Going From The Topics Of Bunnies... To Dealing With The Bullshit

 Well, The Son's Lifetime Friend Gypsy James has a Rabbit named Cinna Bun and she had a litter around Easter.  The Young Prince had been asking for a Bunny as an Emotional Support Animal, he's missing Tyson, their Pit Bull, who he interacted with daily, but is Allen's Dog.  I don't want a Dog or another Cat, but a Bunny, I wasn't opposed to.  So, James shot off some pixs and they're too Young yet, but when the Bun-Buns are a little Older then we'll take One.  If he can tell what Gender they are and ensure Two Females, I'd take Two actually.  We have plenty of Pasture for them to graze on if the Grandkids took them outside, but I would need them to build a safe Hutch to keep Predators from harming them.  And keep it in one of our Dog Carriers inside at Night.  The Grandson has Raised Rabbits before when he lived on the Farm Commune in Washington State.  And he's been Mentally Tormented a lot lately by his Hallucinations and Delusions, so he Needs something to restore his Calm.  Otherwise... this is all over the Property... {See Below}

So, he's Moved to Tears this Morning that we're getting One, possibly Two, for him, if it helps him Emotionally it's well worth it.  He's been going overboard on the Protection Symbols to keep Evil at bay and away, and this Morning had a huge one in the Driveway.  I had to ask if he could remove it or let me wash it away coz it will Scare Off the Home Nurse Help or anyone Delivering Packages since they won't know what it is.  Plus, all the Home Nurses are from other Countries and are very Superstitious Cultures so they wouldn't wanna come if they see all that.  I took some Pixs, since I need to convey to the Social Security Interview Caseworker just how Paranoid he is about the Evil Spirits and Demons he sees all of the time and torments him Mentally to where he sometimes shuts down completely from being functional at all.  Listen, he can be Salted, Saged and Protected by all the Symbolism in the World, if it brings him Comfort and a sense of Security from what he Sees, I don't mind.  But I know all this will scare the bejesus out of a lot of folks.  And he's got it everywhere the more Paranoid he gets and Feels.

So, a Bun-Bun would be Good and Dial Back some of that for him.  And, I don't really know if we'll get any Help for him from The System coz he Presents very high functional in a short Interview coz he's so Intelligent.  And we're not there for the lack of Intelligence, he's not Developmentally Disabled in that way, he doesn't have a low IQ and is actually quite Brilliant Academically, but Mentally, very Disturbed.  To the point he's not fully Functional on a personal level and often on an interactive level with other people either.  People do Like him, but sometimes he can't be around them when he's not doing Well.  Schizophrenia has a lot of Mental Baggage that comes with it, and self-harm, or the tendency to feel very Threatened enuf to React in Defensive ways if he thinks someone is out to Harm him... or has Demonic Possessions attached to them.  If he thinks you're a Devil, or Demonically influenced, well, it's not gonna go Well between you and him. 

He sometimes barricades his Doors and makes entry into his Room impassable on purpose to Feel Safe.  And yet, it impairs the Space being Sanitary or Safe, so we've had to gently go rounds about keeping it with a Safe Pathway and Sanitation that is acceptable to us.  While respecting his Need for Protective Measures to ease his Mind and the Torments it barrages him with daily.   And if these Agencies truly wanna offer Present Help, I Need for them to know what we're Dealing with daily as his Caregiver and providing him with a Home, a Safe and Sanitary Space to Be, and to also Feel Protected and Safe in it.  If they can Partner with me to accomplish that, I have no problems taking Care of him, but it can't all be on our Dime anymore, not on a Fixed Income with our own Needs and Expenses of Care as we're getting Older and having Health and Medical Needs we must Fund.  I shouldn't have to provide all the Food, Medical Expenses, as well as all the Shelter for a Vulnerable Adult that should Qualify for Services and Benefits, yet isn't being provided any and often is even Denied any.

I Write about it to bring Public Attention to what they probably aren't even Aware of that many Families Deal with Silently and Invisibly all of the time as their Hand Dealt.   Sometimes Ignorance of Social Service Qualifying Factors brings forth all the Old Myths and Tropes that abound. Of Welfare Queens and that Services are just handed out all willy-nilly and are so easy to Qualify for, that those who shouldn't even receive them are loaded up with them.  Listen even those who should Qualify for these Services and Benefits cannot EASILY Qualify for or Receive even the little that is parsed out and nothing about it all is Easy.  It would fucking be Easier to just Earn the Money yourself, Trust and Believe, if you could and wouldn't even Need Assistance and some Help.  I've had very demanding and Successful Careers and Two Corporate Lives that were EASIER than Dealing with any of these Systems and that's not hyperbolic, it's the God's Honest Truth!!!

If you're Elderly and Dealing with Social Security, Medicare or Medicaid, if you're a Veteran and Dealing with Veteran's Services, you can also Testify to how convoluted and NOT EASY it is to Deal with any of these Agencies and Services provided, or to Qualify for what you Need from them... and you PAID the Price to Receive any of that!!!   Even Earned Benefits now are no Joy Ride to Receive and not have a wealth of problems with along the way now.   And if you've had to Deal with any of your Insurance Companies on Claims, let me tell you that Dealing with DES for Healthcare Services, or Nutritional Assistance, or Disability Claims, or Cash Assistance, is just as frustrating and an Ordeal.  

And you will sit and wait for Hours and Hours to even ever get an In Person Contact, in overly Crowded Waiting Rooms, or spend Weeks trying to get thru by Phone UNSUCCESSFULLY from the time they Open to the time they quit taking Calls!!!  I am convinced they don't even Answer their Phones anymore.  Only to not be assured you'll even get Approved and not Denied IF you finally get an Interview/Appointment!  Then there's the endless Appeals Process.   And few Appeals will reverse a Denial, it can happen, I've made it happen with tenacity and relentless pursuit of not taking No for an Answer.  But, it can take YEARS in the interim, and a Needy Person desperate for what is Needed can't wait Years without someone else providing it all while waiting on The System to!  So, it falls on the Families or Friends of these People to sustain them or leave them destitute and forsaken.  That's what's happening, it's the Reality, not the Fantasy or someone's Imaginings that has no Point of Reference and Believes all the Lies and Myths about it all.

So, per the request of the T-Mobile Filipina Outsource Employee on the Phone that couldn't help me to pay my Bill and get a Statement generated, I went into a T-Mobile Office when they Opened on Saturday Morning.  I was the 2nd person thru the Door but they only had one Gal working the whole Store and she got tied up for over 40 Minutes with the 1st person thru the Door coz he was buying about Three Grand worth of products and Services.  *Le Sigh*  By then Customers were Ten deep and getting restless and very agitated, and she wasn't even still halfway done with that Guy so I hadda leave without even being seen after wasting 40 Minutes waiting.  *Le Sigh*  So, T-Mobile ain't getting Paid 'til the fuckers send me a Billing Statement.  They're understaffed in their Stores and their Phone Help is in 3rd World Countries and can't Help either.  Corporate needs to step up their Game.

 

I don't Care, that's about $283 a Month in my Account until they get their shit together and Bill me properly if they wanna get Paid.  After that futile waste of time at T-Mobile, I went to the Discount Grocer coz I had a $15 Credit Bonus to use there and do my Monthly Grocery Shopping I do there.  They always have about half of what we'll need for the Month and at a fraction of the Cost, so I Love that place.  I got the Bunny Food there too 2/3 Off the Retail of it at Pet Shops or Wal-Mart for the best Brand Name of Baby Bunny Foods.  So, I was all done for my Saturday Errands by Noon when it began to get Hot, tho' it's only in the low 80's now so still 20+ Degrees Cooler than it had been, which is a relief.   The Daughter and her Son are Talking again, he's decided not to be estranged from her after all, and she's relieved about that.  It just took him awhile to get over his hurt and upset, which is understandable.

So, they're both doing some Housekeeping for me coz the maintenance of housework went to shit after The Daughter left, I couldn't keep on top of it with all the Emergency Medical Crisis and Appointments going on.  So now everything is getting caught up again with them both helping with it.  She's doing the Cooking again too which is nice, I like being cooked for and so does The Man, we just don't wanna bother making Meals anymore.  I don't mind providing the Food, I just never was a Culinary Jedi and tho' The Man was, with his TBI and now Dementia, he can't even be unsupervised in a Kitchen anymore and forgot how to do damned near anything he used to know how to do to prepare Meals and be Safe in a Kitchen.  He follows his Safety Prompts pretty good tho', so with Supervision he can do some things still.

I have a Sour Stomach again Today, 2nd Day in a row.  I Hope it eases up before Tuesday since that's when I have to take The Grandson all the way Downtown to Social Security and no telling how long that will take.  They better have a Bathroom close by if this lingers.  *Le Sigh*  I'm not as worried about Princess T's Dental Appointment on Monday, that never takes long and I know they have a Bathroom, and, it's not far from Home, so not a lot of commuting or bad traffic to get there and back.  Lately traffic has been terrible and too much Road Construction has only made it all the worse.  They've overbuilt around here in recent Years and not improved the Roads or infrastructure enuf to handle all the additional Population for the new Homes and outrageously Huge Apartment Complexes built.  They also need to build more Grocery Stores to serve the population explosion in the area.

I Plan to Rest now for the rest of the day now I've picked the Granddaughter up from Work, so that I can kick whatever this Stomach Bug is?  I've barely eaten anything for Two Days so I don't even know how I have so much to evacuate!?!   And I didn't eat anything before this hit to give me pause or feel like it would be problematic.  I've kept hydrated tho' since you have to when you have that going on... you can dehydrate so quickly with a Stomach Bug.  Google said a highly contagious Norovirus Stomach Bug is going around right now and exceeding typical ranges.  Since I spent so much time in ER's and Hospitals lately with The Man, I was worried about picking something up around so many Sick People there.  Normally I'm not around a lot of random people or public places.  

It says the Symptoms last about 3 Days so I should be on the back end of it tho' now, and I haven't thrown up, so that's good.  But it did start with the intense Headache.  There's no specific treatment, just Wash Hands with Soap & Water and keep hydrated... check and check, doing all of that.   Seems they've had Thousands of folks Hospitalized with it so I'm doing okay really, I don't even feel Sick, just sporadically having the Trots very bad and don't feel like Eating anything.  We're disinfecting everything so nobody else hopefully comes down with it in the Family.  The Man right now can't afford something else Negatively impacting his already Fragile Health and Recovery.   Luckily I also stocked up on the Anti-Diarrheal Meds and Anti-Nausea Meds.   Fun Times!!!

So, becoz I have to stay close to a Bathroom, I'm here Blogging away this Afternoon to round out the Day.  The Daughter has a Cleaning Job way in Chandler for Tomorrow and I told her if I'm not shitting myself, we can go do it, since I'm her transportation.  But, it's subject to whether or not I'm over this Stomach Virus or not?  Chandler is about an Hour's Drive each way and I really don't wanna try doing that if I still have the Trots?    Her Client will understand.   It's also Orthodox Easter and so if I'm Feeling Well, later that Day I'd like to go back to "Dino's" and get another Lamb Dinner for myself even if The Man decides to Opt Out?   He took Days to finish his Traditional Easter Day Lamb Dinner from there.   If I can't get in due to needing Reservations, which I haven't made, I'll just Buy the Dinner for Take-Out instead, just to have it again.

The Daughter really needs the Money from that Job, so I do Hope I am Well enuf to get her there for it?  The Son is still waiting to see if he gets Hired for that part-time minimum Wage Job or not?  There's just no REAL Jobs and it's so disheartening to someone like him whose never had Trouble getting Work or getting Hired before coz he's an excellent Employee and has lots of Experience and Skills.   He's had to lower his Standards and Expectations just to try to find any Job at this point since he's been out of Work now since before Thanksgiving!!!  If he didn't have us he would have been absolutely destitute and forsaken coz he doesn't Qualify for hardly any Social Services and the Hoops to Jump thru to get even the little bit parsed out to a Single Adult Man who is Employable but can't find Work anywhere, and is being denied Unemployment, so has NO Income, No ability to provide Essentials to LIVE, is ridiculous.

And for someone too Disabled to Work, they really NEED a Social Services Safety Net and ability to Qualify for Disability Services and Disability Income to stay Alive.  The Grandson found out that if he doesn't have his Divorce Finalized, he might not Qualify for a damned thing even if his Husband is no longer providing for him in any way!!!  So, we may be required to start over and re-schedule and re-apply for everything since Allen has only just now actually Paid for the Divorce to be initiated!!!   He procrastinated and The Young Prince had to press him to get this Done otherwise he has no way to receive any Services and Allen shouldn't expect his Aging Grandparents to provide what a Spouse will not.   So, allegedly the Paperwork is coming, but it hasn't arrived, must be Notorized and sent back, don't know how long the actual Divorce might take?  What a rigamarole.  

Especially since he can't even Qualify to receive AHCCCS for Medical Insurance for the indigent or meet Deadlines for AHCCCS to cover what Medical Expenses have already been incurred!  He just had a Filling fall out, so Needs Dental Care too.   And his Mental Health Psyche Meds run out by EOM.   Oy Vey!!!   I don't know what we're gonna do if Allen isn't cooperative and we can't get this Divorce finalized?   I can't cover Medical Expenses, expensive Medications and Dental Expenses for an Uninsured Grandchild who is too Mentally Ill to be Employed and isn't receiving ANY Services due to the Situation he has no Control over either?!  I'm really exhausted just trying to get him any Help we've managed to procure so far even tho' he hasn't yet Qualified for a damned thing yet at all and what he had via New Mexico Social Services has ended now coz he's only allowed it for so long when no longer living in that State.

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Dealing with the bullshit of these Systems is exhausting... Dawn... The  Bohemian