Taking My Mind Off All The Recent Bad News

 

I had a lot of Family Bad News to Process, so I'm trying to take my Mind off all of it and compartmentalize my Thoughts so it doesn't lead to total Emotional paralysis or Physical inertia.  I never have gotten out of my Jammies this Sunday, even with Company coming over, tho' I did tidy up the house.  I knew it was Q and his Family and they've seen me in my Jammies before, so I didn't need to make a favorable first impression and pretend we're Normal.  *Bwahahahaha*  I had to blow out my Scented Candle tho' coz I forgot his Youngest is severely Asthmatic and also very curious about Fire... but the house already smelled like the "Clean Sheets" Scent of that Gold Canyon Line.  So it smells nice and now it's not a potential hazard to get knocked over or have a curious youngster fascinated by.  *Smiles*  They're not Babies or Toddler Aged, and are well Raised and respectful Youngsters of your Home, but you still have to keep Eyes on Young Boys particularly. 

I'm glad someone is using the Pool, we haven't used it as much this Summer as previous ones it seems.  I've only used it a few times myself, usually when fewer of the Male Kiddos are Home coz I prefer to Skinny Dip and not bother with a Bathing Suit.  *Smiles*  Bathing Suits for Big Women are just hideous and a pain in the Ass to wear too.  Not that me Skinny Dipping is a Sight to behold or be able to Unsee either, but, it's a lot more comfortable for me to Swim that way in the Privacy of our own Home and Pool.  And I try to keep track of the Days of the Week now so I'm not doing it on a Monday either anymore, when Pool Maintenance is done by the Hot Pool Guy Owner or his Hot Younger Pool Guy Hired Help.  *Winks*  He does have a Handsome Crew, I must say, they've all been Eye Candy.  *Ha ha ha*

I had gotten a $9.99 Specialty Pizza with Stuffed Crust and 7 toppings from DOMINOS Yesterday, it was Sublime.  Definitely gonna get another one of those while they're having that Special, one of the best Pizzas we'd had in a very long time actually and that Price was excellent to Feed all Four of us who were Home.   The Daughter still hasn't come Home for Weeks now and The Young Prince is still in New Mexico with Allen, should be coming back by next Weekend, or so he says, we'll see.  I don't mind that neither of them has chosen to be MIA coz that's Two Less Bells to Answer, Two Less Eggs to Fry and Support.  But, The Daughter did help me with Housekeeping a lot and the Cooking, so The Son has been trying to fill in while she's gone.  Usually he does Exterior Maintenance coz he's no Domestic Goddess or Cook, tho' he's very Tidy like his Dad is and both of them always clean up after themselves. 

The Two inclined to being Messy are The Daughter and her Son, so with them not here there's usually a Cleaner Kitchen.  She likes to Cook and is really good at it, but uses so much to prepare a Meal and then it sits there unclean.   And The Young Prince, his Personal Space can become very Unsafe and Unsanitary if you don't closely Monitor him and his Mental Health Condition.  I also have to do the same with the 5th Wheel where The Daughter resides coz her Personal Space can become the same as her Son's if you don't check on it regularly.   She's capable of running her own damage control behind herself, her Son seems incapable of it or of noticing it... he seems Blind to the condition when it's not Okay.  Sometimes he'll tell me he's worked hard on it and when I go in to inspect, coz he invited me to, it's still giving me the Vapors!

Still no Word from Social Security, so it may well be 7 Months or more before they actually Process his Case and let us know their decisions or set something up for Evaluations etcetera?   I sent them all the information they'll ever Need by filling out their Forms, going in Person to the initial Application at their Main Office with him.  They didn't even take Copies of all the previous Documentation I'd brought to that Interview coz they said they didn't want or need everything from when he was initially Diagnosed with Serious Mental Illness at Age 7.  I found that to be relevant and curious that they only want to know from the last Shrink in New Mexico who he'd seen for only a fucking Year, how Bad Off he is and not see the whole Mental Health History and Evaluations by Medical Professionals and Institutionalizations!

I was thinking to myself, what about those with SMI who have not been under the Care of a Psychiatrist in the past Year, what then?  Many do drop out of Therapy and don't take their Meds regularly or see their Psychiatrists unless it's Court Ordered.  Some aren't involuntarily Institutionalized like he has been in the Past, and few voluntarily check themselves into Mental Institutions.  Not all get Arrested for being Mental in Public like he has been either.  But even then, in the past Year they will only look at, he has managed not to get Arrested again for being Psychotic in Public and it shouldn't take that to receive Help and Support Services anyway.  Just becoz they haven't become a Danger to Self or Others in a Year doesn't mean they don't require Services and Support.  And... Institutionalization precludes you receiving SSI anyway, it is Suspended anytime they're Institutionalized, whether in a Mental Health Facility or a Penal Facility.

Anyway, who knows what determination they'll make, I sure don't. Sometimes you have to be flavor of the Month to Qualify for anything and not be Denied no matter how bad off they are.  Once IN The System you're more likely to be Re-Certified tho'.  And now they demand constant Re-Certifications even if it's a PERMANENT Condition, which is just stupid, but, even the VA does that with their 100% Disabled Vets with Permanent Disability.  You have to get New Letters printed out every Year to verify you're still PERMANENTLY Disabled... go figure... its as if they don't fully understand what the definition of fucking PERMANENT means?  *Eye Roll and Sighs*  But, just the Phrase: We're from the Government and we're here to Help you... is an Oxymoron in my Opinion and Years of personal Observations and Experiences. 

So, you keep Swinging for the Fences and don't Forfeit the Game even when it's a Rigged Game against you.  I will bury their Asses in Appeals Paperwork and incessant Phone Calls and Office Visits if they give me nothing to lose by Denying him any Services he requires.  It and they will become my Obsession and I'll Fixate on it like a Motherfucker and be so Relentless they will lose their Minds before I Quit.  I know I can Outlast damned near anyone once it becomes my Mission to and I go totally on board the Crazy Train about it.  *Winks*  Coz, he requires the Services and to Exist and be able to Survive regardless of what lame determination they make to completely forsake him or others like him.  And so long as I Live and Breathe, I'm going Hard on behalf of my Vulnerable Loved Ones.  I don't Give In, Give Up or Give Out when it comes to their Advocacy.  Like a Rabid Dog with a Bone.  *Ha ha ha*

Allen gave Up too easily being his Advocate coz he said he didn't have it in him to keep Fighting The System.   And The Young Prince never even wants to be there being made to Perform for The System and be Interrogated like he's done something Wrong by being Seriously Mentally Ill and unable to Support himself due to his level of Disability.  It's very humiliating to go thru that whole Process and for a Paranoid Schizophrenic they are so Paranoid most of the time that they don't Trust anyone, not even those of us who Love them coz they Imagine all kinds of things that aren't Reality Based, let alone Trusting the Government and Strangers!   Sometimes The Grandson Imagines his Food is still Alive and Moving... or that it's been tampered with and Poisoned... so he has a serious Eating Disorder over that kind of Psychosis about something he simply has to do daily to thrive and Survive.  It's why he's so Thin and Gaunt and picks at his Skin, to let the "Poisons" out he Imagines he's Ingested!

Now for some Food Porn we got from DOMINOS coz I went back Today and got Two more Pizzas of the Specialty Stuffed Crust 7 Topping Pizzas for our Guests and Family for Lunch.  The Son had thawed some Meats but I wasn't sure Q's Boys would like the Asian flavor profile of it.  Kids don't like a lot of things that Adults develop a Palate for and I want them to be able to eat Lunch while here and not go Hungry.  They are Husky Boys like their Dad and look like Eaters.  *LOL*  These Medium Pizzas are hearty coz they have so much in the way of Toppings and the Stuffed Crust, so even a small size Slice is very filling.  I just Loved these Specialty Pizzas that DOMINOS has on Special right now and you can't beat the Price of only $9.99 each.   I got one with several Meats {Italian Sausage, Pepperoni and Ham} and extra Cheese... the other had Ham and Pineapple with Onion and extra Cheese.

They Season the Crust well too and really fill it with Mozzarella.  I'm sure it will all get eaten, Yesterday's Pizza was totally consumed, the Family Loved it.   I wanted more while they still had this Special on and the DOMINOS is so close to our Home I could Walk there and their Crew do an exceptional job.   Now that mebbe I got you Jonesin' for Pizza, you are Welcome.  *Bwahaha and Winks*   The Cute Paper Plates were what I got at SAVERS the other day in Two Sizes of Plates and came with matching Napkins and Drink Cups in a Bagged Lot for only $3.  Nobody had to Work Today so we had the whole day to do Nothing and that's always so nice.  The Man will see his VA Primary Doc on Tuesday and we've got to sort out the Med discrepancies he and the Cardiologist are at odds with.  If we're gonna be sent to a Civilian Specialist then I need to follow their Specialized Instruction and not Doubt it or have the VA counter it and tell us not to do what the Specialist ordered us to do.

Dr. Pham was really upset and insulted that they questioned his Expertise at the VA when they don't even have Staff that can do what he does.   And why they sent The Man to a Civilian Specialist and Hospital in the first place!!!  We had gone to the VA first, they couldn't handle what was Wrong and sent him by Ambulance to the Civilian Hospital that Specializes in Heart and Stroke Victims that is near our Home!   And it's confusing to Patients to have conflicting Opinions between Doctors, I don't like it, I don't want Mistakes made or Ego Wars between Health Professionals and not supporting each other's Prognosis, Opinions and Advice.  It's not as if we went for a 2nd Opinion, we have the utmost confidence and Trust in Dr. Pham, he literally Saved The Man's Life or he'd be Dead right now!  So, he knows what the Hell he's doing.  And I can tell he gets frustrated with the VA... as most of us do over time.

 

Anyway, he's on all the Meds now that he should be and that his Specialist wants him on.   And he'll be continuing with his Cardiac Rehab.   I don't know if The Man will make it thru the 30+ Cardiac Rehab Sessions he has left to do, but he's gonna try to.  I never know if they'll let him if his BP isn't in the Range they desire?   And I can't predict it will be, we take it every Morning before he goes to Rehab, if it's too High just before we go, we wouldn't be in compliance Cancelling that close to the Scheduled time his Session is set to begin.  Most of the time the early BP is Fine and then when we get there, sometimes it's elevated, not much I can do about that.  I know he gets Anxious about stuff and about leaving Home and doing something that sometimes he has done before, but doesn't recall doing before, so it's always as if for the First Time for him.  I don't know what their Expectations are for him, being he has both Physical and Cognitive Decline Issues going on simultaneously?  They're only trying to keep him Heart Healthy.

 

I've got a LOT of Pokemon Cards to look up and put up For Sale in the Locked Case, so have my Work cut out for me getting all of that ready.  Had a lot of the Holographic Cards this time in the Bagged Lots I Scored.  And some that look like the Vintage Pokemon Cards, in varied Condition from Pristine to obviously well Loved and Played.  *LOL*  There's a Buyer for anything Pokemon right now.   I did a Bonfire with some Paperwork to dispose of it, I no longer have a Shredder, so now we Burn sensitive Paperwork.  The Company left and we did have Pizza left, I think Q had fed his Family before they arrived, so, we'll have some for Supper as well now.   The Kids were so worn out from Swimming they didn't play Video Games, but they clearly had a Big Time and enjoy coming over here.

We've only got The Son Home with us Today so it's Quiet now Company has left.  The Man has been happily watching his Shows and except for some Tidying Up earlier and Blogging, I've had a very relaxing day doing Nothing, which is Nice.  I still have lots to do that I could be concentrating on, but relaxing is just preferable right now and so I am.  The Man has Cardiac Rehab on Mondays and Wednesdays so I do need to get some Inventory Priced to bring in Tomorrow since I spend my time waiting on him to finish at our Antique Mall foofing our Spaces and visiting with my Industry Friends there. 

 I have a Realistic looking Doll that Online is Valued and Sells for $125 that I got at SAVERS for $8, he still has all his original Paperwork and was a Ltd. Edition.  He looks so Real that folks thought it was a Real Child.  *LOL*  So I told Princess T to hold it right, like a Real Child so she didn't Freak Out passers-by.  *Smiles*  Otherwise she had Ricardo dangling by the Neck.  *Bwahahaa*  He's by Rotraut Schrott, a Great American Doll Line.  I think I'll put him up for $80 and see what happens?   Dolls can be iffy and remain in Inventory a long time... or fly off the Shelf... it's very random and hard to tell which are the most desirable to Doll Collectors, so I don't Buy many of them since Dolls are not my Jam and I know nothing about most of them Collectors are in the Market for.  But folks that Like Dolls REALLY Like Dolls, that I know.  *Smiles*

You do either have to keep the expensive ones in a Locked Case or up high tho' or the Feral Kids and their Families will manhandle the Hell out of them and let them Play with and abuse them.  No matter how much the Price is, coz they have no intention of reimbursing you if their Kids fuck it up.  I don't understand that kind of piss poor Parenting, but far too many people in Stores now occupy their Kids by giving them Inventory to Play with as a Distraction, when they have no Intentions of Buying it.  Or ensuring their Kid is Taught and Learns that if it's not yours and you're not Buying it, you shouldn't have any Right to handle it and Retail Stores are not a McDonald's Playland or a Playground for their Entertainment.   Or handy Babysitters for distracted Adults and Parents not wanting to supervise or pay attention to their Children while out Shopping or in Public Places.  Nobody in Public wants your Children running around like Banshees and Wrecking shit.

 Kids out in Public don't Need to be Playing with something all of the time.   Learn how to Behave, be Disciplined, Act Socially Acceptable, and to be Bored sometimes, it won't Kill them.  If I see some Parents letting their Kids have something I know damned well they're not Buying, just keeping their Kids occupied, if I'm Working I'll say, "Oh, let me take that up front for you and they can play with it after it's Purchased."  *Winks*  Strong enuf Hint perhaps?  *Bwahahaha*  If they've ditched their Kid in my Showroom unattended, I'll take the Child up front and have the Parents Paged on the Loudspeaker that we have a Lost Child up front, please come and get them and keep them with you at all times for their Safety.  *Winks*  Yeah, I don't think we Shame Unfit Parenting enuf these days and Kids do suffer for the lack of proper Parenting and being Neglected and not taught appropriate Socialization.  And not everyone thinks your Lil Darlings are as Darling as you do, especially if they don't know how to Behave or Respect things or other people.

I Like Kids, and Kids usually Like me too.  I expect all Kids to act like Children and be a Work in Progress.   I just don't like the piss poor Parenting that is often displayed in Public and everyone has to Deal with becoz the Parents aren't up to the Job.  I'm pretty sure a lot of the Files we Processed at the D.A.'s Office were folks who could have benefitted more from being Raised better and knowing Right from Wrong at an early Age.  And not thinking they can get away with doing whatever they want to do that is either inappropriate or illegal and without consequences.   Not all, but definitely quite a few.  Some of these Feral Families, I see their Kids as Future Defendants of America, going thru The Criminal Justice System when their Bad Behavior just eventually catches up with them.   Anyway... I have some Anime Plush Toys to bring in also and some POP Figures and some LOL Dolls.   The Toys tend to Sell briskly compared to what I'd rather be Selling, but the Demographic just isn't there Buying the really Good Stuff that should be in an Antique Mall, so...

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That's all for Today folks... Dawn... The Bohemian

More Bad News To Process

The Mornings are Overcast and Gloomy, but Cooler, so I try to get a bit done during them, 'til the Humidity wipes me out, and the Rains hit.  There's so much to do but a lot of it requires assistance and so isn't getting done.  Even most of what The Son is doing Solo, he should have Help doing.  It's why he's upset that his Sister hasn't been here to assist him coz he doesn't feel I should have to. 

 I've fallen before during Irrigation when Helping him and so it concerns him that it's now too much for me to risk it.  Hey, if you're unable to Hire Help to do it, and doing so for Irrigation is damned near impossible coz SRP sets the Scheduled timing of Rotations and more than half the timing is insane Hours, then you have to do it yourself.  The Water comes when it comes and you must receive it.  I don't know how anyone still Working manages it?

The Yardwork too is more than One person should attempt to do without assistance, but he's doing it when he's not Working.  Right now he's still getting less than 30 Hours at the Part Time Job so he can manage to fit it in to his Work Schedule so far.  Anyway, to whom much is given, much is required.  So, we just manage it as best we can and what isn't getting Done we have to be pragmatic about.  Lower Maintenance Home Ownership is a Pipedream.  In fact, we're not sure our Irrigation Pump will even work with next Rotation, something went Wrong at the end of the last Rotation.

  And when you don't have Water in the Ditch you can't turn it on without risking burning it out.  We didn't know if it was extension cord problems, a Fuse Box problem, or a Pump problem?  It just quit pumping at the tail end of last Rotation and that feeds Water to the whole Front and East Side Yard where our largest Trees are!!! There are things I'd like to change about our Irrigation distribution System on this Property, but, that would take $$$.

Blogging is my Therapy and right now I'm a Fortnite ahead in Posts so they're Publishing about Two to almost Three Weeks after I've Written them now and I'm Okay with that.  Real Time Posts just are sometimes harder for me to get Published in Real Time and I'm trying to shorten my Posts, also challenging for me.  There's always so much going on that there is much to always Blog about, and so, of coarse I will.  *Winks*  I Nap a lot and I think part of that is the Heat and part of that is a kind of chronic Depression lately, as things are really weighty, so are very heavy upon the Soul.  I don't necessarily Feel Depressed per se, but, I'd rather Sleep than remain Awake and pushing myself hard all of the time, it's Rest, and it has been more and more necessary as a brief daily Respite.  

I'm taking Supplements to energize myself, but you can only push an Aging Body so far, as some limitations are the inevitability of Aging.  I kind of resent when anyone implies or pretends they're not, coz if I still CAN do something, I fucking DO it!  So, I can tell when I CAN'T anymore... or shouldn't.  And what has Changed is Time passing.  The Son just did all of the Yardwork and it took him over 3 Hours and he's 40 and used to a lot of Manual Labor, so imagine how long it would take me if I had to do it myself.   And I get inside my own Head too much sometimes, I often require someone making sure I don't.

And he said to Hire someone to do a Mini Farm would probably cost you $800-$1,000 Monthly coz it has to be done every Week to be properly Maintained.  Same with Hiring Movers, I couldn't Believe the Quotes were around $35,000, which is why we did a Self-Move and even that still cost me a couple Grand to Hire some Muscle of folks I knew to do the real heavy lifting of stuff I didn't Sell Off that was big.  I can lift heavy shit, I just shouldn't anymore to be Safe and to avoid Bone Fractures in the doing of it.  Just coz you still CAN do something doesn't mean you SHOULD.  *Winks*  

I remember when you could Buy a Home for Thirty Five Grand.  *LOL*  And a Vehicle for Two Grand.  I know, Young Readers are like, Whoa!  And when my Parents first moved to Arizona in the early 1970's some of their Friends had bought a Home in the late 1960's for Eight Grand, Imagine that!   These ain't Jokes... those are what it used to Cost in just half a Lifetime ago, and look at what it's Costing now... ridiculous!!!!  Inflation should not have gone up that much for Essentials like Housing and Transportation.

Anyway, I got Four more Eggplant Color Fiesta Ware Cereal/Salad Bowls at SAVERS, for Four Bucks the whole Set.  Princess T got a Write-Up Today coz she joked about Hating her Job.  I guess they didn't share her Sense of Humor?  *Bwahahahaha*  She doesn't mind her Job at all actually and likes her Co-Workers with the exception of one of the Older Spanish Speaking Ladies whose a Bully and talks smack in Spanish all of the time and is confrontational. 

 Princess T said the Lady is really Mean Spirited to any of the other Latina Americans who aren't Spanish Speakers.  My Granddaughter isn't fluent in Spanish but knows enuf of it to know when someone is talking Shit so she has gone Toe to Toe with Puta Lady, as she's Nicknamed her.  *LMAO*  Princess T is shy and quiet usually, and very well Liked becoz she's a Darling Young introverted Woman.   But, don't underestimate her as an Adversary, coz if you are Foolish enuf to Test her, she can go damned near Pre-Demonic in the Blink of an Eye.  She is a Chip off the Ole Blocks of her Mama and Gramma Dawn after all.  *Smiles*

  And that Old Puta found that out the Hard way when she realized, Oooops, I tried to Bully The Wrong One. *LOL and Winks* Yep, you can take the Girl out of da Hood but you can't take da Hood out of the Girl, as we always say.   And Princess T might look Harmless, but she can hold her own and stand her Ground like a Boss.  She once cut a much Older lil Gang Banging Homeboy with the Razor out of her Plastic Pencil Sharpener in 3rd Grade when he Bullied her.  After that nobody Dared. *Winks*  And Yes, I Backed her 100% in that incident and told School Admin why.  Coz the Year before in 2nd Grade that same lil Bastard had pushed her off a Swing and seriously broken her Arm, and no Responsible Adult interceded or did a damned thing coz they were scared of his Gang affiliated Parents, so, he had it coming and we Handled it ourselves.  Our Kiddos were like The Children Of The Corn to the Locals in the Old Barrio.  *Bwahahaha*

 

And I and The Man didn't fear that Kid's Gang affiliated Parents and they thought our Family was not only totally Unhinged and completely Mental, but would and could put Curses on their Asses and The Man's Military Skillset was also very well known.  *Smiles*  So, I didn't have any Trouble in da Hood with the Gang affiliated Families or OG's, we had instilled their Fear if not gained their Respect and either/or, Fear or Respect, that Works for me and mine.  We Bow Down to No Man.  And it makes Princess T more upset when Puta Lady messes with any of the really Nice Women there who won't fight back or tell her to stay in her own Lane.  She won't point her out to me tho, I've asked her to... *LOL* coz she knows I'd really mess with her, for messing with my Grandbaby.  *Winks and Laughs Maniacally*  It's Okay Gramma, I Got this.  And so long as she does... I'll let her Handle that Old Fool.  *Smiles*

Anyway, she does a really good Job and she was Joking, I just told her, well, don't Joke like that then, not worth a Write-Up to.  I mean, really who doesn't Hate their Job these days?  *LOL*  In fact, The Son Streams the AI Song Artists that do Satirical Songs sung very well and the Lyrics are great, and the fake Artists have hilarious Names too, we'd listen to them all day long.  So we were all listening to Songs by a fake AI Singer called "Butter Knife Shawty"... what a Name, I was rolling!  And the AI version of "F*ck That I'm Tired" by B. Devon is hilarious too, and that fake Artist Sings "I'm Not For Everybody", which is good too.   And "Don't Piss Me Off" by Del Fountain.

Timmy and Matthew, Princess T's Gay Boy Posse, just showed up to take her somewhere.  They always come in and give me a Hug, I Love those Young Men, and she has such Fun with them and they indulge her as if she's a Date or Family.  *Smiles*  Rusty knows them both and so he's okay with her hanging out with her Gay Boy Posse, he's as reclusive as she is and he knows they will insist on moving her out of that reclusive Comfort Zone to go do Fun activities and draw her out of her Shell.  She'll Dress Up when going out with Matthew and Timmy coz they always Dress Up and look so Handsome, it's a Gay Thing.  *Winks*  No way they'd go out in Public looking Busted.  *Bwahahahaha*

Timmy's Boyfriend used to be jealous of Matthew and Princess T, so he'd always wanna tag along and neither of them Like him, so Princess T started Opting Out.  Then Matthew Opted Out, so now Timmy comes Solo so that The Trio is back Together, kind of like a Famous Band getting back Together.  *Winks*  He's still with "Mr. Wonderful", as Princess T has dubbed the Boyfriend Timmy has that she does not like at all and thinks he could do better.  *LOL*  She will muse that she doesn't know why Timmy is still with that Guy... and I look over at her Sarcastically and make Eye Contact without Words and then she Laughs and says, "OKAY, so we KNOW why he's still with that Guy..."  *LMAOROTF*  

Matthew is still going to NAU up North and near the Rez, he's Native American so I think some of his Relatives may live on the Rez up near Flagstaff and the University?  He's still Single and not seeing anyone, she's been with Rusty over Two Years now and I think Timmy and Mister Wonderful are about Two Years in now.  Matthew is Adorable, I just think he's very discerning about Dating and he is putting his Education first coz he Won a Full Boat Scholarship and is a Brainiac.  He's no Party Animal either, not in the Straight Party Scene and not into the Gay Party Scene, rarely Drinks {mostly due to being Indigenous}.  He and Princess T are very much alike, Timmy is the Wild Child one and they keep him Grounded and out of Trouble.  *Smiles and Winks*

Once Princess T refused to be Friends with Timmy for about 18 Months coz he was starting to get too Wild and into the Party Scene and she disapproved.  So, to Win back her Friendship he Dialed it way back and his Grandparents were so Grateful to her for that.  Of coarse his Grandparents, who Raised him too, would like that one day he end up with our Granddaughter.  *LOL*  Timmy and Princess T have made a pact that if neither of them Marries by Age 40 they'll just Marry each other, regardless that he's Gay and she's Straight.  Who knows... they might just do that coz she said he'd make an excellent Housewife, is very Clean and tidy, a Great Cook, and she wouldn't mind Working and Supporting them.  *LMAOROTF*

The Kiddos are so funny coz I'd ordered and been drinking my RYZE Mushroom Coffee and for some reason they thought it was the Getting High kinda Shrooms and concerned about me drinking it.  *LMAO*  They insisted on Reading the Ingredients to make sure it wasn't a Psychedelic Magic Mushroom Blend.  *Bwahahahaha*  It isn't and I like it and feel it has therapeutic Health benefits.  My Parents always swore by Mushroom Blends for Health, and Kelp too, their Cultures use such things for Health and Well Being.  Now that the Kiddos have a Peace about the Shrooms in my Coffee... *winks*

I got some Bad News from the Rez from one of my Cousins, she's the Youngest of my Uncle's Three Kids {One of Dad's Older Brothers}, that I kept in touch with over the Years.  Her Older Brother {Pictured Above in his USMC Days during Vietnam} Died last Year and now her Older Sister is Hospitalized and probably Dying, so she informed us Yesterday that Wewokajanna might not make it.   Wewoka is pictured Below with her Brother in the 1960's.  When she was Younger she had more the Cherokee lighter Skin of her Mom's People than our Dads side of the Family who are Dark Indians.  So she isn't even as Swarthy as I am even tho' her Mom was a Native American too and not European, and she has Beautiful Green Eyes like The Young Prince has.  I was very sorry to hear she's so Sick that she's likely at End of Life, but she's lived longer than most of that side of the Family has, she's a few Years Older than me.   

Her Sister DeAnna losing Two Siblings in less than Two Years is gonna be hard tho'.   Coz she also lost her Husband and One Child already too.  That's a LOT of recent Loss all at once and a lot of Grief to Process.   Apparently Wewoka has TB, which is rampant on Reservations, they often get Bubonic Plague too on Reservations still.  The Living Conditions are not good and never have been and the Mortality Rate is still way higher than the rest of America for all Indigenous Populations.   My Cousin is very Thin and Frail, but she'd lost even more Weight quickly so they knew something was very Wrong.  The Indian Hospitals are so-so with Treatments, so I don't know the level of Care she'll receive, her Lungs are already apparently badly damaged.  And I do Hope they're now Testing all Loved ones coz TB is highly contagious and often Fatal.

The Son told me he's got Company Invited over for Lunch with their Kids, so it Motivated me, FINALLY, to Tidy up most of the Common Areas of the House.  I've been procrastinating on doing that terribly, it was all MY mess, I was the only Offender.  I had Inventory all over the place and I wasn't even busy Pricing it most days, so it needed to be Crated up until I do and get it out of here and into the Showroom or Locked Case at the Antique Mall.  I do Hate Clutter and Chaos, but I tend to mire myself in both habitually.  It is indicative of my Mental Illness so I know the Cause, but trying to Overcome it is always challenging, I can do it if I really push myself to but it takes supreme effort to maintain that level of better Behaviors with consistency.  As soon as Mentally I'm not doing Well... then it spirals downwards.

My Brother did Survive his recent Heart Surgery, so that was Good News Bad News, coz the Surgeon was unable to do anything once he got in there.  Just see the mess of his Heart more clearly and ascertain, well, nothing can be done and we don't really know how you've managed to still be among the Living?   I view it as a Positive only becoz he Survived one more thing they didn't think he could or should, defying grim Prognosis again and again, not Dead 'til God says so.  I quit being worried about all his Surgeries only becoz tho' he's usually got a 5% Survival Rate for each one, he's been Lucky.  And, if he Dies while knocked out on an Operating Table, he's Okay going that way, I would be too. 

And I needed Blog Fodder Imagery so my Brother always obliges coz he does still go to Events and do Media Coverage of them for his Friends in the Entertainment Industry.   I think this was some California Western Re-Enactment I hadn't seen Pixs of before, tho' he said he'd done them about a Year previously and just not downloaded them Publicly, just Privately for the Friends he took them for.   Tho' I just Love the Pixs he takes of People and Places, I think some of my Favs are what he takes of Animals.  He's like the Animal Whisperer to get them to Pose for Photos, so he's always gotten and captured thru the Eye of his Lens the Essence and Personality of each Animal he's ever Photographed, whether Wild or Domesticated.  The Brown Horse particularly was a Natural in front of the Lens.   Of coarse it could be a Hollywood Horse used in Movies. *Smiles*

I didn't attend the Renaissance Festival Last time it was here, in early 2026, but I think I will next time in early 2027, we'll wait and see.  Just so much was going on that I Opted Out of a lot of the Traditional and Ritualistic things we typically go and do.  Plus, Finances have been a problem coz I've had to funnel all funds into Essentials, Medical Emergencies, Helping out Family in Crisis, and Home Repairs, that were a Priority.  So Recreational Pursuits were just low on that List of what we could or would spend anything on.  The Budget was not there for it and was stretched tight as Hell for just what we HAD to divert all Resources to.  There's very little Breathing Room these days Financially coz the Economy is not good and I do predict will worsen under this Regime and their poor decisions, Nepo Hires, corruption, greed, grifting, and unprecedented incompetence.

But we're so much better off than most people and I am Aware of how fortunate we still are.   Plus, around this time of Year, even tho' it's the height of Summer, I'm thinking Autumnal Thoughts already.  And so I always look forward to Autumn and the Holidays and Events for it that I so enjoy and gives me abundant Recreational Opportunities, most of which cost me nothing.  I shall probably whip things into Shape by September to start the kickoff of our Autumnal Decorating, which we tend to go all out for still.  My Birthday is in August and I already bought myself the Main Pressy at Auction and have had it a while now.  LOVE it, got a Deep Discounted Bargain on it, tho' it was still Spendy, the Seller accepted a ridiculously Lowball Offer that was all that I could afford to Offer her.  She told me how Happy she was to Accept, knowing I was a long time Collector of the Line, and this is one of the Original Handmade Pieces of it by the Founder of the Line, when she still made her own Product. 

With the Economy being in the shitter, I will say I'm seeing more Vintage Lines of Collectibles that normally would never be put up For Sale by the Consummate Collectors who've Owned them, hitting the Auction Sites, people Need the Money, clearly.  They are reluctantly Letting Go of what they Cherish in order to have the Liquidity of some Cash to Live on and Buy instead what they Need.  That's when I snap up such things becoz frankly, I have so much that I easily can Resell and have no serious Attachments to.  So, it's none of my Primo and most Beloved Pieces I wanna Keep Forever.  Therefore, I don't have to Sell Off what I don't want to ever Let Go of, and my Heirs will have to and be Free to profit from after I'm Gone.  *LOL*  Yes, I could Pay a lot of things Off if I did put up those Items For Sale... but, why should I?  I wanna Enjoy them for the rest of my Days... and if I don't deserve it, who does?  *Winks*

Plus, paying off shit at this juncture seems temporary relief only.  Since something else always comes up that you have to then Finance if you don't have huge amounts of Cash stashed away or accessible instantly without Penalties for early Withdrawals of it.  So, fuck it.   This Property is Financed at 2% and is too much to ever fathom realistically Paying Off at my Age, and at that low Rate, why even would I try to?   The various Home Improvements or Repairs also were Financed and I typically pay them off early.  Just got one Paid Off this Month in fact, but, I don't stress about how much more I should add to the Payments in order to Pay less Interest in an earlier Payoff.   

Yeah, I have the Lenders always run an Amortization Schedule for me to calculate how much Interest I can knock off any Loan by making additional Principal Payments... but I won't create Financial Hardship to Pay it all off stupidly early either.  Otherwise, what was the Point of Financing it to begin with?  The Old Bank Exec in me is always looking at the Front and Back End of any Financial Agreement made.   But, we've had to Finance more than we wanted to in Retirement coz Life just happens and Shit just happens... so the initial Retirement Plan was shot all to Hell a long time ago already.  Shrugs.  Whaddya gonna do?  Keep on Living and Shit just happens.  It's all quite unpredictable what the Future holds for any of us or our Nation at this juncture especially, so I'm Playing it Day to Day now.   This Prez may have only been in for around 200 days but he's already done around 200 unpredictable fucking harmful things to America and the Economy!

He said in one Speech that he was Talking to the Presidents of The Virgin Islands and Puerto Rico!!!  Yeah... if that don't blow your Mind to hear, since he clearly doesn't know HE IS the President of Puerto Rico and The Virgin Islands... so the Question then begs, who the fuck was he Talking to?   But, he's also the Guy who thought the Country of Belgium was a nice City, said so in another Speech.  And he's said he's talked to People who've long been Dead too.   He's constantly saying he's Spoken to Deceased Individuals on National Television!    During a July 2026 Speech in North Dakota he said he Talked to former Prez Teddy Roosevelt, whose been Dead since 1919, about the Panama Canal!  And he claims to have had recent conversations with long Dead Celebs, that I guess he knew when they were Living... so he's clearly no longer tethered to Reality or the Present and mixing shit up with the Past... clear Dementia behaviors or making shit up and Mental Confusion of Past and Present.

The Son's Company just showed up, it's a Childhood Friend, his Wife and Two little Boys, Nice Family.  They're gonna go Swimming and then The Son will likely set the Boys up with Video Games in the Guest Bedroom so they won't get bored, they're Grade School Aged and well behaved and polite Kids.  I've known their Dad all his Life so he's like another Son to us and calls me Mom.  Some people don't even know he's not one of our Adult Kids and The Son's actual Brother.  *LOL*  Their Youngest has a lot of Health Issues he was Born with so Q Works a lot of Overtime to pay for his Son's Medical needs.  I've had Kiddos with Fragile Health or Chronic Health needs and it gets expensive real fast.  If there's no Cure for what's Wrong with them it's gonna be a Lifetime of Pre-Existing Conditions.  Many Insurances you get from Employers have Lifetime Caps on how much they'll pay for those kind of Illnesses that are Lifetime Conditions and very expensive.

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Well, that's all folks... Dawn... The Bohemian