So, it was a gorgeous day on Tuesday, 69 but felt Warmer and Sunny, so we did Environmental Cleanup. And it was Bulk Garbage Day in the Historic Neighborhood so we drove around slowly looking for Curbside Treasures. Found a Mid-Century Mod Eames or Modernica Case Study Style Molded Plastic Chair in Ivory Color with Chrome Legs, probably late 60's to early 70's. They're so comfortable I'll probably Keep it to use on our Back Patio rather than Sell it. But, I could get a lot for it if I change my Mind.
I got a Vintage Milk Crate and a Vintage Black Coca-Cola Crate with White Lettering Logo too. So, a nice Trio of Scores. Lots of people were Curb Pickin' and the Pickup would be coming within the Hour so you had to Trawl early. We did well gleaning Cans too, got Two Bags full and only hit One area, didn't have time to do more coz Princess T gets off Work earlier on Tuesdays coz she goes in earlier. It's so nice we could go back out but The Man isn't doing so Well today.
I tried to feed him a single Slice of Barro's Pizza with Meat Lovers Topping, which he Loves... and he picked off the Meats to eat and wasted the rest, playing with it. I had to just throw it away. I haven't been able to get him to eat or drink much at all and it's worrying me. So, next time his VA Nurse comes, or he sees Doc Kline I want that to be mentioned. I don't wanna Think about it this way, but I Lost my Dad at the same Age that The Man will be in Mid-February, and Dad quit Eating when it was near his Time, which is Normal for those ready to depart actually, the Body knows it's shutting down. I've only said that here. And a lot of people depart on or near their Birthday Date, I don't know Why?
I'm not gonna dwell on the nagging Anxiety I'm feeling about it and am saying nothing to the rest of the Family to unduly alarm them. Princess T knows he's pretty much stopped Eating and we have talked about that candidly, even Today. She's perceptive and had concerns about it, each Day she asks me if he did Okay Eating this Day, usually it's a No, he didn't... but she said we can't Eat FOR him, so, try not to get upset with him or about it or waste Food giving him what he will not Eat.
I looked up the Social Security site that tells when Checks should go out for 2026 all Year, so now I have a better gauge of when to expect it. It's anywhere from the 15th to the 21st now, which is a pretty big spread. That's significant when Bills are due the same time every Month but your Checks aren't consistent in being received due to a Week's spread. Anyway, so, we should receive ours Tomorrow for January according to that site. Then I can finish paying Bills.
My Dentist Office called and I'm Scheduled for a Cleaning on Thursday but they Needed my New Medicare Provider information, the previous one told them I was dropped. They take Humana but said my Coverage covers only $750 Annually of Dental, the previous Provider covered $1,000. I take good Care of my Teeth so usually, if I don't have a Dental Emergency, that should still be enough tho'. I don't know if what you don't use rolls over, with some Providers it does, with others, what you don't Use you Lose. Usually I go 1-2 times Annually for Cleanings and basic Maintenance.
I'm dog Tired again and in Need of a Mid-Afternoon Nap, this is becoming Habitual. I priced a little bit of Merch to take in, but don't feel up to taking it in to the Showroom either. I have a Vintage Stacking Set Trio of Franciscan Ware Apple Design Mixing Bowls. Some Collectible Liquor Decanters, one shaped like a Bird, the other from Reno and Gambler Design shaped from a Casino there. A Betsey Johnson Purse, a Hello Kitty Purse, more Retro Colorful Metal Tumbler Sets, some Commercial Letters, a Golden Buddha Bank, and some more Starbucks Collector Mugs. If I had any Energy left I'd take them in Tonight... but my Energy level is flatlined already, Exhaustion set in again by around 3:00 p.m.!!! It's getting tedious to run out of Juice by early Afternoon lately. It's like, WTF is Wrong with me? *LOL and Le Sigh*
The Man will be overly practical about it and just say, "Well, Honey, you've been going since 5:00 a.m. and you're just not Young anymore." *Insert Resting Bitch Face from Yours Truly and giving him the Side Eye* I know, I know, he could be Right, but... still... *Bwahahahaha* The Adult Kiddos will concur with him, being in their late 30's to late 40's each, and Princess T will interject by saying she's Tired by 3:00 p.m. too after Working all Day and she's only 20, so, it's Normal Gramma! Okay, so it's unanimous then, but it doesn't mean I have to LIKE to Hear it... coz I didn't used to Crap Out halfway thru a fucking Day... and I don't LIKE it! I don't HAVE to LIKE it!!! So, there... *Petulant Sigh and Stomping of Foot Childishly... LOL*
And I'm really missing how things were... and are no more... about a LOT of things lately. I'm missing Dear Friends that are Gone... or I haven't seen in Years coz they went Off the Grid and nobody has mentioned why or brought it up when I'm with people we all mutually knew. My Friend Angie, Below, was a Big Presence in the Industry and then Poof... Off the Grid... all our mutual Friends have never brought it up and avoid talking of someone whose just not been around for such a long time now, surely someone knows something? I do Wonder, at times, if it was you, would it be as avoided that your Name just was never mentioned again?
I just find it to be Weird and very Odd. In the Industry I'm finding it to be commonplace, someone is suddenly never heard from or seen again and nobody claims to know anything and never mentions them ever again... so... mebbe nobody actually knows anything??? I just prefer to know that people I Care about are Okay and just don't Vanish without a Trace and nobody ever mentions their Name again. Especially when their Social Media becomes inactive too and everything they were very involved in doing and being a strong Presence of, Stops Cold. Nobody mentioned a Death, so I Assume they're still among the Living? But, sometimes you even hear about the Departed later and feel like, was I the last to know this? I know I'm housebound a lot Caregiving, but Jeez... So, I do always Hope Dear Angela is Okay? I miss her.
Of coarse I miss the Industry itself being what is used to be and is no more and will likely never be again. The Shops that Closed, the Events that no longer Exist or scaled way back, or morphed into something entirely different and a Shadow of what they used to be. I fail to be impressed by what Is now, compared to what Used to Be before. Those who knew Before know exactly what I'm talking about. And becoz Social Media isn't covering a damned thing anymore Nationally either, I'm Guessing a lot of it no longer exists or fell out of Favor and only perhaps a remnant survives? I followed a multitude of Blogs that covered so much of it, not a single one exists anymore, nor did the Bloggers continue Blogging either. Crickets.
I recently had a Real Life Friend tell me it's a good thing I still Cover a lot of the Local Scene becoz all the other Bloggers who used to, don't even Blog anymore and Cover nothing. Most of the time they aren't even showing a Presence anywhere either, they went Off Grid as well I guess? And I'm talking of some Bloggers who had huge Followings, my lil slice of the Blogasphere couldn't hold a Candle to how many Dear Readers flocked to their Blogs in droves. So, very Strange to just End it and most didn't give a Farewell, they just took the whole Blog down, it's not even out there anymore. And I am really having a little Fit about the Small Stuff that's changed, coz the Big Stuff that's absolutely terrifying happening, is Too Much. With the Madman America Voted in as President, being a Threat to the entire World! He is Courting WWIII and is out of his fucking Mind!
And not much Feels Right and so much is going terribly Wrong, so I do Feel quite Alarmed most of the time now. I can't really go thru the Motions of being Okay, when nothing is really Okay. I can start a Post saying it was a Gorgeous Day and we did Normalized Things, in spite of Global Chaos and the unraveling of Democracy and America. But, ignoring the Elephant in the Room and trying to move around it and feel Safe with a Rogue Elephant in any Room, and NOT talk about it, is rather like nobody talking about the People I spoke of that just fucking Disappeared and everyone remains Silent about it. It Feels to me rather Surreal and very Unnatural.
On a Positive Note. My other Mermaid Lure arrived, it's very nice. One of my Meditation CD's I ordered arrived already which was so fast, I was impressed with that Seller getting it to me with lightening speed. I've been listening to Meditation Music now more than I ever have. It keeps me Grounded and restores my Calm, keeps me Centered, during very turbulent times playing out in a dramatic escalation, that resembles a Five Alarm Fire that should be appropriately responded to, but Leadership is CAUSING it. Before everything burns to the fucking Ground, a response has to be more effective from everyone Opposed to what's happening, before all that's left are the Ashes to Rule over. But, enough of that, since, it's terribly exhausting and depressing. But, we must remain part of the Resistance and not just shut up coz we're told to go along with whatever Insanity they're up to.
I have been preoccupying myself with minutia to keep busy and not fixated upon the World we're living in that is so screwed up right now. I mustered some Energy to do some Work in The RV Garage Mahal, it was comfortable in there coz it is still 69 Degrees and holding after Dark, which is highly unusual. So, the Climate in there is nice to get some things done and there's a lot to get done in there, to be sure. I could spend all of 2026 chipping away at it and I'm sure I will, it's ambitious to assume we might complete it this Year, the Weather hasn't been on our side to be able to. The Daughter gets a lot more done than I do, when she tackles something she's laser focused and I'm very scattered coz of the ADHD which interferes with my focus a lot.
I'm trying to organize my Books in there right now and make enuf Book Shelving for them all. Then I do have to Edit the Collection and Purge duplicates to Sell and also those I no longer want or need to Keep. I do that fairly often but I'm an incurable Book Hoarder, I LOVE Books, not so much Reading ones, but the Visual ones that are Decor and Cookbooks. I'm very Visual and it's Inspiring to me no matter how Old the Book might be if the Visuals in it are Sublime. I have more Decor and Cookbooks than "Barnes & Noble" or "Bookmans" and that's not hyperbole, I actually do! I have some very Rare Books too. And I do have a smaller Collection of Antique Books. In my early days of Blogging I made Blog Books, I quit doing that coz I'm too prolific a Blogger and it can get spendy.
We just had Donnie Two Doll's Housing Czar say with a Straight Face that the Housing Problem is becoz RETIREES in America are Owning 5, 10 and 12 Houses!!!!!!!!!!!!! So, if they'd just live in One and give up the other Dozen or so they have, there would be plenty of Housing for the Younger Generations to affordably Rent or Buy!!! So, fellow American Retirees, we're the Problem, according to this White House!!! Give up those other Eleven or so Properties you own, dammit, so that your Kids and Grandkids don't have to Live with you in the One you're actually Occupying!!! This is how fucking Out of Touch with the Reality of the American People these folks are he's put in high Positions of Power and Influence!!! *Shaking Head in Dismay*
You can't make this shit up, it's Surreal what falls out of their Mouths and they try to pass off as Reality and Factual Information! So, I told The Man, Honey, we gotta give up those Dozen other Properties, so we can get all these Kids outta our House and they'll be able to have someplace to Live! *Bwahahahaha* And I told The Son, listen, Donnie's Boys have determined your Dad and I, and all other American Retirees, are the Problem, with why all you Kids can't afford a place to live, coz we apparently Own it all. *LMAOROTF* The Czar went on to say he's not wanting to Displace Retired Mom and Pops, just distribute all that other Housing they Own to the masses needing Housing!!! *LOL* If that ain't some Fucking Gallow's Humor being passed off as Serious Bullshit they're shoveling to America, I don't know what is.
I did Purge more of my Closet Tonight too, I had to go thru my Pants and decide which I don't wear, which don't fit, which I no longer like the Style or Color/Print of. I've fluctuated in Weight since I've been on my Weight Loss Journey so it's important to discard those Clothes which were for when I was heavier and were falling off me now. It's a better problem to have than the opposite, where you are gaining Weight and nothing fits. So, I didn't mind that I have a large Donation to go of Pants now. Most Shirts I Purged could be Sold in the Showroom, but, not the Pants, not appropriate, except one very Retro Hippie Print Pair. They have Awesome Graphics but don't fit, so I'll Sell that Pair. I've got to go thru my Jammies next. I find that if I have less Wardrobe, decisions on what to wear are just easier and more of it gets use. I Buy 99% of my Wardrobe Secondhand, so don't pay a lot for it.
I do Invest in a few Statement Designer pieces which are Keepers and I Saved Up to budget for. Even those, I bought on E-Bay Secondhand at a reduced price than they Cost Retail, and some were Retired Pieces not being made anymore, so will increase in Value. I have zero regrets of Buying and Investing in any of those pieces over the Years. And I don't have a lot of Wardrobe Attachments except with those Statement Pieces. So the Letting Go of Wardrobe has always been easy for me and especially when the Resale of the Tops is lucrative, so I don't mind Donating anything else to Charities. I keep my Wardrobe Nice, hardly ever wear it out, so it will benefit the next person who gets it Secondhand.
Making Room in my Closet is huge coz these are small Closet and we got really spoiled and used to large ones at the McManse. Even at the Historic Home I had more Wardrobe Space coz we had many more Rooms there, plus several Cottages in the back Acreage to use. This Vintage Home has decent sized Closets that were typical in the Era it was built. And, they were Remodeled by a previous Owner who did a good job of it, but, Modern Closet Remodels have inferior Materials they use that don't hold up well at all. The Original Closet Materials were likely a lot Sturdier and built to last. At the Historic Home, the Materials used were so solid and strong, they had lasted over a Century and you could do pullups on the Closet Rods... still Solid as a Brick Shithouse and will probably last another Century and hold up better than anything Modern.
I've been watching a sort of Documentary across 7 Continents with Will Smith called "Pole To Pole" which is really powerful. The Amazon Rain Forest Episode was particularly touching and moved me, the plight of the Rain Forest and it's Indigenous Tribes is one that must be taken seriously for the good of the whole Planet's Health and Well Being. So many of the World's Indigenous People have not been protected nor respected for their ways of Life and Cultures. Which almost always live in Harmony with Nature and don't make a Negative impact and toxic Footprint like the rest of Mankind has and does. The Natural World is complex and if not disrupted and if Respected, works seamlessly without Modern Man's interference messing things up. The Indigenous know this important coexistence and practice it with great Love and Wisdom for their Environment and the other Creatures in it we Share the Planet with.
Exploring what makes Life Meaningful is the ultimate Question, isn't it? The Series took Five Years to make and is a very thought provoking one. He's in the Company of Scientists, Explorers and Local Experts. The Himalayas Episode explores the Secret to Happiness. Almost anything National Geographic puts out I know I'm going to enjoy with few complaints. I've liked Will Smith in spite of his controversies that caused a Hollywood downfall and he's very good in this Documentary and All In with it's Purpose. Some might think it's a Rehabilitation Roadshow for him to try to get back in to Hollywood's Good Graces, and it might be, but it could be his own Journey of Self Discovery while doing it as well. Two things can be True at the same time. The Serious Message about our Planet's Environment isn't completely Lost while we have a controversial Celebrity Ambassador chosen to Host it and being like a Tourist on his own Journey and talking about himself... folks might watch it for either reason and that's not all Bad IMO.
Sometimes making something all about Science and Environmental Protection wouldn't otherwise reach nor appeal to those most Needing to Hear the Message. And expose themselves to the Genre of Program highlighting such important Issues. I always Hope to Change the Hearts and Minds of the Environmentally Unconscious among our Species, of which, there are a lot of them messing things up royally and causing a lot of the harm to our fragile Ecosystems and the Planet. As an Old Hippie and having an Indigenous Parent's Outlook, I have been mocked almost all of my Life for being tied to Nature more closely than a lot of folks are comfortable with showing any Respect for.
Most Modern folks consider such Lifestyle, Thoughts and Practices to be Primitive, beneath them, and something to be made the Butt of a Joke of. Many consider Climate Change to be a Hoax or Myth, not Real. And in their arrogance, they actually think Mankind has made things better, not worse, by being out of Balance with the Natural World and so being so "Civilized". Many allegedly more "Civilized" Civilizations have fallen over Time due to their Habits that caused their demise. The Natural World has a way of Pushing Back hard when it Needs to put Humankind in Check. And show us whose really in Charge and our Place in the Grand Scheme of things, especially when we don't stay in our own Lane and show Due Respect for Mother Nature and all of Creation. I'm not particularly Sad or Mad when Nature Pushes Back hard and recalibrates things to put Mankind in our Place and get our Attention before we totally screw things up. Running damage control behind our Species can be a full time Job.
May you find the Meaning of Happiness for yourselves too my Friends and strive for Balance in your Lives so you can always come back to Center... Dawn... The Bohemian
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