Banishing The Fuckery From Our Collective Consciousness

I got caught up enuf to actually Pre-Schedule a Post again, that hasn't happened in a very long while!   My Mental Fatigue is not as bad as my Physical Fatigue Post Stroke, so I'm able to enjoy Blogging when I don't feel I have Physical Stamina to do much right now.  Mentally I have some challenges still after having had the Stroke, I notice it probably more than most people would, but Princess T has commented a few times on what she's observing that I don't even notice myself.   She asked me if perhaps I'm having some Hallucinations and I could be.  She thinks I am.  A few times it's as if my Brain comprehends what I'm seeing as different than what it is and then it seems to morph into what it actually is!  My Mind playing Tricks on me was an unexpected side effect but if the Brain is damaged, it makes sense it's trying to be sorting shit out now.

An example, at the Grocery Store I was parking in my Space and the Truck in the next Space had it's Driver's Door still Open wide with what I SAW as a small Brown Spaniel Dog sitting on the Seat.  Well, the Woman Driver was fiddling around on the Passenger Side so I very slowly moved into my Parking Space, afraid the little Dog might jump out and I'd hit it.  Well, as I Parked, while still looking at said Dog, it wasn't a Dog at all, it was Brown Plastic Grocery Bags sitting on the Seat and moving with the Wind!!!  WTF?!  It's like what I thought was a fucking Dog morphed into Plastic Bags and it was freaky, I ain't gonna Lie.  It was disturbing, especially since my Grandchild had asked me just that Morning, only Hours beforehand, if I wasn't Hallucinating sometimes?  She felt sure I was but had hesitated to say anything.

I was so sure I'd seen a little Brown Spaniel up there that I even got out after Parking and looked to see if it hadn't jumped out and had been up there with what now was obviously Brown Plastic Bags with Groceries in them, that were moving with the high Gale Force Frigid Arctic like Winds that had picked up?  Nope, no Dog.  And, tho' it's not happening often, Dr. Google did say it's common after a Stroke, Hallucinations and Delusions, called Post-Stroke Psychosis, and may happen in 1 of 20 People.  Splendid!   The Man says he has them all the time post TBI, so, now I know what he's been Dealing with.  He sees a little Girl in a Pink Dress quite often and has no Idea Why and it bothers him coz he is alarmed by it when he sees her and knows, she's NOT Real.  But she sure as shit LOOKS Real enough every time he sees her! 

 He's even gone outside our French Doors to make sure a Kid wasn't actually there peeking in from our Back Patio, and too near the Pool to have a small Child safely out there!   We Joke she's the Ghost Child, but, it is distressing to him to see this Kid.   And I know for him there is a Back Story that is kinda Paranormal, he was a Twin, but his Twin Sister was Stillborn.    But I do feel he might have had a Connection to his Twin, they Shared a Womb for many Months after all.  I haven't asked or said anything, but perhaps the little Girl in the Pink Dress represents his Twin Sister's Spirit, I just don't know, but I don't think of it as a Negative or Bad Thing Spiritually or Paranormally.  And perhaps it is just a Hallucination or Delusion, we'll not really ever know for sure.  But, she's recurrent since his Near Death Experience, and at his near End of Life Season, so I doubt it. 

I fell down another Rabbit Hole doing some random Online Geneology Searches of Family History and possible Ancestry on my Dad's side, which has a lot of murky unknowns, total blanks and conflicting Word of Mouth accounts by various Relatives.  The Paternal Relatives are great Story Tellers so you can never tell fact from embellishments or they just made up what was a complete unknown and not Recorded, just told and handed down as factual.  It doesn't really matter, the Stories were rarely questioned and I really don't Care if they're refuted between various Family.  That happens on Mom's side too, conflicting Stories about Ancestry.  There's Free sites now, mostly Census Data.  I realized my Paternal Grandfather was an Enigma and a complete Mystery.  He Died quite Young in his 40's and my Dad never really knew him even before then.  

As Dad, his Mom and Younger Siblings ended up in Oklahoma on the Cherokee Rez and the Older Siblings and his Dad remained in the Vermont/New Hampshire area.  Vermont has State Recognized Tribes but New Hampshire does not.   And due to Colonization, which caused significant displacement of Indigenous Tribes, the lack of documentation makes it difficult to prove their continuous existence as Tribal entities.  I figure this is probably why my Ancestry Results came back 21% "Other Of Unknown Origins"?  *LOL, so, apparently those Companies fail to Recognize Non-Federally Recognized Tribes either as being Indians?*  Officially, Dad's Family were never "Federally" recognized as Indians.  So they had all of the Discrimination with none of the Federal Benefits of being Indians, as Dad always Joked.  And, he was Proud enough and comfortable enough in his own Skin and Cultural Identity not to be bothered by ignorance and Racism.  Very seldom did he even mention it, except to say it's insecure Humans who exhibit either, or both.

 The Indian Appropriations Act of 1871 effectively ended Federal recognition of 'new' Tribes, leaving most East Coast Tribes without official status or compensations/reparations and no Reservations.  Which, Reservations were pretty wretched and still mostly are, but at least were something that was given back to the Indigenous who had everything else stolen from them.  Very handy and Economical for the U.S. Government to deny the ability to have Land set aside for any of those East Coast Tribes to have any Sovereignty, Cultural placement or sense of Self being acknowledged at all.   So, Officially, we're NOT Native Americans.  *Bwahahaha*   Dad always found it Amusing that tho' he was a Native American, and treated as one his whole Life, as was all his Family, according to the U.S. Government they weren't "Officially" Indians.  The only Relatives we have that get the Tribal Benefits and are on the Rolls, are due to my Dad's People mostly marrying into the Federally Recognized Tribal Communities.  Dad Married a Non-Indian so never received anything Federally ever for being Indigenous.

 

Anyway, I'd always been told my Dad's Father was a Foundling, but research of him showed he had Five other Siblings, Four Brothers and a Sister... he was the 5th Born of the Six.  So, it's still quite possible he wasn't Kept, and another Family Raised him?  We know for sure my Welsh Gran-Gran, who was one of the Youngest of Eleven and the Younger Five were not kept by my Widowed Didi Kai Great-Grandmother and were Raised by a Chinese Family who were Childless.  It was Common I guess in their Era, especially to ensure Children didn't Die if you couldn't provide for them.  The Family Stories said the Paternal Grandfather had been Raised by a Childless Family who owned a Horse Ranch and the Foundling part could still be true if there was an abandonment of a very Young Child or Baby, we'll just never really know.  A Male Child would have been valuable on a Horse Ranch for a Childless Couple.  The Grandfather ended up owning many Horses, I had been told.

  That much could be True.  The only Two known Photos of him, in one he's with a Horse as an Older Man, in the other he's with a large Alsatian Dog as a Young Adult Man in a big Pasture.  He was a very muscular intimidating looking Man, with strong Native American Features, but, thick wavy Hair.  Which, I didn't think was typical for an Indigenous person, so I always assumed him to be Mixed Race, 'til I Googled that too and S-Wave, which is the Texture he clearly had, is actually quite common for many Native Americans.  An interesting Fact I did not know, it's actually a Myth that all American Indians have universally straight Hair.  I'm learning facts all the time via Google research, when your inquiring Mind Needs to Know.  *LOL*  I did know some Tribes like the Cree, commonly wore Dreadlocks.   And none of the Men in my Dad's Family could grow Facial Hair.  The Son struggled for Years to.  *LOL*

Another Ancestral Mystery to me was one of my Dad's Older Sisters, my Aunt Irene, I didn't know much about her, never met her.  I knew her to be Married to a Cajun/Creole in the 1950's, whose name was Amedee Nedeau.  I always thought he had a Cool Name tho', which is why I remembered it.  *LOL*  He was much older than my Aunt and had been Married before.   He died in 1966 and there was only the one Black and White picture of he and my Aunt that I ever had.  He was a good looking Man who looked like he might have been Mulatto, I don't know his Ancestral History at all, we barely know our own.  *LOL*  My Aunt was actually Darker complexion than he was tho', as most of my Dad's Siblings were very Dark complexion Indians.  Research showed all of those Cousins are now deceased, and quite some time ago.  I knew the one Cousin, Tommy, had Died in Vietnam in 1973 when he was about 20.   A lot of my Paternal side were in the Military, some made it a Career, some didn't and went back to the Rez.

 One of the Female Cousins of that Aunt had moved to Maui, but most of the Nedeau Family stayed on the East Coast in a generalized area it seems, I never knew any of them.  Never been to Vermont or New Hampshire.  Just my Cousins on the Rez in Oklahoma, where I had more contact and still do.  One unexpected fact turned up that Three of my Dad's Brothers had actually either Died or gone missing in Childhood, I knew of only Two.  But there was a Brother who was Born Two Years after my Dad that he never told me about.  Records showed he Died within his First Year, so that might explain why Dad never mentioned him.  You forget how high Infant Mortality was in their Generation and in some populations and demographics.  It's fascinating to me to learn more about Family Unknowns and fill in some Blanks.  Separating Myth from Evidence.  To pass along hopefully more accurate info.

Who knows how accurate anything is anymore tho', No?  The Misinformation Age is upon us and I don't think sorting all that out is gonna shake out real well now.  Proof, Evidence and Facts seem to matter less and less to some people as they just embrace Lies, Misinformation, Low Information, Fantasies and Conspiracy Theories galore.  I don't know that a large swath of America can even Handle the Truth anymore?  They prefer their Delusions, Illusions and whatever Made Up shit they've digested and now Believe as an "Alternate Reality" from Reality.  If it fits their narrative, they're okay with denying anything to the contrary to disprove it.  Even when confronted with actual Evidence and Proof that ordinarily would be convincing.  You really cannot be convincing enough to someone whose bought into a Lie or Alternative to Reality and now lives there in their Mind full time.

Last Night I actually began separating and Milk Crating Up some stuff laying about that I want to either Keep or Sell, but, get out of the Main House Living Spaces.  I do Need to get my Ass in Gear to Price some Inventory and bring it in to the Showroom and Locked Case.  If I do it in small increments, I should be able to whittle away at it, like eating an Elephant one bite at a time.  A hearty Meal to be sure, and rather overwhelming at times, but, who needs an Elephant in the Room full time to navigate around, Right?  *Winks*  By Monday I should know whatssup with my Heart and Monitor Results.  I already know my Neurologist would like to suggest to my Cardiologist that I should have a Monitor implanted.  It's not a Pacemaker or Defibrillator... it will just Record my irregular Rhythms.  Some abnormal Rhythms are more dangerous than others, they're trying to prevent another Stroke.

I'm trying to improve my Quality of Life with my Recovery, since, it's been greatly diminished, even tho' on the surface, I appear to be doing Well, all is NOT Well.   And it might just require Time, perhaps a lot of it, to Recover and reclaim that Quality of Life I had previously, I just don't know right now.  They don't seem to know either since one moment I was Fine... and then clearly I was not and almost Died.   So... it wasn't a progression that seemed evident and had a lot of advance Warning.  It wasn't like anyone was saying you're getting Sick or are Unwell, I felt Fine until I just didn't.   So, how to avoid that again is trickier, we're kinda Winging it right now really until we know more specificity.  Regaining Strength and Stamina, not being Short of Breath and Fatigued all the time, needing to Sleep a LOT, is the challenge right now.  Blogging doesn't wear me out but everything else seems to, which sucks.

My Right Eye either seems to be improving or I'm getting used to it.  I almost forgot about my Eye Appointment this Morning tho' so I was late!  Luckily it's a couple blocks from my Home and they said they'd still hold the Appointment even tho' I'd Spaced Out about what time to be there.  Actually, I'd Spaced Out about the whole Appointment but they said since it was after a Stroke, they wanted to still see me and not to worry about the Memory glitch.  They were so Kind and I really liked the Optometrist.  They did the most comprehensive Eye Exam I've ever had and said my Insurances will cover all of it, since, it's due to After Care for the Stroke.  Over Two Hours of Tests but great News, no damage from the Stroke to my Eyes or from Diabetes either.  *Whew*  He said my Eyes are in excellent Shape and my Brain just has to catch up to seeing how it used to thru them.  *Sigh of Relief*  He said for my Age my Eyes are in great condition actually.

So, that was great News and encouraging.  I didn't even have the Light Sensitivity after dilation.  They put like Five different Drops in my Eyes for the various Tests they needed to do, but, no ill effects from any of them.  Some Patients there were having far more serious Eye Problems, and most of them were Young, so I felt fortunate indeed.  Afterwards I went to a Dollar Tree Store that is nearby and had taken over the now defunct 99 Cent Only Stores that all Closed and were my Fav Dollar Store.  The Store is very big and this Dollar Tree doesn't keep it as tidy or organized, nor as stocked, as the 99 Cent Only Store did.  It was very messy, low on Stock, the one closer to us is always kept neat, well stocked and organized, so it must be the Management of that particular Store being slack.  I got some $1.25 Jimmy Dean Breakfast Bowls and Michelina Brand mini TV Dinners.

The Man can fix those for himself in the Microwave so doesn't need Supervision for those types of Meals to supplement when we Cook for him.   The Breakfast Bowls are quite good actually, hearty and take only 3 Minutes, very filling and tasty.   We had one once I got Home coz I hadn't eaten Breakfast with rushing to get there after I remembered I even had an Appointment this Morning!  I remembered only 2 Minutes before I was already supposed to be there!!!   And as a 1st time Patient, they prefer you to get there early to fill out your paperwork... so, I really blew it but they were so nice about it and fit me in anyway.  I didn't wanna hafta re-schedule since I got a lot of stacked up Appointments for all of this.  I don't have to see the Optometrist now for another Year.  Yay!

Another Nugget I gleaned from my Friends who are still watching The News {for me apparently, LMAO}, is that Psycho Prez apparently now wants an apology from a Female Bishop for telling him he should show Mercy to People!   OMG... as if you should have to apologize for such a thing as being asked to show Mercy!  Unbelievable and yet, not Surprising, given who he clearly is as a wretched Human.  Which speaks volumes more about him from a point of how Ungodly a Man he is, which most of us recognize that Fact.   Yet the Fundamentalist Religions seem to be able to Square Hatred and being Unmerciful, and treat him as a demigod with utmost Devotion to him as if he's their Orange Jesus, go figure!   She has held her Ground and her obligation to a Higher Power by saying she will not apologize for saying Mercy should be given to People.  Bravo!  So, of coarse she's on the Hit List of his Revenge and Retribution Tour now coz she wouldn't bow down to him instead of God.  He really does have a god complex, doesn't he?

But, I am still Glad I'm not having to see or hear any of his fuckery firsthand on The News.  I don't mind so much the tidbits everyone feels the Need to Share and talk about, since, it's not as if it's not important, it is in so many ways.  Limiting my exposure is just necessary for me right now and frankly I think the Media, overall, fixates too much on every insane thing he's doing or saying and it encourages him to do it more for the Attention he craves all the time.  I still don't think any of us should Obey in Advance, far too many seem to be.   You have to be able to Live with whatever you go along with, reflect upon that Fact.  Doing the Right thing is rarely the Easy thing, but, it's always the Right thing and easier to Live with.   I do feel the levels of incompetence and insatiable greed will be their ultimate downfall, it's just not sustainable to be this incompetent and greedy.  I look forward to their Marie Antoinette Moment, it will come... I Hope when it does they Live Stream it. *LOL*

  Elon's Nazi Salute making the rounds now and going Viral makes no pretenses about who and what he is all about.  He's quite giddy boldly doing it.  And tho' the Far Right's Spin to try to run damage control behind the Billionaire Man Child, is trying to tell us it's not what it looks like, yeah, yeah it is, it's exactly what it looks like.  We all know what it is, Globally they know what it is, and what we see when someone makes that infamous Nazi Gesture, we have no Doubts of what he's implying and what it represents.   He has a lot of minor devils disciples surrounding him, the only benefit being most are as incompetent and unfit for the Positions they will hold as he is this time around.  I plan a lot of Self-Care since the ascension of the devil wearing Orange, the next Four Years most of us should just concentrate on that, Self-Care, we'll all Need it, this is just the beginning of the coming fuckery. 

A lot of my favorite Bloggers are doing the same and also no longer watching the News or supporting Social Media Platforms owned by the Tech Bro's who are Kissing the Ring and Ass of the Orange Asshole.  If everyone NOT supporting this Administration did that, it would send a strong Message to the Wallets of the Bro's and hit them where it most hurts.  Sure, they got an obscene abundance of Riches, but nothing bothers a Rich Man more than seeing Losses and being a Loser, no matter how he might pretend it doesn't.   When you're seriously lacking in Character, a Moral Compass and other acceptable Human attributes, then the Money is all they really have going for them and they know it and thus define themselves by it and the Status they crave by having it, they are a Craven bunch.

The Daughter has been concentrating, at my insistence, on interior Main House Housekeeping in the Common Areas.  She's got a Home Nurse coming, since her Medicaid AHCCCS Health Plan now covers those, much like our Medicare Advantage Plan does.  She is more likely to have checkups if she doesn't have to go in somewhere, which tends to Trigger her Schizophrenia when a place/space is unfamiliar and people filled.  Her one Specialist Follow-Up Appointment had to be cancelled so many times now that we just quit re-scheduling it.  Clearly, she was reluctant to go so there was no longer any point and it was causing her a lot of stress and Anxiety to have it on the Calendar and then just not go and have to cancel over and over again.  Often she doesn't wanna know if something is Wrong with her and would magnify whatever it is to a point of hysteria, the Wheels would be Off Mentally, and that's not at all Helpful.

Anyway, The Daughter got the Livingroom in pristine condition, all of Christmas now put away from that Room too.   The Den/Sitting Room next to it will be done next, then the Dining Room next to that.  The Kitchen has already been Done.   We keep the Bathrooms pristine all the time, so, only everyone's Bedrooms are their own Responsibility to keep in Order.  The Daughter helped us with ours.  It could use more Work but I'll undertake that, she didn't want to overstep boundaries of our Private Sanctuary.  *LOL*   The Man has his little Corner around his Media Chair and it's like he's building a Fort around himself with his Book Stacks and Snacks, stacked Shirts since his flimsy Closet Rods eventually broke like mine had.  When they Remodeled and Modernized these Master Bedroom His & Her Closets, the Modern lack of Quality meant it was POS construction.  They should have left it 1980 Original IMO.  At least then it was built of real Wood & Metal, not Particle Board, Laminated Composites and Plastic.

Anyway, if and when I can afford a Closet Remodel in our Master, I'm going to do my Due Diligence to find a Company that uses Quality Materials that will hold up and last.   I've viewed a few Custom Closet Stores and seen some I do like that would Work for us, so, it's a matter of getting the Budget and Estimates done when ever it's possible to Green Light the Project and Solve the Problem.   When we get some other Home Repair Projects Paid Off is when I suspect we can think about any Home Improvements that aren't just replacing things breaking down that are larger Appliances or Repairs like Air Conditioners, Water Heaters, Water Softeners, Kitchen Appliances, Ductwork, Insulation, Electrical, Plumbing.   Yeah, all that Home Maintenance stuff that costs a Fortune and can't really be 'seen' or necessarily 'enjoyed' like a New Closet or other Home Improvement or Remodel would.  *Smiles*  We still have a Kitchen Drawer that has not been able to be fixed when a part broke we cannot now find a replacement part for!

The Son Works for a Custom Cabinetry Business but every one uses a different Style part for THEIR Cabinets, so our Custom Cabinets this Home was Remodeled with, don't interface with the Parts his Company has... dammit!  Not even close!   And of coarse the parts are made of Plastic these days no matter how expensive the Custom Work was, so they easily break down and fail.  Had that part been Metal, it would have lasted a Lifetime and that would just not do of coarse.  No Money in things lasting Forever, or inexpensively being able to be Repaired, so Functional Obsolescence is how everything is made these days.  When I do this I Need it to last until at least I'm gone and it's on someone else's Dime to do it all again.  *Smiles*

I was looking Online at the 36% increase in Egg Prices they claim is happening as an Average but it's not very accurate considering what I'm seeing cracking under the pressure in Arizona.  They're saying the Average price is up over $6 State by State and I'm seeing it up to $9-$12 Locally, which is far, far higher than they're letting on and Reporting.  Even at Six that's way up and further than Seven would mean I'll not be buying any at that inflated price point.  They did acknowledge it's gonna get worse before it gets better, so at least they were Honest about that.  But if their Reporting was accurate I think they assume panic would set in.  About other Prices rising exponentially less than a Week in to a new Administration that isn't likely NOT to make things even worse?   Anything Bad the Imbecile and his Flying Monkeys can make Worse.  But, People are going to their Stores and if their Eggs are up like ours are, they know the Reporting is inaccurate OR that their State is price gouging badly and exploiting the Situation.

They say the 45 Day Rule and Free Range Rule in some States drove up Prices, and of coarse Bird Flu now, but I can tell a Consumer Gouge when I see one... and... Inaccurate Reporting.   Most Eggs Locally around here are produced less than an Hour away, so it's not like transport and import is causing anything around Metro Phoenix.  Hickman's is the largest Egg Company in the Southwest.  There's at least 11 other Small Indie Farm Producers that I know which have Free Range and Pasture Raised small Flocks and Sell the Eggs.  Along with Mini Farm Production anywhere we have Residential Agricultural small Farms like ours, where a Family has a few Chickens and Sells their excess/overage of whatever they're Producing, but, aren't a Business.  There's also a few Indie Agricultural Pet and Farm Supply Shops that Sell anything Small Farms need along with Livestock to Buy.  Either Chicks or full grown Chickens available of numerous Breeds to choose from.

I'm not to the place yet to wanna Raise Chickens myself.  But my Grandson has Raised them before on a Communal Hippie Farm in Washington State before.  They grew and Raised everything they Needed for the Commune.  So, if any of the Kids or Grandkids wants to start a small venture on our Acreage to Raise some Chickens, they just have to do the Work and outlay for it.   But, with a Bird Flu raging, I'd caution against it right now until they find a way to fight this Animal Plague.  Reminds me of when we were in Europe and they initially had Mad Cow Disease.  People just quit eating Beef and most Farmers quit Raising them for Meat or Dairy due to the outbreak, which was devastating.  There's fewer than 1,000 Cases of that Annually now in the U.S., allegedly, and there is no Cure and it can transmit to Humans who partake of an infected Cow's Product.  In Grass Fed Cows it's lower infection rate... it's caused by an abnormal Protein.

I remember watching a very Interesting Documentary when they first realized what Mad Cow Disease was and were trying to find out the Cause.  Well, in New Guinea a similar Disease afflicted Tribal Cannibal Populations of People.  So, they figured it could be due to feeding Cows Animal Proteins since Cows aren't meant to be Carnivores or Cannibals.  I don't know if the Research ever went further than the parallels they discovered in that Population of Humans that had a similar Disease that was afflicting the Cows, but, it makes sense.  Especially since it's an abnormal Protein Disease, Cannibalism is unnatural in most Species, tho' not all, some Animals do Cannibalize their own and feed on a Diet that is inclusive of their own Kind.  But for Cows, they should be eating Plants, not Meat.  So forcing them to eat any Meat By-Product could be causing Diseases they wouldn't normally have eating what they should be eating that is Natural to them?

 

I am going to focus on sorting stuff out Today in the House and Crating it up to be put away in either The She Shed, to be eventually put into Inventory, or in The RV Garage Mahal if I am Keeping it but don't want it in the Main House.  There is a Donation Box going too, since some things I'm just Donating to be done with it quicker.  The Daughter said she'd help me with this Project and do the Physical Work if I do the Mental Work of Deciding which is to Keep, Sell or Donate.  She wouldn't know, it's not her stuff.  *LOL*  She can get so much more done than I can and has been invaluable to me with what she's doing on my behalf.  Her Friends come over and do a lot of Work alongside her too, which I really appreciate having Volunteers that don't have to come over and voluntarily do so much Work for us to be of Help.  They say they like coming over to visit and we often include them in Meals, so, they want to do something beneficial to Help us out during a difficult time.

The Daughter is also uncovering a lot of stuff I Forgot I even had in my Collections.  It's been so long since some of it has been unpacked and found again that it's like Christmas.  *LOL*  I do have some Cool stuff that hasn't been seen in a long while.  And, whatever the Kids and Grandkids would like to have, I tell them to ask me about it and I'll just let them have it now.   Most of the time I don't Care if it's theirs now or mine, with just a few exceptions.  Plus, these ones Helping me out, they're all Living here anyway, Right?  So, what does it matter?  *Bwahahahahaha*  The Man is annoying me right now by putting the fucking News on at 7:30 in the Morning... and he knows I don't wanna watch The News anymore!  He NEVER used to watch the News, so to be Fixated on watching it now makes zero sense except to get a reaction out of me.  Especially when you KNOW they're gonna cover Politically controversial shit now going on.  *Le Sigh*  Usually he's watching NCIS or Hawaii Five-O Reruns, go back to that will ya... I don't wanna know what crazy shit the Orange Fuck is doing and saying!!!  *LOL and Eye Roll* 

So, now I had to fucking hear how the Orange Asshole is already Bullying the Trans Community with Executive Orders that there's only Two Sexes America will recognize.   Lord have Mercy, AS IF that actually improves Real Daily Life problems Americans and America is facing.  Or is so crucial in the first Order of Business to spend Money and Time on. *Eye Roll*  It's really just to be Targeting a small vulnerable Marginalized and already Maligned group of Humans and appease Hateful Homophobes, who seem far too Fixated on the Sexuality of other People, which is just Weird IMO.  And, he is demanding opening up what the Government has on the Assassinations of both Kennedy's.  As if that too is vitally Important???  *Eye Roll*  Well, I suppose that's for the benefit of Bobby's Crazy Worm Brain Eaten Kid he's now got in his Cabinet?  *LOL*  Coz, I don't know how many other Americans are currently Fixated on what happened way back in the 1960's or even Care in 2025?  Of coarse, when you Represent Voters who are Obsessed with Conspiracy Theories, perhaps they Need to Know, so... mebbe it will distract them enuf to not Care what he's Not doing that he should be doing and IS far more crucial and Important???!!

And THAT is precisely Why I'm NOT personally interested in watching The News at all, not Local, not National.   And I did tell The Man that if he persists in turning it on, do it in a Room I'm NOT in.  If he wants to begin his Day with Doom and Gloom, go ahead, but I don't choose to begin my Day with any of it for the next Four Years of what is likely to be perpetual Chaos and Political Fascism playing out Daily in Leadership.  It might give his Cult a Hard On in their perverse Mindsets, but, No Thanks.  I don't hang out with his Cult Members so I don't have to hear any of it being spewed like vomit.  I find it as revolting and gross as that actually.   Keep their Hate to themselves and their Politically Extreme Perversions.  The Support and Excuses for and of Sexual Deviants who have been Convicted of Sex Offenses tells me enuf about any of his Supporters that I Need to know about them too.  All by itself and apart from all the other things that should never been Excused or Supported.

                                 

And I do not Need to be titillated by Political Theater and constant Insane Outrageous Ramblings and Controversies as a form of Entertainment or as a Distraction from Reality.  I'm still tethered to Reality and discerning enough to not Believe anything and everything offered up.   I want Solutions to Real Problems and expect Leadership and our Government to be about Solving them. Not filling the Positions with their Bro's, and inept folks not only unable to be up to the Jobs, but, who act like they're in some Cheesy "Reality" Show they're Contestants in, with the Head Washed Up Has Been Cheesy Reality Show Villain and Host of all time.   Whose a Big Fake that was Invented for Ratings and his Big Grift that has always sustained him, but has never been what he claims to be.  But, is a consummate Conman with a knack for Theatrical Claims that a great many clearly and desperately wanna Believe, who knows Why?   When I have talked to any of them, they are pretty Far Out There in other stuff they cling to and also Believe, it's just very Weird. 

I did convince The Man to leave this Room and go watch the Shitshow on TV in a Room I'm NOT in.  By Calmly saying, Listen, if I start the Day with any of this shit in my Head, expect me to be an agitated Ratchet Bitch all Day Long, so, do you REALLY want Dark Dawn Today?  Apparently he did not since Dawn Of The Light, who does not watch The News now, is much easier to spend a Day with, Trust and Believe.  *Winks*  I will have the Joy of Jesus in my Heart becoz I haven't filled my Head with any of the fuckery going on in Amerikkka right now and I simply don't wanna Know anymore.  Amerikkka made it's Choice and will be stuck with it and the consequences thereof.   That's Reality right now and frankly having to Live thru it will be Enough... without torturing and tormenting ourselves with the constant coverage of it and letting it, and by It, I mean him, Live Rent Free in our Heads anymore.  It will make you too Melancholy and potentially despondent otherwise, and who Needs to remain in that Head Space and State Of Mind?  Not me...

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We should be banishing the Fuckery from our Collective Consciousness, we'll be better off for having done so my Friends, and concentrating on what Greatness REALLY is that America is capable of if we don't lose our way for too long and go too far astray... Dawn... The Bohemian