Bohemian Valhalla: The Tip Of The Iceberg ~ Titanic Moments

You know what bugs me? When I ask a Family Member to do a Chore and they delay doing it and then forget to do it. When I ask you do to anything, I mean Right Now I want it done, don't procrastinate and then forget, so it gets blown off and not done. Well, that's what happened with the Recycle Garbage, I asked the Kids, one of you take it to the Curb coz it comes in the Morning, they agreed, then didn't do it. I didn't know they didn't do it, until AFTER the Garbage came to pick up and our Recycle Bin was full to the brim, so couldn't now wait a whole other Week! They come before Sunup and even tho' we get up early, it wasn't early enuf! So, I had to call and put on an Act to make Bernadette feel sorry enuf for me to waive the usual Fee they charge when you forget. And will send someone out without charging me, coz they've not had to ever do it before for us. And she felt sufficient pity coz I was such a Saccharine Sweet Little Old Lady with Memory Care Issues. *Whew*

Yes, I played the Old Lady Card, where I pretended I thought this Weekend had been the Holiday Weekend! She sweetly told me it was last Week, I acted sufficiently confused and apologized that on Retirement Time I sometimes forget which Day it even is! Usually on Holiday Weekends they come a Day later than usual, and I acted like I thought this past Weekend had been Labor Day Weekend. I know, I know, I'm going to Hell playing the doddery Old Lady Card and it isn't Right. But it is sometimes inciting enuf pity to be effective my Friends, so, whatever didn't cost me that extra goddamned charge. Coz otherwise I was gonna Go Off on some Kiddos that I'd asked to take it to the damned Curb last Night and they didn't do it and didn't let on they hadn't done it when I asked them to!!! Even tho' they told me they would and should have then! It is still frowned upon to wanna kill your Offspring, so an Oscar Worthy Old Lady Act is less Sinful, No? We agree on that? I like being Old, it has it's leverage not afforded the Young. *Winks*

If I could have stomped down that Garbage to make room for some more I would have, but, it was too full and I didn't have sufficient enuf Rage built up. *Bwahahaha* Plus, it's a brand new Receptacle they replaced when the Garbage Truck broke the Lid clear off the other one, we've only had it Two Weeks, and that Truck already cracked the Bottom of this new Bin badly, WTF??!!! So, I don't wanna manhandle it even more and have to ask for yet another new Bin coz their Truck keeps being too rough with them... or the Bins are being built shitty and flimsier than before... whatever. *Le Sigh* You pay enuf for Garbage, and Residential Water, we only get a slight discount for not paying for City Sewer coz this Community is so Old it's still on Septic Systems. And we pay Separate for Irrigation for Agricultural use we're Zoned for, the Water for Irrigation is Free but distribution of it is an Annual Fee and to maintain the Main Canals.

So, that was this Mornings Bitchfest that Yours Truly went Off on. And my Garbage got picked up, so, it's all Good in The End. Balance Restored in The Force after a slight Disturbance in The Force. *LOL* The Day went much better, the VA Appointment with Dr. Kline went off okay, The Man makes stuff up tho', so, I had to tell Dr. Kline my concerns about possible onset of Dementia and the Sundowners we're dealing with. He's not concerned yet but said if he begins Wandering to let him know and they'll see if there's some Meds he can have to slow down progression. As it is The Man is so confused about his Meds, since some have been changed since seeing a Cardiologist, and when you have both a VA Doc and a Civilian Doc they don't always have information of what the other is doing and it gets muddled. So, he's set up a Consultation with a Nurse to go over what Meds we have at Home, from which Docs, and sort that all out so the VA is properly informed of what Civilian Docs are doing. And it's hard to remember who knows what coz I don't even know for sure, so, can't really say? It can be a Beast of a Clown Show to try to navigate successfully, but I try.

The VA doesn't have a Cardiologist on Staff and most Specialists now are Civilian Referrals, you don't have a Choice but to go Civilian when needing Specialists. But that causes much confusion at the VA and thus to the Veterans too, especially Elderly ones and their Caregivers. We're getting all his Meds sent to the House from the VA but Dr. Kline said that the VA doesn't send Meds prescribed by any Civilian Doctors, so that was confusing coz we don't get them from anywhere else for The Man!!! Pretty sure the VA Pharmacy is sending even the new Meds he's on since his Surgery, that was performed by a Civilian Cardiologist who prescribed the 4 new Meds he's on Post-Op!!! I'm confused now and so I'm glad they're sending someone to the house to see what he has, from whom and what Source, and what should be taken and what should be discontinued? But, when we got Home, his Rx Bottles sho' nuff had been sent by the VA as if Dr. Kline was the Prescribing Doctor, his Name on those Scripts slapped on the Bottles, so, we weren't Wrong, but the VA was coz it was Dr. Singh who'd Prescribed it and he's a Civilian Cardiologist! We're not sure anymore, too many changes, too many different Doctors now, too much confusion needing to be Verified Independently.

Good News, our Fav Thai Restaurant "Tom Yum" that was Locked Out with a Landlord Notice last Month, is now re-opened. I thought they wouldn't have Invested so much in Remodeling the Restaurant so beautifully only to be Evicted, so, I don't know what trouble they had with the Landlord, but it's apparently been resolved. *Whew* It was so good to have what we always have, since, we never thought we'd ever have it again!!! I always order the Appetizer Platter {Above} to Share with The Man, he ordered the Sweet & Sour Shrimp coz they were out of Salmon. I ordered the Tom Kha {Coconut Soup} with Vegan Chicken Medium Spicy, it's delicious. We hadn't eaten Breakfast since I didn't know if he'd need to Fast for Labs, so this was our First Meal of the Day.

We also stopped by "Trader Joe's" near the VA Clinic for some Groceries and a GOODWILL nearby it. I got a very large Antique Goofus Glass Vase for only $3, I Collect Goofus Glass and most of it is around 1920 Era. I also got a Franciscan Ware Desert Rose Pattern Butter Dish with Lid for only $4, which I'll be Selling, hard to find the Accessory pieces like that for a popular Line of Vintage Dishes like Franciscan Ware in desirable Patterns like the Desert Rose Pattern. {See Pix further Below} Online the Butter Dish goes for close to $30 or more, so the Margins were good even tho' it's the only piece I currently have For Sale of that Line of Dishes. I don't know who still uses formal Butter Dishes? But, if someone Collects Franciscan Ware, and a lot of folks still do, and of a specific Pattern, they like finding the Accessory Pieces like that. I can't recall the last time I saw that Line in a Butter Dish at a Chazza.

In light of what looks like the newest horrific Political Violence in the Assassination of a Young Far Right Activist on a College Campus it Utah, this is what I've been deeply concerned about. This Administration has fomented and ginned up Political Violence so much and made it acceptable to be "Othering" those who don't share your Point of View or Political and Religious Beliefs, that it's not Surprising it's heading down this dangerous Path at warp speed now. As someone who is deeply opposed to Extremism, Radicalization, Cultish behavior and divisive Ideology that pits Americans against each other, I abhor what I see playing out far too often now. In our Politics and in our Society as a Collective, it's abhorrent, it's dangerous, it's pouring Gasoline onto a Fire that's already spun out of Control in mere Months now and will burn the whole Country down if we don't put it out in Unity of Purpose! I get to where I have a loss of Words to express how Apocalyptic I feel it will be if it continues to escalate and be condoned.

Moving On, since, I just can't, it's all too Dark and is the stuff that keeps me up at Night concerned about the Future of America and what our Future Generations will sadly inherit and have to run damage control behind in the wake of it. And so I just have to move forward with less heavy topics to Blog about. Becoz I don't want my small slice of the Blogasphere and Platform to Fixate upon what I am repulsed by and see far too many people NOT repulsed by anymore. To the point they accept it and even participate in it without shame or conscience about how Sick it is to and how complicit they are becoming with it all. My Mantra is best expressed Below and I so Wish that all of Mankind Shared it... sadly, we haven't Evolved to that place of Enlightenment as a Species yet... but, mebbe someday we might? I doubt it will be in my Lifetime, but I'd always Hoped it would be. Loving Kindness extended to fellow Humans matters and is in very short supply these Days. Whether they look like you or have different Points of View and ways of Being should have little to do with basic Humanity shown and practiced.

Okay, so less heavy Topics. When I picked Princess T up from Work she saw some things she wanted me to get her for her Birthday coming up, so I did. There was a very nice New Old Stock Ed Hardy large Purse that was Tote Sized, Two enormous Pokemon Plush Animals of Jigglypuff and Pikachu {Yes I know far too much about Pokemon Characters having Raised Two Generations of Fans, LOL}, and Two Anime New Boxed LEGO Type Japanese Imported Figures in a Bagged Lot together. It was Military Discount Day so I got 25% Off all my Purchase. She'd also seen a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle Donatello Fuggler hit the Floor and so I Scored that for myself. *Winks* I also Scored Two really nice Specialty T-Shirts in XXL for myself, a really nice Ceramic STARBUCKS Tumbler with Lid, and a Pioneer Woman Canning Jar Trio with Graphics Designer Lids from her Line. I put individual Salads in those types of Canning Jars in our Fridge for quick Meals or Healthy Snacks options.

Tomorrow Morning I'll be going in to put all my Freshly Priced Inventory into the Showroom and our Locked Case, I have a Back Seat full now, so, can't put it off anymore. *LOL* I had intended to do it this day but it was just such a full day I ran out of Steam to, and Time to as well. I watched the "Charlie Sheen" Special on NetFlix, he was very candid and transparent. As much of a Train Wreck as Charlie is, and the Pain he caused everyone who Loved him, I always liked him and his Body of Work, and rooted for him to get Well and not self destruct. He's very fortunate to have had Family and an Inner Circle of his closest Childhood Friends, many of whom are Famous too and he grew up with, who Loved him Unconditionally and truly Cared enuf not to forsake him. I've been thru that with my own Loved Ones, it's very hard for anyone to understand whose not gone thru all that with someone you Love Unconditionally, be it Family or Friend you're Ride or Die for.

The Daughter and The Son have watched it with me, coz each of them has been like Charlie, and so the parallels were obvious. The Gallow's Humor about it all we could relate to also, so we understood when the Friends and Family had to embrace Gallow's Humor to endure all of what it entails, in order to preserve Sanity and Perspective. You don't wanna Lose someone to Addiction or to a Serious Mental Health Issue, of which clearly Charlie had both and has battled his Demons of each all his Life really. While also being a Person worth Saving, even if he didn't think so and was self-destructing with his Behaviors and self sabotage patterns. Being in an Industry where he was making a lot of people a lot of Money, and having Meteoric Fame and Success early, meant he had Enablers beyond what most of us would have to Deal with also. Failure is never as scary as too much Success is, especially premature Success to Handle. I've never Feared Failure for that reason, but Success can be terrifying, different Levels of it means different Devils.

I cannot compare my own Successes to Charlies, but I have a Point of Reference of too much Career Success too early and while you're still far too Young and Inexperienced to Deal with what it entails. I remember being an AVP of a Bank and running Three Departments and Millions of Dollars of Portfolio at 23, and by 30 I was Burning Out and almost Died from the Pressures of it all. The Posturing and the Politics involves people far more Experienced, Seasoned and Older than you, some can become important Mentors and Positive Influences, some can be Devil's Disciples, you must discern which are which and engage in Critical Thinking that has to be on Point, lest your Destiny be tied to the latter. You have to make important decisions about what your Priorities are and should be, in spite of how much Money can be made and how easy Success came to you, becoz the Levels of Devils can be quite formidable and plentiful at that juncture. I met The Man at that Crossroads of my Journey and Corporate Burnout... which turned out to be a Good Thing.

Tho' I was making far more Money than he was, once we were Married and I was no longer having to Single Parent and be the Lone Ranger in that Journey of Life, he Supported whatever decisions I would make Career Wise and was my Rock of Gibraltar, and I was his. I gave up a Successful 1st Corporate Life at the Pinnacle of that Success in my Career, one I'd Invested a lot in for over 13 Years. No easy decision, but my Young Family, my Marriage, and my Health and Well Being were more of a Priority than Success and having Money thrown at me to continue with the Madness it had all become. The Industry itself was in a Freefall and Serious Crisis in the early to late 1980's, I knew it, had Warned of it to my Superiors, since I was a Fixer of the Negative part of Bad Loans and Mitigated their Losses of Bad Loan Originations. And there were a shitload when the Industry was in Freefall and eventually Crashed. And it will again, the Writing is on the Wall it will... it's on Rinse and Repeat already. Bad Financial and Political decisions and Bad Posturing always have consequences, always.

But at the time so many people were making so much Money with how corrupted and vile it had all become, that they were not all willing to Walk away, just some of us did, just in time as it turned out. I have zero regrets about that... it was the Right thing to do. The Banks that Failed deserved to Fail, those that got Bailed Out Federally shouldn't have IMO. Some people were Indicted and Rightly so, too many were not and were Rewarded for their parts in it all. And I always did say it's never really What you know in the Corporate World, it's WHO you know or who you Blow... and that's Crude but that's just the Nature of it all really in a Nutshell. I didn't rise to the Top with a Mattress on my Back, but many had their rise by who they became Prostituted to one way or another. Those type never last becoz they're Throw Aways to those Using them for those Purposes and they never got ahead by their merits, Nepo Hires are often up the Asses or taking it up the Ass of whose Coat Tails they are Riding On. Sucking Up will only get you so far before it backfires and comes Home to Roost.

I'm not at all Surprised that CHASE was very involved in the whole Epstein Saga and that many Executives Warned their Superiors of the Red Flags of obvious Corruption and were not able to put the Brakes on the Billions being made. Epstein's Crimes go way the fuck back and lotsa that shit was being Funded by those making lots of Money off Billionaires who were serial Criminals. I Worked for CHASE for many Years, it's where I began my 1st Corporate Life and fast track to Success, I had good Mentors. But, I also saw the Dark side of the Industry, and ALL Industries of that caliber have a Dark Side, Trust and Believe, when lots of Money is involved and people are getting Rich off of it. Charlie just didn't Walk away and was like a Moth that got too close to the Flame, singeing his Wings badly and frustrating Grace many times, it's Miraculous he Survived really. And he had an Audience Loving the sight of an Epic Train Wreck while he was Wheels Off the Rails! I did find it Amusing he was more upset and Offended by being called Bipolar than all the other Labels tho'... clearly he is... it takes one to know one... but, whatever. *LMAOROTF*

I'm as Bat Shit Crazy as Charlie, so I'm not Judging. But, People can be that way, not all of them, but a great many, are Voyeurs of Carnage and find it Entertaining when others are in Epic Crisis, coz, it's NOT THEM. When and until it IS YOU or someone you Love, it's not at all Entertaining or like watching Reality TV. If you're in the thick of it and on that Train that's derailing and Wheels Off the Tracks, it's some fucked up shit to wade thru and try not to drown in, go under, or be Deaded by. Survivors are Rare, you're Fortunate if you are one. I think I gravitated to my 2nd Corporate Life of working for a large DA's Office at a fraction of the Income becoz of what I found appalling with White Collar Crimes and Obscenely Wealthy getting away with it for fucking Decades. I guess I thought, well, mebbe in this Path I can make a Positive difference in all of that? But, there are Tiers of Justice and so you get Over that naivete pretty quickly, I was still relatively Young, still in my 30's, with Ideals that are always loftier than Reality is. It's only as you become an Old Crone and end up with Sage Wisdom that you realize Power always Corrupts and Absolute Power Absolutely Corrupts, period, full stop, no exceptions.

Like Charlie said it was Three Stages of his Journey... The Party... The Party And Trouble... and then Just Trouble. When you reach Pinnacles of Success the View at the Top can be Ugly as a Panoramic, I don't miss The Corporate Grind therefore, and early Retirement from it. I'm as Cynical and Jaded as I am becoz I saw just Too Much, and once you See, you can't Unsee... and once you Know, and Hear, you can't Unknow and Unhear. It's just that Simple an explanation and Warning to those chasing Success... and especially chasing the Benjamins. Be Careful of what you think you Want, you might just Get it. And I have been opposed to Donnie Two Dolls since the 1970's since I don't think I ever met a Bank Executive that didn't know about that Guy's Corruption and why American Banks had to quit Lending to him and Bankrolling him, and cut their enormous Losses for enabling the Long Con he has always been adept at and suckered many into with his Bank Fraud and Tax Fraud Cons. And God knows what else that hasn't been Exposed to date... but will someday. Whatever you do in the Dark and in Secret, always comes to Light eventually. His 90+ Felony Counts is only the tip of that Fucker's Iceberg, he'll have his Titanic Moment.