I'm now Two Unpublished Blog Posts ahead again even tho' they're out of sequential order. *LOL* This one will be in sequential order tho', none are hanging out there forgotten now. *Winks and Smiles* When my Head ain't on Straight shit like that happens, what can I say? My Head has been on the Swivel lately, it's had to be. I think by Tomorrow, which in Real Time will be a Monday and start of a brand new Week and kind of kick starting February, I'll have it more pulled together and held down?
I do plan on going in to the Antique Mall early and mebbe should even hit The Gym first, coz I've been MIA on my vow to do that more consistently now I'm paying for my Membership out of Pocket rather than via Medicare paying since Humana's Silver Sneakers didn't cover that Gym and I didn't wanna change Gyms. I like "Lifetime Fitness" and their Facilities, so when they were willing to give me a Senior Program Deal to retain me, I was agreeable to it if they made it affordable for me, which, they did. And now, I have no Ageism Restrictions either, which is much better and more convenient.
I'm Obsessed with this Kay Adams Line of Bohemian Bling, so Beautiful, Unique and Inspiring use of Found Objects to remake into Creative Custom Jewelry. I'll be sprinkling in various Imagery I pulled off Pinterest Dives into various Jewelry Creations I was drawn to when I did my Deep Dive to Uplift myself out of the Funk and Dark Space I was Holding there for a while. Art always Uplifts, in any Form, the Arts I think is what makes Society just better and difficult times more tolerable. What would we do without the Arts, be it Music, Acting, Painting, Drawing, Literature, Sculpture, Architecture, Creating Objects, and numerous other Art Forms that are Uniquely Human Expression?
Several of these Images are Creations of Talented Friends of mine too, whose Art I've Bought for a long time and Collected. Like my Friend Cyndie who is an Amazing Jewelry Artisan who Sells her Line at Events. And Ben Molina, who goes by "The Creative Native", a Yaqui Tribal Art Vendor and Yaqui Indigenous Tribal Member, who used to be at our other Antique Mall Location. I had heard that mebbe Ben has Passed Away now, I haven't seen him or his Indigenous Skull Art in a long time being offered and had wondered if he just Retired or Passed? I only Wish I'd Bought more of it, but he'd always Sell Out and I could usually only Budget for One Purchase annually to add to my Collection. Choosing just One was always difficult, each being Unique and OOAK. Ben was Careful not to replicate any of his Art and all of it had Symbolic Significance in the Design and Native Graphics of it.
I know I had to submit my DNA Three times before they could conclusively say what their inconclusive findings were that didn't match any of what my Dad's side of the Family ever Shared Generation to Generation. Since they didn't have Written Tribal Language, so Storytelling was all we had, no Historic Records kept. I don't even know if some of the Ancestors, including Grandparents and certainly not Great-Grandparents, even had Birth Certificates or traceable Roots? And Federal Recognition really means squat, since they Cherry Picked what Indigenous Tribes they chose to Recognize or not Recognize. It had no bearing on any Tribes actual existence or legitimacy as First Nations Peoples whose Land was Stolen from them and involuntarily displaced and relocated just anywhere. Any Nomadic People just were on the Move constantly migrating and had no concept of Land 'Ownership'.
Anyway, Loved Ben's Work and he was originally from the Tucson area where the Yaqui Rez is and has about 19,000 enrolled Members on this side of the Border. Many more Yaqui are in Mexico, about 16,000 to 20,000. I've visited where they are in their Traditional Territory of Mexico in the State of Sonora, with some in Sinaloa. Many were displaced to Arizona in the late 19th and early 20th Century, which is why half still reside here. And a lot of Americans who don't know their History, forget that a lot of States, such as Arizona, were once part of Mexico and we Purchased from Mexico.
So a lot of Hispanic Residents were always here, and here first too, going many more Generations back than any Americans here. So anyone NOT Hispanic or Indigenous were the Immigrants, and it's the Hispanics and Indigenous who Belonged here, not the other way around. Whitewashed History always annoys the fuck out of me and fosters Ignorance and spreads Misinformation or outright Lies and fabrications that some cling to and Imagine is Factual. We should be Teaching accurate History in our Schools even if some of the Facts and Historical Events are uncomfortable. I got tired when I was in School of the omissions in Historical Events that were conveniently never talked about becoz it was some shameful History that should never be on Repeat. And this Administration is trying to Rewrite History that is all fake and not based on Facts or Truth.
I actually talked very recently to some Middle Aged American folks who legitimately were unaware of what was done to Japanese Americans during WWII. Or to Chinese Immigrants during the Gold Rush Years. They were astounded about unpleasant History they knew nothing about. A lot of Asian History in America is also very unpleasant, so omission is common. My Maternal Gran-Gran was Raised by Chinese Stepparents who Raised he and his Four other Younger Siblings as their own when his Mom became a Widow during WWI and had Eleven Children. She kept the Six Older ones and a Chinese Childless Family she knew took in the Younger Five, which included my Maternal Grandfather. So that's how my Gran-Gran grew up in both Cultures and learned a lot about Asian Culture and Asian History around the World. And he was a Buddhist all of his Life.
Since I did nothing really on Sunday I've got to make up for it on Monday by getting things Done! My Day of Rest on the Sabbath to Restore my Soul and Center myself Mentally is over now and I do Feel better for having taken a full Day of Rest. The Man said he's still not feeling very good, he's been having some very rough Days lately and it concerns me and so I don't wanna drag him around if I can't get anyone to watch him here for me so I can get things done. When he doesn't want to Tag along I know he's not Feeling Well, coz he usually always is eager and wanting to Tag along no matter what mundane or inane shit I'm doing. He's opting out in recent days of even the things he likes to do and usually looks forward to. And I think it's more Physical inability going on than the Dementia related Issues he now struggles with too.
His Birthday is this Month on the 18th, my Brother's is on the 6th, both of them have been recently really struggling with their already lengthy illnesses and overall Poor Health. So I do worry about both of them a lot. I try not to think upon it too much since Doc's prognosis for both of them has been grim for so long now that we just didn't Receive all of the Expiration Dates given them that they surpassed and Lived beyond the Bad News Predictions and prognosis of. But I know they're both on what Medical Experts have said for a long time now is borrowed Time and have been shocked they are still piping along despite Medical Evidence to the contrary that they should have succumbed to and just didn't and wouldn't. But, I know you can only Cheat Death so many times before it will eventually catch up to you. So, I just don't dwell on it. You become Thankful each Day for yet another Day given.
I've had some hard but relevant and necessary discussions in recent Days with the rest of the Family about challenges we're faced with. As a Unit we have to pull together to make it all Work Out and not fold up like a House of Cards. I know 2026 is gonna be a very Challenging Year, perhaps even a Cataclysmic one, if my Predictions do come to pass? I Hope they don't and I'm Wrong about what I foresaw, I'd rather be Wrong than Right about any of it I'm Tormented with the Premonitions of actually. Only Family and The Blog I've said anything at all about it, more as a Release to me personally. In Real Life I don't Share Premonitions often, if at all, unless they would actually be Helpful to someone specific I have them about and are preventable. If they're not preventable, I will not Share them in Real Life. And if someone isn't a Believer in Prophesy or Predictions and don't chose to prevent what is preventable, it will just happen as foretold then.
The Man Learned that early on the Hard way, when my Family Predicted some things preventable, Warned him of it in dire Detail, but, he chose not to heed or Believe. Both Mom and my Welsh Uncle did so numerous times for him as a protective measure, early in our Marriage. And after a few came to pass that he refused to think wasn't just foolish Superstition, and he either mocked or ignored and didn't try to prevent as they advised he should, coz he didn't think it would happen. And, well, it happened just as Foretold, eerily so, and he sure as shit wished he'd taken the Gift of being Forewarned and done something with it to prevent what happened to him that was not Good and caused him harm. Now he heeds any and all Premonition Forewarnings, even the ones I tell him can't be prevented, they're just coming.
I think part of why I Slept almost all of Sunday away is that many of the Bad Premonitions are interrupting my Sleep lately and waking me with Alarm, I don't want to 'See' what is being 'Shown'. Especially since, I know these are not the preventable types I can take preventative measures against either to avoid. They're just coming and there's nothing to Stop them from happening. And I Hate those ones. A Heads Up might do us some good, to be forearmed when forewarned, but that's not a certainty either. Some shit's just gonna be some Bad Shit to go thru no matter what. And even some preventable shit doesn't get prevented, The Man's Catastrophic Accident could have been Prevented. He knows this coz I told him less than 48 Hour before it happened that I had a Premonition and didn't want him Driving anymore to prevent it.
He did take it Seriously enuf he consulted his VA Doctor the very next Day. Who evaluated him for "Fitness to Drive" and just said your Wife is Wrong, you're perfectly Fine to Drive. And the Premonition was just that he'd be in a near Fatal Accident. But, I couldn't tell him for sure WHY he was gonna be in it, except that if he wasn't the Driver, he could avoid being in it, so just don't Drive anymore or it's gonna happen Honey. So he stubbornly went out, just a couple days later, luckily in my bigger Truck than his Jeep {coz he'd of Died in the smaller Vehicle}, coz I was still distraught about him not heeding my advice and very Mad at his VA Doc at the time too. Who swayed him not to give up Driving just due to a "Premonition" I'd had. A lot of Docs and Academic think that's not a Real Thing. Whatever.
And so, he got T-Boned at an Intersection near our Home on The Young Prince's 13th Birthday in 2013, lots of Numerology there too, with the 13's. And well, Double Brain Damage, 10 Months in Hospitals, requiring Full Time Caregiving from that Day forth, and Costing us well over a Million Bucks in Lifetime Medical Debts to Deal with that our Insurances were not gonna Cover. Plus, the Loss of my Career and most of my Pension, to have to stay Home and take Care of him and suffer my Breakdown. In hindsight, he says, he should have and could have just heeded my Advice to prevent what happened coz it was a preventable one and I knew this and stressed it. It was his Choice of One of Two Destinies, he chose unwisely that time. It Cost us all tho'. And so, now here we are in the Aftermath over a Decade later.
And if I get preventable Premonitions about myself, I always heed them, even the smaller ones, coz, why go thru something you can prevent and don't have to? I've done spontaneous shit when given a hasty speedy Premonition and don't even think about NOT doing what I'm advised to do via it. Example of just One, I'm driving down the Freeway at about 75 mph and with folks in the Vehicle, when suddenly one of those hasty Forewarnings hits telling me to change Lanes immediately. I had to do it so hastily that the Family got alarmed and asked what I was doing and so I told them, Premonition hit to just immediately Change Lanes, I'm not gonna Question the Why!!! But something Bad is gonna happen. I can choose not to be involved now and in the way of it. Can't prevent the whole thing, just my part of it.
And, within Seconds of the Lane Change, a Vehicle that had been directly behind me lost a Wheel and the Wheel went flying past us in the Lane we had been in... the Car lost Control and there was a huge pileup then of Vehicles due to it. We dodged that Bullet by mere Seconds or would have been part of the Carnage. Avoided it only due to heeding the hasty Forewarning without Questioning it. Now, if you asked me How I knew this was gonna happen, I couldn' t even tell ya the How. Just that it comes to me and I take it Seriously when it does and Obey if it's preventable for me being involved or avoiding involvement by Choosing Wisely to heed the Forewarning to alter that Fate. I don't mind or Hate the preventable ones. Only if someone decides not to take it Seriously enuf to prevent something that will happen otherwise, usually to them specifically if they don't.
I don't Care really who disbelieves, that's on them... Dawn... The Bohemian
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