The U.S. Government Is Insolvent

 The U.S. government is insolvent. That’s not hyperbole — it’s the conclusion drawn directly from the Treasury Department’s own consolidated financial statements for fiscal year 2025, released last week to near-total media silence. The numbers: $6.06 trillion in total assets against $47.78 trillion in total liabilities as of September 30, 2025.

So, that's all I'm saying about Politics for Today, nuff said that after having Bankrupted Casinos, which is quite a Talent in and of itself, his Goal HAD to be to Bankrupt an entire Country, so that he'd be the absolute BEST at Bankrupting ANYTHING.  You know how he is like that.  *Huge Eye Roll*  And I must say his Asset Stripping has been quite profitable for him and his, while everyone else in America is now Royally fucked.

Princess T is Home Sick Today, I think she's got Anxiety about her Grandpa being so sick and Hospitalized again, so she was puking all Night and all Morning.  So, she called in, but her Supervisor knows what's going on coz I told him about The Man when I picked her up from Work.  All the Young folks working there like The Man and I so are always asking how he's doing, they know it's been a tough row to hoe for him.

I had a Gas Discount at "Safeway" built up, so I filled up and it still cost me $85!   I'm trying to stock up on Groceries we need all the time in case that spikes very soon, which, I'm sure is coming.   Between Tariffs imposed and Transportation Costs going up, along with Supply Chain interruptions, and staggering Ego War Costs inflating America's Debt Load, well, it's gonna be a long expensive Summer for necessities.

I'm glad the Grand-Kiddos are sending me so many Uplifting Pixs of themselves and the Great-Grandkids and Great-Grandpups to boost my Morale and my Spirits.   They ARE the Future and I only Hope they can run enuf damage control behind the Fuckery their Elders are sticking them with that is jeopardizing them even having a Future?!  My Heart breaks for the Young People around the World.   I can't apologize enuf for what the cognitively declined, Hate filled and Greed Based Geriatric Leadership is doing right now.

And now for some Food Porn, coz, well, Food... is always great Blog Fodder Imagery, isn't it?  *Winks*   I'm losing enuf Weight now that my Pants keep falling off me, but I don't wanna Buy more until I know how much Weight Loss I'm going to incur?   I joked with Princess T that I can hike my Jammie Sweatpants up under my Sagging Titties to hold them in place, like a Belt.  She laughed so hard she almost squirted Juice out of her Nose this Morning!   She needed Cheering up and a Laugh, she's Sick as Hell from Anxiety right now about Grandpa, and laying in Bed all Pale and Miserable.

The Son applied at our local Dollar Store at the end of the Street, he could Walk to Work if they hire him.  The Trades isn't working out right now so he'll take anything in the interim even tho' it pays way less than he was used to earning.  He's not too Proud to do any kind of paying Work and he hasn't been able to find Work since just before Thanksgiving.  Most places saying they're Hiring really aren't, Ghost Jobs to make their Companies look more attractive to Investors and give the Illusion they're doing better than they actually are.

  Since he got screwed out of Unemployment Benefits he hasn't had any income except Day Labor Jobs and Selling Plasma.  It's quite humbling for him, he's a good Worker and an asset to any Employer he's ever had.  I know he's discouraged but he's almost 40 and that is the tipping point of being less Employable and Ageism is Real and discriminatory in ways they've found to make it Legal.  Anyway, I do Hope he can get some Employment coz he wants to help out financially, but can't right now.  The only one Working is Princess T at a Minimum Wage Job and not getting her full Hours anymore either.

I'm delaying going to the Hospital until this Afternoon, I just didn't have it in me to go this Morning.  I got a Sick Grandkid at Home and so at least I got to Sleep In.  But, I don't feel very Rested.  I don't think I had a good Night's Sleep, Medical Crisis tend to do that coz you stay Keyed Up and on High Alert.  I'm feeling down in the Dumps and got Da Blues again, I'd JUST been pulling myself out of them and now, right back in again, dammit!!!  So, my Head Space is Dark, as you could tell by how I began this Post.  *Winks*  I'd like to Write about some Fluff Topics, but, there's not a lot of that right now to Write about at the moment.

I got 3 small Pints of Ice-Cream for $1.25 each at the Dollar Store, that's how I'm Coping.  *Bwahahahaha*  It's pretty good Cheap Ice-Cream actually, they had Coffee, Strawberry Cheesecake and Butter Pecan flavors and I couldn't choose, so just got all Three.  What the Hell.  *Winks*   My Appetite has been compromised due to Stressors and Meds I have to take, so, once in a while something  foolish to eat doesn't matter as much, my Diabetic Numbers haven't been Negatively impacted whatsoever.  I don't do Guilty Indulgences of eating very often, I stay on track and do a lot of Activity/Exercise.  I haven't hit The Gym lately, but I should.  While he's Hospitalized would be a good time to, it's near the Hospital.

I have some Easter Merch to drop off at our Showroom, coz, Easter is so early this Year, so I wanna get it in there in time to Sell it for Easter.  Easter Sells relatively well coz most Vendors don't have any of that kind of Seasonal Merch at our Mall.   In fact, Springtime Merch is conspicuous by it's very absence most of the time, which is a shame, coz it's a Visually pleasant line of Merch for Spring when you're Selling Seasonal Inventory.  I like it when Spring rolls around coz the Merch is so uplifting and visually pleasing.  So, I may do some Window Shopping after visiting The Man in the Hospital, just to get out of the Heat and have some Eye Candy to soak in at the Big Box Stores that carry Spring Seasonal Inventory.

LATER:  Okay, so, what an Ordeal!  And a lot of Wasted Time and Gas.  First, I stopped by the Hospital to visit The Man, he's not been Behaving, in fact, his Head Nurse said he keeps trying to Escape!  He's notorious for that coz once he forgets where he is or why he's even there, he thinks he's being held Captive and his extreme PTSD sets in and he tries to get outta there!!!  So, he kept getting out of Bed and he's on complete Bedrest, at least they didn't lose track of him this time, he's Escaped Hospitals before, more than once, even out of Cardiac ICU once upon a time!  *Le Sigh*  So, I had to have a Come To Jesus with him and they said they'd been waiting on me to come so I could Talk to him and tell him to Behave.  *Sigh*

He'd told them only his Wife could tell him he can't leave!  *LOL*  So, I told him, you can't leave Honey.  *Winks*  So he got cranky and said he doesn't wanna just be there watching TV.  And I'm like, but Honey, that's all you do at Home!!!   And he's like, No, I don't... I do LOTS of things at Home!!!  He puts his Mad Face on like I'm gonna Believe that Bullshit that's not tethered to Reality and said, Such As???  And he had no response of coarse, so under Protest he started watching his TV.  *Smiles*  And I told his Nurse, in front of him, if he Misbehaves call me and I'll be right here, okay?  He gave us the Stink Eye.  *Bwahahaha*  

 He's a Handful isn't he?, she said.  Yep, Yep he is, he Misbehaves for our Kids and Adult Grandkids when they're watching him for me too, so, you're not the Lone Ranger.  And I'm afraid if he managed to Escape he'd walk to our Old Historic House and forget we don't live there!   Coz it's closer to the Hospital than we are here and he gets confused sometimes about location and where we now are, as opposed to where we used to be.  Things from the Past are still in Memory but more recent stuff is Gone for him now and he has to be constantly reminded of it.

To Be a bit Fair to him tho', he was Hangry, coz when I left the Hospital on Wednesday after we'd been there literally all Day and he finally got a Room around 6:00 p.m. he was supposed to get Fed.  They even ordered the Meal before I left, then Cancelled it coz the Cardiologists weren't sure if they'd have to do another Emergency Procedure?!   Then this Morning they cancelled the Procedure coz of the Pneumonia not making him stable enuf, so he didn't get to Eat until this Afternoon.  He did eat all his Meal and said it was good, but he was still Cranky from being prepared for another Procedure/Surgery that then didn't happen.  You can't spring shit on him like that or he discombobulates completely.

So, I stop by "Pho 43" to get Takeout for the Family while on my way back into the City to go to the Main VA Hospital Pharmacy again to pick up all those New Heart Meds his Cardiologist Faxed over Twice.  Remember I'd been there just the other day and they couldn't find those?  Well, turns out they'd Mailed the damned things to the House and they were Delivered on the 20th {a Friday} and The Man had promptly HIDDEN them, like he has other Meds before when they're Delivered and the rest of us don't know they have been!  *Huge Le Sigh*  So, Luckily Princess T raided our Room and located them. *Whew*  So, TWO Wasted Trips to the Downtown VA Medical Center in 104 Degree Heat and Rush Hour, for nothing, Fun Times!!!   But, at least we have them all now.  *Whew*

 

Anyway, the Kiddos are now having Chicken Lemongrass and Chicken Pho' for Dinner and everyone is Happy.  *Smiles*  I also had the Chicken Lemongrass, some Pho' Broth and a Sweet Bean Drink while I was at the Restaurant, I Dined In and got the rest To Go for the Family.   The Family that Own the Restaurant I've known Three Generations of their Family and watched their Kids grow up and take over the Business.  I've told this Story before but for many Years I'd go there with my Mom coz she lived right around the Corner from the Restaurant, so they knew that was Mom.

But, tho' my Dad also ate there for Years too, we never ate there together, he'd always go with his Filipino Roommates.  Until one time Dad and I went together and the Vietnamese Owner comes up and says, Oh, you know Noel's Dad?  Noel was the Young Filipino Son of the Older Woman who lived with Dad after his Sister Died and did his Cooking, Cleaning and taking Care of him in exchange for her Family living there.  I'm like, this isn't Noel's Dad, it's my Dad!  And she looked perplexed and says, You're Filipina?!!!!!!!   And I'm like, No, neither is my Dad, he's Native American!!!  Dad and I both Laughed and she Laughed and said, she thought he was Asian all this time coz she never met a Native American before and didn't know they look so much like Asian People!  That was hilarious.

Since Dad had been Stationed in Vietnam during the War he could speak and understand some Vietnamese and got along great with the Vietnamese Locals while there coz they too often thought he was also Asian, so he was used to it.  *Smiles*   And The Son just came in and said he thought I'd brought Pho' and Chicken Lemongrass Home?  I did... well, there's none left, just some Mint and Vermicelli... the Grandkids had eaten it all and even their Uncle's portion apparently!   Guess they were real Hungry he said of The G-Kid Force... he's not Mad, it just clearly wasn't enough.  *Le Sigh*  They were like a pack of Hyenas getting after it.  *LOL*    

 

My Hair and Nails are growing fast but I am still thinning on Top, don't know if it's Hormonal or Stress related?  I'm still taking Collagen to try to help regrow some of what's thinning, so I do have Baby Hair sprouting so it just looks fuzzy and isn't filling in fully yet, so, I still look like I'm Balding on Top and have thick Hair all around the rest, Crazy!!!   Just another aspect of Aging I guess, whaddya gonna do?  You can't turn back the Clock.  I've seen those infrared Caps and wonder if that actually helps and works?

This is The Young Prince's Paternal Aunt that he's recently Estranged from coz she made some trouble, or tried to, between he and his Dad, whose her Older Brother.  It's Sad coz they were always so close but she Married into Money and now doesn't say the most appropriate things about her own Family, she got Uppity and Pretentious.  Which, everyone could roll with that, but when she says things that are false about people, she should expect confrontation and Bad Blood about it and that's exactly what happened.  She told her Brother not to Loan his Son any Money.  We don't even know where that came from coz The Young Prince has never borrowed Money from his Dad, his Aunt, his Paternal Gramma, EVER... never even asked them for Money!!!   He doesn't Owe anyone anything coz he doesn't borrow Money from any of us.

And his Dad is like us, if he GIVES Money to any of the Kiddos, it's not a Loan, it's a Gift and not expected to be Paid Back.  And that's our prerogative to Gift anyone any amount any time we see fit to!   Bobby has always been generous to his Son, and even to Princess T.  I Raised them on our Dime but if they ever needed anything, Bobby always asked us to just let him know and he'd see what he could do to ensure they got it.  He was never allowed to be a Custodial Parent due to his own Issues back when he Fathered his Oldest Son as a Teenager, but straightened his Life out enuf to Raise his Two Younger Children he had many Years later with Angie.   Now they aren't together he has some Shared Custody of those Two Children, even tho' he and Angie were never Married either.

It's a shame my Grandson's Aunt messed up by not staying in her own Lane, but, now it's done and her Nephew is Done with her.  She's still Friended with me on FB, but our Grandson Blocked her so she can't have any contact with him anymore, he doesn't want any.   And his Dad wasn't able to smooth things over between his Son and his Youngest Sister, so, that puts him in an awkward Space to Hold too.   Family Estrangements can be very complex and difficult to Finesse for everyone else in the Family who isn't Estranged.  I don't involve myself in anyone else's Relationship Dramas, that's for them to sort out and resolve, not my Issue and I'm not playing Moderator or Mediator and being a Referee.

It feels good to just be Done for the day and be able to sit back and relax now at Home.   I had intended to also trade in my Aluminum Cans to get some Cash, but, that didn't happen.  Yes, I was near the Recycle Center with all the Bags tied up in the back of my Truck ready to turn in, I just didn't do it.  Mebbe Tomorrow, since, I do Plan to hit The Gym in the Morning after I drop Princess T off at Work.  I think she'll feel Well enuf Tomorrow to go?   She can't risk taking too much Sick time or she'll be on Notice again.

I don't have anything on the Calendar now until next Week.  So, a few Days of not running around, except mebbe seeing Himself at the Hospital, will feel good.   He wasn't good Company when I went in Today since he'd been Misbehaving and was not in a pleasant Mood at all, so, I didn't stay long.  When he's being difficult and contrary, it's just best to leave him be... he usually regulates when he knows nobody is putting up with bad Behavior and he's just not getting his way by being difficult and unlovely.  *Winks*   I reminded him he has good Nurses so don't make them Assign him a Nurse Ratchet to 'Handle' him.  *Winks*

He is like that for The Son and The Grandson all the time which is why they don't like having to take one for the Team and watch him and fill in with the Caregiving.  He gives them both a real hard time, less so for The Daughter and Granddaughter.  He definitely does NOT give Yours Truly a Hard Time or he knows Dark Dawn will take over the Shift and Dawn Of The Light will just hand the Baton to my Sinister Alter Ego who don't take no shit from anyone.  *Winks*  I reminded him before I left, don't make these Nurses have to Call me now!!!  *Smiles and a Hard Look at him with my Crazy Eyes... Winks... Love Ya Honey, now BE Good and Behave!*

The Nurses have a LOT of Geriatric Patients on that Floor right now and he's actually not the most High Maintenance one, Believe it or not?!  AND they have some DOC {Dept. Of Corrections} Patients too and one Young Guy had Two Big Stud Muffin Armed Guard Escorts, so he must be a Real Prince and a Peach!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  *Smiles*   They put them in their Bright Orange Jumpsuits so that other Patients and Families are aware they are Bad Guys and incarcerated.  Even tho' they're shackled I always keep my Eye on them if they're anywhere close by where me and mine are there at the Hospital. 

 

Every time we've been at the ER there they've had an Inmate from DOC there handcuffed to the Bed or Bench and Shackled.  Last time when The Man had his Heart Attack it was that Middle Aged Female Murderer with her One Young Armed Male Escort she was schmoozing so he'd think she wasn't so dangerous and might even be harmless.  I Shared in a previous Post what I overheard her saying to him about the Guy she Killed... where in hindsight she shouldn't have left him to Die and NOT called 911, then she said she could have claimed self-defense!!!!!!!!  Yowsah, she was another Peach, wasn't she?   I'm thinking, Dude, don't let your Guard down with that one or you'll be Next!  *LOL*

 

I don't know what this Guy from DOC with the Two Armed Big Guards did?   But he was very small like a Man-Child, Hispanic, looked a bit Charlie Manson-ish really in Appearance, long scraggly Dark Hair, same Crazy Eyes Look as Charlie had, when Manson was Younger where you see the Whites all around his Iris like in the infamous Pix Below.   The Japanese call it Yang Sanpaku.   The Eyes are indeed Windows to the Soul.  And those with a Tortured or Troubled Soul and Spirit, their Eyes will reflect that.   Also, when someone is Psychotic, the Eyes show it first just moments before the Psychotic Episode explodes.   Anyway, that Prisoner looked like Charlie sans the Beard and Mustache... a clean shaven Charlie if you will.

Anyway, other than all that, everything is Swell.  *Bwahahahaha*  This is the last Weekend of the Renaissance Festival, we did not go and decided even before March that we wouldn't be going this Year.  I'd of liked to have gone but Budget and Circumstance didn't line up to make it happen this Year.  The G-Kid Force weren't too crushed about not going, which was a Surprise since they really look forward to going.  But, they knew so much was going on and Finances were tight and it's a long commute, Gas prices are ridiculous, and with what happened with their Grandpa, we'd of had to Cancel anyway if we had made Plans to go. 

The Daughter still doesn't know her Dad is Hospitalized coz we have no way of reaching her.  They broke Mando's Phone now, hers has been broken, and they even broke mine the one time they borrowed it, which is why I had to have it replaced and won't let anyone borrow it now.  I don't know how Younger folks break their devices all the damned time, I've never broken one in all the Years I've owned a Cellphone.  I've had some 25 Years and not even had a crack in the Screen that I caused!!!  Usually I only upgrade coz the Phone gets so Old the Provider no longer let's you use one like that anymore.  *Smiles*

 

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Coming to you from the now Bankrupted insolvent Nation of the United States of America... Dawn... The Bohemian

Another Medical Emergency... Geez!!!

*It's A Two Post Kinda Day... So Strap In!*

 I got The Man Showered and ready for his Cardiologist Appointment and The Young Prince helped him get Dressed and came to me and said, I don't think Grandpa is doing good.  I agreed, so was glad we were going to see Dr. Pham that Morning.  Well, he wasn't in so we saw an East Indian Female Cardiologist who was seeing Patients for him, she was very nice but when they saw his Blood Pressure was tanking, after taking the Readings 3 Times, she says, "Can you drive him to an ER right away?!"   Fuuuuck, Yeah, I can, we were way out in Verrado so I guess it was quicker than getting an Ambulance, Cheaper too since Medicare & TriCare won't pay for an Ambulance anymore, so it's about $1,300+ a Ride out of Pocket now.

So, I spent all of Wednesday in the ER with him and they determined along with the dangerously low Blood Pressure, he has Pneumonia now too!!!  Last Week it was the Heart Attack and Surgery, this Week Pneumonia, mebbe from being put under, which, is fairly common after a Surgery, but can be deadly.  So, he's waiting for a Room to Open Up and I rushed Home to retrieve the Kiddos from Work and get some Paperwork the Hospital needed that I didn't have with us.  They said to take my time, he's in good Hands, and I know he is, so I got something to Eat too at the Hospital Cafeteria, which wasn't all that good, but I was Mad hungry and ate it anyway, and am trying to decompress from the Stress now a bit before going back to the Hospital. 

The Son's Lifelong Friend Q came over with Pizza and Wings for the Family when he heard what had happened to The Man, so that I didn't have to try to cook in between back and forth to the Hospital.  It was Sweet and very good Pizza and Wings, Comfort Food for everyone coz of coarse the Kiddos are all Stressed Out about Dad/Grandpa again.  At least Hopefully we caught everything in Time enuf again?  And Hopefully he's going to respond well to Treatment?  What made me upset is I was at the VA Pharmacy only Yesterday picking up his Meds and they told me they only had the One for his Ozempic, I knew there should be 3 more New Ones his Cardiologist Ordered to replace some they want to take him off of.

Well, they said they didn't get a request for them, so I questioned the Cardiologist and Hospital and they claimed they did Fax an Order to the VA Medical Center Downtown.  So, they Faxed it again and just for a safeguard, also Faxed a copy to a Civilian Pharmacy coz he should be on these right away with no delays.  Splendid.  This is the kind of thing that tends to happen all the time and confuses Families a lot when you're seeing both Military Docs and Civilian Docs, also Specialists, everyone changing things all the time, not much communication between them all going on, and you're left to sort it all out yourselves satisfactorily!!!  *Le Sigh*

  He's got Two Pages worth of Meds he's on, I'd have to be a Pharmacist to sort all that out and know about it all, what it does, what it's for, remember all the Names off the top of my Head, why he's taking it, why they're discontinuing or replacing it?   Becoz along with his Meds, I have to keep track of my Meds, the Kiddos Meds, it's just a LOT to expect of someone not Medically Trained.  I do my best, and sometimes it gets very confusing if it's not explained well, or at all, and changed constantly too, it's all rather overwhelming, I'd need a personal Nurse at my disposal and why I'm grateful for Nurse Remi coz she checks it Weekly for me to ensure it's being done Right, both by me, and by whoever is prescribing it.  She's better at explanations too that I can understand and make sense to me.

Anyway, I went back to the Hospital and he had an episode that looked like he was having another Heart Attack so they brought a Cardiologist in who was on Staff that Afternoon.  He was a Middle Aged East Indian Guy who probably is a good Cardiologist, but not very likeable as a Person, a Doctor with an obvious big Ego.  I didn't like this one, he was arrogant and dismissive, even to the Nurses IMO.  So I'm glad we had Dr. Pham before, who isn't pretentious at all and has a great Bedside manner and sensitivity to the Patient, their Family, and the Staff who are any Hospital's Support System and so vital too. 

 Anyway, he didn't stay long, I didn't actually mind, since I did not LIKE him.  *Winks*   And our Head Nurse made an Insider Joke after he left and the other Two Nurses giggled, I think she could see he rubbed me the Wrong way, The Man sure did. *LOL*  I don't like being Patronized as a Patient and/or Family Member when a Crisis is unfolding that is alarming and potentially Life Threatening.  Don't ask me an important Question about what brought us to the ER and then not act like you're even Listening and your Thoughts are clearly somewhere else.  I'd rather you not ask a Question at all if you're half Listening or not Listening, what's the Point?  Since another Cardiologist at Dr. Pham's Office, also East Indian, but a Female, is the one who felt it Urgent enuf to take him immediately to an ER, I felt that was important to pass along?

I got the sense that Cardiologist was dismissive about the other one's alarm, I personally don't think so, his BP was like 75 over 52 and dropping as they took it 3 times at the Cardiologist's Office.  She was visibly shaken, enuf that she thought if I could get him there quicker than waiting for an Ambulance, I should.  I don't know what the ETA for an Ambulance would be out in Verrado, but I knew I could get to the closest Cardiac Hospital damned quick myself coz on the Freeway next to the Cardiologist Office, it's a straight shot and Traffic was light.  I also know an Ambulance ride puts many Seniors in Debt every time they take one coz Insurances aren't covering it anymore, no matter how critical the Need for one.

Anyway, Arrogant Cardiologist Guy spent mebbe 5 Minutes evaluating The Man's Condition, that the Nurses, who seemed quite competent, were very worried about, which is about all of him I could stand anyway.  *Winks*  I felt he was in better Hands with our Head Nurse, I liked her, she was Experienced and on top of her Game.  I'm not a Medical Professional, but I can spot one whose an asset to their Profession and been doing this more than a Minute.  She seemed very respected, even by this Arrogant Doc, tho' among the Nurses I could tell he is not popular around there.  *Bwahahahaha*  I watch People a LOT, I pick up on even subtle Nuances and listen to what's being said among folks and what is being unsaid and communicated in other ways that speak louder than Words.

Anyway, he's in there mostly for the Pneumonia, the Pain was so Bad for his Chest tho' they wanted to give him Morphine, but he can't have Morphine.  So, I don't know what they could sub for someone allergic to Morphine, Penicillin and Codeine?  Those are Three Medications he just can't have.  And his History of Opioid dependency is something he also doesn't want to relapse into, so he's hesitant to be prescribed one for Pain Management and makes that known.  It was due to severe Medical Issues he got addicted to Opioids in the past and kicked it many Moons ago.  He had to or I was saying the "D" Word as an alternative.  Only time I ever have, but I had too much going on to be Married to another Addict.  My 1st Husband went down that Road due to Opioid dependency coupled with Alcoholism, is No Bueno for me to be in that kind of a relationship.

I'm Ride or Die with you, but, one of my Deal Breakers is Addiction you have spiraled out of Control with.  It changes who a person is and makes them also not Safe to be around, so, if you Use, I'll likely Step Off with you and let you destroy just yourself and not me too.  And as a Mother and Grandmother, I don't want that around my Family and all the collateral damage it causes Families having to Deal with Substance Abuse and Addictions.  It wrecks a lot of Lives it touches.  So, anyway, no fears about him taking something he'd have a problem with, he always refuses it now and just tells them it's problematic to him.  I've found now a lot of Medical Professionals don't push it like they used to and respect it has become a National Scourge/Problem.  Often created by their Industry... and then tends to Morph into Illegal Drug Use once dependency is ensured and thus must have it... or an equivalent.

Sorry to go down that Path of a Topic if it's a Trigger for you too?  It is for me so I'm adamant I don't want it around me, period.  I just want him to be able to Recover and not add layers of problems to what's already problematic for him that isn't a Choice.  I'm very Worried about him and don't have a Peace about his Condition.  I'm trying not to dwell on my Intuitions about it and push that out of the way coz it's making me too anxious and edgy.  Q had stayed over after he heard what was going Sideways with The Man, he's always called us Mom and Dad, he is like a Son from another Mother to me and always been there for our Family.  He's not particularly close to his own, so since he was little, he's been closer to ours.  He's a Good Guy and like a Brother to The Son, people think they actually are Brothers.  *Smiles*

His Name is Quinardo but we've always just called him Q, he's a big Bear of a Man and Strong as an Ox.  He's Married now with Two Sons and the Youngest One has a lot of Medical Issues.   So they've had to Deal with the Medical System and astronomical Medical Costs for that Son's Care.  He's still a very Medically Fragile Child and the Family don't have much in spite of Q working a good Job, and his Wife working, becoz most Earnings have gone towards what the Insurances wouldn't pay for that their Child required and has literally cost Millions of Dollars now and he's still in Grade School.  This is why I am a proponent for America adopting National Healthcare like every other Progressive First World Country already has for their Citizens.  But I digress.

Enough of all of the Medical Stuff for now, it could consume me if I let it when we're deep in the throes of yet another Medical Emergency and Personal Crisis.  I knew this would be a difficult Post to Wade thru the Weeds of.   So, on a Positive Note, a Silly one in fact, our Antique Mall is within Sight of the Hospital he's in.  So, when I finally left the Hospital coz Visiting Hours were over and I'd been there literally all day again from Morning to Night, I went in to Work to foof my Showroom and pull a Printout on my Sales.  Sales had been so Strong and then 3 Days {this Mon-Wed} of not a Single Sale!  *Le Sigh*  That's how it has been tho', it's all or nothing.   Luckily they have been Strong enuf and I've got 3 more Days before the Pay Period Closes. 

 And, so anyway, I Needed a teensy bit of Retail Therapy, I bought a DAM Vintage Troll.  Yep, didn't NEED it but Wanted it, and he was Cheap and I'd built up a Healthy Store Credit I used towards the Purchase.  He's got Black Hair and is a Mid-Sized One, I got it from who I now call The Troll Vendor Upstairs.  The Booths up there are Cheaper and so the more random Vendors tend to Rent Space up there, but it's where you can usually find some of the best Deals too on Merch.   So, I only paid about Seven Bucks for him, he has Black Hair and a simple felt Wardrobe, an adorable expression, I'd say he's an earlier one, they came out in the 1950's but I'd say he's mebbe 1970-1980 Era?   He just looks like the more Popular larger Ones of the Early 1980's to me.  The 1960's were the heyday of Trolls.  But they've made huge comebacks in the 2000's.

She had some earlier ones, and they were Larger than even this one, but some were New Old Stock from the very Vintage Ones so she wanted a Fair but higher price for them.   I wasn't a Player right now to spend Twenty Bucks or so on one.   Even tho' anywhere else and from any other Vendor at our Mall with the Older Ones that are Large, you'd pay $40 to Stratospheric Prices for them.   Some of our Vendors really do have an "I Don't Really Wanna Sell It" Price on their Rarer Vintage Trolls IMO.   They're clearly looking for that Beyond-The-End-Of-The-Rainbow Customer. *Smiles*  In my Collection I do have several that could fetch Hundreds to a Serious Troll Collector wanting them.  I've Sold some very Old ones when I Needed the Cash more than a Rare Troll.  *Smiles*  But, it's Silly at my Age, the Collection is one I Cherish enuf to not Sell Off unless I HAVE Need of the Cash.  And I often add to the Collection instead.

I think I have definitely entered into my 2nd Childhood like Seniors can revert to?  *Bwahahahaha*  And, I don't fucking Care, we were Poor when I was a Child, so, now I'm not Poor I sometimes Buy a Toy, or Collect a Genre of those that are Collectible, that I either never could have or it was Sacrificial to my Parents to get me even One of.  I think I had Two of the tinier Trolls growing up, one had long Black Hair, one had Orange Hair, both had the Horseshoes on the Feet and we bought at a Rexall Drugstore when I was an Older Child in the 1960's, but not yet a Grown Adult.  In fact, since I've Worked from Age 14, I think I even bought them for myself?!  I often did that, since I was a Child Hustler, if there was a Buck to be made, I was making it and Working my Hustle so I could buy what my Parents couldn't afford to.  They were great tho', and Dad worked very hard to make a memorable Childhood in all the best of ways.

He never owned a Toy growing up and Mom only recalls ever owning One, a Porcelain Doll she never even played with.  She said she looked at it in the original Box from time to time, coz her Family were hard working but not affluent either.  My Maternal Welsh Gran-Gran, due to his Cultural Background, never went to School and was illiterate, couldn't even Sign his Name, but could speak Several Languages fluently and was in The Trades.   My Dad had perhaps a Grade School Education given at the Indian Schools, but he was a Smart and very Wise Man just like my Welsh Gran-Gran, and very Naturally Talented.  Your Gifts always make Room for you in Life even if you were Denied many Opportunities Culturally.  It's why I always told my Kiddos you can be anything you want to be and you can Succeed, if you Dream Big enuf.  I've always had Big Dreams.  If the Dream wasn't outrageously Big, I figured God wasn't even in it.  *LOL*

Coz if I could do it just by myself without Divine Partnership to attain it, then clearly the Dream wasn't BIG Enough, so Dream Bigger!  *Smiles*  True Story, when I was Two Years Old and we were living in France, I was Working my Hustle in the French Flea Markets my Parents took me to.  No Money, just good Negotiating Skills, and I'd end up with whatever I wanted, coz at Age 2 I spoke several Languages... now I struggle with 1.5 Languages.  *LOL*  So, we befriended this Old French Gypsy who became one of my Best Adult Friends and she'd visit our Home from time to time.  She knew my Mom's Heritage of being Didi Kai, and so that she'd take the Predictions Seriously.  She told my Mom that tho' they wouldn't be able to Buy me the Education I Needed to be Successful, I'd find a way to get it for Free and be very Successful and get whatever I Wanted out of Life.  She wasn't Wrong that Old Gypsy.  But, I think every Child ought to Feel they can too. 

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Coping with Trolls *Winks*, since, Why Not?... Dawn... The Bohemian