I Let Go of more of my Vintage Troll Collection and am taking it in to our Showroom after I take Princess T to her Dental Appointment this Afternoon. I got a Milk Crate filled with Smalls. My tactic of spending about 15-20 Minutes Daily chipping away at either Pricing Inventory or Housekeeping, it paying off. It doesn't overwhelm me nor tire me out or burn me out just doing it in tiny increments like that. I had to find something that worked coz my procrastination was becoming habitual otherwise and nothing was getting Done. And Mentally that was bothering me even more than the Doing of it all, to let it languish Undone.
I just want for the majority of it all to fucking be Done already. We're rolling up on Year No. 6 of being here and with every Property it seems to take longer to get Squared. I know, I know, I'm Older, and The Man is no Help now, which matters. He used to be my Helpmate to get a Property we bought, the way we wanted it. He went from the Workaholic I Married who was so ambitious and helpful to everyone, to, doing nothing all day every day and being in perpetual physical and mental deterioration and more rapidly in recent Years. It's hard to Witness that happen over Time to someone Beloved, even tho' it's been a long time now happening.
I don't respect Laziness, I don't Care about the reasons someone becomes Lazy about doing whatever they still can. If I gotta prop you up all the time, motivate you to do even the bare minimum and basics, and do everything FOR you, Nag you to do for yourself what I know you still can Do, it gets Old over Time. Mostly coz it Exhausts ME and I already got Too Much to Do myself, and that doesn't get Done when I'm exhausted and overwhelmed, but there's still much that HAS to get Done. The Kiddos are Helpful, but they got their own Lives and Issues to Deal with and right now they got a lot going on to overcome too.
The longer The Son remains unemployed and without transportation, I see him almost giving up already, he always prided himself in whatever Work he was doing in his Careers. Now he doesn't have that and so he's feeling like a Loser as he'll be 40 in June. He envisioned Middle Age showing something for all the hard work he's put in since he was a Teenager, coz he has been Working since he was 14. Now he's still Single, unemployed, and living with his Elderly Parents in their Guest Bedroom. His Worldly possessions he has left, could fit in his Car.
That is fucking discouraging when you've worked really hard so long and now have nothing to Show for it! He still hasn't received even Unemployment and only One partial Month's worth of Nutritional Assistance. He was Laid Off before Thanksgiving. And he doesn't wanna be a Burden to us, but knows, that right now, with the exception of Princess T's Minimum Wage Job, she's the only one Working in the whole Household. We're existing on Social Security, Pensions and VA Disability entirely really for a Household this large and the Economy in shambles so everything costs much more. It's tight.
Okay, mini Financial Rant over, it is what it just is, a lot of America has it much, much worse and has reason to be Panicked. This Lunatic Warmonger in the White House isn't gonna fix the Economy, but he is trying hard to get us into Numerous Wars, perhaps initiating WWIII, which, none of that will End Well. America's Reputation abroad has been virtually destroyed by this Administration. Allies can't and shouldn't Trust us anymore under his Watch, and Enemies still Hate us and now with more of a Passion as he antagonizes them and underestimates them. His closest Advisors now are Sycophants and Enablers who will never challenge him, too Spineless and Dependent to. He's made the entire Republican Party his Bitches.
And that's where America is at right now, pitiful. Are we Great yet? *LMAO and Huge Eye Roll* I've got my International Friends and Family telling me that if we don't Get Great, we can always defect to their Countries... and... they're not Joking. They see this already happening as those with Options are already taking them and bailing before the whole Ship goes down like the fucking Titanic. The number of Ex-Pats is increasing and will continue to increase, so long as other Countries will take Americans in like Refugees from a Country going Down and being destroyed from within.
But, for right now I'm treading Water and keeping my Head above it, so, for now, that is where I'm at. Statistically I think the Odds are favorable for us, but I know it won't be for a lot of Americans and they're gonna be totally screwed and will become desperate. And I've said it before and I'll say it again, desperate people do desperate things. I am glad the ACA was extended for Three Years and enuf ReTrumplicans defected to Vote for what is best for the American People for a change. Our State's Republicans didn't, and we turned Purple once, when Biden got Elected. And I foresee subsequent Elections doing the same, or going Blue when States that are/were Red realize he's screwing them too and their Elected Republicans don't have their Backs at all.
I always say if someone Screws you over Once, shame on them. But if they do it Twice, shame on YOU. And I once again, didn't mean for this to be a Downer of a Post. I have only been watching "American Pickers" and not The News, but I'm sure it's all still Bad and worsening Daily, so, frankly, I'll just wait for fellow Bloggers to get me up to Speed in their Rant Posts about the Fuckery. *Winks* That's actually how I heard about ICE's murderous rampage, secondhand, from fellow Bloggers. And the tactics Worked in that it was causing a distraction from the Epstein Files Saga he wants desperately to bury and have you forget about. Once a Sex Offender and a Pedo, always one, may I remind you. And until they're Stopped, they keep racking up Victims.
All Sex Crimes Perps need permanent incarceration IMO, it's not a matter of IF they will re-offend, just WHEN? Their Files were never Purged, but kept Forever at our DA's Office. And their File Covers were Yellow, an appropriate Color for the Cowards they actually are, preying on the most vulnerable of Victims. He's bought off his Victims, One at least being 13 when he Raped her, and that's Documented. And if it came to Light how many Victims, both Adults and Children he's Victimized, the numbers are likely staggering and Mind blowing. Yet some Americans know this and still Support him and everything he does, so they're as Twisted and fucking as Sick and depraved as he is IMO.
And I make no apology for saying so and putting them on Blast, all of them. It's not Political, it's a matter of Decency and Basic Humanity they aren't displaying at all, so they're showing us all who they really ARE. And it sickens me that we see how many of our Population can be that Twisted too. If there is no bottom to the level of depravity you're willing to excuse, accept and support, then what you are is not anyone I want anything to do with and we can't be Friends. I'd rather we not even be Neighbors actually, to such toxicity of polluted character and what you Represent. I only want to surround myself with folks who have a moral compass still intact. Aren't Hate filled, and aren't looking for Scapegoats to Blame for whatever they're unhappy about in their own Lives that they can't seem to Own any responsibility for, or just face the Reality of and not try to Pin on someone NOT responsible.
There, got it out of my System for Today. *Ha ha ha* The Son is cooking a late Breakfast and I'll have to eat the Bacon while on the Run to take the Grandchild to her Dental Appointment. I'd had some Cereal earlier, so told him he didn't have to cook me a whole Breakfast, didn't have Time to eat it. We'll stop by the Antique Mall to put our Inventory into the Showroom after her Appointment, which I think is just a Tooth Cleaning. She's had good reports and takes good Care of her Dental Hygiene. So, usually she's Golden at a Dental Visit and he's pleased with how she's doing. She still sees her Pediatric Dentist since he knows she has extreme Anxiety and she knows and Trusts him, having gone there since she's had Teeth. *Smiles*
Their Office is in a Historic gorgeous large Adobe Mission Styled Building that is on the Street behind our Historic Home we Owned and Sold. I miss my Old Neighborhood coz it had a better Walk Score than this Property, so you didn't really need a Vehicle to get to everything. Lots of little Bodegas, Bakeries, Restaurants, Butchers, Post Office, Schools, Recreational destinations, Shops, Grocers, Parks, Library, all within a short Walk from our Historic Home. Here you can walk to a few things, but it's a longer Walk and you usually just Drive. Tho', the Location to everything is convenient and a short Drive, close to Two Freeways, a Hospital, and a VA Clinic, Shops, Grocers, Restaurants, Dentist Office, which was a consideration when we bought it. The McManse hadn't been near a damned thing and I Hated that.
Princess T's Dental Appointment went well, no cavities but he wants her referred to get her Wisdom Teeth extracted before she turns 21 since that's the Cutoff of her Adoption provided AHCCCS Dental Coverage and he can only see her until she turns 21 too. So, he's getting everything done that she needs done so she doesn't have to pay for it. So, we have the consultation with the Dental Specialist for the Wisdom Teeth removal on February 9th and it will probably be broken into at least Two more Visits once her Insurance Approves the Surgery. We knew 1-2 of them were coming in and causing her some trouble, so they need to come out.
After her Appointment we went to the Antique Mall and put in our Crate load of Inventory and she foofed our whole Showroom. She does that kind of thing at Work so now she's so skilled at it that she does it in a quarter of the time it would take me. So, we were in and out pretty quick. Plus, it was SO busy there, unusual for a Monday, and lots of people buying, which was good. My Sales are still up and hoping it holds for this last Week of the Two Week Pay Period so that I'll get another decent Check coz I haven't pulled any Shifts for a Month now to get any Comped Rent. They seem to have a bunch of Newbies willing to take Shifts and they must be working out okay? I'm glad about that, it was getting where coverage was sketchy for people on permanent Shifts flaking out all the time and on short notice.
So, you can see some of the Trolls Collection I put into Inventory Today. They never last long in Inventory and are an Iconic Toy Collectible as popular now as they ever were. And I've previously priced them too low and can't now, too difficult to Source now to make it too Cheap on a Resale anymore. My Collection is vast and I've had it a long time, but, I have a vast variety and more than most Sellers have. Trolls were one of those Toys that became so popular they were made by many different Companies all over the World and in many Countries that produced them. I tried to get some of even the more unusual Knock-Offs made in the Orient and Europe that you don't see very often, like those produced in Korea, Iceland {Wool Hair}. Many Knock-Offs are as Collectible as the Real Deal in the Troll Collecting Community, and are just as Cute or Interestingly different. And some were even Legally Licensed under a different Name than the Originals.
Of coarse I have my favs and they tend to be the original Dam Trolls and the Uneeda Wishniks with the Double Horseshoes for Good Luck on the bottoms of their Feet. Faces of Troll from the various manufacturers was different too and I liked to get a lot of the different ones in my Collection as well. I had to go thru my personal Collection coz over the Christmas Holiday I Sold all but One Troll I had in Inventory and clearly demand was high and that's always the best time to Sell and get your best price on resale. When you have a very big Collection of anything, Curating it from time to time is easier to Let Go of some of it and so I challenge myself to do that regularly with my larger and longest Collections I have in my Private Personal Collections, to downsize some. Or Upgrade some too. I can then fund a Special Purchase for that Collection.
Anyway, Princess T felt that I Needed a Girl's Day Out, she's perceptive like that and Intuitive to how I'm actually doing, even if I say nothing and stay Stoic. Everyone else will think I'm Fine and she seems to know when I'm not. And I have been in a Funk lately, which, hasn't passed yet, but will, with some Time to move thru it. So, when she said she was Craving some "Chino Bandido" Emerald Chicken with Jamaican Jerk Rice, would I drive there {long commute into the City, but worth it}, and she'd also fill up my Tank with Gas and Treat me to some too, she didn't have to Threaten me with a Good Time. *LOL and Winks* Off we went after putting our Inventory into the Showroom. After our Meal, and I got some Takeout for The Man coz I felt a bit Guilty {smiles}, we hit some "Goodwill" Stores on that side of the City and another SAVERS in the City that she doesn't work at coz it was half-price Day.
I got Four 1970's Looney Tunes Collectible Glass Tumblers {see how some of them look Above, highly Collectible, I Sell them all the time and have my own Personal Collection of Favs}, a Bagged Lot of expensive favorite Incenses, and a Hard Cover Coffee Table Book of South American Brazilian BBQ. I got a Japanese large Plush Anime Toy I'll Resell for a great Margin, Online they were very Expensive and have a whole Line we weren't familiar with. We just knew it looked like a large Japanese Plush Anime Character of some kind and Google Lensed it to research Value. I paid Five and it goes for $35 and Up, so, Score. We got Tired after Three Chazzas so that was all we were Up to. She found some items she wanted and I bought for her since she'd filled the Gas Tank and Treated me to Lunch. It was a Nice Girl's Day Out and we were Home by 3:00 p.m. so we wouldn't get caught in Rush Hour Traffic.
So, it was a Good Day and we got a lot accomplished, so I didn't feel so much like I'm avoidance prone as I have been. I really have been avoiding things that Need to get Done. And sure, the Weather has been a complication, but not really a totally valid Excuse to use for all I haven't been getting around to or doing at all. I call it the Procrastination Project when I get in a rut and this Funk of doing Fuck All. It's a Negative Head Space to be in and to Hold for too long. So, I took a scant few Pixs with my Phone Camera too so I wouldn't be Cribbing all of my Imagery for current Posts. Tho' the Cribbed Imagery is more Interesting and better Quality. Some Blogs use all Cribbed Imagery and nobody seems to mind, I try not to use too much that isn't mine, but, I just haven't been out to have much to Photograph lately so it's become somewhat of a necessity for current Posts to have sufficient good Visuals.
And "Pocket Full Of Heirlooms" provided some fantastic Images I Cribbed while I fell down the Rabbit Hole Online to purview what Brandy had Photographed and some of what she had up For Sale or was Sharing Online what she's been up to. I Wish she Blogged, but I don't think she does. I'd be a Devoted Blog Follower if she did, even if it was a strictly Biz Blog of her Wares. I've discovered a few New Bloggers to follow and Read. Every so often I try to find Blogs I think I'd visit regularly and connect to. Since, in Real Life I Honestly have not tried to be particularly Social coz the Opportunity coupled with Personal Circumstances makes it just hard to pursue. And Isolation from Full Time Caregiving can make you far too reclusive and disconnected Socially, by necessity. The Man is a Natural Recluse and he's rather Anti-Social by Nature, not liking Peopling very much, but I'm not Hard Wired that way.
The Man wouldn't Care if he didn't interact with anyone or have to for Months, mebbe Years, at a time, and it wouldn't bother him one iota. I can and do enjoy Alone Time and Solitude, in a Balanced way tho'. But, I do enjoy some Socialization and this Community provides it when Real Life makes it more challenging to Socialize at all, or so seldom, that you don't Connect on a meaningful level with hardly anyone coz it's so infrequently they even see or hear from you. I've had folks I do know worry when they don't see or hear from me for a long time and don't know if something unforetold has happened? I don't intend to go off the Grid as long as I sometimes have had to due to Personal Obligations, mostly involving Family and Caregiving being a Primary Focus that take precedence over Socializing and Connecting outside of immediate Family. I'm trying to do better about that... but... logistically it's not always probable or possible.
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Climbing out of the Rut of a Funk... Dawn... The Bohemian
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