Timing A Post... And Tales Of Kidnapping For Oil

 Lately I've had some curious inquiries as to how long I take to knock out these Posts? And for The Inquiring Minds, tho' I've never formally Timed it, since it's never in one sitting, and usually wee Hours of the Morning before the Family is up, or late at Night when they've all gone to Bed, I'd say, mebbe a couple Hours or so combined sittings, give or take.  I've never actually Timed my Creative Time and Relaxation Time, I just know I don't have much of it, so have to pack into it as much as I can. Fast Tracking it.   This Post was actually Written before the one previously, but I Fucked Up and forgot I had it Pre-Scheduled and Published the later one First... but, bear with me.

 But even when I'm doing anything else, even at Work, the usual Comments are, "You're already Done!?"  So, being so Hyper as I've always been, and Manic as fuck, I guess I get stuff Done in record time, according to those that think I do everything very fast and seem amazed that even at my advanced Age, I still can.  I can Work circles around most people, so can The Son and The Daughter, as well as Princess T, it's Hereditary apparently.  *Smiles*  It made me very effective in my Corporate Lives, and successful.

I always got the highest performance Reviews, especially for Speed and Accuracy of anything I was doing.   For Example, at the DA's Office the requirement was to Process a minimum of 30 Files per Shift no matter how complex some of them might be for some of the Bureaus.   Gang/ROP Bureau for example often had a File with multiple Charges and multiple Defendants, so could be quite complex.  Most in my Department hustled to do 30 and some couldn't ever do that many and didn't last long, their Speed and Accuracy didn't cut it.  

Didn't matter if you had a Masters Degree in Criminal Law if you were too slow and inaccurate, you weren't making the Grade.  The average Tenure in our Department was usually not even thru their Probation Period!  I could do 60 or more Files on Average, with excellent accuracy close to 99%.   No hyperbole, no brag, just fact, and I worked most of the Complex Case Files as well, it was a personal Challenge to do the harder Cases.  Not great for your Head Space tho', Homicide, Sex Crimes and Family Violence Cases are some of the worst Crimes.  You can't unsee what you see or unhear what you hear and read.

The Son asked me only last Night how I compartmentalized what I did for so long without it wrecking me?   Especially Cases involving Child or Animal Abuse, which, those can wreck you Mentally and Emotionally no matter how fucking long you do the Work with such things.  It takes a Toll.  Now I can't watch anything involving either, coz it's no longer my Job to expose myself to it and I already know far too much of what people are capable of doing that is abhorrent, twisted, cruel, wicked and evil.   We only have to look to our present White House to Witness a shit-ton of that... and know that some Americans are complicit and perfectly Fine with it.

 This is why I KNOW this President is such a person as all of that and not fit for the Office he holds.  He's totally Mental, Dangerous and an Evil Sociopath/Psychopath.   I'd say most Shrinks worth their Salt and competent at their Jobs, and not being Bribed and Bought Off to say otherwise and Rubber Stamp him as competent or fit, would concur.  And I heard he now Kidnapped Maduro and his Wife... apparently that's what he's done NOW, while I was Sleeping!!!   You can't make this shitshow and fuckery up!!!   There is no bottom to the illegal shit he's doing now, taking the Guardrails Off means it's all Wheels Off now.   And America bought the Ticket, so we're all on for the whole fucking ride now!!!  And absolutely nothing will shock nor surprise me anymore at what he and his Sycophants will do... and not even try to Cover Up most of it anymore... all the Quiet Parts have been said Out Loud and Proud.  And now he thinks he's running Valenzuela!  What could go Wrong?

The Topic came up with The Son coz we only have Five Days of NetFlix left before we won't be renewing it, so we were perusing what we haven't yet seen.  There were a couple I told him I could not Risk seeing.  One a Documentary about Sexual Abuse of Boys in the Boy Scouts that went on since it's inception.   And was covered up until they had to File Bankruptcy once Exposed, coz they got Sued by over 80,000 Victims Worldwide!  Yeah, that's conservatively a figure, since how many didn't come forward or Sue?   For all the Secret Pedo Red Flag Perversion Files they had compiled and covered up for Decades!!!   And let Pedos who'd been banned, back in to easily have access to more Children!!!  Even the Pedos admitting it was all Too Easy to infiltrate the Scouts and have them Cover for you if Caught and just move you around to a new Location!!!

  But, was never Shared with Authorities or Parents and the Public, to Save and Protect their Brand and their Image as a Safe Institution for your Children.   Becoz their Brand and Profits meant more than the Safety of the Children you entrusted them with!!!  And it wrecked a lot of Young Lives for Generations!!!   Way more Scandal than even the Major Churches who covered up such incidents with Pedo Priests, Pastors and Youth Directors.  Which is where a lot of Molesters tend to Source their Victims, in Religious Organizations.  The other also a True Crime Documentary called "Don't F*ck With Cats"... and just the Title told me, probably not a Wise Idea to even try to watch that one in case it showed actual Animal Abuse Cases.

  I worked all the High Profile Animal Abuse Cases in Phoenix during my Career, including DMX the Rapper's Animal Abuse Cases he Caught.  And I'm a very Stoic and Unemotional Person on the Exterior.  So, anything Traumatic that I have to Internalize and Process, I do it without showing any Emotion.  But it's not like I don't Process it Emotionally, I just don't outwardly express that I do.  It takes a lot to make me Cry, or even Show Anger... I will be scarily Calm even when I'm Angry, it unsettles people more actually.  But, not Showing Emotions doesn't mean you don't have any. 

The Man always knew which Bureau I'd Worked during any Shift by my countenance when I returned Home.  If I was very Quiet and withdrawn, it was probably a lot of very heinous shit I'd had to Process at Work and expose myself to.  File after File of it, averaging 50-60 Files of it a Night, which was my usual Pace.  Since, we did ALL the Data Entry and Audit of every File that had flowed thru all Bureaus in Superior Court in Maricopa County and sometimes Yavapai County, if we were helping that County out, and were going to then be Archived.  Plus, many Bureau Chiefs would request me to do Transcription Work for them on High Profile Cases, coz I was very Fast and very Accurate.

Anyway, I still watch a lot of True Crime Shows coz Forensics has always fascinated me.  At one time I did consider transferring to the M.E.'s Office, but my Friend and Co-Worker Christina had Worked for the Medical Examiner for 25 Years and said Burnout was even higher than at the DA's Office.  So, I reconsidered.   And Honestly, I'm so used to seeing Human Carnage of all Kinds, that if it's not a Child or an Animal, I can handle almost any of it, no matter how gruesome.  Then go have a Sammie or eat while watching any of it, including Autopsies and actual Crime Scenes.  You had to Learn to be able to still Eat in that Line of Work or you'd become Anorexic or Bulimic I think and waste away otherwise.

It also greatly helps if you appreciate Gallow's Humor, which, I do, and can handle really Crazy Shit, which, I can.  After all, look at the Family.  *Winks and LOL*  And our Family isn't even one of the Crazier ones, I know you find that hard to Believe, but, there's levels of Crazy you can't even comprehend or Wrap your Head around.  I once processed a Homicide File that had Three Whole Boxes for the One Defendant, which meant it was a really Big Case and very High Profile.   Most Boxes are Banana Boxed Size and could hold numerous Case Files, as many as 30 different Cases from a particular Bureau they're sent to us from, to give you some perspective.  And the Defendant's Name was, wait for it:

"Lucifer The Devil"

Yep, when that File was given to me to Process and Work I knew that was gonna be some Interesting Bedtime Reading and a doozy!  And Oh Mylanta, was it!!!   A 21 Year Old Schizophrenic Male that The System didn't handle appropriately and led to the horrific Deaths of his Grandfather and Father.   And he'd been committed to ASH {Arizona State Hospital}, but the Board had deemed him "Restored".  Yep, even tho' the Dude was still calling himself "Lucifer The Devil", which, should have been a Fucking Clue, one would think, right?!   I got Two Schizophrenics in the Family, the Day they start referring to themselves as Lucifer, time for Permanent Involuntary Institutionalization.

And the 1st Photo in that 1st Box of Ole' Lucifer's Crime showed a Young Naked Man strapped to a Gurney absolutely covered in Blood, so initially I thought, oh, One of the Victims?   Nope, that was Ole' Lucifer, the pieces of his Victims was strewn all over the Apartment, no B Horror Movie looked so Surreal and Over-The-Top, lemme tell ya!  When The State Hospital had Released him to Family, his Mom knew her Son was not ready for Release and refused to come get him.  Which likely Saved her Life, Mom's usually have that Instinct and know when something is Off and not Right with their Kiddos.

  So, Dad and Grandpa did, they lived together, the Parents being Divorced.   And against Mom's better Judgment of refusing to have Lucifer Released to her, came and got Ole' Lucifer, took him back Home to their Apartment... and by the end of the Night, they were Dead, horribly Butchered while still Alive, and dismembered.   Had nobody voluntarily came to get him, perhaps ASH might have held him longer, but, mebbe not?   And I've had Loved Ones released prematurely by and from Mental Health Institutions, happens all the time in fact.  More often than anyone knows or wants to formally acknowledge.  At least not On The Record.  Whistleblowers mostly and generally are maligned, discredited by their Employers and lose their Jobs, so Coverups are common.

 Can't let The Public know the Truths out there, most couldn't handle The Truth anyway, would upset their Bliss and delusions that all is Well.  One time they released The Daughter in Central Phoenix, late at Night, in a Paper Gown with no back to it, no Shoes or Underpants, when she was only 19 and completely Wheels Off the Rails, it was Winter!!!  An Old Couple saw her and picked her up, took her to me, and I called the Institution to file a Complaint, as, it was all inappropriate and put her and perhaps others, at grave Risk!  That Old Couple took a Risk to get Involved.  This is what Families Deal with.  And often it ends very badly when The System fails all of them and all of us as a Societal Collective.

And they ended up sending Ole' Lucifer to the DOC for a 10-Year Stretch, which, he didn't belong in The Dept. Of Corrections being THAT fucking Insane.  But I guess they didn't think him Insane Enough???!!!  I don't think at 31 he's gonna be much Better or less Dangerous actually.  He should have gone back to ASH, permanently I'd say.  AND, I think whoever deemed him "Restored" should have been Indicted as well, coz they were directly responsible for that very bad decision to release him, when, he's still calling himself "Lucifer The Devil", coz if that isn't fucking Insane, and potentially very Bad and Violence prone, I don't know what is???  Even if you think The Devil is Talking to you and telling you to do bad shit would be enuf, thinking you ARE him, worse I'd think, humbly IMO.  *Eye Roll*

Sometimes I do Wonder if Ole' Lucifer is out now, he could be?  He was a nice looking, yet quite Ordinary Regular looking fellow, no Tells he was Cray-Cray Mental, Straight White Male, you'd have no fucking idea he was as Insane as he clearly was.   And his File is not even the Worse one I ever had to Process.  Humans can do some pretty fucked up stuff and do all of the time.   This is how I Became both Cynical AND Jaded.  *Smiles*  Our Family really think that both The Man and I are totally desensitized about horrific stuff, him due to his Military Experiences and me due to my Career and Life Experiences.  They could be Right?   He definitely has extreme PTSD and I probably could have it?  *Ha ha ha*

And, I tried to just sit thru this entire Post in one sitting and Time it, took an Hour and 56 Minutes from start to finish, which I'd Guessed was my Average, give or take.  So there, Hard Data for your Inquiring Minds that Need to Know.   So, there you have it.   My Stream of Consciousness and Creative Process Spins in Whirlpools and Flows like a raging torrent all of the time... so, this is what I do to RELAX!!!   So, Imagine if I wasn't Relaxing... and trying to slow it all Down?!?   *Winks and LMAO*

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Happy New Year my Friends... Dawn... The Bohemian