The Hurry Up And Die Plan

 

So, it's the Morning of The Event and I don't Feel motivated to go yet, so we'll see if that changes as the Morning wears on?  Princess T is still Home Sick and her Ass hurts where they had to give her that Painful Shot in it.  I've told her to Walk It Off and exercise that Glute Muscle, which is Cramping badly from the effects of the Shot/Medication.  Usually it's given in the Arm they said, but her Skinny Little Arms are like Pipe-cleaners so her Ass Cheek had more Muscle in it that would be needed to distribute the Medication.  *LOL, awww, Poor Thin Thing!*  And she's still misery personified and I doubt her Mom could handle both a Sick Adult Teen AND her Dad in my absence?  There's been a lot of Whining and High Drama from both of them.  *Le Sigh*

Princess T just wants the Sympathy mostly, she is used to being a Sickly Child, Bless her, so she just wants the Comfort of us being Sympathetic really.  So, every so often she'll wander to where ever her Grandpa and I are to tell us how awful she still feels and look pitiful.  Then we'll crack inappropriate Jokes about it, she'll start Laughing, and then be able to Carry On with her Healing a while longer without being in constant Tears.  There has been a lot of Crying going on and she is taking the Three Meds they gave her for it all, but it provides only so much relief, it's no Cure for this bad strain of the Flu that has to run it's course with you.  And this Flu seems to be a doozy of one, I'm Praying it doesn't make the rounds now in the Household?  Especially for The Man who Needs to stay well and Strong enuf for his 2nd Heart Surgery.  Above: A 2011 Blast from the Junquing Past... since, I got no New Pixs taken lately, I'm in a slump Photographically... and well, other ways too.

I get worried when it's a really bad Strain going round, coz people can end up Hospitalized or Dead from The Flu, it's no Joke.  But the Anti-Vax Crowd are in Charge now so they didn't roll out preventative Vaccines this Season for the mutated Strains that have now hit with a vengeance.  They've also kicked Millions off Medicaid, and Princess T Thankfully still has hers.  *Whew*   A lot of Working Poor and Minimum Wage Earners rely on it, not just those who aren't able to Work, and Millions of Young Families rely on it to cover their Minor Children.  A lot of Families with Chronic Health Issues rely on it since Major Insurance often won't cover enuf if someone is Title 19 Disabled or Sickly and has expensive comorbidities.  And of coarse most Elderly are on Medicaid or Medicare and rely heavily upon it to stay Alive and afford their Meds.

It's not good for a Society to be Sickly and without adequate Healthcare. It's not Productive to have Workers out Sick becoz they can't get Healthcare, don't have Coverage, or can't seek preventative Healthcare to avoid serious Illness from being left undiagnosed or untreated.  Healthcare in America is expensive business, it Bankrupts more American Families every Day than almost any other financial crisis they may encounter.  When I ran Collections, Foreclosures and Bankruptcy Departments for Major Financial Institutions, Illness and Medical Debt were the reasons many ended up with a financial crisis serious enough they couldn't pay their Debts or their Mortgage Payment and would lose everything.  Followed only by Job Loss... which, when you're Sick or Too Disabled, that happens as well, Sick and Seriously Disabled People often aren't Employable.

I've been getting some Edema in my Ankles, last time I had that I was Pregnant... and that's certainly not why it's happening *Bwahahaha*, so, I will have to get it checked out if it continues.  Dr. Google gave lots of non-serious reasons and I did sit too long binge watching a new NetFlix Series with Halle Berry called EXTANT {2014}, that isn't all that 'New'. Lord have Mercy, I spent Four Hours watching it!!!  That's Rare for me to be Still that long and sit thru anything without becoming Restless and losing Focus, but it's really good.  Halle is always good in her Roles and my God that Woman is Ageless and Gorgeous, isn't she?  She's still as Beautiful and still has a Killer looking Body at 59 Years Old... and she has had Two Kids and kept her Girlish Figure!  She was 41 and 47 when she had them Kids!   Do you know she's been a Diabetic since she was Young?   I mean, the Woman just did a Photo Shoot in a Bikini for her Boyfriend and was HAWT as Hell, Sizzling!!!  I want to be her when I Grow Up.  *LOL*

Anyway, I'm not in Halle Shape by any stretch of an Imagination and I couldn't even Imagine giving Birth to Kids in my Forties!   I had my last Child at Age 28, which was too damned Old IMO.  *Smiles*   Tho' I was still Raising a Grandkid in my Forties, and still have a Teenager at Home at 68.  But, technically after 18 they're Raised and Grown.  *LOL*  That's Technically speaking of coarse.  *Bwahahahaa*   I couldn't Imagine still having Children running about the House to have to finish Raising at this point in my Seniordom.  I like Kids, Adore Babies, and they all seem to LIKE me.  I don't know Why, but Kids always have Liked me and I get along with The Young, I just don't wanna be Raising any more of them clear into my 70's, that's all.  *Smiles*  It's not an unreasonable request.  *Ha ha ha*  I've told The G-Kid Force not to have any Spawn until after I'm Dead... coz... well... I don't wanna Risk having to Help with Great-Grandkids who'd live Closer.  *Winks*

Gasp, Yeah, I said it.  I look at the Great-Grands from a Distance, Lovingly and Proudly, but if those Adult Grandkids were dropping their Kids off at Forever Boheme', The Man and I would be shitting Kittens!  *LOL*  I'd be that Great-Grammy that might not be up to looking after your Kids, just sayin'.   And The Man is in NO Condition for that much Sensory Overload, sometimes he can barely handle the Adult Kids and Adult Grandkids being around all the time!!!   He seriously wanted to move into the 5th Wheel when we Bought it, but has trouble getting up the Steps into it or down the Steps out of it!!!   He has suggested putting a Combination Lock or Card Swipe Lock on our Boudoir Door to keep them all out! *Bwahahahaha*  I told him Sharing Is Caring, or he'd resent the Girls using our Bathroom to Shower and sometimes to put their Makeup on.  *LMAO*

Anyway, he's a Pushover for the Girls in the Family anyway, they've always been Daddy's/Grandpa's Girls, and he Spoils them rotten, I had to be The Heavy with the Female Children.  *LOL*   And they're the ones Strictest with him when Caregiving and don't take no mess from him, so he gives them the least amount of Trouble when I leave them in Charge of his Caregiving, go figure!   The Daughter is a very Kind Caregiver... and Princess T is Granddaughter Nurse Ratchet.  *Bwahahaha*  And, Oddly, he doesn't mind, even tho' The Son and The Young Prince always have been more inclined to be Nicer to him if they had to look after him for me, but he gives them such a Hard Time that they don't like to, and I don't blame them.  When he's difficult and unlovely, he's a Pain in the Ass.  *LOL and Eye Roll*  And forget about having a Stranger be his Caregiver, the few the VA ever sent and we could Qualify for some Help from, didn't last a fucking Day before they Tapped Out, Quit and wouldn't come back!

I'd have the Come To Jesus with him about running off another one, but it did no good.  And Long-Term Care Facilities simply wouldn't take him or wanted to get rid of him ASAP coz they said he was too Expensive and too Difficult for their Staff, and they didn't have enuf Staff to ensure he didn't Escape again.  He was like Harry fucking Houdini about Escaping from Facilities, even Psyche Lockdown at the VA Hospital, coz he would get bad PTSD and think he was a Prisoner of War so he'd be constantly scheming to Escape and would somehow manage it!!!  He once Walked Out of a Cardiac ICU Unit at 1:00 in the Morning, walked Miles all the way Home in a Hospital Gown, his Chonies and Bare Feet in the middle of Winter, and the Hospital "Lost" him for 11 Hours!  I kid you not!!!  Sometimes they'd inform me when they'd "Lose" him, sometimes they wouldn't and tried a Cover-Up... so, he was a definite Liability Issue for them. 

 This is Why we keep him at Home, we haven't "Lost" him and I told him the 1st time I have to put a "Silver Alert" out on your Ass becoz you took off and didn't follow your Safety Prompts at Home, or Escaped on The Children or my Watch, will be your LAST time Mister!!!  *Winks*  He is a Wander Risk, but, he also has Separation Anxiety if he doesn't know where I am, so that's Helpful, he likes to keep me in his Line of Sight when we're anywhere and that's a good thing.  And the Girls are very good at keeping track of him, the Guys, not so much... but you know how it even is if you put a Man in charge of Watching the Children?  You come back and say, "Where are the Children?"  *Winks, a Man may or may not KNOW where the Children even are on his Watch?!*  "Well, they WERE right here...", they may trail off and say, coz they got engrossed in their Football Game on TV or something.

Of coarse The School Systems OFTEN "Lost" The Son when he was in Grade School or in Childcare Facilities, he was like fucking Harry Houdini about Escaping and like Criss Angel at Disappearing too.  This is Why I always had to be a Parent Volunteer for Field Trips, so they wouldn't "Lose" my Son on one!  Otherwise, he didn't get to go coz they would be in a Panic if they "Lost" him again and hadda make that Call to me.  *LOL*  The Autistic Child really can disappear like Scotch Mist if you aren't vigilant, and get up to the most dangerous things too.  Plus, they have no Filter about Societal Proprieties, so, The Son would see a Group that looked more Interesting to him than the one he was with, and he'd just hook up with THAT Group of Strangers!  And in some Field Trips, if a Kid looks perfectly at Ease in a Group, they often thought he WAS one of theirs!?  Depending on how well their Chaperones KNEW the Kids in their Classes?  *LOL*

I'd get Calls from other Schools saying they had my Child, coz he did have a Photographic Memory and knew where he lived and what our Home Phone Number was from a very Pre-School early Age, Thank God!  *LOL*  And when the Teachers would realize they had an Extra Kid, they put on the Bus and drove off with, from say, The Phoenix Zoo in the City, and now they were in East Mesa or something, and this Kid said he lived near Luke AFB in the Far West Valley, it was a tailspin Panic!!!  While my Kid's School had an equal Panic that they'd "Lost" one of theirs... and Yep, it was HIM Again!  And now we gotta call Dawn AGAIN and say we don't know where her Child is... Again!!!  *Bwahahaha*  He was definitely your Highest Maintenance Child and required Extreme Parenting, that's for Sure.  He Laughs now about how he doesn't know how we Coped Raising a Kid like him?   Each Day was a New Adventure. *LOL*

With The Daughter it was the Teen Years... those were Brutal!!!  That's when she was Diagnosed as SMI and the Schizophrenia introduced itself to us, and the Dissociative Identity Disorder, all Four of her!!!   With The Young Prince his showed up when he was only Seven Years Old, which is very Young to have Schizophrenia Diagnosed so they were hesitant to Label it until he was slightly Older, or his Seven Selves with the D.I.D., but, here we now are.   And it was a good thing really I'd already had my 1st Rodeo with my SMI Kids beforehand, so I wasn't "New".   Thus, I was a more experienced Parent at Extreme Parenting and Raising Special Needs Grandkids too, and Dealing with The Systems to try to get Resources for them, coz, I was more Seasoned and Sage about it, tho' a lot more Tired, a lot more No-Nonsense, and Old.  *Ha ha ha*  The System liked Dealing with me even less as an Old Crone in need of Services for them Kids.  *Bwahahaha*

Do you know how many times I threatened to just leave them at the DES with a surly Caseworker and not give them their Meds before we arrived, so that they'd get the Full Joy of what it would be like to try to find alternative Placement anywhere?   I'd even bring my Bible and tell the Supervisor I had Nothing to Lose, so I'd just sit there Reading from Genesis to Revelation and turn them Kids loose on their Office until they pushed my Case thru The System some kind of way... and THEN I could go Home with the Love of Sweet Jesus filling my Heart.   They always then Found a Way.  *Winks and Smiles*  I'd let The Young Prince bring ALL his Pokemon Cards and tell the Supervisor ALL about each one... and she'd ask me if I could make him Stop, and I'd say, No, NOTHING can make him Stop, he ain't Right and that's Why I need some "Extra" Help with him... whatcha got?   It got to where they said I didn't even have to come in anymore in person, they'd do Recertifications for us by Phone.  That's how Bad they didn't wanna See or Deal With me again.  *LOL*

Now, it didn't come with No Checks, but it did come with Medicaid Healthcare, Dental and Mental Health Care for them, which was Huge and better than Nothing.  Coz their Medical Expenses with Lifetime Issues with no Cures, was prohibitive and would have Bankrupted us numerous times over.   And I couldn't go to Work anymore after necessitating an Early Retirement to be a Full Time Unpaid Caregiver, so I DID have Nothing to Lose anymore.  We were already fighting the VA for The Man's Earned Benefits at the time too after he was Medically finally Retired.  I had to Hire Legal Counsel to Represent us, it was the best Money I ever spent tho'.  *Winks*   But, took almost Two Years to shake out satisfactorily in our Favor.

 So I had no Healthcare for a good Five Years for myself, while all that shit got sorted out after he'd Served his Country for 39 Years and the Government dicking around with us and our Case!   Yes, it's no slam dunk for Veterans to receive what's Due them in the way of their Earned Benefits and their 100% Disability Assessments... it's a long arduous Journey sometimes.   A lot of what he did for his Country was heavily redacted, let us just say.  And he was places we never were.  Allegedly. *Eye Roll*   So, the Cases for the Grandkids, and the Cases for The Man, were more Complex than the Cases for our Kids were, and that was complicated enuf really.  The whole System is rather Broken, intentionally convoluted, and not Equitable, and has been for several Generations now.  It ain't getting any better for the Families requiring Services either.  Cuts, Cuts, and more Cuts.  It's Draconian what they're doing to people who need Services most.

Most Americans now seem to be on the "Hurry Up And Die Plan" of American Services being withheld on Purpose to the Citizenry needing it most and the most Vulnerable of our Society?  It's like the Movie "The Purge" in so many ways... or "Soylent Green".   I'm still sitting here in my Jammies, in a Funk of Inactivity, and NOT getting ready to attend an Event, so, I may just NOT.   Or I might.  It's a crap shoot at this juncture whether Ambivalence will morph into something else more Productive, but, it might not?  I'm perfectly comfy sitting here in my Jammies doing my 7th Unpublished Post and nothing else.  *Bwahahahaha*  Princess T just said she did the Dishes, so, clearly she's feeling a little better... once she's Cleaning, she's on the Mend.  *Smiles*  She and The Daughter LIKE Housekeeping, they did NOT get that from me.  *LMAO*

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May everyone Live long enough to be Fierce  and Unwavering Resistance to this illegitimate Regime... Dawn... The Bohemian