New Levels And New Devils

 

Well, the annoying prompts pop up continuously now to try using Beta, META, AI and whatever other shit I don't Trust and don't wanna use.  I keep declining, I don't like how intrusive it already is and there's nothing about it that makes me feel it's a good idea to use and get to freefalling down that Rabbit Hole.  As it is the algorithms and whatever other Governmental intrusions into our Lives is making me all the more cynical that our rights and privacy have been violated without our consent to intrude.  The Son did show me some AI generated Music that you can't tell isn't a Real Artist.  You plug in any popular Song and ask AI to generate a new version of it using a different Genre, its results are both amazing and concerning.

He plugged in a Rob Zombie Song "Dragula" and told AI to generate a version like a 1970's Soul Genre style Song using the Lyrics.  The results were scarily impressive and even generated a fake Older Human Soul Singer with Dreadlocks singing it.  You could not tell it was all Artificial and for Human Artists this has to be eerily portending bad things for the Future of their Industry!?!   Seriously, I would have looked for a Real Artist and wanted to Buy that Song or listen to it streaming, yet it was all faked and an illusion.  The rendition was almost better than the original, and I Love me some Rob Zombie... but this fake Artist AI generated was exceptional on remaking the Song in a whole other Genre of Music!!!  Creepy!!!

I spent the Evening looking at Old Episodes of "Halloween Wars" just so I didn't have to watch any more of The News, which is all horrible and horrific.  A Pastor brutally being shot in the Head with a Pepper Ball projectile out of a Gun, by ICE Agents up on a Rooftop like Snipers shooting Fish in a Barrel, into the Crowds below them of Peaceful Protestors, while he was only harmlessly Praying for them!  It was all caught Live on Video and Streamed, so there can be no actual fake Spin put on it.  But the Administration immediately tried to, saying the Crowd was violent, threatening, Insurrectionists, and throwing Rocks and Bottles at the Agents... which, wasn't True, any of it, we could see with our own Eyes what actually happened.

The Troops being sent to Portland are holding the Line between Artisan Kombucha Stands and Vegan Co-Ops, it's all so hyperbolic and completely unnecessary waging an Urban War against Peaceful U.S. Citizens in a City that poses no Threat to National Security or Democracy.  What was a National Security Threat and definitely an attempt to overthrow Democracy and interrupt a Peaceful Transfer of Power happened that fateful January 6th.  And he not only didn't send in Troops, he instigated the Insurrection and then Pardoned the Violent Felons who were Tried by Juries and Convicted of serious Crimes against Capitol Police and coming to harm Elected Officials who were in Fear of their own Lives.  They wanted to hang his Vice President and had set up Gallows!   Many people were seriously harmed, some Killed, he did NOTHING about any of that tho'. 

And it's not just Portland, and it could soon be coming to a City near you soon.  Since, he has said he'd like to use our American Cities as a Training Ground for our Military, just WTF!?  What exactly would that entail pray tell?  The Military are Trained to neutralize Enemies, that's what they do and what their usual Training entails.  So, I can only surmise he means he wants to harm or kill ordinary Urban American Citizens as a fucking Training Exercise by our own Military?!  In Blue Cities of coarse, well, for now, who knows who he'll turn on next... even MTG is starting to push back against some of this now and I never thought I'd say I'd Agree with HER,  But, protecting Pedophiles apparently is her Line in the Sand he's crossed along with most of the Party.  Of coarse now there's possibility of Epstein Estate held Photos of the Prez with underaged half naked Girls.

If Epstein had that kind of Goods on lots of Powerful folk in his Vaults, as leverage and as potential Blackmail, it's no Wonder he was hanged and handily disposed of before too much Discovery was revealed and put the kibosh on any Trial.  Plus, Dead Men don't Talk and so he was Silenced for good, or so they thought, it's come back to really Haunt them tho', now hasn't it?   The Innocent have nothing to Hide from, but the Guilty sure as Fuck do.   I always said there was too much of a hurry to make that whole Case just Go Away, hoping the Public would Move On and nothing more would be dredged up about the Bad Actors involved.  It reached much further than the United States, to be sure.  It reminded me of the Tapes that Heffner kept of the Sexcapades of Famous and Prominent People he Recorded and used as leverage and as Favor.  That habit only came out as evidence after he was Dead too. 

 

I'm pretty certain more heavy hitters have The Goods on Donnie Two Dolls, which is why he kowtows to some of them so much, like Putin.  A notorious KGB Guy would definitely know how to Own someone like him and Lord it over him.   Anyway, whether something like that will ever be leaked and made Public is anyone's Guess, or Destroyed if he pays someone enuf to do it.   He's been known to make big Payoffs to folks to keep it from being made Public or to avoid Prosecution before.  Far too many folks can be Bought if the Price is right and someone with Deep Pockets can afford whatever Bribes or what it takes to do Dirty Deeds.  The Old I'm Not For Sale BUT I Can Be Bought goes into Play.  The tangled Web he's woven casts a very Dark Shadow, Trust & Believe.     

But, I was watching my "Halloween Wars" Reruns so that I didn't have to torment myself with whatever Fuckery had happened from the White House and against the American People that day while I was Napping.  *Eye Roll*   Wouldn't it have been so much easier and better for us all had the Election gone the other way and we'd of instead had a Normal Presidency with a competent decent Leader and Cabinet in place?   I mean, if enuf folks in America had ONLY been able to Get Over that she was a Woman... oh, and Black... since, that was the MAIN reason they Voted for an Adjudicated Geriatric Addled White Sex Offender and Career Criminal whose a Psychopath instead, and we all know it.  Ah, America, we have so much further to go to Get Over some deeply imbedded ugly shit, don't we?  *Bigger Eye Roll & HUGE Sigh*

Listen, just being a Woman will disqualify you for so damned much still, let alone being a Historically Oppressed Minority too!   Did anyone really think America had Evolved so much it would Get Over that to Elect her?  I Voted for her, I really wanted her to Win with every ounce of my Being, and I'm not even a Democrat and never have been Partisan or Political, but, I knew beforehand it would be akin to Voting for an Independent.  And I've Wasted my Vote NUMEROUS Years doing THAT too, knowing, they'll never fucking Win, Independents and Moderates are NOT Represented, but, whatever, I'm making a Statement.   I did, I know some of you really thought she could and would Win against HIM, given his fucking History and abysmal 1st Term and the unbelievable Fuckery, the attempted Coup, and all that.  But, Honestly, I knew it would take more than America had in us as a Collective to do the Right thing.  Even tho' it was a Given that 2.0 could only be Worse and escalate the Hate, the Fuckery to new levels and new Devils.

 

I don't Sugarcoat Shit, I'm not gonna pretend a pile of Shit can turn into a pile of pure Gold either and make you better off.   And I'm not gonna hand you a pile of Shit and tell you it will be such a Blessing and be anything but what it actually is.   Now, if you can't tell Shit from Shinola then I don't know what to say to you actually, I have no Words.   That Term actually means someone who is completely ignorant or unintelligent... and for the uninformed of some American colloquialisms, Shinola is a Brand of Dark Brown Shoe Polish of the Early 20th Century and the Term uses it in contrast with feces due to their similar Color and smearing consistencies.    It implies that a person is so Clueless that they cannot even distinguish between Two Dark Smeary Substances, let alone something far more Obvious.  TED Talk now over.  You're Welcome, coz, someone has to just Say it, even if some Americans refuse to Hear it, Right?! *Winks*

I couldn't get my Ombre etched Dia de los Muertos Bottle when I went back to the one "World Market" that had the right amount of both Pink and Purple Hand Painted on it, since, they only had One and it had Sold... dammit.   So, I searched for another World Market and had to traverse the Valley to find one after our one nearby had mysteriously Closed... and the ONE they had left had almost all Pink, so I regret not having Bought the One above instead when I was Buying my Ombre Green Painted One, hindsight now being 20-20.   Non-Buyers Remorse, what can I say, so, I had to just get the less desirably Painted Pink One they had left at the other location.  Didn't wanna make the same Mistake Twice and not Buy at all then regret that too!  *LOL and Winks*  Hey, if by Chance I see a Bottle like the one above in a "Total Wine" or "Bevmo", I'm Scoring it and will then have Three.  In fact, great Mission Statement for the Day, go to each of those Stores and look to see if they have these???  *Ha ha ha*  I'm really preferring the One I DIDN'T GET!

 

I have Two Alcoholics in the House that will drink the Wine for me and I really only want the Bottles for my Dia de los Muertos Altars.  Yes, I could keep the Wine in them and just Age it, but, whatever... I'm totally Manic and Unhinged when it comes to my Collections and Why I Want something or think I even Need it!  *LOL*  And who knows, if this American Horror Story in the White House gets worse and worse, mebbe I'll Need to become a Wino and a raging Alcoholic going on The Warpath myself coz I hit The Fire Water and don't Care anymore where it might take me or whose Scalps I go for?!  *Winks*   And, I NEED a Field Trip destination Today coz I've been trying to talk myself out of Needing to go all the way across the City to The Desert Botanical Gardens coz it looks like a Storm is moving in.  Last thing I want is some Outdoor Activity I've pursued being Stormed Out and a Bad Idea while I'm actively doing it.  Becoz even tho' the Monsoon Season is over, it came so late that it's decided to hang around later than usual now.

 

I saw the Cutest Live Video from a Police Body Cam shot in Arkansas by a State Trooper who pulled over a very Elderly Woman, who looked to be 90 Years Old and she was going 112 mph.  He tells her she was going 112 mph and she Calmly tells him, Yes, the Sign back there said 112.  And, he says, "Yes Ma'am, this is Highway 112, not the Speed Limit."  And she just throws her Head back and says Ahhh, and Laughs and Laughs like us Old Folks do when we've not understood something and frankly, just don't have any more fucks to give either that we didn't understand.   She was precious, pretty sure it will be his Story to tell for his whole Career now, he probably just gave Granny a Warning and not a Ticket.  Coz you're not putting that before the Judge too... tho', probably Granny's License is ready to be Retired and someone needs to now drive her where she needs to go?  But, the fact she could still handle a Vehicle going 112 is impressive, No?  The Kiddos said that will be me someday, they could be Right, I do have a Lead Foot and Need to get places.  *Bwahahaha*

I wish I wasn't so Tech Challenged or I'd Copy that Footage and put it in the Post, but I tried and can't manage to bring it over, so...  Google Old Lady going 112 in Arkansas so you can see it for yourself.  *Winks*  Sometimes I've accidentally managed to snag a Video and Copy it successfully to the Blog, I can do it to FB, but, here it's apparently more complex and I'm not one to Learn via a Tutorial.  It's not important enuf to me to bother being Educated.  *LOL*  I should price Inventory but I'm not... I have some good Merch to bring in too, but, I'm discouraged that Sales are flat and bringing MORE in hasn't been all that Helpful.  If nobody is there Buying then you're just giving them something to look at, Steal or Manhandle.   I know, that's a piss Poor Attitude but that's where I'm at with Antique Mall Sales right now, the Thrill is Gone as BB King would say.  *Bwahahaha*  Gotta wait for it to come back I guess...

Plus, when I do go in they almost always ask me to pull someone's Shifts that didn't show up and isn't reliable, and, if I'm only gonna get ridiculously low Checks I'd rather they just be from piss Poor Sales, and not for Working for Nothing too, you know?   If you're Selling and Working yet still not really getting Paid, it's more discouraging.   And I'm hearing Brick & Mortar Business Owners telling me they ain't really getting Paid either in this shitty Economy he's wrought upon us as a Nation.  So, at least this is just my fucking Hobby and to Downsize some shit I already own... I'm not trying to make a Living with it or paying out to Stock Inventory I don't have.  *Whew*   So many Shops are Closing their Doors, Restaurants too, it's not boding well.   Usually I'm at least a Guarded Optimist, but Pessimism is creeping in lately and I know Optimism is becoming more a Fantasy than a Reality.

And I'm sitting here in my Jammies still and it's almost 9:00 a.m. now and all I have any real Motivation to do is crawl back into Bed.  And I know if I Jump Start myself I could be productive and should be productive, yet... well, you know.   I think a Bipolar Low has caught up to me and the Mania is not offsetting any of it right now and isn't dominant at the moment so I'll just have to Roll with it, 'til a Mixed Episode brings some Manic back.  *LOL*  I don't mind being Manic at all, I get a lot done and feel great when Manic... but the Lows are a Bitch to move thru in a Cycle of Ups and Downs.   I used to be predominantly Manic and on a High when Younger, with Age has come the Lows more often and for longer to move thru them.   I don't so much Feel a Depression or even a Sadness, as I do Feel like I just don't give a Fuck.  And holding that Space while trying not to project it upon anyone handy who is unfortunate enuf to wander in unawares and enter my Space where ever I am, is a delicate tightrope walk lemme tell ya!  *LOL*

I NEED all the Talismans to keep my Devils at bay as I can gather up to restrain my Don't Give A Fuck Self from just Dealing with folk while in that Darker Head Space!!!   Dark Dawn is definitely stepping out and pushing Dawn Of The Light back, well more like Shoving *LOL*... when I'm like this and I am Aware of it.  So, mostly I try not to People too much when I know I'm Raw like this and do Solitary things that might just bring Balance and get me back to Center until it Passes and Lifts.  People don't really deserve to meet Dark Dawn for no good reason.  *Bwahahaha*   The Man and The whole Family knows to leave me Be when I just tell him, or them, "Honey, I'm not in a Good Head Space..."  It needs no further elaboration or explanation, they know exactly what that means, just give me ample Space until I can be in a Good Head Space again, and everything will be Swell.  I won't catch Charges or anything... *Winks*

 

The Man made his own Follow-Up Appointment for Dr. Singh, his Cardiologist visit in 2 Weeks for Post-Op review.  He comes in to tell me he'd made the Call all by himself and I Praised him for taking the initiative, but then had to ask, so, did you Write it Down?  Yes, he says, on the Calendar by the Front Door.  Good says I, what Day and Time is it and was there anything else on the Calendar for that Day you made said Appointment?  Nothing on that Day he says, and it's such-and-such Date.  Yes, and what TIME?  Oh, they didn't give me a Time, just a Day.  Ruh Roh, NO Honey, they HAD to give you a Time too, they don't just give you a Day and let you waltz in there any Time you feel like it.  Go back and look at your Notes and the Calendar to tell me what TIME it is too, or I'll have to call them to verify.  Well, Thankfully there was a Time and he had Written it down and Calendared it too, whew!   He's so Proud of himself when he does anything still for himself and I don't wanna discourage that, but, it has it's downfalls and pitfalls now.  *Winks*  Kinda like that Old Gal who mistook Highway 112 for a Speed Limit of 112... it happens.  *LOL*

We do have some double Bookings on said Calendar, that happens too.  Thankfully Mando has a Car and is now our 2nd Driver, so, I don't have to Cancel one of them and re-schedule.  So, I'm taking Princess T to her Dentist that Day and they'll take The Man to his VA Doc Appointment with Dr. Kline's Follow-Up that got Scheduled at THE SAME TIME AND DAY.   They didn't choose her Dad instead, her Daughter insisted that she'd only go to the Dentist with Gramma, not her Mom and Mom's Boyfriend... so, we choose those Battles Wisely.  *Eye Roll*  Princess T often clings to me and doesn't want anyone else but me doing whatever it is for or with her, and not her own Boyfriend or any Family Member or Friend will do when ONLY Gramma will do.  I don't know Why... but, she's always been like that and we just Roll with it or she stubbornly wouldn't go at all and might even Meltdown.   Her Mom did mention that Princess T seems so Normal until she has an Episode like THAT, then it's quite the Epic Crazy Train Time.  Yeah, we Know.  *LOL*

I think her Dentist is only gonna do a Fluoride Treatment or something minor, she has Good Teeth and takes decent Care of them, she's 20 and never had a Cavity.   But, becoz she was a Meth Baby and has had fragile Health, her Dentist has always given her extra Treatments to ensure added Protection since that exposure, even in the Womb, can reek havoc on Bones and Teeth of a developing Baby.  There's still not a lot of Studies done on Meth Babies long-term damages as they get Older as there was done on Crack Babies.  I'm sure now Fentanyl Babies are a scourge too, and Lord knows what other Dangerous Drug exposures to the Unborn, then the Born, which may plague them for a Lifetime???  Along with what Big Pharma doles out Legally that has probably caused the uptick in Birth Defects and Health/Mental Health Issues of Children exposed to it, before or after Birth... Trust & Believe Tylenol was the least of it really.  

The whole Tylenol thing to me was hyperbole considering what else they prescribe to Pregnant Women or to Children that causes much more harm but is very profitable to a Powerful influential Lobby like Big Pharma and who they Own/Pay Off in Politics.   Mebbe the Makers of Tylenol missed a Payment or something?   These ain't Jokes.  *Winks and Rolls Eyes*  I left the Windows down in my Truck, took a Nap and woke up to it Raining, dammit!!!  The Man rushed out there to roll the Windows up for me.  I rarely leave the Windows down and I remember when I got Home from dropping Princess T off at Work this Morning that I thought it looked like it might Rain and my Knees were Aching, so, why I left the Windows down, was foolishness.  I'm rarely Wrong when I feel it's gonna Rain even if the Weather Forecast says otherwise.  *LOL*

My Brother sent me a few new Pixs of himself and some of his BFF's in Cali, looking like they're having a great time at Events.  He is a Retired Professional Hollywood Photographer but just can't stay Retired from Photography.  So, now he just does it as a Gift to his Friends who are Entertainers at various Events and he often does some Press for the Event Coordinators too.   He's always known and been surrounded by a bunch of good looking Women, even when he was a Teenager.  *LOL and Winks*  I remember when I was still with The Daughter's Bio Father in 1979-1981, and we were invited to Dinner at my Parent's Home and my Brother's Date he brought with him at the Time was the Playboy Centerfold of 1979 and Actress, Michele Drake.  My Boyfriend's Jaw almost hit the Floor coz my Bro' and his Date came straight from the Gig they had at the Playboy Club in Phoenix, back when we had one, and he was in a Tux and looking Swag and she was in a Wet Look form fitting Black Jumpsuit looking like Jessica Rabbit from the Cartoon!  *LOL*

Her Now, still a Beautiful Woman at Age 67

Her back then in the 1970's

Jessica Rabbit, imagine her wearing Black instead of Red and being a Blonde  *LOL*

I remember her being a nice Gal and closer to my Age than his, he's my Little Brother, so she was Older than him.   He likes Older Women and his long time Lady is much Older than him.  My Parents liked Michele, but at the time I knew my Brother wasn't Dating anyone seriously... and I barely was... even tho' I had The Daughter by my then Boyfriend, I knew he wasn't anyone I was gonna Marry and settle down with either.    My Brother knew a lot of the Playmates and did a lot of their Photography in Phoenix, and also in Cali, mostly when they were asked to be at Car Shows signing Autographs and such.   My Brother is a superb Photographer and always a Gentleman, so all the Gals really Adored him and still do.  My Brother has always been the most Popular Guy in the Room anywhere we go and has Personality galore, we always hung out together growing up and as Young Adults.  We've been close all our lives.

 

When I first met The Man at a Club, he thought my Brother was either my Boyfriend, my Husband, or my Date, coz when Younger we looked nothing alike and always did everything together.  He having thick curly Blue Black Hair, Hazel Eyes, being 6'4" and big built, I'm 5'2", used to be tiny built like Princess T is now, Grey Eyes, Light Brown Hair and much Swarthier complexion.  People never thought we were Siblings.   At the time The Man was working a 2nd and 3rd Job, coz he was a notorious Workaholic, so along with his Military Career, he was the Club's Bouncer and the DJ, at a rowdy Club that was just outside of the Base.  I remember thinking, that's the smallest Bouncer I've ever met, I've Dated Bouncers before and they're usually huge intimidating Guys with Necks like a Tree Trunk!  *LOL*  The Man is 5'10", he used to be 167 Lbs. his whole Military Career, a lean and mean Fighting Machine, but not appearing Deadly at all.  But he Dressed Fine and so got a lot of Gals slipping him their Phone Numbers at the Club. That Night was no exception.  He'd involuntarily collected quite an array of digits slipped to him, but he didn't have mine.  *Winks*

There was a Gal there that my Brother had Nicknamed "Legs", coz, she was Hawt, Legs from here to there, Beautiful... and she'd slipped The Man her Number, but he came over after his Set DJing and began talking to me once he found out from my Brother that I was just the Sister.  *LOL*  My Brother had Warned him, Listen, you got Leg's Number Bru', so, why would you want to get to know my Sister... becoz, Good Luck with that!!!   *Bwahahahahaha*  My Dad gave The Man similar Advice mind you... but... The Man obviously liked to Live Dangerously.  *Winks and LMAOROTF*  My Brother and Dad Love me, but, they also KNOW me.  *Winks*   So, getting to know him there at the Club, he happens to explain how he's only doing the DJ and Bouncer Gig as something Extra to do, but he's Career Military.  How long says I, have you been in?   I never thought he'd been in since fucking Vietnam, I'm like, Holy Hell, my DAD was in Vietnam, how Old are you!!!!!!!???????  *LOL*  Well, suffice to say when he was in Vietnam as a USMC Sniper neutralizing Targeted folks, I was 12.  But, but now I was 30 and his cutoff to Date anyone Younger was 30... nothing Younger, so, I barely made it under the Wire.  *LOL and Whew*

And, I wasn't really all that interested until a Fight broke out in the Club, coz it was a Super Bowl Sunday and opposing Teams were getting frisky and feeling frosty.  Liquor had been flowing plus there were Military Men and Civilian Men... need I say more... some Civilian Guys like to try to prove they are as Bad Ass or Braver than any Soldier.  So, Man Drama was a Given that Night.   And this really big Civilian Joker had started the Fight and The Man knew if any of the Servicemen responded in kind, they could and would get Busted and end up in the Brig.  So, since he was The Bouncer, he just walked up to the Big Dude calmly, and quickly did some Vulcan Move on the Guy's Shoulder before the Guy could even throw a Punch at him.  The Guy dropped like a Rock and laid twitching on the Floor like he was having a Seizure!!!  The Man asked a couple other GI's to help him carry the Fool out to the Parking Lot, he'd be Fine in about 15 Minutes but have a Helluva Headache from the Pressure Point move he'd done on him, incapacitating him but no permanent injury to him.  

Well, who wouldn't be Impressed and Intrigued THEN, Right?!  *Smiles* I did like me a Bad Boy in those Days... and my Ex was doing 27 Years in Maximum Security Prison not soon after, and had threatened to kill us all before he got Sent Up, we got this intel from the Police, so, it was from a reliable Source he had a Hit out on me and he knew a lot of Bad Actors.   So, I also Needed a good Bodyguard for the Kids and I.   Becoz if I hadda Kill him it would have been considered Premeditated, Right?   Well, not considered, it WOULD have been, I ain't gonna Lie.  *Winks*  The Man was not the least bit intimidated by my Psycho Ex Husband, who had Mexican Mafia Connections, tho' most people were, and, being one of the Good Guys, I knew he was The One.  Coz, he wasn't even the least bit intimidated by me being Crazy and having Two Special Needs small Crazy Children either, now that's a Soldier ...*Salute*!   *LOL and Winks*   He has since said that going to War was far easier and not as Scary or as unpredictable as your Average Day at The Asylum here.  *Snort*

Plus, on only our 2nd Date I hadda Cancel coz my Dear Friend and her Husband, both Military, got called up and I had to watch their Three Girls for them, at the time Aged 2.5-7.5 Years Old.  My Two were Aged 3 & 7.  So, I had Five Kids to watch under the Age of 8 and didn't know when my Friends would not be on Alert at the Base, so it could be my responsibility to have their Kids for a while.  One, their Oldest, is the One I call The Niece here on the Ole' Blog, we're still Close and I'm still like their Aunty.  Above is her on the Far Right with her Two Younger Sisters to her Left, back when they were Teenagers, mocking "Charlie's Angels".  Anyway, I tell The Man my Situation and he does NOT Cancel said Date.  Instead he comes over with Pizza and a Cartoon Dinosaur Movie for all the Kids!!!  Yeah, he's a Keeper and even The Kiddos recognized that Fact, coz when my Friend's Kids asked who he was, The Daughter says, quite Casually, "He's gonna be our New Dad!"  *Bwahahahaha*  That should have made him run for the Hills and go AWOL, Right?  But, he didn't, he's no Coward, and he hasn't been able to Escape since.  He says he'd of Served less Hard Time for Murder.  *Winks*  My Kids didn't like anybody New, so, him winning them over that quick was Huge!!!

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And the rest, as they say, is History... Dawn... The Bohemian