When There's No Bottom

 The Bulk Garbage comes Tomorrow so we've got a lot at the curb for pickup, we've been purging junk that can't be donated and can't be used.  Most of it is crap Mando brought over coz he did creative repairs on stuff so repurposed parts for Projects.  But, none of us does that and I don't need a stash of random parts I wouldn't even know how to use.  Scrappers have been picking up a lot of it as I put it out each day, so, only about 1/3 of it remains curbside now.  Which is fine and I appreciate it having Purpose for someone else.  If someone has use of it, I'd rather it end up being taken than Landfill bound.  The Man has Cardiac Rehab in the Morning too.   I hope he can actually do it this time and his BP is in range to?  If they won't let him do it too many times, I'm gonna ask his Cardiologist if we should just cancel all of it?

I don't wanna be billed for Rehab that isn't even happening coz they think he's too Medically Fragile for the Program.  We see Dr. Pham on the 15th and I do plan to ask him about it.  The OT and PT at the Home went well, his VA Nurse Home Visits went well, I'd rather stick with what's going well.  Plus, that Woman at Cardiac Rehab rubbed us Wrong the last Visit when she blamed us for her Administrative fuck up of Scheduling him when she shouldn't have.  Then wouldn't let him do anything but sit there and have his Vitals taken, it was pointless and made him feel Bad, which, I don't Need that Emotional turmoil for him.  He struggles enuf with the Depression and despondence now, without adding to it from external forces which aren't mandatory and I feel are optional to participate in. 

Since he has around 33 more Visits I just don't wanna be wasting our time or theirs if he's not up to doing this.  It got Approved by our Insurance and I don't know how they Bill it to get Paid when they didn't even have him doing anything on days they feel he shouldn't?  But I don't want any Insurance Fraud either where it's looking like he's doing Rehab and isn't, just showing up and being sat in a Corner being Monitored isn't doing anything Positive for his Cardio or his Rehab.  And he was really on board with it until that happened and now he's souring on going already.  I don't blame him, so am I coz nobody called me to say he wasn't in any condition to be there, they could have taken his BP in the 1st Five Minutes and just sent us Home and Cancelled that Session, so we'd preserve it for when he could do it.

So, speaking of potential problems, ever since the Police came here looking for Mando, The Son is suspicious that mebbe he's sneaking around here again?  If he's evading Authorities, for whatever reasons, I'll call them on him if I see him hanging anywhere around our Property coz he has no reason to be around here.  He's not Welcome here anymore and never will be, The Daughter knows that and I told her if he's making contact with her, she should not encourage it and definitely make it clear it's too late for him to even try to make amends with me.  When you've crossed a Boundary with me once, you're ex-communicado indefinitely.  He crossed more than one in rapid succession and foolishly Tested me when he definitely realizes now he shouldn't have.  He became Threatening to Male Family Members, Verbally Abusive to The Daughter, and brought Drugs onto my Property... Strike Three.

I knew he was on strong Prescribed Cancer Meds and Painkillers, since he does have Stage 4 Bone Cancer, of which I have the utmost compassion and sympathies for anyone suffering like that.  But, he's also apparently Self-Medicating and I'm not Okay with him bringing anything Non-Prescription onto my Property. I found it when I tossed his stuff out after he and The Son got into that Physical altercation the day The Man had his Heart Attack and Surgery.  And he's been confrontational with The Grandson too, they don't Like each other, mostly due to how he was treating The Young Prince's Mom.   I think Mando's Brain has been Negatively impacted by his Disease, or his Drug Use and Addictions he may also be battling, but I didn't want any of that around my Family.  The Son has been Clean from Drug Use for 5 Years, The Daughter for 4 Years, The Grandson for less than that, mebbe about a Year give or take... I don't want them backsliding or compromising Sobriety from Drugs, by being around anyone Using.

The Alcoholism is enuf to Deal with for both of them.  Neither has been able to get Sober from Alcohol and they Self-Medicate still with that when they're Mentally Feeling Unstable.   Which is often, their Serious Mental Illnesses have no Cure and are Forever.  Neither The Daughter or The Son is on Psyche Meds, only The Young Prince is right now, as well as he's on his Anti-Seizure Meds too, I'm glad he's agreeable to taking both.  Both Adult Kids have been on Psyche Meds for Years and it really didn't do a lot of good frankly.  And does a lot of Physical Damage to the Body and Major Organs like Kidneys and Liver long-term, so, it's one of those Catch 22 decisions to make.   I don't take them either so I can't Judge someone else who won't.  I had very Negative side effects from them so I just don't manage my Bipolar Episodes, Adult ADHD or OCD with Prescription Meds.   So sometimes I Feel like a Nut, sometimes I don't.  *Winks, insert Almond Joy and Mounds Commercial Ditty, LOL*

Well, we caught the Little Mouse too and set him Free in the Wild where he won't be a nuisance.  It was a Young one and fell for the Trap within an Hour of us catching and releasing the Big one.  We haven't seen any more, but here in the Mini Farms, with all the Fruit, Nuts, Livestock, you're gonna have Vermin and other Wildlife, it's like an Oasis in an Urban setting for them.  And, the Commercial Agricultural Farms got Developed as Subdivisions now so displaced a lot of these Animals, they had nowhere else to go but our Community.  I feel badly for Wildlife displacement as Urban sprawl encroaches upon their Natural Habitat.  They have less and less places to Exist and so a lot of them have no choice but to become Nuisance Animals as we take over their Habitat.

It's why I prefer to Humanely trap and release them into the spaces that are still Natural and not Developed yet.  They have a Right to Exist and live their best Lives too IMO.  Yep, I'm a Sentient Being Activist, Environmentalist, and Tree Hugger from way back.  *Smiles*  I make no Apologies for it, we are piss poor Stewards of the Planet as a Species.  Most Humans are Environmentally Unconscious and think Mother Earth will just suffer in Silence as we mistreat the Natural Environment and exploit it, she won't.  And she's a Powerful Force when the reckoning comes to show her Awesome Power over Humankind.  It was 104 in Philly on the 4th of July, do you think that isn't Climate Change becoming very apparent and trying to Wake Up those Asleep about Environmental Crisis?

I guess our Antique Mall had a 4th of July Sale all Weekend, so I do Hope that may have stimulated some Trade?  I had packed Fresh Merch in there and foofed the Showroom by making Fresh Vignettes and moving things around.  I've got more to do in there, but it's a start.  I may Purge some Old Merch out of there in order to bring Fresh Merch in.  I don't usually do that too often as I don't wanna bring stuff Home and Store it, so, what is Purged and didn't Sell, I usually just Donate to some Charity instead.  I'm to the point now where if it's stale and hasn't moved, then it's taking up valuable Real Estate and losing Money for me, so, I'd rather just rid myself of it and keep the Downsizing moving along faster and more efficiently.  Come Fall, when it's somewhat Cooler {we Hope}, I plan to really put the Great Edit and Purge into Overdrive.  The Daughter never did Host her Yard Sale this Weekend, I don't think it would have done well anyway.

There is a Vision I have for how I want to move forward with the disposition of Objects I no longer intend to Keep.  I'm detaching more easily now and you do build a momentum of clearing things out as you practice doing it with consistency.   And it Feels Good, every time I've cleared out more Space and have more functional Space or more Placement for what I wanna Keep and Display, it Feels better.  I'd like to get to Just Enough, or what I consider Just Enough and not Too Much, which is highly subjective of coarse.   I don't mind having a lot of nice things, I've spent a Lifetime Sourcing and Investing in them.  But, we're Downsizing as we Age Out and I know our Heirs don't wanna have to be the ones to dispose of it all even tho' it's their Inheritance and they can make Money doing so.  It will be a lot of Work to do so, yet, it will Sustain them too if they're Smart about it coz they have few Attachments to most of it and didn't pay anything for it.

But I know how Foolish and even Lazy some Heirs can be. They'd rather Inherit a pile of Cash to blow thru rather than have any Work involved in making Money off of what was Invested in as their Inheritance that they didn't have to Work for.   And Cash devalues all the time and isn't worth what it used to be worth in Purchasing Power, so, it's not the Wisest Investment Vehicle to pile up.   If I had Billions of it then the Interest off that much would be profitable, but I'm no Billionaire and Interest Rates for Ordinary Folks is ridiculously low.  And Interest Rates they're allowing Loans and Credit Cards to Charge is what used to be Usury in the Past. 

 It used to be Illegal, has always been Unethical, and an Immoral Practice of lending Money at exorbitant or unlawfully high Interest Rates.  It exploits vulnerable Borrowers by taking advantage of financial desperation, yet, now it seems to be the Norm of Financial Institutions and Credit Card Companies.  Used to be only Loan Sharks did that shit.  And since it's State Regulated, most Credit Card Companies are Based in States with lenient Usury Laws or no Caps on Credit Card Variable Interest Rates allowed Legally.   I chose to exit the 1st Corporate Life I had as a Bank Executive becoz I could see how much Predatory Lending was escalating in that Industry and how much blatant Corruption and pandering to the Wealthy and Elite Class. 

  Since I was the Fixer of their Bad Loans and Defaulted Big Loans, those Loans that I consider "Golf Course Deals" to the Wealthy in the Good Ole' Boy Network {which Donnie Two Dolls was a part of BTW}, and Predatory Loans to the Working Class, was bothering me too much to be a part of that World or Industry anymore.  I preferred Criminal Law as my 2nd Corporate Life even tho' it Paid way, way less.  I could Sleep with a Clear Conscience that at the DOJ and being a Public Servant with a Conscience was worth more than all the Money the Banking Industry was willing to throw at me.   Now that the DOJ is being Corrupted so much, I don't think I'd want to be any part of the Industry anymore either.

   The Courts are a Hot Mess right now all the way up to the Supreme Court and the Good Judges, Prosecutors, FBI, CIA, Top Tier of Military, and other Public Servants, are being Persecuted who are trying to Hold the Line.  The Revenge and Retribution is evident, and this Regime inserting and infiltrating their Minions and Lackeys into all of it.   The frivolous Lawsuits brought by this Regime is cluttering up the Courts and Resources at Taxpayers Expense.  They know they'll Lose the majority of these ridiculously Cases they're bringing, but that's not the Point.  And even if Convictions are made against the Criminals who've done this Regime's bidding Illegally, they're getting Pardoned, or Buying Pardons if they're Rich enuf to Bribe in this Pay to Play Administration as he's set it up now to enrich himself shamelessly, immorally and illegally.

The last Two Pixs were Princess T when we used to Host Mad Tea Parties, which was her Favorite Thing to do.  A Blog Friend of mine at the time made Hollywood Props and sent her a huge Box of Mad Tea Party Hats she Designed for her, some China Teacups and some Teas, it was so Sweet.   Back then the Blog Community was bigger and tighter knit than now, tho' some closeness still exists.   She'll be turning 21 this Year, my how Time just Flies!!!   And Yes, I do miss our Mad Tea Parties, she doesn't even drink Tea like she used to... she was Mad for Tea as a small Child, she'd drink Tea more than anything else you could offer her.  And she'd make a whole Ritual out of Teatime.   I have a lot of very fond Memories of that.   She Loved going to the Local Tea Houses in the City like "Chakra 4", which was a beloved Hippie Tea and Herb House that no longer exists, Sadly, coz I miss that place a lot.  Most of the Tea Houses have Closed.  Pandemic related challenges were cited, we Lost so many wonderful Shops during COVID.

I got The Man ready for his Cardiac Rehab early, we've got a few Hours but this way I'm not struggling to get this Show on the Road just before.  He gets so discombobulated now that it's like getting a Toddler ready for going somewhere and keeping them on Task.  *Le Sigh*  It's precisely why I have to keep on top of my Game cognitively and physically or we're doomed.  I Think I Can... I Think I Can... *Winks and Laughs Maniacally*   I didn't Feed the Wild Birds Yesterday and so this Morning they were waiting on me like a scene from the Alfred Hitchcock Movie "The Birds".  *Bwahahahaha*  It's all manner of only Doves, including a few local Sky Rats which really Pigeons are a Dove Species too, just a more Urbanized one that successfully interacts with Humans to thrive and not be displaced from Habitat.  We only consider them Nuisances coz they stubbornly resist us displacing them.

Anyway, so now the Wild Birds are fed and Eli The Cat is next, he hasn't began Singing The Son of his People yet, which usually when he hears me here on the Keyboard he begins Wailing forlornly.  *Smiles*  His Human won't be Home 'til Tomorrow, she spent all Holiday Weekend at Rusty's and sometimes Eli gets Cross with her and will Piss on something of hers in retribution for her not being here for him.  *Yeah, he's very naughty and vindictive like that!*  He only allows me in her Room and will attack any other Family that ventures in there, so he's also her Attack Cat who keeps her Room secure from Intruders.  *Bwahahaha*  And it's probably a good thing since she doesn't like anyone in the Family borrowing her things or pawing thru them, which her Brother and Mom would be prone to doing otherwise if Eli didn't go Feral on them entering her and his domain.  *Winks*

The Daughter is an Animal Lover and most Animals Adore her, so she's Grieved that Eli Hates her.  Why doesn't he LIKE me, she wails?  He doesn't Like anyone but his Human, is my response, he's a One Human Cat.  He Tolerates me coz I Groom, Feed him, make sure he has Water and a Clean Litterbox, Play with him, and I do Talk to him when he's Lonesome.  Princess T isn't great on Animal Care so it's a good thing she doesn't want Children.  *Bwahahahaha*  Eli also seems to have reverential Fear and Respect for me coz he won't attack me like he does everyone else.  A couple times he didn't think it was me and went into Attack Mode and skidded to a Stop when he realized, oh Shit, it's HER... ooops!    And then as he slides in to where my Feet are, he's turned over mid-roll to expose his Belly... his way of showing vulnerability and that he's not a Threat... so that I won't go equally Feral on his Ass!  *Winks*  It's Comical, and he's very Vocal with me too, for my Benefit coz Cats without Human Contact don't Talk, that's exclusively for us. 

Oooops, forgot it IS Monday, so Eli's Human is Home now and why he was so quiet!  *LOL*  Lost track of my Days there, sometimes I forget what day of the Week it is.  I like to think it's coz I'm on Retirement Time and not due to Memory Care Issues.  *Winks*   LATER:  Well, even tho' his BP was Borderline this Morning they didn't turn him away, and his Cardiac Rehab went well.  That's Good coz if they hadn't let him participate again I would have asked what the Point is in showing up if they're not letting him participate in actual Rehab?  I'm thinking of pinning a Note on him saying "I'm supposed to be in Cardiac Rehab" coz each day he turns in the Wrong Direction at the Entrance to the Hospital and I have to ask the Valet to let me just Park there and go get him and point him in the Right Direction to get on the correct set of Elevators.  *LOL*  The Young Man Valet knows me now.  *Ha ha ha*  He lets me Park right there coz I told him otherwise he's helping me with a Silver Alert Situation.  *Winks... and we both Laugh coz he Thinks I'm Kidding.  LOL*

I got everything done in my Showroom that I'd intended to do while there.  Ran into my Friend Ken, whose Showroom I am now Occupying.  Ken Downsized Rental Space considerably after a horrific Senior Fall and Heart Attack sidelined him some time ago.  He's up to Nine Stents now which is some kind of Record he's shooting for and we joked that even The Man has some catching up to do coz he's only got about 5-6.  *LOL*  Ken is a Big Strong Senior, about 6'4" and Powerfully Built for an Old Guy, so he doesn't look as Frail as he clearly is Internally and its been a Bitter Pill for him to swallow to have such limitations now.  He had a lot of the Good Stuff and a lot of Mantiques, he'd go to those Amish Auctions in Pennsylvania all of the time and be the only one there that didn't look like he just stepped out of the 1800's.  *Smiles*  But the Amish Auctions have great Product and the Amish still use it all, so there's an abundance of it and when one of them Dies... there's the Estate Auction.

So, Ken was asking me how it was going and if I was having any Loss Prevention Issues in Showroom #140?  He used to have a lot of Theft but we really haven't there, minuscule amounts compared to when we were in Showroom #114 in the Back of the Mall, more Traffic down the Aisle our current Showroom is in near the Front and a Main Aisle.  I didn't do well this last Pay Period, Seriously, after Expenses I Cleared Seventy-Five Cents, I Kid you NOT!!!   I mean, at least I didn't Owe, but the 1st Week had started out Strong and then Week 2 it flatlined in spite of Father's Day and the 4th of July Weekend being in that Pay Period.  Ken said it's coz the Mall doesn't do a damned thing anymore for Holidays and he's Right, they did really nothing Patriotic Themed for the 250th and they could have and should have... other Antique Malls did and they were swarming with Customers buying and feeling Celebratory.

{The one that got away... too expensive, so I waffled.}

Ken and I were standing in our Aisle and looking towards the Showroom and he said, Look, the only Flag even in here is the one I left up for you outside your Showroom Dawn!!!   And, it is.  He left me a lot of improvements he'd made with Vintage Industrial Piping Racks, extra Lighting, Signage, and such, so that he didn't have to take it down.  He wouldn't let me pay him for any of it so I slipped him $50 and insisted he take it, I knew he had so many Medical Bills at the time and I was truly worried about him Dying actually, he looked dreadful back then, he looks way better now even tho' his Heart is not functioning well and his BP is practically bottomed out.  I think he is probably on Borrowed Time.  I do Hope he beats the Odds which are stacked against him.   But clearly he's in decline and there's not a whole lot they can do to keep him piping along, Medically speaking. 

{The Score on E-Bay, great price, now mine.}

 We worked Shifts together for Years and I enjoyed it.  We busted each other's Chops all the time coz he's very ultra Conservative and even Voted for the Orange Conman who hijacked Ken's Party of Choice and perverted it, I'm an Old Hippie, so, tho' we're good Friends, we rarely agreed on anything.  *Ha ha ha*  I still bust his chops now about "His Boy"... coz I know True Conservatives lament what's become of their Party being turned into a Cult.   And he's disgusted with our Healthcare System coz he's having trouble with United Healthcare, but at least they didn't drop him like they did all us Veterans in Maricopa County coz we "weren't Profitable".   But, Ken isn't one to support Socialized Medicine coz where would the Money come from, Dawn?  Okay, then he knew it was ON and we were gonna have our Touche' Moment of Agreeing to Disagree strongly, but in Good Humor.  *Winks*

Well, same place they find it for Vanity Projects costing Billions and Trillions, Ken, like Ballrooms, Gold Plating Statues, making Swamps of the Reflecting Pool, and Cage Matches on the Front Lawn of the White House.  We both Laughed coz he knows I'm Right about the Fact we CAN afford it as a Nation.  It's not about not having enuf Money at all, never has been, we're the Richest Nation on Earth and every other 1st World Nation has Free or Affordable Healthcare, even some 3rd World Countries like Mexico, it's all about Priorities and where they Spend the Money here in America.  And that if someone is handsomely Profiting off something not Working, they will CHOOSE never to fix it.  Why?  Well, coz it's Politically Convenient to leave it very Broken and rile up the Public about it Year after Year, Administration after Administration, while Promising to Fix it and doing nothing significant after they're Elected.   In Real Time, Yesterday, July 5th would have been my Mom's 95th Birthday if she had still been on this side of Time and Eternity.  Above is her and I at her Nursing Home here in Arizona, before we moved her out to Cali where my Brother lives.  

 And my Brother and Mom, Above, in the Nursing Home in Cali she lived out the rest of her Life at, coz they had a wonderful Hospice Ward too that she eventually Transitioned to when it was Time and near The End.   And his Celebrity Friends were able to pull Favors to get her in the best Facility under CalCare, so she was very Happy there and made a lot of Friends.  In fact, when you'd go to visit her she had such a busy itinerary of things to do and Friends to meet up with, she'd kinda blow us off so we didn't interrupt her Schedule. *LOL*  But Mom, Dawn and Family came all the way out to see you from Arizona!  *Ha ha ha*  She had full blown Dementia by then and didn't know who most of the Family even was, so we didn't personalize it at all.  Just so Glad to see how Happy she was and all the New Friends she'd made that could stick in her diminishing Memory.   I even think she went to look better while there coz she was so Happy, she had a Radiance about her that wasn't evident while here and Hating the initial Transition to a Long Term Care Facility, however Fancy it was.  And I got her in the Fanciest one by pulling my own Favors with folks of Influence.   I think she looked Radiant and Lovely in this Pix.

I really liked these Retro Hot Dots Plates by Corelle, never seen that Pattern before and the Vendor's Price was Fair compared to what they fetch at Auction sites.  My Parents always had Corelle for everyday Dining, it holds up very well over time.   I'm so opposed to Washing Dishes or using the Dishwasher, which we just use to Store Pots and Pans, that we mostly use Paper Plates.  We do use our Fiesta Ware Cereal Bowls and Mugs a lot tho'.  And I have a whole Collection of the original Jadeite by Fire King, which, I just Love.  I was mortified when my Mom gave hers away, not realizing it had Trended, coz back when she got hers they were Giveaways for filling up with Gas or a Premium given when you Bought something else like Dish Soap.  *LOL*  So she considered it worthless and thus I didn't Inherit it and wish I had.  *Le Sigh*  Her "Good China" from Famous European Makers, is what turns out to be worthless these days, nobody will Buy it at Antique Malls.

And that Vendor who hawks mostly worthless crappola in her unlocked Case, made another Creepy Prim Doll, so hadda have it.  *LOL*  It's the only thing she ever has worth Buying.  Tho' once I famously Scored a very early Magnolia Pearl Bag from her for under Twenty Bucks and to this day I wonder where she Sourced it to not know how much she could have Sold it for?   My Heart almost stopped when I spied it in her jumble of Crap piled in her small unlocked Case.  Which is always a Hoarded Hot Mess of worthless shit crammed in there, thinking NO WAY... and when I saw the Price, coz I knew it was Authentic the Moment I spied it, I was like *Squeal* like a Little Girl!  *LOL*

And becoz I'm such a Child, and probably full on into my 2nd Childhood now *winks* I also got this Guy to round out my Set of them from  2018, called Grumblies Tremors.  The Vendor had him really Cheap and is the Vendor I usually get my Cheap Vintage Trolls from, she has the best Vintage Toys at low prices.  Below are the other Two of this Line that I bought before from Two different Vendors at our Antique Mall.   They still function, Vibrate and say things.   They Look and have the Expressions of how I Feel most days.  *Smiles*  You can find the Green One quite often, I've seen it several times and the Vendor had one of those too, but the Red and Blue ones you can't Source as easily.   They remind of the Gonks of Europe I used to Win at the Gypsy Carnival Midway Games.

 

If you poke them you piss them off and they Tremble and say shit.  I think there is still the Purple one I do not have, never seen it except Online at Auction and the Shipping cost more than the Purchase, so, I'll keep looking for it locally unless I find one with Free Shipping.   Do I really NEED the Purple one?  Why, of coarse not... but... still... do I NEED another Object in this Lifetime and has that ever stopped me before?! *Bwahaha*   The Purple one has my least fav Expression anyway, so if I never find it, I'm Good... and, it would have to be at around Ten Bucks or less too.   Oh, and shit, now I've seen a Turquoise one on E-Bay too... didn't know that one existed.  *LOL*  I do like the Expression of the Turquoise one, so will have a Quest to Source that one as well now.  *Winks*   The Turquoise one has Free Delivery... so, that settled it, I bought it right now off E-Bay to save me the trouble of looking for it and the Seller is right here in Arizona, in San Tan.  *LOL*   My Rational Mind never Wins Out with my Irrational One that does Girl Math to Justify any Purchase.  *Winks*

And the Troll Vendor had New Old Stock {Below} of a Boxed unopened still Sealed Commercial Packed Norfin Trolls Trading Cards of all of Series 1.  These would have been Sold Individually, no idea how many are in this Commercial Boxed Display, excited to open it and see how many Pacs of Trading Cards are in it and Open every single one to see how many of all 50 I can get?  *LOL*  What I get duplicates of I will Sell for more Individually for each Card than I paid for this whole Boxed Commercial Package of them coz I had a large Store Credit I used with my Earned Purchase Points, that made it practically FREE.  So, I will definitely make a Profit off of the Purchase and get something for my Troll Collection that I didn't even know they made.  I had no idea they made Trading Cards.  Online the individual Pacs Sell for around $3 each.  And the Factory Packed 36 Card Pac Series Online Sells for around $25.  They were made in the 1990's apparently.   Some Sellers have all 50 Cards of Series 1 going For Sale at reasonable prices.  I saw the complete Set and there are some Cards I have no Interest in.  But, with only going thru a few Pacs I ended up with all 50 Cards and 4 of the 10 Stickers.  The rest of the Pacs I can Sell unopened now and any duplicate Cards I got, Sell those individually.

The Son bought us Two Pizzas for Dinner so we didn't have to Cook coz it is 117 Today.  *Whew*  We're now gonna be up in the stratosphere of Triple Digits so any reprieve we had over the Weekend is over now for sure.  The Daughter has been MIA since getting Paid, I do worry that some people she knows take advantage when she has some Money.  It seems they always come pick her up when SHE has Money and then drop her off when she's out of Money.  Not that she earned that much, and she claims the same folk spend Money on her when she has no Money, and perhaps they do, I couldn't say since I'm not there.  But when you have a vulnerable Adult you do have concerns that they can be easily exploited by anyone who would take advantage.   She's Grown and she's not deemed incompetent despite Serious Mental Illness, very hard to get someone deemed incompetent actually.  So, you try to look out for them and discuss your concerns with them if something looks exploitive to you that's happening and you have concerns about.

Well, Donnie Two Dolls now has managed to corrupt and pollute the World Cup, Splendid, the one Positive thing that's been happening and he can't refrain from fucking it up for everyone!  He's addicted to outrage and pissing people off apparently, either that, or he's so supremely oblivious and ignorant, that he doesn't even acknowledge how divisive and corrupt he makes everything he touches and fucks it up.  Now, no matter what the American Team does, it will be said they cheated due to his interferance overturning that American Player's Red Card.  The irony being, that Nigerian/American/British Tri-Citizen Soccer Player on the American Team, one of their Star Players apparently, is everything that Donnie seems to despise and be against.  Such Irony, you can't make this shit up.  I don't know enuf about Soccer to know whether the Foul the Player got Red Carded for was a Good Call or a Bad Call, I don't really Care.  But an American President pressuring FIFA to overturn it is reeking of corruption and manipulation, cheating and Bad Optics.  And Soccer is madly popular Worldwide and Fans are rightly outraged.

And I'm glad Donnie's Rape Victim, E. Jean Carroll will get her Five Million Plus Settlement coz Judge Kaplan made the Right Call awarding it to her.  I personally think every adjudicated Rapist should be Imprisoned, but we know that's not gonna happen to Donnie Two Dolls, whose not only a Rapist and Sexual Predator of Adult Women, but Underaged Girls as well coz he Paid Off the Family of his 13 Year Old Rape Victim some time ago... so he's a Pedophile too and protects other Pedophiles and was Besties with them, like Jeffrey Epstein.  What I Believe should be done to Pedophiles is Capital Punishment coz there's nothing more depraved, deviant and abhorrent than Sexually abusing a Child IMO.  And Sexual Predators ALWAYS re-offend, it's not a matter of IF they will, just WHEN.  At the D.A.'s Office we kept Sex Crimes Files indefinitely for that reason.   Even a Homicide File eventually gets Purged, unless they are a Serial Killer, and in almost all Cases a Serial Killer is also a Sexual Predator anyway.

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There seems to be no bottom to this Administration's levels of corruption... Dawn... The Bohemian

Standing In The Gap For Someone In Cognitive Decline

 I'm now up to about 15 Unpublished Posts ahead and going strong!  *Smiles and Winks*  I'm Lovin' these shorter Posts, it makes me Feel so accomplished.  *Bwahahahaha*   Sure, we're so far ahead of Real Time in the Posts now it's like "Back To The Future", but, whatever.  The Day that they finally Publish I go back to re-read them and respond to your Comments and I've usually completely forgotten what I even had written about!  *LOL*  It's Inspiring me to Blog more and come up with some Fresh Imagery to Share too.  Today nobody had to Work coz in Real Time it's the 4th of July Day.  We caught that Big Mouse that kept peeking in at us thru our Kitchen Window and ate my tiny Cactus on that Sill exterior... in our No-Kill Trap.  He was released to the Wild to live out his best Big Mouse Life now elsewhere.  So, that's not him Above.  But looks very much like he did. *Smiles*  But, now there's a Small One we still need to capture!  *Le Sigh*  Peanut Butter Granola Ball as Bait works pretty well.

Many of you are Feeling less than Patriotic, which is understandable given the Political Fuckery, but I do think we all still LOVE America and Hope for the best in the Future.  That we won't always be the Pariah we've become and can restore our once Great Reputation among the World.  America was only ever Great becoz we were GOOD, when we ceased to be GOOD is when we ceased to be Great.  Some seem not to recognize what actually made us a Great Nation.  Not a perfect one, but aspiring to Be Better, which is Admirable.  To do small things progressively towards Greatness is what makes the American Dream a Reality.  What COULD BE is the Dream.  What IS Possible in America is why people flock here from all over the World like nowhere else on Earth.

I remember the Civil Rights Movement.  I remember Watergate.  I remember the flashpoints of the Vietnam War and being a Military Family during all of it.   I remember all of the flashpoints of subsequent Middle Eastern Wars and being a Military Family during damned near all of it.  My Loved Ones have Served in every damned War except this current one actually.  Wars Politicians start and never Serve in, nor do their Children usually, with just a few exceptions like Biden, whose deceased Son did Serve his Country.  And we had Presidents like Eisenhower who was also a Five Star General in the Military and Served Honorably.  I'm for being in defense of our Nation and defending Allies, but not for Wars that defend nothing and are done for Profit, like this one.

The Government Contracts this War has enriched the 1st Family are obscene.   It's War for Profits.  He wanted to make Gaza an Elite Resort he could Profit from, so annihilation of an entire Civilization was okay with this vile President.  And every other Country he's Threatening or invaded is purely for his own Gains, Trust and Believe.  You'd be Dying to make him more obscenely Rich coz the Two Plus Billion he's made just in this past Year of 2.0 isn't enuf for him.  Even tho' it's more in less time than he made during the rest of his entire Lifetime... and Lost... coz he blows thru fortunes like nobody else ever has and Bankrupted himself half a Dozen times already.  He was in Financial straits again during and after 1.0, which is why he was desperate for 2.0 at all costs.  Follow the Money.  It will lead you to the most Corruption fraudulently profiting off looting The System.

It's never been the Poor or the Immigrant looting off the American Public and Taxpayers.   It's always been the most Elite and obscenely Wealthy siphoning it for themselves and exploiting the Ordinary hard working Citizenry.  Then Playing the Public by making Scapegoats of those who cannot defend themselves and are the most vulnerable.  That anyone actually Believes the Propaganda has perpetuated it.   And having the malcontent and grieved among us being duped seems to work well for those truly robbing The System.   While deflecting blame where it's gobbled up like the Red Meat they make it to be, vilifying those that they heap Hatred upon and blame for everything they're actually doing and is Wrong.  There's never been a recent Immigrant or Welfare recipient whose ever threatened my prosperity or financial security or replaced me in the Workforce.

Anyway, moving on, The Daughter didn't end up doing squat for the 3rd of July, her Friend was a No-Show and went Clubbing and Dancing instead.  Which is no longer The Daughter's Jam so she wouldn't accept an Invitation, she'd wanted to do a 4th of July Celebratory event coz she's been out of the Country for a couple Decades in Mexico and missed a lot of 4th of Julys.  She should have come with her Brother and I in hindsight and probably will then Tonight to see the Fireworks at PIR from a Distance.  I'm scheming about the closest yet furthest from too much going on to see it best.  *Winks*   Not many Roads lead to Phoenix International Raceway so options are more limited.  But I have a couple of Possibilities and we'll play it by Ear that Evening, Tonight in Real Time.

The Man is talking to his Oldest Brother, whose Birthday is the 4th of July, he turned 77 this day.  He's now the Oldest Sibling still Living, their Older Sister Passed some Years ago.   They have One Younger Brother whose my Age and One Younger Sister whose quite a bit Younger than all of them.  They were all Grown and moved out when she was growing up... I think she was one of those Change Of Life Babies some Women have right before Menopause.   His Older Brother was a Widower last Year when our SIL Passed, she'd been ill for a long time and her Husband was her Caregiver.  He felt our Healthcare System killed her off prematurely and it probably did.  He has Money and yet he felt she still wasn't getting the best Care she should have gotten, even with what is considered good Insurance Coverage he paid a Fortune for.

Like me, my BIL relies on Holistic Medicines mostly and strongly distrusts Western Medicine.  It's probably why he's lived to be 77 and looks great for his Age, avoidance of what is pushed by Western Medicine's Big Pharma.   So, on that point he and I are always in Agreement.  We don't Agree about much tho', he was very MAGA, but he's Wealthy, and a lot of Old Wealthy White Men have done quite well under this Regime actually, they're the only ones who have tho'.   But I respect that my BIL is an Honest Man and came by his Wealth Honestly, Legally, and by hard Work, his own Businesses that prospered, and Intelligent Financial decisions and Investments.  He's very Smart and Wise about Money.  He's very Generous too, those are his Virtues.  He's a very Misogynistic Patriarchal Alpha Old White Man Male from the Good Ole' Boy Tribe, and that's where we Clash.  *Bwahahahaha, go figure, Right? LOL*

We've had some epic Clashes in fact, his Dear Wife told me I'm the only person she's ever known that had made her Husband Cry when he went Toe to Toe with me!  *Winks, it's True, I can make Grown Men Cry if they step into my Waters and don't or can't Swim Strong enuf... LOL*  I had good reason to make my Dear BIL Cry tho', he almost Killed his Brother during one of their Hunts he took The Man on, and The Man is MINE!!!!!  Once you put any of MY Loved Ones at Risk, I don't even Care if they're YOUR Loved One too, you've now crossed a Boundary and gotten into MY LANE and I Pity the Fool who does that.  I went full on Old School Apache on his Ass on a Postal Warpath.  The Man didn't Die and that's to Bob's benefit that he didn't, coz he knew he'd fucked up.  The Man took very ill on the Hunt with his Heart Issues and Bob wouldn't abort the fucking Hunt and it almost cost his Younger Brother his Life!!!

So, when I found out about that and he dumped The Man off in such Near Death Shape, it was ON between us.   I went about as Dark Dawn as anyone has ever seen me go, including The Man.  I think he Lived so that I wouldn't Kill his Older Brother horribly if he had Died instead!?  *Bwahahahaha*   Bob can be very Egocentric and so used to having his own way, coz Money Buys Options and People like that, so they get used to folks kowtowing to them and them Owning folk that Owe them Favors, Money and such.  But, I Bow Down to no Man and nobody has enuf Money to Buy me.  If I'd of wanted to Prostitute myself like that I'd of wanted to be the World's first Trillionaire in the doing of it, you Hear me?   I'll take a Pound of your Flesh before I take your Money, it's more Entertaining and Amusing to me, coz I be Crazy like THAT.  *Bwahahaha and Winks*   So, Bob and I now after all these Years, have us an "Understanding" and he won't Cross me again or go Toe to Toe with me.  Wise Man, I Respect his Wisdom and ability to Learn from his Mistakes. *Smiles*

The Man's Family pretty much have been Civil and somewhat tolerant towards me.  But I know they all didn't much like that their Son/Brother had Married this Crazy Heathen Half Breed, whose ways and habits are deeply unsettling to them.  *Smiles*  They do think I'm a Witch, but then, so do my Dad's side of the Family... and they didn't like my Dad Marrying my Mom either for similar reasons... she Scared them too with her ways and habits... shrugs... whatever.  *Bwahahahahaha*  Most Americans were Scared of my Mom tho', she could be a Trip... and, Yes, she did put some Bad Mojo on some folks who deserved it.   A Series of Unfortunate Events, Invisible Mystical Forces, Negative Energy and Bad Luck would befall them... coincidentally, if they foolishly crossed her.  Always.  Let us just say I wouldn't have Dared and I'm her Beloved Daughter.  And that Apple didn't fall far from said Tree.  *Winks and Cackle* 

The Son and I went Grocery Shopping coz everywhere had the 4th of July big Sales on Foods.  We got Buy 2 get 3 Free on Chips & Tostitos Jarred Variety of Dips.  Then Buy 3 get 3 Free on Canned Sodas.   Meats on Sale.  Saved over 50% on our Grocery Bill, you can't beat that.  The Son did get Invited to a BBQ at a Friend's Home in Buckeye, so he has Plans for the 4th, I'm glad, he needs to hang out with his Peers and not just his Parents.   The Daughter may or may not join me, she has some pending Plans and I don't know if they'll materialize or fall thru like the Night before?  Princess T and Rusty have their Plans.  I wanted to do more Today but I don't really have the Energy to now and it's only 1:00 p.m. so I probably won't do too much until time to go see those Fireworks.  I'm content to just Chill here at Home doing Nothing.

 

 

 I hit Two more GOODWILL Locations on July 4th, to check out their Halloween Merch, one had a great Selection and I Scored some good New Old Stock, the other Location didn't have anything worthwhile.  I did get a large "Clean Sheets" scented Gold Canyon Candle tho'.  That was my Mom's favorite Gold Canyon Candle Scent and her Apartment always smelled of it's aroma, so it made me think of her.  Some of the Halloween I got from my Haul is show Below.  The only thing I didn't Photograph is a Trio of Stacking different sized identical Plastic Skeleton Skull Blow Molds, got all Three of them for only 99 Cents:

The Vintage Jack O'Lantern Tumblers is part of the Sets that have the Mummy and the Frankenstein and came with another Frankenstein one, so now I have Two recently bought Mummy ones and Two recently bought Frankenstein one, I only now need One more Jack O'Lantern one.  I do already have some in part of my Vintage Halloween Collection and includes one of the Pitchers that went with them, harder to Source the Pitchers.  The Anna Lee Elf I got for $3.99 and still had his $20 Retail Price Tag on him.  The Canvas Skull tote with Leather Handle and Pom Pom accessory I got Two of coz they were only $2.99 each and are New Old Stock from MARSHALLS.    The Stainless Metal & Bling Raven Straws Set I got Three Sets of, also New Old Stock, normally around $18 a Set, I got them for $5 a Set. 

Me Circa 1974

It is overcast and very Cloudy so not as Hot as usual, tho' we got some sprinkles of Rain and may get more Rain around the time Fireworks are slated to go off?   If the Weather takes an inclement turn I won't go out in it except to pick The Son up after his BBQ at Friends.  They came and got him but can't bring him Home they said, so I agreed to go get him after it's done.   I was Happy he's doing something Special for the 4th with Friends he's known a long time.  He was pretty glum having no Plans, so the Invitation came at the perfect time, tho' rather late to be Inviting someone to something happening that day on a Holiday.  He bought Chips, Salsa and Dips to bring with him.  They're supplying everything else and are a Couple he's known about 20 Years now.  Part of the problem is he's practically the only Single one of everyone he knows now.   And the only one with no Kids. 

Folks tend to Socialize with those who are having similar Lifestyle to themselves.  I know as a Custodial Grandparent it separated us from most other Seniors we knew.  Coz none of them were still Raising Children and didn't want Kids around.  So, we mostly Socialized with other Young Families with Children the Ages of The G-Kid Force.  And I know with Singles and those Widowed it's often alienating from those they know who are Couples.   The Daughter knows more Singles than her Brother, so she has a large Social Group she does things with who are also Single.   The bulk of his previous Social Group Married and now have Children.  Sometimes the Husbands get a Kitchen Pass to go hang out with him, but not that often.  *LOL*   He knows most of the Wives too and he's not one to be a Bad Influence on the Guys, he Respects that they are Family Men now.  But, they mostly hang out with other Couples who have Kids their Kids Ages.

And, The Son likes Kids just fine, but doesn't want to Socialize and have a bunch of Kids running around, he'd rather not.  *Smiles*   I totally understand, I Love Children, but... now that I got Generation No. Two that I Raised all Grown, I don't particularly want to Socialize with a bunch of Kids running around anymore either.   I don't wanna spend half my time being an Entertainment Director for Young Children so that they keep occupied and not fussy, and they wear me out easily now.  But, I also find I'd rather Socialize with Younger Adults than other Seniors, I just don't have that much in common with most of the Seniors I've met.  They're usually very Nice, but we don't share similar Lifestyles or Interests and the Negativity and Negative Energy is a Downer that too many exude in their advanced Years.  Not all of them, but a great many ONLY Socialize with other Geriatrics... and I Socialize with a more diverse Age Group of people and prefer that diversity and more Positive Energy it imparts.

My Paternal Cousin Cherie sent me some Old Photos of Family that I'd never seen before so I appreciated her Sharing them with me via FB.   Below are my Cousins Wewokajanna and D.A. when they were Teens.   I'm not absolutely sure, but the Guy on the Left I think was one of my Aunt's Stepson?   My Native American Cousin Wewokajanna, whose my Dad's Older Brother's Child, had the much Fairer Cherokee complexion {their Mom is Cherokee} and she has the most Beautiful Green Eyes.  Her Maternal Grandmother Monzingo was part White, so she inherited some of the Recessive Genes like I did, tho' she had the Blue Black Hair and now she's much Swarthier than when she was Younger, she got her 'Color' of looking more Indigenous and like her Dad, later.   My Cherokee Aunt often was mistaken for being White with a really good Golden Tan.  It wasn't a Tan.  *Smiles and Winks* 

 

My Cousin D.A. only had Shorter Hair in this Pix rather than his really long Hair becoz he had joined the Military and they made him cut his Hair.  They did let the Indigenous Trackers grow their Hair back out and long while they were In Country in Vietnam tho'.   So, by the time he came back from Vietnam, his Hair was really long again.  He still had very long Hair when he Died last Year.   Wewokajanna and their Younger Sister, whose my Age, are still Living.   We've outlived previous Generations, but not all of us have.  Even some of my Cousin's Children have Died already, Mortality on the Reservations is still pretty high compared to the Average American Lifespan.   I haven't visited the Rez my Relatives live on since the 1970's. 

Josh Groban and Jennifer Hudson just sang a beautiful rendition of "Unchained Melody" together, it was so moving.  LATER:  The Fireworks Display at PIR was really good, we got excellent view of it from where we Parked and Traffic wasn't too bad either getting Home.  We picked The Son up on the way Home.   We got Home by 10:30 which wasn't too bad since Fireworks didn't start until 9:00 p.m. and they were longer than the ones the Night before that Glendale set off.  So, it was a good Two Days worth of Fireworks.    The D.C. Fireworks had severe Weather evacuations which set it back 'til almost Midnight.  I don't know what attendance was like, but most of his Events flopped for this Holiday with very low turnouts for what was spent on it all.   Around the Country there was better attendance at events not geared as MAGA and not heavily Politicized... as it should be not Politically skewed.  Our Celebrations were Thankfully Non-Partisan and all were Welcome regardless of Political affiliations.

I took my long Mid-Afternoon Nap, waking at around 3:00 p.m., I NEED those Naps now to get thru a Day.   Still no Word from my Healthcare Provider on the last Test Results.  I'm Hopeful that No News means Good News?  We'll see.   They had Called last Week and I missed that Call, when I called back they said the Test Results from the last MRI were not in yet and didn't know why someone from their Office had Called... so, it mustn't have been all that important a Call I figured?  I'm glad I got thru the whole 4th of July Festivities with No News of "The Mass" coz it could have been a real Killjoy... we just don't know?   Positive Vibes and Healing Energies are being Summoned tho'.  *Winks*  I Feel just Fine except for the extreme Fatigue.  Even my Painful Right Foot is doing and feeling better coz I just changed to the most comfortable Sandals I own and that helped a lot.  Now no Pain, I think my Feet were swelling some and putting pressure on the Top where my other Sandals went over the Top of my Foot if I Walked a lot.  And I do Walk a lot.

It wasn't like I was gonna quit Walking a lot, I like to Walk and it's my main source of Exercise daily for improved Health and Well Being.  We are trying to get The Man's improved Mobility back, ever since his last Heart Surgery he's really struggled now to Walk without Medical Equipment and he's still quite unsteady.  That was a big Change to how he was prior to the Heart Attack.  He can't join me in doing much now coz it limits him so much and his World got a lot Smaller due to Mobility Issues now.  We beat the Mobility Issues after his TBI, but now with the Dementia, it's harder for him to recall doing so many Natural Things that his poor Brain just can't sort out now.  I have to remind him to Eat Food or he mostly just plays with it.  I have to gently correct him when he's doing something that seems damned near Retarded... sorry, HAD to use the R Word coz no other would describe some of the shit he does now that seems to have Zero Thought Function to it or behind it whatsoever!  It can scare me how Brainless he Acts now sometimes.

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Standing in the Gap for him most of the time now... Dawn... The Bohemian