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 Princess T sounds terrible and is still very congested, but soldiered on and went in to Work.  They will be able to tell her Seasonal Allergies are really bad, but, she's not contagious, so, nobody has anything to fear of catching what's wrong with her.  People can be skittish when you sound as if you could have a contagion.  I used to get Bronchitis fairly often and it always sounded as if I could be a walking contagion and so I'd have to explain that it wasn't anything anyone else could catch from me.  After the Pandemic it's understandable folks are scared of catching anything going around though.  Remembering how terrifying that all was to us all, I spent Three Years not wanting to even Cough in Public.  *Smiles*

So, I dropped her off at Work and it's so bright now outside that early that we no longer are leaving in darkness.  I don't know if it's gonna be another triple digit day or not?   The "Official" Reading was 99, breaking Records, but, I know for damned sure it reached triple digits and got to 102 where we were, and for half the day!   The "Official" High is never as Hot as it really gets, so that's not Surprising they will claim we haven't had our first Triple digit Weather yet, even tho' "Unofficially" we certainly have!  Anyway it was toasty yesterday and likely looks like a repeat for today as well.  I'm deciding what we want to do?  It was so Hot yesterday that the Kiddos went Swimming!  The Pool Water has been too Cold except for Polar Bear Club type folks until yesterday, where it warmed up even the Pool Water enuf to go Swimming.

I binge watched more of "Goliath" and realize, no way I'm getting thru all the Seasons of it while we have the Freebie of Amazon's Trial period, but, I did finish Season 2 at least last night.  They hook you in with these Series so that you'll want to then subscribe, and The Son said he might just do it for me since I'm finally watching TV.  For some reason it always bothered the Kiddos that I don't watch hardly any TV... and that their Dad/Grandpa watches too much TV.  *LOL*   Funny what bothers your Kids about you, huh?  *Bwahahaha*  The same bothersome ends of the spectrum exist about me always going out a lot and their Dad/Grandpa staying Home too much.  He's a Homebody and for me a Home is somewhere I mostly Sleep and sometimes Eat.  As you know, by my Food Porn Posts, the latter is occasional since I like eating out.  *Winks*

I was Surprised that I settled in to Pandemic Lockdown so well since I don't like to have restrictions imposed on where I am involuntarily.  The Man could and would stay Home most of the time voluntarily.  He's a Natural Recluse, coz he'd rather be in his Sanctuary than anywhere else and around Loved Ones or Alone rather than in General Public.   I on the other hand have had to get used to the Isolation and Limitations that Full Time Unpaid Caregiving requires of me and imposes.  If I wasn't a Caregiver I'd do more Socializing and be hardly ever Home I think.  *Smiles*   Yes, I Love my Family, but I got things to do and places to go, so, if I WAS footloose and fancy free, I'd be doing those things and going those places all the time.  Plus, I know a lot of People.  This is why the Family like to Tag along I think, separation anxiety sets in for them?  And, they don't want me to Escape.  *Winks and LOL* 

I priced a couple of things for the Showroom, I don't really have a lot of spare space right now to infuse a lot of Fresh Merch in there.  And I'm not one of the Vendors who rotates the entire Space in and out of the Mall.   If I bring something in, I really don't want to then drag it back Home and find Storage for it.  The Work involved in transforming an entire Showroom is usually not worth it either.  It might give the Looky Lous a Fresh Visual, but when I had a small Booth and could do that, I didn't see it impacted the bottom line all that much to be worth all that work, time and effort.   I used to do Seasonal Themes when I had a small Booth, but to do that to an entire Room is a big Project and Customers get in the way unless you completely close your Space off to be able to do it.  Our Mall doesn't have before hours and after hours for Vendors only, so you work around Shoppers all the time.

And nothing makes Shoppers more Curious than when you're Working your Spaces, so, it becomes difficult to do the work and eats up a lot of valuable time too.   Mostly it's Curiosity and not that they'll be Buying, then there is the chit-chat some want to engage in.  And tho' I enjoy Socializing, when I'm trying to get Work done, it's not the right time for it.  Especially if someone just wants to talk about their Collections and what they have at Home, which can go long, like my Posts {winks}.  And there's no real polite way to disengage with a Talker whose interrupting your ability to get work done.  I've been Guilty of that myself, so, no Judgment.   We do get a lot of lonesome Shoppers too, who aren't really there Buying, but it's their opportunity to engage with people, and I get it.  Modern Life can be isolating and if I'm not working, sure, I'll engage and be interested in Socializing too.  You do meet some very interesting and nice people visiting an Antique Mall, with good Stories to tell.

And I'm usually a very Social Person and genuinely like People, so I'm approachable and sincere.  Honestly most of the time I'd be engaging and enjoy a good Story to tell.  But, when I'm on a time crunch to get Work done I've not found a smooth way to avoid contact with Shoppers interrupting the work either.  If you have tips, please Share.  *Winks*  And, Yes, sometimes when you make that Connection with a Shopper, they become a Loyal Customer and mebbe even a Friend.  So there is the Upside to it all too, which has been Priceless beyond just hawking stuff.   And if I know you already, then I am happy to engage even if and when I'm working on something.  My Industry Friends are gracious with their time when they know you and are working and can spare some time to engage and catch up.   I look forward to the Social Aspect as much as enjoying a good Event/Show/Shopping Experience.  So, no condemnation from me, it's just awkward sometimes to juggle both the 

Work and the Social Life.

Anyone else with Adult ADHD knows we can get easily sidetracked and our focus can become quite scattered when interrupted.  I can forget what the Hell I'm even doing and then lose all momentum and rhythm to what I was doing before an interruption!  *LOL*   Princess T, when she comes in to Work with me in our Showroom, can so easily shut people out.   Becoz she's part of the Anti-Social Social Club and a total Introvert.  She doesn't People well and has intense Social Anxiety, so she can block any attempt to interact with her enuf that you will not be able to engage.  It's like her Super Power to do it and yet not even offend folks.   She usually won't even Talk if someone else gets Chatty and after a while they realize, mebbe she's not even Listening???  *LOL*  If she's ever Chatty herself, it's coz you're part of her Inner Circle, otherwise, you might just think she was a Deaf Mute?  *Ha ha ha*

She gets complimented all the time when we go out and told how Stunning she is, by both Males and Females of all Ages.  She says a simple Thank You, Smiles, and keeps it Moving.  She is not Vain about it and you won't flatter her so much she'll stand around to soak it in or hear more and eat it up either.  She's not a conceited person even tho' she could be due to the attention she usually gets.   It hasn't infected her Personality to get complimented often, she's remained a very pleasant and kind, yet very private, person.   She'd rather hang out with me or spend inordinate amounts of time alone in her Room with her Cat, than hang out with anyone.   The Daughter initially marveled at how much time you could spend in a Home with someone like her Daughter and rarely ever see her or hear her.  *LOL*  She's been The Golden Child to Raise becoz she's a Good Kid and keeps Happy with just her own Company most of the time.  You can't get into much Trouble doing that.  *Smiles*

 

After having Raised Three other High Maintenance Children of Two Generations worth, over the span of Four Decades consecutively and sometimes concurrently, having at least One Golden Child was a Blessing and appreciated.  *Whew and Laughs*  It's probably best she was the Youngest and last to have to Raise, I was pretty worn out by the time she was all Grown Up.  *Ha ha ha*   Now that they're all Adults, the Three who were hard to Raise appreciate the Work and Effort we put into it coz now they understand how hard it was and how sacrificial to an extreme.  It's why they're Paying it Forward now in our Old Age, they say they Owe us at least that much, we Earned it.   *Bwahahaha* 

The Antique Mall called to ask if I'd fill in again for a Vendor named Sherry, I'm not familiar with who she is, think she's new and hasn't been showing up for her Wednesday Night Shifts for a few Weeks now.   Last Wednesday that I'd filled in everyone regularly on that Shift didn't show up but my Friend Crazy Ed had told them he couldn't coz his Son was visiting from out of State.  And Jackson wasn't there that Night coz he was still on a Cruise and hadn't gotten back yet.  Well, Crazy Ed and Jackson were both there tonight and it was a good Night, very busy.  But, all we were Selling was Pokemon Cards, Hello Kitty Merch and Anime Merch!!!   The Average Age of the Customers was about 20, but, they were spending a lot of Money on the Genre of Merch they want.  The Pokemon Vendors are absolutely killin' it lately!!!

Both Crazy Ed and Jackson told me about major Incidents they'd had lately.  Ed had a $259 Oil Painting Stolen, fairly large, he'd seen an Older Man take it down out of his Booth #2, which is right up front, and look at it, that's the last time he saw it.  He thinks what likely happened is the Guy walked around with it, switched Tags with another cheap Oil Painting and whoever that Vendor was got Paid for a Painting they didn't Sell and didn't have much of a description on.  Since all of Ed's Paintings are Published Artists and Gallery Quality, he has extensive descriptions on his Tags.  But, up front wouldn't know if someone came up with a Painting with a Tag on it that just said "Painting".   He said Management wouldn't show him Security Footage so he could see if that Old Guy had come up with the Painting and Paid something for it.

Jackson has a RING Camera in his Showroom #113, which is in the back near where my Old Showroom #114 next to it used to be.   A Young Guy in his 20's who appeared to have Cerebral Palsy or some such Disability came into the Showroom and just started picking up and smashing expensive fragile things!!!   Then he gutted a Plush stuffed Bear, took all the Stuffing out and threw it around, turned the Toy Bear's Skin inside out and then Stole the Toy Bearskin... Crazy!!!   It was all caught on his own Video Surveillance, which alerts to his Phone, so he brought in a Still copy of the Guy to put up at the Greeter Station to say if this Customer comes in again, to alert Management since he's now Vandalized several Vendor's items, not just Jackson's!  I recently had some Action Trolls Legs torn off, wonder now if it was the same Whacko Guy?

After hearing all of that I felt grateful that my Incident was resolved with the Two items that were MIA and then mysteriously showed up on my itemized Sheet in a suspicious way... but, at least I got Paid, so I don't Care that things were very Odd and inconsistent about it.   And speaking of Incidents, the AG's Office called me and said they have begun the Investigation into my Case/Complaint against that Lender.  It will be interesting what they turn up and if they'll get the Company to reimburse me on the misapplication of that initial Payment on the Loan?  I'm an Old School Paperwork Geek and that's why I like doing it the old way of having Evidence in Hand with Hard Copies of Proof.  I supplied the AG with Hard Copies of Proof as well with my Complaint... hard to dispute a Paper Trail of Evidence someone has the Receipts of.  We'll see what the Lender has to say for themselves for what they tried to do?  I Hope they get slapped with a significant Fine... like Wells Fargo did Years ago for illegal practices. 

I Scored an Antique Barrister Cabinet, Two Cases high, on the Cheap at our other Antique Mall Location that someone had Painted Black and put Rulers on the Top of the Cabinet {see below}.  It might have been in bad shape and this was a novel way to refinish it.  I'm likely to change out the Hardware on it with Antique Hardware since I don't like the Modern Knobs they installed.  I have plenty of Period Hardware that a Cabinet of this Age would have originally had.   We got a couple of Knives and a Customized Walking Cane for The Man really, really Cheap too plus we got either an Employee 10% Discount and a Vendor 25% Discount on top of the already low prices of all the Merch.   But, the Downer of a great Shopping Day being that my New Gifted Camera has apparently gone MIA and might have fallen out of my Purse somewhere?!   OMG, I'm so fucking upset right now until we search everywhere I've been during the last 24 Hours!  I think it might have tipped out at Work last Night?  But I have to wait until 9:00 a.m. when the Mall Opens.  I'm praying it's either in my Showroom or under the Cabinets behind the Registers where us Employees put our Purses while Working?!

  
 What pisses me off is I had both my Old Camera and the New One in my Purse and the Old One was still in there... but, some other stuff wasn't and why I think it might have tipped over.  It's a larger Canvas Tote Bag Purse so if someone tipped it over accidentally stuff could spill out.  Even if I tipped it over that could have happened so I'm racking my Brain to everywhere the Purse has sat in the last 24 Hours, even here at Home, where it could have tipped over or been knocked over and stuff fell out of it?   A Jeweler's Loupe I know was in it was found by the Sofa, where I sit my Purse when I'm Home... so I know it's tipped over at least once even here at Home.    I Hope it didn't tip out somewhere in the Showroom coz Customers have access, whereas under the Counters they don't.  But, I won't know until I go in this Morning and hunt there in both places.  It's the last place I remember taking Pixs with it.  

 

I'd Photographed some items I'd brought into Inventory that are higher risk.  If something turns up MIA, our Management always wants us to provide a Photograph of it.  So, I try to Photograph all Merch that might be a higher Theft item, and where it was in the Showroom.  I'd Photographed the Wooden Dolls and the Raggedy Ann with the Black Camera, as I recall, and with my Cellphone Camera too.  I only have the Cellphone Pixs, so, I might have even set the Camera down to then take Pixs with my Cellphone, I can't recall.  The Man said that might be the most likely thing that happened, and I did all that right before starting my Shift, when I put all my new Inventory into the Showroom.  I was rushing since I only had 40 Minutes to get it all done and had to put Security Features on all the Shirts and Dolls too.   And deal with Customers walking in Curious about what new was coming in.  Any distraction these days can make me loose focus and do something stupid like set something down absent-mindedly.  So, now I'm worried a Customer could have even picked it up if I set it down and they found it?  Every bad case scenario is looping thru my fucking Head!  *Sob*

I just got back from the Antique Mall, the Manager let me in 30 Minutes early before they even opened to look in my Showroom and under the Counter behind the Registers, no Camera.  It wasn't in the Lost and Found either, tho' many a Lost Cellphone and Sunglasses were.  *Le Sigh*  IF I did even leave or lose it there, a Customer might have found it and picked it up, keeping it?  Some people aren't honest when they find something someone Lost and they could use... enuf actual Merch For Sale gets taken.   So, unless I misplaced it here at Home, it's gone.  And I was in tears about it coz I just got it as a Gift and had been using it a lot.  And it has a Memory Card in it with lots of personal pixs now that I don't want some Rando having if someone did pick it up and keep it!  I'm quite distraught now, it ruined my whole day.   And my Memory isn't great anymore at the best of times, so trying to remember the last place I took pixs with it is sketchy.

You know how sometimes you think you remember something but mebbe it's not a Real Memory at all?   Well, I'm Wrestling with that right now.  I THINK I recall taking some Merch Pixs with the Black Camera and some Pixs of my new Ukrainian Pysanky Painted Easter Eggs I got from our other Antique Mall, after we got Home, but, was it before or after Work?  Those Pixs weren't on the Old Silver Canon, the New Canon is Black.  So, I think either the Eggs or the Dolls were the very last Memory I have of what I was Photographing with that New Camera.   The Eggs being Photographed at Home, the Dolls in my Showroom... so, those are the Two logical places it could be... or have been.  BTW: Above is a Vintage Florida Souvenir S&P with Chrome Restaurant Style Rack I bought last Night at Work.  I also got a Vintage 1930's Tablecloth with a Dutch Children Graphics on it.  We have some New Vendors and their Price Points were low. 

  But back to being distraught!!!  I was SO Hoping it was just sat down somewhere in our Showroom, since, we've turned the House upside down looking for it in vain.  Unless I put it somewhere Crazy, which is entirely possible at this Season of Life, I don't know where else to look?  *Sobbing*   The Son saw me taking Pixs of the Easter Eggs here at Home and asked what I was doing, so we're shooting him off a Text asking if he remembered if that was Before or After I went to Work?  I'm Hoping he says After I got Home coz then it means the Camera is somewhere here and I'd have more of a Peace about finding it then.  I Hate Losing or Misplacing anything, it drives me absolutely Crazy!!!  And I get so upset at myself too, coz it happens with more frequency now I'm Older.  I do a lot of Absent Minded shit.   And it's disturbing when Memory fails you... coz... well... cognitive decline could be happening?!

I mean, I even looked in the Goddamned Refrigerator to see if I put it in there, you know?  *Bwahahahaha*   Why?   Well, not becoz I ever have done something that Senile yet, but... there's always a first time!  *LOL*  It wasn't there BTW, so that was kinda a weird mix of relief and yet disappointment.  *Bwahahahaha*   Relief I hadn't done something that Senile, disappointment I didn't just Find it there.  *Winks*   And now I'll be Obsessed and Freaking Out all fucking Day, I know it!   The Kiddos and The Man know how Crazy I get when I can't Find something, so... even my Friends at Work are keeping an Eye out during their Shift Today, hoping to recover it too, since they saw how fucking frantic and upset I was!  *Le Sigh*   I got a lot of shit on my Mind and so lately, I do feel in somewhat of a Brain Fog when I'm doing damned near anything.  And a part of me Wonders, is it from the stupid Stroke perhaps?  I think I'm 100% Recovered, but... mebbe there's irreversible damage done?

See... See where my Mind takes me NOW?!   *Le Sigh*  This is why the Camera NEEDS to Show the fuck Up!   Dammit!  Becoz random Negative Thoughts will start compounding otherwise.   I'll think I got permanent Brain Damage I'm not quite Aware of... or I'll think I'm just Losing my Mind and going Senile... or I'll think some dishonest Shopper picked it up and kept it and now has my Personal Pixs... all Negative fucking no good Thoughts in a Loop replaying over and over, that I don't Need in my Head right now!   This is what ADHD and OCD Bipolar Adults go thru when we become even slightly unhinged about something.  *Le Sigh*  Blogging about it does Help, so, a Mini Rant here has a somewhat Calming Effect and perhaps some of you can relate to it too?   Sorry Debra... that I couldn't keep track of your Gift for even a whole Goddamned Month before Losing it!   Shit!!!

The Daughter and her Friend Mando are going to the Antique Mall now to scour all 55,000 sf of it to see if they can locate it there?   She has Eyes like a Rat, and she's already checked the whole House and couldn't locate it.   And she doesn't like to see me this upset about something I can't Find and Care about.  Okay, so I'll stop now before I make you all Crazy about it too.  *LOL and Le Sigh*   Moving On, becoz I just have to and resign myself to either it will turn up... or, it won't.  So, other than that everything is Swell.  *Bwahahahaha*   And that is a pretty nice Barrister Cabinet, No?   It was so Cheap, and I have to imagine it was once Oak, since, they usually are, and it looks to be quite Old, even the Modern Makeover couldn't disguise that it's a heavy Old Piece from late 1800's or early 1900's.   I Love these becoz I can Display so many Smalls in them and use them as my Cabinets of Curiosities.   I Sold so much of my larger Furniture when we Moved, including Display Cabinets, that I had to replace some since moving here.

 

Otherwise my Smalls would be all over the Floor and as it is I'm having a difficult time finding Placement for everything since, well, still Too Much.  And getting to Just Enough in the way of what I don't wanna get rid of, is now proving to be a longer haul than anticipated.   Now that The Daughter has Organized things in groupings, well, clearly there is still a lot that eventually will get Sold Off.  I think we're down on what will be Donated, that's easy to distinguish and just Box up and send out the same day when we're Editing and Culling stuff.  It's the harder decisions about what should be Kept and what I really need to still Let Go of.  I knew it would get harder at a certain point when the really Good Stuff is what is left to detach from too.   A part of me doesn't want to if I can still find Placement and Display it nicely, you know?   I enjoy it when it's all in Order, but it's not all in Order yet and will take most, if not all, of 2025 to reach proper Placement and then Edit and Purge even beyond that.

While at our Downtown Antique Mall Location I saw this 1969 Mattel Mystique Astrology Kit that I remember having when I was Younger, probably in my Teens.  I hadn't seen one since then and who knows whatever happened to mine during the many Moves since the late Sixties?  I know I don't still have it, but when I saw the Vendor wanted $120 I wished I'd kept mine.  *LOL*   My Case looked exactly like this one, but there was another version called Mystique Fortell Cards {pix below}, which also Online was Selling for $199!  I never had that one, but both Kits didn't have that much inside to command those kinds of prices IMO.  But, I guess the rarity and Nostalgia would drive what the Market will bear?  I don't Need to buy back my Childhood that badly.  *Winks*  But, it was Nostalgic to see another one and Remember having had one way back when.   I'll just Keep the Memories for Free.  *Smiles*

So, I Photographed the Ukrainian Eggs again, since, the originals are clearly now Lost with the Camera, where ever it is?   Nothing would make me Happier than The Daughter locating said Camera, but I am not getting my Hopes up too high in case she can't.  At least she's trying to.  And Mando is being a good Sport by helping and driving her to the Antique Mall to Search the whole place.  I was pretty Emotional so I know they didn't want me having to start my day like this, but, it happens, whaddya gonna do?   And The Man, Bless his Heart, Imagines he Remembers where I put it and states he saw me put it in the most bizarre places, so I had to gently ask him to just Stop.   With his TBI and Dementia he Imagines lots of things that never happened but he thinks they did and so the Stories he comes up with can be pretty Outrageous.  It's humorous when I'm not so upset.   But it's like hearing the Orange Cognitively Declined Addled One making Outrageous shit up all the time, at some point you just need them to Stop!!!   *Winks*

And now the incompetent Sexual Predator Hegseth, they put in charge of Defense and our Military, already had a major fuck up that threatens National Security and could put Lives of our Military and Recon Sources at grave risk.  The Signal Leak Scandal is epic carelessness of Top Secret information being intentionally breached by sheer incompetence and cavalier attitude about National Security and our Troops safety.   I doubt any Allies will want to share intel now and risk their people when everything is so loose and fucked up at the highest levels here now!  That fucker should just Resign immediately, he never had any business being installed, too many disqualifying factors from The Jump... and now this!   What does it take to remove these People, all of them... it's a Cluster Fuck and Clown Show of dangerous epic proportions all the way up to the Presidency and his whole Cabinet of unqualified Choices.  Nepotism at this level is downright gonna cause fatalities!

  

And those Parents of that poor Unvaxxed Child in Texas that Died of Measles, even tho' a completely preventable Death, the Family say they don't regret their decision!!!!!!!!!!!!    They should then be up on Charges of Neglect and Child Endangerment IMO, by refusing appropriate Medical Care for a Minor who had no Choice in the matter.  A preventable Death is just that, fucking PREVENTABLE!!!  That Child didn't have to Die horribly of a Disease we have a Vaccination to Prevent and has been successfully prevented for Half a Century until this Anti-Vax Craze took hold!   If this Administration is toying with the Idea of pretending to Care so much about the Unborn Child, by Prosecuting Women who Miscarry or have Abortions, then what about Protecting the actual Living Children already being endangered by Neglectful or Abusive Parents, IF they Care so much about "The Children".  

It's all so disingenuous and typical of those who Protest about the Unborn, which requires no real Involvement or Investment on their part... and yet don't give Two shits about Children already Born, becoz, fuck, that would require actual Involvement and Investment, wouldn't it?  No, let the Born Die while Saving non-viable Fetuses!   Hypocrites!!!  Listen, I'm Pro-Life and Pro-Choice, they're not mutually exclusive.  Tho' me and my Daughters would never have Aborted a Pregnancy and personally I do consider it a form of Infanticide... I don't Judge any Woman or Family who Chooses differently.   Their Bodies and what they will have to Live with doing, not mine.  May each Individual reckon with whatever they must and let it be between them and their Medical Professionals.  I don't have any Business getting involved with those decisions someone else must make.  

I've had unplanned Pregnancies and been a Single Parent whose Kiddos were abandoned by Deadbeat Dads.  Which included a Boyfriend before I ever got Married and then an Ex-Husband after a Divorce.  My Mom and The Daughter had Miscarriages, it's hard, Yes.  All of it.  I'm sure Abortions are too.  But for Parent(s) to allow their Child to suffer the Risks or the Death of something Preventable after those Kiddos are Born, well, there's something particularly twisted about that IMO.   The Parents didn't assume the Risk, their innocent Child(ren) does!!!   And Yes, I hear tell that the Family are of one of those Religiously Extreme Faiths that forbids them apparently to embrace Science and perhaps Modern Medicine... but when a preventable Death happens, of a Child or a Vulnerable Adult, there should still be Legal consequences for whoever made that Bad Decision that led to their PREVENTABLE Death.   That then offers some Justice and Consequence that Protects the most Vulnerable of Society from this kind of thing.  That didn't have to happen.

I'm getting most of the bad Political News from Friends.   Since, I haven't been watching much of The News on TV lately.  I just haven't been in the Right Head Space to absorb any more of the Fuckery and expose myself to the Negative toxic effects of it.   I'm still procrastinating on dealing with our Taxes and how grim that always has been in recent Years.  I remember when we got nice Refunds... and so I didn't mind Tax Time... but when you Owe and it seems you shouldn't, well, it's discouraging, to say the least.   The Son got to the point this Year of breaking even, he got $5 back when the dust settled... he used to get good Refunds too, so he's like, WTF?!   He had to go in to HR and ask them if there's any way to hold out more coz he doesn't want the Stress of Owing and risking not being able to Pay.  That's how we feel as well, each Year it seems we owe more and yet we still are supporting not just ourselves, but, Special Needs Adult Kids now too, Two of which had no Income to Support themselves, so their Needs were on our Dime as full blown Dependents still!

Yet Billionaires pay Nothing, go figure... that's just fucked up.  And it makes us resentful of even paying our fair share, and then some, if the affluent are getting away with not paying at all and have the ability to live so large.   They probably make more in a single Day that we make all Year with our Retirement Pensions and Social Security... or that most Salaried Working Stiffs make Annually either.  And I remember Years ago, when The Son barely made $15,000 that Year due to being Unemployed from the Trades and working at a Wal-Mart to get by, he got Audited for Two Weeks for a Ten Dollar mistake on his Taxes!  I shit you not... in their Favor... and they made a big fucking Deal out of the $10 and Lord knows how much the Auditor earned doing the Audit for Two Weeks to Collect it... plus The Son missed Work to be Audited... it was a Cluster Fuck of ridiculous Bureaucrazy.  To this day he has to get a Special Form from the IRS annually, in order to File his Taxes, due to an Identity Theft Years ago where someone filed with his Identity that they Stole!  Death and Taxes... the only Two sure things...

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I'm just really pissed off Today, Sorry... Dawn... The Bohemian