Wiped Out From... Well... Everything

Well, as expected Donnie Two Dolls went on Faux News doubling down on his Hateful Rhetoric for any Americans who aren't MAGA being "The Problem" with America!!!  He said he knew it would be unpopular to say out loud, but he doesn't Care.  He said any "Radical Right" are doing things for Noble Causes for the Country, but the "Radical Left" are doing things for vile Causes and are "The Problem" with the Country.  He's condoning violence if his side is doing it, basically, and vilifying 2/3 or more of Americans who aren't MAGA, regardless of what our Causes might be and even if we do so Peacefully in Protest.  He doesn't even pretend to be the President FOR all of us.  Any any President should be more balanced and not condoning any Violence, he instigates it and causes further divisions on Purpose, that won't End well.

  He should be, if he were a responsible and sane Adult in Leadership, not be part of the Problem, but try instead to be part of the Solution and bring the temperature down and telling everyone to Stop this abhorrent insanity and do the Right thing.  Not be condoning any Radicalized violence from anyone for any reason, not picking Sides as an American President against his own Citizenry he's supposed to be representing, not just some of, but all of if he was up to the fucking Job!!!  But, he's not, and that's what America has now come to in it's Leadership choices and why violent acts by MAGA are openly being Supported by an American President!  It's beyond comprehension how we got here as a Nation!?  America is in deep trouble and devolving exponentially, and he's perfectly okay with it.  So, his Supporters will be too, they've been validated by their Elected President!  They've been groomed by their Elected President to Hate and Blame Liberals, Democrats, and Independent Americans.  This is what causes Civil Unrest and Violent Acts, pitting Countrymen against one another, so, it shouldn't be Surprising that it has.

That's all I have the bandwidth to say about how fucked up America now is and worsening by the day with all the constant Fuckery and how divisive most of our Population is with one another.  I'm dealing with enuf on a Personal level that I just can't fixate on what's unraveling across the Nation and with a larger swath of the American Public that has lost their decency, their Humanity, their Moral Compass, and their Minds.   I abhor American Politics and how Religious Zealots are misusing God to commit their atrocities against other Human Beings, as if God somehow Commanded Hatred, rather than Love of thy Neighbor as yourself.  I'm not Witnessing the Love of so many who profess to be Godly People, it's Bad Religion IMO.  I took a long Nap, along with The Man, when I finally got Home on Friday.  He was pretty wiped out from his Hospitalization and all the Testing, before being surprisingly discharged without the Heart Surgery they'd told us he'd be having much earlier, due to the close call he just had on Thursday.  I was wiped out from... well, everything.

I'd enjoyed the "Halloween Event" I'd gone to and managed to enjoy the whole thing before getting the Call that he was being sent Home and there would be no Surgery until October 7th again!!!   I was clear over in Chandler when I got the Call, so the Kiddos had to pick him up for me, they were Home and the House is within sight of the Hospital, I was Hours away before I could have gotten there in heavy traffic.  And, traffic was heavy, the Event was busy, but not too busy, so it was enjoyable and the same one I went to last Weekend, but they'd made it look quite different for Weekend No. Two of the Halloween Theme.  That's the Sweater I bought on that Mannequin.

I didn't buy anything at the Event this time but I did pick up a few good things at the Antique Mall that is in front of the Warehouse that holds the Events.  I got Two more of those Wooden Spoons with Bug Ink Stamps on them, the Vendor had made some more.  I got a Religious Handmade Icon with an Antique Rosary and Antique Religious Metal attached to it.  I got a Halloween pullover Sweater with Vintage Style Halloween Graphics on it.   And a large Vintage Bottlebrush Tree in Ombre hues dyed like Candy Corn.   I got my Military Discount on all of the purchases.  A lot of their Vendors had big Sales going on, some up to 75% Off!   I think probably "Highland Yard" has the best Halloween Event this Year.

I'm still waiting for the Halloween Event at "Sweet Salvage", but what I'm seeing of Sneak Peeks, it looks more Harvest Autumnal Themed than Halloween Themed and so not the Vibe I look forward to for the Season.  I don't mind an Autumnal Vibe, but for Halloween, I want full on Halloween, and not something Harvest that could be Thanksgiving Decor really.  I'm hopeful it won't be disappointing, it's next Thursday thru Sunday and I'll still go.  But haven't been wowed by the FB Imagery that's been Shared so far that is very underwhelming and not a strong Halloween Vibe.  {See Above}  Nice, but, not all that Halloween-ish.  I'll still enjoy it, but, not expecting Full On Halloween like "Highland Yard Vintage" Wowed me with.

I don't know why they didn't give more Online Sneak Peeks only a Week away from Opening Day?  Usually they do, so, perhaps I'll be pleasantly Surprised?  I Hope so, that would be nice.   Coz after that, it's a Wrap for the Halloween Events already.  As it is, most of the Shops are already Sold Out of most of their Halloween Merch and it's only Mid-September!  The GOODWILL put it out really early and got Sold Out within a Fortnite.  They have remnants left, but already had to roll out their Christmas Merch coz Halloween Inventory had Sold Out so quickly at all their locations.   Usually they have enuf to at least last thru September, but not this Year!   And some Stores like the Big Box Craft Stores and TARGET, didn't have much of each item at all to begin with!  So, you had to get yours Early while there was still some left!

 

These are my Two Halloween Decor Wooden Spoons... and my Antique Rosary, Religious Metal and Fabric Icon are Pictured further Above.   The Son did a BBQ Tonight and made Chili Cheese Dogs and Seasoned Fries coz his Girlfriend was bringing her Kiddos over to meet us for the first time.  Her Daughter is a Teenager and her Son is 9 and has beautiful Hair down to his Hips.  He's an avid Gamer and so is The Son, so they set up the Gaming System in the Livingroom on the bigger Screen TV and he happily played for Hours.  The Daughter is a very quiet Teenager, she's got sweet Kiddos and her Son looks so much like his Mom.  Her Son has Autism, so does she, but was only just diagnosed as an Adult, which isn't unusual for Females to remain undiagnosed for Years.   He seems high functional like The Son was, and seems comfortable being around people and can engage, so he may have a Mildly Moderate on the Spectrum diagnosis?  He seems like a Healthy endearing Nine Year Old little Boy, so you wouldn't know initially that he was Autistic.

She said in Navajo Culture it's a Non-Issue and they Believe that something like that has a Spiritual Significance that brings out a difference not viewed Negatively by the Tribe.  I think that is a good thing, with a lot of Indigenous Cultures, things viewed by Western Culture as Disabilities, or not Acceptable, like different Sexual Orientations, is instead accepted and embraced with each Individual.  Regardless of how they were endowed by the Creator, it is Valued by the Tribe and has their place in the Society as an equal, and perhaps even elevated as being more evolved and Special in a Good Way.  Gender Roles aren't as important Tribally as whatever the Individual happens to be best at and most comfortable Being and Identifying as, whether it is a Feminine Quality or a Masculine one, regardless of one's Gender at Birth.  When everyone in a Society has Value and Feels Valued, they tend to thrive in that acceptance of who they just are.

 

Anyway, the BBQ went well and her Children are so well behaved, respectful of Elders and quiet, you wouldn't have known you had Younger Kids present.  They seem to really like The Son and I know her Family likes him, they've known him since he was a Young Teenager.  Some of her Family lives here in Metro Phoenix, some still live on the Navajo Reservation up in Northern Arizona.   I haven't asked if her Kids go to Public Schools or are in the Indian Boarding Schools?  I Hope it's the former, they'll get a proper Education, the Indian Schools are still not good places to be and still don't respect Indigenous Culture and try to suppress it.  Since her Son's Hair is Traditionally long, I'm thinking perhaps he's not enrolled in the Indian Schools, often they force the Boys to have Western Haircuts and don't allow them to speak their own Tribal Language.  I know Marina speaks fluent Navajo.

The Man is so Happy to be Home, he's watching his NCIS Reruns here in our Bedroom while I'm Blogging.  *Smiles*  The Daughter has a Cleaning Job in the East Valley on Sunday and I'll be Happy to go Shopping over there while she's doing that, until she's ready to be picked up after she's done.  There's some good Shopping nearby and that favorite Mediterranean Restaurant to have Lunch at.  I think I will encourage The Man to just stay Home and rest, if he'll oblige and just want to take it easy?  The Son doesn't Work on Sundays so he'll be Home to keep an Eye on his Dad and check on him while his Sister and I are gone.  If not, I'll have him in tow and will just have to take it slow for him.  I just don't have a Peace yet since he had that close call that came out of nowhere, so don't wanna risk another one doing something equally banal that might trigger another one?   

They had given him a Cardiac Ultrasound, a lot of Bloodwork, EKG's, Chest X-Rays, etcetera, and tho' they said he's stabilized now, I know that one Artery is still needing a Stent.  Until he gets that 2nd Surgery I won't have a Peace about things.  I just makes me nervous for him, since, a problem has been identified and hasn't been fully remedied yet.  And until they are, I just am cautious coz I don't want anything happening to him.   A massive Heart Attack can come on so quickly and if you aren't right close to a Hospital with a good Cardiac Unit when it happens, you might not Survive it.   We live so close to one, but taking him anywhere right now just seems risky until he gets that 2nd Surgery done.   He's had too many close calls recently to frustrate Grace, you know?  But, I also don't wanna Scare him and make him Anxious about it, so I keep a lot of those Thoughts to myself.  If he sees me Stoic and Calm, he stays Calmer and more Confident that he's gonna be Okay and nothings gonna happen to him on my Watch.

Caregiving is a weighty responsibility coz those in your Care are dependent upon you and your decisions made on their behalf.  You must Advocate for them too with whoever you're Dealing with that is providing a higher level of Care Medically or with Services and extra Care they should receive.  It can be quite the Gauntlet to navigate.  You might get better at the navigation of The Systems, but it's nonetheless grueling to stay the course.  And the Older you get, your stamina for the doing of it diminishes over Time.  I'm at that Season of Life now where it's less a Marathon for me and more a Relay Race where I need to pass the Baton from time to time to one of the Family to finish up when I'm spent in my part of that Race of running the Gauntlet for that Day.   And even the Younger Generations find it exhaustive.  The Daughter and Mando both fell Asleep helping with The Man during his recent Crisis, it wiped them out when the Baton was passed to them.  *LOL*

The Son was saying when his Dad isn't cooperative with him like he is more cooperative for us Gals, he really can't wait for his turn to be over watching him.  *LOL*   He just feels his Dad's Pride makes it so that having Help from another Man is too humiliating for him and a blow to his masculinity to have to receive it, and I agree that is probably the case, less so receiving Help from a Woman or Girl.  He'll always tell a Guy he doesn't Need the Help, but sometimes another Man's brute strength is Needed, like if he can't get up and us Gals have trouble lifting him, coz he's Dead Weight and just over 225 Lbs. of it!   Have you ever tried to lift 225 Lbs. of Dead Weight?  It's a big lift.  I've sometimes HAD to ask a Young Man to do it FOR me, coz I'm incapable of getting him up off the Ground if he's tipped over and gone down.

The Daughter never did go to DES to qualify for Nutritional Assistance, I guess she got to Paranoid to.  I may have to take her myself and risk her going Mental while there if she gets Psychotic during her Interview to be Qualified to receive 90 Days worth?   She's always suspicious of anything that seems like an Interrogation, which, those Interviews do feel like, there's so much they feel they Need to Know before parsing out whatever limited Benefits the most vulnerable of Society truly Need.  It's not so easy to receive any Social Services as people think who've never had to try to apply for, qualify for, and receive any.  It's such an Ordeal that it's hardly worth it and why I don't pressure her to go in involuntarily becoz I know how unnecessarily stressful it is for her with the level of Mental Illness she suffers from.  And, it's just Food, a Basic Human Essential Need, and if a person isn't Well enuf to Work and has NO Income to buy Food, I don't know how any Agency expects them to Survive or Thrive?

 

Of coarse they know Family most of the time, or Charitable Strangers, MIGHT Feed those who can't Feed themselves, but, should the most vulnerable of Society be reliant on THAT?  Really, in America, one of the richest Nations on Earth that wastes so much Food and Essential resources every day that could be given to the less fortunate instead of being wasted wantonly?   When she lived in Mexico she expected to go Hungry coz it is a 3rd World Country, but, more Charity was extended there towards people like her than is extended here where we have more abundance.   That's a humiliating thing to have to admit, that a 3rd World Nation was more compassionate towards her than her own 1st World Country ever has been, but it's the Truth.  It's why she preferred living there even tho' she was an Illegal Alien there and they could have Deported her at any time, she knew it, they knew it, but they didn't.  They figured if she was there, voluntarily staying, it was becoz it was worse for her here in America!  And they wouldn't be Wrong.

  

Anyway, Princess T knew her Mom hadn't gone to DES, and she understands how Paranoid her Mom gets about going to receive Help, and not wanting to be a Burden to all of us.   So she said she'd Secretly buy her Mom's Groceries if I go with her to pick out what we'd of gotten with the Nutritional Assistance if her Mom was getting any.  I don't think a 19 Year Old Teenager whose making Minimum Wage should have to do that for her Seriously Mentally Ill Parent who can't be gainfully Employed, but, I'm glad she has the compassion to and that she realizes the barriers her Mom has for living Independently and without someone taking pity and helping her in ways that don't LOOK like Charity.  Her Mom does not like to be Pitied or receive Charity, she is willing to Work for what she has, she's not Lazy.  She's willing to Work for people less fortunate than herself and not get Paid to do it, coz she feels if they have the Need for it, they shouldn't be worried about if they can afford to Pay her to just do it FOR them as a Gift of Service.

I think there are plenty of Americans in Need and yet sometimes those without Need act like there is no Real Need out there in our Country and pass Judgment on those who have actual Need and so little.  It's quite the Privileged and smug Stance to take when you have everything you Need and almost everything you Want, to Judge someone who can't even provide the basic Essentials for themselves... it's presumptuous.  I've been richer and I've been poorer, richer is always better, always.  I've been Homeless and I've been Housed, being Housed is always better, always.  I've been Hungry and I've had more than enuf to Eat, Eating is always better than Hunger, always.   I've had lack and I've had abundance, abundance is better than being in lack, always.   I've been Sick and I've been Healthy, Health is infinitely better than Sickness, always.   I always try to Pay it Forward now whenever I can, coz I know for a Fact, there but for the Grace of God, go I.

And the Devil is in the Details, always in the Details, about how Humans act and respond to other Humans.  I saw a Meme that made a lot of sense, saying something to the effect that some people have become so busy Being Democrats or Being Republicans, they've forgotten that they've failed to Be Decent for a very long time now!!!   I wanted to copy it to my Blog but it won't Copy... and some people have Stopped Being Decent a long time ago and that's part of the Problem we need a Solution to in this Country, regardless of what Label they've identified with and slapped on themselves Politically or Religiously, or otherwise.  Their self-assigned Label has become more important to them than Being a Decent Human it seems.   I did manage to Copy & Paste it even tho' I couldn't Save the Meme for some reason, it's Below:

Some of y’all are too busy being Republican or Democrat to notice you stopped being decent a long time ago

I actually got the Meme sent to me from one of my Adult Granddaughters back East, the Youngest of the Trio, who is very much like I am, so we became quite close in spite of the distance and fact I've never seen her in Person yet.  She's 24 and I Hope one day she can make it out to Arizona to visit her Grandpa, I, and the rest of the extended Family out here, she'd Love it.  She's the one whose made a Career out of Special Effects Makeup and Sculpting, she will be busy this Season doing Work for Haunted Attractions and Movie Props Prosthetics.  I'd like to see her on a Show like "Face Off" one day.  *Smiles*  She's quite an Advocate for a lot of worthy Causes and an Activist, she reminds me a lot of myself at her Age in fact.   So the Memes she sends me I often Share on my Social Media sites too, such as the one Below I got from her this Morning and am Sharing.  It's nice to know some of our Youngsters will be worthy to pass the Baton to and move forward in Positive ways into the Future we will not see.  May they Be The Change the World desperately Needs.

She just got back from a Trip to Florida with her Boyfriend and another Couple they're good Friends with.  She took more pixs of the rest of the group than herself, which, I understand how that goes since I'm usually the one Behind the Lens too and not in Front of it.   Below is her Boyfriend and the other Gal's Boyfriend, I think the Boyfriends look very much alike and now I'm wondering, is that the Brother or the Twin of her Boyfriend?  Not sure, I'll have to ask her.  Not even sure I know which one he is in that Pix, coz they look so similar!?  She has a lot of Tattoos, so, is it the one with a lot of Tattoos... or... the other one?!  *Ha ha ha*  She has lobbed all her luxuriously long Hair off.  It was down to her Hips and apparently she cut it up shorter than her Shoulders now.    She's not Married and has no Children, so she doesn't take as many Pixs as her Two Older Sisters do, so I don't have as many of her as I do from Grandkids who are more inclined to take Pixs.  She and The Young Prince are so very much alike, if they weren't a Year apart in Age, they could have been Twins, it's eerie how much alike they actually are.

In fact, last Selfie I got of her was the one Below last Year where she was showing Gramma Dawn her newest Tattoo, I guess the Shorter Hairstyle shows it off more now?  *LOL*   And, I guess she Dyed her new Short Hair Blue and Grey... GREY... why do 20-Something Year Old Gals wanna have Grey Hair already and look Years Older... shrugs... don't understand?  Enlighten me!  *LMAO*   Not sure I'd prefer her Shorter Grey and Blue Hair, coz her Lady Godiva long Natural Color Hair was absolutely gorgeous, but, it's her Hair and Hair isn't Permanent so I don't sweat it when one of the Kiddos does something Crazy with it!   I mean, who am I to Judge, I'm a Senior with Dreadlocks down to my Ass, and all my Grandkids said none of their Friends Grammas look like THAT either. *LMAO*  So I kinda stand out in a Crowd of Seniors and all they gotta say if they lose me in a Store is, have you seen the Old Lady with long Dreadlocks... and every Stranger will know which one I am if they've seen me.  *Smiles*

 

Princess T was joking the other day that she used to say the Old White Lady with Dreadlocks, until one Stranger told her they thought they might have seen me, but they weren't SURE if the Old Lady they saw was White or not?   Well, technically and Ethnically... I'm not... but I "Identify" as White, so, does that Count?!  *Bwahahahaha*  Anyway, Princess T didn't wanna hurt my Feelings, but, she didn't like/want the Ed Hardy Bag I Scored for her so asked if I'd be too upset if she just gave it to me or her Mom to use... and... have the Cash instead for her Birthday?  She felt Bad I'd spent the Money on it and I almost got a Labubu Knockoff until she stopped me and said she didn't want it as another Birthday Gift she really would rather I not spend my Money on... coz she can get the Knockoff ones for Five Bucks Online.  *Smiles*  See, I rarely Shop Online, so I have no idea it wasn't a good Deal and she felt for a Knockoff it was overpriced, even at her Chazza, and told Management that.  She didn't like the Face on that one anyway, tho' she liked the Faces on the Two Knockoff Labubus I bought her before.  She says the Knockoffs are called Lafufus.  *Smiles*

See, I'm still being Educated all of the time by the Younger Generations on these things a Woman of my Age should know absolutely nothing about, really.  Becoz, how many people over 65 know what a fucking Labubu or Lafufu even is, unless a Grandchild or Great-Grandchild told you and then showed you, right?  *Winks*   My Daughter didn't even know what the fuck I was talking about until I informed her, coz she said few in their 40's even know or Care what that shit is that the Younger Generations are going Bananas about having and will pay a small Fortune for in order to Score one while it's a Fad and current Craze.  *Bwahahahaha*  I knew the Real Deal were upwards of $100 now, which, with the Chinese Microchips in the Feet that Authenticate and God knows what all else the Chinese are putting in those Chips to Spy on us with Labubus... I wouldn't have, let alone Buy.  But, then again, our Phones are made in China and Chipped... so, we already know those Devices are Listening In on our conversations in every Home in America.  And AI is the Newest incantation of The Devil... *LOL*

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Paranoid enuf yet?  Winks... Dawn... The Bohemian