Wednesday, June 19, 2019

Going Junquing... Or Going Thru Withdrawal

I have a Co-Worker Friend who just got back from a Trip back East and indulged in some serious Junquing while he was there.  He said he didn't intend to... or did he... since he brought a Trailer along so I'm highly suspicious!?  *Winks*  But then again, if I was Traveling the Country, I probably would too, so I teased him in good humor.  The Thrill Of The Hunt while on the Road would just be too strong a pull.  It would be too Tempting to resist the Urge to take advantage of what might be available in other parts of the Country that is scarce here.

Now, me personally, I haven't been on a proper Junquing expedition in a Dog's Age.  I'm going thru self imposed Withdrawal actually.  I've been too busy trying to Purge what I've already amassed, so it would have seemed like self sabotage to bring a huge Pick of Objects in on purpose!  Not that The Thrill Of The Hunt holds any less Appeal to me than it ever did, I just cannot justify INTENTIONALLY looking for more stuff to buy.  I will buy the random Object without intention when I stumble across something too good to pass up, but the 5 to 1 Rule goes into full effect.  Yes, if that Object comes IN then Five must go OUT immediately!

If I were to go on a large Pick, then the Math would be outrageous to contemplate just how much would have to then Exit Stage Left in order to hold myself to that solemn Vow!  A Trailer of newly Found Treasures coming IN, would mean a literal House Full of Past Found Treasures would have to then GO OUT!  My Friend had been trying to empty his Garages of his Inventory, I suspect he'll have to start over again now?  *Smiles*  He has some Cool Mantiques and a Man Cave Showroom at our Mall that is very popular, so he'll likely Sell it all eventually and make some Bank off the Road Trip haul.

I can't lie, I do Envy anyone who gets to go Junquing across the Country or Internationally.  They bring back killer merchandise that can't be had in and around the City locally.  But perhaps it's just as well that's not an Option for me or I could get into serious trouble overspending and bringing too much back with me.  You just don't find the places around here where Old Timers have been able to hoard up massive Collections of Cool Salvage on Acreages and in Barns.  Few have Acreages or Barns around here, so their Storage Space for whatever they amass is always severely limited.  It is probably good that I'm severely limited and I should be more limited to curb and contain my Natural Urges to Hunt and Gather!  The Human Magpie in me is strong indeed!

Even contemplating if I were to buy a smaller Home in the Future, kinda throws me into Panic Mode about just how much I'd have to unload in order to do it!  And I don't nearly have the stash of stuff that many incurable Collectors have!  I thought I did, but by comparison and comparing notes about it with them, I'm an Amateur!   Some have surveyed my stash to give an opinion and said I don't have anything to worry about, I don't have that much.  And I'm like SERIOUSLY... Wow, then I might not be as bad off as I had Imagined myself to be!?  *Whew, that's a Relief!*  Of coarse, as in anything, that's entirely subjective of what constitutes Too Much, and whose assessing, right?  

I THINK and fully Believe that I have Too Much and that is the Point... and yet I sit here Blogging Today instead.  Since I just don't want to spend the time tackling it right now and the subsequent Emotional toll it sometimes takes.  Some days I can be in the Mood, some days I just can't bring myself to Deal with it head on.  I had finally gotten my "Stuff To Go Banana Boxes" and filled, down to just Two, so I want to savor that for just a moment.  Before I build another tower of Banana Boxes filled with what else is being Culled.  When I get it down to just a couple Boxes filled, I can Imagine I'm almost Done.  Which is a complete delusion of coarse, but it is Helpful to diminish the feeling of being overwhelmed or it being endless.

Even if I get Villa Boheme' down to what looks Ideal showcased in here, it is a stupid big House.  Alternatives I've been perusing for the Future are half the size of this Property, so there would be that Issue.   Should I get to where I'm 'down' to what would or could fit nicely in a Downsized Forever Home, Villa Boheme' would have half it's Rooms empty!   And you all know how I am about Empty Space!  *Winks*  Right now Princess T's previous Spaces Upstairs are Empty except for some things she has left strewn during moving out of them and is contemplating whether to Keep or have me Donate.  It's KILLING me to see all that Empty Space and not want to Decorate and Style it immediately!

I'm quivering with excitement about Styling it in a way I've Admired in the Magazines and looks nothing like the rest of the House!  Think a Visual similar to this.  But I've Vowed to WAIT... at least a while after it's completely emptied out of every single thing... before delving into that Fantasy!   Another solemn Vow is to glean the rest of the House with whatever I ALREADY HAVE to try to accomplish the Vision and without going Shopping.  Do you wanna know how much restraint that takes my Friends?!   I'll already wander the aisles of Shops that have JUST what would look Awesome for that Vision and indulge myself on the Canvas of my Imagination!  There are some things I know I do not have handy and would Need to purchase to pull it off... but just not yet... WAIT!

I'm thinking upon a Spa Like Retreat in there with a Color Palette not yet explored by me... mostly White and Green with some Black accents.  I am keeping the Walls White *Gasp!*... yep, Imagine THAT if you will!   Me, embracing a Colorless Palette Wall of all things!  What has duly Inspired me you might be asking?   Look above, at a Home I'd Love to be able to buy on the spot right now, if it were in my Price Point, which it isn't by a long shot.  Since it is in the part of the City I've been Jonesin' to Live since the 1970's and near everything I'd want to live near too!   And since whoever did the remodel of this Historic Era Brick Home totally ROCKED it in every way, to where I fell in Lust with every Room of it and every Change they made!   The Simplicity of it is Appealing to me in my Old Age you see... me a Maximalist, is being drawn to Minimalism more!  *Gasp!*

I highly doubt I'd ever get Down to this few Possessions again actually. Realistically it wouldn't be possible for me to part with too much I Love and have Lovingly accumulated over a Lifetime.  Yet, the Fantasy of it is intriguing to me now... the WHAT IF about it doesn't disturb me in the least.  If I did manage to Purge damned near everything, I doubt I'd be all that troubled by having so much Less.  The Man wouldn't care one iota, he is probably the least Materialistic Human on the Planet!  If he just had his Media Chair and Big Screen TV in there, he'd be utterly Content.   My Work load would diminish considerably... and perhaps that is part of the Appeal to me, since to whom much is given, much is required.

Exposed Old Brick Walls are something I'd Trade Off for in a Heartbeat.  You cannot get that in a New Build.   If I could find a Tiny Historic Home that had a lot of exposed Old Brick Walls revealed, I'd HAVE to find a way to Cull enough to be able to move into it!   That is high on my Wish List for the Forever Home right now... a Kitchen like the one pictured above... Wood Floors... Subway and Honeycomb Tiles in White/Black... and some Rooms with exposed Old Brick Walls.   Yes, I would gladly trade Luxury Living just for those Checkbox Items in a much Smaller Historic Home, so that is the long range Plan and Goal I suppose I'm striving towards.  Just not at the inflated Price Point the Inner City is commanding, so it could just be a Pipe Dream and I know this.  But it doesn't stop me Dreaming... and I Need the Luxury of Time, since I'm still so conflicted!


Blessings, Love and Light from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Tuesday, June 18, 2019

The Crazy Stuff People Buy

We had the big 25% Off Sale out of the Locked Cases at our Antique Mall and it was Mad busy and well received.  I don't have any Locked Cases anymore, but I Lucked Out and Sold my massive Vintage Industrial Scale, even tho' it wasn't part of the Sale, it took Four large Men to load it for the Buyer.  I'd be Interested to know how Creatively she'll re-purpose it for a Home?!  As we watched what was some of the most Popular purchases, a Co-Worker Friend was marveling at some of the Crazy Stuff people buy.  He Wonders what they do with it, where do they put it in their Homes or Landscaping?!   I told him I really couldn't be one to weigh in judgmentally on the buying of Crazy Stuff, given my predispositions to the Weird and Wonderful, we both laughed heartily at that.  He's even Sold me some very Strange things he's Sourced and knew just who would appreciate it!  *Winks*  But I knew what he meant, I sometimes think the same thing when I see certain stuff going out the doors and Wonder WTF?!  I suppose it's all subjective really, what constitutes Crazy Stuff, right?!  *LOL*

Those who Collect can be a very Strange Breed indeed!  Doesn't matter WHAT they Collect actually, whatever trips their trigger, they will mos def be Passionate about in the Buying of it, I can tell you that!   We have 'Regulars' that come in who clearly are consummate Collectors of what they really dig and they can't get enough of whatever it is.  I don't even know what their Saturation Point would be in the buying of it, if they even have one?  There's one older Guy who really digs Hot Wheels Cars, he will scrutinize them as intently as if he's buying a real Vehicle!  I've probably taken less time to study a real Vehicle when I'm buying it, than he does to buy a $3-$8 Hot Wheels Vehicle in it's original packaging!  He's bought so many, just while I've provided Customer Service to him, that I can't even Imagine how many he might have at Home on Display?!  I do envision entire Rooms filled with them... and I don't know how many the Manufacturer of Hot Wheels ever made, but I can bet he has the vast majority!  I'd say we have more Mature Adults that Collect certain Toys and Children's Items than we have Children who do!

Certain Genre are really Big to Collectors of them, Disney for example, a myriad of people will Collect anything involving Disney, especially the Pins!  We actually have a Disney Pin Trading Group that meets once a Month at the Antique Mall and they have a large and loyal following of Devotees and really enjoy themselves and getting together with Like Minded Collectors.  I'm really impressed that people remember which Pins they already have once they've accumulated a massive Collection of them, my recollection wouldn't be that good!   Sports Memorabilia, Automotive and Militaria are also Huge with Collectors of those Genre.   I have to confess that some of the Militaria Collectibles from WWII really Creep me out when it comes to the Nazi Stuff, but people who dig it Collect it fanatically!   I suppose much of what I Collect that are Oddities do Creep people out too, different things Creep different people out, that is for sure.   I just can't personally handle the Nazi shit... bad mojo IMO due to the atrocities committed by the Nazis.  It's interesting who buys it tho', and Gets Off on it... you'd be Surprised... and that's even Creepier to me!

My Co-Worker Friend and I laughed about how much of the brightly colored Mexican Metal Yard Art goes out the doors shaped like gaudy Animals and such... and yet we've NEVER seen any in anyone's Yards EVER!   Where does it go we mused?!  Are they Decorating the inside of their Homes with these large Crayola Multi Colored Tin Goats, Chickens, Frogs, Cows, Dogs, Pigs and Flowers, we just don't know?!??!?!  *LOL*   Mebbe everyone keeps it in their Back Yards where ya can't see 'em... because I couldn't see a petty uptight HOA on the face of the Planet that would allow those things to be Displayed out front!?!  *LMAO*  They are hideously Whimsical, I'll attest to that... and they Sell Out quickly, so clearly a lot of peeps dig 'em and are investing in them!  And they are not Cheap, even tho' they look Cheap... people are paying upwards of $60+ each for those things and in some cases well over $100 bucks apiece!

For the uninitiated in Tacky Mexican Metal Yard Art, this would be what we're discussing, in case it's not a hot commodity in your area!?  *Bwahahahaha!*  Now I'm an Artsy Type and I like some really Weird and Crazy shit when it comes to Art, but I've never felt the Need to buy one of these 'Sculptures', tho' I suppose they could 'grow' on ya due to the pure Kitschy Whimsy?  But a lot of people do and they must be going somewhere to be Displayed?!?  We just don't know Where, since Honestly, for as many as have been Sold, one would think you'd see them SOMEWHERE!  But my Friend and I concurred that Nope, we haven't... not a One has been seen Gracing the Yards of any Neighborhood we've ever driven thru or past to date!  Not even in any Neighborhoods I drove past or thru IN Mexico where they're made!  They all must be hiding out back or inside the Homes, we aren't Sure?  *LMAO, sorry, but the Visual of a Home filled with these is something I can't Imagine nor Visualize with a straight face!"   Okay, so mebbe I SHOULD want that one Big Ridiculous Rooster on the far Left, to curb any possibility of falling into a State of Depression?!  *LOL*

No Doc, I don't Need any Meds to control Depression... I have me this Crazy Rooster Art sitting in my Living Room that does the Trick!   Mebbe peeps are self-medicating using gaudy Mexican Yard Art to buoy their Spirits, who knows?  Mebbe my Friend and I should Understand the massive Appeal... but we just don't.  Even more Curious as to Why anyone would come to an Antique Mall to buy one?   But that would be a whole other Post... so we won't even go there!  *Winks*  I just know that if you're the Vendor that's Selling Crazy Stuff people buy like that, well, you're making Bank... so more Power to ya, high five... who knew that the Sale of Crazy shit would be such a Money Maker?!?   And I just can't be a Hater... if you can make Mad Money Selling the Crazy Stuff people buy, Why wouldn't you, that part makes perfect sense to me from a Business perspective!?!   Hey, I once had a savvy old timer whose a Popular Vendor tell me that if people wanna buy Rubber Dog Turds, he's stocking up and cornering that Market with absolutely no Shame in his Game!

And Hey, I've had my own version of The Rubber Dog Turd in Inventory that people can't get enough of and has paid the Rent, so I am not going to judge!  No use having really Cool shit that doesn't Sell, unless you just wanna Decorate your own Home with it or go out of Business holding out for whoever might one day appreciate it if you're trying to Sell it?!   I've seen Vendors who had the Coolest of merchandise go under.  I've seen Vendors of the High End merchandise struggle, because they're not reaching that Impulse Shopper that constitutes about 95% of whose walking thru those Doors!   Those who only Sell the High End merchandise and really Cool Stuff have a LOT Invested in it, so a lot of their Money is tied up while it's not Selling!   I cannot afford my Money not to be Working FOR me, I just don't have enough of it to be tied up too long in something that is not earning me a return on the Investment into it.  I have to go for the Quick Turn and making my Money on the Buy.   Buy low, Sell high... and as Quickly as possible!

I also tend to shy away from the Large items that take up a lot of my Retail Space too, which is Why I was so Jazzed that the Uber Cool, yet Massive, Vintage Industrial Scale finally Turned!   Yes, it Displayed things Nicely and was Attractive as a Display piece until it finally Sold, but pieces like that, no matter how Cool or Trendy, can be a tough Sell and take up too much valuable Real Estate!   So can anything Expensive... since people just don't have the discretionary Money anymore to be overly indulgent in their everyday purchases.  And even if you have that Customer that is Jonesin' badly for it, lets face it, if it takes them Six Months to Save Up to be able to finally Buy it, did you really want it sitting around half a Year in Inventory?   Could you AFFORD to?   Since this is just my Happy Little Hobby, I can't... so I just don't.   You will not find Crazy Expensive and Stupid Large pieces in my Retail Spaces... I simply can't afford it... that's out of my League in the Industry.   Someone whose making a Living doing this, has the correct Client List or Demographic to hawk it to, or has Deep Pockets, I'll let them be the ones to Sell you THAT thing.

I concentrate more on Smalls than I used to when I first began Eight Years ago, because that has become my Bread and Butter.   I didn't initially intend to concentrate on Smalls... or even on Vintage and Collectible Toys... but they Sell so Well I couldn't resist hawking some.   Then when SOME would Sell Out quickly, well, replacement just made sense, so now I keep stocked up on what Sells Well so that I can get a regular Check and not go under.   It's Sad to see the Good Vendors who go under... when they had the Stuff that SHOULD be the Right Stuff... had their finger on the Pulse of what is Trending and how to Merchandise it Beautifully... but just couldn't reach that Demographic regularly enough to sustain them!   I think that is Why many who no longer Sell at Antique Malls or Shows, are now Selling mostly Online instead... you can reach the World that way!   I've thought about Online Selling, I know I could make Bank doing it, but I don't have the Time to Devote to doing it properly.

I've even known Bloggers who did this Professionally and monetized it to where they were making Bank off their Blogs!   I've never made a Penny off of this Space and it was never my intention to.   But, hey, those that made Mad Money off their Blogs, that was impressive to me, I ain't gonna lie!   When I heard some of the numbers, especially of those that specialized with Biz Blogs or Free Graphics Blogs, I was gobsmacked!   I mean Holy shit, had I been able to get on that Bandwagon, Who wouldn't!?!?!?!?!   I think Blogging has eclipsed tho', the paradigm shift always comes with everything that rises in Popularity and then... the eventual decline.   It's rare that any Thing enjoys that sustained Pinnacle, they really would have to keep reinventing themselves constantly to keep relevant.   And that's a lot of Work... and probably Expense... because to make Money you have to spend Money.   Reinvesting in the Business is what any successful one just has to be able to do.

I do think that because I've seen the Crazy Stuff people Buy, that anything COULD be the next Big Thing.   Almost anything COULD Trend and suddenly be in Style, Fashionable, Popular, enjoy a Cult Following for a while!   Some Stuff enjoys an almost Iconic Ride that seems to never end.  When it comes to Collecting, think anything Coca-Cola related... Marilyn Monroe... Elvis... Star Wars... Super Heroes... Stuff like that!    Some things have been Collected seemingly from Era to Era unabated... Comic Books... Sports Cards... Coins and Currency... Stamps... Cars.   And then there are what I call the Sub-Genre Crazy Stuff that is loosely associated with a Hot Collectible Genre like Sports for example... think Bobble Head Dolls!   I think those things are Crazy, but people Collect them fanatically!   I can only Imagine someone's house full of freakin' Bobble Head Sports Dolls all lined up!  *Bwahahahaha!*   And I'm not talkin' some Kid, which would almost make more sense to me, since it would Appeal to Juvenile sensibilities I'd think... I'm talking Grown Ass Adults Mad about such things!   I've seen hulking Macho looking Grown Dudes go nuts about Bobble Head Dolls, who knew?!?

I mean, as the Queen of Collecting the Weird and Wonderful, Oddities and the Strangest shit on the Planet, I didn't think anyone could buy or Display Crazier Stuff than me... but I stand corrected my Friends!  *LOL*   And Seasonal Collectors, they can go to the far side of Madness!  Where it's Christmas every Day at their house, because the whole damned house is filled with Christmas Collectibles 365 and 24-7!   I mean I dig a lot of Holidays, Halloween particularly is practically an Obsession of mine to Decorate for and Collect... yet, it's Displayed Seasonally.  I don't know that I could Live any One Holiday every day of the Year and 24-7 for the rest of our Lives!  And some people will dig a particular Thing, mebbe it's Owls let's say... and they will have Owls EVERYWHERE!   I never quite know How or Why they may have chosen a particular specific Thing to dig so much... but once they do, it can get completely out of hand!   And you always know when they Die off, coz that whole damned Collection of ONE THING will end up in some Charity Shop and DOMINATE the Shelves, clearly being someone's Obsession whose now departed!

I recently went to some Charity Shops and saw the 'Estate' Obsession of a few people who likely Died Off and their Collections got Donated by Kin.   One had Dachshund Dog Obsession... one had a Frog Obsession... another had an Elephant Obsession... the last had an Angel Obsession.   When you see shelf after shelf of ONE THING in many forms, you know it likely came from the same Donor, because what would be the Odds otherwise, right?  *LMAO*   I was particularly impressed with the variety of shit the Dachshund Dog person had amassed, one would think that would have taken more Time to accumulate such a massive Collection of?   I also Imagine that whoever it was, probably also owned The Real Thing, right?   It is unlikely the others Obsessed owned Real Frogs, Elephants or Angels, just sayin'!  *LOL*   And Yes, I have myself gotten Fixated at times on certain Imagery or Genre... right now I'm all Hamsa'd Out... since I just J'Adore the Hamsa Palm Shaped Amulet on almost anything.

So, Yes, I have a lot of recurrent shit myself that I just dig and have a lot of Stuff representing it.   So I do get the Fixation Thing... tho' at some point you really do have to reel yourself in somewhat and not have it get so out of hand that your entire Home is saturated with a current Obsession.   Right now I'm Working towards Selling Off overages of similar items for that very reason.  Some things I have more of than any Sane person Needs of whatever it is.  You can Hoard a certain Thing that you really, really, really Like or have fallen in total Love with.  The Love Affair might last a long time, mebbe even Forever, or it could be fleeting.  I've fallen Out Of Love with some things I once was Gaga over and now could Care less about anymore.  I'm Over it... it happens.  Sometimes I even Forget something I used to have a lot of... until perhaps someone comes over who knew me way back when and says, whatever happened to all your __________?    Because I no longer have ANY and apparently I used to have a lot of whatever it was they recalled me having!

I think we've all been thru our Phases... I do recall having a Sunflower Phase, where I had a lot of shit with Sunflower motif, I think it was the early 1980's. Which was a Culturally Deprived Era for Fashion and Style, and a lot of hideous shit was Popular, so perhaps Sunflowers were the Coolest shit available then, I dunno?  Still Love REAL Sunflowers, but don't own a damned thing anymore with Sunflower motif now, nor would I Want to... so Over it!   Some Colors have come and gone as temporary Obsessions... I once went thru a Retro Pink Phase in Kitchen Decor becoz I had a Retro Kitchen.  And I don't even LIKE PINK, so that was Weird for me... but it Sold really Well when I Purged it all.  Apparently numerous peeps totally dig 1950's Retro Pink Kitchen shit!  *LOL*  At least I didn't go thru a Roosters in my Kitchen Phase or have those hideous tacky Wallpaper Borders nor did I Sponge Paint anything... Heaven Forbid and Thanks be to God!  *Bwahahahahaha!*   And I could really do a whole Post on hideously Painted Furniture that people buy like Mad, but I won't... *Smiles*  Suffice to say the Crazy Stuff people Buy knows no limits my Friends... but it is Amusing... and I guess we're all a bit Crazy in our own Peculiar way!


Blessings, Love and Light from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Monday, June 17, 2019

Playing The Devil's Advocate

I missed a Night of Work because I'd taken The Man out for an early Father's Day Feast at a fav Restaurant near the Zoo, and in the record breaking intense heat, another Battery went dead!   It happens every Summer once the record breakers begin, happened last July, so Thankfully it happened a Month earlier this Year, so that it was covered under the Free Replacement Warranty!  *Whew!*  Another handy coincidence, the Free Replacement Warranty for a Year will start all over again from that Day now with this Battery and at no extra charge!  It was a close call tho' for it to be Free and not about Two Hundred Bucks to replace, the Warranty had exactly only 14 Days left on it before it would have expired!  *Whew!*  I mean, shit, if they're gonna go out every freakin' Year, might as well crap out early enough to still be covered under Warranty the following Year, right?!?

 It did leave us stranded for a while, 'til some Maintenance Guy from the Zoo, which is next door to the Restaurant, came with a cool little device that jump started it for us to get to the Dealership!  Bless him!  I'm getting me one of those, Sixty bucks he said at Home Depot, small Box with tiny Jumper Cables attached to it, you can plug it in to a Cigarette Lighter in your Vehicle to keep it Charged!  Living out in the Boonies, getting stranded in record breaking heat is something that could be deadly, so I mos def Need one of those cool little devices in the Truck for such Emergencies as this!  So, I had to call in to Work and tell them I couldn't be in... not knowing how long the Dealership might take... or if it was JUST the Battery?  Thankfully it was only the Battery and not a litany of repair costs, we were out by 6:00 p.m. with zero out of pocket expense!  *Whew!*  Felt like I dodged a bullet there!

By the time we got back Home I Needed a Nap, promptly slept for Two Hours... Princess T is spending the Night at her BFF's, so we have the house to ourselves and it was so Quiet and Peaceful that I drifted off quickly.  Actually I didn't mind missing a Friday Night Shift, I'm not liking Working Friday Nights very much... or Saturday Nights for that matter... anymore my Tuesday Night Shift is the only one I look forward to pulling.  Yes, sadly it's come to that in my Stamina decline, to where one part time Night Shift would be more than enough for me actually... along with the Full Time Caregiving and maintenance of Villa Boheme'.  I just don't have it in me anymore to push myself, so I don't know how long I'll maintain all Three Night Shifts even tho' it helps comp Space Rent some?  If it came with an actual paycheck for the Hours and Work, perhaps I'd push thru longer, I dunno?  Sales are still Soft so there doesn't seem to be much Point, if Checks are so Small no matter how hard or much you Work.

I can't wait until my Pensions all kick in so that I have more Options, Four more Months to go, then I can reassess the financial fixed income situation better.  It's not that I'm at all opposed to Work, I never have been, I've Worked since I was an extremely Young Teen.  But diminishing Stamina, along with being at a Season of Life where my tolerance for any B.S. is getting seriously compromised, is always a consideration.  *Smiles*  Yes, my capacity to tolerate anyone's Bullshit is minuscule now and I can be Emotionally Raw in a Heartbeat, not that it ever was particularly a high threshold even as a Young Woman!  *Winks*  Yes, I'm HER... you know... the one that would tell you that NO Darlin', I'm not A Bitch, I'm THE Bitch, and that will be Mrs. Bitch to you, so step off or to the side... if you're foolish enough to wanna square off with me and Go There?  I don't Like to be HER tho' and I'll be Nice until you give me a reason NOT to be.   I've always been able to hold my own in any Work Environment, but it's just Tiring to once you're Old, I couldn't be bothered to have to now.  The Politics and Posturing work my last Raw Nerve too much!  *LOL*

I have always Worked with Excellence, even in Volunteer Work where I wasn't being compensated monetarily.  I Believe every Employee should be an Asset and not a Liability... so I have the expectation that Co-Workers should also have that Standard and hold themselves to it with Integrity.   Therein is my Trigger... so many just don't!   And they could be very Nice People otherwise, but the Reputation they develop for being less than desirable Workers on the Job, well, it means I'd rather not work alongside any Problem Person.  It's The Son's Trigger also, apparently he got that from me?  *LOL*   If slackers and fuck-ups are dealt with by those in positions of Authority then I'm Chill about it. If not, I'd rather not have to endure the Problem People at all.  I got enuf Problems on a personal level without having any on a professional level Thank You very much!  I don't Believe any Problem Person doesn't REALLY know they're a Problem... they KNOW... and can be told incessantly to no avail.

Every Year Management has a Mandatory Meeting of ALL Employees to remind them how to be a better Employee... we just had it recently.  I wouldn't mind being forced to attend if it wasn't such a complete waste of time, nothing changes and nothing is actually addressed, so whatever Problems always were, will always therefore be.   I resent having my Time wasted, I don't have the luxury of a lot of idle Time on my hands to devote to Pointless Causes.  I also have the stance that if I'm part of the Problem, address it with me individually and personally hold me accountable... if I'm not, why am I even here?!?   I already know how to be a better Employee, had loads of Experience at it and never once, in almost Fifty Years of Work, have I EVER had any Complaints about my Performance at any Job or Career.  I take Pride in that record of Working with Excellence, my Reputation is important to me, so is being an Asset and not someone's Liability.  If I have Skin in the Game, I also want the Business to thrive so we all thrive!

I hear across the board, from Good Employees, in all Fields and Lines of Work, how stressful and frustrating it is to have to Deal with Bad Employees on the Job.  Good Workers just have to Work harder, if Bad Workers just aren't up to the Job.  I don't mind Working hard and Working smart... but I sure as Hell don't wanna do someone else's Job FOR them when they're present, but just Checked Out, Burnt Out, Don't Give Two Shits, Shirk Work, do the Least amount possible they can get away with... Whatever... ad nauseum!  Triggers me... every damn time... so I'd just rather, at this Age, NOT Deal with it at all.  But I Like Working actually... and if Stamina were not also diminishing, I'd keep popping out of alleged Retirement as Needed in order to provide for my Family sufficiently.  Yet I do find that lately I'm very Tired both Physically and Emotionally... to where, mebbe it's just TIME to Retire for Reals from Work outside of the Home?


Yes, I'd still keep up my little Spaces for hawking my excess and downsizing sufficiently to eventually Purge it all successfully.   I don't mind doing that because it's 100% on my own Terms and I don't have to do it alongside anyone at all to where it could potentially become Problematic... for me or for them.  I get along with and Work well with anyone whose even trying to do a Good Job, even if they fall short or are simply Aging Out.  Even if an individual sucks at doing some kind of Work, if they're giving their all and that's apparent, I will still have their Back and Respect them, I'll still enjoy being their Co-Worker and likely even their Friend.   We have some Workers who are quite Elderly and yet still do a Good Job to the very best of their abilities and they're an Inspiration to aspire to.   If I get to be in my late 70's and beyond and still have to Work or need to, I Hope I can be as dedicated and agile as they are!

The structure of an Organization can even be somewhat loose and so long as nobody is flagrantly taking advantage of that, it can be Cool to Work somewhere that is just Fun and completely Enjoyable an Environment to Work.  Alas, there will always be those that take advantage of a Good Thing and ruin it.  There will be those that want to be duly compensated but don't REALLY wanna have to Work for it or put forth any effort if they can slide by.  In some Cultures that would cause so much Loss Of Face and Disgrace to Family that it isn't as prolific as it is here, it might even be unheard of.   Perhaps some things have slid into a state of decline in America's Work Force because of that, I dunno?  I suspect that if Loss Of Face or Disgracing one's Good Family Name meant something here, to more people, on the Job especially, the state of decline in our Work Force overall might stabilize or cease altogether?  Just a Thought.   

And playing The Devil's Advocate here too, perhaps if Employers actually Valued their Employees more and showed it, that would also be Helpful?  I've Worked for a very long time and I've seen the decline there too, a rapid one in fact.  I wouldn't want to be a Young Person in Today's Work Force, because decent paying Full Time Jobs with Benefits are much scarcer, especially for the Young and inexperienced or marginally skilled Worker, than ever before.   Jobs are being eliminated at certain levels... just go into any of your major Stores now and see how much Automation or Self-Service has replaced Human Employees!  In the Industries I had my first Corporate Career, most Jobs have been outsourced to Third World Countries now to save Money and exploit Workers in Countries that have dismal and appalling Human Rights violations and low wages.

I do sometimes Wonder if some people Care less because they have become disheartened on any Job... not so much finding an excuse for it mind you... but perhaps an explanation for Why it's become so commonplace nowadays?  Yes, we will always have the Lazy among us and they're just hard wired that way and no amount of motivational speaking will light a Fire under the Lazy individual's Ass.   Those born Lazy will likely die Lazy and therefore have barriers to employment or not be able to keep a Job.   But I do think that some folks USED TO BE the Good Worker... and I don't know what happened to them along the way to change that for the worse, but it has happened to them.   They USED to Care... and now they don't.   I guess I just don't want to ever count myself among them, so while I still have my Last Gives A Fuck, that might be the Time to bow out and just accept actual Retirement before I just don't Care too?

It's a Crossroads of sorts I think I have certainly found myself at... looking at each direction for which way to continue my Journey?   Before I'm on some Job and saying, "Well, there it goes... my Last Fuck..."   While I still have sufficient Integrity and Character to really Care, I think I can still be an Asset and not a Liability... but that Shift could come, I'm sure of it, I've seen it happen to some very Good People in fact.   Their Last Fuck departed and it's evident... and it's hard to watch actually.   And by actual definition of a Liability, once you become one, well, not too many people actually Want you anymore.  They might tolerate you, suffer you, endure you, wish you just weren't there... but they won't WANT you there anymore, you can take that to the Bank my Friends!   And do you really wanna be THAT Employee?   I don't!!!

And I know there will likely be some of you also Playing The Devil's Advocate and saying, but what about those that HAVE to Work and don't have any Choice in the matter, but don't WANT to Work?   Well, there is the ole' saying that if a Man doesn't Work, he doesn't Eat... so which do you Want to do without?  I think most people, even the Laziest ones, or most Destitute ones, can't do without Eating.   So since Free Rides are scarce and highly Conditional, I'd say they're Fucked then and will just have to Suck it Up and Work whether they Want to or not!   And if they Like Eating regularly, then their performance on the Job better at least be up to the Job if they intend to not risk losing it!  And it IS unfortunate when the Elderly or Infirm, particularly, MUST keep Working, long past a point where they actually still can manage it and preserve any semblance of Dignity in what they're Having to do.

 We didn't Earn our Pensions doing absolutely nothing though, I know that The Man and I Worked extremely hard and for numerous Decades at Demanding Careers and Invested, to have any Back End Benefit at all.   Many of my Glory Days Corporate Careers had so many Corporate Mergers and Takeovers that they didn't even come with a Pension and you got royally screwed over!   Most Modern Careers and Jobs don't even have a Cradle to Grave Option of staying with a Company for an entire Working Life anymore!   Many don't come with Benefits or Pensions whatsoever and I foresee some Future Generations really struggling at the Back End of it all... if not already at that juncture.  So... sometimes it just Sucks and you do what you Have to do to get by... for however long it takes.   And unless you were fortunate enough to be born into obscene affluence, that's just how it is.   Just TRY at least to Do the Right Thing... and not just the Easy Thing... so at least you'll be Respected and not merely Tolerated!


Blessings, Love and Light from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Sunday, June 16, 2019

An Epiphany Moment

Yes, I had an Epiphany Moment this Day!  I achieved Realization and Awareness with such Clarity this Day... and saw thru a prism of New Light, exactly what I should do now in the ongoing Great Edit and Purge Process!  It was like a Light Bulb turned on in my Head as to the Direction to take!  To Detach effectively and efficiently to begin a Great Culling and Curate the Clutter ruthlessly!  It was very Liberating, even Exciting and amazingly Energizing, to have that burst of Energy the Epiphany brought on!

Until that Moment I'd felt rather mired and stagnated for a long time, I'd virtually abandoned my initial Mission Statement of Why I was Editing and Purging relentlessly in the first place!   After a time of Abandonment of Purpose, you're like one of those derelict Buildings, the result of disuse and neglect just leaves you in poor condition.   I'd been doing the Great Edit and Purge only in a Half-Hearted way really and leading the Process with illogical emotion most of the time.

It's not even that what I'm trying to accomplish is really that hard, it just doesn't have to be so difficult unless I make it so... and I'd made it so for too long already!   Avoidance had become a tactic that I defaulted to when I just didn't want to Deal with it.   I'd made great strides since our move here, yet I'd also held onto so much that wasn't necessary to hold onto anymore!   The Vision I have for NOW is quite different than the Vision I had for back then, before the move to Villa Boheme'.  It's had to be and that's Okay... Revision isn't such a bad thing!

Dusting off the Cobwebs of what WAS and fully embracing what IS had been something I'd rather resisted doing.   Looking at Objects that had complimented Old Historic Bohemian Valhalla can be so Nostalgic and yet also quite Painful... Why was I holding onto what is now a Painful reminder?   No justification was measuring up really... even IF one Day in the Future I ever bought another Historic Home, it would be different and require a New Vision and Revision.  So the Stuff really should depart, as Beloved as any of it still might be, and net some much Needed financial relief now instead.

It was Pleasurable to acquire it over the many Years it took to Source it, now it could actually give me a return on the Investment of having invested in it way back when.  During a time when much of it wasn't then Trending so I got it on The Cheap.  There is Money to be made off of all of it, I know this in my Head, in my Heart I was holding on too tightly to the Memories it evoked.  But it's not as if anyone is Buying the Memories, those I can Keep and Cherish forever, long after the Objects are gone and find their new Owners and Homes.

Some of it was more Useful back then to me, now it's just not.  A lot of it was Collections I'd accumulated of certain things I totally dug the Aesthetic of, but Collect no more of.   Tho' I confess I am an Incurable Collector, I also happen to be one who, after I've completed a Collection, often have no problem getting rid of the entire Collection and moving on to what Moves me more now.   There's something that is more of a Rush about building a Collection to me, than in just Keeping a completed one.  I am almost certain it has more to do with The Thrill Of The Hunt, than the Collection itself as a Whole?

The Positive Energy of removing what doesn't matter so much anymore is palpable.  Once you've had an Epiphany Moment and started Boxing up what should Go and be Sold Off, it begins to Transform each Space that has been cleared of Needless Clutter.   If there is no longer a clear Need or Purpose for retaining something, having it just Gone is Transformative to the Space it once occupied!   From a Styling perspective it freshens things up considerably to rid yourself of what really isn't cohesive with your Current Vision for each Space and the Design of it.

Sure, it also means Boxes get filled to the brim with some really Cool Stuff that you might still basically Like... perhaps even Love and once enjoyed Collecting... but that also means I'll accomplish yet another Goal.   The Goal of Transforming my Retail Spaces at the Antique Mall to hold only those things I'm more Passionate about and are of my particular Aesthetic exclusively!  To appeal more to the particular demographic of Clientele I'd prefer to be reaching and who might better appreciate my Vibe?  I've been meaning to do that too, Forever, and after Eight Years there it's about Time, past Time, I get around to doing it in earnest, instead of catering to the Masses and just the Impulse or Bargain Shopper!  

 Yes, I'd been Half-Hearted about that too and it showed, I haven't felt Proud of my Showroom or Booth for a while now.  I'd fallen into the trap of Selling whatever just Sells well, even if it's not even remotely my Thing!  Jazzing it up with some groupings of Collection items that I procured for myself could be good for Business.   For some reason a lot of people enjoy buying Instant Collections, to save Time and Energy perhaps?  I Love the Look of Vintage Filigree Metalwork, so had Collected Spray Can and Toilet Paper Covers galore... I didn't utilize either anymore!   I still Like the Look in a Grouping of them... and they have Sold Well, so why not just Sell them all!?!

Why not just Upgrade any Collection I still am Passionate about to where I've only Kept the BEST of what I have and just Sell Off the rest too?   If I'm ever to one Day in the Future decide I really must live Smaller and more Simplistic, it's going to be Necessary, so Why wait until THEN?  When I'd be much more in a hurry and perhaps desperate to unload too much all at once!  It's Wiser to have the Luxury of Time to dispose of overage of EVERYTHING starting NOW!   When I don't really HAVE to, but I WANT to and finally am READY to... so that it can command the best profit margins on the resale of it.

Besides, the Burnout and Funk I've felt for far too long now can also be eradicated in the Keeping Busy of the Doing of this and Hopefully also improve my Mood and Re-Energize me?   I've floundered with not Feeling Purposeful about anything lately, Emotionally it had left me virtually Bankrupted.  The Donations are now all Gone and that felt Good... but now it was Time to really begin the Great Sell-Off of possessions too.   I'm sure as the proceeds of that endeavor begin rolling in, I'll have improved the Financial Strain dilemma we've had to endure with buying a New Home with a large Mortgage.  Getting used to even having a Mortgage again was HUGE for me!

The Historic Homestead was so Cheap to Maintain and didn't create any Debt Load in the Owning of it.  Which was my Vision for our Retirement Years... along with a lot of other things that had to be Sacrificed due to circumstances being what they were.   Lamenting about having to give that Lifestyle up and play the Game of Living The American Dream, to appease the Adoption System... well, it is doing me no real Good to be bitter and continuously upset about it... it had to be done... we did it... now Deal with it Dawn and Move On Girl!   I'd wallowed long enough in having my Carefully and Meticulously laid Plans wrecked and Life turned Upside Down!

I'd had some good Rants and Vented about it all here in The Land Of Blog, to get it all off my Chest and tossed out here into the vastness of Cyberspace to disperse into the Universe.  Acknowledging my Feelings about it all was beneficial... sometimes ya just gotta let yourself Feel what you Feel!  Even if nobody else understands it or can relate to it in any way, it still felt Good sometimes to throw myself a good Wobbler about it!  {Definition of Wobbler for those not familiar with the phrase: To suddenly become very upset or intensely angry and make a big Display of it!}   Ah Yes, my Wobbler induced Blog Posts were Epic and quite Dramatic, weren't they?

And Yes, it sounded absurd to be throwing one about moving from a substandard Historic Home in a Poor Neighborhood, that direly needed complete renovation and restoration... to a turn-key McManse in the Affluent Burbs of the Rural parameters around Phoenix that has virtually no crime.   To the casual observer it must have sounded like utter Madness to miss less and resent more... and mebbe it is, but that's exactly how I just Felt and there was no getting around that Fact!   Being able to just FEEL it, acknowledge it, spend some Time that I clearly Needed to Feel it for however long I had to... well, that was just FOR ME exclusively.

Losing so much of my Old Life... including The Man's Catastrophic Injury thrown into that mix during the required Adoption Process of The G-Kid Force, really just forced me to embrace a New Life, one I didn't necessarily choose voluntarily, but had to adapt to quickly and on The Fly.   It happens, Life happens... and often it doesn't always Play Out quite like you Envisioned that it might or it would.  One of the Blogs I enjoy recently asked the Question: Shouldn't Life be Easier?   I would think along those lines myself, except one of the Comments said something quite profound that I hadn't thought much about really.  That they didn't know whether Life was SUPPOSED to be anything!?  Yeah, that's probably the Best answer to that Question really!

And I'm just really Thankful that this Day I had an Epiphany Moment, which has made my Life Easier for sure all of a sudden in the Realization it brought... the Awareness it brought... the Clarity of Purpose on how Best to move Forward and quit looking Back so much!   Being a Sentimental Soul I will always Look Back with a measure of Fondness of coarse, and so long as it's not done with heavy doses of regrets and Emotional upset, that's Fine to occasionally.  But don't Dwell there... Dwell here... because Living in the Moment won't cause you to miss actually Living... in the Here and Now, which is really all we've got.


Blessings, Love and Light from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

A life touched by God always ends in touching others. - Erwin McManus

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