More Month Than Money

Usually I do some Environmental Cleanup on a Tuesday Morning coz I'm dropping the Grandchild off at her Work at 6:00 a.m., but DAMN it was Cold this Morning!  Now, this is Arizona, in the Spring, it's never this Cold by the end of April!   A few Weeks ago it was unseasonably extra Hot and hitting 109 already and breaking Heat Records.  Now it's Colder than a Witch's Tit some days, WTF?!   So, no, I didn't go do it, I went back Home and hunkered down where it's Cozy Warm at my Computer Desk to Blog instead.  *Winks*

Rusty took Princess T to do a Photo Shoot with her New Car, she was very risque' and said it was her Bad Girl Outfit.  She didn't want me to Blog with it, but you know I was gonna, Right?!  *Winks*  I mean, she looks Adorbs even in a Mister Fredericks Of Hollywood kinda way, and I know she's a Good Girl who can just Rock a slutty outfit too.  *LOL*  So I joked when they got back, coz it had been after Dark when they did it and I asked her if this was for Rusty and she was draped all over her Sexy Car for the Photo Shoot?  *Bwahahaha*  She claims she'll Share the Pixs with me, so I can see them, we'll see... *Smiles* 

She did keep her Jacket on for my Pixs so they'd be more Modest.  *LOL*  But, she did let me take some and then critique them for Approval.  *Ha ha ha*  These few made the Grade.  And then Below them, some more Old Glamour Shots of The Daughter and I we had done when she was about 12.  I liked how they turned out but I'd never had Hairspray in my Hair before and HATED it, and they do put more Makeup on you than an Old Hippie is comfortable with wearing.  Plus, my Makeup Girl couldn't seem to understand why the Facial Makeup she used for White Clients didn't match my complexion at ALL.   So she made me look White and The Daughter thought I looked like a Ghost or Japanese Kabuki.  *Bwahahahahaha*  In retrospect, since I knew nothing about Makeup Foundation either back then, I'd of advised her to use Hispanic Skin Tone Foundation instead.

But the Glamour Shots of Yesteryear were Fun and The Daughter's Orthopedic Dental Surgeon who was doing her Braces for a Jaw Issue, had Paid for them.   I'd Paid Five Grand for her Braces, which, back then was a Mega Amount of Dental Expense, but it was during my First Corporate Life as an Executive Banker, so I had the Benjamins back then.  Even tho' Insurance refused to cover it even tho' it was a Medical Condition being corrected for her Health and so her Face wouldn't end up with a deformity, and not for Vanity reasons at all.  But you know how Insurances are, and back then I had an HMO thru CIGNA, which, could be good... or could Cheap Out... it was always a crap shoot what an HMO would cover.   But they were New back then in the early 1980's when they were formed, and so every Employer was touting them as the Next Best Thing in Healthcare.  Never had one since.  *LOL*

They didn't put much Makeup on her, since she was a Child, so she just required some Lip Gloss, Natural Color Eyeshadow and Mascara.  Kiddos have that flawless Skin going on so don't need any Foundation.  And she wouldn't Smile big coz the Braces weren't on yet, then she spent a lot of time not Smiling BECOZ of the Braces.  *LOL*  But, once they were off she had one of those Perfect Toothpaste Commercial Smiles.  So, I always felt the Investment was worth it.   See Below, her at about Age 15 with the Colgate Commercial Smile and perfect Teeth.  That's also about the Age she went completely Off Rails too.  And was well over 40 before she got Straight with being Clean.

 Of coarse she screwed it all up in Adulthood with Substance Abuse, which wreck your Teeth, Skin and Hair.   She regrets that now, but did get Clean eventually, but over 25 Years of Abuse took it's toll heavily.  But her being Clean for the first time in her Adult Life and sustaining it for several Years now has made me very Proud of her for finally doing it.  That's why we wanted that recent Boyfriend Gone, he was Using.  At least he hasn't been bothering her or us anymore, he got his Vehicle taken away for Wrecking it and I don't think he had it Registered and might have been driving it without a renewed License either.  He had a lot going on that he needed to get put Right.  And with having Stage 4 Cancer I think he just didn't expect to Survive so didn't do anything he was required to do or needed to get done anymore.

 

I'm going to be taking The Son to an Appointment Today that he doesn't know how it will go, so he's nervous about it.  Way back when he still had an operational Vehicle, he got a Ticket for Driving under the Influence.  He Paid all the Fines, took the Classes Twice they required.  He messed up with the First Set of Classes and so he had to take them again.  He had to pay for them again, but finished all the required Classes and was Square on all the Terms but One.  Well, they also required him to pay a Grand+ for an Interlock Ignition Device for a Year.  But, by then he didn't have an Operational Vehicle anymore so didn't get one.  He couldn't get a Mechanic to ever figure out what is wrong with the Malibu and wasted a lot of Money trying to fix it, insure it, register it, when it was never safe or reliable.  He'd gotten it Cheap and it was a POS.  He was getting Rides to Work and Back or taking the Bus.  You can't put one on a Vehicle you aren't Driving or don't have.

  

Anyway, for the whole Year he was required to have one, his Co-Workers or I were either taking him, or he was riding Public Transportation to and from Work, or anywhere else he had to go.  He didn't think it would be problematic.  Fast Forward to last November when his Employer Laid Everyone Off.  So, now he had no Income or Job either, definitely no Money to do Car Repairs or replace the Vehicle he still has which hasn't been Operational in so long now it's got Spiders building Webs on it.  *LOL*  He had Two Non-Operational Vehicles here, Sold one that was a Vintage Celica, for Parts, to a Salvage Yard, and will probably be Selling the Malibu to the same Salvage Yard too.  It would have Cost too much to get either of them roadworthy and reliable, and the Celica didn't have a Title.  So, anyway, since he'd Honored everything else he thought the Courts dropped it all, it's been a long time now.

 

But, he got a Letter from the Courts saying he has to go to Court, before a Judge, about why he didn't comply with the Interlock Ignition Device installment requirement of his Terms?  You not only pay for the Device but pay to get it Serviced regularly, a big expense and it has to be on a Working Vehicle.  It's all about the Money, he knows that, but he has no way to pay them that Grand Plus Extra now, his Fines had been extravagant and he Paid them in Full, the Classes had been expensive, he Paid for them Twice due to the them requiring a double take, to extort more Money.  He now Owes the IRS Sixteen Hundred due to that Scam of the ACA they're running on folks who can't afford Insurance, go to Marketplace to get an ACA Approved Coverage, then find out it's like a Loan and not a Subsidy at all, coz you gotta pay it back to the IRS at the end of the Year!!! 

 He didn't even use Sixteen Hundred worth of Medical, he'd of been better off Uninsured!!!  And has no way to pay the IRS or the Courts for their Interlock Ignition Device he can't put on anything he doesn't have and isn't even Driving anymore!!!!   So, anyway, the Court said they could make him spend Three Weeks in Jail now... whatever, he still has no Job and no Money... so, if it will Square him with them, just do it.  He doesn't wanna wait 'til he HAS a Job after all this time of trying to get Hired anywhere, and THEN lose the Job coz they make him do 3 Weeks of Jail Time for all this.  He's frustrated coz he said when you try to do Right, they Punish you unfairly anyway, and kick you when you're Down, in the meantime Billionaires and the President are committing all kinds of Fraud and the most Serious Crimes with Supreme Court sanctioned impunity!!! 

Anyway, I have to Drive him to the Courthouse or he couldn't even get there coz the Buses don't run as early or on that Route to get him there by the Time assigned to him.  He has no Money for an Uber, he's been Selling Plasma, that's how broke he's been since he hasn't even been getting Unemployment, his Employer screwed all the Employees they Laid Off out of their Unemployment by cutting their Hours first.  Then saying they didn't meet the Criteria anymore for Full Time Employment they'd Contractually Agreed to Work!!!  The only reason nobody contested the cut Hours was coz about a Month beforehand, the Company held a Meeting and said they'd have to Lay Off SOME Employees if ALL the Workers didn't Agree to taking Reduced Hours instead. 

 So, they all Agreed, so that none of their Co-Workers would be Laid Off during the Holidays.  Then, the Company just Laid Off anyone who have Five Years or more with the Company anyway just before Thanksgiving!!!   Some had worked there over 35 Years!!!   And all of them had accepted those Reduced Hours so that none of the Newbies, who typically get let go first, would have to be Laid Off and Unemployed right at the Holidays.  It was a shitty thing to do but I felt like the Owner, who was recently Widowed when her Husband unexpectedly dropped Dead, was Selling the Company to an Asset Stripper Investor, and that's what they just do and everyone gets Screwed in the doing of it.  So, anyway, it's been a succession of Unfortunate Events beyond The Son's Control... Car Troubles, Job Troubles, Financial Troubles and now Legal Troubles. 

 

Back from Court, it went well, there was a Female Pro Tem Judge filling in and she was very Fair, is giving him 2 Weeks to provide some evidence of something else they need and re-schedule a Zoom Meeting before whatever Judge will be there then.  She felt it would have been punitive to Sentence him to 3 Weeks in Jail for not putting a Device on a Vehicle he doesn't have.   No way he's ever getting that Malibu running so he'll have to Sell it for Parts to a Salvage Yard and save up when he gets Employment to even get another Cheap Vehicle.  Then try to save up to pay off the IRS and this Interlock requirement if they continue to insist he must do that.  He'd rather they just put him in Jail for 3 Weeks now and be done with it all.  But sometimes they make people do the Jail Time and still do all the other shit anyway.  But, Today went well, he was 3rd on the Docket so we weren't there for Hours.

I took him out for Breakfast afterwards coz I was starving by then and taking all my Meds, especially the Ozempic Injection on Tuesdays, on an empty Stomach, makes you feel Sick.  And Nurse Remi is coming at 11:00 a.m. for The Man, and then some other PT Evaluation Person from the VA is coming at 12:30 a.m. to Evaluate him for more Physical Therapy, since HUMANA's Approved PT Visits were only Three and the VA can and will often provide more Services to their Disabled Veterans.  I have yet to hear from the Hospital about the Cardiac PT he'll do there on the 5th Floor... probably delayed until either or both Insurances give Approval on that too?  It can all be quite confusing to keep straight in my Head which Services are being provided, Approved, and by Whom?  You have to fit all of it into an already over-scheduled Calendar as well, it's all very consuming of your Time and Energies.  He's not the only one here with Needs or Appointments that I'm Caregiver of.

I've got to see about picking and meeting a new Primary for myself since my Doc got Transferred to another Location, which is too far to go.  So, tho' I really Love my Doc, I can't commute that far to see her.  So, have to be Assigned someone else now.  *Le Sigh*   LATER: Nurse Remi just left, his BP and Oxygen Saturation were both excellent, but he's Weaker and not feeling Well at all.  So, she's still very concerned about him.  Clinically he appears doing better but clearly Physically and Emotionally he is NOT at all.  So, it's a dilemma, we don't wanna expose him to ER's and Hospitals too much coz lots of serious Contagions are going around again, including COVID, and he's got a compromised Immune System and Medical Fragility as it is.  So do I with my comorbidities, so, can't Risk that exposure unless absolutely necessary.

We will have the PT Evaluation Guy from the VA coming at 12:30 to determine Qualifying for Expanded Services provided by the VA rather than our other Two Insurances.   Both HUMANA and TriCare provide some, what they won't provide the VA might provide and Authorize.  Good thing he has all Three.  But he Served 39 Years for EARNED Benefits and so he deserves decent Healthcare Services.  I'm just very worried about him now, he's getting weaker and weaker, we Need to be able to keep him at Home coz there's no Placement that will take him, they wouldn't before either after his TBI.  Now he's got Dementia too, along with everything else he already had, they for damned sure won't wanna take him now.   And, even IF they did, it's not Affordable and would leave the rest of the Family absolutely destitute just to ensure he got Long Term Care we couldn't afford.  I don't Need Five other folks, including myself, destitute. 

 

And my Docs are saying, reduce your Stress.  *Bwahahahahaha*  Yeah, Right.  *Rolls Eyes Dramatically*  Nurse Remi did Share that she has a Schizophrenic Nephew and has had similar experiences with the abuses my Two Schizophrenic Family Members have been thru.  The Daughter and her Son both have had identical traumatic experiences due to their Illness that her Nephew and their extended Family have endured at the Hands of a System that doesn't handle such things appropriate, compassionately, or well.   So, she has a Point of Reference and she said nobody wants to Talk of these things, becoz nobody Cares.  So what the Families go thru never improves or changes.   You become very Cynical and disgusted with the lack of Humanity extended.  We treat Animals better.   Rant now over.  *Winks*

Anyway, other than all that everything is Swell.  *Bwahahahaha*  I don't know that when Wendell comes Tomorrow for his last Authorized Visit, The Man will be up to any Exercises whatsoever still?  He's too Weak, too unstable right now, so Physical Therapy is not happening and of coarse that leads to more Physical deterioration.   So, it's all rather a doubled edged Sword to navigate thru effectively.   Plus, he's getting to where he feels so Unwell that he's resistant to doing any of it too now.  It is scaring me coz we have to keep him Well enuf to remain here at Home and be able to meet him at his Point of Need ourselves.  I don't know how much longer we can, Realistically?  So that lack of feeling any Security about it Stresses all of us out.  

I think I already might have told you that the Older Lady, the Mother of one of The Daughter's Friends, who they had worked so hard recently to set up in a Home Hospice, well, just a few Days after they went thru all the Work and Expense to do it, she Died.   The Daughter felt it was perhaps Merciful Timing since the Mom was in a Bad way and had told The Daughter, I just want them to Let Me Go.  She was ready, she'd made Peace with transitioning into the Afterlife.  And, there's a part of me that Senses that The Man is almost to that place himself actually.  I don't wanna say it out loud, but I'm Sensing it strongly, just like I did with my own Dad.  When Dad was ready and willing to Go, he just Went.  Just like that.  

 Mom fought The Grim Reaper with all she had in her, so she lingered a very long time and her Care became astronomical in Cost.  Over Eleven Grand a Month and that was Years ago.  She had no Estate or Resources, so became a Ward Of The State of California to obtain her level of Care.  My Brother's influential and Celebrity Friends were the ones who got her into the Best Care Facility we couldn't afford and CalCare covered, including her Hospice later on.   But I've just got the VA for The Man and it was $200 a Day for the Old Soldier's Home over Fifteen Years ago and they wouldn't take him then.  Said he was too High Maintenance and they didn't have enuf Staffing for his level of Care needed.  I had no fucking Staff, but they dumped him on me anyway, I had Two very Young Special Needs Grandkids to Care for at the time as well, it was a LOT.  It's a LOT now too, but... it's the Hand Dealt, so you Play it.

I'm trying not to Drop Dead from the Stress or Strain of it nor go Off Rails again and have Caregiver Burnout again and end up back in a Psyche Lockdown for a lil Vacay.  Coz that was an involuntary "Adventure" I'll never Forget.   Nor will anyone involved.  *Winks*  Anyway, having my Nice Breakfast with The Son, after his Court and before Nurse Remi and the other PT Guy comes was Stress Reducing.  I didn't have quite the Hood Hookup of Fruit as the Take-Out Day when I got it for The Man and I.  *Winks*  But, it was Lovely and The Son said he Loves that place, he'd never been before I have taken him a couple times.

Their Specialty Iced Coffee is to Die For... my Favorite anywhere.  I brought some of mine Home, coz Today was Ozempic injection Day and it suppresses Appetite a LOT.  So, you don't usually even Feel Hungry, and even IF you do, when you start Eating you Feel Full instantly, but know you must Eat... and so I did the best I could with it.  All delicious, all Editorial Looking too, as you can clearly see.  I'll just have to finish the Seasoned Potatoes later on.  Their Million Dollar Bacon is SO good and just a slight Upgrade you can make for $1.99 more, well worth the Upgrade IMO... it has Hot Honey and Seasoning, OMG... it's a Sweet, Salty, Spicy Flavor Profile of Candied Bacon.  They coat Thick Cut Bacon in a Glaze of Brown Sugar, Maple Syrup, and Spices like Black Pepper and Cayenne Pepper, then Bake 'til Caramelized and crispy... making it both Sweet & Savory.  It's very much like the Bacon But Different that my other fav Brunch Restaurant "Snooze" offers, they add Red Pepper Flakes to theirs and is slightly better IMO.

It's the EOM, with more Month than Money, but I SOOOOO Needed me some Comfort Food and someone preparing it FOR me, Okay.  *Winks*  The Recycling covers most of that kind of thing when I'm a Broke Bitch otherwise and there's more Month than Money.  Today we had a Nurse, a PT {John} and the PT Evaluation Guy, a pleasant Young Black Male Nurse originally from Tennessee, who'd introduced himself to The Man and The Daughter but I didn't catch the Name of and forgot to ask.  He's putting in a request for Authorization for Two Visits a Week and then see if we can work up to Three as The Man regains {hopefully} some Strength and Stamina to retain Mobility and ability to remain in the Home rather than an Inpatient Facility for Rehab.  He was pleased we've managed to do it Outpatient and at Home for so long by ourselves mostly.  He commended me on managing that, coz it's Rare I guess.

He was telling me a lot of Families don't want to put in the Work at Home to Rehabilitate their Loved One or have the means to pass that off onto an Inpatient Facility and do, for convenience and Skilled Care instead.  I told him nobody would accept Placement of The Man coz he's an Escape Risk.  His PTSD kicks in and if he thinks he's being held Prisoner, he Escapes, and that's a liability and risk to the Facilities and he's managed to Escape every single one he's ever been in.  Plus, we strongly Feel that nobody is as Invested in a Loved One as their own Family, so generally they do better with the Loving Care of Loved Ones they know and Trust, who are Invested in them more than any Stranger could or would be.  He agreed.  So when he asked what our "Goals" are, I told him simply to get him to where he can remain in the Home under our Care and Familiar Surroundings to him where he Feels Safe and not feeling he's a POW.

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Taking it One Day at a time... Dawn... The Bohemian

Something Is At Play Here... I Just Don't Know For Sure What It Is

 Since I'd Posted a Two-Fer accidentally on Sunday I'll have to give both of them a Minute before Publishing this one now.  *LOL*  I've been in a State of confusion and melancholy, something is in Play here, I just don't know what it is.  I did some Environmental Cleanup on Sunday Morning and gleaned a Bag and a Half of Aluminum Cans, people had been partay-ing over the Weekend for Reals!!!   I picked up a Breakfast To-Go on the way back Home from "First Watch" which was slammed on a Sunday Morning, so you'd of spent Hours waiting for a Table otherwise.  Plus, The Man really hasn't been Well at all, so bringing it Home for him was necessary.  Outings for him now are just not only hard on me, it's hard on him, so we just aren't doing it now.  

They recognized me at the Restaurant and asked about where he was and I said Home Sick, so they gave us the Hood Hookup big time.  This was allegedly just a single 'side' of Fresh Fruit to go with my Tropical French Toast that I got!  *LOL and Big Winks*  And The Man had the Wild Alaskan Salmon Bennie with Hashbrowns, which I didn't Photograph before he dived into it.  But, it was purdy too.  *LOL*  He Loves Salmon and I almost never cook Fish at Home coz I don't wanna stink up the House.  And he was in Bed before 7:00 p.m. and I'd fallen Asleep on the Sectional for another early Afternoon Nap.  So missed his Night Med reminders and Luckily The Son heard the reminder Alarm and gave it to his Dad.  *Whew*

Thank Gawd for the Backup coz lately I'm so Fatigued and Stressed Out that I'm Sleeping thru the Night time Med dosage he Needs at 6:00 p.m.! And the Kiddos have to remember and give it to him before he goes to Bed as early as he now has to and does.  Coz he too seems extra Exhausted with not feeling Well and having a hard time Breathing.  The Air Quality has been shitty and it's allergy Season, plus he's got the weakened Heart and COPD, so, it's just a lot for him to Power thru right now to catch his Breath.  They haven't got him back on Oxygen, coz his Oxygen saturation seems in the Safe Zone, but, he feels like he can't Breathe, and, that's a Problem!!!

Above and Below, more Granddaughters.  This Post will be heavily laden with Family Photos of Adult Kids, Adult Grandkids, Great-Grandkids, and just some of all of their many Cousins.  Family has been sustaining me lately when shit has gotten real hard to move thru, Breathe deeply, and keep it Moving.  I don't know how folks without Family or extended Relatives hold it Down solo, that must be fucking hard!?!  Much Respect.   Emotionally and Mentally, I'm holding up pretty well, but Physically, it's wiping me out lately.  I'm gonna hafta consider some Stamina and Strength Training at The Gym I think to shore my Ass up enuf to get thru the entire day without needing a freakin' 4 Hour Nap by early Afternoon, that carries thru to late Afternoon!!!  It's pitiful... it's scaring the Kiddos!

They're like, every time we coast by you're Passed Out dead Asleep Mom/Gramma, you Okay?   And then with Dad/Grandpa, they just come in close to make sure he's still Breathing and they see some Movement!!!  *LOL*  Seriously, I do too, if he's too sound Asleep now and I can't HEAR him Breathing, my Hearts beats a lil faster thinking, Oh, No... and then have a Sigh of Relief when I see his Chest moving up and down!!!  *Whew!*  We don't wanna startle him Awake so he'd risk having another Heart Attack... so, you quietly and stealthily make sure he's still Alive!!!   Princess T said that at Work, some Regular Customers and even some Co-Workers have asked her if Grandpa is still Alive!!!   Coz nobody has seen him around anymore for so long.  She doesn't know whether to Laugh or think, Wow, that's an inappropriate thing to just come out and ask someone?!!!!!!

 

And I KNOW our Devices do Spy and Listen In on us all the damned time, coz I got a Letter in the Mail on Saturday from a Revocable Living Trust Attorney!!!  *Smiles*   Remember I had JUST been talking about considering drafting up one and talking it over with the Kiddos?!   Well, this Law Firm specializes in them and will give me a Free Consultation, so, may take them up on it actually and kept the Letter.  *LOL*  Yeah, it's intrusive and I don't Like that our Devices Spy on us and Listen In on our Private Conversations, Big Brother Is Watching comes to Mind {1984}, George Orwell's dystopian 1949 Novel is not so far fetched at all, in Real Time I think we're THERE now.  He'd Predicted by 1984, but, 2016 wasn't so far off with the Calculations for it forming.  With the Totalitarian Superstate forming for Reals, with the Ruling Party wielding total Power for their own Sake over all us inhabitants.

I also think of "Brave New World" {1939} and "Fahrenheit 451" {1953}.  Oddly, all these dystopian Warnings slash Predictions were made even before I was Born and are pretty damned accurate, given Todays Reality.  I don't think they should be under any Sci-Fi Genre anymore coz, frankly, it's not Science Fiction at all now... or even Fictional really, in many ways.  Sure, they made up Names of the Places, but, I think we always knew it could or would be here they were speaking of, really.  I never particularly thought they were speaking of somewhere else, some Fictional Place, they had a Place in Mind when they Wrote it, under the guise of a Made-Up Place.

The Kids were up before us Today, we'd slept in and it's 9:30 a.m., guess we Needed it.  But, now the Spawn are crashing around in the Kitchen like Bull Elephants and yelling at everyone about, "Who want's Breakfast?!"   So, if anyone WAS Asleep, they ain't now!  And The Daughter has the Music Station on and is belting out Songs, like she can Sing, which, Nope, she can't, Tone Deaf still and caterwauling.  *Ha ha ha*  So, Cooking and Bad Karaoke going on in there outside our Boudoir Door, there's no NOT hearing it... so, Yeah, NOW we're both up!!!  I never heard anyone scramble Eggs so loudly either!!!  *LOL*   The Daughter and The Son are both in there Cooking, so it should be Interesting.  For now they sound like they're getting along, cooperating, and Playing well with each other, but that could Turn on a Dime, and usually does, when Schizophrenic meets Autistic, it rarely gels.  *Winks*

I just Hope they don't wreck the Kitchen making One Meal, coz I had taken One for the Team last Night before Bedtime and cleaned everything in the Kitchen.  So, it DID look good and they're not known for running damage control behind their Meal Prep and Dirty Dishes.  I Clean as I go when I Cook and directly after eating, so, we never had that problem with it's just The Man, Princess T and I here.  She Cooks for herself most of the time and does her own Dishes often, so nothing would stack up.  The Daughter can Clean like a Merry Maid Service, so when she does tackle it, it's spotless and I can't match her Organization or Cleaning Abilities.    Above is The Daughter when she had those perfect Teeth I Paid Five Grand for, before she screwed them up, she's with her Lifelong Friend Amber.  It's another of the State Fair Photo Booth Pixs they used to take every Year.

 

It's WHEN she gets around to it and is in the Cleaning Frenzy tho', otherwise she'd walk right past it all as if she never saw it.  The Son is pretty good about Cleaning Up after himself but won't Clean what anyone else dirtied.  And The Young Prince... well... that would take a whole Post to go THERE!  *Eyes Rolling*   And I better go out there coz I just heard The Daughter say to her Brother in a Serious Tone, "Well, so long as I don't wanna Hang myself...", and so I Need to check what's going on in the Kitchen that might require a Hanging now???!!!!!  *LMAO*  Turns out he wanted a different kind of Music on and she said, well, so long as it was a kind that didn't make her wanna Hang herself of his Angst Metal Music.  Where we know all the Band Members are now Dead and most Killed themselves and their Music was a 'Clue' that was coming.  

I just saw a News Feed from a Vendor Acquaintance at the Antique Mall that she's Celebrating her 50th Cruise on Carnival Cruise Lines so they're throwing her some kind of Party on this one.  Yeah, I said her FIFTIETH!!!   She and her Old Man go on about 3 or more Annually.  Most of their Income comes from Breeding their Pedigree Dogs... but, a LOT.  My Parents bred Collies for a time, but you have to be responsible about Dog Breeding and not make it seem rather Puppy Mill-ish.   But Pedigree Dogs can go for Thousands now, so, some folks, IMO anyway, are overdoing it and I don't know that's healthy for the Breeding Females to have so many Litters.   So, I do Feel some kind of way about that.  But, I feel the same kind of way about folks who just don't Spay or Neuter their Pets and they're getting unintentionally preggy all the time too and now you got Puppies and Kitten irresponsible overspill due to their Humans too. 

Anyway, since One Pedigree Puppy = One Cruise, you do the Math.  The Husband often works regular Shifts at the Mall and they're both Nice People and have good quality Merch they Sell there.  They know The Good Stuff and I don't comment on what they choose to do with their Dogs, I'm not the Pet Police by any means and I'd probably disagree with how most folks Parent their Pets or their Kids.  *Bwahahahaha*  I'm very Opinionated about both, what can I say?  *Winks*  So, most of the time I figure they and I would just agree to disagree about Parenting in General, be it Pets or Kids... or even Grandparenting.  The way some Grandparents are is quite varied too.  The ones that Amuse me are the Grannies who are so Vain or Insecure about Aging that they won't even let their Grandkids call them Gramma or anything like that.

And pick some other Label the Grands have to call them, so that they can pretend nobody will Think they're Old.  *Eye Roll... we ALL KNOW... you're not Foolin' anyone Honey, just coz the Grands call you Mimi or Jan.  Bwahahahahahaha*   I went to a Baby Shower once with a Friend of mine who was a HOT Gramma and Proud of it, her Daughter was having a Baby and the very bougee Pretentious Paternal Granny was there and one of THOSE.   Some of her other Grands were there and calling her by the required Non-Grandmotherly Name and so intentionally, my Friend and I would be like, "Hey, go tell or give your GRAMMA this or that...", just to wind her Ass up.  It was Wicked Fun coz she kept insisting she was their Mimi and not allowing them to call her Gramma or any such thing coz she didn't FEEL like a Grandmother.  

And I just Smiled and Deadpanned, BUT YOU ARE... and everyone KNOWS they're your GRANDCHILDREN.  My Friend was tickled, coz she's known me a long time and knows how I like to Amuse myself without Apology at the expense of them like that.  And she and the other Gramma didn't get along.  *Bwahahahahaha*  And here's the Sad part really, that Woman was actually a very Attractive Gramma and Time had been very Kind to her without having a lot of Bad Work done to herself.  She was Naturally Aging well and so why be Ashamed, Embarrassed, have Low Self-Esteem, Fear, Insecurity or Denial about her Age, coz it was so un-necessary.  And Confusing for her Grands really. They'd even told me she got MAD if they slipped up and told anyone she was their GRANDMOTHER!!!  Really!?! 

If I'd been her I'd of done what my Mom always did, Mom always ADDED a Decade, saying Women were foolishly Lying about their Age in the Wrong Direction.  Coz when you add a Decade to your Real Age you're ensured a shockingly Sincere Compliment of how Amazing you look... and who doesn't wanna Hear that, Right?  *Winks*   And on to something completely different now that I have a slew of Questions about... the latest Staged Farce of an Assassination Attempt that the credibility of is beyond Questionable.  It wouldn't even be Covered as Serious News if the News Outlets weren't all Bought now by Billionaire Buddies of this Regime and even try to make this farce seem as if it was Real.  It's been said now that the Guy wasn't even in the same Building... now that's a tidbit them eliminated which might have been relevant, No?!  *Eye Roll*

 

Okay, so here we go tho'... How did that Naked Guy running around with a Firearm not draw Attention sooner by the Staff and other Patrons, let alone the Secret Service, in that Hotel even near where a President, Vice President and Whole Cabinet would be Present?  I mean, even at a Motel 6 a fucking Security Guard would have found that Weird enuf to take him Down quick before any incident happens.  Naked Crazy Guy running around with a Rifle... nothing to See here.  Come On.  And did he start out Naked, or was that a progression?  Not your average Assassin behavior who is Serious about actually being Successful or with a solid Plan and not just some obvious Mental Health Issues perhaps... and his background seemed an Odd Serious well orchestrated Terrorist or Assassin's History Profile either.

Turns out he was on a different Floor, of a different Building... and they claim there's some elaborate Manifesto he'd sent, to his Family or something.  And that Donnie Two Dolls lost his shit on "60 Minutes", when they Read some of it out loud, even tho' he wasn't specifically Named, but inserted himself into the Pedo/Rapist Role {quite a 'Tell'} vehemently denying he is one, yeah Right, you're at the very least an adjudicated Rapist and Paid Off a 13 Year Old Girl's Family who did claim you Raped her too.  And, you got far too many Pedo close Friends you know liked 'em Young, yet, never Reported.  Me think thou doeth Protest too much, as Shakespeare would have said.  *Winks*  I don't condone any Political Violence, but this Guy has ginned it up so much himself that he's reaping what is sown in any escalation now.  And they act all Surprised they've caused this kind of Reaction with their dangerous Rhetoric and escalating Hate and Divisive Speech from the Bully Pulpit.   It Normalizes and Condones inappropriate Negative and Dangerous Behavior.  And so here we now are.

Since all the Major News Channels are now Owned by MAGA sympathizer Billionaires, well of coarse they're pretending like this all was Real.  Tho' pretty much without exception Online consensus of American People as a Collective is, well, it's another Meme Worthy Act of complete Over-The-Top Political Theater... they want that New Ballroom so Bad... and they think this will Seal the Deal now to Build it and lift the Stay.  *Shaking Head, you can't make this shit up!!!  It's fucking Surreal and so Outrageous.*  Let's Protect our Schoolchildren and Invest that Money Nationwide in their Safety from School Shootings and University Shootings, rather than his Ballroom, that's my Take on it all.

Since everyone has a Cellphone and can Record now, well, lots of Viral Recordings of what REALLY was Said, happening and going on during this Soap Opera Novella Worthy Performance.  That will not win any Oscars, was that folks continued Eating, some Stole the Wine Bottles off their Tables, which is exactly what one does during an Actual Active Shooter Event, Right?  *Eye Roll*  Some started Singing and Chanting some Patriotic shit that didn't quite catch on either, since, who does that either, during an Active Shooter Event.   Donnie did Fall Down and then have to be Carried coz his One Foot and Leg apparently wasn't Working???  Bone Spurs mebbe, I dunno?  *Bwahahahaha*

  I expected him to show up on "60 Minutes" with some Bandages like the Ear Sham 1st Staged Attempt as if he was a Casualty.  Either way, Staged or not, it is making the Secret Service and the FBI look like incompetents and a total Cluster Fuck.  When they yelled Shots I do wonder if Patel and Hegseth might have Yelled back Tequila or Whisky?  *Winks*  Were they even Sober at the Event... asking for a Friend.  He's got so many Sex Offenders, Career Criminals, Grifters, Mentally Unstable and probably Mentally Ill folks, and Substance Abusers on his Payroll and Cabinet, that any other President doing a fraction of this shit would have been ousted long ago and way more outrage exhibited by EVERY American, in the Past.  The Present, well, a significant percentile of our Citizens seem to be Okay with anything and everything anymore and even Support it and join in voluntarily.

Okay, so The Daughter just came in after talking to Brad, the Hot Pool Guy Owner of the Company and said now he's just Fixing what was Wrong with the Pump and not charging us coz he knows Princess T, our Granddaughter, is paying for a replacement for us.  She's like, "I know what you did Mom... having her go out with you and tell him that, looking all Cute..."  *Bwahahahahaha*  Well, I did it with you when you were Young and Hawt, and Nanna did it with me when I was Young and Hawt, so, it's Generational and still Works, what can I say... it's Saved us Five Hundred Dollars and was perfectly harmless.   She had all her Clothes on just looking as Adorbs as she can be, batting her False Eyelashes at him and all... and, Five Hundred Bucks Saved and a Free Repair is Five Hundred Bucks Saved and a Free Repair, what can I say?  *Winks*

Hey, they go around looking Cute anyway for Free, so might as well get some use out of it for what needs to be done that I can't afford.  Hell, if we had all Four of your Beautiful Daughters here I'd be having everything done for Free around here.   And she and Princess T just Laughed and Laughed, coz, they know how I am.  *Winks and Smiles*  So, anyway, that should Save us around $300-$500 if Brad's Repairs Hold.  If not, well, then we'll replace it and The Granddaughter will still cover the Cost she said.  *Smiles*  She doesn't mind Saving the Money for just going out and looking Sweet and Cute for about Five Minutes and telling him she was covering the Cost for her Gramma.  *Winks*  She said she looked a bit Busted that day, but on her worst day she still looks Cute, so... whatever.  No Old Lady is gonna get Hooked Up like that.  *Ha ha ha* 

I didn't Feel so Good Today, got enuf Sleep, got enuf to Eat, still felt Weak and just Worn Out, so decided not to do anything I'd intended to go out and try to do.  Just Chillin' at Home seems the best Idea with how I'm Feeling so Wrung Out and Weary.  I didn't even get Dressed until 1:00 p.m. either, but I am Dressed now and did some Work Inside the House this Morning, so I haven't been a total Slacker either.  Since the Kiddos made a wonderful Breakfast for us, I Volunteered to Clean Up the Kitchen.  Then I Priced some Inventory in the Living Room with my rolling Pricing Cart, which I can Wheel around to where ever I Need it to be to Work on stuff.  It's nice enuf Outside to do it in the She Shed, only in the Seventies Temperature Wise... but, I enjoyed watching TV while doing it.  It's just Smalls but I'll take them in Wednesday Night coz I'm filling in another Shift for someone.

So many folks with Regular Shifts either Call Out or just don't show up to Work their Shifts now that it's becoming more commonplace to be asked to fill in for them.  I decline sometimes and accept sometimes, depending on my own circumstances and Mood... AND... most importantly, who else is Working that Shift.  I want NO Drama and Headache Co-Workers.  Lately we haven't had any Customers who are, they've been a good and mostly Younger Crowd coming in who are really easy to Serve and know what they want and are looking for.  Mostly the Pokemon or Sports Cards Merch, which they will spend any amount on.  Creepily a lot of the Militaria that the Young are seeking now is Nazi shit, and I don't even like touching that shit, I'd Burn it all, Bad Energy attached to it all.  They were all Devils with fucked up Mindset.

 

And what is Creepier to me than the Merch is the Demographic of Young Man desiring it these days.  They are very polite, normal looking Young White Men, Aged about 20-35 and you wouldn't think they Get Off on the Nazi Genre of Militaria Merch, but they REALLY do.  They don't look like they'd be Neo-Nazis and infatuated with Hitler and the Third Reich.  A scant few of them will feel uncomfortable due to my Energy, I say nothing but my Thoughts are LOUD and I know that Energy gets picked up on too... when someone's Negative Energy and Freakish Ways come up against Positive Energy.   So, some will make unnecessary Excuses as to Why they're SO interested in the Nazi Memorabilia.  Listen, I don't Care really, I just want nothing to do with it or with People who Love what it Represents and wanna surround themselves with it or get Orgasmic about it.  Or go in that direction here in America.  Ewwww.

Usually the Nazi Dealer asks too much for it so they just like to fondle it and then not Buy it, I would prefer we not even carry it, but, it is part of History and a Military Antiquity.  Some would argue it's all important and that is subjective, I just wouldn't have any of it in my Home.  Or have to explain why I would either.  If I walked into someone's Home I know and they had an area paying Homage to all that Nazi shit, I'd be reconsidering my Relationship with them, I ain't gonna Lie.  If you even have a Confederate Flag hanging up on your Property, or any KKK shit, I'd have my Reservations about you and draw some conclusions.  *LOL*  Some History is Offensive, I Get It, and we shouldn't FORGET Bad History or Whitewash it away for sure, so that we don't Repeat that kind of shit and those kinds of atrocities against Humanity again.  But, they tend to wanna only Cancel Culture the Positive stuff, not the Negative stuff now.

Anyway, most of what folks Collect aren't Creepy.  And I like the Weird and the Wonderful, along with Oddities, so I have my Macabre Sensibilities that might Creep some folks out too, I acknowledge that Fact.   I have some Morbid stuff and some stuff that Scares some folks.  *Winks*  To each their own I guess is my stance.   What I don't wanna expose myself to or surround myself with, be it an inanimate Object or a Person, I just don't.  Some folks get themselves all Twisted about what someone else is doing or what they Like, I don't, if it's not my Jam I don't expect that it won't be yours, I don't really Care if it is.  But, I may Judge you accordingly.   And you can pass some judgment on me too by whatever your Standards happen to be, I don't Care nor mind.  Just stay in your own Lane and don't step in my Waters then, and we'll be mutually Respectful about our obvious differences. 

I had bought a little Rock Science National Geographic Mega Gemstone Dig Kit from SAVERS for Four Bucks where you dig the Gemstones {15 of them} out of a Chalk Block like a Geologist.   It was Four Bucks of Fun, I think they need to give these to Nursing Homes rather than having it just be for Kids.   *LOL*  Princess T and I spent over an Hour out on the pack Porch, me digging them out with my little Tool and Brush, her cleaning them off in a Water Bath and identifying them.  They have a Book that comes with it, we got 14 of the 15 so far but it got Dusk and I couldn't see to continue.  We got some very nice Specimens and Two disappointing ones.  The Geode and the Quartz Crystal were shitty and too small of the Specimens, we were robbed I tell you!  *Bwahahahaha*  But more of our Specimens were better than expected.  And usually the Kit Retails for around $27, so I can't complain for my $4 I only Paid for a brand new Donated one.

My Pyrite was really nice sized, my Geode really sucked and was like a tiny chip of the shitty interior of one, my Quartz Crystal was only the size of my little Fingernail and looked nice but puny, my Amethyst looked nothing like the Photo and was a smooth polished Rock Specimen but a nice one, my Sodalite looked more like Lapis and was very nice, my Rose Quartz was very pale but nice and a good size, my Fluorite was a smooth polished Specimen and nice, my Aragonite was nothing like the pix but a much bigger Specimen, my Red Jasper was very nice, so was my Hematite, the Desert Rose we haven't dug out yet, my Agate looked nothing like the pix either but was a nice Agate of a different Color entirely, my Snowflake Obsidian was really nice and just like the pix, my Tiger's Eye was spectacular and very much like the pix and a nice size, my Aventurine looked nothing at all like the pix coz mine was sharp and more like an Arrowhead in shape and quite pale.

All the Kiddos were Laughing coz I was having such a good time doing it and so was Princess T, she watched me the entire time and we'd get excited when we discovered another one in the Chalk dig.  You have to be Patience, which, isn't one of my Virtues, but I think I did better than most Kids would doing this Project.  *LOL*   I couldn't see Younger Children having the Patience to do this and without damaging their Specimens.  You can cheat they said, by soaking the Chalk block to muddy it and make it easier, but we didn't do that, I didn't wanna cheat.  But my Hands were covered in Chalk Dust, probably my Lungs are coated with it too, and my Fingertips feel Raw now.  *LOL*

 

This is what the Kit includes, Excavating is Fun if you dig that kind of digging.  *Winks pun intended*  I had a good time, my Granddaughter did too, and we got some nice Gemstone Specimens cheaply as well as getting more than our Four Bucks worth of Fun out of the Investment.  *Smiles*   We are avid Rockhounds and Collectors of Gemstones, Crystals, Precious Metals, Rocks and Artifacts like Arrowheads and Primitive Stone Tools and Pottery Shards.   Arizona is Rich in those kinds of things and we used to do it all the time as a Family, I miss doing it in fact.  The Man and his Friends used to Prospect and go Gold Panning, they did find Gold and Stake Claims back then.  There's still Gold in them thar Hills of Arizona.  And Arizona is known for some of it's Turquoise, Copper, Silver, Gold, Peridot, Fire Agate, Amethyst, Malachite, Azurite, Lapis, Petrified Wood, Garnets, Arizona Gem Silica {a Rare and Valuable form of Chalcedony}, Agate, Apache Tears, Lava Rock and Jasper.

Having some Family Time with one of the Grands doing something pleasurable and Fun Together was a nice way to wrap up the day.  The TV has been off most of the day coz just coverage of that farce of an Assassination attempt was just too fixated upon and pontificated upon.  Had it been a Serious Shooter Incident like what happens far too often to the General Public, I'd of had Interest, but, this was another faked sham this Administration embellished upon.  I have no doubt the Man they caught isn't Well and could have certainly done some harm.  But, the whole Staged magnification of it by this Regime was too far fetched and just gave them more excuses for Hate filled rhetoric, which amplifies Violence and Division, and fixate more on their Ballroom than the Mental Health Crisis and Gun Violence or Political Violence caused by Elected Officials vilifying one another constantly and making Americans Enemies with one another rather than working together to Solve Social Issues the American People really Care about and Need Solutions for.

I think Donnie Two Dolls wants to Imagine he's gonna be thought of as a Great Leader that Assassins want to eliminate, the likes of the Kennedys, Martin Luther King, Jr., and Abraham Lincoln.   He's SO not... if he gets taken out it will definitely be becoz of the damage he's causing America and the World, and the Threat he poses in a Bad way, not becoz he's doing anything Great for America or Mankind in Positive ways like those Assassinated becoz of the Great Changes they were making or trying to make, for a better World and a better and more Enlightened United State of America.  They had Righteous Causes, he hasn't got a Righteous way of Being, in his whole Body, and hasn't done anything for anyone but himself in his whole Lifetime.  He's a horrible Human and depraved.  I'm ashamed we have Leadership the likes of him and his Sycophants.

The Granddaughters and some of the Great-Grands, and our Oldest Daughter, went and spent some Time with Baby long haired Calves, too Cute.   The Granddaughter had Dyed her Hair about the Color of the one Calf.  *LOL*   Whatever Farm it was at had like a Livingroom Setup in a Barn Room with Sofas, Armchairs and such, with the Straw on the Floor and the Animals there for interacting with and for Photo Ops.  They just didn't take enuf Pixs of it all, but the ones Shared were sure Cute and it looked like a good time was had by all Three Generations in attendance together.   It's nice that those living there in Pittsburgh have a lot of extended Family close by so they can spend such quality time together and have all the Kiddos who are Cousins Growing Up Together.  The Man's Ex, her Family have always lived there and just taken Vacays anywhere else.   So, nobody leaves.

 

I Love Petting Zoos and Farms, took both Generations of Kiddos to them all of the time.   Thought of getting Goats, Peacocks and Pot Bellied Pigs for here, Chickens too, but haven't yet.   The first Three wouldn't serve any real Purpose... but the Chickens would.  And, we're supposed to be getting a Bunny from Gypsy James, tho' he hasn't contacted me about it, so, I dunno.   I told him 2 Weeks ago we'd take one, or if he knows what Gender, Two of the same Gender, for the Grandkids.  I haven't heard back but bought some Bunny Food.   I was looking Online at costs tho' and they aren't an inexpensive Pet to Own really, so I won't be Sad if he found Homes for all of them or wanted to Sell them instead of just giving them away.  I don't know he Breeds them for Resale or not actually, didn't think to ask, he just put it out there that Cinna Bun, his Female, had a large Litter he wanted to find Homes for.  If it's like Kittens, most people just wanna find a good Home and give them away.

As I said, the Memes have been brilliant even if the News Coverage has been as much of a farce as the whole Staged Event.  They seem oblivious that most of us think it is all Faked.  I haven't met a single Person so far that doesn't think it was another Staged Pretend Assassination Attempt used merely as a Political Theater Tool and a total Distraction.   That's how out of Touch with the American People most of the Media and all of the Politicians now are.  Either that or they think we're so gullible now they can Spin any Bullshit and we'll take it as Serious and Truthful.  Mebbe the hard core MAGA will, but the majority of the Country aren't a bunch of Rubes and Marks.   

They keep saying they WANT us to be better than all of this, but there's absolutely not a single one in Politics or the Media that is, so why would they expect the rest of us to rise above the fray they're instigating and causing intentionally by what they do, what they say, what they cover and how they're covering it for the Public to consume?  They've Created this pathetic shitshow America has now become and now we don't Trust or Believe any of them.  Why should we?   So the Best they can now Hope for is Skepticism by most of us, perhaps a scant few Believers, and a great many just thinking it's all Lies, Smoke & Mirrors, trying to Manipulate, further Exploit and Weaponize us all. 

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If you know for sure what's at Play here, please let me know... winks... Dawn... The Bohemian