The Son Streamed some Dark Comedy from his Phone to our TV, better than NetFlix and Free, so, now we'll probably resort to using that and other Freebies rather than a Paid Subscription. I like watching various Comedians and their Routines, especially the edgy ones, like this Young Comedian is, Anthony Jeselnik, who has a very Dark Comedy Style. If you'd be easily offended or a Pearl Clutcher, he wouldn't be for you tho', ironic misdirection and amoral stances is his schtick. Of coarse we appreciate inappropriate Dark Humor more than most, so thoroughly enjoyed it, hadn't seen this Special before of his.
I was gonna price more Inventory and get more done Tonight, but got sidetracked watching the Comedy with The Son, The Daughter, and Mando. The Man was watching his NCIS reruns, which he can never get enough of. He rarely wants to watch something he's not already seen before now. I think his Brain now has difficulty processing New information, so it's comforting to have anything repetitive instead and self-soothing. But I can only watch something mebbe Twice before, Enough already for me. But, he really does enjoy his reruns and since I don't watch much TV, I'm Fine with him monopolizing a TV while I do other things.
His VA Nurse comes to the Home Tomorrow at 11:00 a.m., we still don't know how long we'll have her, Twice a Month now is what has been Authorized at least thru January. And that's been good, the Home Nurses sorted out a lot of things I Needed more Help with, especially getting his Medications sorted out and taking his Vitals with better equipment than we have at Home, which avoids him having to be dragged to Doc Appointments more often, which can be upsetting to him and agitate him. He likes his Nurse and tho' he does Wind himself up some with a measure of Anxiety each visit, it's less than if he had to go to the VA Clinic more often. Easier on me too.
The Kiddos will once again have to take him to see his VA Doc on the 19th, coz I have to take Princess T to her Dental Surgeon for her consultation to remove Wisdom Teeth that same Morning. Our Calendar has begun to get very full again, so I'm glad I have backup from Home to cover some of it for me, I can't be Two places at once. My own Appointments are less often, but I do have some. We're trying to pack in most of Princess T's Appointments before her State Provided Insurance from the Adoption might run out when she turns 21 in September? I don't know if she'll then have to re-apply for herself?
While we were having our Girl's Day Out I was looking for a Winter Jacket for myself and by pure Serendipity found this Black Air Brand Varsity Letterman's Style Jacket with Bones down the Sleeve for $16. Princess T did a Google Lens of it, she didn't like the Jacket but we both sensed it had Resale Value, it Sells for around $75-$90. But, it was in my Size and I thought it Quirky and Warm enuf to Keep for myself, it fits like a Glove and is so Warm and comfortable too. I was Jazzed to find one so quickly, in my Size, affordable, and unusual enuf I'd Like it. I wasn't familiar with this Brand, they seem Popular Online tho' and have a good looking Men's Line. You get familiar with various Brands that are New to you, but popular with the Younger Generations, when you have a Multi-Generational Household. Otherwise most of these Brands would remain unknown to me. *Smiles*
I don't wear a lot of Winter Wear coz here in the Desert, it's rarely necessary, you can wear Sandals Year Round here and Short Sleeves and Summery Pants most of the time. The Man never wears long Pants anymore. I don't know he even owns a Jacket that fits? He never feels Cold... he runs Hot Naturally. I quit trying to dress him for the Weather coz I thought to myself, why should I make him wear a Jacket coz I'M Cold? *LOL* Anyway, I've got to go thru my Wardrobe and purge some items I hardly ever wear and just Sell or Donate them. Princess T is in the Process of doing the same. We already did The Man's Closet and Purged his excess, he has his few favorite things and to get him into anything else becomes a Battle I don't wanna wage daily. I choose my Battles wisely. Unlike this Prez whose Fighting with literally everyone! What's Wrong with that Guy that he's so Angry, Hateful and Hostile?
So when you have him to do it, he'll say he JUST did and doesn't wanna do it again and resists. But Hell, it could have been Days ago he's recalling something he thinks he JUST did. An Argument then ensues unless you Finesse the Situation. I ease into it rather than Argue and say, well, another Shower with a different Shirt might make you feel even better and isn't that a good way to start our Day and you'll Smell so good and look so Handsome? So, he's in the Shower voluntarily and without resistance, and I Spirited away the Shirt he had on and sometimes swap out a Shirt he hasn't worn in Ages as if it's from his Favorites pile. *Winks* That way he's not always wearing One of a few and looking like he doesn't own an actual Wardrobe of options that can't last a full Week without doing Laundry. *Smiles and Shhhhush, our Secret!*
Why Yes, I DO have to be Sly like a Fox around here to get cooperation, that they think is their Idea now, and so they'll go along with it sometimes. Princess T and I were discussing it candidly on our Girl's Day Out coz she's my Wingman most of the time with her Grandpa since he is reluctant to give her any Mess either. *LOL* She thinks sometimes he does it with me more for the added Attention, and she could be Right about that, I sense he sometimes does it too for that reason. Like Kids will, they don't Care if it's Positive Attention or Negative Attention, so long as it's extra Attention. And he Likes my Attention and if it's focused on something else or someone else he starts Acting Up more. We've all noticed it and the Kiddos will say, we think he wants YOU... and Princess T Laughs and says she often does it too when she only wants ME. *LMAO and Le Sigh* Sometimes it's not a Positive to be so WANTED. *Winks*
I don't think I'd be as Wanted if I was on the FBI's Ten Most Wanted fucking List!?! *Ha ha ha* Anyway, since The Man is becoming resistant to having his Beard Trimmed and Groomed now, I told him I might start Braiding it up for him. I was watching an "American Pickers" Older Episode and there was a Quirky Character named Bobo who had thick White Hair and a long White Beard down to his Bellybutton and in a single Braid, it didn't look Bad. I could Live with that just Fine, doing that with The Man's Whiskers to keep it Tidier and him from pulling the Hairs out when he's Anxious, by tugging on it. He gets Anxiety a LOT now with the Dementia and I'll have Beard Hairs everywhere he's pulled out. He can't pull on it when it's trimmed Shorter, so, he doesn't want it Shorter. So a Braid might Work, we'll see? *Smiles*
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Now perhaps she can get deferred Dental Work taken Care of properly and have a better Smile again and be able to Eat Foods easier too, which will improve overall Health and Well Being Physically and Emotionally. Dental Work can be so prohibitively expensive, but I've always kept up on mine and now Medicare Advantage gives me a very generous amount Annually to pay for Dental Care and any Dental Needs or Emergencies I may have in my Old Age. Cosmetically I always wanted Whiter Teeth but my Teeth aren't Naturally very White. And I had my Dentist explain to me that your Teeth never should NOT match the Whites of your Eyes {Sclera}. The Whites of your Eyes and your Teeth should Naturally be about the same, I didn't know that. Now I look for that and realize, Wow, that's True! People with Naturally very White Teeth also have very Whites of their Eyes as well that Match!!!
I do drink a lot of Coffee, Teas and Soda, so, that isn't Helpful I'm sure for Staining Teeth. But I practice vigilant Dental Care and always have, even as a Child I was Fanatical about my Teeth and my Skin Care too. It just seemed Important to me, even as a Child, and, that's been beneficial over Time, of coarse. And quite Honestly, I've always vigilantly Exercised as well and enjoyed Fresh Foods more than Junk Foods, Fried Foods, or Processed and Sugary Foods. I like Savory, Salty and Sour over Sweetness every time as a Flavor Profile.
Anyway, The Daughter was Jazzed and now she can set up some Appointments and get her Dental Work Done while it's covered. She's still not ready to venture to DES or Social Security to receive Benefits... it's intimidating to her and she gets very Paranoid about The Government out to 'Get' her. Paranoid Schizophrenics have those Sentiments and Distrust about many things. And let's face it, our Government right now isn't Helping quell those Fears in anyone! Seems making Americans and Visitors to America Afraid is the New Administration's favorite past time, instilling Fear, Chaos, Uncertainty, and not feeling Safe on American Soil anymore!!!
The next Event at "Sweet Salvage" with the Theme of "Refresh" is January 15th-18th, so, this Thursday. They had a few Sneak Peeks on the Book of Faces Biz Page. I virtually have no Budget for Shopping for any Non-Essential still, but will usually go for the Atmosphere and the Inspiration, plus visiting with Industry Friends. I feel quite Out Of The Loop lately since I haven't even been going in regularly to our Antique Mall and spending Time Socializing there either. I should, but I just haven't been able to squeeze it in, and when I could, haven't had the inclination to wanna be Social. I've been in that Funk lately that isn't my Best Self and I know it, so have remained more Solitary until it Passes, which, it will, eventually. Beating The Funk of The Bipolar Blues has to just be a Process for me tho', that I Move Through for however long it takes. Days, Weeks... usually no longer than that for me... but it can be a Wild Ride of Highs and Lows.
Bipolar Lows happen and there's no 'Cure' for the Lows {Clinical Depression} or the Highs {Mania and being Manic} really. I have more Mixed Episodes now I'm Older, I used to almost exclusively be on Manic Highs when Younger. So the Bipolar Lows are not as Familiar to me to handle or move thru, I'm not as used to them, so they hit me harder than any Manic High ever did. I don't mind the Mania, you can get so much done even tho' you will be very Intense and a little bit of you will go a very long way. *Winks* But the Lows make you harder to be around, IMO. Coz I don't want People around me when I'm in a Funk and Feeling quite Negative and Agitated, coz I know I'm not Being my Best Self and being Solitary is better for everyone when I'm that way. I can get quite vicious and intolerant of anything or anyone! But I will Blog! *Bwahahahaha and you all know which Posts THOSE are on a Bipolar Low Bender!*
You've probably noticed I'm on the steep Bipolar Low trajectory lately, by my Posts and Attitude? *Winks* The Family know it too, so nobody is inclined to wanna misbehave coz Manic Dawn is more Dawn Of The Light and on a Bipolar Low I can't as easily prevent Dark Dawn from coming out to Play and being more Dominant. *Le Sigh* Usually it just takes a Look and absolutely No Words from realizing, Ruh Roh, Dark Dawn is in Control and Dominant right now, let us not Go There with her. *Smiles* But, usually I remove myself voluntarily so nobody has to Deal with me until I get back to Center and Balanced somewhat, or at least, if not Balanced, on a Manic High that is much, much better for me and everyone else involved. I much prefer that Side of myself and so does everyone else. *Winks* My Dark Side, NOT gonna be Pretty.
I having a nice Hot Cup of Coffee as I Blog and wait for The Man's Nurse's Visit. I had intended to Price more Inventory so we could take it in to the Antique Mall too. I might get around to it when I decide which Block of 15-20 Minutes Today I will Devote to it? *Smiles* Sometimes I go longer, depending on how I just Feel after a 20 Minute Stretch seems like it could be extended? And that way I don't overwhelm or bottom out either, nor have Sensory Overload happening if I can't Focus and the Big Picture is too daunting to confront on The Panoramic Fisheye Lens of seeing it all and taking all that in?! *Bwahahahahaha* Trust and Believe, the Panoramic Fisheye Lens View around here is still way Too Much for anyone, even if you're quite Well. *LMAO* I watch a lot of Episodes of "American Pickers" coz most of those folks they Pick, are way worse off than me and that makes me Feel, mebbe I'm not so far gone? Well, Mebbe? *Bwahahaha* That would be a highly Subjective Opinion.
My levels of Dysfunction and Weirdness is Visually evident as Abnormal, I ain't gonna Lie. I happen to Like how I am, but want and Need to curb my Muchness. It is very difficult and I'm a huge Work In Progress to attain that lofty Goal. I'm doing a big load of Laundry right now, Blogging, and got the House Tidied, all at once, doing everything and nothing all at once is a Strength I possess in how scattered and ADHD/OCD I am all of the fucking time. Even on a Bipolar Low, I'm very frenetic and my Mind still Spins like a Top that is Spinning Out of Control!!! *Ha ha ha* The Stroke of last December helped a little bit to slow some of that Down, but as I continue to Recover and my Brain is apparently Rewiring itself around the damaged Parts of my Brain from the Stroke, it's all coming back.
The Son is making Loaded Baked Potatoes and Jalapeno Cornbread for Lunch. The VA Nurse is running a bit late and I think she's still coming? We haven't had any Phone Cancellation anyway and it was Calendared for Today at 11:00 a.m.. So, we were trying to work Lunch around that and if she's too late she'll be here while we're eating, which, I can't help that. Normally I wouldn't eat around a Visitor being here unless I invited them to join us in the Meal. The one problem with Home Visits is you do have to work your Home Activities around such a Visit. But, it's still so much easier and more convenient than going to Doc Offices, transporting someone whose difficult to take on The Road, and exposing yourself to potentially Sick People there during Contagions Season especially. Keeping him as Healthy as possible, and myself, is a challenge now.
The VA Nurse left, I gave her some Holiday Tinned Belgian Cookies as a Gift, she was quite Moved by it. We just Adore her and she said she always looks forward to our Visits. I guess some Clients have an Issue with her Color and her Accent, and she told us that Today. She's an African Immigrant from Nigeria, who fled Nigeria due to Religious persecution, Christians in that Country are often Murdered horribly. Her English is fluent and perfect, but with her charming Native Language lilt to it of coarse. A lot of our Nursing Home Caregivers, Nurses and Doctors now are Immigrated from Africa, India, Eastern Europe, and other various Asian Countries. Not enough Americans are gravitating to those Fields anymore, so a lot of Hospitals actually Recruit from other Countries.
I've always had excellent Experiences, so no Complaints of the level of Care and Expertise given. But, I suppose if someone has personal prejudices and biases, it would explain why she Thanked us for NOT having an Issue with her Color or Accent. It makes me Sad that she has had those Negative Experiences with Clients, she's professional, competent, and a Lovely Person who genuinely Cares about her Clients. The Man has great Numbers again Today, 2nd visit in a row where he has, she was delighted and said his VA Primary Doc, Rr. Kline, also an Immigrant from Israel, with a Delightful Yiddish accent, will be pleased. He sees Dr. Kline later this Month. Dr. Kline is an Older Doctor and we Hope he never Retires. *Ha ha ha* You don't wanna Lose a good Healthcare Professional you've had a long time. My Primary Doc is Transferring and I was distraught to hear it on my last Visit!!! *Sob*
I could still see her but would have to commute to another one of their Offices in the Far Northwest Valley to do so and we're way Southwest here in the Valley, so, I don't know I will find that feasible or not? The Problem being, she's also The Daughter and Princess T's Primary and they JUST got used to her and Like her! *Le Sigh* So, all Three of us would have to Hope any replacement at the Office we go to nearby would be a good fit, if we agree to change our Primary??? I'm feeling quite conflicted about changing my Doctor, when you find a really Good one, you don't wanna let them go. She knows the Three Generations of the Women of our Family very well and our Healthcare Needs, she's also very Kind about those who have Mental Health Issues as well.
Some Docs aren't as gracious, and have bias, if someone is SMI they wanna chalk up EVERYTHING Physically Wrong with their Mental Status, which is bullshit. If someone has Mental Illness or Developmental Disabilities, they can still get fucking Sick Physically!!! And it's not all imagined in their Head that they're Physically Unwell or can't convey what is Wrong if they're Non-Verbal or Mentally Challenged in any way!!! And it should be taken as Seriously as with any other Patient. They shouldn't be left to Physically suffer or Medically Neglected, just becoz they have a Mental Disability, it's Cruel and Inhumane. But, it happens. And you will get some folks who value the Lives of those with extreme Disabilities less than they value the Lives of those without that unfortunate Hand Dealt them. It's a Monstrous bias to Devalue any Life as being less Worthy of Care. But, Monstrous folks live among us and don't Value ALL Life. And may not Value Yours?!!!??!
Anyway, our VA Home Nurse concurred that Medicare is all messed up, she's having trouble with her own Medicare now not wanting to Cover one of her Needed Medications anymore!!! She has to have it, so is trying to Appeal the decision. I told her I'm under Appeal right now for that Monthly Penalty Medicare is trying to Illegally impose upon me for not having Medicare Part D, when I'm ineligible to even have Medicare Part D, due to being Covered by TriCare For Life!!! And Medicare knows full well I'm Covered by TriCare For Life, it's already in their damned System that I've been on it since I became Eligible for Medicare... and even before then!!! I've been on TriCare Coverage since early 1989! And you can't have Two Federal Programs!!! So, it's just ridiculous incompetence at an Administration level going on it seems and they can't get it put Right. Or mebbe they don't want to and are not trying to?
And she was saying many of her Clients are too Old or too Unwell Physically and/or Mentally, to Cope with or Deal with Medicare Problems that arise in their Coverage. I have all my Faculties, know my Rights Legally, and still it is a Nightmare for me to Wade thru it all, so I can't even Imagine if you weren't Capable of it or well Informed enuf to Advocate for yourself appropriately? It's not as if anyone is gonna do it FOR you, in most Cases, if you don't have Family or Friends who assist, or can Afford a Legal Advocate to Represent you, you're just Screwed. I'm glad that so far, I can Advocate for myself and my Loved Ones sufficiently to get desired results and hound the Hell out of The System until they do the Right thing and what we are Entitled to Receive and be Approved for and Covered for. Pain in the Ass tho', and Stressful.
I had intended to do some things after his Nurse left and so far haven't felt up to it. I know we should, lots we could be doing and he needs to get out of the house and from in front of the TV Screen. Now it's almost 1:00 p.m. tho' and I don't know when Princess T will get off Work? Tuesdays she never knows, she goes in an Hour Earlier on Tuesdays but their release time is all over the place lately and I'm her Transportation. There's a Park nearby her Store that sometimes I take him to do Canning at, so, we might still do that to get him moving and doing something he enjoys doing. It's not too Cold outside and it hasn't Rained Today, but, is only 66 Degrees, which, for Desert Rats, still pretty Chilly. I don't like being out in Cold coz my Bones hurt to the Marrow, so do his. And I'm achy even being Inside all day and don't want him Catching Cold either or God Forbid, getting Pneumonia. So, may just wait for the Grandchild to call us for Pickup and have him walk around where she Works as his Exercise for the Day? *Smiles*
I'm told my Two Mermaid Lures I Won at Auction in a Buy-It-Now Feature have Shipped, excited to see them when they get here. The Bid I have on the Mermaid Lure Below, I'm still so far the highest Bidder on it and it's got 22 Hours Left in the Auction before it Closes, but a lot can happen in the final Hours of anything being Bid on. I won't be Sad if I don't Win it since I did get the other Duo without having to Bid, just Buy It on that immediate Winning Feature, which is how I prefer to just do it if I really Like and Want something and they offer that Option instead of Hoping you're the Highest Bidder and risk getting Outbid.
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I'd like to Score one like the one Below, but she's in the Stratosphere at Auction, so I imagine her to be Rare? I'm Activating The Laws Of Attraction tho', so you just never know when the Universe will oblige and one will just Miraculously Turn Up? That happens so often as not to be mere coincidental IMO, especially after I've Voiced my Desire and then Whallah, it Turns Up somehow and I'm always left in Awe no matter how many times it happens, as if it's Meant To Be. We'll see. I can't Imagine these were Created more for the Fish than the Fishermen. *Winks* As a Novelty Lure, but, every one I've seen, except New Old Stock, look quite Used and not just from Age, but from Fishing.
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And, most Fish aren't that Smart, so anything that Moves and catches their Eye and looks like Food that they can fit into their Mouth and Swallow, is probably Fair Game? After all, most Lures don't look all that Realistic, not in Color or Appearances, yet, they Work. I remember catching Catfish in Michigan's Lakes and using those Flip Tops {Pop Tops} Cans used to have 'til the 1970's! With no Bait on them! And they were big Catfish that still thought, humnnn, that looks Tasty!!! An Aluminum Flip Top shining as it hung on our Fishing Line coz we couldn't afford proper Fishing Gear. *LOL* We all know that Noodling Exists for catching Catfish with your Bare Hands and using your Fingers as enticing "Bait".
I was never Brave, or perhaps Foolish enuf, to try that Method tho' and reach in any Hole underwater, no Sir!!! Snapping Turtles could take your Finger Off and get quite Large!!! And various other Lake Critters have formidable Teeth! They had an Invasive Species of Asian Catfish we called "Walking Catfish" coz they can Walk and Breathe on Land! And, if you've ever seen a Northern Pike up close, it looks positively Prehistoric like it should be on a Jurassic Park Movie, Scary as Hell! I once caught one and was terrified, we cut the Line and let it go back, I wasn't getting near that Mouth full of Teeth!!! And they get really Big. Of coarse I was a Tween at the time and something looking like the Above Pix of a Northern Pike coming up out of the Water on my Hook was absolutely Terrifyingly Traumatizing to catch when I was Fishing for Bluegill, from the Shore!!! *LOL* My Dad cut the Line and set it Free. BTW: Above isn't our Fish, it's a FB Pike someone caught that reminded me of that incident when Tranquility turned to Terror! *Shudder and Laughs*
Blessings, Love and Light from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian
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