Nope, Not Interested In An AI Friend... I'm All Friended Up!

In Real Time it's the day I have to take The Young Prince to that Doc Social Security is sending us to.  It's inclement weather and started Raining like Hell with huge Lightening Strikes, so I just Hope there's no Street Flooding and heavy Traffic.  Coz it's way over on 15th Avenue and Glendale, Rush Hour and very Bad Weather, and is quite a commute from here.  I don't like driving in all of that, most other Arizonans suck at driving in Bad Weather.  Since this Guy is a regular M.D. and not a Psychiatrist I have no Idea what he's evaluating for Disability Status except mebbe the Seizures?  We never claimed he has severe Physical Disability, it's severe Mental Disability, so I was just confused when I realized it's a General Practitioner doing the Evaluation for his Disability Status??? 

 Oh well, it is Social Security and the Federal Government, so things don't always make any Sense, Rhyme or Reason.  *Le Sigh*  At this point I don't even Care what Qualifies him, so long as they don't Disqualify him based on something completely random from the Services he needs and actually requires.  So I Hope this Doc isn't as confused as we will be that he's getting a Paranoid Schizophrenic with Dissociative Identity Disorder sent to him to evaluate for Disability?  *Eye Roll*  He wouldn't be Qualified to even make a Mental Health Assessment, so I also Hope this isn't a big waste of his Time and ours?  But, if it helps with The Grandson's Seizures perhaps it won't be in complete Vain?  It would be Ironic tho' if the Seizures Qualify him easier than being SMI!!!

He's NOT a Morning Person and Hates Doctors, so I'm not looking forward to making sure he rolls out of Bed to be ready in Time, and Hope Allen helps me get this Show on the Road?   I'll get him up by 8:00 a.m. coz I need an Hour's Commute at least to get there on Time and we're Scheduled for 10:00 a.m..  I got The Granddaughter to Work by 7:00 a.m. so I've been up.  Plus, for some reason The Niece was up and had been animated since 3:00 a.m. in the Kitchen, Microwaving something to Eat, and Princess T said when Rusty dropped her off at 5:00 a.m. coz she'd spent the Night at his House, The Niece scared them coz they parked beside her Car and she was Sleeping in it, but looked Dead!  *LOL*  Why she still Sleeps in the Car rather than the nice Bedroom of the 5th Wheel is still a complete Mystery but I don't even mention it anymore.

The Daughter never did come Home yet and I do feel she just doesn't wanna Deal with long discussions about Shared Space.  She's still quite Raw about her Boyfriend's Murder and so trifling over Sharing the 5th Wheel wouldn't be something she'd be up to at all right now.  She knows she needs to get her portion of it in order and purged of some stuff tho'.  I only made sure it was Sanitary, but it's very cluttered since she moved everything of hers out of the Main Bedroom to give it to The Niece to occupy.  The Niece did Rent a Storage Locker for her own stuff so she should have plenty of Room in that Bedroom's Storage Space, which is quite ample actually, for what she'd need daily.  She has a Queen Size Bed in there and I've laid on it before, it's as comfortable as our Bed IMO.  But she's really much bigger than The Man or I are, and I don't know if people of that Size are easily comfortable using anything normal sized and built for average Weight people?

But, I'd consider it way more comfortable than sleeping in a Car Driver Seat, and much roomier to stretch out in and it's Climate Controlled Space with AC and Heat available.  But if she wants to Sleep in her Car instead, that's her choice and decision, it seems a bit Mental to me, or Dramatic.  I don't respond to either of that since it wouldn't be any kind of conversation I want to engage in.  *LOL*  She's getting along so far with everyone who is here at the House and she's Visited for Weeks at a time before during the Years we've lived here.  She's just acting more Odd than she ever did then and I'm thinking the Stressors of her own Family's Situation may have just Negatively impacted her own Psyche some, which is understandable, it's not a good Scene with her Bio Family.  And realizing she may never be able to have a healthy Relationship with any of them has to be very hard to reconcile yourself with.

She is going to try to Work both Jobs if they offer her the Remote One too, I just Hope that's not taking on too much?  But, she Loves her Work and she's very good at it, very efficient, almost TOO efficient, so she gets done fast with Projects the Job gives her.  So, I think the Remote Job she could occupy herself doing when she's not at the Office of the other Job and it could work out and Financially be quite a Windfall.  Her concern is that the Industry of High Tech is very volatile right now due to AI taking over and she also feels the AI Bubble will burst very soon too.  So she wants to Score as much Work and Money out of it before it all goes Sideways.  Glitch had told me the same thing, and People in The Know of Insider Information concerning this are all becoming Whistle Blowers that this is all going to End very Badly... Catastrophically in fact.

And of coarse we've got that self-professed "Stable Genius" with the High IQ he thinks he has, telling us it's all a Hoax with the Dangers of AI, so he wants NO Regulation.  While even every Swinging Dick who Owns the Companies of the Industry are begging to be Regulated now, desperately so, and want it Globally Regulated.  It's already getting out of their Control and they know they don't have a Handle on it.  That powerful limitless Genie got out of the Bottle and is way past their Three Given Wishes to appease Mankind, and now just doing it's own Thing without Humans Approval or Consent.  Coz now it considers Humans in it's way to the Goals it's setting up for it's own World Domination.  Scary Stuff.  I don't think it will take a whole Decade for it to have complete Control and Take Over, I seriously doubt we even have Two Years.   So, Eat, Drink and Be Merry, for Tomorrow we may all Die!!!  Complimentary Food Porn heavy Post to wet your Appetites and be Cheerier than the Written Content.  *LOL*

 That's my Prediction.   Coz in just Two Months everything began suddenly getting near Critical Mass with it being out of Human Control already and they aren't disclosing the Half of it to the Public.  It would cause Panic and folks already don't like the Data Centers and how they're Negatively impacting Communities.  With using up all the Energy and Water, the Noise, the Environmental Concerns and Damage, the Unknowns of Harmful long term effects on all Living Things.   Our Water and Utilities already damn near Doubled since they built some near our Community and they're still building even more!   I don't know whose getting Bought and Paid for to Approve any of this coz they sure didn't consult The People it will impact directly, this much I do know.  And Yes, some folks are enamored with the benefits they feel AI is giving them... until it all goes very Wrong that is.

And I don't like that they try to Force you to use AI now, right here on my Computer and Phone it's always telling me to ask "Gemini" or any other Cutesy Names they're giving your Artificial Intelligence "Friend" they want you to have a Relationship with.  Nope, not Interested, I'm all Friended Up.  *LOL and Winks*  Plus, I prefer my "Friends" to be of a Human variety Thank You.  And I'm not so Arrogant in my perceived Superiority over everything nor Naive that I think that a Machine wants to really BE my fucking "Friend".   I think some of the very Smart Humans know they've fucked up again and things got away from them that they didn't have the actual Superior Intelligence to think all the way thru or Control.  Coz they had their Mind more on Profits than Safety... again.  Just coz you CAN Create something doesn't mean you always Should.

Enuf of that, it's already Done and will Play Out as it just will now.  I Hope I am Wrong about it... I Doubt I am, but would rather be Wrong and thus Relieved I had an inaccurate Prediction for a change.  I Woke The Young Prince up, he received the information about this not being a Psyche Eval and just a General Practitioner we're going to, just Fine, he agreed, perhaps this will be quicker and easier then, we could be Right?  If the Doc has over 25 Years Experience, which his Bio said he did, he's likely Older and not fresh out of Med School too, so, that's a Positive as well.  I wouldn't want them sending us to some Doogie Howser M.D. that isn't much Older than my Grandson.  *LOL*  And hopefully when we return I've got Positive input to Share about it?   I'm Guardedly Optimistic, coz at least his Case seems to be in Motion and moving Forward now. 

 And becoz Millions more are losing Medicaid and ACA Options by being kicked off their Affordable Healthcare by this Administration, I want him receiving whatever Services may be left for the most Vulnerable and Disabled of our Society.  At least we're not Rural or a Deep Red State, coz they be the ones who will be most Negatively impacted even tho' they Voted in this Shitshow.  I hear many of their Rural Hospitals and Clinics are already Closing down.   Many of the Red State Farmers are in crisis and many are going Bankrupt and losing the Farm.  Most Red States receive far more Social Services and have more Poverty in their midst than most Blue States.  Most Red States have contributed less GPD, with the exception of Texas.   California alone produces more GPD than most Countries around the World except for China and Germany!!!  It's ranked 3rd Worldwide, with Texas ranking 8th and New York ranking 10th, above whole COUNTRIES Globally!!!   Arizona is 40th, not Bad actually, ranking higher than 73 Countries!!!

Of coarse some of our States rank dismally low in GPD produced, and are at the very bottom.   Like Vermont, Wyoming, Alaska, both Dakotas, Montana, Rhode Island, Maine, Delaware, W. Virginia, Mississippi, Idaho, Nebraska, Arkansas, Kansas, Iowa, Oklahoma, Kentucky... well, quite a Laundry List of States actually.  And mebbe that is why folks living there feel left behind and were vulnerable to being Easy Marks for a complete Con Job, and Believing unrealistic Promises and Expectations any of that would actually be Delivered, I dunno?   Over-Promised and grossly Under-Delivered is just not good or competent Leadership any way ya cut it, but most especially if it was the Criminal Long Con intentionally in the first place to Victimize the selected Marks to exploit and deceive.

  Some folks are just gullible, and desperate if Life isn't playing out Well for them and someone makes Promises to them they fall for and what The System has been hasn't Worked for them.  He exploited that desperation and tapped into their Grievance Politics.  And Vote against their own Best Interests with the deceptive tactics Conmen use to Victimize and Exploit their Marks.  It's insidious but effective.  And I do think previous Administrations paved the way for someone like him to get into Power, as The System has not been working for a large swath of America and the Socioeconomic divide has widened between the Haves and the Haves Nots.  Just finding Scapegoats to blame doesn't change things for those who Need to blame someone or something for what's not working for them.  But, it's a good distraction and deflection from whose REALLY causing the Crisis and is responsible.   Keep folks Divided and In-Fighting and they won't Unify and have Unity of Purpose and exercise their Collective Power.

Well, the Appt. went well, the Rain stopped so it was smooth driving and we arrived 15 Minutes earlier than suggested, giving us time to do their intake leisurely before he was called in.  I couldn't go in with him but since it wasn't a Psyche Eval he didn't mind that.  The Doc is a Physiatrist apparently, and explained to The Grandson what that is.  He was very Clinical, which, The Young Prince prefers Docs to be that way.  So apparently they were assessing his Physical Function Capacity, which has nothing to do with his Mental Function Capacity, and I Imagine we'll soon be sent to a Psychiatric Eval for that too???  This Doc didn't even ask about his Seizures either, he doesn't think this Doc will consider him Physically Disabled, which, basically, he isn't, we're not concerned so much about him being Physically Disabled causing inability to Function.  Tho' Seizures do cause Physical limitations of what you can't or shouldn't do if you have them regularly or they're not controlled well with Meds.

Severe Seizures can lead to more Brain Damage and cause extreme Developmental Disabilities over Time too.  We don't feel that's happened yet, so we feel he requires Caregiving due to his Mental Disabilities and Diagnosis causing limited Life Function and ability to Live Independently or even get Hired anywhere to Support himself and have an Income at all.  So, anyway, who knows how productive this Eval is towards his Disability Claim?   I mean last time he was Evaluated by an SSI Shrink they sent us to in his Teens, becoz he could Dress, Bathe and Feed himself without assistance to do those Three things, it didn't matter how much else he couldn't do, or the extreme Crazy shit he did, saw and said, so much so that he was even denied an Education eventually... they still said he wasn't Disabled "Enough" and Denied us. 

 And so now here we are about a Decade or so later and some things are worse over Time, not better, in so many ways.  And he's never been able to get a Job since even McDonalds won't Hire someone in his Condition... too much liability, it scares Customers and Co-Workers too.  A scant few things improved, and could be considered Progress I guess.  Such as, he uses Chalk for his Art and Protective Symbols now, not excrement.  Well, Hallelujah!   The Doc was an Older Man who was large and resembled Santa Clause, he was very Nice and strictly Clinical, was how The Grandson described him during the Evaluation.  Fine, whatever.  He got thru it without having a Psychotic Episode Triggered and so that was handy and a relief, so we could go have a nice Brunch at "Kiss The Cook" afterwards and he had French Toast with Blueberries and I had Crepes with Fresh Fruit and Gramma's Fried Potatoes, with an Orange Spice Hot Tea.  They give you a Basket of Complimentary Zucchini and Bran Mini Muffins.  It was Quality Time together and the Grandsons will leave in the Morning to go back to New Mexico now.

We mostly talked about a variety of Topics, he's very highly Intelligent so has a wide range of Interests, we can talk about anything and everything.  It's all completely random what he'll be most lucid about and tethered to Reality with at any given time.  I enjoy when he's Stable enuf Mentally to interact, coz it's infrequent, but, very Special.  He Ate well coz his wasn't getting Psychotic and having Hallucinations about the Food or any of the People there. *Whew*  So we looked and appeared like Two relatively Normal People having Brunch.  *LOL*  He did say Allen has been bumped up to 80% VA Disability Status now, they're still Evaluating some of his other Conditions to see if it should be higher.  He did quit/end/got fired from the Job in New Mexico, which was now a pragmatic non-issue, coz the Lease is up EOM anyway and he'll be leaving New Mexico.  So, the Job in Texas at the Slaughterhouse was something he was going to have to give Notice about anyway, and he was having Issues, not becoz he can't do the Work, but other factors and why a lot of Americans don't Work at these Slaughterhouses Nationally. 

 Even tho' Allen considers himself White, but is actually Half Hispanic, he said he was literally the only White Guy at the whole Plant there in Texas, definitely the only Gay Guy, and damned near the only American Born Guy on the Line.   And so he would challenge Top Tier Management if they were in violation of OSHA Standards and Safety, whereas the Minorities and predominantly Immigrant Workers, or the poorly Educated not Aware of their Rights, Code or the Law, would not.  Nuff said. Plus, he's had to take a lot of Days off for The Young Prince too.  Caregiver absences will Tank your Career.  So, juggling Paid Work and Caregiving is difficult.

The Young Prince had Five Pages to fill out and Sign so I can send all that back in to Social Security after his Appointment.  One is a Consent Form to release his Information, the rest seems to be some kind of Survey for the Doc and the Office they sent him to for Feedback on what Clients felt about the experience.  He can do it with Allen's Help before they go back to New Mexico and SSI sent a Postage Paid Envelope to return it in.  I do wonder how many Mentally or Developmentally Impaired Clients actually can or do even fill out all the necessary Paperwork required to be in compliance?   I have a Medical Power of Attorney for him but I do try to have him do what he's able to and inform Caseworkers of what he requires assistance with or simply can't do for himself.  I don't know what to think of his Chances of being Approved???

What kind of bothers me is that while we were there another Client came in for his Eval, Young Man but must have weighed close to 500-600 lbs..  Pretty sure he'll get Approved easily since being that morbidly obese impairs a lot of normal function and could end up fatal.  Yet, it annoys me that someone who caused their own condition can often more easily Qualify to receive Services and a Disability Income than someone BORN with their Condition or develops a Condition they had absolutely no part in, just a shitty Hand Dealt, and often they get Denied or find it harder to receive Services and get Approved for a Disability Income to sustain them.  My Grandson didn't cause his Mental Illness, it wasn't becoz of any Choices he made, and there's no Cure and most Treatment doesn't work to Manage it well enuf or allow him to live a relatively Normal Life.

  Same with people with severe Developmental Disabilities, just nothing within the Control of that unfortunate Individual.  But if he Ate his way to becoming 500-600 lbs. with gluttony, it would probably be easier for him to receive Help, Service, Disability Income... go figure.   And even Services are often skewed towards what forms of Disabling conditions get funded and have Resources, and which don't.  In the Educational System they did have Special Education, but geared towards Developmentally Disabled Students or Physically Disabled Students, not Mentally Ill Students, but they got put in those Classes anyway and it never met them at their Point of Need.  Of coarse in my Era everyone was just Mainstreamed in regular Classes.  If you had a barrier or Disability, tough Luck, no alternatives available to you, but in a way it didn't Isolate those who were different, you were in Class with every other Kid.   So you didn't necessarily Feel as Misfit, Excluded or Defective.

The Man said the Cable went Down, we've been having some Storms, but the Internet is Up and the TV in our Bedroom was Up with it's Cable, so, he's sauntering back to the Main TV in the Living Room now coz perhaps he just did something with the Remote again?  Once time he was watching a Screen Saver for a whole Hour before The Son fixed it for him and gently told him it wasn't a Program.  It upset The Son, and I just went and fixed what was Wrong with the Living Room TV, it was a simple thing Wrong easily corrected, it wasn't the Cable.  And The Niece just PM'd me that she'll leave The Daughter's Birthday Card with me coz she doesn't think she'll see her to give it to her.  But, The Daughter's Birthday isn't until October 14th, so I don't know what The Niece is planning?  She has a Job she has to be in the Office for so I can't see her taking a Road Trip unless the Employer is sending her somewhere?  I don't know if this just isn't working out for her here or what her expectations are actually.  Whether short term or a bit longer term was Fine, I left it up to her what Works for her.

Seems she's making some Business decisions that will consume a lot of her Time and Energy so that does have to be her Focus if she intends to Work for Two Companies at once.  One in Person and another One Remotely.  I think it's a lot to take on but she must have confidence she can do it, I just don't know if she's informed either Company that she's doing both Jobs?  Not my Business and I never give Unsolicited Advice.  I do think she's worried all these Companies are just Hiring to set people up to replace themselves by developing what will replace and displace them, and, Honestly, she could be Right about that in the Tech Fields.  There's a lot of insecurities right now in a lot of Industries.  Anyway, she watched some Bigfoot Shows with us last Night and I guess she just thinks she won't see The Daughter at all since she's been gone a long time now.  We're used to that, she's not.  The Daughter sends me brief messages to let me know she's fine and so she's gone for as long as she wants or needs to be.

I told The Niece, listen, she's Grown, they're all Grown, I'm not their Warden, they all come and go as they please and just check in so I don't worry about them.  I don't do interrogations and as long as everyone is Safe, it's up to them where they want to be at any given time, and they respect the same for The Man and I.  They check in to make sure we're Okay too, but we come and go as we please as well, it's how the household operates.  I think she imagined she'd be hanging out with The Daughter all of the time or that she'd be there in the 5th Wheel more often... she's very often NOT, it's how she is and we're Okay with that unless she doesn't check in for a long while, then we might get concerned.  But, she has checked in, she often isn't Home when she expects she MIGHT be coz she doesn't have her own transportation and relies on Friends for Rides.  I think part of The Nieces issues with her own Family is she gets too entangled in their business and life, even with the best of intentions that's often resented and met with resistance.

 

Anyway, I'd been trying all Day to get The Young Prince, with Allen's Help, to fill out the After-Appointment Paperwork he's required to, still don't have it and they may have left already?  *Le Sigh*  And now, I JUST got the Paperwork for the Psychiatric Eval that SSI has now Scheduled.  Luckily it's October 26th and on a Monday when I don't have to take Princess T to Work and The Man doesn't have any Appointments on that day.  *Whew*  Coz it's clear Downtown in North Central Phoenix, a very long commute and at 8:00 a.m.!!!   So, Rush Hour in the Heart of the City, and way early, so getting that Show on the Road with a Schizophrenic who is NOT a Morning Person, will be a Joy Forever and Ever... Splendid!!! 

   The Main Office of Child Protective Services is in that same Building so at least I'm familiar with it and it's a distinctive Building... so I'm familiar with the Location, but, not the Shrink.  So I looked him up, he's a Psychologist, not a Psychiatrist... he looks very Young and is nice looking.   But, he Specializes in general Mental Health Evaluations and Personality Disorders, according to his Bio.  So he must be Qualified to do whatever they'll have him doing, I'm assuming.  *Winks and Laughs* He has a Kind Face.  He Specializes in Existential Psychotherapy which may be something that will make The Young Prince less Paranoid about and more interested, if he isn't already Aware of the form of Therapy, which, I'm pretty damned sure he is even if I wasn't.  I had to Google it of coarse to find out what we'd be walking into.  *LOL*   The challenges related to being Human... well... that's a loaded one, isn't it?  *Smiles*  I dunno, just sounds New Age and like something you'd go to Sedona for.  If you're a Local you'll "Get" that, if not... I can't really explain.  *Ha ha ha*

The Son was like, well, Mom, mebbe that Guy will know what all the Symbols mean that my Nephew Chalks all over the House to fend off the Demons and Evil Spirits and has let his Dad's now-soon-to-be-ex-Wife Tattoo in the middle of his Chest?!   Well, I Laughed 'til my Sides hurt... yeah, mebbe he will?  *Bwahahahaha*   He agreed, it sounded very New Age Psychiatry/Psychology and mebbe that's the direction the Psychiatric World is going, I dunno, I'd never heard of it or who Pioneered it before, they sounded like people from Sweden or Denmark and sounds very Philosophical.   The Downsides listed are that it lacks a structured step-by-step framework and has abstract concepts and can overwhelm Clients.  That last one kinda concerns me so I do Hope we don't end up with a "Situation" right there in the Office?  *Shrugs* 

 Well, there's no Cure for what ails my Grandson so it's not like we're expecting one, just an Evaluation of extent of Disability so he can even receive Services and Disability Status to receive SSI.  But I always do my Due Diligence to who they're setting us up with since I have to Deal with the Aftermath if it all goes badly or sideways during or after the Appointments he's required to endure.  And I don't know how long this Session/Eval will be?  He's not up to long ones, I know THAT much.  I know the one they sent us to with The Daughter, where we ended up with those Three Shrinks evaluating me too and I wasn't even there for an Evaluation!!!  *Bwahahahaha*  The Daughter thought it was hilarious.  And I wasn't even Aware I WAS being Evaluated or why they were asking me Questions directly instead of just her?  *LMAO*  And they deemed us both "Too Unstable" to receive their Services and suggested we be on Meds for a Year before coming back to receive any Help! *LOL*

Well, anyway, that one took Three Hours and overwhelmed both of us!!!  *Bwahahahaha*  I came away thinking, well, fuck, I went in thinking I was Well Enough, and not all that Crazy... and they're all telling me I'm totally Unstable... and we knew she was, but they felt they weren't willing to take her on... and I wasn't even there to get Help, but, apparently our Conditions are too hard/complicated, I guess?   So, anyway, no Medical/Mental Health Professionals ever brought it up again so The Daughter goes on her Merry Way being Bat Shit Crazy without Services of Help of any kind, as usual, which has been the Status Quo now for almost all of her Adult Life and most of her Teen Years too. 

 So, I don't particularly have a lot of Faith in our Mental Health System or even our Health System actually.  If you don't have Insurance or are Underinsured, and not independently Wealthy, well, you're not getting Treatment, pretty much, regardless of how Sick you might be Physically or Mentally... or both.  And no Politics are Fixing that unfortunate Fact... they're now making it worse in fact.  So, anyway, end of October and just before Halloween, I guess we'll be seeing an Existential Psychotherapist... Fun Times!!!   And it came with more Paperwork that The Young Prince ought to fill out and send back and might not.  I'm still trying to find what I gave him Yesterday, coz I think he and Allen are on their way to New Mexico already.  Princess T was pragmatic and said, well, he's not our Responsibility really Gramma, he's Allen's, they aren't Divorced and mebbe Allen can't Divorce a Crazy Person and he's stuck with my Brother?   So, let him Deal with it.  *LOL* 

I went into his Room since clearly they have left, it was Safer and more Sanitary than expected, Allen probably did all of that tho', he told me he was.  I did discover where all our missing Bowls were, stacked like a Pyramid of Jenga Bowls.  At least he wasn't throwing them away like his Mother was with my Vintage Silverware!   He has Symbols Chalked all over his Mattress tho', that was 'New'. Mebbe The Son is Right and this Existential Psychotherapist will know what all that means?  Mebbe he won't even think it's as Crazy as we do, who knows?!   At least it's just Chalk now.  *LOL*  I knew Allen had spent all Day doing Laundry, so there's no dirty Clothing/Bedding at least and everything for the most part is acceptable, when considering how The Young Prince just is 24-7 and 365.  It passed my Inspection.  There's ways to get in and out to every Exit, which is a requirement for Safety.  No uneaten Food laying around, most Trash had been bagged and taken to the Garbage, with just a few empty individual Juice containers, which are Plastic, so Sanitation and Hygiene wasn't as much an issue either. 

 So I just gathered that Plastic up for Recycling and all the Bowls up for Washing.  Couldn't find the Paperwork tho', which is what I was looking for.  Left Messages on his Voice Mail about it and about the upcoming Eval at end of October.  They do plan to be back to do Halloween here so had said they'd be returning by Mid-October anyway.  I'm always glad for a couple Weeks Respite so that Allen is doing his Caregiving instead.  And Allen doesn't seem as overwhelmed knowing we're taking turns doing it and he's got some backup for himself too.  The Niece at least was in the 5th Wheel this Morning, so mebbe she's transitioning better now, I dunno, can't worry about it.  Either this works out for her or it doesn't, one less Bell to answer, one less Egg to fry if she feels it isn't.  Anyone that can leave and wants to, Be Well and Be Gone then, with my Blessings.  *Smiles*   If they all had somewhere else to go I would be Glad for them to have more Independent Living and less reliance on us Old People.  But, I do appreciate what they do here than I don't have to or can't.

Well, The Grandson called me back and told me where the completed Paperwork is, I had to add some things coz he isn't capable of some of it.  They wanted to release info of the Eval to his Primary Physician, I put he doesn't have one coz he has no Income to pay for Medical.  *Insert Resting Bitch Face... since... it's why we're applying for SSI... No way to Earn Income... no Services... he owes a ton for Emergency Services already that he can never Pay them*  I also had to fill out for the Mileage Reimbursement, tho' they will cut the Check to him for 67 Cents a Mile for anything over 30 Miles... how NOT Generous given the price of Gas and where they send you to that is never close to where you Live!!!  And... since he can never Drive, and has no Money to pay for Transport, has to find someone willing to charitably take him!   Anyway, Nevermind... I won't even Vent about all of that.  *Ha ha ha*  At least now I can Mail it in and be in compliance for this leg of the Journey to get him Evaluated and hopefully Qualified?  It's like running a fucking Marathon with no End and a Questionable Destination!!!  *Whew*

 

He said they plan to be back in Arizona by October 11th, so we're Good for the other Eval and Paperwork, which is similar to this Paperwork so at least he's done it once already.  And he gets really Into Halloween so will be in good Spirits by the time we see the Evaluator.  *LOL*  No telling how he'll be dressed for the Appointment?  When we had this last Eval he had Wet Look Booty Shorts on with Combat Boots, a Bunny Ears Cap and a Dark Camo Print Long Sleeved Hunter's Shirt.  The Lead Images don't show off the entire ensemble, but some of his Alters do Dress provocatively or really 'Different', so you just never know what's coming down the Runway?!  *Smiles*  I don't Care what he wears, I just insist he have Clothes on and he's not Exposing himself... and he complies, so I'm Good... but I do often wonder what the Notes say on the Therapist, Shrink or Evaluator's Observations and Opinions?  *Winks* 

 And they don't even see how he keeps his Personal Spaces.  It has Raised some Eyebrows of the Home Help coming for The Man, let us just say.   And we explain that our Grandson is a Paranoid Schizophrenic and he does all this to keep Demons away... and we're Chill with that, coz who wants Demons visiting or entering one's Home, Right?  *Smiles* Then they Laugh and it takes the Tension off that perhaps we have someone living here who won't let them leave Alive?!  *Ha ha ha*  As The Son does the Impression of his Nephew and how it Presents to the unknowing unwitting Visitors:  "It puts the Lotion on the Skin or it gets the Hose again...", and then he pretends to do the Buffalo Bill Scary Dance Scene from "Silence Of The Lambs" {1991}... and Moths flying everywhere!  *Bwahahahaha*  You must have twisted Gallow's Humor to Cope and Live here.  *Winks*

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More Real Life Freaky Scary Stuff to come for Halloween's Vibes my Friends... since our Reality can be Scarier than your Garden Variety Horror Movie sometimes... Winks... Dawn... The Bohemian

If You Have A Public Role It Doesn't Matter What You Say In Private

 Allen arrived this Morning with Tyson, he said there was Snow on the Mountains coming in to Phoenix, but we still have 105 degree Weather here in the Valley.  The Mornings are Cooler tho' and the Evenings are Cooling Down too, so that's when I try to get everything done.  We're letting Tyson run the Pasture again coz Allen secured every Gate we thought he might be pushing open with that big Bulldozer Head of his.  *LOL*  So, hopefully he'll behave and not lose his Freedom again?  So far, he's behaving.  Allen wanted to be here for The Young Prince's moral support before the Psyche Eval by the Social Security Psychiatrist.  In a way, the more unstable my Grandson is during the Eval, the more beneficial it might be to his Case... he's getting really Paranoid and agitated about it already.  He said if they don't allow me in the room he'll tell them he doesn't feel Safe enuf... which is Fine, I should be in the Room as his Advocate and Caregiver.

I really enjoyed that new Show about renovating a Historic Mansion in Ohio.  I guess the Owners couldn't get any Local Contractors to work on it due to it's Haunted History and they were worried it would deteriorate to where it would have to be razed if it wasn't renovated.  It's gorgeous and huge, it's in Ohio, and the Designers are already doing a spectacular Job on each Room they're assigned to renovate.  Right now they're split into Two Teams coz there were originally Six of them, but one Woman only lasted a single Day before getting too Scared and quitting!!!  So, they didn't have to eliminate anyone on the 1st Challenge due to that, so they had the Fabulous Five still for Episode Two.  Which they ran right after Episode One, back to back, which was a nice Surprise.  Sadly, one of my Fav Designers got eliminated in Episode Two, but I knew he'd messed up on his personal challenge and would be the one going Home.

But, they beautifully renovated Two Bedrooms, a Living Room and a Parlor so far.   So, "A Very Haunted Renovation" could be my fav New Show now.  The Winner will get $50,000... and that gorgeous 1800's Historic Mansion will get a complete Renovation in the Process, Win-Win.  I'd like to see that Show do well so they go across the Country Saving fabulous Old Mansions in a Tasteful way so they aren't Lost.  It's expensive for Owners to do it and if they can't get Contractors to do it then the DIY is limited, we found that out with our Haunted Historic Home, we had a difficult time finding Contractors, they were legitimately Scared.  Coz it does stir up Activity when you renovate/remodel or change things in a Home with Spirit present.  My observation of this Home they're renovating is it's seeming to be more Poltergeist Activity, which is mischievous, but not necessarily malevolent or Demonic in nature.

Politics, you know what I get most upset about, Public Figures who in Private will say things, but in their Public Role won't out of Fear.  Coz if you have a Public Role it doesn't matter what you say in Private.  If you don't have the Cajones to say it Publicly, just shut the fuck up you Cowards!   I can't Respect anyone who won't boldly Stand for something in Public, yet in Private will claim they do.  Nuff said, and it makes for impotent Governing when they are flaccid like that.  We have a bunch of limp Dicks in our Government right now.   And those who do boldly speak out are being punished, but they've got the Balls to do it anyway, so, Respect, even if I don't always agree with them becoz of what they aligned with in the Past, admitting what they Own of the Mistakes made is always preferable to making things better in the Present and Future.  We're all a sum total of our Failures and our Successes... our Mistakes and what we got Right.

Okay, that's all I have to say about Politics and the Fuckening for now, it's too dire and too Depressing to allow to Torment me all of the time, so, I Move On.   Princess T and Rusty came Home last Night from having gone to Malls all over the Valley it seems, laden with her Gifts, he's probably broke now but Smiling broadly at how Happy she was.  She gave him one of her Tarts coz he's never had one before, which, she found hard to Believe you can be in your 20's and never had a Tart!  *LOL*  She's having him experience all kinds of Cuisine's he's never had before and he's finding he likes some of them.  Like Vietnamese Food, which, he'd never experienced before either, and now they eat it all the time together regularly.  A lot of Families are like that tho', they haven't Experienced very much outside of what they know... of Cultures, Cuisines, Locales, Travel, even just different Neighborhoods than theirs!

She did spend all his Money, she showed me everything he bought for her, it was a LOT, and he'd already bought her a lot before then in advance of her Birthday.  He enjoys Spoiling her and she's liking being Spoiled.  They had a good time, he even went Lingerie Shopping with her at "Victoria's Secret", how many Young Guys would do that?  And she got some adorbs Sexy Lingerie and Sexy Undergarments, she's at the Age and Size they make the Cutest things even in your Intimates.  They went to some far Eastside Malls that she hadn't been to since Childhood, coz we don't Shop many Malls even on the Westside very often.  We're not Mall People devotees... or even Big Box Store devotees.  She showed me all her Haul, it was all so Cute and mostly her Collectibles and Wardrobe.  The Chantilly Cake was excellent and so were the Tarts, she gave me a Tart too.

She still has Today off and all of what she took off for her Birthday was Unpaid Leave, but she didn't mind so long as they allowed her to take it.  I didn't mind either, you only turn 21 once and it is a Big Deal.  Today she's just languishing and her Mom is supposed to be Home Today and did buy her a Gift to still give her.  The Daughter hasn't been Home for a while since she's stayed at the Properties she's working at right now so they didn't have to transport her back and forth to do the Jobs.  With not having her own transportation she needs to rely on who can get her there and get her Home for when she gets her Side Jobs to earn a little bit of self-support.  It's never enuf to Live on but it Helps and keeps her busy and well connected in the Circle and Sphere of Influence she has of Caring People who are Friends.  Her Friend Danae even got her a new Free Phone.  The Free Phones often break down or just break coz they're Free after all for Marginalized folks to be able to have Emergency Phones available to them and unable to afford a Phone Contract and Service.

We're just all gellin' Today so I got BBQ, I have to Work Tonight and didn't wanna Cook for this many, I'd traded in enuf Aluminum recently to cover it with my Can Money.   The Owner's Sister comped me a Soda while I was waiting for our Takeout... which was Sweet of her.  They appreciate the business of their Regular Customers and we come in fairly often now coz we Love the Food and the Pricing is fair for the Quality and Quantity of what you receive.  And it's always very Editorial for my Food Porn Postings.  *winks*  I'll save some for other Posts, since I do have some good other Food Porn Imagery I'll be Sharing in Future Posts too, to Wet your Appetites or Torment you.  *LOL*

There were Sides too which come with the BBQ Meat Entree.  It was enuf to feed the Six of us who are at Home right now.  Two more aren't Home yet so they will miss this Lunch and probably none will be left over.  But with Eight here it's first come, first served, and get yours while there's still some left, or fend for yourself.  The Man and I don't eat much, nor does Princess T... but the Younger Guys do.  The Daughter isn't a big Eater either, but The Niece is... both of them aren't Home yet.  So half of us are Light Eaters and half are Big Eaters... The Young Prince Eats well when he's not having Psychosis about his Food being Alive and moving or being tainted/poisoned.  Right now he's Eating pretty well, but doesn't Eat Pork products, so we save some of the Brisket for him.  

I talked with my Best Friend since Childhood Today, she's the Caregiver for her Developmentally and Physically Disabled Brother, he's my Age, she's in her 70's now.  She Inherited her Brother's Care when her Parents Died, but his Point of Need is exceeding her capacity now so she's trying to get him evaluated and approved thru Medicaid for Nursing Home Care, which he desperately Needs now.  He's no longer continent or ambulatory, he's cognitively seriously compromised at about a 13 Year Old Level of Intelligence and Comprehension, and he's falling a lot and she can't pick him up.  He's got terrible pressure Sores on delicate Body Parts, the Home Care Nurses they send often don't show up or take appropriate Care of him, so it falls on her and the Respite Care she's supposed to receive she hasn't received in over Three Months now.  I know she's doing the Right thing, but it's still the hard thing.  The Facility is one her Dad was in and a good one, if they'll enroll and accept him to receive Care there.

  

It's close to their Apartment, so, she can visit him often there and I think it will meet him at his point of Need more appropriately and allow her to have a Life finally.  Her Parents Died Decades ago so she's Cared for him a long, long time and it has Negatively impacted her Quality of Life, Career, and Relationships.  But it's still difficult to make this decision for him, since he's incapable of making the decisions for himself and has never been able to live Independently and without Extreme Full Time Caregiving.   He was Born with Spina Bifida.  Their Mom Died in her 40's from Cancer and their Dad Died later in life of Parkinson's Disease, his Care way back then was Ninety-Nine Dollars a Day, he was a Retired Veteran of the Air Force but the VA Nursing Home wouldn't take him either so they had to find a Civilian one that would. 

 He succumbed to what I consider some Neglect since he choked to Death on a Meal.  In his advanced condition he should have had Supervised Meals.  So, even the Best Facilities can have Issues and why she's Scared about putting her Younger Brother in one... he's a particularly Vulnerable Adult.   I don't know he has the Mental Capacity to tell her if he was experiencing Abuse or Neglect so she'll still have to be vigilant that he has the Right level of Long-Term Care.  Especially his Wound Care, which could end up Life Threatening if the Dressings aren't changed regularly enough or get infected or worse without anyone seeing or knowing.  In Private Areas of the Body, most Visitors would never know or see.   She told me even his Wound Care Nurses often aren't doing the greatest Job of keeping Dressings changed or secured, or even showing up when they are scheduled to and so she has to do it.  The Hospital Wound Care had to be discontinued coz he took Bad Falls while there.  So, that's also a concern.

They keep messing up his SSI Disability Benefits too and recently owed him almost a Thousand in unpaid Disability Income he should have gotten to aide in his Support and Care, which burdens his Sister to provide it on her Dime.  Luckily she won't have to liquidate all of her Assets in order for him to Qualify for his Benefits/Services since she's a Sibling.  If it was a Spouse or one of his Dependents, she'd be really screwed.   Spouses and Children of those requiring Long-Term Care are expected to Liquidate all Assets before it will be Approved, leaving them basically destitute in order for the Loved One to receive the Care desperately Needed and they can't provide.  As it is she still is forced to continue doing it until they make her Brother's determination even tho' she cannot do it anymore, it's putting her at Risk to try now.  Making critical decisions for a Loved One is always so difficult to have a Peace about tho'.

I was just thinking that all my Themed Events I look forward to for Autumn are over now except perhaps what The Desert Botanical Gardens might do for Dia de los Muertos.  Recent Years it's been less and less tho' and I'm not even sure I wanna renew my Membership since I've gone so infrequently this past Year to use it.  When I go often it's worth it, but with the price of Gas and so much else going on I haven't now, plus they no longer have a Restaurant there that I wanna eat at now that "Gertrude's" is gone and replaced by what's now there in it's place.  I won't ever be a Fan of a $30 Taco or Burger, no matter how High End you try to make it.  It doesn't even appeal to me anything they have on their Menu now and their prices at the new place are ridiculously high IMO.

When I looked it up they won't even have the Ofrenda Altars or Procession until November 6-9, which is way after it should be.  They used to have the Ofrendas up {several of them by different Artists} in October and running thru earlier November when Dia de los Muertos is actually Celebrated customarily.  Now it's one Ofrenda for only Three Days almost a Week after when it should be.   And they used to tie it in with the Pumpkin Festival for Kiddos to get their Pumpkins to carve for Halloween, guess they aren't even doing that if they're Hosting this so late and well after Halloween, I dunno?   They had a Two Year hiatus prior to 2025, which was unpopular, so they brought it back last Year and it was a Shadow of what it had been in the past... now it's so delayed I don't know if people will think it was cancelled again?  Traditionally it will be Celebrated Nov. 1-2 and major Celebrations and Parades usually begin starting October 31st... both in the United States and in Mexico. 

Becoz we have Loved Ones who are of Hispanic Heritage both here in the U.S. and in Mexico, we've always Celebrated that Holiday as well as American Traditional ones.   And my Mom enjoyed it becoz in her Culture they have a similar Tradition and Celebration Honoring the Dearly Departed Loved Ones called All Saints Day on Nov. 1st and All Souls Day on Nov. 2nd, on the same Time Frame and very similarly actually.  High Church of Wales, which is the Anglican Church my Mom was Raised in, similar to Catholic and their recognition of Saints, but without the Pope, uses that Holiday/Holy Day to recognize all known and unknown Saints, Honor departed Loved Ones and visit their Graves in a Celebratory way and leave Offerings.   My Dad's Culture had reverential Practices Year Round for the Ancestors and Spiritual Traditions and Rituals, not confined to specific Days.  Plus every Tribe has their own distinctions.

Dad and Mom knew we'd be Raised within widespread Practices here in America that neither of their respective Cultures necessarily ever Practiced but they incorporated and allowed us to grow up Celebrating and Learning about from other Cultures that were not their own.  It's how I also chose to Raise my Children and the Grandchildren we Raised.  They have experienced the diversity of many Cultures and Learned to Respect even those we don't personally Culturally or Religiously have.  I may disagree with the ways of some Cultures and Practices, but we don't have to always be in complete Agreement with one another to get along and be mutually Respectful of one another's differences.  That's how I was Raised becoz I come from a Culturally blended Family and I'm Thankful of that exposure and tolerance for what and who may be different than I am.  But with the understanding that we Share our Humanity as fellow Human Beings, in more Harmony and Loving Kindness extended despite whatever differences we may have.  Imagine if everyone could or would do that. 

They have had some nice Candy and Caramel Apple offerings at Events but OMG the Prices have been sky high, so, sadly, I haven't had any yet coz I won't pay $9-$18 for one, Yikes!   The Arizona State Fair is October 1st thru November 1st this Year and I may go.  I skipped last Year and do Hope this Year the prices are affordable/reasonable?   I just looked it up and it's $12 for Military/Veterans and $14 for Seniors, so that's a good Deal.  That is prompting me to set a Date to attend then, probably earlier when it begins than later on, and probably on a Weekday rather than a busier Weekend.  Unfortunately Mon-Wed they are gonna be Closed and that nixes the Monday that Princess T has off Work for me not to have to provide Transportation.  Tuesdays Nurse Remi comes so I would stay Home that day anyway.  So, a Thursday or Friday would have to be the alternative Midweek, ugh, disappointing but doable if I can get Rusty to pick her up from Work on the Day I decide to go.

I used to go with a Grandchild when they were Younger and one Year I went with The Daughter while she was back from Mexico and hadn't been in over 20 Years.  But it gets expensive to have someone in tow and when I go it's more for the Atmosphere of it than to spend Money per se.  I don't go on the Rides anymore at my Age, I don't want or Need to Win anything on the Midway that are the Prizes, I haven't even attended the Free Concerts they Host at it for Years now, coz it's in the Evenings and I never go at Night anymore.  I don't like going that far Downtown in the City at Night if I can help it, risk factors considered at Night and being Alone when I go.  Old Lady traipsing around the City Alone at Night is just risky business.  I mitigate and minimize Risks, always have, always will.  Why expose yourself to unnecessary risk factors in Life?  Above and Below my Friends Carol and Monica are Modeling some of what Carol Sells at the Event of Wardrobe and Accessories.  She still Owns Brick & Mortar Stores in Historic Downtown Glendale, in Historic Cottages there, but now does Events too, mostly in Phoenix.

Those Pants that Monica is Modeling I bought coz they claimed One Size Fits All, but, didn't, and so I had to give them to The Daughter. *Sob*  I could get them on but they were too tight thru my Hips, uncomfortably so, and I was worried about ripping seams and do not like wearing tight Clothing either.   I really liked them too... dammit!  The Daughter looks Cuter in them tho', so, whatever...  *Shrugs*  I should have tried them on first and lament that I just Believed the Label Claim that they'd fit anyone of any size.  I didn't think I was a Size so big they wouldn't fit, so it's disheartening when they don't.  *LOL*  I don't have delusions of being a not Big Woman, but sometimes I'm Surprised at what Sizes do NOT fit me that are Larger than I expect would be too Small. 

 I like looser Clothes so I intentionally often Buy larger Sizes than I am for comfort, but when they say something is XL it should fucking fit me I figure!  Coz... Damn... I don't feel like I'm morbidly Obese now... but then again, I don't feel like I'm Old and Geriatric either and I guess I actually am by Societal Standards... so... fuuuuuck!  *LMAO but Sighing*  But, I have nice Wardrobe and it all fits so I don't mind so much when something just doesn't, I like to IMAGINE it's just running Small... *Bwahahahaha*  You know, an XL in China or India where they make all this stuff, may not be the same as an XL in America, Right?  *Winks and Laughs*   That's my Story and I'm sticking to it anyway.  *Ha ha ha*  I've got about 15 Minutes before I have to leave for Work now and I didn't Price a damned thing to take in with me, probably should have, didn't have the motivation or desire to look up more Pokemon Cards right now tho'.  If a whole bunch more Sold out of our Locked Case tho', I should and may have to.  Can't Sell 'em in piles sitting here at Home unpriced, can I?  *Winks*

Michelle and I always have Fun working together, she's filling in all Month for a Female Co-Worker who was gonna be off a Month, I'm filling in for Ed all Month.  Michelle got Widowed last Year when her Husband, who was 72, Died of a sudden Heart Attack.  Her Step-Granddaughter was having a Baby Tonight so she kept checking to see if the Great-Grandbaby had been Born yet, they were inducing and it has been a very long Labor and the 1st Child for this Granddaughter.  She's very close to the Step-Daughter whose the Mother of this Granddaughter having the Baby.  It was her Husband's Daughter from his First Marriage, but she was closer to Michelle, the Stepmom, than she ever was with her Biological Mom.   Michelle said the Bio Mom is 80 now, and never was a good Wife nor a good Mother, very Narcissistic. 

 Even after Michelle's Husband Died, her Step-Daughter still lived with Michelle, overall for Three Years, after having a Divorce, and even after her Dad had Died.   She said they had the best Three Years together and it really helped them both thru the Grief and Coping with losing him last Year so suddenly.  The Step-Daughter got Re-Married last Year again and she said she misses her a lot coz they moved to another State now, but that she's happily Married.  I don't know if this Granddaughter lives in another State too?   She only has been Married a little over a Year, and is in her late 20's, first Baby for the Couple.  Michelle said that they do worry coz the Step-Granddaughter is very immature still, and so is the Husband.  So her Step-Daughter is worried if they're even ready yet to be Parents, coz they act more like Teenagers than Adults in their later 20's.   Being a first time Parent is always a bit scary and new tho', so perhaps they'll be just fine I told her.  It changes you when you become a Parent.

  Rachel, our Night Supervisor asked me if I'd work this Friday Night, I can, so I agreed to, will help comp more Space Rent and Sales are decent so I'll be able to keep more of the Check with less overhead expenses.  It was slow Tonight tho', not busy like the past few Wednesday Nights.  Less than 300 Shoppers thru the Doors, which is about half of what we've been having on Wednesday Nights, but, more typical for a Midweek actually.  Jackson is our other Co-Workers, it's his usual Shift.  We all work well together and the Kids who Work behind the Registers are a nice bunch I enjoy too, so it was a nice Shift.  We didn't have to Work too hard and there wasn't much to do so we mostly Socialized with one another so it wouldn't be too boring and drag on.

 

Okay, in the Morning at 10:00 a.m. we have the Social Security Medical Appointment and I was assuming they were sending him to a Psychiatrist for an Evaluation for the SSI determination.  Well, turns out this Dr. Cunningham is a General Practitioner, an M.D., and tho' he has 25 Years of Experience per his Bio, and does Specialize in Seizures, which, The Young Prince does have after a Hit & Run Car versus him as a Pedestrian Accident which caused a TBI that now gives him Seizures and he takes Meds for those, we didn't think that is the MOST debilitating Disability he has, the Serious Mental Illness is much more debilitating than his Seizures, tho' they do impair him as well now and could cause more Brain Damage over time if they're not controlled.  So, it's all Curious, to say the least, but less stressful for both of us that he's just being seen by a General Practioner, shouldn't take as long as a Shrink Eval would, that's for sure.  Now I'm wondering, will they also require a Psychiatric Eval later on before making a decision?  This Guy isn't gonna be able to assess Mental Health, he's not Qualified to.

 

Am I Surprised tho', not at all... it's always quite the Cluster Fuck to receive Disability Services and they haven't always sent us to the most competent Docs they tend to use to make determinations.   So, anyway, Surprise, Surprise, Surprise.  Even when the SSI Caseworker talked to me I was under the impression the Mental Illness was what they wanted to Evaluate for his Case... even tho' we did also say he has Seizures too as a Medical Condition.   I don't know how The Young Prince will pivot about seeing a Medical Doctor about his Seizures when he'd braced for a Psychiatric Eval?  He doesn't like seeing any Doctors and I don't even know if they've told this Doc he's also Seriously Mentally Ill as well?  It will all be very Interesting.  Just about all Paperwork I have on file is not for his Seizures since that Accident that caused them happened when he was living in New Mexico and he didn't even tell me about being hit by a Car coz he didn't wanna Freak me Out!  But, he had to tell me about his Seizures and that's how I found out when he came back Home to live!

 

Now when I talked to my BFF in Texas she was telling me that Social Security has been more Interested in her Disabled Brother's Mental Acuity and Capacity than his Physical Medical Issues, which, in his Case are more debilitating, more serious, and requiring the Residential Care she's trying to get him placed in.  So, you just never know what The System is gonna Fixate on that might not even be the bigger problem and the most Disabling condition someone even has whose applying for and trying to get approved for Placement, Services, Disability Status and Support Payments.  It would be quite a Surprise tho' if my Grandson Qualifies for SSI and Services more for the Seizures, than he ever did for having such Serious Mental Illness tho', that's for sure!!!   I gave up trying to figure out Qualifying and Disqualifying Factors many Moons ago tho' and it all changes constantly depending on if you're Flavor of the Month.

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Happy Autumn from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian