Princess T has been Sick with Stomach Issues for Two Nights, but not consecutive ones. Thursday Night she threw up all over the Guest Bathroom in the middle of the Night, The Man had to clean it up, she didn't go in to Work due to how Sick she still felt by Morning. But, by Friday Afternoon she felt better. Then she began throwing up again in the wee Hours of Sunday Morning, luckily she doesn't Work Sunday or Monday so will have time to recover without missing more Work. No idea what's causing it so I may have to arrange a Doc visit for her if she's agreeable to going? She's 19 now so I can't make those decisions for her anymore and have to respect her own Adult decisions, so hard. *Le Sigh*
The Daughter's under Eye Swell finally came to a head and drained out. She was using a Mexican Herbal Holistic Remedy for it which apparently worked wonders. We don't know what caused that either but her Face is looking okay now and I'm wondering if she didn't get bitten by something and had a reaction? I've been feeling better and recovered my appetite and not having the insomnia, I'm Sleeping easily now, so, think perhaps I was just keyed up and internalized it more than I realized? I don't outwardly often show how I feel, so internalizing it isn't all that unusual for me to bottle shit up and externally be stoic about what's bothering me. All this Political Theater coupled with Family Crisis has just been A LOT.
Like many of you are saying here in The Land Of Blog, I'm now limiting my exposure to The News, any of it. It's not that I want to avoid being informed, but, it's just all so heavy and chaos oriented right now, that it's a lot to absorb, unpack and process, isn't it? And I don't wanna hear the fixations on the autopsy opinions of why it has gone so Wrong either. Unless and until we can assure the majority of Voters would get any of it Right, what's the Point? I like to listen to Bill Mahar's Show tho', coz of his delivery of Dark yet Profound Humor about it all. He had Chris Cuomo on and some MAGA Woman Quasi-well known person, but I had no idea who she was. So, he and Chris double teaming her was hilarious, she lacked any sense of Humor that they had about any of it... even Winning, the MAGA can't display Humor apparently? *LOL*
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Her having such a stick up her Ass was still hilarious tho', why come on a Political Satire Show if you can't take a Joke or don't have a sense of Humor, I had to Wonder? Anyway, Mahar had some hilarious yet pitiful Stats, such as, the MOST Googled Question AFTER the Election was: Did Joe Biden drop out of the Race? *Bwahahaha* Yeah, such a well Informed Voter Block we clearly have, Right?! Jeeesus! And yet, it does not Surprise me, the Ignorance and lack of Information from reliable Sources is abysmal. Far too many are getting all their info from Echo Chambers and Information Silos the likes of Joe Rogan's Podcast, Memes, Faux News, various Silos of Online Retardia, Disinformation and Misinformation, so, how much Voting is done from that kind of Head Space, one has to also Wonder?
And really, a lot of it isn't Rocket Science really to come to some conclusions about. Like Why a lot of Patriarchal and/or Theocracy Dominant Cultures leaned in to Voting MAGA... Duh! During just my own Lifetime and really quite recently on the Timeline of History, Women didn't have or even get many of the Rights currently being eroded or taken away!!! That Meme above is just a short List actually of what Women couldn't do or have Rights for, I remember far more from the 60's thru the late 80's actually. And some of the Rights of Minorities and the LGBTQ+ Community are quite 'New' as well, so, it's only quite recently we had some at all. That perhaps half the Country are Nostalgic for the return of those "Good Old Days" shouldn't be all that Surprising then.
Enuf of all that tho', I'm sure it will be dissected in more details as the Days and Weeks wear on until the expected Peaceful Transfer of Power this time. But, only becoz the more unable to accept a Loss side Won, otherwise, we'd have been talking about January 6th Two Point O. Becoz, apparently that side will never be able to handle or accept a Loss and Respect it... since, a Heads I Win Tails You Lose Mentality prevails amongst their Camp. Foul is only Called when they don't get their desired results, but all is Fair and Free when their desired results prevail... a very Strange and Skewed illogical response that they firmly Believe has logic to it. And the Insane Clown Posse of Cabinet Choices is not Surprising in the least either, so, I do Wish everyone would quit acting like or pretending to be so Shocked, I'm not at all. No Crystal Ball needed for that Prediction either.
Moving On... Princess T took The Man and I out for Dinner, her Treat, since, we're Broke as fuck and nobody but her has a Job right now. *LOL* My Vietnamese Chicken Pho is above. She broke up with Rusty formally Tonight too, after much consultation with me about it, I told her how best to be least hurtful about it. He still showed up uninvited, and in Tears, begging her to reconsider, which just reeked of Desperation. Much to her chagrin and annoyance, so she told me I had to get rid of him FOR her. To the Point I had to firmly yet gently go out and tell him he had to leave and go Home, he was just upsetting her, so, go on now. He apologized and complied, I was Calm and Kind about it, clearly he's Heartbroken. But, tho' I didn't say it, she's just not that into you... so... time to Move along and preserve your Dignity about it. It's been coming a long time, but she didn't want to hurt him or be Mean, or Pity him, and she felt she was reaching that Place where she definitely would be.
Plus, it was a Full Moon and so The Asylum here was in their Lunar Cycle of Madness, so, it wouldn't have ended Well otherwise. *Winks* As it was, halfway thru our Lovely Comped Dinner I got a hysterical Call again from The Young Prince. Their Marriage is in shambles and Allen wants out, so, there's not gonna be any way The Young Prince can preserve or salvage it... and... at this juncture, nor should they. I won't disclose details, but, it's best that The Young Prince just pack up his possessions and come back Home to Arizona. Getting here is the bigger Issue, since he is too Unwell to do it Alone and has no Income, since too Unwell to Work either or to Drive. We can't go get him either, given our present Situation and circumstances. We all just Bankrolled the Mexico Crisis and The Daughter's Months spent there sorting that Hot Mess out some and enuf to eventually return Home. It's always Something!!!
He said it will take him a Week to pack and a few Weeks to be able to return to Arizona, so, for now, that's The Plan. He was committed but if your Spouse is not, and things are going terribly Sideways, then, the Horse is Dead, get off. I am not Surprised, that Horse was on it's last Legs before they even left for New Mexico IMO, Allen was the one that got them kicked out of here. It was only The Young Prince's Devotion to his Husband that caused him to pack up and leave, to see if things would improve, they did not. We wouldn't tolerate certain behavior and I was pretty sure it would be a Deal Breaker eventually for holding that Relationship Together between them, too many Red Flags. The Young Prince's Dad also ended his long time Relationship and is Single again too, so I know Bobby might help his Son get back to Arizona if he Solicits his Help. He has no Support Network at all in New Mexico for Present Help and so it was always risky to move there for him.
I'm thinking if Allen truly wants Out, he will assist in making it possible for his Husband to just voluntarily leave and come back Home. And, given what I now know, the sooner the better actually for a whole lotta reasons. We will receive The Grandson back and ensure he's in a Space where he feels secure and Loved unconditionally. He was never the reason they had to leave any place they had to leave actually, and his Relationship with Allen has strained all his other Relationships to the point it isolated him, which is never good. Sans Allen I think he can re-establish other Relationships that were really having more trouble dealing with his Husband, than with him. I liked Allen, he had many good and endearing qualities, but the Anger Management Issues and severe Autistic tendencies were a tough row to hoe... even for his own Family. Autism can be difficult to Manage, and they tend to lack appropriate Filters for what they say and do, especially once they get Grown and very Strong Physically.
I'm Hopeful The Grandson can be Home before Christmas and get settled back in. We'll throw more Water in the Beans and carry on. I will continue to Appeal the decision Social Security made for Services he was Denied and should be receiving due to the extent of Disability and it being without a Cure. His Mom was once Approved and he's worse off with a similar Diagnosis. Nobody will hire someone with full blown Schizophrenia and D.I.D., it's just not happening, too much liability involved for an Employer to take that risk. The Dissociative Identity Disorder just complicates the matter. It used to be known as Multiple Personality Disorder and it's not uncommon for Schizophrenics to exhibit both Mental Health Disorders. He has numerous Shutdowns during any given day and often appears almost Comatose. He and his Mom have very similar Diagnosis and Symptoms, so it's not my First Rodeo being a Caregiver of a Schizophrenic with DID. So, not all blame falls on Allen being unable to Sustain the Relationship. It was almost doomed to fail and turn Toxic.
And, becoz Allen has a very Triggering Personality due to his own Mental Health Issues, it could go very Sideways for each of them if they remain together and I don't want that. I can tell Allen is Triggering his Husband more and more, and is out of control now himself, to the point where it's just Time to part company as soon as they can arrange it. Life will go on for them both and it is my Hope that now Allen has had some reconciliation with his own Family, he will also have a Healthier Support System? But, I have no control over that aspect of it all, just for my own Family Member, their Family will have to sort out their own Issues as best they can, Peace Out. I actually Liked his Family very much and was sympathetic to the complexities of having a Special Needs Child, our Points of Reference being quite similar actually. We have an Adult Son with Mildly Moderate Autism, who is also Bipolar and has Adult ADHD, it can make some Days a whole New Adventure. *Winks*
I got to Sleep In, a rare Luxury now Princess T is Working and has such early Hours on her Shift, so, I didn't Wake Up 'til 11:30 a.m.! I hadn't intended to Sleep the whole Morning away, but, I guess I needed it. I'd watched some Paranormal Shows about Blind Frog Ranch in Utah. Seems there's several Utah Ranches owned now by wealthy Investors who are doing intensive Investigations about the unusual phenomenon going on at those Properties for Centuries. The U.S. Government Owned one of them for over 20 Years doing the same thing at Skinwalker Ranch, now a second Billionaire Owns that one. It's fascinating to me becoz they're hiring the best and brightest in the Scientific Field like Astrophysicists and such, only to discover what the local Indigenous Tribes knew for Centuries and told them about the Localities. But, you know, Primitive Heathen, what do THEY know? Seems they knew a lot more than you think they did actually. And you're just now Catching Up to their Knowledge in Real Time. *Winks & drops the Mic*
I fell Asleep watching a Marathon of it. As well as the UAP's they got Photos and DNA Samples from the Water of a big Aquatic subterranean Serpentine Creature whose DNA turned out to be both Serpent and Prehistoric in Origin! The Unknown Prehistoric DNA part was a shocker. And they've also found Evidence of a huge Meteor hitting that area, with large fragments turning up when they were Drilling. That wasn't something they were expecting and they've been poncing around in those Pools trying to find ways into the underground Caverns. Seems they could have been at serious risk of whatever this thing is or where it came from, coz it's killed, eaten and mutilated big Animals on the Ranch! Which WAS a Mystery, now, mebbe not so much? *LOL* If a Surviving Dinosaur is coming topside to feed and then going back down into the depths they can't yet get to, I don't know I'd be diving into those Waters anymore all willy nilly and throwing Caution to the Wind now. *Smiles*
The Man has been sitting behind me in his Media Chair, silently boring his Eyeballs into the Back of my Head now with the TV Off, he gets Weird like that now, it's Creepy. Sometimes he'll do it in the Dark, even Creepier, just WTF Honey?! *LOL* I know what it is actually, he wants me to be his Entertainment Director for the Day, but we're financially fucked this Month and so I may have to even Cancel Thanksgiving? November is not gonna be any Fun Times and he's being petulant about it even tho' I explained Why. The Son said if he gets approved for Nutritional Assistance before Thanksgiving he'll buy what we usually get for it Grocery Wise. But, if he doesn't, it's Okay actually, I don't Feel particularly Thankful about the direction our Nation is going at all. So, to Cancel it would seem appropriate given the Political Climate. As it is my Mom never understood Thanksgiving when I was growing up, she didn't grow up Celebrating such a Holiday and thought it Weird that her Native American Husband did, since... well... the History. *LOL*
Mom would be like, Okay, so lemme TRY to Understand this Holiday. Your Tribal People invited the Pilgrim Newcomers, who uninvited showed up on THEIR Land, to a Feast with them and Break Bread Together in Peace and Harmony. Then, the White People proceeded to then Steal all the Land, displace all your Tribes and systematically commit Genocide against them. WHY would that be Celebrated as anything to be Thankful for? It didn't Square with her, never did, so she personally refused to ever be participatory in it. As a Welsh and Didi Kai Person treated Historically much the same way by the English, she wouldn't have Celebrated a Holiday representing that either she said. My Paternal Grandma always said she was of the Wampanoag People... they are the Tribe that Hosted the English Colonists of the 1621 Harvest in what is now Plymouth, Massachusetts... which is how Thanksgiving originated, that Tribe Hosting the Pilgrims and Shared with them a Feast. My Paternal Grandfather was an Indian Foundling in Vermont area, probably an abandoned Mixed Race Child, no Idea of which Tribe or other Heritage, he looked Indian but had wavy Hair.
Well, my Grandmother's Family was displaced and ended up on a Rez with the Cherokee in Oklahoma eventually... so that's how that all went for her and she rarely wanted to talk about any of it. The Two Wampanoag present day Tribes have no State Recognition and only some recent Federal Recognition in 2007 and do not have a Reservation. The Mashpee Wampanoag have a Town in Barnstable County tho', and when we lived on Cape Cod some of the Locals always slandered my Family as being dirty Mashpee Indians. When my Dad was Stationed at a now defunct AFB in MA in the 1960's, we did visit that Town and got to see some of where some of his Ancestors probably originated from. I remember we liked Cape Cod, it was near the Beach, we did make some Friends, mostly Ethnic Portuguese and Sicilian Residents. Otis AFB was decommissioned and Closed tho' and now is an Air National Guard Base instead these days. I don't recall seeing any Indians except my Dad tho' in the whole area in the 1960's, so he was still an anomaly there and nobody much liked Indians, so, I don't know where they kept them? *Bwahahaha and Eye Roll*
But, I do know a lot of intermarriage did happen as early as the late 1600's and 1700's with the Wampanoag, when the Full Blood Members numbers were decimated to less than 40. So, even within my Dad's direct descendants there still is intermarriage in Oklahoma with Members of other Tribes or Non-Indians. With mixed race folk it's not always as evident what Ancestry they're descended from, with some of us, you can't always tell. So, ditching Thanksgiving isn't so "New" to me and the Family are Fine if we do this Year actually for brand new reasons. *Ha ha ha* I discussed it with them all and they're ambivalent about Celebrating it anyway, just like I am this Year with how shitty everything has become. It's not that we don't have things to be Thankful for, we do, but, overall, we think the Nation is fucked with the incoming Administration. Just how fucked... nobody is really sure, but, among Qualified Competent people within Government and the Media, it's unanimous it will be dangerously so and I agree.
Turning on the News is like "Oh No... what did he do now?", and not in a Positive or Good way. We got an open Russian and Syrian Sympathizer being put in charge of National Security and all our Secrets. An accused Sex Trafficker of Underaged Kids who had an intense Investigation into those activities being chosen to be the AG. A Lunatic Fringe Conspiratardia and rabid Anti-Vaxxer being chosen as Health Secretary. And that's just the beginnings of the unraveling and the Retribution and Revenge Tour. Clearly his picks are designed to bring all Systems down and none of these people is remotely qualified or experienced to do the Jobs whatsoever... just Loyalists and Grifters extraordinaire.
Yet, what's almost Scarier to me personally is that we still have Americans saying that those are Good Choices and making excuses for the Cabinet Picks!!! So I know now, the untethering to Reality has been complete to manifest Zombie Brain folks, or... they might not ever have been able to recognize a Qualified Experienced Individual for those Jobs if their lives depended on it? And, in actuality, their and all our lives are gonna depend on it, they just seem blissfully unawares and excited about it. I've talked to a few MAGA that do know what's going on and are still excited about it. So, to them, tearing down America is the Point... and it's like those folk who Imagine themselves to be Home Flippers coz they watched too much HGTV and then assume anyone can do it... and have a Fantasy of extremely profitable outcomes for themselves. And haven't we all seen a really Bad Flip coz nobody knew what the fuck they were doing? *Eye Roll*
I do Imagine America might end up like that when the deconstruction of it by Idiots and Grifters is complete and then everyone is left absorbing just how Bad the MAGA Wet Dream Ends for all Communities and the Nation. Our Enemies ought to be having Wet Dreams about it by now, but our Allies surely recognize the Nightmare ahead. I can't see any Ally cooperating in Sharing Information and Secrets with an America that will be so willing to compromise our own!!! Just how 45/47 handled Classified Documents before is proof certain of that fact. Yet, some felt that was no Big Deal, having Boxes and Boxes of Classified Documents he never should have taken, unsecured and sitting in his Home in Bathrooms and such, with all the random people coming and going. And, how much he Sold us out with any/all of it, well, as Transactional as he is, it goes without saying, doesn't it?
He's having Private little Conversations all the time still with the Dictator Bromances he established... and now Elon is too along with him. And we shouldn't be Concerned about that... REALLY?! Imagine if you will that someone who knew everything there is to know, that would compromise the Safety and Well Being of your Family, was spilling the Tea to all those willing to harm you and cozying up to them. Just let that sink in for just a moment and then tell me that shouldn't be anything to be Concerned about... nothing to See here!? Misplaced Trust and being too Naive and Uninformed or Betrayed never benefitted anyone, ever. And it never will. And how quickly it goes completely Sideways is just a matter of Time. And I'm not even a Pessimist by Nature, usually I can muster at least some Guarded Optimism, but, not this time. And, I'm hearing far too many folks say they're too Afraid to say or do anything. Fear has now paralyzed them to become impotent and wait things out, see what happens, go along.
I guess I was Raised to just Do It Afraid and so that's the Action I take. To see Evil and Wrongdoing and do or say nothing is complicit in it going from a Foothold, to a Stronghold, to a point of No Return when it has complete and utter Control and Dominion over a Principality it has sought to devour or destroy. And I'd rather go down Fighting than to feel like a Coward who just let an Enemy take over without any resistance whatsoever. And one glaring difference that I did see, since 2016, was that his Side was willing to mobilize, unify, and then battle for what they were after... and thus, they have attained it. And that's how it goes, whether something/someone Good or Bad becomes the Victors, the spoils goes to whomever Wins and does whatever they want to the Losers they conquered. And this time, the Enemy seems to have been from within and not a shot had to be fired to bring us down to a Great Fall. And that's the only thing Great now... our Fall.
No Sugar Coated Salutations this day... Dawn... The Bohemian
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