Did You Come Here For All Doom And Gloom... Mebbe Some Did... But...Whatever...

 So, Nurse Remi came with Good News, the VA Approved Weekly visits again becoz they could see The Man is declining and needs closer Observation and more Care than Bi-Weekly.   So, for the rest of this Month we're having her come very Tuesday Morning.  His Numbers were very good tho' on his Blood Pressure, Oxygen Saturation and Sugars, but, he hasn't been feeling Great and tires so quickly and easily now, which is concerning.  We gave her a big Box of Citrus from Omar's Trees and Two Big Banana Boxes full of New Adult Small Size Packages of Diapers that we can't use but she can hand out to Clients or send to Nigeria.  She said her Church often sends necessary Medical and Hygiene Supplies to her Home Country and the Ministries set up there, which is wonderful and much needed too.  But she has Clients here who can use some as well.

Then we had Not-So-Good News that The Son ISN'T getting Nutritional Assistance for March after all.  So, he only got $40 worth for January and a full Month's worth for February, but nothing for March.  Which, isn't the 90 Days worth he was told he was Approved for, it's barely over a Month's worth after waiting for any Help since November of last Year!  But, it's better than nothing so he's parsing it out to make it last thru this Month now.  He's been using it sparingly anyway so it lasted thru February and he thinks he can make just the One Months worth actually last for Two Months if he's frugal with it?  They have told him if he does 20 Hours of Volunteer Work a Week he can Qualify for more Assistance Month to Month, but he has to show Proof of either Paid Temp or Part-Time Work, or Volunteer Work.

He should have gotten a Letter then from those Assholes he helped to Move, spending several Days doing it, and then they Stole his brand new Drill that he'd never even used yet.  Mando did give him an identical Used Drill to replace it, so, he's not pushing the Issue with Rob, who asked him to help those People and help him with Moving their whole Household.  No Good Deed goes unpunished, as they say.  He's upset about it but knows not to blindly Trust folks, especially if you don't know them.  Just doing something benevolent to them doesn't mean they won't take advantage and mistake your Kindness for Weakness and still Victimize you.  Many a Good Samaritan has been Victimized by those they only tried to Help.

Anyway, I heard more disturbing things Today but won't comment or Blog about it until I know more about it, Verified.  The Source seems reliable and visibly upset, so for now I have no reason to doubt them at all, and I'd already heard vaguer Rumors about it from someone else.   But, both have been hearing it from someone else and I then don't know how reliable a Source those People are or if it's Speculation and not Factual or even Verified or not?   Without evidence or proof then anything could be faulty information so I've learned never to jump to conclusions myself.  I'm methodical about getting as much information as possible before I draw conclusions about anything I Hear and am told happened.  But, if it turns out to be True, it is disturbing and concerning.

Okay, so last Post I was reminiscing about some 1970's COTY Solid Compact Fragrances I Loved.  I remembered that they did come in many Trios of Fragrances, so that sent me down a Rabbit Hole of chasing Nostalgia.  And Yep, Photos existed to remind me of what other Trios there were and I recall liking just about all of them, but some more than others.  There were so many that came out from 1972 onwards to 1976, and I'd forgotten just how many and what Fragrances they were.  I never did have all of them myself.   There were about a Dozen Trios of the Solids in Compacts as I recall.  And I was in Europe until 1974 so you couldn't always get the same Products there as here in America, and vice versa, some Products were especially made for the International Market.  

The Interweb only offered me some Old Vintage Pixs of Advertisements from way back then.  Some Auctions of such Old Product don't always have the best Photography of it either.  But, this Post got dumped somehow and I've had to completely start over, which is annoying and happening too often lately.  I'll start a Post, Save Changes, come back to it later, add to it and Save those Changes, and somehow the Saved Changes weren't Saved from the latest additions to the Post and I only will get the earlier version that isn't as complete and the rest was Lost!!!  I'm no Tech Guru and I am Tech Challenged, so I don't know how it's happening, just that it is happening.  And it pisses me off coz it wasted a lot of Time and Effort put into Posts I'm actively Working on and it just decides to dump the later version of it and keep an earlier version of it!!!

So, I don't even recall all of what I'd Written and added Imagery of that was just dumped without me doing it.  *Le Sigh*  I'm Mad about it, but no way to retrieve what involuntarily dumped and didn't Save.  Even tho' I know I'd Saved the Updated Version coz Changes Saved actually does it Automatically as I'm Typing this right now!!!   I can Save it myself Manually too anytime, but, once it's Saved how the fuck can that just reverse itself and only Keep an earlier Version of the same thing?  Someone more Tech Savvy than me will have to explain it.   Coz the "Post:Edit" Tab only had One of this Post Open when I walked away... and when I came back it was a much earlier version of this Post Open and not the Updated one, WTF!!!  I was livid coz I almost had the whole damned Post done, loaded with Images... and had to almost start from scratch now!

I decided not to even include some of the original Images and I can't remember the Post Content I added to this... so... it will have to just be a completely New Stream of Consciousness then... dammit!!!  I just know it had looked Good before I went to Eat, and disappeared when I came back and all that remained was mebbe 1/4 of what I used to have of it Saved!!!!!   I mean, at least I didn't lose it all and had that Quarter of it retained that had been Written... and with only 3 Images not dumped!!!   Fuckity, Fuck, Fuck!!!  But, whaddya gonna do?  Take a Deep Breath and start over is the only Option really.   But, I don't have to Like it and I am highly agitated about it coz it's not the first time it's happened and I'd like to know how and why it happens to avoid the hassle of it?!

I'd gone into great Details about my Research of the Nostalgic 1970's COTY Solid Trios Products I'd Loved back then too.  Now I don't feel up to trying to lay all that out again for ya, Sorry.  *Le Sigh*  And mebbe nobody Cares.  I do recall also having the "Woods" Compact {Amberwood, Patchouli, Sandalwood}, the "Grasses" Compact {Clover, Gingergrass, Hay}, the "Herbs" Compact {Chamomile, Sage, Caraway} and "Wild Flowers" Compact {Jasmine, Honeysuckle, Ylang Ylang}.  There were so many others and I don't remember a lot of them being on the European Market offered, and they did seem to put out Seasonal Ltd. Edition Fragrances in Trios that I had not heard of or seen.  I didn't come back to the U.S. until 1974 and still had my Compacts I'd bought in Europe.  One I might STILL have actually, if I can locate it again!

The Young Prince Lost/Misplaced his Wallet and can't locate it now!  And... rather than doing what I'd told him to do for Safety Sake, by keeping his Money in the Accounts I just helped him set up at the Bank, he'd taken most of his Money out in Cash and had it in the Wallet.  *Le Sigh*   He's used to Cash and not using a Debit Card, The Son too.  And for the Life of me I can't convince them that if they happen to Lose or Misplace a Debit Card or have it Stolen, their Money is still Safer coz all they have to do is notify the Bank, the Card gets Closed, and they'll be Re-Issued a new Card with little to no Risk to their Funds.  But, Cash in a Wallet... when it's Gone, you're shit out of Luck unless you locate it again and the Money is still in it.  Both of them can be Airheads, which is Why I helped them set up Accounts.

But they're Grown and their preferred Habits are what they just are.  I'm the same way and some changes I don't embrace and prefer to do things as I've always done them too.  So, I'm not without a Point of Reference to opposing Change that might even be Good for me and resisting it to my own detriment sometimes.  I tried to be Positive Today and it was just hard coz mostly there was a lot going on not to be Positive about.  I had another fight with our Internet/Cable/Landline Phone Provider.  Since January I've been trying to be kept on Paper Billing Cycles.  They keep reverting it back to Paperless, which, doesn't work coz my E-Mail Account thru Juno E-Mail was involuntarily Closed and I HATE E-Mail anyway, plus, I don't want Paperless Billing.  Resisting that Change, if they wanna get Paid, Bill me thru the fucking Mail.

So, for the 3rd Month in a row they didn't generate a Statement to Mail to me and then make a Collection Call.  And, to make me even more pissed off, they want you to then pay the next Month due even tho' it's not Due yet and they didn't intend to generate a Statement for March either!!!   I had sent February in already, they reluctantly generated a Late Statement for me as requested.  The Day I received it I Paid it and Mailed it back, they claimed they hadn't gotten it on time and I said, that's coz YOU didn't generate the Statement ON TIME and I've been requesting one every Month since January!!!  They went Paperless in 2026 unless you Opted Out of it, which, I did... time and time again for over Three Months now!!!   March wasn't due yet and I wasn't re-issuing February coz I'd already sent that Payment in.  They were gonna turn off Services if they didn't either get February now... or March now.  *Le Sigh*

I've been a Cox Customer since the 1990's when it only Cost $8 a Month.  Them were the days. Now they got Fiber Optics and it's been nothing but a cluster fuck since the Upgrades.  And I told them if they didn't wanna lose us as a Loyal Customer, get their shit together and Bill me as I've asked them to AND do it ON TIME so I can pay them ON TIME!!!  Simple.  But, you can Save the Cost of a Stamp they argued.  I told them the Time and Aggravation they've Caused since January has Cost me much more than a fucking Stamp.  And I don't mind the Cost of a Stamp, I want a detailed Bill broken down as to what they're Charging and Why, coz they've fucked that up in the Past too and tried to overcharge me.  This is why I want Paper Evidence for my Files too... I want the Receipts.  Of coarse I was speaking to first a Filipino Woman in the Philippines, allegedly named Valerie, whose English was poor and who got so flustered she just hung up on me after I'd waited over 20 Minutes to even get a Human instead of a Bot!!! 

So I was already Mad when I overrode the Bots again and got John from India this time, who was at least more English proficient and tried to be Sweet, overly Polite and Helpful.  He's probably an indentured Slave working against his Will in Miramar?  He didn't hang up on me but my Problem wasn't on his Script either so he was getting flummoxed on how to handle the Call?  I'm like, Listen John, or whatever your Name really is... I'm not Mad at YOU, but, I'm also not making a Nine Hundred Dollar Plus payment I don't Owe either.  So, this is what we're gonna now do.  No way you can now generate a March Statement in time to get it to me to Pay March on Time, it's Due in 3 Days.  So, this one time I'll agree to pay March only by Phone and without a detailed Statement of how and what you've charged me for March... and February has already been sent by Mail, so I'm not re-issuing it, okay?  He finally agreed or I told him I was cancelling Service and he'd never get paid.  Capisce?    He decided getting March Payment early was better than getting Nothing... and February is already in Transit with USPS.

It seems the more Technology they use and rely upon, the more fucked up all of these Businesses are in how they're doing business poorly and incompetently.   And the Outsourcing has always been annoying, but the Bots and AI are more annoying and more flawed already.  The Kiosks most places insist on you using almost always don't work properly.  At one Convenience Store the Clerk didn't want to help me in person, she was playing on her Phone and insisted I use the Kiosk.  I told her I don't like them coz they always malfunction.  She got surly and rude, said I HAD to use the Kiosk for my Transaction.  Okay, under Protest I did... I used a Debit Card, it malfunctioned and spit out almost $37 in Cash as my "Change", even tho' it had Debited the Correct amount on my Card!  So, I walked off with the Money, fuck them and their malfunctioning Kiosk... let her explain the shortfall, I didn't give a shit, she didn't wanna do her Job and Help me so something like that wouldn't happen.

Next time I came in to the same Store she was there and the Kiosk was now Closed down for "Repairs" so she had to do her Job.  She mentioned that it had been malfunctioning and giving people Cash it shouldn't have or not giving People Change it should have.  I just Smiled and said, well, I told you I don't like using them coz they always malfunction, I'm glad they Closed it down then.  I'd much rather a Person handle the transaction, so, that if there's a mistake, it can be properly addressed for everyone's benefit.   She was a lot less snarky and mebbe not doing her Job properly got her Attitude Adjusted by their Management perhaps, coz she wasn't helping Patrons and not paying Attention.  The Store could have gotten robbed blind, she was playing on her Phone and likely wouldn't have looked up enuf to even notice.  And giving everyone her Bad pissy Attitude who came in, all not Good for Business.  The Employee don't seem to Care.

And, the Companies seem to wanna hire the Cheapest Labor they can regardless of Attitude, Customer Service or Competency, or no Humans at all... so... whatever.   So if they do lose $$$ over it, I don't really Care.  It's certainly why their Employees don't Care.  And so why should their Customers Care either if they aren't being treated right, whether you are trying to do the right thing or not really doesn't seem to matter to any of these Businesses by how they Act towards their Customers anymore.   Sometimes we have to Deal with them if no other Options exist, but if Options exist, the Consumer has the Advantage of who NOT to do Business with anymore.  In fact, The State is now sending a Caseworker to our Home to Help The Grandson apply for Arizona Medicaid, coz they know otherwise, they ain't getting Paid for his Medical Bills either coz nobody is taking his Medicaid from New Mexico, which is still Active BTW... but apparently Medicaid doesn't interface State to State.  Not his Problem really. 

He's SMI and Unemployable, would be Homeless if we didn't take him in, has no Income, and if they continue to Neglect him, would end up Institutionalized completely on their Dime.  Which, conservatively would cost the State about Eighty Grand Plus a Month for Institutionalized Care of someone like him.   So, his Medical Bills are a drop in the Bucket, a Raindrop in an Ocean of potential Expenses on their Dime.  So, I really didn't Care and told them they best sort it out as quickly as possible coz he's 25 now and needs a Patient Advocate, a Caseworker, a Shrink, Psyche Meds, Nutritional Assistance, Medical Insurance, Mental Health Coverage, and possibly a Therapist.  All on their Dime coz he can't Pay and is very Unwell and it ain't getting any better with Neglect or Indifference and Collection Calls by them, coz, no fucking Cure.  And I can't 'Fix' any of it.  I'm a good 'Fixer' but some shit can't be Fixed. They have since been very accommodating... which was their 'other' Option.  *Winks*

Listen, he really doesn't Care if they ever get Paid, half the time he's on Planet Schizophrenia and not tethered to Reality at all.  He can't even keep track of his own Wallet, which... is somewhere... with all the Money he has in the World in it, except for the bare amount to keep his Account Open.  *Le Sigh*   And, tho' I'd really Like to Care, The System is so broken that I just can't anymore.   I only JUST got my Appeal Approved for my own Medicare fiasco that The System had fucked up, so I really wasn't in the Mood to Deal with an Adult Grandchild's Medicaid that is all fucked up too.  Not my Problem... and he's entitled to an Appointed Patient Advocate since he's Incompetent to handle it on his own... that's the Legality of it and their responsibility to sort out satisfactorily if Providers wanna get Paid.  Whadda they gonna get from him, he has Nothing?!  And expecting getting Something out of Nothing is... well... Crazy.

They help the Rich get Richer at the expense of all Americans, but they won't help the Poor get basic Needs that are Humane and dignified, and it just gets to the point I get Militant about it.  They spent more on this War in the first 48 Hours than they spend on all Social Services probably Annually.  And the Money they've thrown at ICE is obscene and more than funding our Military.  So it's not like they can't get the Money and spend it when they just want to and prioritize something.  I for one am fed up with it all and won't be Played with the Spin they put on everything thinking us all to be that gullible and uneducated.  And it pains me to see vulnerable Loved Ones suffering and neglected by a System that doesn't give a shit about them as Human Beings.  It's inhumane, I wouldn't want an Animal to be mistreated or neglected inhumanely, let alone another Human Being.

So, every so often you just have to make Good Trouble.  The Change you hope to Be might not even happen in our Lifetime so we won't see it.  But, mebbe it will move the Needle in the Right direction as Generations before us fought so hard to Be the Change that was Needed.  I think about our Ancestors that kept Hope and fought for what was Right on our behalf.  It Honors them to keep on fighting the Good Fight and making that Good Trouble for Generations to come.  Anyway, I Hope his Caseworker is a worthy one?  Some are.  It's the roll of the Dice what you get.  But, it's a Start so he's at least a little bit Hopeful now that they're sending someone to Help him wade thru The System.  It's exhausting even for me, he just can't do it.

I just had a HUMANA Rep call Yesterday and I couldn't take the Call coz I had the VA Nurse here for The Man, I'm thinking, now what?    I got my new Card and everything seems to be on Track now.  Social Security just sent me evidence they corrected what I should be getting Monthly and refunded me what I'd been inappropriately penalized, so that's on Track now too.  Medicare went up Monthly in 2026, but, at least we still have it and didn't get permanently dumped by all Providers.  The Family Members who Qualify for Medicaid don't pay for it, coz, you mostly have to be indigent to even Qualify to receive it so they know you have no Income or just SSI in some cases, or Poverty Income in other Cases, which, some of my Loved ones don't have at all.

The Niece called from Texas, the New Job is challenging coz they hired her to make Changes and put her in Management to do it, so, she's immediately resented by the Employees who want to do things as they've always done them.  She's there to upgrade the Systems, make them more efficient and productive, folks have milked an inefficient and less productive System for so long I think they're now fearful it could displace them or spotlight how poorly their production really is and has been, costing the Company a lot of needless waste and expense of losing Money.  She just needed to hear that coz she was feeling like the Villain and she knows Companies Hired me to be a Fixer and sometimes Fixing things means you won't be viewed Positively by everyone who doesn't really want things Fixed if it's working for them to keep it where a Grift can happen or get more Overtime coz of the inefficiency to get things done in a timely manner or even meet Deadlines.

She was telling me of just One Program she Designed and implemented that eliminated 14 Steps they were doing that weren't necessary, when it only takes One if Designed correctly and upgraded.   Their System was so Archaic but Employees wanted to keep it that way coz now it's sped things up that they could Milk for a whole day and now takes Seconds.  She's brilliant, but felt perhaps she's moving too fast and changing too much too soon, so she doesn't want some to intentionally sabotage things to get her out of there during her Probationary Period?   It's a delicate balance and I'm confident she'll figure it out, so encouraged her.  But I know she can be abrasive and frustrated with those that can't keep up, coz a lot of Genius people aren't necessarily good at Peopling or dumbing shit down for the masses or those who aren't on Board with necessary Change coz they know they can't keep up and keep pace.  She knows she's Rocking the Boat and that never Wins Friends, but it can influence Enemies.

Some will lose their Jobs too and she knows this.  Coz some of the Staff are redundant already and not even up to doing what they're doing now, coz they're doing it poorly already.   Let alone an improved System they're fighting against and incapable of handling.  Of coarse the Employer is Investing in her to ensure they move with the Times and remain competitive and upgraded sufficiently to serve their Clients and not lose Business to Competitors.  And it took so long for her to find a really good Position again coz the Job Market is really not good at any levels right now, even top tier, for a host of reasons.   The Son has discovered this unfortunate fact.  Plus he's on the cusp of 40 and The Niece is in her late 40's now, so they're in that awkward spot where Ageism will be a barrier to Employment now.  The overqualified dilemma is as Real as the underqualified one is.

I have a lot of experience, Wisdom and knowledge, but I told her that doesn't equate to being Employable at my Season of Life.  Unless I settle for being a Wal-Mart Greeter or something now.  And, I know I couldn't keep Pace now, I'm a Dinosaur and freely admit I am.  And could we still be an Asset or Add Value is quite subjective... and often we Cost too much to Buy our Expertise now.   She Laughed, The Son Laughs too, but they know I'm spitting Truth and accepting my Reality.  I wouldn't even Want to be in the Corporate Grind anymore.  I don't like the direction it's all been moving for some time now, even when I was in The Game, in the Industries I knew best.  Both Banking and Criminal Law have been so infiltrated and Corrupted now that Honestly, I wouldn't even wanna be Dealing with the Morality Issue of it all as an Employee. 

  And with this Regime, it's breaking Systems that did Work for the People or should have, coz it's just all just one Criminal Enterprise now to Grift, Exploit and Profit from as much as the Elite can get away with and make Billions off of.  And, they're getting away with everything now, no holds barred, no Guard Rails, no consequences.  Follow the Money and you'll know exactly who the Apex Predators of this Criminal Enterprise are.  And how Rich they're getting off of it all and either paying off, threatening, intimidating, extorting and/or Blackmailing and Shaking Down along the way, anyone who stands in the way.   The Revenge and Retribution Tour is now in full swing and you're either Predator or Prey at this juncture.  And the Criminally inclined be doing what Criminals do best, Crime.  If you have a Strong Moral Compass you could never make a Good Criminal or want to be Complicit in their Activities.

I did Well keeping my Moral Compass intact this long, so I'm not willing to compromise my Integrity, Character or Moral Standards now to Go Along with what's happening to America.  I don't Like it and I won't participate in it.   It's a Choice each has to make, choose Wisely is all I Warn about that.  Everything comes at a Cost and a Price, you got to decide what you're willing to Pay and how you wanna Play The Game?   And which Side of History you'll end up standing on?   And it won't just be in $$$ rest assured, the Money aspect of it is the easier and least 'Costly' part of it.  If you do Deals with Devils, you'll be Selling your Soul too and getting in Deep, often over your fucking Head DEEP, Blood In, Blood Out, it's no Joke.   Far too many folks learn too late who they jumped in 'Bed' with and are now Owned by.   Whether you Sell yourself for a little or a lot, they now know your Moral Standing, and the rest is just haggling about your Price to be Bought.

 Lots of Buying of Folks going on, and we know whose been Bought and Paid for, pretty much, it's not like they're not being obviously compromised.   And I also see whose been Groomed and Owned for a very long time that are in that Inner Circle and now Nepo Hired and Protecting their Predators.   Some may have started out as Victims, but now are very instrumental in Procuring for The Cause.  And that whole Back Story, if ever Revealed, would be very Interesting to dissect and examine.  In that whole Sex Trafficking World the exploited being Prostituted often will be 100% Down for their Pimps and Abusers, Procuring and Luring New Recruits.   And the more Powerful the Criminal Enterprise, the more Dangers for everyone involved at every level, new levels, more Powerful Devils.  

 

So, do I really think Justice will be Served now?  Doubtful, coz the Food Chain is way the fuck up there.  Expect to see more alleged 'Suicides' and Disappearances if anyone is inclined to Sing and give anyone up.  And some don't even look like themselves anymore, coz... mebbe they're not...    And we can't Believe a lot of what we Hear and with AI being a convenient Tool for deception and nefarious purposes, we may not be able to Believe much of what we See anymore either in due time.  And that's the Point, keep everyone confused and duped, so they really can't discern what is happening and it might be too late when they finally do.  And a great many aren't even Paying Attention in the first place so they're not even remotely Informed and don't wanna be either.  They operate under the Assumption Ignorance is Bliss, when, in Fact, it's just Ignorance.   Which has never really benefitting anybody.

Anyway, enough of all that, I know most of you know it's Bad and are remaining adequately Informed enuf to try to remain Safest thru it all.  I just can't find the compassion to Care about those who Support any of it at this juncture, coz they'll get what's coming to them.  Karma being the ultimate Bitch and I'm Okay with that if all the Supporters of it Go Down, every last one of them, good riddance.   If you had the opportunity to do the Right thing and choose not to, your Choices have consequences eventually and they're usually not pleasant ones.  Worrying about the price of Gas as a Priority, will be the least of the Worries coming.  So, let's Talk about something else now, shall we?  *Winks*  I know you didn't come here for all Doom and Gloom... or mebbe some did... but... whatever.  *LOL*

I just discovered how my Updated Post disappeared coz it almost happened again!   The "Pose:Edit Draft" had Opened up in Two Tabs and if you aren't paying attention to which one Closes Down first, if you don't catch that the Computer still kept an Older One, that One Saves as the Updated version even tho' it's not.  So now I have to remember, if I step away from the Computer, if one is just Up or now Two are showing as Active and manually Close Down the earlier version in order to ensure the later version is the one Saved before it's Published.  *Whew*  Glad I figured that out by accident, like I said, I'm Tech Challenged and when the Computer seems to have a Mind of it's Own and changing things I'm unaware of, I don't always catch it in time.  It's like when Spellchecker completely changes a Word and presumes to know what you wanted to say and it's not the Right Word at all and an incorrect Assumption on the part of the Technology.  I HATE that, I know what I wanna say and I don't want it Changed involuntarily by any "Helpful" Tool I didn't give permission to Change anything on my behalf.

     

I don't want AI or Spellchecker to put Words in my Mouth or Write anything "For" me, coz I'm quite capable of articulating what I mean and want to say all on my own.  *Winks*  I'm not Inhibited about speaking my Mind freely and boldly, never have been, never will be.  I don't have Need of a Bot or Artificial alleged "Intelligence" overseeing everything I do or say.   I'm not relinquishing my Voice to say whatever I want to on my own.  If I feel I do Need Help, I will ask for it, otherwise, even AI can stay in it's own Lane and not stray into mine.   I don't like they're pushing it often involuntarily now, I don't want to be forced to use something I don't Trust and feel is a potentially dangerous thing to turn loose on Society.  Even tho' it already has been, I will continue to resist it like anything else I think is unhealthy and not well thought out of the Negative Impact of and consequences we'll face due to it.  When even the Creators of it seem to be Walking Back on it, and openly saying, shit... didn't expect THIS or THAT to happen... that's concerning.

I'm quite sure every Development of things that got out of Hand have the same reaction when it goes awry.  Like Killer Bees, Biological Weapons, Atomic Bombs, Bad/Dangerous Drugs... the Laundry List is pretty long already of Ooopsies.  And now we gotta run damage control behind what we've Created and unleashed upon Society and the World's Natural Order of things, that are fucking things up terribly and we can't undo now.   Pandora's Box Opened is rarely gonna go Well.  In Greek Mythology, in case you're unfamiliar with the Story, Pandora's Box once Opened unleashed and released all Evils, Plagues, and Hardships upon Humanity, Disease, Misery, Misfortune, leaving only Hope trapped inside.  Pandora was entrusted with this Box and told to never Open it. Moral of that Story, to me: Even a Small Impulsive Action can lead to unforeseen, uncontrollable and disastrous consequences sometimes.

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Be Well and stay Safe my Friends... Dawn... The Bohemian

Your Secret Is Safe Here

 So, I did get away on Monday and have my "Me Day", I just went to Stores I like and the day was fabulous, about 90 Degrees, but a Storm rolling in by late Afternoon, so, we'll likely have Rain too?  I went to the Discount Grocer, Trader Joe's, Whole Foods, World Market and Two different Barnes & Noble Bookstores, where I renewed my Membership for another Year and got a Free Canvas Tote Bag in Black & Gold.  I'd told The Man in advance and he knew he didn't really wanna drag along to all of those places, so he was Fine with staying behind and letting me breeze thru such a loaded itinerary to get what I Needed and Wanted.  *Winks and Whew, Dodged that Bullet*  I mostly NEEDED to just get away, is what I Needed most of all.  *Smiles*   I had so much Relaxed Enjoyment doing it too.

Half my Time was spent in City Traffic, the Traffic was heavy going into the City and even heavier at Rush Hour trying to get back Home, so a lot of Commuting.  When I'm alone in the Vehicle tho' it gives me Time to just Think and notice what's changing in the Cityscape.  So much construction going on that if you haven't been by in a while, you'd not even recognize where you are now!!!  Some of it is good and Positive Change, some of it is not IMO.  But, only Change is constant, so, there you are.  I Saved $15 at the Discount Grocery Store with my Coupons and Store Credit, and their Prices are low anyway.  I Saved $5 at Barnes & Noble coz I had a Credit to use.

I also ate a late Brunch at "Snooze" and was their last Customer of the Day since they Close at 2:30 and I wasn't done with my Meal until 2:38, I felt bad they were waiting on me!  But the Young People were so pleasant about it and they know I'm a regular and told me not to rush.  I'd ordered a pretty big Meal, for me anyway, so took half of it Home for later anyway, so the eating of only half of it rushed me thru in half the time it would have taken.  For some reason I thought they Closed at 3:00 and not 2:30, I think they have changed their Hours to Closing half an Hour earlier???  The Iced Lavender Latte Coffee was exceptional this Day.  But, prices had increase a fair amount since last visit... which is happening everywhere now.

I didn't Buy anything from "Trader Joe's" and it was Crazy busy there, I don't know why, but it was for a Monday.  "Whole Foods" had everything I wanted/needed anyway so I bought my One Bag of Groceries.  I mostly just like wandering thru both of those Stores, it's Zen for me and smells so Healthy and Fresh compared to the other Grocery Chains.  I'm a Food Snob, always have been, always will be, so I'll pay a little more for better Foods and Fresher Foods or those more Humanely and Ethically Sourced and Raised.  It's how I've always just been and how my Dad Raised me to be.  Dad was a Master Chef by Career and also Indigenous, so he was very particular about Food, how it was Raised or Grown and Prepared.  I grew up quite Spoiled eating his 5-Star prepared Cuisine all my Life. 

And I Love Photographing Food, so I am that Weirdo in the Stores Photographing it and if someone asks, coz they're Curious, I tell them I Blog and am an "Influencer"  *Bwahahaha*... or, that I am sending the Pixs to The Family to see what they'd like me to Buy and bring Home?  Both are semi-truths vaguely.  *LOL*  That always seems to Satisfy the Curiosity Factor.  *Winks*  And when I've said that, I've had some folks ask my Opinion then on what they should then Buy?  Which, seemed Odd to me they would Trust a total Stranger's Opinion... but, if they think you ARE an Influencer, I guess it does Influence them?  *LOL*  I do give them my Honest Opinion on what I've felt were the best Products.  Some of those Brands should be Paying me as their Unofficial Spokesperson.  *Ha ha ha*

I did get those Two felted Ornamental Wall Hangings of The Evil Eye and The Sacred Heart, along with a different Evil Eye that the other "World Market" didn't have the day before.  I got the last Evil Eye like the one I'd Photographed the day before too, so whew, almost Sold Out already at the closer to us location!!!   At "Barnes & Noble" I just renewed my Membership, got my Free Tote, and bought Two Magazines "Where Women Create" and "In Her Garden", both Stampington Issues that I always Buy when they come out Quarterly.   In fact, I'm quite disappointed that even the biggest Two Story "Barnes & Noble" now carries less Decor Books and Creative Magazines than I have in my own Collection!!!  A lot of Chazzas are carrying a bigger and better selection now than Major Bookstores!!!  

They quit carrying some of the Stampington Issues I used to get like "In Her Studio", "What Women Create", "What Women Cook", "Artful Blogging", "Where Women Create Business" and "Somerset Life".  And they quit carrying all of the International Magazines I used to get too like "Jean D'Arc Living", "Maison Chic", "Campagne" and "Loving Brocante".   I recently ordered a "Loving Brocante" Hard Cover Book off Etsy, which, I don't Buy off that site very often coz it's a pain in the Ass to get Signed into to Buy anything, E-Bay is much easier and User Friendly IMO.   But, the Book is notoriously hard to Source in the U.S. and I won't Buy anything International now coz the Tariff's and Customs is ridiculous and makes it unaffordable.  Often Shipping then exceeds the cost of the item by far now and inhibits and totally kills International Trade.

Anyway, most of "Barnes & Noble" now is devoted to Manga Books and Soft Cover Novels mostly.   The Genre of Hard Cover Books and Magazines I always Buy is dwindling now so I don't know how much longer I'll bother paying for a Membership?   Our nearest Location still carries most of what I Buy tho', so, I felt a 2026-2027 Membership would still be worthwhile.   The Totes they give you when you enroll again are very nice for Grocery Shopping and usually Sell for over Twenty Bucks.  And they usually throw in some other Freebies to make the Membership Cost more worthwhile and Tempting.  If you don't Buy a lot of Books and Magazines it wouldn't be worth it coz your Discounts Membership affords you wouldn't add up enuf, but I do Buy Books & Magazines quite often when they have the ones I want.

 

I don't Buy Pillows like these {Above & Below} coz they'd get totally destroyed and ruined in our household, but I sure do like the way they look.  They probably wouldn't be comfortable but they would be Editorial and just Pretty as Decor.   So, I just Photograph them.  I used to have some Decor Pillows and Antique Pillows I Loved and got ruined by Family use, so now I just invest in Pillows that are utilitarian and will hold up well under a lot of use... and are just comfortable.  I've also Sold off a lot of Decor Pillows, they do Sell well, oddly enuf, in our Showroom, who knew?  I had more Pillows than any Sane Women ought to have and we weren't using or even displaying a lot of them now, so it seemed a waste to just Hoard them, when I could profit off them.  I just had a Thing for Pillows... and it got out of Hand.  Like having a Thing for anything often just does.  Or mebbe that's just me???  *LOL and Winks, it's Okay to Confess, your Secret is Safe here.  Smiles*

So, anyway, I've been getting a LOT of compliments lately on my Liquid Blue T-Shirts I wear all of the time and have in my own Wardrobe.  It's usually Young Men who approach me and tell me they Love my Shirt, I counted just in a Single Day I had Six Young Men come up and tell me they Loved just One Shirt I happened to wear that Day!!!   That's about as many Young Men {or Young Women} who come up to Princess T and tell her she looks Adorable in her Outfits, so we're Playfully having a Competition to see who gets the most Compliments when we're out together now?  *Bwahahahahaha*  To be Fair, I'm just getting Complimented on the Wardrobe, she's getting Complimented on her overall Adorability Factor in the Outfits and how she Looks... my Adorability Factor is way behind me in the Past, I freely admit.  *LOL*  But she does get a Kick out of how many people, especially Young Guys, tell me they Love my Wardrobe... coz, well, I am an Old Lady.  *Ha ha ha* 

It's Nice to still get Compliments tho', especially from Young People who don't have to approach you and say anything so flattering and Kind to an Old Person.  I wear Nag Champa Essential Oil all the time so I don't even notice the Aroma anymore, but I often have Young People, especially Young Men, and tell me how good I Smell too.  It's an Oil that Men can wear as well, so it's not Gender specific, and I'm sure I've gotten my Supplier loads of Business by telling folks where to get some.  Mebbe I should be an Unofficial Paid Spokesperson for that too?  *Winks and LOL*   I've often had my Family tell me they didn't see me, but they knew I was somewhere there coz they could Smell me first.  *Ha ha ha*  I told them when I'm Gone, they'll know I'm there in Spirit if suddenly they Smell the Scent of Nag Champa filling the Room.  *Winks* 

Speaking of which, I do need to make a trek to the Astrology Store and get some more of it.  It lasts so long that a $9 small vial of it will last you about 2 Years or more and you only need a dab a Day on your Wrist Pulse Point, so it's very economical as a Signature Fragrance too.  They have many other Essential Oil Fragrances, the Dragon's Blood is a very Nice Fragrance too.  If you have particularly sensitive Skin you just buy a Fragrance Free Carrier Oil to dilute it and that will also make it last even longer.  I've never spent Money on Perfumes for myself since I have worn Essential Oils for as long as I can remember.  I used to see how much my Mom, Daughters and Granddaughter spent on Fragrances and then they'd say I'd be wearing my Cheap Essential Oil and be getting all the random people coming up and saying how Good I Smelled!!!  And not once did anyone say that about their expensive Perfumes, WTF? *Ha ha ha*

  

I think I have told this Story before, but once, at the Desert Botanical Gardens, there was a Handsome Young Man with his little Dog on a Leash who was following me around, rather closely.  It was getting a bit unsettling and I think he realized it, coz then he apologized and said, I'm so sorry but you Smell so Good that I've been following you just to enjoy the Fragrance you're wearing.  I could tell he felt awkward and embarrassed to say that.  So, we stopped and chatted, to put him at ease.  I told him what it was and where he could buy it.  And that if he really found it calming and relaxing as a Fragrance, he could add a few drops in a Room Diffuser's Water and Scent his whole Home with it if he wanted more than to just wear it.  Or mist his little Dog with some diluted in Water after bathing her.  He was so thrilled I'd given him that information, I'm sure he was going to go Buy some and do just that.

Then he'd also have that Funny Story to tell of how he came to find out about it by Stalking some Old Hippie Lady with Dreadlocks at The Gardens to enjoy the Fragrance she was wearing.  *Bwahahahaha*  When I was Younger I did sometimes experiment with Signature Fragrances, so it wasn't always Nag Champa.  You do that sometimes until you find your Signature Fragrance.   I remember when in the 1970's they had a trio in a Compact of Solid Fragrances that lasted a long time.  They were made by COTY and called "Sweet Earth" Flower Fragrances, and were Aromas of Hyacinth, Honeysuckle and Ylang Ylang Fragrances that I wore sometimes as well as Essential Oils.  I think I still have one of those Compacts somewhere that I just kept for Nostalgia Sake.  Online they go for $140 at Auction now, who knew?!!!!!!   I particularly liked the Ylang Ylang to wear... coz, I wanted to be smelling Naturally Sensuous.  *Bwahahahahaha*

And one of my Native American Aunts became an AVON Rep back in the 1970's, so she and my Paternal Gramma would sent me some AVON Fragrances in Collector Bottles as Gifts.  I remember liking one called "Hawaiian White Ginger" and "Rio", both of which AVON discontinued.  I remember my Relatives loading me up with all of the "Hawaiian White Ginger" products and I did use them all.  "Rio" came out later, in the 1980's and my Aunt had moved out here to Arizona as a Widow, to live with my Dad, one of her Older Brothers.  Which is Tribally Customary to then take your Widowed Sisters in and take Care of them, and she was still hawking AVON.  And I had a Gel Fragrance in an Owl that I kept for Years that I got as a Younger Tween in the 1960's, from my Paternal Gramma, that was called "Raining Violets".  Which I wouldn't wear, but it made me think of my Gramma coz she did wear it and it suited her Age Bracket to wear a Fragrance like that and the Owl Collector Bottle was Cute.  {See Below for a dose of AVON Nostalgia}

Every so often at a Chazza I'll see a whole Donated Collection of Old AVON Collector Perfume Bottles.   And I guess some folks do Collect those coz I've sometimes bought the more Interesting ones and Sold them at our Antique Mall.   Recently the Granddaughter's SAVERS location had a huge Donation of them, but mostly the Men's Colognes in those Collector's Mantique Bottles, which, wouldn't Sell as well.  And speaking of Vintage Fragrances, my Dad always wore "Old Spice" and to this Day I still Love it as a Men's Fragrance coz it reminds me of my Dad and was such a Nice Manly Fragrance.  Some of the new Popular Men's Colognes smell dreadful.  One that far too many are wearing I thought was the Smell of Dangerous Drugs it was so Vile!!!  *Ewwww*   And tho' I don't mind the Smell of MJ if it's of better Quality Weed, but Holy Hell some folks reek of it and must be Smoking a Ton of it these days, you could get Contact High just being by or around them!!!  And if it's wafting out of your Vehicle that Strong, you're definitely getting pulled over and Ticketed for DUI!  *LOL*

I've been Buying The Young Prince these Articulated Wooden Art Dolls whenever I see them at Chazzas and he Arts them Up into his OOAK Creations.  This was his most recent one... and I can see he's getting into my Yarns and Art Supplies, but, I don't mind coz he is actively doing his Art and I'm not yet.   I liked it's Tail and Hair, nice Touch.  He has a whole Back Story of what these Creatures are and what they do, he has a fully Developed Character for each of his Creations.  And if he's busy Creating then he's less likely to be Mentally unraveling or seriously Depressed, so it's Therapeutic much like Creating Blog Posts is for me when I'm Writing them or Photographing for them.   And much Cheaper and more Effective than Therapy.  *Winks*

 

The Antique Mall's FB Page has been recently Profiling some of the Long Time Vendors and my Friend Crazy Ed got Profiled.  I'm glad they haven't asked me, I'd rather they not.  *Ha ha ha*   Ed's been there since the Beginning too, there's so few of us left who have been there since our Location first Opened in March of 2012.   Anyway, you wouldn't think my Friend was nearing 80 Years Old, and he's still schlepping around all that Big Antique heavy Furniture he hawks all by himself! Which I keep telling him, he shouldn't be doing at his age and to let the Young Stud Muffins do that for him now.  *Smiles*   He's had both of his Rotator Cuffs replaced and doesn't listen to his Doctors any more than he listens to me Nag him about it tho'. 

 But, he's a Single Guy and so there's no Woman at Home to make sure he's not still doing Stupid Old Man shit that could get him hurt or killed.  *Bwahahahaha*  He Laughs when I tell him that... and remind him to take his Meds on The Regular.  He's as Bipolar as Fuck as I am so we joke back and forth about that too.  He knows I'm NOT on Crazy Pills and Self-Regulate, and doesn't know how I manage to, he can't.  He'd be completely Off Rails without his, I know coz sometimes he forgets to take them... and you can tell!  *Bwahahaha*  Above is Crazy Ed with our Dear Good Friend Dan The Man, who was over 80 and looking much Younger and more robust than the average Octogenarian.  But, he took a Fall and never fully recovered from it, and had a Rare Form of Cancer that he did succumb to last Year, we miss him terribly, great Guy.  His Dear Wife Rita is handling the adventures of Widowhood pretty well, Bless her.

This is our Fabulous Friend Dave, who usually wears Funky Costumes to Work, so this is him Dressing Down.  *Smiles*   Dave and his Husband were Customers for Years before they became Vendors and I just Adore the both of them.   They bought many an Antique Quilt from me and it wasn't a stretch for them to eventually need and want to Downsize in Retirement and open a Booth to do it.   Dave is such Fun at Work, he's a Riot, so I thoroughly enjoy Working with him.  Tho' normally he does Day Shifts and I do Night Shifts, so unfortunately we don't get to Work together all that often.   He and his Husband are like those Favorite Uncles or Cousins you just would always want at a Family Gathering coz they're the Life of the Party and such Fun. 

Today Nurse Remi from the VA comes for The Man, they're still Approving her Bi-Weekly Visits, which is good, it keeps a more Professional Regular Eye on his Condition where she spends more time with us than a Doctor's Visit would afford him.   So, if there's a marked decline, she is a Trained Professional also Witnessing it and taking Note of it.   I know what I think is happening and the progression of it, but I'm not a Medical Trained Professional, I just been Caregiving for what seems like a Lifetime, so that's the Experience I have and the Filter of which I View it all from as my own Point of Reference to draw upon.  Sometimes he's prone to Dramatics too, so it's often difficult to discern when something is really Wrong, beyond the Normal challenges.  He'll hold his Head in his Hands Dramatically and look like something is really Wrong and when you ask what's Wrong, he gets defensive about it and say nothing is, for Example.

When I know Nurse Remi is coming I try to give him a whole Day in advance and regular reminders so he's Prepared for it.  You can't just spring something on him, even if it's been Written on the Calendar and is a Regular Occurrence now, he'll forget and if it ends up being a Surprise then to him, he's a lot less cooperative and agreeable to it.  No more spontaneous things are tolerated well, you have to ease him into anything and everything that might be going on and prepare him in advance.  Which is why when Crisis happens, he's not gonna handle it well at all now... coz there's no preparing for a Crisis, they just fucking happen and there's nothing you can do but roll with it.  He can't, so, then it's a layered Crisis happening coz he's not going to be rolling with it.  I Guess in Senior Facilities the Routines are Sacred, but in a 3 Generation Household there will always be disruption in Routines, always.   This is not a Mister Rodgers Neighborhood kinda Space to occupy.  *LOL*

But we're Chalked and Salted by The Young Prince now {Winks and LOL}, even IN my Truck, as The Daughter noticed when I drove her to that Job in Chandler.  *Bwahahahaha*  She's like, "Mom, why are there Chalk Hyroglifics all over the Back Interior Doors of your Truck?  They look like the similar ones now all over the House Door Frames."  I just matter-of-factly said, "Your Son has put them there for our Protection.  And the Entry Points of the House are also Salted. Just so you know..."  She Laughed and said, "Well, Okay then...", coz tho' she's a Paranoid Schizophrenic too, the "Them and They" she always worries about coming for her and us, apparently aren't the same Demons and Devils he worries about coming for us... so... it's a completely different Psychosis apparently?   But, whatever... I just roll with however they feel most Protected and Calmer about it.  What's a little Himalayan Pink Salt mixed with Herbs and Colored Chalk all over the place anyway?  *Smiles* 

I'm sure Nurse Remi notices, but she's from Africa, so she said there are a host of Superstitious Practices, even amongst the Christian Africans, so she never Questions anyone's Practices.   As it should be, says I.  *LOL*  And she doesn't think it's all that Weird or Strange to do, so I'm sure she's seen far more than what The Young Prince does for our Protection or to Cast Spells and such.   I Love hearing her Stories of her Homeland and I'm sure sometimes she Wishes it were Safer for them to return, but it is not, and mebbe never will be for the Christian Minorities there.  Where an active Genocide of some Religious and Ethnic Groups are still taking place and never makes the News.  And it should.  Becoz most Americans don't know about it and that similar atrocities could happen right here if we keep on the trajectory we're going!!!   And I'm not being the least bit hyperbolic.

 

  And we're talking Hundreds of Thousands and in excess of One Million in some Countries of Africa, of Amhara, Darfori, Tutsis, Hutus, and Christians, in horrific and openly graphic ways.   This is what happens when any Group Dehumanizes and Vilifies another Group of Human Beings, atrocities against Humanity occur and Bad History is repeated.  And it's the Devil's Work, not God's, no matter how it's Spun by Religious Sects doing it.  America is heading in that direction with White Christian Nationalism.   Bad Religion has Historically committed some of the worst Crimes and Atrocities against Humanity thruout the Ages.   And that's a Fact, it's not merely an Opinion.  Anytime any Extremist form of any Religion goes on their violent and brutal Rampages against those who aren't of them, really bad things always happen that aren't remotely Godly at all and are outright Evil incarnate.

I had gotten our Wild Birds some more Gourmet Birdseed while at the Discount Grocer, they always have a section of the really expensive Birdseed at an extremely low price.  The Son joked that it looks good enuf for us to Eat.  *LOL*   Our Wild Birds really Love it, so they've become very Spoiled Wild Birds and get picky if I can't Buy/afford the Good Stuff now.  *Bwahahahaha*   But they Sing their little Hearts out for me Daily, so it's reciprocal appreciation.   I've got One that is of the Myna Bird Species that has Hundreds of Bird Calls he makes in Threes for Hours and Hours.   I've rarely heard him Sing the same Song twice, but it's always in sets of Threes of all of them he's Mastered, to really Show Off and either attract a Mate or assert his Territory.   Which is the Massive Old Pecan Trees behind our Property and on that Neighbor's Property.   And he's Guarding that lucrative Territory vigilantly apparently.  He only Shares it with the Resident Raven and Crows, coz, you just don't piss them off.  They'll hold a Grudge for Years.  *LOL*

They have protected our Neighbor's little White Chihuahua, who we Warned was getting Eyeballed as a Meal by the Raptor Species that hang around like Hawks and Owls.  So if it weren't for the Crows and Raven protecting him, he'd of been picked off by now.  Coz TJ and Amber's Daughter whose Preggy, Julissa, don't pay enuf attention to him even after our Warnings of his risk factors by Predatory Birds.  He was wandering over here on our Property again Yesterday, unattended, and I get worried Sick about his Safety coz the Crows and Raven may not always be vigilant enuf to ensure he's not made a Meal out of!!!  I get upset when folks are Careless about the Safety of their Pets or Children, I Hope they're more vigilant at being Parents of the Newborn than they are of that little Chihuahua?  But, I kinda doubt it and why Amber is Worried Sick.  She and her Ex, Joe, truly Feel they'll have to get back together and Raise that first Grandchild.  They could be Right?

Yesterday was over 90 Degrees and Today is 59 and Rainy.  This is how it's been from day to day lately, big spreads in Weather and Temperature fluctuations.  Climate Change is Real.   I bought some Strawberry Rhubarb Scones from "Whole Foods", first time I've seen that Flavor Profile of Scone, they are delicious!   They could be my new favorite Flavor of Scone now.   I'm not a Pie Eater but Strawberry Rhubarb is one of the only Pie Flavors I do like.   But, I am a Scones Lover coz my European Mom made them all of the time and I miss that.   That and her Welsh Pancakes which are like Swedish Pancake Crepes, but instead of Lingonberry Butter, the Welsh use Lemon and Sugar on theirs.  And I'm upset that IHOP took the Swedish Pancakes off their Menu coz it was the only place I could get them... dammit!!!  Nobody does Welsh Pancakes.

And Mom was Happy when us Kids would Like any of her Welsh Foods, coz mostly we didn't.  *LOL*   They eat some Weird shit and I guess we were too Americanized?   Now, my Dad grew up eating some Weird shit too on the Rez, but mostly out of necessity to stave off Starvation, which, just made more sense to me why those dishes even existed.  But, Jobbins {Mashed Turnips with Bacon Grease}, Blood Sausage {it is exactly what it sounds like}, Head Cheese {again, exactly what it sounds like}, Steak & Kidney Pie, Parsnips, Cockles, Leeks, Cawl {Welsh Stew}, Kelp Seaweed... not a Fan.  *LOL*   But, I did like Bara Brith {it's like a Fruitcake and the English Translation is Speckled Bread}, Lamb with Mint Sauce and of coarse Welsh Pancakes. 

  If Mom was making any of the Fear Factor Welsh Foods, we'd eat at a Friend's House.  *Ha ha ha*  Dad's Native American Concoctions he grew up eating, weren't as Fear Factor IMO.  But Raw Hamburger and Raw Meat did Freak Out my mostly Vegetarian Mom a lot!!!   That's how Heathen eat Food she'd say, and try to discourage us from doing it, and we'd Laugh and Laugh, saying how very Colonial a Statement.  *LOL*  And tho' she'd rely on Eastern Medicine sometimes, since her Dad was Raised by a Chinese Family, she was skeptical of Dad's Medicine Man's Tribal Medicine.  Or would rely more than Dad and us on Western Medicine for herself.  

 Almost too much so, and so she did become Addicted to the Addictive Medications prescribed over the Years and I just Hated that, both as a Child and as an Adult.  She had Cancer more than once and they thought she'd Die of it, so overprescribed Addictive Meds for it thinking her to be Terminal... only, she didn't Die of it and refused to.  And so that became Problematic, coz she was Hooked on the Meds.   If you don't Hurry Up and Die from some Western Medical Practices and Big Pharma Profiteering Meds, that then becomes a real layered Problem that plagues America in Drug Addiction.   My Eastern and Tribal Remedies did no harm and none were Addictive, they just aided your Body to do what Nature intended for it to do and Designed it to do by itself, Heal.  You don't have to tell your Body to Heal, it will always Try to.  Sometimes of coarse it can't or would need some Partnership to, that's all.  But, my Beliefs are that you're never Dead 'til God says so.  No matter what a Doctor says or predicts as a grim Prognosis as their Opinion.  They can be Wrong.  And I have not seen an Expiration Date Stamped on any of us.

  Anyway, Mom eventually Died of Complications from Advanced Dementia and kinda kicked Cancer's Ass every time and outlived the projected Expiration Date Doctors had given her by over 44 Years!!!  Her Older Brother even longer than that and lived to be 90 as a "Terminally Ill" Patient who should have Died in his early 40's by their Diagnosis Projections of an Expiration Date... he Outlived Four of his Doctors!  *LOL*   But she would let our Dad Doctor us Kids up with it coz she could tell it always Worked and we preferred it to Traditional Western ways.  She always called us her Little Heathens, in jest, coz we acted more American Indian than Welsh.  She just was never quite sure what was in it and he couldn't always say and I sure didn't know what the Hell was in it???  But, then again, I didn't always know what the Hell was in my Eastern Medicine Teas and Tinctures my Chinese Doctors brewed up either, but they Work.  And I preferred it as Treatment too.   *Bwahahahaha* 

I often Treat The Man with my Holistic and Tribal or Eastern ways.  And sometimes his Medical Professionals have been baffled so far and said, "Well, we don't even know Why you're still Alive and Healed from stuff you shouldn't have Recovered from this well.  But keep on doing whatever she's telling you to do..."   *Winks and Grins*  He is now convinced and tells everyone, that I will not "Allow" him to Die, even if he wants to and is trying to.  *Bwahahahaha*  He could be Right...  I'm not ready yet to Grieve in Bora Bora my Dear and be left Alone with all these Kids!!!    And yet, he and all these Kids don't want me to get to Go first... so, it's an ongoing dilemma!!!    *LMAOROTF and that's the Truth!!!*

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All your Secrets are Safe here my Friends... Dawn... The Bohemian