This Guy was very Happy to have me Home, he ran up to greet me as if his Life had depended on my very existence! *LOL* The Man had been misbehaving for the Kids, so while IN the Hospital I had to have a Come To Jesus with him over the Phone, since he was refusing to get out of Bed or Eat for The Daughter and I'd left her "In Charge". *LOL and Eye Roll* She said she could tell by Dad's Face that I was reading him the Riot Act, I told him he better Behave for them Kids in my absence, and knock it off, lest he wanna upset me so much I have another fucking Stroke and then Haunt his Ass from beyond the Veil!!!?? *Winks* She said after that he was still very Sad and Scared, and wanting me to be Home, but Behaving as he should. *Smiles* With the TBI and Dementia if his Routine changes or I'm not there, he discombobulates.
Princess T was trying to hold it together for her Mom and be Helpful, but when I saw her Care Bear lineup in her Room when I got out of Hospital, I could tell she had been really Stressed Out and it had kicked her OCD and Anxiety into overdrive. She wouldn't come see me in Hospital coz she felt she'd start Crying and didn't wanna upset me or make me think she thought or was acting like I wasn't gonna make it. *Awww and LOL* They didn't bring The Man either when they came to visit me since he said he couldn't do it either and managing him if he went to pieces or didn't feel Safe, would have been too much to take that Show on the Road either. I kept in Touch with him by Phone, so he'd feel updated on my condition and not left out of the Loop or Patronized. As his Spouse, if it had been him, I'd want to know what's really going on and not have it kept from me.
When I got Home I was finally able to download my Eye Candy Images from the last Christmas "Highland Yard Vintage" and "Sweet Salvage" Events of the Year. I got lots of Blog Fodder, including the heavier stuff happening, lots of fluff and Eye Candy too, so, it will be a mixture of both. I have to rest, take it easy and rehab myself now so I'll have more Down Time here at Home in front of the PC Screen to be happily Blogging. I think it's good for my Brain to be challenged with composing and creating Posts. If it has to be rewiring itself and compensating for any Brain Damage, I want to do all I can to challenge myself Mentally and Cognitively to keep improving and regaining function. Since Friends had seen me AT the Event the very same Day as I had The Stroke just Hours later that Afternoon at about 5:00 p.m. while making Chili, it seemed surreal to them. It always does when you just saw someone and then a Crisis happens to them.
I had been Sick just after Thanksgiving and had to go to the ER, as you might remember, but it was separate from this recent Crisis, but, has impacted our entire Holiday Season. You can't Time Crisis, they happen when they just happen. Every time I heard a Life Flight coming in while Hospitalized, it made me Thankful that my own Health Crisis wasn't nearly as severe as whatever theirs was right before Christmas! And when I'm hearing what's happening Globally, in the Atrocities committed in Germany that Killed 5 and injured 200 innocent Christmas Market Shoppers by an Extremist... and the Genocide and Ethnic Cleansing still ongoing in Gaza, it just breaks my Heart that so many Innocents are being Lost and how "Normalized" such things are quickly becoming. No Human Beings should be Targeted for such Atrocities and Human Rights Violations against Humanity, no matter what the "Cause" is that the Perpetrators of those Acts use as an excuse or justification.
Yes, I too do Escape into The Fluff of Life in order to remain Centered and add it to my Posts with regularity. Along with the Heavy stuff, Yes, we do need the Balance of some Lighter stuff too. I do think having a Close Call recently has given me more of a sense of Prioritizing everything and anything. Not that I didn't Prioritize things before, I always have, but, when your Mortality is suddenly making you reckon with it, shifting some Priorities will definitely happen. Some stuff isn't so important and you realize it and put it on a back Burner for now and bring more important things to the forefront. Stakes are that high right now and anyone who Imagines they aren't are either in Denial or don't take Real Threats Seriously. If anyone Threatens me, I Believe it, to not do so is at your own peril. I don't feel so Weakened by what happened to me to not Resist what is fucked up right now in America.
And it's pretty fucked up before this Authoritarian incoming Regime even gets installed. He's already now threatened Canada, Panama and other Sovereign Nations like Greenland that he wants to "Acquire" them, WTF, and tho' some might Imagine he's Joking, I don't... it's very Putinesque in Nature. And when Putin threatened Ukraine Three Years ago, he meant it too, and he also doesn't intend to stop there if he is allowed to prevail. Germany's Government has already collapsed... do we really want America's to be next? Even when a bad Government collapses or implodes, like it has in Syria, it leaves a Vacuum and a Void that often is exploited and filled by factions that are really dangerous and seize the opportunity of the instability and the collapse, so there are concerns when any collapse happens. So many Guardrails are now gone here in America now, that, anything is possible and quite a lot of it isn't good at all. Depravity has been Normalized and it's NOT Normal, it's abhorrent.
Okay, Vent for Today over... stepping down off Soapbox. *Winks* I don't mind being involved in what John Lewis called Good Trouble, it's always been necessary if you want to stand up and have the courage to Stand For what is Right, Just and Humane. Anyway, I'm still as Militant as ever I guess, part of my Brain going Offline didn't seem to change me very much at all. I was pleased to realize I can Type as fast as ever, so it didn't affect that cognitive function either. *Whew* So, Blogging is still easy, both in my Stream of Consciousness and in my ability to do all of it. I'm really happy about that since this is one of my Happy Places and a Creative Space I've enjoyed now for well over a Decade. My Grandson, The Young Prince, was 9 when he told me about what a Blog was, thought it would be something I'd enjoy and be good at, and set this up for me... and the rest... is History. He's 24 now. *Smiles*
Princess T has been working on her Annual Gingerbread House all Week and finally finished. Usually she gets it done quicker, this Year she took her Time and it shows in her attention to details. We'd bought some extra Candies to go with the Kit and I'm particularly impressed this Year with her skill at making Icing Icicles. I'm just glad she's Old enuf now not to need me to help her make a Gingerbread House, for some reason I never liked making them. As a Creative Soul one would have thought I'd like making them, but, surprisingly I loathed it and so the Tradition and Ritual Princess T always Loved wasn't something I looked forward to. *LOL* Her Brother would often take one for the Team and help her make one. I just felt that since my Heart wasn't in it, the results would show it and I didn't wanna ruin her outcome. She always does a good job of it, but when Younger, needed assistance.
The Daughter is still making great strides in The RV Garage Mahal Gauntlet. We know eventually The Young Prince will be back and helping her too. The dilemma right now after me having a Stroke is, I had intended to take a Bus to New Mexico and help him load up a U-Haul and I'd drive it back to bring him and his possessions Home. Now my Niece, who lives in Oklahoma, is floating the Idea that if we pay for it, she'd just do that for us and just stay a while with us like a mini Vacay and Couch Surf. She Works from Home so has the ability not to have to be any place in particular to do her Job. It would be so Helpful if she could go get him coz they get along fabulously and it would be a Road Trip they'd both enjoy doing together under even the difficult circumstances of his estrangement and eventual desire to Divorce his Husband. She's Gay too and Single, so has a better understanding of the pressures he's endured with Society and in the area they both live being rather Homophobic.
Moving from a rather Liberal Urban area like Phoenix where it's pretty much a Non-Issue to be part of the LGBTQ+ Community, to a more Rural Conservative area so close to Texas, which is radically Homophobic, has been very hard. Allen can 'pass' for being a Macho Straight Guy becoz he's very Masculine in appearance, habits and his 'Gay' doesn't show so much in most situations. The Young Prince however is Fabulous, Feminine, and can't fly under anyone's Gaydar, so, he's always endured much more discrimination and Homophobia to the point it's been dangerous to be who he is in numerous situations. He's been assaulted numerous times before since he's Trans and the violence against Trans Men presenting as Female or even appearing Female when they present as Male, is very high. Just like violence against Females is, Trans Men suffer many of the same Crimes that Women do. So, I do fear for his safety and would rather he live closer where he is protected by a Community that Loves and knows him.
Even when we lived in Da Hood, one time when he was 12 Years Old a group of Homophobic Grown Men jumped and beat him so badly he required Hospitalization. Had it not been for some of the Gang Kids of our Barrio who'd grown up with him, and were tough and protective of anyone from our Community, including him, it might have been far worse. But they came to his rescue and fought the Grown Men and brought him Home and we called Police. But, Law Enforcement by and large doesn't protect the Gay Community or Care that much, often they've been the perpetrators of Homophobic Violence and beatings, and that has been the case with the Grandson having that experience with some Cops too.
So, the Police did nothing about the violent assault of a Gay Hispanic Child and at the time I worked for the DA's Office and filed a formal Complaint about it. I didn't expect results or change, but, I'm Militant about Injustices in Society, all of them, and particularly if it involves me and mine. You don't change the way things just are tho', so we had some Street Justice thus meted out to those Homophobic Assholes... Problem Solved, retaliation, especially in Da Hood if you mess with the wrong people, can be a real Motherfucker. It was a bad day that day to be the Homophobic Grown Male Assholes willing to gang up and viciously beat a Gay Twelve Year Old Child. They got what was coming to them.
The Kids are taking good Care of me since I got Home and stepping up, they're helping out even more with The Man and he's settled now I'm Home. He was Sad and Scared while I was away Hospitalized, now he feels more Secure and that things are gonna be Okay. He sees I've made good progress and am not all fucked up Post-Stroke, which, I ain't gonna Lie, was a relief and also a concern, Strokes are no Joke and Recovery from them can be a long Road of Rehabilitation that isn't always complete and full. I'm on Three more Meds to prevent another one and will be fitted with a Monitor when I go in to see the Cardiologists. I've got the Cardiology Appointment to get fitted for the Monitor scheduled just after Christmas. The Neurology Appointment is Mid-January, he didn't need to see me right away since they are pretty sure my Heart is more the Issue than my Brain. I know, that's Funny, coz... well... MY Brain. Even before Stroke damage. *Bwahahaha*
I'm so glad you're home from the hospital with no serious side-effects from the stroke. (At least not that anyone could tell by your posts.) They have amazing treatments now if you get there in time. Also glad that your grandson is coming back from Texas. That's no place for a trans person to be over the next 4 years. You have a lot to be grateful for this Christmas! Take it easy and let others care for you for awhile.
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