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It was a gorgeous day in the 70's, so I spent all Morning pricing Inventory in the She Shed and then we brought it in to the Antique Mall Spaces, I had Three Milk Crates filled with Inventory and a Persian Rug. It was still extremely busy for the Sale, so, it has been well received, and our Showroom had lots of Shoppers in it, so all Body Parts crossed that Sales will finally be stronger? Just looking busy can be deceiving, sometimes there's a lot of traffic and no Sales to speak of. Anytime you're stocking fresh Merch people get curious and crowd around. So, it takes longer and some will rifle thru things before you even put it out!
The Man came along and I let him wander around for his Cardio Exercise of walking in a Safe Space where everyone knows him and looks out for him. I took him to "In-N-Out Burger" for Lunch, it was busier than I've ever seen it, and it's always busy, but it was slammed and almost too many people packed inside! We sat outside to eat our Burgers & Fries. And fed the Sky Rats our French Fry bits. The thing with their Fries is you have to eat them fast while Hot or they don't taste good anymore, but their Burgers are always yummy and look good. Mine was so high I could barely fit it into my Mouth!!! The Man's is the Cheeseburger sans Lettuce, he won't put Teeth in so would choke on Lettuce.
Usually by now I've started on Christmas Cards, the List is so much shorter each Year now that I haven't felt any urgency to, it won't take long. The exchange of Cards dwindled even before folks started Dying Off or just not doing it anymore. So, every Year my List got shorter and I'm actually Okay with that, even tho' I still enjoy getting Cards from the Family and Friends that still do it and often include Letters, Notes or Photos with the Cards to catch up with each other's Lives. I used to do a Christmas Letter resplendent with Photos, I'd make a Master Letter with current Pixs taped on temporarily and go to "Office Max" and make Xeroxs of it to include in each Card. I quit even doing that several Years ago, I no longer have a Printer to Type the Letter out or do Letters anymore.
I was the last of the Dinosaurs who Wrote Letters and sent Photos, I'll probably be one of the last of the Dinosaurs to send out a few Christmas Cards now? I remember when we'd get around 75 Cards and have them festooned on Candy Cane String with Arted Up Clothespins around the whole House at Christmas. One of my Sisters-In-Law makes the most Beautiful Homemade Christmas Cards every Year, still does, I've kept just about all of them, small Works of Art. The Man's Family, the Women are very Crafty and Creative and they do a lot of it in the Women's Relief Society of their Church. Our Next Door Neighbor, Sylvia, TJ and Rob's Mom, has the LDS Women's Relief Society over every Sunday after Church, the Vehicles are up and down the whole Street.
The Daughter's Lifelong Friend Amber was over there for her Daughter's Baby Shower that the Women's Relief Society threw for her Daughter Julissa. She's preggy by Sylvia's 65 Year Old Son, she's 25, it's a Boy and poor Kid is not only gonna have a Special Needs Vulnerable Adult Mom and Geriatric Dad who has Stage 4 Cancer, but Amber said they picked out a real "Children Of The Corn" Name for the Baby... that they told her is "Biblical". Wait for it: Jedidiah!!! OMG I thought she was joking, then by the look on her Face I could tell she was not, she and her Ex-Husband, Joe, are not happy about this Union or the Pregnancy, I don't blame them. They're each Worried they'll be asked to Raise this Child... which will be their 1st Grandchild. And I don't blame how they Feel about the Situation, if my Special Needs 20-Something Granddaughter got Pregnant by a 65 Year Old Man living with his Parents and without a Pot to Piss in, let alone put Hands on her like he did to Julissa, while she was Pregnant, I'd be coming and gunning for that Fool!!!
Amber is Special Needs herself, so the Courts awarded Custody of her Three Daughter's to her Ex to Raise when they broke up. By then he'd Married {they were never Married} and he was in the Military, so Amber is only just now getting to know her Three Daughters coz they rarely lived in Arizona due to their Dad's Military Career. They're all Grown now and I think they try to take advantage of their Mom since she's a Special Needs Adult, so I don't like her Daughters and they're no longer allowed over here. The Special Needs one whose Preggy is particularly Creepy Weird and will just walk in to your Home uninvited and start going thru things, or Walk in on you in any Room, and just Stand and Stare. So, I told Amber, Listen, you're always Welcome, you're like Family, but those Kids, Sorry, too intrusive and too Odd, it's Creeping us Out. *LOL*
She says the same things and she's their Mom, so she realizes, mebbe all Three aren't 'Right in the Head'? So, she's very worried about this Baby and strongly despises TJ, but, Adores his Elderly Parents, who are the nicest People. Amber was funny tho', she came over after the Baby Shower was a Wrap and said all those Church Ladies over there who Hosted the Shower at Sylvia's House, were trying to get her to go to their Church. Amber is devout Roman Catholic and told them she already has a Good God... Amber is very Childlike, so the way she is and what she says can be fucking hilarious, without intending to be. One time she saw my Statue of Buddha that she likes and was part of a Home Altar, she says, Laughing and without trying to be offensive or Sacriligeous, "Oh, that damned Buddha, he always makes me Smile when I see his Statues, he looks so Happy and Fat, like me." *Bwahahahaha, she's a Big Gal and always Happy and Smiling*
She's a Trip and you just never know what will fall out of her Mouth in a very innocent way that is like a Woman Child. *LMAO* And, our Middle Granddaughter back East just sent me this Santa Pix of her Kiddos and The Great-Granddaughter really does NOT Like Santa, does she? *LOL* Her Older Brother's Countenance and Expression is hilarious too. It's clear he's thinking, "Oh, Boy, here we go..." *LMAOROTF* This Pix is Priceless!!! She wants the Hell outta there!!!! And then Big Bro' is trying to comfort her in Santa's Sleigh when they finally ditched the Big Scary Guy. *LOL* Well, Mama tried... that's all you can do... when they're just not havin' it!!! *Ha ha ha*
The Kiddos Lifelong Friend Bree came down for the Holidays to spend time with Family. Her Son is almost 18 and giving her grief now coz he thinks he's a Man and can do whatever he wants, worrying her Sick... typical behavior for that Age. I got her to at least laughing about it coz I could tell he stressed her out by 'running away with the Girlfriend she didn't even know he had' at Thanksgiving! He didn't tell her, she didn't even know he had a Girlfriend, she wasn't sure if she should file a Missing Person's Report or not, she was beside herself thinking something had happened to him. I 'Get' it, I've Raised Two Generations of Kiddos, at some point they imagine they're Grown Ups and do stupid shit and make bad decisions, thinking they know it all and you know nothing. It happens. He's a good Kid, she's Raised him by herself, but, Raised him Right.
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She said she likes coming here coz I can always manage to make her Laugh about Serious stuff that's making her feel Crazy and Scared. I feel for her, every Mother will always Worry about their Kiddos, no matter how Old they get. She knows next Year when he turns 18 she no longer has control over him, so she's just trying to hold on to him being her "Child" just this last Year and asked him, can't you give me that? *Smiles* Anyway, I was sorry she's going thru it with the Teenager at Home, especially since he's been a good Kid up 'til now and she just doesn't want him getting with the Wrong Crowd coz he's been very Sheltered. She grew up rough and tough in Da Hood, but she said he's Soft and not Streetwise like she grew up, so she worries about him not discerning Bad Company or Bad Girls Gone Wild. The last Girlfriend he had she didn't like at all, disrespectful lil Hoochie Mama she was. Bree sent her packing. *Winks*
The little Girl thought she was all tough and Bad so came and disrespected Bree to her Face, she'd given Bree's Son a Black Eye, big Mistake. He was Raised not to touch a Woman in Anger or with Violence. So many of the Youngsters have no Respect and don't realize you can't Disrespect the Wrong People and not have it blow up on you. Some of the Young Girls have no couth or class. He came Home with the Black Eye from this Girl he thought was his little Girlfriend and Bree said she was coming for this Girl. The Girl showed up and luckily didn't get out of the Car, Bree is not one to trifle with.
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But knew this Girl was still a Minor, 17, so had to use all the restraint she had in her, they got into a verbal altercation instead. The Girl got mouthy and disrespectfully threatening, saying she'd kick Bree's Ass. Bree put her Hair up in a Bun and took out her Earrings... well, the Girl was Wise enuf to not get out of her Car and peel out of there, she'd written a Check with her Mouth that her Ass couldn't Cash. *LOL* Bree is Hood, and you can take the Girl outta Da Hood, but ya can't take Da Hood outta the Girl, as they say.
And we can go Hood in a split Second when it becomes necessary. *Winks* It reminded me of that little Hoochie that came to our Home and threatened Princess T in front of us coz of that Guy Isaac, when Princess T was still 17. He was Princess T's Boyfriend she broke up with and that Hoochie Girl was the Cleanup Woman, coz she puts out and was a little Junkie Whore. Not Hyperbole or just being mean about the Girl, she was on Drugs and Sleeps with anyone and everyone apparently, and has since she was 14 from what even the Gay Boy Posse told us about her, a real Train Wreck Princess T, Timmy and Matthew had warned us. She was hanging with Older Grown Men who were known Thugs from Da Hood, who were nasty enuf to be messing with Underaged Girls, so we weren't sure what Trouble she'd make and pose a Danger to our Grandchild!? So we took it all dead Serious, as we should. The Police act impotent when the Problem involves a Minor making trouble, and Delinquent Minors know this, so get Cocky with Adults and think they CAN make Threats with impunity.
Princess T had no interest in Isaac anymore, but this Girl felt insecure and threatened, coz Isaac still liked our Granddaughter and kept trying to contact her and get back together with her. And tho' this Girl was sleeping around, she thought Isaac was HER Boyfriend now, and, he was being spiteful coz Princess T had blocked him from contacting her anymore. And he thought some of his things were still at our House, which, they weren't, so he'd sent this little Lunatic over. So, that's how the Girl ended up at our Home making Threats and refusing to leave. I thought The Daughter was gonna go Ham on that stupid little 17 Year Old who was Trespassing on our Property, Threatening our Granddaughter, and trying to Act all Hard. {Above is Bree with my Kids and another of their other Friends during one of The Son's Birthdays.}
OMG, we had to hold The Daughter back from going Mental and fucking that Young and dumb Teenager up! She had no problem going back to Jail or Psyche Lockdown to protect her Kid from that ignorant trashy little Gangbanger Wannabe. *Smiles* So, we know how Bree felt during that awkward confrontation with a sassy Teenager making Threats and refusing to just leave when asked, too. Some Teens can be dangerous, so you can't take Threats lightly, even coming from a Minor. And this little Girl with Bree tried to run her over with the Car, which is what escalated the situation and got Bree really worked up. Anyway, luckily her Son is not with that Girl, but now has a new one he hasn't told his Mom about, so she's wondering, whatssup with this One? *Oy Vey and LOL* Got Bree wound up again tighter than a 7-Day Clock! {And Above and Below is a Blast From the Past of Bree, The Son, and their Friend Mike B. when they were only her Son's Age, actually Younger, about 14-16... now they're all 37-39}
I just reminded her what THEY were all like at her Son's Age, Buck Wild and Kids from Da Hood! *LOL* And that, by comparison, her Son is rather a good Kid and Tame, Right? She had to admit, True that, she and our Kids made us Parents deal with much more high Drama and Bad Behaviors. She had her Son when she was only a Young Teenager, so she just doesn't want him screwing up his Life with Bad decisions or get some Trashy Lil Gal Pregnant and end up with her in his Life then Forever due to a Child they had together. She just spent a small Fortune to send him on his Senior Field Trip and have his Cap & Gown bought for Graduation, to the Tune of almost a Grand!!! Yeah, Gurl... they can be ungrateful, entitled acting lil' Bastards at that Age, can't they? *Winks and she Laughs*
Yes, she laments, he's treating me like I'm The Devil. I Smiled and said, well, becoz you ARE to your Teenagers when they're that Age. I had her Laughing and diffusing, coz it's all still quite Raw since he pulled this Stunt taking off with the Secret Girlfriend, ON Thanksgiving Day!!! Nobody knew where the Hell he was!? I started singing the Song, "Young, Dumb & Broke" by Khalid, and she started Laughing 'til she gave me a Big ole Hug, needing the Levity and Sage Parenting Advice. And she took Pixs of my Christmas Tree and some of the funky Decor around the House to send to her Boyfriend coz she said he'll Love our Home's Vibe.
She does remember what our Kids were like as Teenagers, and what The Young Prince was like as a Teenager, and I managed to Survive it and so did The Man. So I told her, this too shall Pass. It'll drive you Crazy, but, it will Pass and they'll eventually become Whole Human Beings, in their 30's, 40's, or so. *Bwahahahaha* She and The Daughter got preggy by Guys they were never gonna be with to Raise Kids together, when they were all mere Teens. I told her both The Two Daughters we have were Teen Moms, and The Son, as well as The Grandson, went Haywire way earlier than her Son, at about Age 14, all Four of them. So, he's a Late Bloomer waiting 'til 17 to go Haywire. She knows she went Haywire at 14 too... and they all looked like Butter wouldn't melt in their Mouths at those Haywire Ages {See Younger Tween Daughter Above, completely Haywire by then!}, so, Looks were deceiving, they were Lil Devils that just Looked like Angels!!! *Winks* But, try not to get so Old you forget what it was like to be Young.
This is my Welsh Cousin and his Dear Wife, we keep in Touch via FB, he's the Youngest Son of my Favorite Uncle who used to come visit us every Year and stay for about a Month at a time. I miss him so much, he lived to be 90 and his Son looks so much like him! This Cousin has traveled the Globe and been to America often, but, we haven't seen each other in person since we were Teenagers in High School, his Older Brother is my Age, he's my Younger Brother's Age. His Dad was only 11 Months Older than my Mom so they were very close Siblings all their lives. Funny Story, this Cousin and his Brother would charge their Friends to peek in the Window of our Nanna's House in North Wales to look at my Dad so they could say they'd seen a Real Live Red Indian from America! *LMAOROTF*
LATER: Well, it's already December!!! I've got to Work Tonight, filling in for Jackson again. He just got back from a Cruise or something and I'd filled in for him in November too. That Guy and his Wife, who I also know, are on the endless Vacation and go on more Cruises than anyone I've ever known, it's good to be them! *LOL* I Love seeing their Book of Faces Pixs Shared of all the Cruises they've been on and Exotic Locales around the Globe. I always wanted to go on one and then The Man's Health tanked. And it's just too risky to be out on some Ship on the vast Ocean, heading to some Exotic locale, and something happen Medically that would be an Emergency or they Die en route. A Friend of mine at the DA's Office went on their first Cruise with her Husband after they both Retired. He Died on the Ship and the Island destination didn't wanna even release his Body to extort Money out of her!!! She had to threaten to just leave him there and make them pay for his burial!!! It was a Vacation's worst Nightmare she went thru to even get his Body back Home!
But, I've told them making Memories here with them all if far more cherished than going on some Cruise or seeing some new Destination just to cross it off the Bucket List. If I could go to Bora Bora some day I would, Greece too, Marrakesh, Fiji, the Mexican Riviera, and all of the Hawaiian Islands, I've only been to Oahu and Kauai. Some South American Jungle Tours really look interesting, the Amazon Rain Forrest I'm sure is a sight to behold. As you can tell I'm inclined to like the Tropical Destinations best. I've seen Europe and wouldn't mind going back to Countries I've already seen and lived in, but, been there, done that, so would prefer to cross off those not seen yet first. Tick-Tock and expenses. *LOL* Asia intrigues me, many beautiful Asian Locales, but none seem all that Safe to me to navigate. A Friend went to China when they had the Olympics there and LOVED it. Another Friend went to Russia several visits, LOVED it so much, and ended up with a Russian Wife. *LOL*
Above is my Brother the Photographer being both in front of and behind the Lens at the same time as a lark, Love it. I talked to him at Thanksgiving and heard about his Medical Insurance Issues due to this damned Cabal screwing over everyone's Health Plans. So, I've got to call and see how he's doing, I'm very worried he's had to go off all of his Life Saving medications and can't get his Morphine Pump repaired or replaced either. He knows a lot of Celebs and influential folks in Cali so I told him to pull Favors if he has to, he did for our Mom when she required Long Term Care in her final Years. Very famous and influential folks came thru for him on her behalf.
Kevin Costner and Sandra Bullock even called her and talked to her for Hours! She said they were very nice Young People, she loves their Movies, but isn't a Star Struck kind of person, so talked with them like she would have anyone of our Friends, they Loved it. She sat at a Bar once with the Members of Led Zeppelin, got a ride in their Limo and told them she hoped their "Little Band" would be successful!!! *LOL* She had no idea they were already famous or who they even were, only my Brother did!!! They thought it was hilarious and she was such Fun... she was... hanging out with Mom was always in a Word... FUN!!! She Loved Pro Wrestling. So my Brother would take her to the big matches and she got to know and talk with many Famous Wrestlers. She'd give them 'Tips', and my Brother said some of them would use the suggestions and then Wink at her after a Match.
Mom Loved Theatrics, her own Mom had been a Dancer, Actress and Singer on Stage in the Flapper Era. My Nanna was Theatrical to the hilt!!! She'd do British Pantomimes for us Kids to entertain us when she'd visit. And she'd Teach me Naughty little Songs when I was a Toddler and I'd repeat them at Pubs in exchange for getting Shirley Temple Drinks and Maraschino Cherries!!! Much to my Parents Chagrin to try to change the curse words in the Songs to a more Age appropriate one, but it never got the same effect of how many Cherries I could get for saying Ass rather than Bum. My Nanna was Naughty and I Adored her, we corresponded all my Life and were so close. *LOL* She even came for visits to America until she was in her 80's and couldn't.
Wanna hear one of the little Christmas Songs Nanna Taught me when I was only Two and I can STILL remember? She'd have me Pantomime to it as I sang it. So Imagine Two Year Old Dawn belting this out in a Pub to a bunch of inebriated Adults egging me on and rewarding me with Shirley Temples and Maraschino Cherries, Okay:
It was Christmas Day in the Workhouse, the Happiest Day of the Year. When Hearts are full of Gladness, and Bellies full of Beer. When up spake one old Pauper, his Face as bold as Brass, we don't want your Christmas Pudding, you can shove it up your Ass!
My Parents tried in vain to change the Lyrics to Rum and Bum, not as effective in my Performance. So Brass and Ass it was, to get more Cherries and Shirley Temples. *Bwahahahahahaha*
Another short silly one she'd Sing to me at Bedtime in a Lovely Voice, all my Mom's Relatives but her could Sing and had Opera worthy Voices:
Shit, Shite and Kaki {Hebrew and apparently Gaelic Childish term for Poop} went out one Night for Tea, Shit and Shite got in a fight and fell in Kaki's Tea.
{Still tickles me like it did as a Child, I have an infantile sense of humor sometimes, the Kiddos say I'm such a Child, drive fast thru Puddles and shit like that, can't resist it! LOL} My Mom always said Shite rather than Shit and one of her American Friends didn't know it was a replacement Word and Named their Dog Little Shite coz it reminded her Friend Betty of my Mom, they were Best of Friends. *LOL* Mom said to Betty, you can't call it that and why, so they then changed the Dog's Name to Peanuts and was a good Story to tell after that. *Smiles*
Anyway, I'm not one to usually be big on New Year's Resolutions but this Year I think one I'm contemplating is to have more of a Social Life again, since I have backup for Full Time Caregiving at Home now. I do get Invitations from Friends and Acquaintances that I've had to usually decline coz I didn't have coverage for The Man or of The G-Kid Force in the Past when they were still Little. Now they're all Grown and can help with their Grandpa's Care. We also have Two of our Adults Kids living back at Home too who can cover for me with him, and they all know I NEED the Breaks and Caregiver Respites more now than ever. He gets separation Anxiety from me but wants me to be Happy and Healthy, so he reluctantly will agree to me having some Me Time without asking to be in tow. Usually I will take him somewhere too so we have Togetherness Time to Balance Apartness Time.
When someone becomes at a level of being too Disabled, especially Mentally, their Friends tend to fall away and not feel comfortable anymore with interactions. So it can be very Isolating for them and I'm so Grateful that all the Friends of our Kids and Grandkids go out of their way to interact with him now, seeing that he no longer has the Socialization he used to have when he was Well enuf to have it. I got very Isolated too in Caregiving, it consumes you, Socialization falls away almost completely and it can become a Lonesome existence if you were to be Alone just with whoever you're Caring for. That's why I'm Thankful to have a Multigenerational Household coz the Positives outweigh the Negatives IMO, it takes a Whole Village and all that. *Winks* A Crazy Village, but, a Village nonetheless. *Bwahahahaha* Princess T says she sometimes has to Escape The Village too, I "Get' it, me too!!! *Winks*
And we Love the Misfits of our Village Dearly, it's a Motley Crew here and something is Wrong with all of us. So it's not like any One of us can say, well, at least I'm not one of the Crazies and one of the Broken Toys. *Smiles and Snort* I did have enuf Turkey bits to make a Turkey Vegetable Soup in the Crockpot for Tonight's Dinner, which I can eat late when I get Home from Work before 10:00 Tonight. Working a Night Shift you eat late and get used to unusual mealtimes. There's a new "Trader Joe's" Grocer they just built nearby, closer than the other locations I always go to, so I'm thrilled about that. And they had pre-chopped Veggie Soup Base cheap so that saves a lot of prep time for my Homemade Soups.
I really Needed to be uplifted with a new nice Fav Grocer being built nearby coz I'd JUST wasted 3 Hours of my Life I'll never get back at "Lifetime Fitness" to no avail, trying to get my Silver Sneakers Membership switched over from United Healthcare to Humana, like they specifically told me to do on December 1st. In November when I'd tried to do it I didn't yet have my new Humana Medicare Advantage Cards that would become effective January 1st, now I have them, they'd said I needed them. I bring them in and NOW they tell me they Need the Humana Silver Sneakers Code for my Husband and I. So, I spent the next 45 Minutes on the Phone to Humana to get all that for them. I give them the Numbers and NOW these Idiots tell me, Oh, those Numbers won't work until the effective Date of January 1st! Well, fuck, we knew that all along, didn't we, but you said you Needed those Numbers NOW!
And you also told me if I didn't switch it over to the new Provider and get it Approved, I'd have to Cancel Membership on my United Coverage so I wouldn't get Accidentally Billed!!! Well, don't Cancel they say, or you'll have to go back on a One Year Waiting List, but with your new Number inputted you will have a seamless transition {Hopefully, they cannot Guarantee Acceptance of the Authorization until it's Green Lighted by THEIR System}, on January 1st! {Insert Resting Bitch Face} But for the 3 Hours I was there getting jerked around by stupidity, they'd had a half Dozen bougee Karens give them a bad time. The Type who are in remarkable Body Shape and very fit, but have an Old Lady Head still on their Body. That all their Bad Plastic Surgery and garishly harsh but Trendy Makeup that can only be pulled off by a 20 Year Old, can't Help. So, they just look Scary and Dour, plus always go Karen on the Staff anywhere they go, making a Scene and holding everything up. *LOL, Le Sigh and Eye Roll*
So, after 3 Hours of my Time being wasted that I'll never get back, I was leaving and the Staff said, but nothing has been Resolved... and I say, "Exactly..." as I walked out the Door! *LOL* Coz now I only had 3 Hours before I had to leave for fucking Work and I hadn't eaten yet all Day!!! Other than that everything was swell. *Bwaahahahaha* I grabbed some "Panda Express" and put on the Crockpot of Turkey Soup when I got Home, so the crew here have Dinner in my absence and use up every scrap of leftovers we have from Thanksgiving. The Stock already smells Sublime!!!
So, here's my Soup simmering, I Wish you could smell the Aroma too!!! *Winks* I don't really wanna pull a Shift Tonight but Comped Time will offset some of what I owed the Mall after the last abysmal Pay Period for the 4th time in a row... for Two Months in a row. Every little bit of Mall Credit I can amass will help and what else can you do while the Economy is crashing around you? They do say Post-Thanksgiving Sales are way up, so some folks may be having the Mentality of "Eat, Drink and Be Merry for Tomorrow we may Die"? *Eye Roll* It is the Holidays and some folks will go deeply into Debt to ensure they have one and worry about how they'll Pay for it later, Buying on Credit and on Money they don't have, and may not have. I Worked Collections, Foreclosures and Bankruptcies for a 1st Corporate Life, so I know how people do. They too often spend Money even when they don't have it.
We did a load of Laundry, you'd of thunk I gave The Man a Laundry List of Chores rather than just doing a single Load of Laundry and folding it, while I did everything else Today. *Eye Roll* I involve him while I still can and he's capable of doing some things still, it's good for him, but he's like a reluctant Teenager you give Chores to and you get as much complaining and trying to evade and avoid having to do a damned thing and finding a myriad of excuses. It's hard for me coz I Married a Workaholic who had a very Strong Work Ethic and was my Partner in maintaining our Household. I can't help but miss that, and try NOT to compare how he is now with how he used to be. Princess T was profound at Age 6 after his Catastrophic Accident and recognized him as Two separate People "Old Grandpa" {Pre-Accident} and "New Grandpa" {Post-Accident and with TBI and now, Dementia on top of that}.
We Lost Old Grandpa the fateful Day of that tragic Accident and horrific injuries. We had to learn to Love, accept and embrace who he became after it, a completely different version of himself. It's getting close to Sundown earlier now it's Winter, so his Mood Deterioration of having Sundowners is happening earlier in the Day now. So, by about 3:30 p.m. now he's going into decline for the Day and you can't expect too much in the way of his Mood, Behavior or Compliance, he's going to predictably be more difficult and harder to manage the Care of coz he gets angry when you have to remind him to do what he Needs to be reminded to do. Like take the Meds he was hiding and pretending to take and finally got caught and the jig was up. *Winks* Changing Clothes is always a Battle, he doesn't like changing his Clothing to fresh Clothing or Bathing, just like a little Kid does and resists.
He's not Happy Today when he was reminded I have to Work Tonight, so he's already being very Cranky about it. He knows why I have to, but he doesn't have to Like it. *Smiles* I did all the Bills since it was the 1st and got those we could pay now Mailed. We have to wait and Hope our Social Security and my DA Pension Checks won't hit late again this Month to pay the rest of the Bills? It's always stressful not to know when your Earned Income is gonna hit your Account now the Government is cocked up so badly by this Regime that manifests and stokes Fears, intentionally screwing things up to create Chaos and uncertainty, heightening Fears. I personally think they think Chaos and Fear, Misinformation and limiting Educational Access, makes it easier for them to manipulate and exploit the masses and the People they have Authority over, that is my Take on their Methods.
Filling in for Jackson on Monday Night wasn't bad, it was busy for half the Shift, then flatlined for the 2nd half. Tina works it as her regular shift and I like working with her, we're Friends. The Retired Cop that I don't like had his DIL, Eve, filling in for him and I like her, sweet Girl. Her Husband, the Retired Cop's Son, who is also a really nice Young Man, came in with their little Girl, who is adorable. I'd seen Photos but hadn't seen their Toddler in Person, she's even Cuter than her Photos and Wow was her New Favorite Word. As her Daddy pushed her around the Antique Mall she'd point at specific items and say Wow... or if she really liked it Wow-Wow!!! *LOL* I bet she even has her Hard Ass Grandpa wrapped around her Little Finger. *Winks* He's a good Worker, but I prefer when his Son or DIL fills in for him, they're just nicer people... he's an Arrogant Prick. He reminds me of every Cop that the Public has problems with due to how they treat People.
By comparison, we had another Ex-Cop that used to Work there and we all Adored him and became good Friends, we were so Sad when he left. And you just knew when he was in Law Enforcement, the Public and the Community he Served probably Trusted and Adored him too. Stark Contrast. He knew I had Retired from the DA's Office too and didn't feel some kind of Negative way about it like this other Ex-Cop seems to, which, speaks volumes as well. I remember when I had that scary encounter with a Bad Cop, during my Move to the Villa McManse, my Friend the Retired Ex-Cop told me what I had a Right to do next time anything like that ever happened again. Hopefully it never will, it was terrifying. He said it was Cops like that scary aggressive one that make the Public distrustful and fearful of Officers. And there's always some of those on the Force who misuse and abuse their Authority over the Public and give the Departments they work for a Bad Name and unsavory Reputation.
Anyway, I was glad Mark wasn't Working, I don't mind filling in for Jackson, but don't like Working with some people and he's one of them. Good Worker, not a pleasant Person at all. Jackson, on the other hand, is a helluva Nice Guy, but not a good Worker. I already get the sense that Mark and Jackson do NOT get along at all, by some of the snarky things Mark has said about him, Note taken. I prefer not to Work with either type of Co-Worker, be they a Slacker or an Asshole, but if I have a Choice, you can get thru a Shift easier with a pleasant Person whose Work Ethic isn't great. Why? Becoz I can discuss that with Civility and Candor if it becomes problematic and they can change their ways if they know it bothers you. Than with an Asshole with a Work Ethic, becoz that's just the Essence of who they are at their Core, an Asshole 24-7 and 365, and not much is ever gonna Change that. Not with a Civil discussion about it anyway. I was Dawn of The Light with him at first, and he wasn't ever receptive with that side of me. So, I just go Dark on Mark. We have a mutual Dislike... and I don't give a Shit how he Feels about it, so, he always gets Dark Dawn now, HIS Choice. *Winks*
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Merry Christmas my Friends... Dawn... The Bohemian
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