I decided to pull out any Towels and Blankets of The Grandson's Laundry Hoard and do that Load, it's quick and easy to do, and everyone uses the Towels. So, now we know where all the missing Towels went. The Man is taking one for the Team, since it's only Three of us at Home and The Son is doing a lot of Yardwork and I'm doing the Laundry, to do the dirty Dishes we pulled out of there. Which was mostly Cereal Bowls and Utensils, so now we also know where all the Bowls and Spoons/Forks went. *Eye Roll* We'd suspected... since, The Daughter isn't here anymore and she's an equal Co-Offender as her Son is. They both have Schizophrenia and some of the Negative Symptoms include Apathy and lack of Motivation {Avolition}, Disorganization, and Planning Issues.
Along with what are called Positive Symptoms that are intense, like Hallucinations and Delusions that dominate their Attention. Those Factors create severe Challenges with Routines, Executive Functions, Self-Care rather than simply Laziness. If they have tendency to also be Lazy, that just amplifies the situation, with The Daughter she's not Lazy, but with the Grandson, he can be and doesn't deny he can be. Difficulty completing multi-step Tasks for him makes cleaning sometimes overwhelming and confusing and his acute Psychosis and intense Hallucinations or Delusional Thoughts can take up all his Attention and altered Perceptions. That leaves little cognitive Space for Sanitation. His Sensory Issues play a role too coz he feels detached from his own Body so much of the time and he has Cognitive Decline from his Mental Illness much like The Man has with Dementia actually.
Enough of that, we're running damage control behind those in the Family with Cognitive Decline and Brain Damage or Serious Mental Illness all that we can when you have several with those levels of Disability sharing Space. It does feel like I'm running a Group Home or Asylum at times, but without Staff. Or any Formal Training in Psychiatry or Psychology, so I make it up as I go along and see what Works and what Fails. Keeping Pace is the harder part as I'm Aging Out coz I only have a finite amount of Stamina and Strength left now and by Noon or so, it's depleted completely and a lot isn't getting done. And, that is problematic too, coz when I'm not Coping well, then things go to shit pretty fast. I don't want a lot of Outsider interference since receiving Services always comes with so much Criteria and loss of controlling your own Destiny, it's a delicate balance. Having Strangers making decisions isn't always a good thing or doesn't always have good results either.
Having Help always does come with Strings attached, and Qualifying Factors galore, lots of them in fact. But I did finally decide I needed Help with The Grandson and The Man, so we had to accept some Caseworkers being assigned to their Cases in order to be met at their Point of Need I couldn't provide by myself anymore. I want to keep them both at Home and not Institutionalized. Which, wouldn't Cost me anything for The Grandson, he's 25 and not my Legal Responsibility to cover the extensive Costs of his long-term Care. But, for The Man, we're Married, so our Assets are subject to being wiped out completely in order to provide that level of Care just for him and leave me pretty much Fucked and destitute. Along with anyone else dependent upon our Care and to have Shelter and Food for the rest of us. So, it's just not an Option at all.
Thanks for allowing me the Caregiver Vent and Rant for this Post... it's Cheaper than Therapy and if I dumped all of this on any Therapist or Shrink, they'd probably want me on a bunch of Strong Medications. *LMAO* People I happen to know pop a Prozac for trifles that they consider huge Issues of Life and for me would be considered a fucking Walk in the Park compared to what I'm Dealing with Daily. So, pretty sure if they're prescribed that for their shit they can't Cope well with, the Medical Pros would have me really strung out on a lot of strong Pharma Coping defaults they resort to!? When they sure can't Solve your Situation or eliminate a Problem or slew of them, that you just gotta Live with and somehow Deal with and Cope with. I don't wanna be popping Pills just to get thru a Day, it's not who I am to think that's a Solution to any Problem I have, by any stretch of my Imagination.
Every Prescription Pill Popper I know or have ever known just ends up with that layering yet another Problem on top of their existing Problems they weren't Coping with either. And Dependency can be The Devil, whatever or whoever you place your Dependency upon ultimately Controls you. And I'm a Control Freak, I freely admit it, relinquishing Control of my own Destiny is not something I'd do voluntarily and just hand it to someone else with total Trust that they'd have it up under sufficient Control to be beneficial to me. And if it's not a Solution, then it just becomes another Problem, I already got 99 of those, I don't Need even One more, Thanks, but, No Thanks.
I'm gonna take The Man for a little drive for both of our Mental Health, we're dropping The Son off at the Plasma Center so he can get some Cash for what we can't or won't provide. I do Need the Escape right now and even tho' Gas is expensive, a short ride won't break the Budget and will be worth the little distraction from The Grind. I did finally get out of my Jammies by 2:00 p.m., so, that's Progress, Right? *LOL* I'm wearing my "Sorry about our President" Shirt with some Black Capris, it has that saying in 16 different Languages including Sign Language. *Winks* I've gotten my Value out of Buying it coz I work it often during 1.0 and for 2.0 I get even more compliments from Random People when I'm wearing it now.
His Approval Ratings are plummeting rapidly and anyone still attached to him will be Guilty by Association now for probably the rest of their Lives/Careers. History isn't Kind to those standing on the Wrong Side of it. And his Lies are catching up to him, especially about the glib shit he's saying about his Ego War, how he's obliterated this and that and yet, he hasn't. Now we've got F-15's and other American Aircraft shot down and a Pilot stranded in Enemy Territory, at grave risk of Enemy Capture... so this Prez's unserious attitude about what he calls a Leisurely "Excursion" has gotten Dead Serious and he doesn't wanna confront or face that Reality so is defaulting now to Threatening actual War Crimes!!! Is that who America wants to be, a Country known for now committing War Crimes on purpose!? I think not for the majority of Americans who want to remain Proud of who we are and what we stand for that is Honorable and on the Right Side of History. We have some Bad and Shameful History, but let us not add to it.
Not that he hasn't already committed some, but, they do have to find Soldiers willing to commit War Crimes. Who don't have absolute Immunity offered to them if they violate the Rules of War and suffer the consequences of that decision or following that illegal Order. Hegseth is trying to purge the Military of competent Leadership who aren't Cult Devotees and have Loyalty to One demented Criminal Old Man rather than the Constitution and their Country. Hegseth should be held accountable for his Crimes and Extremist Bloodlust Warmongering Fanaticism, for sure, he's a real piece of Work, that one. He was flagged as an "Insider Threat" when he was in the Army National Guard and resigned since he's interpreted as being a Extremist. And it was well known he's an Alcoholic and White Supremacist. His Medals are meritorious, not for Valor or any single acts of Heroism. He's been barred from Serving actually during another Administration.
I took The Man out for a little drive and to have Dinner at "Church's" Chicken, they have a Big Meal Deal Box Dinner Special. His Surf & Turf Meal was $10 and my Chicken Meal was $8, each came with Two Sides and a Honey Biscuit with Medium refillable Drink, not bad. And it's in the Old Neighborhood so they always give us the Hood Hookup on portion sizes that really are upsized at no extra charge. My Side of Fried Okra for example should be a tiny little Side, they give me a Medium sized BAG, like you'd pack a Kid's Lunch in, filled with Fried Okra. Do, I had Fried Okra for Days. *LOL and Winks* The Man got Extra Fried Shrimp too so he didn't eat half his Chicken Tenders he chose, too full. *Smiles* He enjoyed getting out for a while but it was almost 100 Today this Afternoon so we came right back Home afterwards. He's still not Well enuf, even in an Air Conditioned Vehicle, to be dragged around too much yet.
There's lotsa Easter Family Outside Gatherings going on in our Mini Farms Community for this Holiday Weekend, some are already in full swing. With having Acreage you can Host big Gatherings and set up Tents or Covered Gazebos in the back Pastures and that's what many Families do. And a lot of them have huge Families or a whole lotta Friends coz it's a very large Gathering. I don't even think I know that many People. *LOL* The Neighbor on the Corner Lot on our Street had about Six large Tented Gazebos set up in their Back Pasture, with long Harvest sized Tables and Chairs, all the Tables were full of People. They had about a Four Table Buffet spread set up on the Back Porch full of Food, quite the Holy Day Celebration going on. There were Vehicles parked up and down Two Streets in attendance. Back in Da Day, when we lived in the Old Barrio, we'd get Invited to a lot of those Gatherings our Neighbors had.
We still know a lot of the same folks, but as we've all Aged, they Hosted fewer and fewer, much like we have Hosted fewer and fewer Gatherings at our Homes. Or even in the Parks, like we all used to if the Gatherings became too large to Host from your Property. I miss it in some ways, but if we were Invited to some, I don't know we'd always confirm we'd be able to attend, frankly. The Man's Health just isn't conducive to doing that anymore. Our Kiddos sometimes still go to Gatherings with their Friends tho', the Younger Generations still Host some. Our Neighbors, on both sides, still Host a lot of them at their Properties. Our Elderly Neighbors still Host a lot of Gatherings for their Church Friends, I guess Families rotate doing it. And Omar's Family are a typically large and Multi-Generational Hispanic Family who have Gatherings almost every Weekend at their Property. Three to Four Generations live on the Property.
I don't know how The Young Prince is gonna reaction to me going in there with his Uncle and cleaning up. He's got to come to terms with the fact this is our Home and Safety plus Hygiene is important if he expects to remain living here. If he needs Help with it we're willing to Assist, but, it can't be like that and still needs Work in there. But, I can now see the Floor and took out all Trash. Put all Dirty Laundry I could find/see in Laundry Baskets now lining our Hallway where the Washer/Dryer is, and will have to figure an Organized way for him to have it all once it's Clean? I have some Chest of Drawers in the Art Studio currently holding Art Supplies, but I could empty some of that out to give him Storage Space for Clothing. There's no Closet in there, but there are Clothing Racks. Most hold my overspill since our Closet Space in this Home is limited and small, too small. He's allowed to Share my T-Shirts so long as he Washes them and doesn't ruin any of them.
He's drawn Protective Symbols in Chalk all over most of the Furniture in there, but, it's Chalk and can be easily removed, so as long as it helps him feel less Paranoid and "Protected", I don't battle him on that. He's got those Chalk Symbols around every Doorway in the House, in my Truck on the Doors. He's got Talisman Objects everywhere, Bells and Pouches of whatever he puts in there for his Magic to Ward Off Evil Spirits. He is very Tormented by Hallucinations of Bad Spirits and feels he must keep them at Bay. He sees a lot of things nobody else Sees but is very Real to him. So, if it brings him a Peace to have these Chalk Symbols and little Pouches of Crystals, Glitter, Sage or whatever benign Objects he puts in them, I'm Fine with that too. He's got some kind of elaborate Altar outside of his Front Door to The Art Studio Space. The Son was asking, what's he got this for? I dunno, just don't Touch it okay? *Shrugs* Hey, I got my own Superstitions, Talisman Objects, Rituals and such, so, whatever, I'm not Judging.
The Son was like, Mom, mebbe you should Photograph some of this stuff and show whoever has to Interview him at Social Security and determine level of Mental Health and Disability? I dunno, he might be overly Sensitive about doing that, but if he lets me, then we definitely will, it can't hurt. Since he actually Presents very well since he's highly Intellectual and very Intelligent. Crazy, not Stupid. And his level of Cray-Cray definitely interferes with his ability to take Care of himself, Work or Care for his Surroundings Safely, with proper Hygiene practices, and Appropriately. I should have mebbe Photographed the Room before I ran damage control behind it, but I don't really want Social Services coming down hard and removing him from the Home or thinking we're not competent to take Care of him or The Man. You never know, it's a double edged Sword sometimes what they might assess and run interference with a Family on? I'm not trying to get either one of the taken away.
And the Family is launching their own Platform said to be called "Truth Predict". Along with Political Election Prediction Markets they are deeply involved in War Betting, Geopolitical Risk Markets, World Liberty Financial {A Cryptocurrency Venture founded by the Prez and his Sons} which Deals in Decentralized Finance, Meme Coins {highly speculative Cryptocurrencies}, and various Crypto Partnerships. Definite Conflicts of Interest, almost certainly Insider Trading and even "Death Markets". It's very Twisted, Dark, very Sick, very profitable, and that bunch will do anything for the Love of Money and obtaining more of it... mostly Illegally, since, nobody has gone to Prison in their Family yet for it. And frankly, nobody is stopping them. Just a little something for you all to consider and chew on and try to digest, that isn't making much News, but, should.
A lot of things folks are hesitant to criticize, or speak Truth to Power, lest they be Targeted for Revenge and Retribution. Since that Tour is still making its rounds, much like a Band or Entertainer would, only not in a Good way, coming to somewhere near you soon. Especially if you're in a Blue or Purple Political area of the Country. The whole Revenge and Retribution Tour is very specific about which Americans they Target. He is NOT, nor does he want to be, or ever will be, everyone's President and Represent all Americans. He won't even Pretend to, if you're a Democrat, an Independent, Liberal Left Leaning or Moderate, a True Republican Conservative, a Woman, a Person of Color, Gay, Poor, Disabled, an Immigrant whether Legally here or not, any Religion except a Christian White Nationalist or Evangelical White Brand of Religion, stand for Democracy and Values... well, you're "The Enemy" and not a Patriot, from how he tells it. And the "Extreme" Religious just LOVE that about him.
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How was that for an Information Dump? Winks... Dawn... The Bohemian
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