Saying The Quiet Parts Out Loud

Princess T had informed me she was getting out of Work real early again so I've hesitated to visit The Man until after she gets picked up.  That meant a rather leisurely Morning, tho' I am getting our Laundry done.  We've been having trouble with our Dryer drying things sufficiently, so we hope it's not crapping out again?  Last repair cost us almost as much as buying a new one.  I have another Front Loader in The RV Garage Mahal but would have to move a lot of things to get it out of there and into the Main House.  It's the Washer/Dryer set we had at The Villa McManse and didn't convey with the House coz it was new and we were still making payments on them.  Well, the Sellers of this Home had conveyed a brand new never used Washer and Dryer with the Sale, so, we just put ours in The RV Garage Mahal as backups.

So, if the one in the House goes on the fritz again completely, we'll have to swap it out with the Dryer in The RV Garage Mahal.  At least it would mean not having to fund another large Appliance, tho' I suspect this Fridge is next.  It's been acting up and was brand new and never used and conveyed with this Home's purchase.  Appliances aren't built to last anything but 5-7 Years anymore no matter how high-end they are, and all the Appliances that came with this Home were high-end, but more than Two have already crapped out or are crapping out.  I do have a Fridge I also brought from the Villa McManse that is in use in The RV Garage Mahal.  We didn't convey it coz the Buyers had their own and didn't want a Stainless Brushed Steel Appliance, even tho' it was only 5 Years Old and high-end.   So, we gladly took it with us as a Spare.

If this Fridge gives out tho' we will buy a new one, I like some of the newer Models and upgrades they have, but they are mighty expensive.  There are features this Fridge didn't have that we'd gotten used to with previous Fridges we owned and liked the feature of.  And, it's Ice-Maker in the Door quit working within the first year and expensive repairs didn't keep it limping along.  So, I went to TARGET and bought a $99 Ice Maker, one of the best purchases ever made, we Love it, small, doesn't take up much room, makes Ice in Minutes.  And in Arizona, Ice is precious like Water is, both are coveted in a Desert.  Anyway, I only have the one load of our Clothing, all the Kiddos do their own Laundry and have since they were Tweens.

Today is the end of the Pay Period at the Antique Mall and Sales were slower and not as strong, so, don't know how I'll finish?  But they were having a 15% Off Sale, which may help?  My Showroom was pretty tore up when I went in to foof it before the Weekend.  Lots of Shirts on the Floor that people yanked off Hangars!  Who does that?!  I've never even gone in my Closet and yanked clean Clothing off Hangars onto the Floor, and if I did, I wouldn't just leave them there, I'd hang them back up!  And I've NEVER gone into a Store and done something like that with their Merchandise!  Shoppers these days sometimes shock me at their inconsiderate and lowlife, sometimes feral behavior.  Where they leave Store carnage in their wake, manhandling things, stealing, being intentionally messy and reckless, or even vandalizing or breaking and soiling things purposefully.

Some mess is just due to volume of traffic flowing thru the Room, that's expected.   But some of it is due to a demographic I'd rather not attract into any establishment and should be asked to leave, coz most of the time they're not spending Money and are problem people who cause Sellers to lose Money and Merchandise.  And Theft these days is out of control and Thieves know hardly any consequences happen to them now so they really cause huge Loss Prevention Issues and costs to rise for Honest Consumers.   Rents are very high now and you can't Source your Inventory inexpensively either, so you can't absorb huge losses due to Criminal Activities, without passing it along to the Honest Consumers.  And that also means Government Criminal Activities going on which are rising Costs exponentially due to Corrupt Leadership in power.

I finished up all my chores around the house so I got a lot accomplished before Noon.  I'm Guessing I'll get a Call for pickup from Princess T anytime between now and 1:30 p.m. then?  If indeed they're letting her off early?  Sometimes they claim they are and then make them stay late, which, she'll be pissy if that happens.  *LOL*  The Young Prince finally got Home, he and Sadie had a big time in the City and hung out with his Dad and Wife.   Sadie actually is still with Ian, the old Boyfriend, he's a good Guy and The Young Prince said he takes good care of Sadie, so he's glad to hear they are still together.  Sadie has Mental Health problems too so she needs someone like Ian whose a Caregiver type of Companion.  They have a Car and she drives, so came and picked The Grandson up and brought him Home.

I'd put away all the Groceries he'd had delivered, Two batches of them, using up the rest of his New Mexico Nutritional Assistance.  So, he's hopeful his Caseworker can help him get all the same Arizona Benefits that he Qualified for in New Mexico?   He would be considered an Emergency Case File Client, so perhaps it will be expedited too?  If she could also get him on SSI that would be the Ideal Disability Benefits Status and have better Services for him overall.  Now he's an Adult the Adult Protective Services should be able to provide him with what Services he requires and we are under no legal obligation to keep providing now he's no longer a Minor.   Once a Seriously Disabled Adult reaches the Age of Maturity they can qualify differently than a Disabled Child under the Care of Parents/Guardians.

Remember back in Da Day those Photo Booths in the Mall that took a string of Black & White Wallet Sized Photos and you'd crowd into with your Friends?   And the School Mug Shots weren't much different for your School ID, but were in Color, usually.  {See above, Teen me and my BFF from High School crammed in a Photo Booth at the Mall... and a High School Mug Shot for my Old School ID Card... I was wearing a Dashiki and Love Beads, LOL}  I miss those, I wish they still had them, tho', perhaps the Young People wouldn't use them, they all have Phones that take great Selfies instead now.  Kiddos now know how to put on Makeup better, I almost never wore any since Young Hippies rarely did wear makeup and just grew our Hair out long, tucking Flowers in it, or had Afros.  I had an Afro Wig which I did wear a lot in those days too. *LOL*

The Son and I just visited The Man, he had been Walking a little with a Walker and they had him sitting up in a Chair now, which is progress.  However, I was concerned to see his full Lunch just sitting there off to the side and him ignoring it claiming he JUST ate and it wasn't his Food!  We asked what he'd JUST eaten and when he described it, clearly it had been Breakfast this Morning and not Lunch this Afternoon, which was untouched, so, he's not eating and they're not making him eat or reminding him to eat.  Or Believing him when he says he JUST ate, he does that at Home all the time and sometimes it might have been a different Day he ate something.  So, I made him eat a little of it but he was adamant he'd already eaten and you can't eat it FOR him.  He had ordered Dinner by then too coz we arrived just before Dinnertime.  So, hopefully he does eat his Dinner?

Our VA Nurse Remi had told us already that it happens often in Assisted Living, Long Term Care, the VA, where Clients are given Food but nobody bothers to make sure they remember to eat it.  Some of her Clients have had to have 911 Called coz they become so dehydrated and frail from malnutrition.   Granted, he's only gonna be there around 3 Days or so, otherwise I'd have to make sure Family is there for every Meal being delivered and ensuring he remembers to eat and to drink something regularly enough.  *Le Sigh*   He is fussy about eating and drinking at Home too so it is challenging and Staff often don't have the Time or coverage to spend Hours trying to feed and water one Patient, so, I do understand the challenges involved.  Sometimes it takes me 1-3 Hours to get him to eat a partial Meal, nobody outside of Family is gonna spend that much time trying to feed someone.

We also traded in our Aluminum Cans and picked up Salt for our Water Softener.  We won't get our Social Security Checks this Month until right around the 18th, so the next Four Days will be really tight financially.  We have everything we Need tho' and have no Wants, so, it's Okay.  We don't have The Daughter staying here now so that's one less Bell to Answer one less Egg to fry as well.  She seems content to have made the current choices she's making and when she's come to see her Dad at the Hospital she looks good and seems Happy.  I will of coarse have to tidy up the 5th Wheel, which still has all her Worldly possessions, if she doesn't return to do it anytime soon.  She has lived before with what could fit in a small Backpack and that's how she came back to America and Arizona from Mexico, so, she'll be Fine.  Her Illness is what it just is and will always be.  Her Dad has been enjoying her regular visits at the Hospital, so, that's good... Mando is taking her there regularly.

The Kids and her Brother are having a harder time with her decisions becoz they are personalizing it.   I learned not to a long time ago, and not only with The Daughter.    My own Mom suffered from SMI and sometimes her decisions were difficult to wrap your Head around and her Relationships became complicated, strained or estranged due to her Illness, becoz they defied logic sometimes, in spite of everyone's best intentions to do things for her that she seemed to sabotage.  Running damage control behind a Mentally Impaired Person can become a full time job and cleanup of fixes of the problems they create for themselves. So sometimes you do have to just step back and step off, for your own good.  I want her to be Happy and as Healthy as she's able to manage to be, as she just Is.   She's supposed to have another Cleaning Job in Chandler Tomorrow, don't know if she's remembered it or not?

With her Dad still being Hospitalized I am not certain I can even take her to it this time if she does remember it?  So, she may have to contact the Client and re-schedule due to Family Circumstances right now.  It's Money I'm sure she Needs, but I also don't have the Gas until I get Paid to be driving clear across the Valley as an Uber Driver Mom right now either.   She always gives me some Gas Money but Gas is close to $5 a Gallon locally right now so it's almost $100 each fill-up, and so I'm trying to do a lot less Driving and only when absolutely necessary.  Everything has gone up exponentially since this Administration took over and stretching an already tight Budget of Fixed Income is a challenge for many Retirees or Disabled folks relying and existing on Pensions, Social Security or Disability Income.  Minimum Wage Earners also are hurting and the Unemployed or Underemployed are totally screwed.

 

It was in the 90's again Today and will be in the 100's by next Week, so we have the Air Conditioners on now and even put it on in my Truck, just too uncomfortable not to.   If I do go Outside now it's early Mornings or late Evenings, where it's still in the low 50's so far, so, that's a big spread of Temperature fluctuations from Morning to Afternoon to Evening as well.  Utility Bills will be higher than normal for sure and with the Crisis happening for Energy/Fuel, it could really raise Prices more.  The RV Garage Mahal and She Shed have been too Warm to work in much, so, I just haven't.  The Daughter had been doing most of the Work in there anyway for me, so that came to a screeching halt when she left.  And, now The Young Prince's Worldly possessions are in there and in the Art Studio Space he's residing in, so, that is in disarray with his things, unpacked, still packed, spread out without a specific placement yet.  Him moving back in meant displacement of a lot to make room for him and his stuff.

Above is a Pre-School Pix of The Daughter at about Age 4 and one of my Favorites even tho' she picked out the ugliest little Dress to wear for it.  *LOL*  I think she went Shopping with her Nanna {my Mom} and Mom bought it for her, coz Mom would Buy that Child anything!  So she Loved wearing it and I thought that it was a hideous little Dress, but never challenged any of the Children or Grandchildren on their choice of Clothing or Hairstyles.  If it wasn't Permanent, I didn't sweat it as a Parent, coz my Parents never did and I appreciated that Freedom of Personal Expression as a Youngster.   We were always Free to be our Authentic Selves, so were my Kids and the Grandkids we Raised.  So, they all are confident of being True to Self and don't Care what anyone else thinks or feels about it.

 My Dad felt Freedom of Personal Expression and Establishing your own Identity apart from your Parents was important to make you feel confident about being authentic to yourself.   And my Mom was very Liberal with Fashion, Hair, she wasn't conforming and quite Bohemian in Spirit and Style, so she didn't expect us to be Conformists either.  She always said it was better to be looked over than overlooked in Life. {A Mae West Quote, we LOVED Mae.}   So many folks have to go off and "Find Themselves" in Adulthood, coz they never really have known who they are, coz it was inhibited for them to just Be who they should just Be!   And feel Celebrated and Supported for just Being themselves.  Being a cheap Copy or Imitation of someone or something you are not, just to please other people or conform to their mandates and restrictions, is not a Joyful or Purposeful way to go thru one's Life. 

I just watched the most sickening display of Spin to the American People of 'Selling' this War that I've ever seen!!!   Equating it to a Video Game!!!   Like War is a fucking Game and not Serious!!!  And is also projecting the People of the Middle East as Sub-Humans, also a very Colonial way of degrading a Society not like your own.   Calling the Iranian People 'Savages' is so very reminiscent of what America called the Native Americans and justified the attempted Genocide of all of them becoz they portrayed them as less than Human Beings.  We ARE Human Beings, the Iranian People are Human Beings.  With their own Culture, their own Religion... even if we don't understand or agree with how they live as a Culture, we can't go in and force ours upon them...  and it's only the most Radicalized who are a Minority, not the Majority, they are a problem to their own People, much like this Regime is to ours, or the Extreme Religions of this Country are trying to be to make America a Theocracy that would be no better than what Iran is enduring!

Slurs attempting to dehumanize other Humans is how atrocities go unchecked and spiral out of control to the point the real Barbarians are the ones who are treating any group of people Inhumanely and Cruelly.  I wouldn't treat an Animal Inhumanely or Cruelly, let alone any other Human Being, for any reason.  That would be more Telling of my Inhumanity than theirs frankly, if I did.  And Fighting Evil with more Evil... just makes everyone Evil.   And an Eye for an Eye just eventually makes everyone Blind.   Their Hatred for us met with our Hatred for them, how does that ever Resolve a damned thing or promote Peace ever?   This War had no Pre-Game and has no End-Game, and it is not a GAME at all, War is never a fucking GAME, but this Administration obviously thinks it is and makes those Sick and Twisted comparisons!!!  "The Hunger Games" might be a more accurate comparison perhaps?

Of coarse I fully expect Hate Crimes in America to now rise again against Americans of certain Ancestries now.  As it always fucking does anytime we make a whole Group of People "The Enemy" based on Demographics alone... Religion, Race, Ethnicity, Country of Origin, Sexuality, Gender, Politics, Beliefs, Culture, whatever Bias or Prejudice happens to be Flavor of the Month and Acted upon.   And it's a real handy Excuse for folks who already hold deep seated Prejudices and Biases to now Act upon them with fewer consequences coz this Regime sanctions, gins up and instigates such Behaviors and Violence, pitting us against one another like it is a fucking Game to them to see the Warring factions here... and abroad.   They are really some Sick Twisted Motherfuckers to their very Cores... and seem to Get Off on what they're causing Globally and Internally.

I turned the TV off coz frankly, about 5 Minutes of any of that Toxic revolting shit is 5 Minutes too much now.   I took a Nap and woke up thinking I'd overslept it into a brand new day but in actuality it's 3 Minutes 'til Midnight!!!  *LOL*  Naps be like that lately, yet, I need them coz Life has been pretty hectic, stressful and exhaustive, which fucks up Sleep patterns or ability to Sleep when you should.  I am not sure when they'll be sending The Man Home?  I suspect either Sunday or Monday, by what they initially told me.  His Nurses don't say much when I'm there, they usually now have a Student Nurse in tow so are quite busy Training that Shadow Trainee.  Most look very Young and straight out of Nursing School or High School.  So, you'd feel you have a Child Nurse... but then again, some of the Doctors now look that Young to me!!!  And when I'm at the Base most of the Young G.I.'s look like they're from the Base Day Care!!!!!!!  *LOL*  Yet, those Youngsters will be sent to Fight and Die for this ridiculous War he's started for his own Vanity, to make a Draft Dodger Octogenarian pretend he's Tough and Brave.

Of coarse, no telling how Ancient I'm looking to them now either?  *Ha ha ha*  They may be marveling, Wow, they let them out of the Nursing Home on Day Trips?   Where's her Handler and should she be out by herself?  *Winks*  I think at a certain point even your Kids are thinking, shit, I think we're in Charge now or should be?  I don't think we should be letting them make our decisions as a Family anymore?  *Bwahahaha*  To be Fair, there are some days I question that myself, coz, would I really know if I'm in a cognitive decline freefall?   Mebbe not, Donnie Two Dolls doesn't seem to think he's fucking totally lost it and his whole inner circle are still acting like he's just Fine and letting him make major National decisions!!!   So, how would you then fucking know?   I mean, I'm not starting Wars and shit... but... still... things that make ya go humnnnnnn... *LOL*

It's past Midnight now so I could Publish this for the Day's Post, but I don't even have a Clever Title Post Hook yet, so, haven't Named it.  Contemplating if my Recycle Cash I got yesterday would be enuf to get us to Chandler and back in case The Daughter can't re-schedule that gig and does need me to take her?  But, yet, I would HATE to get the Call from the Hospital that they're releasing The Man to go Home and I'm that far across the Valley when the Call comes in to come get him.  And I don't know Mando's Old Hooptie could make it all the way to Chandler and back either?  And I don't know she'd find any other Ride willing to go that far out of their way with the cost of Gas right now either?  It is a long commute, which, normally I don't mind coz I putz around for Four Hours in Chandler, Gilbert, Tempe and Mesa.  Coz the Four Cities over there are very blurred boundaries.  Sometimes I'm not sure which one I'm even still in?

Where we go is just off the 202 so you can see how it's in that Zone of where all Four Cities meld boundaries.   And where we're coming from is far Southwest Left off that Map.   A bigger Area Map below would give you some idea of how many Cities, partially there are melding together.  We're not even listed on this Map even tho' we're right beside Goodyear on it and just as large as that City, definitely larger than Litchfield Park, so, why they get on the Map and we didn't is just Weird.  *LOL*   I mean Liberty is on there and it's a speck of a Town, not even a City with Shopping or anything, they got a Historic School and Historic Church, it only has 2,831 Residents and no Traffic Lights, we've got about 93,000 but didn't get a spot on this Map, WTF??? 

 And I even see Maricopa Colony gets a Map Spot Identity, it's a Small Indigenous Tribe on their Rez, coz there is still a Maricopa Indian Tribe hanging on to near Extinction, they have only 723 left of them tho'.  A lot of Indigenous Tribes have faced total extinction, but, we never talk about that as a Nation, do we?  Only what Animals we should be trying to Save from Extinction on the Planet, not actual People who are close to being wiped out and lost forever, to exist no more!   It bothers me a lot how a lot of History is so Whitewashed so as not to make certain Groups of folks not feel Bad or have to think about it.   Heaven forbid we should know some of our own sordid History so as not to repeat it.  That's why I always taught my Children and Grandchildren what Schools weren't saying and Teaching them, by omission.   My Dad did the same.  I still remember in about the 10th Grade we were learning about the Holocaust, the one they do Teach about.

The Teacher, who was a favorite one of mine and an Italian American we called Mr. C coz we couldn't pronounce his last Name, great Guy, excellent Teacher, was Teaching the usual curriculum about the Topic tho'.  He wanted all of us to do research, make a Book Report and then present it to the Class.  I went Home and did mine, not on the Holocaust being Taught, but about my Dad's People's Holocaust and which Tribes had been successfully 'cleansed' in the American Genocide nobody talks about.  Along with Great Indian Leaders who managed to Save their People from extinction and fight the American Government so hard to prevent them from successfully killing all Indigenous People who were here first, had all their Land Stolen, and displaced involuntarily.  Nobody 'discovered' any place where people have already Lived for Centuries! 

  I Loved Art so did Drawings of all of my favorite Native Tribal Leaders and Heroes to go with my Report and Presentation.  My Teacher and the Class were Silent when I gave my Presentation.  Some of my Friends in the Class said it made them choke up, coz they Honestly didn't know that part of American History being conveniently eliminated from our Textbooks.  Yes, it made folks feel bad and was uncomfortable, but sometimes History just is if it's some Bad History we should Learn from and never, ever, repeat again, even if we didn't personally be a part of it, coz it was before our Time.  That's how we improve Future History and give Balanced Education that doesn't Hide shit and Cover Up what we should be Ashamed happened. 

 My Teacher asked me if he could Keep my Drawings and Report, which I did give him, coz I could see it Moved him to Tears.  My Drawings were really good, if I do say so myself, I used to do excellent Portrait Drawings with Pencil.  He could have Framed them and they might still exist for all I know?    And BTW: By Omission, even the German Holocaust, when Taught, rarely mentioned the 500,000 or so Romani Gypsy People who were part of it.   Hitler Hated the Gypsies as much as he Hated the Jewish People.   And my Mom's People have some of that Ethnicity in their Heritage and Worldwide they are still a very maligned and persecuted People across the Globe and also here in America... displaced everywhere they try to go and just Exist as a People, as all People should just have a right to do and a Place to just BE and live out their Lives and safely Raise their Families in Dignity and Good Health.

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Saying the Quiet Parts out loud... Dawn... The Bohemian

Crisis Upgrades... Coz We're Just that 'Extra' & Not 'Basic', Even With Our Crisis

 

I know some of you were surprised we had Crisis Upgrades... well, coz, let's face it, we're just that 'Extra' and not your 'Basic' folks at all, even with our Crisis.  *Winks*  The Son and I went to visit The Man this Morning and while there he was being 'graduated' from Cardiac ICU already to a Room, so, that's a favorable improvement to his responsiveness to his new Treatments, Med Changes and the Procedure he had done. 

 His little Young Cute Nurse with the Helium Cartoon Character Voice corrected me when I called what he'd had a "Surgery" coz they prefer to call the least Invasive a "Procedure".  *Eye Roll*  Listen, GF, he was Minutes from Dying from what Dr. Pham said and everything went Sideways, and they had to get INTO him to prevent that.  So, to me that's a SURGERY coz, in my opinion a PROCEDURE is when I have a Pap Smear, Honey.  *LOL*

  Okay, so I didn't say all that to her, coz she is a Sweetheart, Young and trying to be Technical about what THEY call shit. *Smiles*  I was thinking, this is his ICU Nurse, she seems a little bit a Bimbette?  So, I merely Smiled and said, Yeah, but, he was Minutes from Dying, Right?  Yes, she admitted... so it was an Emergency that was Life Threatening no matter WHAT we Call it.  She had to be in Agreement about that. Surgery -vs- Procedure is Semantics and rather like, is it Tomato or To-mah-toe? 

 While all Surgeries ARE Procedures, I do understand that not all Procedures are Surgeries and the Invasiveness, Risk Factors and Recovery Time is the Medical Criteria.   And, they did have to break the Skin to get IN there, and he was Inpatient and had it done in an Operating Room under Anesthesia, and not in some Outpatient Clinic using a Local, so it's not like he just had a Tooth pulled.  He's gonna be Hospitalized for Days and was in ICU after it.  Operating Techniques were involved.

Anyway, I forfeited my Need to be Right, since, I didn't wanna argue with a bubbly Twenty-Something Year Old the Age of my Grandchildren who had a squeaky high pitched Voice that makes taking her Seriously a bit comically hard.  It was like she'd just sucked a Helium Balloon, poor thing, and she was so Pretty and so Nice, that it just was kinda tragic she has a Cartoon Character Voice as her Real Voice!   Think how Mike Tyson the Heavyweight Boxer's Voice doesn't match his Appearance as a Tough Guy.  I didn't expect that Voice to come out of that Girl... and then she's trying to be Serious, and "School" me, so, it just Amused me, albeit in an annoying way.  *LOL*  She was condescending and a tad uppity and pretentious about it.  It was not necessary.

  I wanted to be appreciative and Thankful that she's Serious about taking such good Care of The Man for us and being all Technical and shit, yet, the Bimbo Vibe was Strong in this one.  *LOL* The Son was Smiling at me so I know what he was thinking immediately.  When she did leave the Room after tending to his Dad, he said, "No matter how Hawt a Gal is, or how Nice, or how Experienced at her Career, I couldn't get past that Voice, Mom.  Or take her as Seriously, even if she were highly Intelligent and a Trained Professional, as I'm sure all ICU Nurses are.  It sounds so Bimbo-ish and like the Voice of a total Airhead.  At least she wasn't Blonde too."  *LMAO*  I know, how Judgmental are we by a Voice, Right?  *LOL and Shame, Shame*  But, she started it with correcting us unnecessarily.  *Winks*

We didn't visit him long so as not to tire him out, he was looking more robust but was still very confused about what all had happened the Day Before.  I think it was all rather a blur to all of us really coz it was so hairy, such a long touch-n-go kinda day fraught with intense upgraded Crisis!!!  The Young Prince indulged in some Retail Therapy via Amazon Haul, which, has Deals that are unbelievable and Free Shipping.  He got this Vest, Tie, Handkerchief and Cufflinks for only Ten Bucks.  I know he and Princess T often order from Shein or Temu too.  I really like the Outfit on him, it's Dressy without being too Dressed Up.  He looked very Handsome in it and it's definitely got Swagger Appeal to the Look.  Now that he and Allen aren't together I notice he's gone back to Dressing more Fashionable, whether Presenting as a Male or a Female.  Allen was a Gay who dressed more like a Straight Man.  ie: He needed Help with Fashion and Style oftentimes.  *LOL*

We Dressed Allen for The Grandsons Wedding, coz he would have been Clueless on how to look most Handsome.  *LOL*  I took The Son out for Brunch, we both Needed the indulgence of a Meal Out, it has been a very tough couple of Days, to be sure.  Comfort Food and nice Ambiance really are uplifting and they had a new "First Watch" Restaurant near the Hospital that I hadn't been to since they opened.  There's one closer to Home near the Hospital closer to here too and we Love it, The Son had never been to one before. 

 They also have one Downtown near St. Joseph's Hospital too in the Heart of Phoenix, they tend to build them near Hospitals I've noticed.  They are madly Popular, great Food, great trendy Atmosphere, trendy Young Staff working there.  I think their prices are quite reasonable for the quality and quantity of the Food.  Their Caramel Crunch Iced Coffee is Sublime.  I had one of their Hashes and The Son had some Chimichicken Burrito that is New.

He said it would be the kind of place you would want to take a Date and I told him that his Dad and I like to go there on our Dates for that reason.  As a Couple it's just a nice place to Eat Out.  You don't see as many whole Families there as you see Couples and Young Professionals or even Good Friends Dining Out together.  The Son was very impressed with it and thoroughly enjoyed what he ordered, tho' he changed his mind about what to try about a half dozen times coz the selection is all so tempting.  *LOL*  I have never had anything there I didn't Love so you can't go Wrong really no matter what you Order.  Princess T got off Work early, before 1:00 p.m., so she's still not getting her full Hours but doesn't mind coz frankly it was Friday, and she's been stressed over her Grandpa too, so she wanted to be off earlier.  *Smiles*  It meant The Son and I had to rush thru Brunch tho' to go get her.

I myself slept like a Baby last Night coz No. 1, probably from 12 Hours at an ER and Surgery Waiting Room Marathon... No. 2, no more Sleeplessness due to Heavy Feelings of Bad Premonitions and waiting for it to actually happen.   The Waiting for something you have ongoing Predictions, Premonitions or Intuitions about is the hardest part of having them really.  You know it's coming and that it's gonna be Bad, but the Timing is never particularly specific, at least not for me when I have them.  

I only ever know if it's really close to happening or further off so that Time can be more on your Side to prepare for it, that's all.  My Brother called me from Cali and scolded me for not telling him I was having one, coz he has them too and Understands so wouldn't mock it or downplay it.  He was more upset I didn't Trust him with the Premonition and Intuition about something this Important involving Family.   Well, you got a LOT going on too Bro', so, I didn't wanna burden you with it.  He's got his own Surgery coming up again soon and is preparing for another Morphine Pump implant, the old one malfunctioned a long time ago and it's been over a Year long ordeal to get a new one approved and scheduled.

He feels he could have helped me tho' to decipher the whole thing, and he probably could have.  Especially when I mentioned it was a bunch of Hearts, Sacred Hearts, Valentine's Hearts, broken Hearts, Jesus Touching His Heart!!!  I couldn't make sense of it, so it was confusing to me, but my Brother said he thinks he would have figured it had SOMETHING to do with THE Heart, and of it being of a Person Close to the Heart.   I KNEW the Person it equated with, being The Man, and possibly even Death... just not the Message was getting thru to me in a way I put together until it was actually happening, I don't know Why?  Sometimes Clarity is delayed and comes later... it's not unlike not 'Getting' a Joke right away, is the best way to describe it.

 Coz it seems so Obvious now... Hindsight being 20-20... and it seems like I should have had some Clarity to the Messaging of it!   But, in my defense I had a LOT going on besides The Man, and even contemplating his possible Death... plus very little good Sleep, so those side distractions involving other Crisis with other Loved Ones... and the State of the World right now... was making my Focus very scattered and spread really thin.  As an Empath your Energy can be drained by the Energy around you, to where it's depleted and weaker.

I Promised my Brother that if I have any more, I will for sure keep him in The Loop, he always does when he has his.   Our Family has Hereditarily had these for Generations now so we are very matter-of-fact about them regardless of Skepticism by most.  If you don't wanna heed a Warning I would give you, that's on you then.  To be less prepared or protected then when it happens, or that you didn't even try or attempt to avoid it, if indeed it is one of the actual Avoidable ones and Why you were given the Warning for me to pass along to you.  I've had numerous folks be given a Warning I was compelled to Receive and pass along to them, say they sure do Wish they'd taken it Seriously and not thought it to be foolishness and mocked it, so just brushed it off as mere nonsense.  

The Daughter and Mando are visiting The Man right now so she called me coz he didn't remember that The Son and I just visited him in ICU this Morning!!!  *Le Sigh*  They have him on good Meds, plus his Dementia, so he was loopy and kinda spacy during our visit.  So, I'm not exactly surprised he forgot we'd already been there to visit him Today.  But, then I could hear him asking her when I was coming again then, when she told him, Dad, they already visited you this Morning, before you got up to a Room. 

 It was when they were actively moving you to a Room so they left and said they would come back later once you were more situated and had eaten something.  "Oh", I heard him say, then ask when I was coming again?  *LOL*  And, would I bring Snacks, coz he's not on a restricted Diet so he can have them.  *LMAO*  So, it's not that he's eager to see me, he's eager for me to bring Snacks.  *Winks*  And mebbe to see me a little bit?  *Bwahahaha*   I don't even take it Personally, it's how he just is now and I accept that and find the Humor in it really.  If he's got NCIS or Hawaii Five-O on the TV there, and then his Snacks from Home, it will be like Home Away From Home to him and his Routine won't have been all that Interrupted and Disrupted.   And all will be Right with his World and he'll not be giving them Grief to come Home prematurely.

I want to ensure he's actually Stable and Healing properly before he's shuffled back Home coz I don't Need more Crisis and Emergency Medical shit playing out.  I'm pretty spent on the back to back and Upgraded Crisis here at The Asylum playing out nonstop lately, it's exhausting.  I'm not fully Recovered from one before the next one hits and drains me completely.  It's not how I want or intend to spend my Days of alleged "Retirement and Golden Years", you know?  *Eye Roll*  The Young Prince just had a bunch of Groceries delivered from Amazon Prime via I think a Wal-Mart or something... they were fast and brought it right to the Door.  He Hates to shop... coz... Peopling is difficult for him... and Shopping in particular is overwhelming when he's Psychotic.   So he'd rather, like his Sister, whose Anti-Social too, do Shopping this way.  They'd rather never have to leave the House.

I'm the complete opposite in I enjoy Shopping, even if I'm not even Buying anything.   I find Grocery Shopping particularly Zen and don't mind doing it European Style, meaning more often than the Average American does their Grocery Shopping.  Mostly coz I buy a lot of Fresh and Perishable items, so doing it frequently ensures less waste and more Freshness.   And I like to do mine either really Early or really Late at Night, just as they Open or just before Closing.   Deals abound at Closing and as they Open the Shelves are well Stocked.  And... less Shoppers... and, I find Staff tend to be friendly at the start of their Shift and as they're ready to get off Work and call it a Day.  Most will tell you how glad they are that they're ready to go Home and so interactions are personably pleasant as you come into Agreement about Yay, you get to go Home soon, me too!  *LOL*

 

Most get used to you being a Regular at Opening or Closing too, and so long as you don't keep them Over, they're Cool with the Late to Closing Shopper who gets out of there on Time.   I'm not that annoying Shopper who rushes in just under the Wire and then makes everyone stay Late coz the Customer doesn't have their shit together or any consideration.  Plus, for some reason, Employees where ever I do go always seem to Like me.  Becoz I do always interact pleasantly with all Staff, and, I never have been a Pain in the Ass kind of Customer, I think most who are IMO are intentionally that way, and I want to Treat everyone like I'd want to be Treated.  People respond favorably to that, by and large.  I don't know how anyone expects to be Treated Well when they don't Treat other People Well? 

Just got back from visiting The Man, he was funny, he's up in his new Room watching an Old Patrick Swayze Movie he really likes and has seen Dozens of times, so my visit is interrupting his Show.  *Winks*  He see's I brought the Snacks he asked for, digs thru the Four and picks some Ritz Bitz with Cheese, and starts devouring them rather quickly.  Saying, you don't have to stay now if you don't want to!!!   WTF, Honey, I JUST got here!!!  I hadn't even sat down yet!!!!!!  I came to see you coz you asked The Daughter when would I be coming back?!  So, by now he's quickly downed The Ritz Bitz Personal Size Bag, hands me back the other Three Snacks and the empty Bag and says, you better take these with you coz we'll get both of us in trouble, coz they have put me on a Restricted Diet now!!!  WTF!?!  You tell me this NOW, after you ate a Bag of forbidden Contraband!

  Yeah, he tells me this AFTER he eats all his Ritz Bitz, and now wants me to sneak off quickly with the Evidence that he's violated his Dietary Restrictions and implicated me now!!!  Nurses by then are coming in with new Dressing for his Wound and I Exit quickly, Stage Left!  *LMAOROTF*  I was just The Mule... obviously!!!  And I'm thinking, you Motherfucker!!! *Bwahahahaha*  And I'd said, before the Nurses showed up, well, when The Daughter called she said you weren't on a Restricted Diet, so I could bring you Snacks coz she had brought you just a Candy Bar.  And he says, Yeah, she didn't know either and so she got in Trouble for it when they caught her!!!  *OMG, he's so sneaky BAD, they probably thought we're TRYING to Kill him?!  LOL*   So when I got Home and told the Kids, they thought it was hilarious... sounds just like Dad/Grandpa!!!

  

Oh, and the other thing he said when I told him, well, at least you've been Upgraded, is... well, they Downgraded me again coz somehow my Wound busted open!!!   I think it was when they transferred me from my ICU Bed to this one?  I dunno, sometimes he doesn't behave and be Still when they tell him to coz he Forgets, so, quite likely he did it moving around too much or trying to get out of the Bed... so... they'll probably have to say he's a "Risk" just to be on the Safe Side.  I saw on some Old Folk's Doors they had "Risk Factors" Posted, like "Fall Risk", "Wander Risk".  One frail Old Black Lady with longer Dreads than mine kept wanting to come in our Room!   And they'd have to herd her back telling her she's not allowed to Leave her Room or be out of Bed.  I'm sure she keeps them hopping and she had that Vacant Look a lot of those with Advanced Memory Care Issues tend to have on their Faces, Bless her.

They had another White Older-Middle Aged Woman from DOC there with her buff Young Male Security Detail Guard Assigned to her.  I overheard her telling him about her Crime, she'd Shot and Murdered some Guy, and was talking about it rather matter-of-factly like it was the most Normal Conversation to have.  And she was telling him she might have got away with claiming Self Defense only after Shooting him, she didn't call for Medical Attention for him, since he was still Alive at that time, or Dial 911, she just left him there... and he Died!  And she didn't turn herself in, so had to be caught.  Yeah, that'll do it and definitely not Fly as a Self-Defense Plea.  *LMAO*

 She looked so benign and harmless, and Friendly, you wouldn't even have a Clue she could be or was dangerous and caught Murder Charges for being a Cold Blooded Killer.  And very jovially telling this Story with no hint of remorse or regrets about what she'd done, any of it... just mebbe that she foolishly got caught by leaving the scene of her Crime and not reporting she'd shot someone, or Why.   If you met her on the Streets you'd think, Nice Friendly lady in her late 50's, doesn't Look Psycho!   Only her Orange DOC Jumpsuit was the Dead Giveaway she was there on Medical Emergency from the Department Of Corrections and Handcuffed to her Bed!!!  *LOL*  I'm thinking to myself, Dude, be vigilant with this one, and don't underestimate her, she's schmoozing you to catch you Off Guard and if she gets to your Gun, you're another Body Count!  Any large Urban Hospital is gonna have quite the Human Sideshow, that's for Sure.

The Young Prince's Old Friend Sadie re-connected with him now that he and Allen aren't together and she and Ian aren't together.  There had been Issues when they were roommates, becoz of Allen and his temper and jealously.  Sadie and The Young Prince have always been very close, like Princess T and Timmy are close, so both Guy's Male Partners have always been jealous of that.   Yes, Timmy and The Young Prince are Gay, but, if they were to choose a Female as a Partner, both have said that The Young Prince would choose Sadie and Timmy would choose Princess T.  *Smiles*  Anyway, I'm glad he and Sadie have put all that past behind them that was turbulent on account of someone else coz they were very Dear Friends for a long time before all the Man Drama.  Timmy doesn't see Princess T all that often due to his current Boyfriend being jealous.

The irony being, the Boyfriend doesn't get jealous when Timmy wants to go do something with Matthew, whose also Gay, and part of The Three Musketeers Trio, but feels more threatened by the Relationship Timmy has with Princess T!   *LOL*  And my Granddaughter thinks that's Funny coz she has a Boyfriend she's had for over Two Years now and Matthew is still Single.  *Winks*   Anyway, Timmy has been with his Mr. Wonderful for a long time now too, I did meet the Guy once, seemed Nice, very Tall, Dark and Handsome, very limp Handshake tho' and when any Guy, Straight or Gay, gives me a limp Noodle Handshake, it usually indicates to me a chink in Character.  I know, Superstitious, but, has always been pretty damned accurate.  Princess T does not like Timmy's Boyfriend, nor does Matthew.  But, Timmy & Matthew do know her Boyfriend Rusty and like him, they know he's a Good Guy and very Good to her.

And Rusty isn't the least bit jealous of her Gay Boy Posse, coz he's known all Three of them since Jr. High School and knows they're Good Guys who are very Protective of her and enjoy her Company platonically.  Rusty isn't an extrovert and neither is Princess T, so he knows she'd never go out and do some of the Fun things she enjoys doing with her Gay Boy Posse if she didn't have them to go do that kind of thing with, that he doesn't do.  The Extroverted Stuff where she boldly dresses up and goes out to Events, all Three of them just to be Seen.  *Smiles*  

With Rusty, well, Bless his Heart, she dresses way down usually and super Casual, becoz he doesn't fixate on how she Looks at all and that's why she really gets along with him.  She's not interested in Guys who just think she's Pretty and aren't substantive about Relationships.  She rarely likes a Guy just coz he's Handsome, she says those are the ones you can't Trust coz they tend to be Players.  She's not Wrong.  And to all the Gorgeous Men out there, can you Honestly tell us you WEREN'T?  Never, ever?  *Winks and Nods*   You see, a Beautiful Woman could be, or definitely won't be, it's at least a 50-50 chance that her Looks don't dictate her Character and she won't be Playing you.

  And, if you are a Gorgeous Man and are the exception, well, good on you.   But it is very likely many Women passed you up becoz of this Rule you claim to be the exception to.  *Bwahahahaha*  Anyway, The Young Prince, as Fabulously Gay as he is, and being openly Trans at least half the time Presenting as a Female, still has so many very good looking Women who have really liked him and wanted to have a Relationship with him.  So, he knows that he could Date Females and he knows which Women he'd be attracted to in that way.  He has told me it's easier for him to have Relationships with Women than with Men coz he's more like a Women so understands Women better than Men.

And he said something quite profound the other day, that when he turned 25 he felt like more Testosterone kicked in coz he felt like a Man for perhaps the first time in his Life!!!   Since Childhood he's felt more like a Girl, and had more Girlish Features even when Presenting as a Male.   So people always mistook him for being a little Girl or a Young Woman.   He couldn't grow Facial Hair, but knowing he's part Indigenous he figured it was due to that, and it could be.   The Son was in his 30's before he could grow Facial Hair and it still doesn't look right when he grows it.

 But at 25 The Grandson suddenly could grow some too, it's sparse, a Post Menopausal Woman could grow more *LOL*... but first time he's HAD to shave and sometimes didn't and did look more Masculine, was able to build Muscle easier, didn't mind looking more Masculine either.   So he's Working Out with Weights now to sculpt more of a Male Physique, coz he is very Slender and Lean Naturally.  Even when he'd Work Out with Allen, whose a Muscle Head and Big Powerful and Muscular Guy, he wouldn't usually build bulk Muscle like most Men do.  He'd just end up real Strong, but still Slender.

So, we were joking about it when we had that conversation coz he was like, wouldn't it be interesting if I suddenly turned into a Man in Middle Age?  *Bwahahahahaha*   Interesting would be the proper Word right there!  *LMAO*  I think he may always have an Androgynous way of Being tho', even if Physically he became more Manly looking?  Just a hunch, since, when I hang out with The Young Prince it's no different than me hanging out with his Mom or his Sister, or any other Woman, definitely different than hanging out with The Son or The Man and any other Man.  And he can be such a fucking Diva and he knows it... way more of a Diva than even his Mom and his Sister are... and they are definitely certified Divas.  {ie: A self-important Person who is temperamental and difficult to Please.}  *LOL*  Yep, that's all Three of them, for sure!!!  *Smiles*

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Coming to you all Extra from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian