Relating To The Normals

So, I'm sitting here Blogging and trying to make a Shorter Post than usual, so ya'll don't have to slog thru it or give up.  *Winks*  With some lovely Collagen Cream I got from the Dollar Store on my Face, which feels sublime and so refreshing, while making your Skin feel as soft as a Baby's Bum.  *LOL*  It's called "Essentially Ageless" and comes in a little Pot like my Oil of Olay Regenerist Cream does.  It's $23 on E-Bay when I looked the Brand up, so how it ended up at our Dollar Stores is a complete Mystery and I should go back and see if they have more and stock up then!  *LOL*  I knew it FELT like an expensive Product and not a Dollar Store one.  Yes, our Dollar Store is up to $1.25 actually per Product, Post-Pandemic, and have things priced higher than that now too for better Brands or bigger containers of Brands, but, it's still easier on The Budget.  

 And, more importantly, they've managed to stay in Business when other Dollar Stores have folded and hadda close.   I miss the ones that no longer are... like the "99 Cent Only" Stores, which were my absolute favorite Dollar Store and I was stunned they were one of the first to go Chapter 11 and Close!  They were always the most Popular and thus I thought making the most Money, since, no other Dollar Stores had as many Customers all the time.  So, the Optics looked good on the surface at least, tho' I know the reasons they gave to the Media, and were valid, still, it saddened me. {Impact of Pandemic, shifting Consumer Demand, rising levels of Shrink ie: Inventory Loss and Loss Prevention, persistent Inflation & other Macroeconomic Headwinds.}  That pretty much incapsulates the Why quite well.

Since I Work Tonight at the Antique Mall I don't plan to do anything Today so I'll reserve whatever Stamina I have left by Evening when I go in to Work the Night Shift.   I have to Pace myself Post-Stroke, still, and take long Naps too.  But it's only been 7 Months since I had one, so I guess that's not a bad Recovery, almost everything is back to my abnormal Normal.  *Winks*   The Adult ADHD and Bipolar Episodes resumed their usual cycles now, The Stroke had really Calmed them some, which had been nice, to know what it feels like NOT to have spinning Thoughts and to slow way down to a pace you Normals have.  *Bwahahaha* 

  Those of you who are Atypical understand what I'm talking about, we Think our way of Being is quite Normal for us, but only because its the only Standard we've ever experienced or known, in a State of Being.  Now I am slightly more Patient with you Normals in how slow you move and Think.  Coz now I've had a brief Point of Reference, who knew?  *Bwahaha*  Now I can Relate to The Normals of the World a bit.  *Winks*  And, I can still actually Nap, which is "New" to me, so that's been all Good.  I don't Feel as Spun all of the time and can Mood Regulate better with sufficient Rest Breaks recharging me thruout the Day.   My Doc has quit bugging out about me taking a Sleep Study, she knows I won't go, we KNOW why I don't have Good Sleep, so I don't need confirmation of what is Known and has been a Lifetime Thing with me.  Above is The Son and The Niece during a previous visit with us.

Anyway, there is no Cure for Bipolar I or for Adult or Childhood ADHD... and until or unless they find Cures, really, do we Need to just verify shit they can't do much, if anything, about?   I don't think so.   We briefly talk about some of it during Well Checks, if I have elevated Concerns about any of it or Changes that I notice.   Like, I do Swear a lot more now, and in most cases, Dr. Google claims that an increase in the use of Profanity is not a definitive indicator of Cognitive Decline.  *Whew*   But a sudden increase could become potentially a Sign of Dementia.  *Ruh Roh*  But when you also have known Mental Illness, it's difficult to discern these things, coz the lack of Inhibitions and increased Impulsivity, frustration or agitation, well, they've been your Baseline anyway... so, is it moving the Needle towards Dementia?  Can't tell really.   And besides, there's lots more reasons to drop F-Bombs these days, wouldn't ya agree?  *Bwahahaha*

I query The Younger Generations living here... hey, do I seem Demented?  *LOL*  And they reply, "Compared to how Demented you've always been?  Well... mebbe..."   *Bwahahaha*   No, I mean compared to your Dad/Grandpa, who clearly has Onset Early Dementia... and then with a Comparison Study, they've told me that No, I don't seem like I'm sliding down that Hill fast like he clearly is.  So, mebbe I'm Fine for now and at least we can pretend I'm Just Fine?   None of them likes to contemplate otherwise since I'm the Matriarch of this here Circus of my Monkeys.  The Asylum, for now, is still relatively functional and most of the time still on The Tracks and not Wheels Off the Rails and going off a Cliff.  *Winks*   I do Assess myself all the time now I'm quickly closing in on and heading towards the Territory of my 7th Decade tho', coz, I know, it could happen.  August is my Birthday Month and I'll be 68.  If I'd known I was gonna live this long I'd of taken better Care of myself.  *LOL, says every Senior ever!*

I'm planting some Baby Palm Trees around the Pool and by the East Side of the RV Garage Mahal one has Planted itself, probably from our existing Old Palms in the Front Yard?   I Love Palms of all kinds and want more of them on the Property, I'd like to find an errant Baby Date Palm growing somewhere Wild and bring it Home to be Nurtured.  We had a lovely 10 Year Old Date Palm at The Villa McManse and I J'Adored it.  I am Thankful the Air B&B Party People who bought the Property didn't dig that out when they destroyed most of the Mature Professionally done gorgeous Landscaping to Pave most of it for Parking more Vehicles.  Had I known how much of it they removed, I'd of asked them to Gift it to us, since, they did dig out a stand of gorgeous Dwarf Palms that are expensive at the Plant Nurseries.  We'd of transplanted them here gladly.  They have put in an Oval Pool in the back Yard there, I Lurk on Aerial Google Maps Updates.  *Bwahahaha* 

We recently, on a trip to the White Tanks Mountain Park nearby, tooled by the Villa McManse and saw some of the Occupants.  They had the Double Car Garage open and had it neatly organized with stuff, so mebbe someone actually lives there now at least part time and it's not just The Party House for Air B&B folks that it had been?   I only met the Woman Investor who bought it, didn't like her, but liked that she Closed in a Day and at Ask.   So, I didn't really give a shit how Unlovely and unreasonably fussy a Person she was at all.  The Devil of an HOA and the Pretentious Neighbors in that Community that I didn't Like at all would be Dealing with her... Karma is a Bitch like that.  *Winks*  I am told, via the Grapevine of Crazy Pamela, Princess T's Teen Friend who still lives there just a Street over, that we're Missed and Neighbors now lament that they ran us off.

  Coz tho' we didn't Fit In at all, we were Good Neighbors and kept a Beautiful Home and Yard.  We also kept to ourselves since we didn't Gel with anyone but Sophie and John, our Dear Neighbors from Sri Lanka, who were also Misfits in that Community due to being Immigrants, who had more Money than most of the pretentious fucks and were far more decent Human Beings as well.  They wouldn't be run off and I do miss them, a swell Young Couple we bonded with.  So, there was never a valid reason for the HOA or Neighbors to fuck with us like they often did out of sheer Bias, they didn't like Ethnics or Old Hippies living amongst them, let us just say.   John and Sophie persevered, as did the Black Neighbors who lived next door to us who had said they had Hate Crimes they had to Deal with all the time.  Rocks thrown thru their Windows with Racist Notes attached, their Yard Vandalized.

He was a Fire Chief and she was a Corporate Executive, very Sweet older People, but still Working, but kept very much to themselves and a low profile, you rarely saw them.  They had a 7,000+ sf Home they Loved, but lived like Hermits due to knowing they weren't Welcome really.  They did tell us they wished we wouldn't move, that we'd been such good and kind Neighbors, but I said I just wasn't Raising my Family like that and I HATED that horrible Community of pretentious fucks.  They didn't say I was Wrong, so wished us well.   They hadn't been problem Neighbors even tho' they were timid about becoming Friends, so, we hadn't been close at all, but not for Want of trying on our part to be Sociable and approachable.   I think in the Five+ Years we lived there I only saw her Twice and didn't realize the Old Guy was even Married, or that they had Kids living there!!! 

  Never saw the Children, tho' I assumed they were Older and nearing Adulthood.  The Young Prince had speculated they had a Dungeon for driving out Demons, and the Kids were locked up in there?  *Bwahahaha*   And becoz we also thought the Wife was a Jehovah's Witness, coz the JW's would often enter their Home when Canvasing the Neighborhood.  Nobody invites them in that much unless they're of that Religion.  I suspected they kept their distance coz of the infamous Morning Canvas where The Young Prince had met the Witnesses at our Door in full Rocky Horror Picture Show Dr. Frank-N-Furter attire, invited them in, and it scared the Bejesus out of them so bad they ran off!  And would quickly pass our Home as if Satan himself lived there and quickly say Hi to me and that they had 'Met' our Grand... they'd trail off on saying Son or Daughter, since, I think they weren't sure of whatever it was?  *Bwahahahaha* 

 And, to be sure, The Grandson said I looked like a Voodoo High Priestess out there, so... they probably had us 'Flagged'?  *Bwahaha*  Yeah, the JW's never came back and the big Mormon Community there left us alone too, they were abundant out there, Big Homes, even Bigger Families... even tho' they knew The Man was an LDS who wasn't in good standing with The Church.  Initially they came and did the whole fake Friendly if you'll come to Church... but once they know you won't... EVER... well, they will shun you coz that's how they Roll.  And I don't Care how you Worship, what you Worship, if you choose a Cult or a Religion, or are Pagan or an Atheist, just don't foist any of it on me and mine, that's all.  Be Free to do you Boo, I don't really Care, that's True Freedom of Religion or from Religion, which should be the American Way IMO.  I don't want America The Theocracy any more than I want America The Autocracy.   Case Closed.

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Yeah, I know, I Suck at being Editorial and Brief... But I Tried... Dawn... The Bohemian