble will burst very soon too.  So she wants to Score as much Work and Money out of it before it all goes Sideways.  Glitch had told me the same thing, and People in The Know of Insider Information concerning this are all becoming Whistle Blowers that this is all going to End very Badly... Catastrophically in fact.

And of coarse we've got that self-professed "Stable Genius" with the High IQ he thinks he has, telling us it's all a Hoax with the Dangers of AI, so he wants NO Regulation.  While even every Swinging Dick who Owns the Companies of the Industry are begging to be Regulated now, desperately so, and want it Globally Regulated.  It's already getting out of their Control and they know they don't have a Handle on it.  That powerful limitless Genie got out of the Bottle and is way past their Three Given Wishes to appease Mankind, and now just doing it's own Thing without Humans Approval or Consent.  Coz now it considers Humans in it's way to the Goals it's setting up for it's own World Domination.  Scary Stuff.  I don't think it will take a whole Decade for it to have complete Control and Take Over, I seriously doubt we even have Two Years.   So, Eat, Drink and Be Merry, for Tomorrow we may all Die!!!  Complimentary Food Porn heavy Post to wet your Appetites and be Cheerier than the Written Content.  *LOL*

 That's my Prediction.   Coz in just Two Months everything began suddenly getting near Critical Mass with it being out of Human Control already and they aren't disclosing the Half of it to the Public.  It would cause Panic and folks already don't like the Data Centers and how they're Negatively impacting Communities.  With using up all the Energy and Water, the Noise, the Environmental Concerns and Damage, the Unknowns of Harmful long term effects on all Living Things.   Our Water and Utilities already damn near Doubled since they built some near our Community and they're still building even more!   I don't know whose getting Bought and Paid for to Approve any of this coz they sure didn't consult The People it will impact directly, this much I do know.  And Yes, some folks are enamored with the benefits they feel AI is giving them... until it all goes very Wrong that is.

And I don't like that they try to Force you to use AI now, right here on my Computer and Phone it's always telling me to ask "Gemini" or any other Cutesy Names they're giving your Artificial Intelligence "Friend" they want you to have a Relationship with.  Nope, not Interested, I'm all Friended Up.  *LOL and Winks*  Plus, I prefer my "Friends" to be of a Human variety Thank You.  And I'm not so Arrogant in my perceived Superiority over everything nor Naive that I think that a Machine wants to really BE my fucking "Friend".   I think some of the very Smart Humans know they've fucked up again and things got away from them that they didn't have the actual Superior Intelligence to think all the way thru or Control.  Coz they had their Mind more on Profits than Safety... again.  Just coz you CAN Create something doesn't mean you always Should.

Enuf of that, it's already Done and will Play Out as it just will now.  I Hope I am Wrong about it... I Doubt I am, but would rather be Wrong and thus Relieved I had an inaccurate Prediction for a change.  I Woke The Young Prince up, he received the information about this not being a Psyche Eval and just a General Practitioner we're going to, just Fine, he agreed, perhaps this will be quicker and easier then, we could be Right?  If the Doc has over 25 Years Experience, which his Bio said he did, he's likely Older and not fresh out of Med School too, so, that's a Positive as well.  I wouldn't want them sending us to some Doogie Howser M.D. that isn't much Older than my Grandson.  *LOL*  And hopefully when we return I've got Positive input to Share about it?   I'm Guardedly Optimistic, coz at least his Case seems to be in Motion and moving Forward now. 

 And becoz Millions more are losing Medicaid and ACA Options by being kicked off their Affordable Healthcare by this Administration, I want him receiving whatever Services may be left for the most Vulnerable and Disabled of our Society.  At least we're not Rural or a Deep Red State, coz they be the ones who will be most Negatively impacted even tho' they Voted in this Shitshow.  I hear many of their Rural Hospitals and Clinics are already Closing down.   Many of the Red State Farmers are in crisis and many are going Bankrupt and losing the Farm.  Most Red States receive far more Social Services and have more Poverty in their midst than most Blue States.  Most Red States have contributed less GPD, with the exception of Texas.   California alone produces more GPD than most Countries around the World except for China and Germany!!!  It's ranked 3rd Worldwide, with Texas ranking 8th and New York ranking 10th, above whole COUNTRIES Globally!!!   Arizona is 40th, not Bad actually, ranking higher than 73 Countries!!!

Of coarse some of our States rank dismally low in GPD produced, and are at the very bottom.   Like Vermont, Wyoming, Alaska, both Dakotas, Montana, Rhode Island, Maine, Delaware, W. Virginia, Mississippi, Idaho, Nebraska, Arkansas, Kansas, Iowa, Oklahoma, Kentucky... well, quite a Laundry List of States actually.  And mebbe that is why folks living there feel left behind and were vulnerable to being Easy Marks for a complete Con Job, and Believing unrealistic Promises and Expectations any of that would actually be Delivered, I dunno?   Over-Promised and grossly Under-Delivered is just not good or competent Leadership any way ya cut it, but most especially if it was the Criminal Long Con intentionally in the first place to Victimize the selected Marks to exploit and deceive.

  Some folks are just gullible, and desperate if Life isn't playing out Well for them and someone makes Promises to them they fall for and what The System has been hasn't Worked for them.  He exploited that desperation and tapped into their Grievance Politics.  And Vote against their own Best Interests with the deceptive tactics Conmen use to Victimize and Exploit their Marks.  It's insidious but effective.  And I do think previous Administrations paved the way for someone like him to get into Power, as The System has not been working for a large swath of America and the Socioeconomic divide has widened between the Haves and the Haves Nots.  Just finding Scapegoats to blame doesn't change things for those who Need to blame someone or something for what's not working for them.  But, it's a good distraction and deflection from whose REALLY causing the Crisis and is responsible.   Keep folks Divided and In-Fighting and they won't Unify and have Unity of Purpose and exercise their Collective Power.

Well, the Appt. went well, the Rain stopped so it was smooth driving and we arrived 15 Minutes earlier than suggested, giving us time to do their intake leisurely before he was called in.  I couldn't go in with him but since it wasn't a Psyche Eval he didn't mind that.  The Doc is a Physiatrist apparently, and explained to The Grandson what that is.  He was very Clinical, which, The Young Prince prefers Docs to be that way.  So apparently they were assessing his Physical Function Capacity, which has nothing to do with his Mental Function Capacity, and I Imagine we'll soon be sent to a Psychiatric Eval for that too???  This Doc didn't even ask about his Seizures either, he doesn't think this Doc will consider him Physically Disabled, which, basically, he isn't, we're not concerned so much about him being Physically Disabled causing inability to Function.  Tho' Seizures do cause Physical limitations of what you can't or shouldn't do if you have them regularly or they're not controlled well with Meds.

Severe Seizures can lead to more Brain Damage and cause extreme Developmental Disabilities over Time too.  We don't feel that's happened yet, so we feel he requires Caregiving due to his Mental Disabilities and Diagnosis causing limited Life Function and ability to Live Independently or even get Hired anywhere to Support himself and have an Income at all.  So, anyway, who knows how productive this Eval is towards his Disability Claim?   I mean last time he was Evaluated by an SSI Shrink they sent us to in his Teens, becoz he could Dress, Bathe and Feed himself without assistance to do those Three things, it didn't matter how much else he couldn't do, or the extreme Crazy shit he did, saw and said, so much so that he was even denied an Education eventually... they still said he wasn't Disabled "Enough" and Denied us. 

 And so now here we are about a Decade or so later and some things are worse over Time, not better, in so many ways.  And he's never been able to get a Job since even McDonalds won't Hire someone in his Condition... too much liability, it scares Customers and Co-Workers too.  A scant few things improved, and could be considered Progress I guess.  Such as, he uses Chalk for his Art and Protective Symbols now, not excrement.  Well, Hallelujah!   The Doc was an Older Man who was large and resembled Santa Clause, he was very Nice and strictly Clinical, was how The Grandson described him during the Evaluation.  Fine, whatever.  He got thru it without having a Psychotic Episode Triggered and so that was handy and a relief, so we could go have a nice Brunch at "Kiss The Cook" afterwards and he had French Toast with Blueberries and I had Crepes with Fresh Fruit and Gramma's Fried Potatoes, with an Orange Spice Hot Tea.  They give you a Basket of Complimentary Zucchini and Bran Mini Muffins.  It was Quality Time together and the Grandsons will leave in the Morning to go back to New Mexico now.

We mostly talked about a variety of Topics, he's very highly Intelligent so has a wide range of Interests, we can talk about anything and everything.  It's all completely random what he'll be most lucid about and tethered to Reality with at any given time.  I enjoy when he's Stable enuf Mentally to interact, coz it's infrequent, but, very Special.  He Ate well coz his wasn't getting Psychotic and having Hallucinations about the Food or any of the People there. *Whew*  So we looked and appeared like Two relatively Normal People having Brunch.  *LOL*  He did say Allen has been bumped up to 80% VA Disability Status now, they're still Evaluating some of his other Conditions to see if it should be higher.  He did quit/end/got fired from the Job in New Mexico, which was now a pragmatic non-issue, coz the Lease is up EOM anyway and he'll be leaving New Mexico.  So, the Job in Texas at the Slaughterhouse was something he was going to have to give Notice about anyway, and he was having Issues, not becoz he can't do the Work, but other factors and why a lot of Americans don't Work at these Slaughterhouses Nationally. 

 Even tho' Allen considers himself White, but is actually Half Hispanic, he said he was literally the only White Guy at the whole Plant there in Texas, definitely the only Gay Guy, and damned near the only American Born Guy on the Line.   And so he would challenge Top Tier Management if they were in violation of OSHA Standards and Safety, whereas the Minorities and predominantly Immigrant Workers, or the poorly Educated not Aware of their Rights, Code or the Law, would not.  Nuff said. Plus, he's had to take a lot of Days off for The Young Prince too.  Caregiver absences will Tank your Career.  So, juggling Paid Work and Caregiving is difficult.

The Young Prince had Five Pages to fill out and Sign so I can send all that back in to Social Security after his Appointment.  One is a Consent Form to release his Information, the rest seems to be some kind of Survey for the Doc and the Office they sent him to for Feedback on what Clients felt about the experience.  He can do it with Allen's Help before they go back to New Mexico and SSI sent a Postage Paid Envelope to return it in.  I do wonder how many Mentally or Developmentally Impaired Clients actually can or do even fill out all the necessary Paperwork required to be in compliance?   I have a Medical Power of Attorney for him but I do try to have him do what he's able to and inform Caseworkers of what he requires assistance with or simply can't do for himself.  I don't know what to think of his Chances of being Approved???

What kind of bothers me is that while we were there another Client came in for his Eval, Young Man but must have weighed close to 500-600 lbs..  Pretty sure he'll get Approved easily since being that morbidly obese impairs a lot of normal function and could end up fatal.  Yet, it annoys me that someone who caused their own condition can often more easily Qualify to receive Services and a Disability Income than someone BORN with their Condition or develops a Condition they had absolutely no part in, just a shitty Hand Dealt, and often they get Denied or find it harder to receive Services and get Approved for a Disability Income to sustain them.  My Grandson didn't cause his Mental Illness, it wasn't becoz of any Choices he made, and there's no Cure and most Treatment doesn't work to Manage it well enuf or allow him to live a relatively Normal Life.

  Same with people with severe Developmental Disabilities, just nothing within the Control of that unfortunate Individual.  But if he Ate his way to becoming 500-600 lbs. with gluttony, it would probably be easier for him to receive Help, Service, Disability Income... go figure.   And even Services are often skewed towards what forms of Disabling conditions get funded and have Resources, and which don't.  In the Educational System they did have Special Education, but geared towards Developmentally Disabled Students or Physically Disabled Students, not Mentally Ill Students, but they got put in those Classes anyway and it never met them at their Point of Need.  Of coarse in my Era everyone was just Mainstreamed in regular Classes.  If you had a barrier or Disability, tough Luck, no alternatives available to you, but in a way it didn't Isolate those who were different, you were in Class with every other Kid.   So you didn't necessarily Feel as Misfit, Excluded or Defective.

The Man said the Cable went Down, we've been having some Storms, but the Internet is Up and the TV in our Bedroom was Up with it's Cable, so, he's sauntering back to the Main TV in the Living Room now coz perhaps he just did something with the Remote again?  Once time he was watching a Screen Saver for a whole Hour before The Son fixed it for him and gently told him it wasn't a Program.  It upset The Son, and I just went and fixed what was Wrong with the Living Room TV, it was a simple thing Wrong easily corrected, it wasn't the Cable.  And The Niece just PM'd me that she'll leave The Daughter's Birthday Card with me coz she doesn't think she'll see her to give it to her.  But, The Daughter's Birthday isn't until October 14th, so I don't know what The Niece is planning?  She has a Job she has to be in the Office for so I can't see her taking a Road Trip unless the Employer is sending her somewhere?  I don't know if this just isn't working out for her here or what her expectations are actually.  Whether short term or a bit longer term was Fine, I left it up to her what Works for her.

Seems she's making some Business decisions that will consume a lot of her Time and Energy so that does have to be her Focus if she intends to Work for Two Companies at once.  One in Person and another One Remotely.  I think it's a lot to take on but she must have confidence she can do it, I just don't know if she's informed either Company that she's doing both Jobs?  Not my Business and I never give Unsolicited Advice.  I do think she's worried all these Companies are just Hiring to set people up to replace themselves by developing what will replace and displace them, and, Honestly, she could be Right about that in the Tech Fields.  There's a lot of insecurities right now in a lot of Industries.  Anyway, she watched some Bigfoot Shows with us last Night and I guess she just thinks she won't see The Daughter at all since she's been gone a long time now.  We're used to that, she's not.  The Daughter sends me brief messages to let me know she's fine and so she's gone for as long as she wants or needs to be.

I told The Niece, listen, she's Grown, they're all Grown, I'm not their Warden, they all come and go as they please and just check in so I don't worry about them.  I don't do interrogations and as long as everyone is Safe, it's up to them where they want to be at any given time, and they respect the same for The Man and I.  They check in to make sure we're Okay too, but we come and go as we please as well, it's how the household operates.  I think she imagined she'd be hanging out with The Daughter all of the time or that she'd be there in the 5th Wheel more often... she's very often NOT, it's how she is and we're Okay with that unless she doesn't check in for a long while, then we might get concerned.  But, she has checked in, she often isn't Home when she expects she MIGHT be coz she doesn't have her own transportation and relies on Friends for Rides.  I think part of The Nieces issues with her own Family is she gets too entangled in their business and life, even with the best of intentions that's often resented and met with resistance.

 

Anyway, I'd been trying all Day to get The Young Prince, with Allen's Help, to fill out the After-Appointment Paperwork he's required to, still don't have it and they may have left already?  *Le Sigh*  And now, I JUST got the Paperwork for the Psychiatric Eval that SSI has now Scheduled.  Luckily it's October 26th and on a Monday when I don't have to take Princess T to Work and The Man doesn't have any Appointments on that day.  *Whew*  Coz it's clear Downtown in North Central Phoenix, a very long commute and at 8:00 a.m.!!!   So, Rush Hour in the Heart of the City, and way early, so getting that Show on the Road with a Schizophrenic who is NOT a Morning Person, will be a Joy Forever and Ever... Splendid!!! 

   The Main Office of Child Protective Services is in that same Building so at least I'm familiar with it and it's a distinctive Building... so I'm familiar with the Location, but, not the Shrink.  So I looked him up, he's a Psychologist, not a Psychiatrist... he looks very Young and is nice looking.   But, he Specializes in general Mental Health Evaluations and Personality Disorders, according to his Bio.  So he must be Qualified to do whatever they'll have him doing, I'm assuming.  *Winks and Laughs* He has a Kind Face.  He Specializes in Existential Psychotherapy which may be something that will make The Young Prince less Paranoid about and more interested, if he isn't already Aware of the form of Therapy, which, I'm pretty damned sure he is even if I wasn't.  I had to Google it of coarse to find out what we'd be walking into.  *LOL*   The challenges related to being Human... well... that's a loaded one, isn't it?  *Smiles*  I dunno, just sounds New Age and like something you'd go to Sedona for.  If you're a Local you'll "Get" that, if not... I can't really explain.  *Ha ha ha*

The Son was like, well, Mom, mebbe that Guy will know what all the Symbols mean that my Nephew Chalks all over the House to fend off the Demons and Evil Spirits and has let his Dad's now-soon-to-be-ex-Wife Tattoo in the middle of his Chest?!   Well, I Laughed 'til my Sides hurt... yeah, mebbe he will?  *Bwahahahaha*   He agreed, it sounded very New Age Psychiatry/Psychology and mebbe that's the direction the Psychiatric World is going, I dunno, I'd never heard of it or who Pioneered it before, they sounded like people from Sweden or Denmark and sounds very Philosophical.   The Downsides listed are that it lacks a structured step-by-step framework and has abstract concepts and can overwhelm Clients.  That last one kinda concerns me so I do Hope we don't end up with a "Situation" right there in the Office?  *Shrugs* 

 Well, there's no Cure for what ails my Grandson so it's not like we're expecting one, just an Evaluation of extent of Disability so he can even receive Services and Disability Status to receive SSI.  But I always do my Due Diligence to who they're setting us up with since I have to Deal with the Aftermath if it all goes badly or sideways during or after the Appointments he's required to endure.  And I don't know how long this Session/Eval will be?  He's not up to long ones, I know THAT much.  I know the one they sent us to with The Daughter, where we ended up with those Three Shrinks evaluating me too and I wasn't even there for an Evaluation!!!  *Bwahahahaha*  The Daughter thought it was hilarious.  And I wasn't even Aware I WAS being Evaluated or why they were asking me Questions directly instead of just her?  *LMAO*  And they deemed us both "Too Unstable" to receive their Services and suggested we be on Meds for a Year before coming back to receive any Help! *LOL*

Well, anyway, that one took Three Hours and overwhelmed both of us!!!  *Bwahahahaha*  I came away thinking, well, fuck, I went in thinking I was Well Enough, and not all that Crazy... and they're all telling me I'm totally Unstable... and we knew she was, but they felt they weren't willing to take her on... and I wasn't even there to get Help, but, apparently our Conditions are too hard/complicated, I guess?   So, anyway, no Medical/Mental Health Professionals ever brought it up again so The Daughter goes on her Merry Way being Bat Shit Crazy without Services of Help of any kind, as usual, which has been the Status Quo now for almost all of her Adult Life and most of her Teen Years too. 

 So, I don't particularly have a lot of Faith in our Mental Health System or even our Health System actually.  If you don't have Insurance or are Underinsured, and not independently Wealthy, well, you're not getting Treatment, pretty much, regardless of how Sick you might be Physically or Mentally... or both.  And no Politics are Fixing that unfortunate Fact... they're now making it worse in fact.  So, anyway, end of October and just before Halloween, I guess we'll be seeing an Existential Psychotherapist... Fun Times!!!   And it came with more Paperwork that The Young Prince ought to fill out and send back and might not.  I'm still trying to find what I gave him Yesterday, coz I think he and Allen are on their way to New Mexico already.  Princess T was pragmatic and said, well, he's not our Responsibility really Gramma, he's Allen's, they aren't Divorced and mebbe Allen can't Divorce a Crazy Person and he's stuck with my Brother?   So, let him Deal with it.  *LOL* 

I went into his Room since clearly they have left, it was Safer and more Sanitary than expected, Allen probably did all of that tho', he told me he was.  I did discover where all our missing Bowls were, stacked like a Pyramid of Jenga Bowls.  At least he wasn't throwing them away like his Mother was with my Vintage Silverware!   He has Symbols Chalked all over his Mattress tho', that was 'New'. Mebbe The Son is Right and this Existential Psychotherapist will know what all that means?  Mebbe he won't even think it's as Crazy as we do, who knows?!   At least it's just Chalk now.  *LOL*  I knew Allen had spent all Day doing Laundry, so there's no dirty Clothing/Bedding at least and everything for the most part is acceptable, when considering how The Young Prince just is 24-7 and 365.  It passed my Inspection.  There's ways to get in and out to every Exit, which is a requirement for Safety.  No uneaten Food laying around, most Trash had been bagged and taken to the Garbage, with just a few empty individual Juice containers, which are Plastic, so Sanitation and Hygiene wasn't as much an issue either. 

 So I just gathered that Plastic up for Recycling and all the Bowls up for Washing.  Couldn't find the Paperwork tho', which is what I was looking for.  Left Messages on his Voice Mail about it and about the upcoming Eval at end of October.  They do plan to be back to do Halloween here so had said they'd be returning by Mid-October anyway.  I'm always glad for a couple Weeks Respite so that Allen is doing his Caregiving instead.  And Allen doesn't seem as overwhelmed knowing we're taking turns doing it and he's got some backup for himself too.  The Niece at least was in the 5th Wheel this Morning, so mebbe she's transitioning better now, I dunno, can't worry about it.  Either this works out for her or it doesn't, one less Bell to answer, one less Egg to fry if she feels it isn't.  Anyone that can leave and wants to, Be Well and Be Gone then, with my Blessings.  *Smiles*   If they all had somewhere else to go I would be Glad for them to have more Independent Living and less reliance on us Old People.  But, I do appreciate what they do here than I don't have to or can't.

Well, The Grandson called me back and told me where the completed Paperwork is, I had to add some things coz he isn't capable of some of it.  They wanted to release info of the Eval to his Primary Physician, I put he doesn't have one coz he has no Income to pay for Medical.  *Insert Resting Bitch Face... since... it's why we're applying for SSI... No way to Earn Income... no Services... he owes a ton for Emergency Services already that he can never Pay them*  I also had to fill out for the Mileage Reimbursement, tho' they will cut the Check to him for 67 Cents a Mile for anything over 30 Miles... how NOT Generous given the price of Gas and where they send you to that is never close to where you Live!!!  And... since he can never Drive, and has no Money to pay for Transport, has to find someone willing to charitably take him!   Anyway, Nevermind... I won't even Vent about all of that.  *Ha ha ha*  At least now I can Mail it in and be in compliance for this leg of the Journey to get him Evaluated and hopefully Qualified?  It's like running a fucking Marathon with no End and a Questionable Destination!!!  *Whew*

 

He said they plan to be back in Arizona by October 11th, so we're Good for the other Eval and Paperwork, which is similar to this Paperwork so at least he's done it once already.  And he gets really Into Halloween so will be in good Spirits by the time we see the Evaluator.  *LOL*  No telling how he'll be dressed for the Appointment?  When we had this last Eval he had Wet Look Booty Shorts on with Combat Boots, a Bunny Ears Cap and a Dark Camo Print Long Sleeved Hunter's Shirt.  The Lead Images don't show off the entire ensemble, but some of his Alters do Dress provocatively or really 'Different', so you just never know what's coming down the Runway?!  *Smiles*  I don't Care what he wears, I just insist he have Clothes on and he's not Exposing himself... and he complies, so I'm Good... but I do often wonder what the Notes say on the Therapist, Shrink or Evaluator's Observations and Opinions?  *Winks* 

 And they don't even see how he keeps his Personal Spaces.  It has Raised some Eyebrows of the Home Help coming for The Man, let us just say.   And we explain that our Grandson is a Paranoid Schizophrenic and he does all this to keep Demons away... and we're Chill with that, coz who wants Demons visiting or entering one's Home, Right?  *Smiles* Then they Laugh and it takes the Tension off that perhaps we have someone living here who won't let them leave Alive?!  *Ha ha ha*  As The Son does the Impression of his Nephew and how it Presents to the unknowing unwitting Visitors:  "It puts the Lotion on the Skin or it gets the Hose again...", and then he pretends to do the Buffalo Bill Scary Dance Scene from "Silence Of The Lambs" {1991}... and Moths flying everywhere!  *Bwahahahaha*  You must have twisted Gallow's Humor to Cope and Live here.  *Winks*

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More Real Life Freaky Scary Stuff to come for Halloween's Vibes my Friends... since our Reality can be Scarier than your Garden Variety Horror Movie sometimes... Winks... Dawn... The Bohemian

Phantom Smells ~ Phantosmia ~ Olfactory Hallucinations ~ Oh, And More Crisis

 

I'm 23 Unpublished and Scheduled Posts ahead now, it's a Record for me.  *LOL and Winks*  If I end up with Blog Block and don't Create Posts for a couple Weeks to almost a Month now, I'm still Golden and you'd never know.  *Smiles*  I'm up at almost 3:00 in the Morning coz I can't Sleep, I was having heightened Senses of Smell, of Aromas that were not even in the Air... of Cinnamon, Cloves and Oranges, it was Weird and Woke me up!   Phantom Smells isn't something that I can recall happening before, so it was unexpectedly Odd.  These Phantom Smells were strong, yet pleasant ones and even once Awake I was still smelling them so I went in to the Kitchen just to make sure nobody was in there making something with those Aromas?  There wasn't and eventually it all subsided, but, not for a while.  I Googled it and it's called Phantosmia or Olfactory Hallucinations.  It can be caused by Medical Issues so if it persists it says to seek Treatment... Splendid.

As it is I received a Bill from The Man's last Hospitalization of whatever our Insurances have not Paid them.  I'm going to ask if they've run it thru all of his Insurances first and then hit the VA up for paying it since they're the ones that transported him from the VA Hospital to a Civilian Hospital in the first place.  The VA Hospital wouldn't have cost us anything and why I took him there, coz Insurances lately are really balking to pay out even close to the amount being Billed, even if you have an Insurance AND a Medicare Insurance.  I don't know how many fucking Insurance one needs to have in order to have everything appropriately covered, but, apparently him having Three isn't nearly enough???  *Eye Roll*

  I get annoyed that I have yet another Insurance problem to remedy while I still haven't even remedied getting the Claim Paid Out on the Hazard Insurance for Storm Damage, so no Work has begun to replace that Roof yet still!!!  The initial Check is somewhere now between here and Ohio getting Endorsed so I can Deposit it and at least pay my Contractor something!!!  And now the Hospital wants a couple Hundred Bucks that they claim we have to now Pay, but I'm contesting that, we should be fully covered and dammit, I'm gonna make sure all Three Insurers that The Man has pay out all that they're required to before I pay a damned Dime out of Pocket!   As it is the Water Bill came in almost double, also likely due to all these damned Data Centers built and using up all our Water Resources!!!  I'm not paying double just so they can drain us Dry and use up all the Water!!!

And our Electric Bill almost doubled too and I highly suspect it's due to the Data Centers using up too much Electricity on an already overburdened Electrical Grid Serving Five Million Residents!?!  Nobody wants Data Center in their Communities and nobody was consulted or given input before they started building them and approving it all.  And, why aren't they paying for all the Water and Electricity they're using?  Why is the cost being distributed to Residents and doubling our Costs, we're not using any more than we ever did!!!  And we can't afford our Electricity and Water to double in Costs, but these Data Centers and AI Companies apparently have plenty of Money, so, Bill them and Tax the Hell out of them for all of this... they should be Paying all of us a Monthly Dividend for the Privilege of being allowed in our Communities IMO.  I want a fucking Monthly Dividend if they're here, every Resident should receive one if they've forced this upon us involuntarily.

Well, I got Woke by a Niece who lives in Texas calling me.  I knew it must be Bad News calling that early.  She's the one whose Mom Died of Cancer recently and she was her Mom's Caregiver.  She's been losing a ton of Weight herself and tho' she was looking Amazing at first, she'd gone to look like she was losing too much too fast and she claimed she wasn't on any Weight Loss Meds and thought it might just be the Stress.  I wanted her to get it checked out tho' coz she had Heart Problems too from the Stress and she's still so Young, only around 30 and has Three Children, a Teen Daughter and Two Younger School Aged ones, a Girl and a Boy.  Her Husband Works in the Oil Fields there in Texas so is gone a lot and she's mostly been Single Parenting while he's away Working.  Well, her results came back and she has Cancer too.  The same kind her Mom Died of and they're doing a Surgery to try to remove it on October 1st!!!   This is her with the Youngest Daughter, Above... her Mini Me.

The sudden Weight Loss for no apparent reason had made me think something was very Wrong and so I do Hope they caught it in time, it's Ovarian Cancer, but her Mom's had spread so much by the time she got Diagnosed that it was too late, it had gone everywhere.  And, as if that wasn't enuf, her Oldest, whose 15, was Diagnosed with Schizophrenia and had become a Danger to the rest of the Family, especially the Younger Children, she's tried to commit Suicide and tries to harm, or even Kill, the Younger Siblings.  She tried to push the Younger Sister in front of a moving Vehicle!!!  So, my Niece had to give up Custody, she couldn't have her in the Home anymore in order to keep herself and the Younger Children Safe, and putting her in Residential Treatment in various Facilities, even in other States, hadn't Worked.  The Meds don't Work, and with having 2 Schizophrenics in my Family, she knew I'd have a Point of Reference.  This Niece has Mental Illness, so did her Mother and some of her Four other Siblings, but not Schizophrenia, so she didn't know what to do.  It's very hard to admit your Child is Unsafe to be around and give them up due to an Incurable Dangerous Mental Disorder.  This is her with the Older Daughter Above and Below.  And with her Youngest, a Son.

Her Daughter is a Smart and Beautiful Teen, but a lot bigger than her Mom, and dangerously Ill and has become a Threat to try to Manage.  So, Managing her Physically was becoming high risk without becoming abusive to protect herself or the Younger Children.  Right now her In-Laws have Custody of the Girl, but she worries that her Husband's Family are the type not to Believe their Grandchild has Mental Health Issues.  Some Families stay in Denial or are too Ashamed to admit anyone related to them has Mental Illness and they're of that ilk, Fundamentalist Religious Types in Texas tend to lean towards Faith Healing exclusively, often to the detriment of their Loved Ones who should have Medical Care and Intervention or Medications.  So, it's a mess and caused Marital Problems too, so she and the Husband are having Relationship Crisis now that she's been diagnosed and they lost Custody of their Oldest Child.  So, it's all so messy and I had no Words and could only offer Moral Support and Comfort as Aunt Dawn.  She no longer has her Mom, who was a Single Parent Raising them their whole Lives, and isn't close to any of her Four Siblings. 

My Heart aches for her and she's so far away that I can't offer Present Help like if she were here in Arizona still.  Our Families were always very close and Ride or Die with one another.  We Share a lot of History and tho' there's no biological connection, her Mom's Family are a Train Wreck so there really was no Bio Family there for them.   So my Family, and even my Mom and Dad, when they were still Alive, were closer to their Family than any of their own Relatives ever were.   The Kids all called my Mom their Nanna and my Dad their Grand-Dad, people always just assumed their Mom and I were Sisters.  And truly, we were like Sisters and she was just a Year Younger than me, and closer to me than she was with her Biological Sister.   Their Parents and their Brother had Died many Years earlier so there wasn't much Biological Family left.  The Father of Two of her Oldest Kids had been Murdered when they were little, and the Father of her Younger Three, she Divorced and was out of the picture when the Kids were still Young. 

So, I wasn't Surprised she called me during a Crisis, she knows she always can, any time, for any reason.  She just hadn't told me everything about the Older Child or her Marriage becoz she knew we were going thru a lot of stuff here as well.  But, Losing her Mom and then finding out she has the same Diagnosis now, Scared her and she said she can't afford to get as Sick as her Mom did, her Two Youngest Children still need her and she has nobody to be her Caregiver.  She's pretty sure that her Husband isn't gonna be there for all of this, he was already faltering when she was Caregiving for her Dying Mom.  I didn't know that, I thought he was still quite the Family Man.  But, nothing sorts People out quite like Trouble.   Just becoz someone is there for you during the Good Times doesn't mean they'll stick around for the Bad Times.

  And she knew here in Arizona, when there was a Family Member having a Mental Health Meltdown, they'd always Call me to come Manage the Loved One for them, including their Mom and even their Dad when he was still around.  I knew their Dad long before I knew their Mom or the Kids, he was The Son's Coach for Elementary level Sports.  Nice Guy, but, had Mental Health Issues and later on Self-Medicated with Alcohol and Substance Abuse and went downhill, which, isn't uncommon.  He's still Alive as far as I know, but I don't know he ever became Well enuf to be a Functional Family Man ever, so it's best his Kids didn't have him in their lives very much once he deteriorated with drinking to excess and abusing his Prescription Drugs and no telling what else, coz he was a Veteran too who'd been Medically Discharged. 

 I used to have to transport him to Mental Health coz nobody else would come get him when he went Off Rails, coz he could become Violent and very volatile.  I'd pop his Crazy Ass in the Passenger Seat and tell him if he got unhinged while I was transporting him, I'd throw him out of the Vehicle without even slowing down... and he'd settle right down coz he knew I'd do it... I don't make idle Threats.  And he knew if my Crazy and his Crazy had to Square Off, it might be Wilder than his Wife's Crazy coz even The Man wouldn't Go There.  And everyone knew what The Man had done for the Military.  *Winks and Laughs*  But I liked Kenny, Sr. and when he was Sane he was one helluva nice Guy.  Funny, Smart, Caring, Athletic, a Good Friend even, he'd do anything for me and my Family and was a great Coach when all our Sons were very Young and before he went totally Off the Rails Mentally and never came back from The Edge and the Brink of Insanity.  He was Institutionalized over and over again, but they kept letting him out and he'd Self Destruct all over again.

  Since, when he was on the Crazy Train, it was better for his Family that he wasn't in the Household and even my Crazy Friend had to finally admit, that things were becoming Unsafe for her and the Kiddos.  I told her, you do know you have to Divorce him, this has all become untenable.  I knew coz I had to Divorce my Psychopath Ex... or somebody would have ended up Toe Tagged.  And if it was between me or him, I was gonna make sure it was him, so it was best we ended it without a Homicide.    Some things are best put behind you and move on for your Safety and Well Being as a Family.  My Ex eventually got sent up and locked up for 27 Years without Parole, Problem Solved.  Kathie was bigger than me, but her Husband was more afraid of me... and not of her.  I felt she could have kicked his Ass without even spilling a Drink... but... it wasn't in her to I guess... but, he knew I would.  Kenny, Sr. had known me a long time.  *Winks*  I Bow Down to no Man and even that Criminally Insane Murderer backed down to me in Psyche Lockdown... Wisely so.  *LOL*  It is said that often your Misery becomes your Ministry.

 So, I know The Niece would never reach out to her Dad, even if he is still among the Living.  She also has a Schizophrenic Brother who isn't Safe to be around and nobody has had Contact with in Years, including us.  He's too Unsafe.  Nobody has heard from him since Dec. 2025 so he may not even still be among the Living, we don't know?  Nobody could even notify him of his Mom's Death.   And The Niece said her other Siblings and her Nephew, all of whom have very good Careers and make good Money, never came to their Mom's Funeral nor did they contribute to the expense of it.  She and her Mom's Older Sister, paid for it all, even tho' the Sister was estranged from her Younger Sister, she did the Right thing by her to have a nice Funeral/Burial.  The Niece says she hasn't heard from her Aunt since and probably never will now.

She lives in the Hamptons and is Wealthy, so she never wanted people to know she had a Seriously Mentally Ill Younger Sister, an Older 
Seriously Mentally Ill Brother {now Deceased}, and a Mentally Ill Nephew and Niece.  She only kept in contact with the Well Nephew & Niece, and Kathie's Oldest Grandson, all who are Well... and she had Raised their Oldest Sibling when Kathie lost Custody due to her Illness.  That Sister works for the CIA.  So it's a complex Family dynamic, not unusual when Mental Illness has such Stigma attached to it, that Families keep it Secretive about Loved Ones afflicted or pretend they don't even Exist.  Their Older Brother was SMI too, and after Serving in Vietnam in the early 1970's, went Mental and Killed himself. 

  He'd been quite Mental long before being Drafted and sent to War.  But they Inducted almost anyone back then, which is why they Discharged him from the Military after using him as a Killing Machine and then discarding him.  And even some Guys who go to War quite Well, come back quite Unwell.  And those who were Unwell to begin with become even MORE Unwell, like Allen did.  When Kathie's Older Brother lived in NYC he once walked down a busy well known Street there in nothing but his Military Brogans!   Yeah, they send Guys like that to War, yet let this Cowardly Prez fake Bad Feet to get out of the Draft or Serve their Country, coz they're Rich Fucks, and the Elite generally don't Serve anyone but themselves... go figure, some things will never change.

  And now that the Niece's Husband is never Home and always in the Oil Fields, she suspects he's been acting like a Single Man rather than a Married Man with a Family... she could be Right... and from what she told me she's found out, he probably is.  Her Dad bailed on the Family during Crisis and she's concerned her Husband may take the Easy way Out as well and Abandon them all too.  Now he's got a Sick Wife and a Child who may end up Institutionalized if his Parents can't cut it, and I suspect they won't be able to, God ain't Healed any Mental Illness that I'm Aware of yet.  I'm not saying He couldn't but He hasn't, and I'm a pragmatic person when it comes to realizing having Faith doesn't always mean Miraculous Healings will happen or that bad things won't happen, even to good people.  So, you have to be sensible about seeking Treatment for Illness, Disease and Disabling Diagnosis that do or don't have Cures.  You can be deeply Spiritual and still rely on Science as well, they're not mutually exclusive nor does it mean you lack Faith or don't Trust God.

Anyway, so that wasn't a great Call to receive very early on my Granddaughter's 21st Birthday.   I did get her a Chantilly Cake and a Quartet of Mini Fruit Tarts, which is what she said she'd prefer.  She didn't want me spending more Money and found out about the E-Bay Purchase... then I showed her another Lot of the Pop Mart Hirono Set of 20 and we decided to get that too on a Buy-It-Now Feature and she's splitting Cost with me coz it was a really good Deal and she didn't have any of those.  Turns out she had 2 of the 5 of the Halloween Set I had already Bought... so I'll keep those 2 coz they're Darling and they're Halloween Inspired in an Adorable way, so I can use them as Halloween Props.  She was more Jazzed about the Above Lot so I'm glad I showed her and just Bought 'em.   I counted 21 and it said 20 on the Listing, so, they missed One.  *LOL*

Princess T was having her Boyfriend, Rusty, spend more of his Money on her, she will lighten that Wallet.  *LOL and Winks*  So, he's at The Mall with her Today ON her actual Birthday coz they both took the Day Off to Celebrate her turning 21.  So she shall come Home laden with even MORE Gifts from her Beloved, he Spoils her Rotten.  Her Bouquets have been in my Living Room coz they have Lilies and they found out Cats are allergic to Lilies so she didn't want Eli getting Sick or Dying due to the Bouquets.   So, I've been enjoying her Birthday Bouquets more than she has been able to.   Can't wait for her to get Home so we can have some of her Birthday Cake and Tarts!  *Smiles*   So, we'll end with her Birthday Food Porn... you're Welcome... or... I'm Sorry.  *Winks*

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Happy Autumnal Vibes my Friends... Dawn... The Bohemian