Still Ranting And Seething

I'm giving you a Two-Fer... got lots to Say right now.  *Winks* Andrase has Invited The Son to go to Mexico with him on the Vacay and to pick up The Daughter there and bring her back.  Everything is paid for already, and, since The Son is out of Work and already put in all of his paperwork for Unemployment and DES Benefits while he's Unemployed, me might as well take a Free Vacation offered.  He's a Workaholic, so hasn't taken Vacation time in Years, so, it would be good for him and be more relaxing to spend time on the Mexican Coast on the Beach having a good time with a Lifelong Friend.  Andrase has known my Kiddos since they were all in Grade School, so, they grew up together.  The Joke is that he's had a Crush on The Daughter since they were only 9 Years Old and he used to chase her around The Boys & Girls Club during Summer Programs there.  *LOL*   I Hope the Kids have a good time and come back safely.  The Guys leave at Noon Today.

I decided not to do anything else Today other than Work my Shift.  I had a Wooden Picture Frame fall off a Shelf and hit my Right Foot with the Corner of the Frame, so it really hurts and was Bleeding a bit too.  I'm hopeful it won't Swell and cause me a lot of Pain or Mobility Issues at Work, I've got to be on my Feet the whole time traversing 55,000 sf of Mall Space, so, you put in a lot of Steps.  I don't want to do it gimping around with a disabled Foot from a recent injury.  I don't know why the Picture Frame tipped over and fell off, but, it might have been bumped before and just toppled over randomly, so, I didn't see it coming and couldn't prevent it hitting me.  Being an Insulin Diabetic you have to really watch even minor injuries, especially of extremities, so, this was not a good thing to happen even tho' it's minor right now, it could become complicated if it doesn't heal or becomes infected.  Hopefully not.

I've snapped back into my Autumnal Vibe, I just needed a Little Christmas Yesterday to buoy the Spirits.   I think that's Why Princess T also put up her Tree earlier than usual and bought some Christmas Scented Candles yesterday at TJ Maxx.   She said we really Need the Christmas Vibe right now and something Positive to look forward to.  She is concerned she's the only one Working now and it's just a Minimum Wage Job without consistent full time Hours.  With the Threats to Seniors that this New Administration is making, she is Worried about our income Sources, even from Earned Benefits that he could mess with or rescind, and our Welfare if Senior Healthcare is compromised as well.  The Man has expensive chronic Health Issues and is on a lot of Meds that currently he receives from the VA.  Our Healthcare is all Federal or State, so are our Earned Pensions, his Disability Income and our Social Security.  I have some Stock Income but my Passive Income flows are Supplemental Income, not Livable Income.

The Daughter isn't well enuf to be Hired by most Employers and The Son is currently Unemployed.   We don't know how this Election will Negatively Impact the Private Sector either?   Lots of uncertainty and it does give you considerable Pause and Concern, becoz he's so reckless and unpredictable, definitely not stable and deteriorating rapidly.   So, there's no telling where we'll end up or just how much Chaos will be immediate... or prolonged?  He's been emboldened as to what he can and cannot do, becoz he got the Popular Vote.   So feels the Majority of Americans are on board the Clown Car and Crazy Train.  His Voters wanted the Circus back in Town, and he's the Supported by them Ringmaster of The Shitshow again and they were Okay with that prospect.   Susie Wiles is an Interesting Character in his current Entourage and she's lasted over Three Years, quite a Benchmark of working for or with him.  He Cycles thru people usually... he blew thru his whole last Administration.

The Son went to his previous Job to pick up his last Check, as did all the Laid Off Co-Workers, since, it's Payday and it was supposed to be ready.  Well, none were and it was a long commute to be told they've already waited a Week and now the Checks for those they Laid Off aren't even ready or there!   So, he's nervous about whether they intend to Pay them what they owe them or not?  I personally think the Company is in Trouble and Why they let their best and most qualified and highest Paid People get The Cut.   I do Hope they Pay him what they Owe him and don't file Chapter 11 and screw them all.   We really don't know and Hopefully his Unemployment isn't compromised with this whole new Administration that isn't interested in Safety Net Programs for anyone out of Work, Disabled or Retired.

I try not to fixate on what might happen... but don't want to be caught unprepared when and if it does happen.  So, Hoping for the Best and Preparing for the Worst is in Order.  These are unprecedented circumstances at all levels the Government and it's Citizens will be facing and up against.  I'm not even Guardedly Optimistic, but don't want to be unduly Pessimistic either, becoz that's not Mentally Healthy or Helpful.  I do know I'm having a lot of difficulty having any Appetite or getting a good Night's Sleep, so Eating and Sleeping have been compromised considerably already.   Even when you're NOT actively Thinking about any of it, your Body Feels the Stress and Internal Conflict of what you may be Subconsciously Dealing with regardless.   The Man has begun having some PTSD Triggered, just considering a potential for Civil Unrest and any prospect to have to defend and protect Democracy in his Old Age.

  He spent 39 Years doing that with Honor in his long Military Career and being a highly Decorated War Hero.  But, he's in his 70's now and feels betrayed that some Americans just handed over freely our Democracy. He has seen and heard the utter contempt 45/47 has for all of our Military Personnel and it's Leaders, both Active Duty, Retired and Disabled Veterans particularly.   And we already know that Black Citizens are receiving Digital Hate Texts Targeting them with re-enacting Slavery Threats in this disturbing Hostile Political and Racist Extremist Climate Post-Election.  There's lots of Rogue activities happening immediately, even with Checks and Balances in place, what happens when those are dismantled and gutted?  The AG Offices and FBI are Investigating, as People are feeling unsafe and the escalation in Hate Crimes is worsening and will worsen under this Administration.   

With it's Hate filled and often Racist, Xenophobic, Homophobic, White Nationalist Supporting and Misogynistic Rhetoric, they've shown Active Support of such Behaviors and propensity for Violence.  I think DonOld needs these Socks on the Right and his Supporters/Voters need the Socks on the Left.  *LOL*   I don't feel like going in to Work, but, I will.  I Believe in Honoring my Commitments, but, I do not feel 100% and am struggling with a Mental Health Low right now that I can't shake, tho' I'm doing better than I previously was on Election Day.  I think many are having a wide range of Emotion and inner Turmoil about it, so, I don't feel like the Lone Ranger.   Only the most Ignorant think there's not gonna be problems, and Ignorance isn't Bliss, it's just Ignorance. 

 Many of the Latinos that Voted for him have been Interviewed and clearly don't understand that the mass deportation planned isn't just coming for the "Bad Ones".  Nope, coming for you all, even toying with De-Naturalizing those who are Naturalized Legal Citizens.   They'll be Coming For a whole lot more folks as they deem them not Loyalist and Populist enough too.   I doubt they can implement on the Grandiose Scale they want to, but, I don't doubt they'll go on a rounding up rampage, even if done outside the realms of the Law.   And Citizens could get caught up in the Net along with Undocumented people, Racial Profiling will very likely be more Visual than Evidence Based.  I've told my Hispanic American Born Loved Ones to ensure they have Citizenship Proof on them at all times once he's installed.  Coz you'll be a Target due to your Race/Ethnicity primarily, not your Citizenship Status.

Makes me Wonder if he has Plans to ship ole Melania off back from whence she came, once he's ready to get rid of her and get a Younger Model of Mail Order Bride?   She was pretty conspicuous by her very absence during his whole campaign.  I doubt they do very much together ever, or Share much Space.  Like all the rest she's just his Ego driven Arm Candy and Window Dressing Trophy Wife.   There's very little Doubt she was a Gold-digger and The Wallet and Lifestyle was more Attractive to her than the man.  I'm not sure she's comfortable in a Political Climate at all, she's never appeared to be All In with being a First Lady and what that entails and requires of her.   I'll give her Credit for protecting her Son Barron.  From a lot of what her Stepchildren have been exposed to and involved with of the whole Clown Car entourage rolling up to and occupying the White House and participating in The Big Grift and blatant Nepotism.  He seems like less damaged goods than the other Children.

LATER:  I did call in to Work and Opt Out for Tonight, I honestly didn't feel 'Well', I found myself Crying in front of the TV and there wasn't even anything Sad on that I was watching!!!  I rarely Cry, so let me put that in perspective... I've been always known to be Stoic even when I SHOULD be Emotional, and not shed a Tear.    I had to lie down and take a Nap at 1:00 P.M. after calling in to say I couldn't go to Work, since, I couldn't stay Awake either!  I felt SO exhausted, physically, emotionally and mentally... exhausted!!!   I was trying to watch a really good NetFlix Docuseries on UFO's, but, had to Nap in between the short Series, even tho' it was fascinating and well done.  I just could not stay Awake, and ended up Sleeping until I had to pick Princess T up from Work at 4:00 P.M..   She had to Work later than usual.  I couldn't go in to Work being Emotionally so Raw, so Tired, and so Weepy.

I picked up a few things while there at her Work, they've had a Donation of Old Rosaries, including a very Old Nun's Rosary, the kind worn around the Waist with a huge Crucifix.  They Sell the Rosaries so Cheaply that I usually Buy every Vintage and Antique one they have and the Manager always tells me when he's got some in, knowing I Collect them.  I got some Starbucks Mugs of the Cities of America Series, to Resell those.  And consistently, they've gotten in high end Collectibles and are Selling those inexpensively.  I picked up a Numbered Statue of a 1990's X-Files Creature that Online Sells for well over $140 and I paid Five Bucks for.  That will go in my Locked Showcase at the Antique Mall.   They've consistently been having brand new Old Stock of various Tarot Card Decks cheaply, very easy to Resell and can fetch a good price.  I think some Astrology Store must be Donating regularly and I just Love Scoring the New Old Stock items they Donate.

There were a LOT of Antiques too, but, some would have been a Hard Sell, so I just didn't want to Invest in them.   Even tho' I'm a Vendor at an Antique Mall, Trust and Believe that real Antiques, especially good quality ones, are not in high demand with the Demographic of Shopper coming in there.   Sad, but True, so, I have to leave them on the Shelves and will only ever Buy Inventory if the Margin on the item is huge and it's a Quick Turn piece of Merch I know I can easily Sell, is what's in Demand, and not have languish in Inventory.   You just get to know what Shoppers are Buying and what they're not, regardless of what the Value of it might actually be.   Something is only really Worth what someone is willing to pay for it when you're Selling it.  There's crap that can Sell for more than The Good Stuff, if it's a High Demand item or something Trending... it's all Subjective to whose Desiring it.

I've still been watching some of the Political Autopsies on TV, and... I think in many cases they are missing the Mark on what this Election Revealed.  It was pretty obvious to me that it's NOT about the Economy REALLY... this is much deeper on a lot of levels.  This is Who we really ARE as a Country and it's just on full Display now.  Most folks are Egocentric and not really all that interested and caring about their fellow Citizens or the Good of the Nation if they don't FEEL like they're personally Prospering to the degree they THINK they should be.  Doesn't mean the Economy has to be crap either, it could be doing good by all Global Standards.  But if people FEEL like they should be doing better, they want someone Promising them they can obtain everything they want or desire or are lacking.   They could mebbe Live without Eggs if Eggs are too expensive right now, but, they don't WANT to.

   I've Lived in many other Countries and one thing I know is that American Society is different.  We are more Consumer Driven and Materialistic by far than the rest of the World.  How we view Prosperity is often with an Entitled viewpoint.   And, tho' we do brag about the Founding Fathers and what a Great System they devised, let us not forget that it was never devised to be an equal playing field for ALL. That's an Ideal that never actually has ever happened in the over 200 Years we've existed as a Nation and a lot of it was never put into Practice until quite recently either.   Women's Rights, Rights of People of Color, LGBTQ+ Rights, Immigrant Rights, all were Denied for a very, very long time... clear up to and including a good chunk of my Lifetime.  And I'm not all that Ancient.  We're not talking about Civil War Days, we're talking of the Civil Rights Movement only being in the 1960's... and the Gay Rights Movement being even more recent!!!  And Human Rights are NOT everyone's high Priority... and some, don't Believe all Humans deserve equal Rights and consider them Inferior Beings.  That's just a Fact, always has been and every time we move Forward, we often are pushed Backward again. 

  And tho' a Country OF Immigrants, unless you're 100% Indigenous, of which there are so few now they're an Endangered Group of Human Beings, the Newest Immigrants always get resented, often outright Hated and vilified.  So, when the Status Quo eroded to where those who have enjoyed more Privilege, Rights and Entitlements, feel the least bit Threatened by everyone else coming up and being "Equals", it's not been well received... clearly.  You might be Tolerated, so long as you stay in your "Assigned Place".   And that's why Going Back to the "Good Old Days" is so overrated, even tho' they were not GOOD for ALL, they were way Better for some, who enjoyed Favor, that's for sure and they MISS that Standing and won't lose it if they feel it's eroding.  Most of us who weren't at the Top of the Food Chain ever of the White Patriarchy, don't wanna Go Back, why should we?  It sucked when you are ever viewed as Second Class Citizens and treated differently and/or Unjustly and had Less Rights than other Citizens Enjoyed and had all the Control and Dictated all the Rules and Rights parsed out to you sparingly.  

 So, Yes, I prefer a flawed Democracy over a Dictatorship or Theocracy for sure, but, Americans who Voted this Devil in have some Devils of their own they're clearly struggling with, whether they'll admit to it or not and Face it.  Even those who didn't Vote for him have to Face it... it IS Who we STILL are as a Nation... clearly.  And I think that tho' Economic Struggles are real and it does Suck when everything Costs more, and Blame always seems to fall on whoever is Incumbent in any Political Cycle, I don't think it was REALLY the Elephant in the Room as to Why his Popularity has soared in America.   Their Better Angels were probably as lacking as his are, and for many of the very same reasons.  And I doubt many Voted for him becoz anything about him appeared Good or Wholesome, yet, they could be Okay with that if he Delivered what they wanted FOR THEMSELVES EXCLUSIVELY.  Didn't matter if it was AGAINST anyone or even everyone else, and that's just the Truth.  Personal Greed and Egocentricity was showing.   The ole' "If it Benefits ME I don't Care who else it Screws", was pretty Obvious.

 Good of the Country or Democracy be damned, give me what I WANT!  Anyone can be thrown under the Bus if an Egocentric Individual Feels they'll be Okay and Favored... and enjoy every Benefit perhaps Denied to many.  They don't Care.  So long as they get Theirs while there's still some left.  He is rather the Poster Boy for all that has ever been Wrong with the Old White American Patriarchy System that has been Dominant and Ruled since Day One.  One that exhibits insatiable Greed, exudes their Imagined Superiority and Colonialist Attitudes, has Racist leanings, has Xenophobic leanings about most other Countries and Cultures, or biases based on Religions/Beliefs associated with whatever their Brand of Religion happens to be, is Sexist and Misogynistic and wants Women in their "Place", and is Homophobic.  THAT is what he was Selling and his Voters were eagerly Buying, that Supported their own Ideologies, Biases, sense of Entitlement and Ego. 

 Seeing any slippage was more terrifying to them than he ever could or would be, even tho' every Red Flag about him should have indicated otherwise.  WE'LL BE OKAY, so Fuck the rest of you, is what I Heard loud and clear from his Camp and those who pitched their Tent there.  So, Yeah, I'm still Ranting and Seething, being among the Fucked Over by their Choice.   And, I'm disappointed but not as Surprised as many folks seem to be, not so shocked at the Outcome, becoz, this isn't "New" and it's just more Out There than usual, so that it can't be Denied, tho', many are trying.  Becoz it is a bitter Pill to Swallow that this is what America STILL IS and the Evolution is only about halfway there if the Better Choice is rejected by more than Half the Country.  It's not like any of us Career Working Women ever didn't get the Job over a less than qualified or unqualified Man, let's be Real, not "New".  My Sentiments are, when you choose Poorly, remember the consequences of that Choice ya gotta now Own.  And, he's Promised his Devoted A LOT, let us see what he can Deliver to them without the utter destruction of a Functional Society in the Process?

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Rant Over for now, feels better getting my Opinion off my Chest... you might have a different one... my Observations and Experience have formed mine... Dawn... The Bohemian