Channeling Autumnal Vibes Early

Even tho' it's the 18th of August in Real Time, in Unpublished Post Time I'm on to September 4th now.  *Bwahahahaha*  I like the duality of it, I don't know why, I'm Weird like that I guess.  Well, in other ways too, I know I'm a total Weirdo and enjoy unusual things that few would understand the Appeal of.   I've got The Man making our Bed right now, he does it Military Style, you could bounce a Quarter off the Sheets when he's finished.  *Smiles*  Usually we leave it unmade coz each of us takes Naps so we don't usually bother to make it.  But, it is True that the Condition of your Bed shows the Condition of your Head, so, Today I felt like we should have it looking Made and Pretty.  *Winks* 

 Yes, I'm in a good and Positive Head Space for a change so I take advantage of those days when I am very Optimistic and Energized Emotionally and Mentally.  Physically it can be iffy, with the dampness I have a lot of Pain in my Bones and Sciatica.  So, I'm rubbing lots of the MJ Products Rusty and Princess T got me on to take the edge off the Pain.  Even if it's just a placebo, I don't Care, honestly, coz it can be so Painful I Need to THINK something is Working.  *LOL*  My Dad always used his Mind to alleviate Pain, he always told us Pain was a figment of your Imagination so you CAN override it with the Power of your Thoughts.  It's why Crazy folks can be unphased by what happens to their Bodies... and why a Placebo will work.

Anytime I had to give the Kiddos something for Pain they had I'd always tell them I couldn't give them very much of it, coz it was really Strong.  Now, it wasn't, but they didn't know that, and so they THOUGHT it was really Strong and whatever I then gave them of whatever it was, worked Fine for them.  The same with The Man, now his Brain is addled, if I give him something when he's complaining of Misery, I tell him I can't give him very much of it coz it's very Strong, and it makes him Calm and feeling like it took Care of whatever Misery he was having.  Shush, don't tell any of them, tho' perhaps they don't read the ole' Blog, so my Secret is Safe with you and I.  *Bwahahahaha*  Yes, it is deceptive, but, often I had nothing I could give them for intense suffering, and didn't want them addicted to Pain Management Opioids, so, you work with what you have.

I had thought about doing Environmental Cleanup this Morning, but then I remembered that The Man has his VA Nursing Home Help Evaluation Today to reinstate Services.   She comes at Noon, so I wanted to finish housekeeping, coz I'd had Inventory scattered everywhere it didn't belong.  *Le Sigh*  And so now everything is looking presentable, coz I know they evaluate us Old Folks Homes as well as how capable we are of Caring for ourselves and our conditions.  I also did some Grocery Shopping, mostly for Fresh items and staples we use a lot, still came to over $200, even with getting most of it on Sale.  But we're well stocked up now for the rest of the Month.

I had to argue with the Grocer Cashier coz they'd put the wrong product by the Sale Signs.  They'd put Buy 3 get 3 Free in a big Sale Sign with a Big Arrow on an Endcap Display of the Wrong Product.  Customers can't know they made a Mistake, so I thought, great, I'll get Six and only pay for Three.  The Cashier argued with me that it wasn't that product on that Sale, I told her their Display said it was and that was the only product there with the Sign.  I took Pictures and went to Customer Service and the Lady there agreed, their Mistake, confusing for Customers, so she comped me the Sale pricing.   It was a $12 Savings, so considerable enuf to Call them Out on it.  I told the Kid setting up the Display too that he was putting the Wrong product with the Sale Sign.  I don't know they'll bother to fix it?

So, that was my early Morning battle for the day.  *Winks*  I got Berries, just in case they all go up and not just Strawberries.  So we have Strawberries, Raspberries, Blackberries, Blueberries and they had some Pineapple Spears on Sale too.  They had Red Chicken Tamales half price so I got a Dozen of those.  And they had the Spicy Italian Sausage from their Butcher Shop, on a deep Discount too so I got Two packages of 10, they were only $3.24 each, and we'll make Spaghetti Sauce with them a couple times with having 20 of them.  They had lean Hamburger for 50% Off so I got that too to make Chili with.  I don't know why they were having such a Meat Special, but perhaps folks are afraid to eat Meat right now with all the contaminants being out of Check due to this incompetent Regime cutting FDA Staffing?  I see Commercials now touting Parasite Cleansing Products!!!  Yikes!

I got some Bakery items on Sale, mostly a variety of Muffins and an Almond Poppyseed Loaf.  Anyway, got it all done early before things really heat up coz they're expecting 116 degree Heat again Today.  After his Nurse from the VA comes to do his Eval I think we'll go Trade In our Aluminum at the Recycling place and get some Cash, I have the whole back of my Truck full.  The Man is pretty Happy that the VA Nursing here at Home will resume, I am too, Nurse Remi took really good Care of him and helped our whole Family out actually.   Anyway, his Mood is borderline Today, so I can tell he's struggling.  I had him helping put Groceries away and he was cursing doing it.  Obviously confused about what to put where in the Fridge, so The Daughter took over so he wouldn't have a Meltdown before his Nurse comes. 

And when he made the Bed this Morning, instead of his usual Quarter Bouncing doing it right and tight, it was all lumpy and I think he left some Pillows and Blankets under there in a pile.  *LOL and Eye Roll*  Oh well, if he's at least trying I still have him doing little things so he's not Opting Out of helping around the House and glued to the TV nonstop.  Which will just make his Brain go more to mush and his Body go to Hell with inactivity.  We're trying to slow down the progression of his deterioration as much as is possible.  He'll grumble about being asked to do virtually anything anymore, like a Teenaged Boy would, but I still tell him to Help out anyway, even if we have to redo it afterwards.  It's the discipline of him remaining somewhat Active and having to Think things through, that is what I'm instilling. 

Anyway, his Nurse will be here in an Hour and I don't think I'll drag him along to do my errands afterwards coz I can tell it's not a Good Day for him at all.  He's giving everyone the Stink Eye early for some reason, we never know what's going on inside his Head.  He was agreeable to taking all his Meds and Shots {Tuesdays he has to take Two Injections}, eating his Breakfast and a Muffin as a Treat after Breakfast, so, at least he's Medicated, fed and watered until Lunchtime.  We usually just leave him alone to watch his Reruns of his Shows and then he's Content with his Routine being uninterrupted.  Very early this Morning he was in a Good Mood, but it deteriorated rather fast for some reason.  You never know Why???   And I'm Blogging in our Bedroom, so, now that everything is mostly done, and The Son is Home from Work in his Room, and The Daughter has been Home, I have Backup for his Caregiving and we take turns Dealing with him.  *Smiles*

I've been following that high profile Trial of the Young Mom of Three who had Post-Partum Depression and obvious other Serious Mental Health Issues who Killed all Three of her Kids Aged 5, 3 and a few Months Old.  What slays me is she'd been under the Care of Shrinks and Therapists for a long time, was on Psyche Meds, communicated to the Husband and her Mother that she was overwhelmed and feeling like she wanted to hurt the Children.  Listen, when my Schizophrenic Daughter had her Kiddos, and when she told me ONCE that she didn't like how her Newborn was Looking at her, we unanimously decided it was time for me to Raise them and have a Kinship Placement! 

 Her Psychiatrist and The System was in Agreement, she and the Kiddos Fathers were in Agreement it was Best and Safest for the Kids and her, so voluntarily relinquished Custody to me, and the other Younger Three to Gramma Saint Maria in Mexico, but you do have to Push for that.  The Mental Health and Penal Systems will not handle things well otherwise, it's all Punitive for Punishing only, and doesn't ever really focus on the Competency or Treatment of the Individual who isn't in their Right Mind.  Someone in a Psychotic Break cand and will do things that normally they probably would never do if not impaired by the Mental Illness Symptoms they are experiencing.  To just Punish for an Illness makes for very little Justice Served.   It is Unjust to Punish someone for an Illness they have, which has no Cure, and the Symptoms they suffer from it.

 And if the Crime is horrific enuf, like Killing Three Innocents, even if it could have and should have been prevented, all the DOJ will do is Prosecute within the Scope of the Laws, and so that Society will feel appropriate Punishment is meted out.   Yes, that Young Mother is Guilty of Killing her Children, there's no disputing that, she isn't even disputing that, she did it... but Why she did it and what Mental State she was in when she did it, leading up to doing it, what and who let her Down by not taking appropriate Actions to Protect her and those Children, is the Real Story here.  Families who try to get Help for their Mentally Ill Loved Ones will tell you, it's not as easy as Needing the Help and Asking for it.  Clearly this Family already did that for a long time... it didn't Prevent this Tragedy coz not enuf was done that could have been.

  I do not presume to think the Husband or the Gramma of the Kids could have done a lot more than they did.  Especially if the Mental Health System overall failed to address the Situation the whole Family clearly was dealing with and didn't get appropriately resolved.   I know when I'd call the Crisis Hotline for Mental Health {have had to do so numerous times over several Decades of having Seriously Mentally Ill Loved Ones}, you have to Learn exactly what to say to even get a Response.  Let alone a timely one during a real Mental Health Crisis.  When they'd ask, do you think the Individual could be Suicidal or Homicidal?   I Learned never to elaborate of speculate, my ONE Word Answer was simply, "YES!".  Then the Cavalry will show the fuck up, otherwise, probably not and they definitely won't give it a Priority. 

 And I'd want Mental Health showing up and not just the Cops.  In fact, I'd rather the Cops never show up on a Mental Health Crisis Call.  Why?  Coz the Cops are poorly Trained to know how to respond or even know what to do appropriately and without lethal force once they arrive.  So, they tend to just shoot SMI People and then you could end up with a Dead Seriously Mentally Ill Loved One instead of any actual Help that you called for, which is also why many Families never Call for Help.  And I don't doubt that Emergency Services don't like having to respond to such Calls coz they're highly dangerous and unpredictable Calls to handle, even if you have experience and adequate Training.  Anyway, I figure this Young Mom will end up either Imprisoned and never get Mental Health Help there... or Institutionalized, which may be only slightly better... but not by much... Mental Institutions are horrible and abuses, predatory crimes, and neglect abound, just like in Nursing Homes.  But when Families and the Afflicted are Begging for Help and don't Receive it, whose really to Blame?  Society demands Blame be placed somewhere.

Nurse just left, everything is good, they're putting in an Order to resume his OT and PT too thru the VA, so we don't have to worry about other Insurance Approvals, all Home Help is from the VA and Approved for him.  *Whew*  We discontinued one other Medication coz it's a duplicate of another one Dr. Pham, his Civilian Cardiologist, would prefer him to be on instead, and you can't take both.  So, all Meds are sorted out satisfactorily too now.  *Whew*   Nurse Remi will start coming every Tuesday again now for as long as the VA Approves her visits.  Which, since he's doing so well with Home Help, and it's beneficial to me as his Caregiver, I think they will keep it all in place now.  It helps me to understand what he's required to take and to do and why, coz I'm not a Nurse or a Doctor or a Pharmacist.

I'm now not feeling like driving to the Recycle Center after I pick The Granddaughter up from Work coz I'm tired and have done enuf Todaying for Today... it happens.  By around 3:30 p.m. or so I'm too Wound Down to do much else in the way of things needing to get Done, it can wait.  *LOL*  Thursday Morning the Roofer and the Insurance Adjuster will be here to examine the Roof together and discuss what HAS to be done to it.  I don't want hassles with the Insurance since their Deductible is already fucking Crazy High at $5,500 per Claim, which is just ridiculous IMO.  That's a lot of damage to leave NOT covered by your Policy, which, Homeowners Hazard Insurance Monthly Premiums is already exceptionally high IMO even if you never have a Claim, which, we never have until now.   So, I feel like we're Paying for all the Catastrophic Events Nationwide in areas that sustain heavy damage all of the time.  But, it is what it is, if you have a Mortgage you must Insure the Property, it's not Optional, it's Mandatory to pay Taxes and Insurance on it with your PITI combined Monthly.  *Le Sigh*

I have my Event that same Morning, so my Hope is they get what they need to do done quickly so I can leave for my Event and still get good Parking?  It's gonna be tight to tho'.  *Dammit*  Sometimes too much is on the Calendar all of the time with no wiggle room.   I don't Plan on making any purchases at the Event, coz I don't have Need of another damned thing, but I'm going to have some Quality "Me Time", which I do Need.   And Blog Fodder Fresh Imagery, which I also do Need.  *Winks*  Plus, that is Coverage for my Friends at the Event and that Advertisement on Social Media is Priceless to all of us Vendors, Artisans or Designers who are Small and mostly struggling to keep going.  None of us are in the Billionaires Class, so... it's a Struggle in this shitty Economy while the Elite prosper even more and shamelessly.  I don't begrudge anyone being Wealthy, but I do feel they all should pay their Fair Share and they don't.  

 Social Security would never go Bankrupt if everyone earning over $400,000 Paid the same percentage of their Income into it as a Ordinary Citizen is required to of our Income.   And the IRS should focus on recovering the Money the Wealthy aren't Paying of the Taxes they actually Owe instead of Auditing the little People instead to Collect a pittance of what's Owed and not being Paid.  And we should be Hiring the best Attorneys in the Country to Represent the American People so that the Elite lose in Court every fucking time with their Fancy Lawyers.  And they don't Play The System like they do without severe Penalties for doing so... including Imprisonment, no matter Who they are or Who they Know or Blow.  

This President should be Incarcerated for his many Crimes, Period, nobody should be Above the Law, NOBODY.  Put his Ass in Solitary with a Single Guard for his "Protection" for as long as his Sentence should be Served.  Seize all of his Assets that were illegally procured.  That would be Justice.  That would instill more Confidence in our Judicial System.  He's like a Parasite or a Malignant Tumor we need to rid our Nation of.   With how corrupted it all is now due to this Criminal Leadership, I have Zero Confidence in our DOJ right now and who has been installed to lead it.  And we already know half the Justices on the Supreme Court have been Bought and Paid for, Owned by MAGA.  And having spend my 2nd Career in Criminal Justice, it pains me to say that, it really does.  But corrupt Leadership infects and infests everything it touches like a malignant Disease.   And America right now seems Terminally Ill from the Cancer that has invaded it.  And whether we Survive it or not remains to be seen...

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Trying to remain Hopeful and channeling Autumnal Vibes is helpful... Dawn... The Bohemian