** Disclaimer ... we're going long, Strap In...**
How Cute are these Spider Specialty Donuts at "Dunkin' Donuts"? Except for Halloween Decorations making it look Seasonally appropriate, there's not that much about the way the rest of the Property looks, inside or out, that I'm particularly happy with right now. Both interior and exterior needs a lot of attention to deferred maintenance right now. The Weed Trimmer went on the fritz again, and inside I haven't had the motivation to do more than basic stuff. I did get a load of Laundry done and have kept up on that... everything else is faltering again. Remember I had made great progress? Well, I couldn't maintain it apparently and it shows. I did foof the Showroom and Locked Case at the Antique Mall, but never got around to Purging or Curating Inventory and taking out anything stale that just wasn't Selling... or marking it down either. In the interim some of it has Sold! *LOL and Shrugs*
Our Home is clean enuf to be healthy and dirty enuf to be happy. So I don't want to swing to obsessive housekeeping just to feel good about how it looks all the time. And it's heated up again to be in the 90's so getting into the Non-Climate Controlled Spaces is delayed once again, which is maddening. Coz I can bring things out of the House and into those Spaces just to get at least the House in Order and Editorial looking. Not that a Decor Magazine is coming or anything, and the Guests are the Kiddos Ages except for Nurse Remi, so I have nobody to impress or Host. Nurse Remi always commends me on how good everything looks, and how nice is smells, so she must go into some Houses of Horrors with Clients I suspect? *Bwahahahaha* Becoz she seems quite Sincere about her compliments, so mebbe it's me being harsh in my own critiques... but, I doubt it. I Scored this Large 1960's Dam Troll for $4 at SAVERS, Color me Happy.
I do think this Home lends itself more to a Minimalistic approach of Interior Decorating to look it's best. And... that's not me... Minimalistic would not describe my Aesthetic or Lifestyle. *LMAOROTF* I've had it looking that way on rare instances, I have Pictures to Prove it! But going back to that would be a helluva Process over Time. Probably a whole lot of Time, which... tick-tock, we're running out of like an Hourglass just about out of Sand on one side and needing to be flipped over. The Niece had a candid conversation with me last Night when she came Home from working late again. We kept it brief but it was deep, she's the most Worried about me, mostly coz she's the 'Newest' living here and our Normal of coarse isn't Normal at all from either a subjective or objective perspective. I know this, but, it's OUR Abnormally Normal.
Her Observation is that I've provided a lot for everyone and they've all gotten so used to it they don't realize how good they have it and perhaps take too much of it for granted. That would be a very acute Observation, I know how good we have it, the rest sometimes do seem a bit oblivious as to how much it takes to Maintain the illusion of Paradise with no Troubles. *Bwahahahahaha* The Niece likened me to being the Wizard of Oz here. The ordinary person behind that Curtain making Oz seem Idyllic and pulling all the necessary Levers to keep it's Inhabitants living within The Emerald City in a Style of which they've all become accustomed. But the Wizard has limitations and isn't really a Wizard at all, just a Person, Maintaining Oz and making it seem Magical and Easy... when there are Wicked Witches and their Minions everywhere outside of Oz's Walls. She could be Right.
She Thanked me profusely for being able to be on The Yellow Brick Road and in Oz, such that it were, coz this is the most Peaceful and feeling Safe and Secure she's been in Years. She said she doesn't think, except for The Daughter, that the rest fully realize the perils of being outside of Oz's Protection. To some degree the Guys all do KNOW, they've all been outside of the Protective Borders I've erected here at Oz. Princess T is the only Insulated one whose never lived outside of my Protections or beyond Oz. So, yeah, she's fairly Clueless about how she'd make it outside my Protection, but does realize the World isn't a Nice place and many Struggle every day. She knows too many at Work now to assume otherwise. But while here they sometimes forget how perilous it would be for any of them to have to be out there permanently without Oz's Protection or if The Wizard croaks with no replacement Wizard.
I'd like to try to last another Decade, I don't know I'd want to last longer than that to be perfectly Honest. I have no illusions or delusions about 80 being my tipping point of assuming I could do any of this beyond that point, I would be deluding myself. That Decade in between is even sketchy on how long I could or would hold up, hold it down, and keep it together enough? The Weather turned crappy again, it's gloomy and cloudy and I don't know if it will lift again midday or not? The Weather has been so Schizo there's no predicting it, in a single Day it can be shitty and then glorious, holding or not holding, vacillating back and forth like a Yo-Yo within Hours! It's hard to even know how to dress when it's in the 50's and then in the 90's or over 100 in a single Day! That's a big spread to navigate even your Wardrobe choices!
I don't want this to be a Doom & Gloom Post tho', so let's Move On. Ever since I got my new Crown on my Teeth have been feeling Sensitive and on Edge. I think that happens every time I have some major Work done tho' so I'm powering thru it. The New Crown feels good and not problematic, but the one next to it now doesn't, and a Tooth above it either. It's the far back Molar that got recently Crowned on the Left Side of my Mouth and so I'm eating mostly on the Right Side for now to let things settle down some. I don't have a lot of Dental Issues coz I take good Care of my Teeth, eat well, Floss, use good quality Brushes and Toothpaste and do the preventative Maintenance regularly. But, the Teeth are only slightly Younger than I am. *Winks* And apparently I'm grinding in my Sleep due to Stress... Imagine that! *Bwahahaha*
I thought about doing some Environmental Cleanup Today coz it is nice and Cooler out there, around 73 and Cloudy with a nice Breeze. If I go to a Mountain Park then perhaps I can get The Man to get out of the Car and engage a little bit, mebbe even develop a little appetite if Dining Alfresco like a Picnic? Sometimes he just likes the Drive and change of Scenery, so I guess that's Good Enough for him now? Today our Social Security Checks finally hit, latest they have hit all Year, at least in Nov. and Dec. they'll hit much earlier. I finally found the Site that tells you when to expect your Check every Month for a whole Year, since, it almost never hits the same time every Month. Now I can finish paying Bills we still owe.
I got Paul from India or the Philippines again to pay my T-Mobile Bill, I guess John is on Vacation or Quit? *LOL* I keep trying to find someone there who can generate a Paper Bill for me, Paul thinks he can, we'll see. Otherwise I have to call the damned thing in every Month and be on Hold and then make them process a Payment I authorize but without knowing my PIN, a Safe Word, Password, some Magic Word, or use some App to verify I'm who I say I am. *Eye Roll* I told Paul that if any random Person EVER calls and wants to Pay my Bill, just let 'em Paul, I'll be Fine with that. *Bwahahaha* So, Paul processed my Payment some kind of way without all of the Data they think they require for me to Pay.
But only after I told Paul, Listen Paul, I don't Care if I can Pay you right now or not actually. If you can't make it happen right now, I won't Pay you and I'll just pay someone else their Bill instead and T-Mobile can go to the Bottom of the List, I'm Okay with that. And if you turn off any of our Phones I'll just do Business with one of your Competitors, they're eager for our Business all the time, even giving out Free Fancy Phones. So, Indian or Filipino Paul made it happen. *Winks and Laughs* So, now our Cellphone Service should be uninterrupted. And Cox, our Cable, Internet and Landline Company got bought out by Spectrum, so we'll see how they are to do Business with? Their Bill looks better than Cox's did and mebbe they'll process payments more efficiently, we'll see? At least they do generate Paper Bills still if you insist.
You'd think some of these Companies don't wanna get Paid with how convoluted they make the Process to now. And I'm sure they have plenty of defaults so they should appreciate all the more those of us who want to pay them, and on time, or early. *Eye Roll* But if they ever wanna put something into Collections then I could always use the Free Therapy that provides me on their Dime. The Son uses it now too and said they never call him back ever again once he's told them all his Troubles. And he feels so so much better after dumping his Issues of Life on some Collector for about an Hour or so. Or until they insist they have to hang up, coz they certainly ain't getting Paid and now that's evident and they know exactly WHY. Coz they now know his whole Sad Life's Story, which ain't improving anytime soon. *Bwahahahahaha*
He told them things that had nothing to do with his Debts... Relationship Problems, Car Troubles. Not getting enuf Hours and getting by on Part Time Minimum Wages while living in his Parent's Guest Bedroom. Fighting Alcoholism and the occasional Scorpion Sting, which he's allergic to, but, coz we can't seem to eradicate those lil fuckers and every so often one gets inside and seems to come straight for him. *LOL* He said the Collector clearly gets blindsided by this reaction to a Collection Call and doesn't know what to do, what to say, and certainly never wants to make that follow-up Call. Tho', like I Schooled him to, be sure to ask them when they'll be Calling again coz you now Feel so much better, Thank them, and say you don't wanna Miss that Call, you'll put it on your Calendar for the next 'Session'. *Winks and Laughs Maniacally* He even got Letters Writing Off some of what he Owes so they'll be Done with him Forever, they Hope. *Smiles*
It's not like they're sending over Sal to break your Legs or anything yet with Medical Debts or Essential Services. And you Would Pay them if you Could Pay them... but, if you simply can't, well, you can't pull Money you don't or will never have out of your Ass now, can you? And the Economy under this unprecedented Corrupt Administration Grafting and Grifting, Extorting and Selling Out everyone everywhere, isn't Helping matters for anyone but making themselves Richer. Donnie Two Dolls has Sold Out Ukraine now and I'm sure secured himself some Sweet Personal Deal and Business Transaction from his Bros in China and Russia. Elon showed you how much Power he has to shut down Star Link or any of the other Tech shit Society relies heavily upon now, even for National or Global Security, on a whim or just becoz he can. Others may follow suit with that leverage they have over everyone and everything. Fun Times!
Oh, wait, I Promised not to go down the Rabbit Hole Free Fall of Doom & Gloom, didn't I? Sorry, the slippage on that slippery Slope we're all careening down is just too Tempting to say nothing about it. Like so many others are remaining Silent about all of it or pretending it's not happening or won't Touch them personally. We'll see how that Works Out for them? *Bwahahahhaa* It's not just gonna Touch you alright, bend over, coz you're gonna get violated in every kind of way you ever Imagined you wouldn't ever want to. Or mebbe you do or would, I don't know how much abuse you're kinky enuf to get into or who you'd crawl into Bed with. Clearly many crawled into Bed with Donnie Two Dolls when they Voted for him, not once, but Twice. So, they're his Bitches now, all of them.
They generally don't even seem to recognize they Prostituted themselves to and for him. Most for the remote Hope of cheaper Eggs and Gas. Which made them real low life, low cost MAGA Street Whores, and quite the Bargain to be Pimped and shamelessly exploited. They certainly made their Pimp enormously Rich on their Backs. He's never had such a Stable of folks to exploit and do his dirty Deeds, done dirt Cheap. And they've been as Loyal as a Hooker to her Pimp too, no matter how much abused. And Melania is perhaps the only Hooker benefitting from any of it, she can't wait for that Fucker to hurry up and Die, more than any of us, I'm sure! Coz she's had to crawl under it, so she's been a Street Soldier... coz I wouldn't have crawled under that if they were Bombing Phoenix!!! And Honestly, of all the People he's ever Hired, the only One who was probably most competent to do the Job was Stormy Daniels. *LOL*
Well, I went and did Environmental Cleanup at The White Tanks Mountain Park and ate Brunch up there. I didn't take The Man coz he hasn't been feeling well and isn't eating well so I didn't wanna waste more Money on something he wouldn't eat. I'm tired of eating his leftovers, which is a whole Meal he didn't even touch, coz I don't wanna just throw it out, but after 2 Days it's obvious he's not gonna eat it. It was overcast and Cooler, only got to around 86 so was pleasant. It got me in a better Head Space to be up there around Nature and there weren't a lot of visitors to the Park, just a few Hikers. But I got a whole Bag full of Aluminum Cans and an Elderly Couple Thanked me for collecting something so it wouldn't end up in a Landfill. There are those who appreciate what we do for the Environment even if they don't participate in the doing of it.
I had gone to "Church's" for Chicken, they had an inexpensive Meal Deal and I also tried their new Hot Wings, which they have about 7 Flavors. I tried their Dry Rub Hot Lemon Pepper Hot Wings, not bad, a little too overspiced on the Dry Rub being thickly applied, but a meaty Wing that was tender and tasty. I just got the Meal Deal in their Spicy Chicken, also very good, and I Love their Honey Biscuits. Felt nice to eat it all Alfresco up there in a Beautiful Environment that was so Peaceful and Familiar. It's always been one of my favorite places so I Buy Annual Passes to the County Parks System to go all Year. Back in the Day it all used to be Free to go to County Parks. Then they started charging a nominal Fee unless you worked for the County, which, I did when I worked for the D.A.'s Office, so, it was still Free to me. Now it's $10 a Visit so you might as well Buy the Annual Pass, they give a Disabled Veteran/Spouse Discount. But each of us has to have our own Pass and be in the Vehicle coming in.
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I stopped at the lovely big White Tanks Mountain Library, which has a Scenic View of the Desert and Mountain Range. They are lean on Library Books, I have more Books at Home!!! But I picked up some more Vegetable and Herb Seeds from their Seed Library, Cabbage, Dill, Chamomile, Carrot. The Niece wants to help me fund and build our Gabion Wall above ground Victory Garden. I ordered a large Gabion Wall long Planter Cage from a Non-Profit on E-Bay that has Free Shipping and was only $145. If the Niece contributes to that it's gonna produce Cheap ability to grow a lot of our own Food here on the Back Acreage. We can add to the Wall as we need to in sections to grow more. I want to become more Sustainable ourselves and we enjoy eating Fresh Produce and Herbs that we grow for ourselves. The Proceeds from Sales of this Seller go to helping underprivileged Kids from Developing Countries receive an Education. And belongs to the E-Bay For Charity Sellers.
Now we can go Rock Hunting for River Stones to fill it, since it will arrive before the EOM and I'll have the Kiddos put it together where we want it to be. Which is against the exterior of the Block Wall surrounding our Pool on the West Side of it facing out towards the Pasture Area. I am thinking again about getting Chickens coz The Daughter can get a Chicken Coop for Free that a Rancher will just give to her if she has Jason Transport it for her here. She probably could get Chickens Free too if she asked. The Friend she Cleans for of mine out in Chandler has Chickens in a regular Residential Back Yard, we have much more Space for Chickens and they keep Bugs and Scorpions down by foraging for Natural Foods. So it's more than about just the Eggs and The Daughter has Raised Chickens in Mexico and The Young Prince Raised Chickens when he lived in the Hippie Commune in Washington State. I'd let them run free on the Back Acreage, a lot of our Neighbors already do that, and other Mini Farms and Ranches do, and their Chickens are just Fine.
Forgive me if I replicate some State Fair Pixs on this Post that I might have already put in a previous Post. Memory Care Issues if I forget to turn them Sideways in the Photo Archives to know I've used them already. *Smiles* I figure the Imagery is Cheerful and Uplifting even if Life isn't right now and my Mood isn't Stable or Regulated too well lately. I've had some really good times, but the Funk sometimes still Torments the Thoughts and my Mood, even when everything is going alright. I'm Okay, I've just had some Mental Health Days to move thru. And The Family is giving me Space to move thru it at my Pace and with my way of handling it. Today was a better one and I took enuf "Me Time" to come back to Center some. I feel more Balanced and that's good. I think Tomorrow I may take The Man and I in to "Safeway" to get our Annual Flu Shots and COVID Boosters, it's Time. We'll get Coupons knocking $50 off Groceries bought there for getting them there and they have a good Pharmacist and Office they do it in beside their Pharmacy.
Eve at Work is an Anti-Vaxxer and too entrenched to have her Mind Changed even tho' she has a precious 2 Year Old Daughter whose never been Vaccinated against anything. I think it poses major risks for the Child and some Public Schools are now saying they can't/won't enroll Unvaccinated Students and put other Children at Risk, which is Wise. Let the Anti-Vaxxers put their own Family at Risk, not everyone else's. And Home School their Kids or send them to some Fundie affiliated Schools run by Churches that promote such foolishness based on Conspiracy Theories rather than Medical Knowledge or Science. If you go to Old Cemeteries you'll see how before Vaccines how many Children Died way before Adulthood from now preventable Illnesses and Diseases. We're now having massive outbreaks of Measles Killing Children and Adults, becoz it was eradicated for over 50 Years until Anti-Vaxxers and RFK, Jr. put those poor Kids and their Families at risk to Die from something preventable.
If someone wants to live like it's the 1800's or like they're in a 3rd World Country rather than receive 1st World Care, they only have themselves to blame when it all goes Bad. I don't even try to Debate, Argue, or Change the Minds and Hearts of those running with Low or Misguided Information. I'd Hope nothing Bad happens to them from the ignorance, but it just might. During COVID I stayed completely away from the Covidiots. And some I knew did indeed Die from it, horribly, but they played Russian Roulette during a Globally Deadly Pandemic and caught the Bullet in the Chamber. I didn't attend any of the Funerals. Those who just got Lucky, well, their Luck could run out and not hold... Natural Selection is always at work. Even Animals know not to put the Stupidest and most Careless of the Herd in Charge of Protecting it.
Friday Morning is the Memorial for Mando and I'm taking The Daughter to it, she wants to go with me rather than with Friends who are attending. So, I expect she'll get Home by Tomorrow sometime in order to be here to get ready for it Friday Morning. I want to attend, I know so many of his Family... and tho' he and The Daughter definitely had serious Issues in their Relationship, he did a lot for me here at the Property and was always nothing but Respectful to The Man and I. He just couldn't always get along and Play well with other Family Members and Friends and that eventually made him Unwelcome here. And, he knew I didn't like how he treated our Daughter and that I thought the Relationship had gone Toxic for both of them.
And, I began to suspect he was Using in order to Manage the Pain from his Terminal Illness. And that he had brought Drugs onto my Property and that could have risked the Sobriety of those in our Family who had gotten Clean, I couldn't put everyone at risk for his clouded judgment. Since the Doctors had suspended all his Treatments and the Rx he was receiving wasn't Managing the Pain Levels he now had and the Suffering was becoming intense. I didn't mind him bringing his Prescription Medications for Pain Management with him to take when he was supposed to, but I have Zero Tolerance for any Illegal Drugs or Substance Abuse of even Prescribed Medications. I think it Negatively impacted his Mind too, the Cancer may have spread to his Brain. And Dying by Vehicular Homicide was unexpected, but perhaps quicker than the Disease would have taken him? And I do think he'd become Unsafe to be around, so I had conflicted feelings and Emotions about his Passing... ranging from Shock and legitimate Sorrow that he got Killed so horribly, nobody deserves to Die like that... but Relief he was no longer a Threat.
The Daughter has Moved On, she's known enough people she Cares about who have Died that the impact, tho' it never gets Easy, she Processes better than most would or could. She said in Mexico it was a Given that Death came more often than it does here in the U.S.. Even when she returned, she was always getting News that someone else she knew in Mexico had now Died. Some by Natural Causes, others, probably not. I spent enuf Years Processing Homicide Files that I know what can happen. Homicides and overall Violent Crime in Metro Phoenix has declined and steadily so, but is still high. The first Three Quarters of 2025 there were roughly over 80, down from 111. And since 2024 the drop of Violent Crimes was by over 1,000 Cases. I know how many Cases we used to have back before I Retired... way higher then than now. But, in 2025 the Homicide Rate in Phoenix was Twice as high as New York City, for perspective. Our City of Avondale is 23% higher in Crime than the National Average... mostly Property Crimes rather than Violent Crimes. So gets a B- to C on the overall Safety Grade.
But, I was looking at the Ratings across the entire Metro area and it's very random where Crime is highest now. A Rating of A+ can be right near an area Rated F now and the places that used to be High Crime and impoverished have improved and places with affluence are getting lower Ratings. Sometimes even in the same Subdivisions there can be a split in which parts of it have different Ratings. Since I'm a statistics person I always check those stats out across Time to know which parts of the City to be more alert in, or live in at various Seasons of Life. Areas decline and other once sketchy areas get Gentrified and improve drastically. I don't know about Rural America since I don't like living Rural and I've got a slew of reasons of why. But from reliable Sources I've heard a lot of Rural Communities have become so depressed that both Drug Use and Crime can be even higher than Urban Communities. I had a Friend who Retired from the Police Force and thought she wanted to live Rural, 'til she checked out Rural areas across the Country and it scared her.
She said Real Estate was suspiciously Cheap and many Towns looked damned near abandoned and had become Tweaker Towns. She felt she'd be fresh Meat to Victimize and it wouldn't be a Safe Space to Grow Older in. She moved to a popular Retirement Community here in the City instead and I think that was a Wise idea. The Retirement Communities with Age Restrictions aren't for me personally, but they generally have Cheaper Real Estate, smaller Homes manageable to maintain, and Senior Activities galore that charge an Annual Fee to participate in, kind of like an HOA Fee. Hers was around $550 a Year, so still Cheaper than a Gym Membership for an Active Senior, with a wide range of places it covered Membership to. Since she moved in at Age 57 she was the Youngster in her Community at the time, most of her Neighbors were quite Geriatric, but still living Independently and Active for their Age. The Woman whose Home she bought had Died in her 90's, most of the Neighbors were in their 80's. Tidy, Quiet Community she could feel Safer growing Old in.
The problem with the 55+ Communities with Age Restrictions is you can't have a Spouse Younger than that! Or have your Children or Grandchildren living with you, or Visiting for more than a few Days, so it was never for Multigenerational Families or those of us who have Family we want to be around a lot. And I noticed the predominant Demographic was quite Homogenous in more than just Age, very Lily White. I personally like living among a broader Demographic of people, of all Ages, all Ethnicities and Cultures, all walks of Life. Variety to me IS the Spice of Life and I Welcome it and am more inclusive. So a very exclusive Community is just not something I'd have a comfort level with or enjoy being around exclusively. Affluent Subdivision Hell taught me that important Lesson. Yeah, living in a Million Dollar Property was very bourgeoisie and for a Minute served Purpose, but I couldn't wait to move and get the Hell out of there, cashing in the Equity as quick as I could Escape. I'd likely feel similar in a Retirement Community and knew that about my own preferences. If it's for you it's great, if not, you'd have regrets.
That said, The Man is Reclusive enuf to live anywhere, he could go Off The Grid entirely and be a Hermit living Happily ever after. He didn't mind Affluent Rural Subdivision Hell coz he Loved the opulence of the Villa, and didn't intend to wanna know anyone there in that dreadful Community anyway. *Smiles* Plus, he was an Old White Man, so he got treated differently than the rest of our Family while we lived there and he knew this fact too. He didn't like how we were treated and so he had contempt for those who practice bias, Hatred and such prejudices. There were a lot of Fundie Religious Types and he knows how to be around those people, I don't, and I don't want to be around them either, becoz of how they behave. I'd rather live near a Criminal than live near anyone of an Extremist Religious Brand. I find Extreme Religions to be more dangerous, unpredictable, disingenuous, and highly prone to Extreme behaviors and "Violence for their god". Whatever version of god they imagine would be righteous to commit Atrocities against Humanity for without conscience, a questionable and skewed Moral Compass or Mercies?
The Man and I got to Sleep In coz Princess T needed Breathing Treatments this Morning and called in Sick to Work. The air quality with these Storms has been bad, it's blown in a lot of particulates in the air and the air has felt heavy. I've even had Allergies and a gritty feeling in my Eyes and heaviness in my Chest... The Man and Princess T have serious Respiratory Issues, so they really aren't feeling good. Plus, this is the time of Year when it gets Cooler, that people start burning Fires and therefore a lot of Smoke hangs in the air from that in the later Evenings and early Mornings. The Metro area will assign No Burn Days when it gets too bad and Modern Homes with Fireplaces aren't allowed to build Wood Burning Fireplaces anymore. Our Fireplace is Wood Burning but oddly, as long as I've now lived here, I've never burnt a Fire in it even tho' it's a really big Wonderful Fireplace I imagined I would. *LOL* I'm such a Pyro the Family is shocked I haven't. I put a bunch of Scented Candles in it to burn at times, but this Home has such thick Burnt Brick Adobe Walls, it holds Heat and Cool very efficiently and well.
So, there's been no Need to light up a Fire, it's plenty Warm enuf Inside without one. I just Like having a Wood Burning Fireplace tho' and have had one in a couple of our Homes and an Electric one in the Villa McManse, which was shit, they don't produce Heat like a Real Fireplace. The Historic Home didn't have one, which is unusual for a Historic Home not to have one, it had Radiators in every Room which had been taken out, and I'm assuming when they installed a Furnace they decided it heated enuf not to need Fireplaces either. The Walls were 14-16 inches thick, so, Honestly, the House stayed Heated or Cooled easily regardless. It didn't even have Air Conditioning until we put one on it and we'd have to keep it on low coz otherwise it would get as Cold as a Meat Locker. *Smiles* The Cottages and converted Carriage House Cottage only needed Window Units at that Property coz they were built solid too. That Historic Property had the lowest Utility Costs and Taxes of any Property I've ever Owned. So Cheap to live there and it was Paid Off easily too.
I ditched the Short Post Concept, I'm just not very good at it and too many were stacking up coz I'd whiz right thru a shortened Post. So if I was on a Bloggy Manic Bender, I'd do several Posts in a Day if they were too short and that was getting Crazy ahead by Weeks then to Publish them. *Smiles* I'm on a Manic Upswing now, which is a relief, I had the Depressive Lows to move thru, Mixed Episodes are more common now I'm Aging. I usually was on a Manic High most of the time when I was Younger with very few Depressive Lows. I almost never Landed my Balloon so to speak. *Smiles* It made me very efficient and I'm Hyper due to Adult ADHD so I was going and going and going constantly. I used to get enormous amounts Done and now... well... not so much as an Old Lady. Tho' I'm told I still do more than most Young People can or would, so I'm only comparing myself to my former self's Energy Levels and extreme Hyperactivity. *Ha ha ha* I can still work Circles around an average 20 Year Old and more than keep Pace with most Children. I just don't WANT to anymore. *LOL* I'm trying to slow my roll and slow down some on Purpose.
It is hard for me tho' to see things left undone or have anyone around me who moves Slow or leaves things unfinished, it's an irritant and I've got to reach a place to where it doesn't irritate me so much. *Le Sigh* If you're slow moving or slow thinking and can't make quick decisions... I want you out of my way. *Bwahahahaha* I know I'm one of those to snap at people, Do Something, Lead, Follow, or get the Fuck out of my Way!!! And then I will Steamroller right over the Slow ones or Drown them in my Wake. *Winks* It tests the limits of my Patience, of which that's never been a Virtue of mine anyway, now that The Man is SO SLOW! OMG, the Kiddos remind me he can't Move Fast, Think Fast or make decisions anymore and so to extend some Grace and don't be Mean. Yeah, apparently I'm Mean, that's the general consensus among The Asylum Inhabitants and they are unanimous, so I guess I'm Mean? *Shrugs and Sighs*
But... Lord have Mercy... that Walker... even the Sound it makes... has me twitching and restless!!! So it takes ALL of the Restraint in me to wait on him. It's like dragging along a Boat Anchor and it tires me out Emotionally as well as Physically... so we have to shorten our Outings more for my Sake than his. *LOL* He tries, I know he does, abiding Love is all that keeps me from Snapping tho'! *Bwahahahaha* And, they have also told me, the Residents of said Asylum, that if I were NOT Mean, nobody would be Scared and have Reverential Fear of me and the place would probably fall apart and not have the discipline to behave... and they could be Right? Coz this Crew rolls Deep in The Crazy, and if I wasn't Nurse Ratchet sometimes it would be the Residents running the Asylum and a "One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest" out of Control melee that would go Wheels Off the fucking Rails immediately.
And, I'm a Control Freak, so if I've gotta be Ringmaster of this here Shitshow and these are my Flying Monkeys, they must be Behaviorally appropriately Training fucking Flying Monkeys, that are up under Control, coz I can't Function in Chaos. And Behavior Tolerated is Behavior Accepted. There's never a good excuse for Bad Behavior. Nor do I want to Deal with Drama or Headaches, if you even Smell like Drama or a Headache, we're gonna have us a Situation, you and I. So, we've apparently established that I'm Mean Enough to have everyone and everything up under Control and I'm Fine with that Dynamic and Leverage, coz it beats Chaos reigning. They know I can be Nice, until or unless anyone gives me a Reason NOT to be Nice. I prefer to be Nice actually and not a big ole' Meanie. *Winks* But I don't make apologies if you bring forth Dark Dawn to have to Deal with coz that would have been YOUR Choice, not mine. I wake up as Dawn Of The Light every fucking Morning and keep Walking in The Light for as long as anyone lets it Shine. But I can go to The Dark Side on the turn of a Dime if you choose to Play me Hard like that too. I don't Care who you choose to meet.
Besides, I'm Living with and Caring for a Retired Government Assassin with Traumatic Brain Injury AND Dementia, Two Schizophrenics with Multiple Personality DID Disorder that have 11 Personalities between them, an Autistic Bipolar ADHD Male Alcoholic, and a 21 Year Old with Health Issues along with Social Anxiety and Bipolar Disorder... so, it's a Full Dance Card to Manage and expected to be Nice all the time. You try it without losing your shit every so often, I Double Dare ya! I have to be as Tough and unwavering as a Marine Drill Sargent! *Bwahahahahaha* LATER: Well, we're all Vaxxed Up now, The Man and I, there was only one other Elderly Couple getting theirs and we were first. The Coupons for getting our Shots there Saved us $30 on our Groceries. I got The Man a Carrot Cake Slice and he picked a couple of Potato Salads out of the Deli. Then I took him to "Baskin Robbins" for a Milkshake, so at least I'll get something down him today in the way of semi-nutrition. *LOL*
So, other than dodging Menacing Seniors careening around a "Safeway" like it was an Obstacle Course Gauntlet, it was a nice Outing. *Smiles* The Weather is fabulous Today, very Breezy and 84, so it feels Cooler. Puffy Clouds dot the Skies and we'll probably get more Weather from the Clouds building up, but later Tonight. It Stormed last Night and we got a lot of Rain with it, but no Storm damages. Princess T is feeling better by Mid-Afternoon, the Mornings and Evenings are worse for those with Respiratory Issues, but, she seems Fine now and is doing her Laundry. I did ours Yesterday, with so many Generations and People Sharing Space, you have to coordinate getting your turn at the Washer and Dryer. *Smiles*
The Son bought Specialty Meatza Pizza and Italian Cheese Bread after Work so nobody had to cook Lunch. The Niece still hasn't made that Emerald Chicken she got all the Supplies for almost a Week ago now. I don't think she Cooks much and procrastinates to where if she says she's going to make something, don't hold your Breath or go without eating, coz you'd starve. It's probably a good thing she's remained Single and has no Children or Pets to keep Alive. *LOL* She herself doesn't have good Nutritional Habits and isn't used to eating as Healthy as we do or the portion control we exercise, so it's been transitional for her. She said no wonder our Family was always Slender and her Family always had to watch their Weight... now she sees why. *Smiles* I have noticed a lot of American Families overeat or/and don't eat Healthy or practice good Nutrition... so no wonder Obesity is high in the U.S.. I'm pretty sure if I'd never had to have a Hysterectomy I'd of stayed more Slender.
We eat good foods but the portion sizes even at Restaurants are always served as a Single Meal, but always are 2-3 Meals for us. I could never eat that much in a single sitting, nor would I want to, it would be uncomfortable and feel like gluttony to me. I'm even shocked at the portion sizes so many people serve to little Children, I can't even eat that much and I'm sure my Adult Stomach is way larger than an Infant's or Small Child's who shouldn't be given that much food!!! They're being set up for poor Nutritional Habits for a Lifetime and premature Health Issues, it's precisely why we have and see so many Fat Kids from an early Age. I always feel a bit angry when I see a morbidly obese Child, to me it's a form of Child Abuse and Neglectful Parenting as surely as underfeeding a Child would be. You shouldn't see a very Young Grade School Aged Girl or Boy who already have big Man Boobs and a big Gut hanging over their Pants and rolls of Blubber, waddling around like Baby Walruses, it's tragic!!!.
