Okay, so I'm Officially really Pissed Off ON Mother's Day, coz I went in to "Lowe's" to find out about why my New Fridge's Auto Fill Water Dispenser and Ice Maker isn't working and they tell me, oh, must be a Factory defect! So, we can either Swap it out or Repair it!!! WTF!? No way I want a Repair on something this New that's already Defective, I could have Repaired my Old Fridge if I wanted a Fridge Needing Repairs! So, I had no Option but to ask them to Swap it out!!! So, Color me NOT Happy now and G.E. on Blast big time for their alleged Top O'The Line most Expensive Appliance in their Fridge Line!!! Even tho' I'd done my Due Diligence about 2026 Appliance Ratings first! *Le Sigh and Dammit* The Shine is Off now that I already am Experiencing Problems and Replacement necessitation!!! So, those who had Fridge Envy, you needn't now, this had become an Ordeal already!!! *Winks*

That means moving everything out of the way again to do the Swap, which is considerable... then taking everything out of that Fridge into Coolers... and put it in the New Replacement Fridge several Hours later when it's finally Cold enuf, and having my Front Door taken off and put back on again when it's 105 Degrees Outside now!!! A LOT of extra Work on the one Day I don't have Appointments or taking Kiddos to and from Work! Coz, they can do it Tomorrow, a Monday. It also means staying in all Day again and cancelling anything I intended to do while waiting for the Team to show up... again... and Hope this Team is as Careful as the previous one? And doesn't take all damned day to show up and get this Swap done? AND that the Replacement Fridge isn't a POS too and is fully Functional?! You won't know 'til HOURS later if it is or it isn't!!!

Plus, tho' I Love the Design of the New Fridge, now I'm wondering, is this a problematic Model? Did I choose one I'll regret spending this much on even tho' I did purchase the 5 Year Extended Warranty? All New Appliances and whatever is being built these days really are Pieces of Shit anymore, so I don't know why I had expectations to the contrary? But on Day One to have something NOT Working, or considered Defective right from the Factory, well, I thought and Hoped it was something Simple, like Programming the Function, flipping a Switch, the Water Line perhaps not being hooked up properly... not a Swap of the whole fucking Appliance already!!! Luckily they did have another in Stock ready to be sent out in 24 Hours. *Whew*

Granted, glad I didn't wait too long to find out what the problem was so it could be just Swapped and have that Option of a Replacement rather than a Repair. If they'd only offered a Repair I'd already be MORE of a dissatisfied Customer... I don't wanna Keep something Defective from the Moment it's been Made by the Factory!!! Once something already Needs Repairing, it usually means it's a Lemon if that's how it all starts out from the very Beginning of Buying it New and already having Problems with it. Manny wasn't there, and the solitary Saleswoman was Older and more than a bit surly. I didn't Like her at all. If there had been any other Sales Associate I would have insisted on them instead. I'd of preferred NOT to Deal with some Call Center in a 3rd World Country to try to communicate a Problem with. But she was less than Helpful... so I opted for the 3rd World Call Center Delivery Line they gave me to Call.

She started with a Snarky Attitude, coz she was the only one Working and an Elderly Couple she assisted before me were having problems with whatever they Bought too and were muy Unhappy, and there were Two of them and they looked to be about 80! So she expected ME to have Sympathy for her plight... I. Did. Not! She started out saying, in a Rushed Tone to shoo me away... well, I'm already on a Call now for THEIR Problem, {as they shuffled off}, so here's a Number YOU should Call, as she then just started talking on that Phone Call! Now I know why nobody answered their Phones in Sales the Day beforehand, if she was the only one there that day too and it's a Shitshow with their Appliances being Defective?

It was clear she felt either overwhelmed or Hates her Job. She was much Older, so perhaps she has to Work and should be Retired, coz she is NOT Customer Service inspired or Representing her Company Well at all!!! I do Notice a lot of very Elderly working at Home Improvement Stores and Fast Food now. They're only slightly less suited for it than the 20-Something "Yeah, NO" Generation of Employees who Walk Off the Jobs when there's any Problems or hassles during a Shift. I'm not a Karen or a Snowflake, but I do expect consideration and a Professional Attitude and level of Customer Service, after I've spent Thousands of Dollars somewhere. If they want their Contract Honored they Need to do so from their End of it too AFTER the Sale!

Then the Delivery Phone Guy she gave me the Number to call was outsourced to the Philippines or some other 3rd World Nation again! *Le Sigh and here we go again!* And his English was Poor and very difficult to understand, even tho' he was Script Perfect Polite, but in that very annoying way that seems disingenuous and forced. I pictured some Mayanmar Telemarketing/Customer Service Call Center Slave in Burma. They always have a Survey after your Call they want you to do, I told them, No, you REALLY don't want me doing this Survey Darlin', I am NOT a Happy Customer right now. I didn't expect this much of a hassle and so much extra Work, after spending this much Money. A small part of me was Tempted to ask for the Model with the Fancy Upgrades for my Trouble. *LOL* But I peeked inside of it again {see Above}, and thought, Naw... it's probably a Special Fucking Order and I think now I Like my Interior better anyway. I just want the Icemaker and Auto Fill Water Pitcher to Work, is that too much to Ask?!

So, next door to "Lowe's" is our Antique Mall and I'd put Three Boxes of Fresh Merch in, including this Trio of Bob Ross and Labubu Plushies. There were so many Customers and other Vendors in the way with it being Mother's Day, that I took twice as long to finish as I wanted to be in there. People get nosey with what you're bringing in and wanna start pawing thru it and asking tons of inane completely random Questions, as you're trying to put it into Inventory. And Old Men in particular will pretend all of a sudden to be Needing to get into your Space and you know damned well they're not your Demographic of Customer! They're just notoriously inconsiderate and Time Wasters. *Le Sigh and Eye Roll*

They're not actually there seriously Buying Vintage Band and any of our Specialty T-Shirts, Collectible Toys, Vintage Tiki Ware, and Retro China like Fiesta Ware and Franciscan Ware, or Art Stamps! *Eye Roll* I don't have a lot of Mantiques, Militaria, Sports Memorabilia, Transportation or Petroliana that Appeal to The Old Dude Demographic. I Wish I did coz it is an Easy Sell and high priced Merch, but if you didn't procure it a long time ago, good Luck Sourcing it reasonably now. But they will get in the way for the longest time just to be a nuisance... I fail to understand WHY!? Really, you that Thirsty for Attention Old Man, even Negative Attention!!?!!! Usually they're wandering around Solo, so either they're Mad at the Wife for even having to BE there, or, Single Old Men who are Single coz they're such a Pain in the Ass no Old Woman would even want them and they're not Rich enuf to have a Young Woman's Interest. *LOL* Sorry if I've Offended EVERY Old Man out there, I know some of you aren't Old Bastards, so that wasn't Dissing YOU Personally... but I'm SURE you know some too... they are Bad Representation of your Demographic... and I'm truly Sorry about that for you Good Ones. *Winks*

I couldn't get out of there fast enuf, even tho' some of my Friends like Deb and Gordon were there and asked where I'd been? Coz they don't do Social Media at all and didn't know about The Man's Heart Attack and string of recent Hospitalizations. I really didn't wanna go deep into the Weeds with Personal Problems, I don't Talk about that much, if at all, in Real Life. I barely put any of it on my Book Of Faces Page, which is an Invitation Only Page of actual Friends and Relatives, not Acquaintances or Randos. And many of my Older Peer Friends do NO Social Media at all, they don't Blog, they don't do FB, Instagram, Nothing. I don't even know if any of them own a Computer and only use their Devices on their Phones to trawl E-Bay and other Auction Sites for their Merch Sourcing. *LOL* And I understand, I'm not into Tech shit either, except Blogging.
I had thought about popping in to a Fav Restaurant for Lunch afterwards for some Comfort Food, but, being Mother's Day, everywhere was slammed and had long lines so I just drove on by and Home again. I was already Wound Up Tight about the Fridge Situation ruining my Mother's Day completely. You don't wanna spend just over Three Grand and about Three Days in be told you got Sold something Defective that already Needs to be Replaced!!! You begin to have Buyer's Remorse then about something that previously made you so Happy and it just ruins the Experience for me then. So G.E. Profile Cafe' Model, Looks Good, but, not getting High Marks from me right now until I get one that's not fucking Defective right from the Factory!!!
Since it's already over 100 at 1:30 p.m. I ditched the Plan to take The Man out for a Drive to get him out of the House. I think he's morose about it, but loading him in and out of a Truck with Hot Mobility Equipment would wipe me out and I'm not in The Mood to be further inconvenienced on Mother's Day. I'm having a bit of a Pity Party for myself actually, just being Angry as Fuck at not catching any Breaks lately, not even on Mother's Day, dammit... and I did Raise Two Generations of Kiddos... double dammit! You know how you get once you're already Upset, then everything starts to Bug ya and you're in a fucking Ratchet Mood! *Bwahahahaha* The Son had made me Breakfast in Bed for Mother's Day Morning, Bless him. And The Daughter is doing our Laundry, including all Bed Linens and changing them out, Bless her.
I can't Deal with The Man right now, so the Kiddos have been tending to him, so that he won't Work my last Raw Nerve and I go right over The Edge with Caregiver Burnout too. He's been very Needy lately, to the point he's kinda Milking it and doing nothing for himself that he could actually do. *LOL, but, Le Sigh* I Feel rather like a Step and Fetch-It for him since he got out of the Hospital, he got kinda used to that Nursing Call Button and having Staff. *Insert Resting Bitch Face* And, I am a Nurse Ratchet Type, so that definitely wasn't my Calling to be in the Medical Service Industry with Patients or Patience. *Winks and Cackles* It's a Wonder really I've had the "Ministry" of Caregiving for this many Decades for Loved Ones, but I have been told your Misery is often your Ministry! They could be Right?!
The Daughter is Worried about Tyson, are the Boys feeding him enuf? Well, Hell, I dunno, he's not my Dog, but I do go out and make sure he has sufficient Water, but I don't have funds to go out and Buy a big Ass bag of 50 lbs. of Dog Food if Allen didn't show up with enuf to sustain his Dog during this Trip! As it is Tyson lets the Grackle Birds Steal most of what he does have and stands there looking at them doing it like he's Hosting a Party Buffet for them and has to let the Guests eat first!!! *Le Sigh, he's not the Smartest Breed, Bless him and he wouldn't hurt a Fly.* I'm just letting him Board here coz I'm pretty damned sure that otherwise he'd be holed up in some Motel 6 Room that doesn't allow Big Dog Guests and is mostly occupied by Street People in some Seedy area of the City. So, it might not even be Safe for a Pit Bull!?! Allen is likely on the Economy Trip, it's a Wonder he's not Sleeping in his Car with the Dog!
So, Tyson was a Liar, playing on the Sympathies of The Daughter and her Friend Amber, who told me he seemed like he was Starving and mebbe the Boys hadn't fed him or didn't have enuf Food for him?! They'd given him fresh Water and I didn't know if Allen had brought enuf Dog Food for him, so I rushed over to The Son's "Dollar Tree" and bought a $5 bag of Beef, Liver and Bacon Flavored Gravy Train and some Winnie The Pooh Dog Biscuits in a Dog Dessert Flavor for $1.50, only to find out he'd Played us! He had a Bowl full of fresh Dog Food the Boys had given him this Morning and didn't want his Gravy Train Kibbles either, Gravy be damned, he wanted those Winnie The Pooh fucking Dog Biscuits tho' and scarfed a Handful of those down like he had been Starving to Death!
What a Faker and Spoiled rotten Great-Grandpup he is!!! I'm like, you Son-Of-A-Bitch, I was gonna tear your Pet Parents a couple of new Assholes for nothin'! *LOL* He was a wiggling Ball and Blur of Fur scarfing those Treats tho', so I hadda Laugh and couldn't pretend to be Stern or keep a Straight Face! This is Tyson's Out Of Focus very overly Animated Happy Smiling "I Sure Fooled You All" Face, when he's been duly Spoiled with his Winnie The Pooh Heart Shaped Dog Biscuits I raced out and Bought! Yeah, I'd been in a Sour Mother's Day Funk Mood, due to my Fridge Fiasco, but he did make me Laugh out Loud, the Big Goofy Old Rascal! He knows his Audience and what Suckers we are, that's for Sure!!! My Great-Granny Human will get me anything me wants! She Wuvs me so much!!!!!!! *Winks*
He could literally Whip you to Death with that wagging Tail of his! He doesn't know his own Strength at all, which is why I have to be in the Seated Position when around him lest he knock my Old Ass over with the Excitement he always has around any of us paying him Attention. He's been formally Trained and is very disciplined, so he doesn't jump at or on you, or sniff your Butt, but he's like a Bulldozer with that Powerful Head of his and a slight Love Bump with it could knock over a Professional Football Linebacker!!! And that wagging Tail, is like a dangerous Weapon!!! Afterwards he was rolling around in the Grass after his Treat Session, in Ecstasy, it's Good to be him right now. *LOL* He had Amber and The Daughter like Maid Service for him too. They mopped the whole back Patio so he'd have a Clean Space to lay down on. Amber Spoils her Brother's Big Dog rotten, it's the one she Pays The Daughter to Groom, and it's not even her Dog, it's her Brother Juan's.

There's a "Dairy Queen" near us and they have Banana Splits for $4.99 right now so I got one and was Tempted by a New Menu Item of a "Sparkler Drink" they have that is a Pineapple Lemonade with Tajin, very Tasty as it turns out when I tried one. We use Tajin a lot, and often over Fruit, but I never thought to put it into a Lemonade Drink. The Pineapple Lemonade with Sparkling Water for Carbonation was different, I didn't Hate it, I know it Appeals to the Hispanic and East Indian Communities, they Love the Pineapple Sodas and the Mango flavored Drinks a lot. My East Indian Boss at the DA's Office at every Pot Luck always brought Pineapple flavored Soda and the rest of the Staff would be like, Who Drinks this stuff?! *LOL*

It's not my 1st Choice of Beverage Flavor, but I do like the Mango. Especially a Mangonada that the Elote' Man Vendor has, who Sells Exotic South of the Border Foods and Beverages from his little Cart near where The Granddaughter Works. Every Vendor has their version of it, some put all kinds of Fruit and Veggies in as Garnish like some Restaurants and Bars do with their Bloody Mary Cocktails. Where the Drink ends up being like a whole damned Meal and Over-The-Top Eye Candy to behold!!! *Smiles* And some of the Fast Food Joints have caught on and realize the Popularity of it and crossover Appeal to the American Market now. It is very refreshing and I'm almost Jonesin' for one now, but the Elote' Man doesn't Work on Sundays... Dammit!!! So, just some Food Porn Imagery of it... and my DQ Order, are being Shared for now. *LOL*

Princess T didn't like the Look or the Sound of the Pineapple Lemonade Tajin Sparkler... she said she'd take my Word for it that it was good. Now I think I'll be throwing some Tajin in with my regular Lemonade now tho', I really liked what it added to the Flavor Profile of a Lemonade. Kind of like the rimmed Salt adds to a Margarita. Or a Michelada, which is the Lime and Tajin rimmed Glass of some Clamato Juice, also very yummy!!! *Smiles* Mott's makes a Clamato Rimmer that is delish too but hard to find in Stores, tho' they gave Samples out at a Fair once and I keep looking for it, so far, no Luck as to which Stores they may even distribute it to??? Online the Stores that say they carry it, I've never found it in Store and it may be an Online Only Order, I dunno? I don't Order Groceries Online but the Kiddos often do and have it Delivered.
I'm still Sour and Frosty on how much Work I'll have to put forth Tomorrow to get ready for that damned Fridge Swap that has to happen! I had everything so Nice too, Dammit!!! Re-doing it all again is not what I wanna spend all day on a Monday doing. Or Dealing with more Delivery people, since, you never know how skillful they'll be when moving large Objects in and out of your Home. We have to clear off our Entrance Patio Too, so it's a LOT of Inside and Outside clearing Space to maneuver a large Appliance thru and usually the Delivery Crew are very Young People the Age of my Grandchildren... and a great many aren't English proficient and are New Immigrants, so you only Hope there's no communication barrier too? This time I want to be able to appropriately communicate, how long before we know if this New Replacement is fully Functional and Installed Right? Coz I sure as Hell don't wanna go thru this a 3rd time, I'd go Postal, I swear!!! "Lowe's" would be giving me a Free fucking Fridge if they Deliver another Defective one or this Delivery Team fucks up in any way. I don't want any Dents or Damage to it or my Home.
I'm already having Anxiety about it, coz I did when they Did the 1st Delivery and swapped out the Old Fridge with the New One and had a lot of Trouble getting it thru the Front Door and maneuvered into the Kitchen. Coz it's not a straight shot in and a rather tight Space to maneuver in a Vintage Home, due to how they did Floor Plans almost Fifty Years ago. The only thing harder would be doing it in a Historic Era Home or an Upstairs Apartment!!! And now I'm Anxious and rather Fixated on the whole Ordeal all day long and probably some of Tomorrow until after it's Delivered and Installed... and I know it's in Working Order fully!!! Right now with everything else going on, this just Topped me Off I guess. I've been avoiding being in the same Room with The Man for as much of Mother's Day as I can so that he's not Winding my Ass Up so that I'd end up being Cross with him. He's been Whiny a lot and overplaying and exaggerating how he Feels, when he knows he has an Audience. I'm just not in the Mood Today for it.
But, I did make he and I some Hamburgers for Lunch, it was a late one and will suffice for Dinner too, neither of us has much of an Appetite when it's so Hot... plus, being on Ozempic. His Appetite hasn't been Right since his Heart Attack either, so getting him to eat is a challenge. I got him to eat some Cheese and Crackers last Night. The Son said this Morning, the Breakfast he made for his Dad, he hardly ate any of it. So, I definitely wanted to make him something he really likes, and he enjoys a nice Hamburger. I'd of rather of gone out to Eat for Mother's Day, but Restaurants are slammed and Budget is tight, plus schlepping him anywhere now with his Mobility Issues and some Behavioral Issues, tends to put a damper on taking him out to Eat now. It's more trouble than I'm up to doing just to have a Meal Out.
The Daughter's Friend, Amber, took her to a Mexican Restaurant called "Po Po's" for their Mother's Day meal Out, Amber's Treat. Amber isn't close to her Three Daughters coz her Ex got Custody of them and so she didn't Raise them either. So, she and The Daughter get together now and do something for themselves. Amber works Three Jobs and her Boyfriend never had any Kids, so he doesn't mind her doing something Special with her BFF for Mother's Day, he knows it's a tough Day for both of them on account of not being able to Raise any of their Children. Becoz Amber doesn't approve of TJ, her Oldest isn't even letting her see the 1st Grandbaby, even tho' they live right next door to us and The Daughter is allowed to go over and see him. Anyway, they had Drinks at Po-Po's and she got to bring Home the Margarita Glass, which is a nice one. Next Door had a LOT of Cars, but it's a Sunday too, so could be the Church Ladies that TJ and Rob's Mom, Sylvia, has over all the time on a Sunday Afternoon.
I'm just in a very Bad and shitty Head Space Today and so little shit is bugging me now. When The Daughter and I were re-making my Bed, we accidentally knocked the Bobcat Mount askew and his Earrings fell off and I thought his Santos Crown did too. But, we can't find it and now I realize, looking at this previous pix taken when he was somewhere else, the Antique Frame is missing as well, so I can't even remember, did he even have his Santos Crown on his Head or not? I couldn't say for sure and so now that I can't find it OR the fucking Oval Antique Frame either, now I'm Bugging about THAT!!! That's how I spiral when my Head is in a Bad Place. *Le Sigh* I Warned the whole Family, Listen, it's not your fault, but I'm in a Bad Head Space Today... so don't personalize it, Okay? Mebbe the whole Fridge Fiasco was the Straw that just Broke me, I dunno? It's not like we're not getting another one right away... but too much to be Anxious about and a lot of unnecessary Extra Work, which I don't Need.
I'd JUST Decluttered a whole Room, gotten Three Boxes of Inventory Priced and into the Antique Mall, got The Man Home and Situated from this last Hospitalization, and put everything right from when the New Fridge originally arrived, for Fucks Sakes!!! So I either feel like Crying... or Murder... LOL... and I don't Cry easily... so, there ya have it... if you see me on a new Episode of "Dateline", you'll know what happened. *Winks and Laughs Maniacally* Just kidding... nobody Needs to call the Authorities, I'll move past this all, but right now I'm Emotionally fucking Raw and Feeling rather Depressed and Despondent. I could take a Nap in my freshly Laundered Bedding, but, it's 4:43 p.m. and I know when I Wake Up it will likely be a Brand New Day, so I'm resisting that Temptation to Sleep it Off.
When I was stocking my Inventory they gave me a tally of how the last Pay Period ended. Even tho' I'd worked no Shifts in order to Comp some Space Rent, I'd get a Modest Check, Sales weren't as Strong as the previous Two Pay Periods. During this Mother's Day Weekend Sale, it's been Selling of Nitnoid Merch at 15% Off, nothing significant has Sold, folks still are keeping it Tight with the Purse Strings and I totally can relate and understand Why they are. I Stocked some better Merch this time around and not just Quick Turn inexpensive Product, which is Selling, but won't Profit any of us much, just make sure the Rent is Paid really to Sell Smalls that don't Cost much and very little of the Primo Merch that has actual Value. There's a reason the Crap Hawkers are doing better than those who Sell the Good Stuff. I see more folks at a Dollar Store or a Wal-Mart than the Good Stores, Indie Shops and Small Businesses, I Get it.
Not sure, but I think Allen might have left now since Tyson and his Food Bowl are gone?! I would have liked a Heads Up since the Dog just being Gone panicked me some thinking he somehow got out!!! The Gravy Train Bag of Food and Treat Food I'd just Bought for him were still there, but his Food Bowl was missing, so I can only assume he left. I Hope so, I wouldn't want Tyson to have gotten out Hours ago on our Watch and nobody is looking for him!!! And I would have liked Allen to have taken what I just bought for Tyson so it wasn't a waste to rush out and get it for him. He really liked those Treats and I don't have a Dog. So, anyway, I dunno, will have to ask The Young Prince when I see him, I don't think he's Home. And I know his Friend Sayde comes over often but I doubt she would when Allen was in State coz she had BIG Issues with Allen and his Temper when they all were Roommates, along with her Boyfriend Ian. Allen was always the Problem, so she really apologized to The Young Prince for making it seem he was a Problem too.
I always understood he wasn't the Problem, she'd said as much to me personally. But that what happened made it seem he could have been just coz Ian and Sayde were rather fearful of Allen and his out of Control Temper and vindictive Nature, so didn't wanna make any accusations against him to get him Evicted and not allowed to return. We got many versions of what happened and I'm just glad that our Grandson and his Bestie got things Right with each other when he came back to Arizona. They'd been close since they were Tweens and I think part of Allen's Anger Issues with Sayde is that she WAS so close with The Young Prince and they spent a lot of time together as Best of Friends. Allen was jealous of that since he didn't have any close Friends here, but, he's not from Arizona, our Grandson was Born and Raised here. So he grew up with and around most of his Lifelong Friends from Arizona.

I just removed everything out of the way Inside the House in preparation for Tomorrow. I'll do the Front Porch in the Morning and can't take things out of the Fridge 'til I know they're just about here and call to confirm ETA is firm and not just between 2:00 p.m. to 6:00 p.m., which is what their Recording Bot just called and told me. Last time that Bot was a good Four Hours off when they actually arrived super early and I was scrambling then coz I had a lot less time to empty the Fridge and Freezer!!! I don't want my Freezer items thawing out or my Fridge items to get too Warm and risk spoilage. I already lost a lot of Groceries when the Old Fridge gave out and that busted my Grocery Budget considerably coz I had a lot to replace then after the New Fridge came. But, I didn't see this coming, to where the Seller then told me, Yep, sounds like a Factory Defect... Sorry about that!!! It didn't take me too long to move the Pantry Shelving Unit and it's contents out of the way and some other things, but my Back now Hurts from the Lifting. I put it in Milk Crates to move it.

Old Pix of when I had Micro Baby Dreadlocks barely hitting my Shoulders. But, I digress, I used Four Milk Crates so that each Crate held contents of a specific Shelf so that re-organizing it all after Delivery will be quicker and the way I had it. I'd spent a lot of Time and Energy getting it put Right and nicely Organized, it was a Vision. And I do Plan to Grill the Delivery Guys this time about how will I know it's hooked up Right and functioning properly this time? I want specific Answers coz I'm making it crystal clear I don't wanna go thru this again!!! If they have to hang around until the Auto Fill Feature on the Pitcher fills it up the first time satisfactorily and the Ice Maker kicks out that 1st Ice Cube, I don't Care. *LOL* But, I already know that just to get the Freezer and Fridge Cold and Cool enuf to put the Food back takes 4-6 HOURS after Installation!!! So if they show up at the latter end of that Time Window given, it'll be damned near Midnight when I'm putting it all back and know if I have Water and Ice functioning on this one!
Sorry to beat this Topic to Death but it's consumed my Heart and Mind all Day long. And Mother's Day was so nondescript and rather a Bust due to my Head Space cratering after the Fridge Fiasco, and not even as good as every other Average Day, that it's all I did have to dwell upon. Usually on Mother's Day I don't necessarily make a Big Deal out of it, but I do make it a "Me Day" and at least go do something I like to do. This Day, Gas being almost Six Bucks a Gallon, Finances Tight as Hell, The Man not doing Well, and the whole Fridge Fiasco nonsense... I just didn't even wanna do a damned thing and drive anywhere either. Since it was around 105 again it meant doing anything Outdoors had to be done before around 9:00 a.m. anyway to be comfortable and not be under a Heat Advisory Warning. The Kids had a lot of Company Today, and stuff they had Planned, we didn't have any or any Personal Calls either, so it was Quiet for The Man and I.
He liked me just being Home even tho' mostly he likes to be left alone to view his Program Reruns. *LOL* He gets Anxious when I'm not here and sometimes misbehaves for the Kiddos, so, it was a Calm Day for him with me being around for all of Mother's Day really and having no Plans. He really enjoyed the Burgers I made for us, but dripped his all down the front of him, so had to change him with Fresh Clothes, they were juicy. *Smiles* It's really all I ate Today other than the small Breakfast that The Son made me in Bed very early this Morning, no Appetite whatsoever, it's just been an Emotional Day and that always disrupts my Appetite a LOT. I don't wanna eat when I'm feeling upset and out of sorts... I don't even Feel Hunger. Mebbe if I was upset more often I'd get my Girlish Figure back, and easily lose Weight, who knows? *Bwahahahahaha*
With my BFF's Kiddos just losing their Mom right before Mother's Day, I knew this would be a particularly hard one for them. You always miss your Mom after losing her, I still miss mine every day. I always enjoyed Celebrating her on Mother's Day, we had some memorable Mother's Days Together. I don't remember spending one without her. It does look like most of you had a nice one who are Moms, or still have their Moms to Celebrate it with her. I got the Front Porch cleared off for the Fridge Delivery Swap Out, decided all I wanted to do Tomorrow would be the emptying out of the Fridge when I know they're on their way, then putting it all back into the new one, then putting everything back where it belongs after that. Figured doing at least part of it all Tonight was a better strategy and with less dread. It didn't take that long and now I feel like I won't be as rushed and irritable about it. *LOL*
I guess Donnie Two Dolls went on a Mother's Day Rant similar to his Easter Rant, he gets especially unraveled during Holidays and Holy Days, doesn't he? *Eye Roll* He's so unhinged and deteriorating rapidly, he should be in a Dementia Facility or Mental Health Institution, and not the White House. I turned off The News and just got a few depressing hilites, enuf to keep fairly Informed of the continuing Fuckery. There really was nothing else on TV for a Mother's Day Sunday Night, so it was better to just turn it off and enjoy Silence as I Blogged and tried to Wrap Up this Post. Wading thru Photo Archives is always enjoyable, I haven't really taken many new Images, haven't been out and about enuf to find anything Editorial to really Photograph or that is relevant.
Too Hot now to venture into any of my Non-Climate Controlled Spaces now, so, that's pretty much a Wrap then for The RV Garage Mahal Project or doing much in The She Shed either. The Daughter did the whole Back Patio Today tho', so that looks pretty good considering what we have out there and limited options of where else to put it. She found an Antique Art Deco Bedside Table similar to one we already have. It Needs to have some TLC, the Wood wasn't taken very good Care of and looks to have been in Storage for a long time, but the Hardware on it is Awesome. It's one of those 1920's Waterfall Art Deco Bedside little Tables with Two Drawers, very small and narrow, perfect size to put anywhere. But someone Painted it this hideous Shade of Lavender... Gak! It's the same nauseating Color choice those White Trash Women Vendors Painted our Old Booth #317 at the Antique Mall that had been lovely Urban Farmhouse Style upgraded by my Friend Rhonda. But now looks like a Low End Crack/Tweaker Prostitute's Booth. *Eye Roll and Princess T's Words, which are accurate! LOL*
Of coarse we'll repaint the whole thing and I'll see what the Hardware looks like under this Paint. Some of the Veneer is peeling, but, overall it's Sturdy enuf to utilize as a little Side Table in The RV Garage Mahal when we've done some Restoration Work on it. In good shape these little Tables, even just having One of a Pair, can go for over $400 and a Pair can go for as much as $1,700. I found a Pair Online in Primo Shape and original Wood, like this one, going for $1,750. The other Waterfall Art Deco Bedside Table I have was a Curbside Find on Bulk Garbage Day in a Historic Neighborhood when Princess T was a Toddler, about 18 Years Ago. I balanced it on her Stroller to get it Home coz we were Walking and we heard the Garbage Truck nearby so I couldn't rush Home and get the Truck. We looked like a Circus Act. *LOL*
Yes, just found out that indeed Allen had left for Texas and taken Tyson with him. I do Wish someone had let us know so I didn't panic about him suddenly being gone and I didn't know for sure Why? I do Hope that the Divorce Paperwork did get Signed and will now get Filed and Finalized uncontested? Then both can move on and forward with their Lives, regardless of how much, or how little, contact might transpire for whatever reasons. I think Allen is having the more difficult time not being in Control and Letting Go... The Young Prince was Fine with just ending it now, he'd done all he could to preserve and reconcile, but, nothing was changing for the Better and it was no longer tenable for him. He made absolutely the Right decision about leaving. He has no trouble finding Relationships to have and having his Circle of Closest of Friends he has known for Years, often since Childhood or Teens. Most of his closest Friends and Besties are Females. A Gay Male Son of a Friend of mine Shared this Meme below which I Shared with my Grandson:
I knew he'd find it to be hilarious and accurate. *Bwahahahaha* So, Thank You Curtis for the Share. Curtis is the Handsome 39 Year Old Son of my German Friend Brigitte, and he grew up and was best of Friends with The Son and his Mom is a Dear Friend of mine since our Kids were really little. She grew up in Post WWII Germany, Raised by her Grandmother. She Married an American GI who was White, had 4 Kids, he left her. She Remarried her current Husband, who is Black, and her White Kids were taken away from her coz back then that's what Social Services did based solely on Societal Prejudices! So, she only got to Raise her Two Youngest Biracial Sons. Luckily she reconnected with Two of her Four Children taken away, a Son and a Daughter, who have since tragically Passed away, so she's had a rough row to hoe as a Parent. Curtis came Out in Jr. High and The Son was one of the few Lifelong Friends who maintained Friendships with his Gay Male Friends becoz he isn't Judgmental or Homophobic.
The Daughter has a mix of Male and Female Friends and gets along very well with People, which is rather Odd given her Diagnosis. The 'Crazy' isn't off putting to so many folks she knows coz her Personality is so charismatic. Her Friend Danae does Massage and Cupping. I haven't had either done in a long time, back when I was still Working at a Career where I could afford such things. Danae was also a Victim's Rights Advocate for the DA's Office, so we've had some deep discussions about the Criminal Justice System... and... where it's heading under this vile Administration that is dismantling and corrupting every Institution. Even some Professors of History are beginning to parallel it to Pol Pot's Regime, and my Cambodian Ex-DIL and her Family, who did escape the Killing Fields of Cambodia, likened him to Pol Pot back in 1.0. So, I'm not Surprised, they Lived it before, they should know firsthand what it was like.
Professors of History were saying things like Pol Pot Targeted people becoz they wore Glasses, were Educated, and could Read. This Regime is Targeting people becoz they can See Clearly. So, there are parallels and Two Dolls did say openly that he "Loves the Uneducated", and it's no Mystery as to Why... easier to Weaponize and Manipulate the Uneducated or Undereducated. Or those who lack critical Thinking... becoz those that can make you Believe the Absurd, can make you commit Atrocities. {Voltaire} He highlighted the Danger of Blind Faith and the Manipulation of Truth. He suggested that once People abandon Reason and Accept Absurdities, they can be led to commit acts of violence and injustice. He wasn't Wrong. And we're seeing it playing out in America right now in Real Time... and plenty of Bad History has shown us how it plays out too, so it's not like there is no glaring examples of what we should avoid and never repeat again. It's also why Regimes like this try to Whitewash and Erase Bad History, altering it so it's not imparting vital knowledge to Future Generations.
Atrocities committed in the Past is not Taught to make Guilt or impart Shame, so much as it is Taught so that those who haven't done such things themselves to BE Guilty of it, don't repeat such Atrocities themselves and thus end up Guilty of it. I take Slavery as an Example, I've never owned another Human Being, becoz of being Taught it's Wrong and Bad. I therefore know it's Wrong and is Bad History, so I have that Knowledge and Belief that every Human Being and their Life is Sacred and deserving of Dignity, Human Rights and equal Respect by me. But when Slavery was tolerated and accepted, did those Generations, as a Collective, realize it's Bad History and should be abolished? Some did and Thankfully abolished it, but it took a Civil War to accomplish that. Becoz not everyone had that Opinion or had been Taught that it was an Atrocity and an Abomination upon Humanity to Enslave another Human Being and for them not to have Human Rights.
Civilization makes some Progress, and has some Enlightenment along the way, but then, every so often, some wanna reverse that and go back to Archaic Times. They Imagine those times were better, for everyone, those "Good Old Days" they speak of. But the Truth of the matter is, the "Good Old Days" were not Good for Everyone, in fact, for a vast majority, they were Bad and are Better now. Women make up about half the Population, mebbe slightly more {50.5% per Estimates}, yet, Women didn't always enjoy Equal Human Rights in the Past. And that was in MY Lifetime!!! Women in the United States weren't allowed to obtain Loans, Credit Cards or Mortgages without a Male Co-Signer until the ECOA in 1974!!! Prior to that Banks routinely required a Husband's Signature, even for Independent Professional Women.
That's only slightly before I got into the Banking Industry in the 1970's. For me to even become a Corporate Executive in those Days was Rare as a Female and they could still Pay me less based solely on Gender and not performance and knowledge of the Industry. I had the Financials to Buy a Home before I could without a Man Co-Signing for me. My Dad, being a Native American, couldn't Live just anywhere in many States that discriminated against Race and designated where people of Color could live. Even tho' ALL of America was Stolen from Indigenous People. And BTW, Technically, Mexican people are also Native "Americans" becoz the Americas were populated by them too for Centuries. I know Mexicans right here in Arizona whose Ancestors have lived here for at least TEN Generations, they didn't cross an Ocean to get here. Prior to the early 1970's, Phoenix was a segregated City still, that's all Recent History, that's not Ancient History, lest we forget. But, a lot of it isn't Taught at all in Schools, so many of our Younger Generations don't even know about any of it lest their Elders pass that Knowledge along to them!
I've told this Story before, but, in the 10th Grade my History Class was studying the Holocaust. Of coarse we ALL know about the Genocide committed in Nazi Germany against Jewish people, less so about the Gypsies Hitler's Regime also committed Genocide against {but that's also a pet peeve of mine since my Mom has Roma Heritage}, and so that is what was being Taught, as it should be. Yet, I took Issue that we were never being Taught about the Native American Holocaust in our own Country, so I did my Report on THAT one. You could have heard a Pin drop in that Classroom when I gave my Presentation with the Facts nobody even knew about in my Class, coz I was the only one with any Native American Ancestry. Often my Dad was the only Native American any of our Friends and Neighbors had ever even SEEN in Real Life! Think about that, this was 1970's America and the Indigenous were conspicuous by their very absence in our Society! I didn't even see another Indian off the Rez until I was 16 Years Old, except my Dad and my own Relatives from the Rez, when they came to visit us!!! I didn't realize, growing up, how Isolating it must have been for both of my Parents to never, ever, see another Person of their own Culture and Ethnicity.
My Teacher was an Italian American, Mr. C. applauded me and asked if he could keep my Report and my Drawings of Famous Indian Leaders who fought our Government to ensure they weren't successful in exterminating all Tribal People. I gave it to him, I Hope he used it to Educate more Generations of Students? Ten Million Native Americans lived here before 1492, by 1900 only 300,000 remained, you do the Math. The Navajo Nation, the Dine', have recovered the most in Modern Times, but with only 400,000 Members Registered. The Augustine Band of Cauhilla Indians in California came back from the brink of Extinction with with only 8 Members in 2002, think about that. Some Tribes were completely Exterminated. And many, if they had been Animals, would have been put on an Endangered Species list. But, none of that is Taught in our Schools here in America where it SHOULD matter. Because we are Human Beings too and ALL Human Beings should have Human Rights, it shouldn't only be the Privileged few who are granted them, and withheld BY them from those they consider "Others" or inferior to them.
Anyway, the Civil Rights being eroded right now as we Speak is dire and we MUST do something about it before we're living in Pre-1964 America again. I remember Pre-1964 America, I did not like it from my Family's Experiences and Perspective of how it was for us personally. So, for us, it was NOT the "Good Old Days" like it might have been for Cis Gender White Males of America back then. Who seem quite eager to take us back coz some of them somehow seem to feel threatened by other Human Beings having Equal Rights to them, or any Rights for that matter. I don't understand that Mentality coz I would be Delighted if every Human Being on the Planet were bestowed with Human Rights equal to one another! Oh, and lived Harmoniously with one another, what a Utopian World that would be, that I can only Imagine, coz it will never happen in my Lifetime, if ever!!! But I'd like to Imagine it COULD.
But, as an Old Hippie, I remember how resented we always were about our Movement of Peace, Love, Tolerance, Harmony, Love of Nature and the Preservation of it, Freedom of Personal Expression and Being Different. Go in thru the Back Door, if they even let you in at all. Somehow the Idea of Not Conforming and trying to be more Loving, more Peaceful, more Tolerant, more Harmonious, Environmentally Conscious, and having Freedom of Personal Expression and just Being Different, was just too fucking Scary a Concept for the vast majority... back then and even now. Go figure!!! You can't even BE, if they don't Like how you just ARE. That's Modern Day America now...
On a Positive Note, I got The Daughter and Granddaughter moving all my Fridge and Freezer Contents FOR me into The RV Garage Mahal Fridge in preparation for Today's Swap of Fridges... Yay! I had taken to the Bed by 6:00 p.m. Yesterday to Sleep Off my Funk... so they knew it had Frosted me. *LOL*
Tears may endure for the Night, but Joy cometh in the Morning my Friends... Dawn... The Bohemian
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