Restrictions Can Be The Devil ~ Dietary Purgatory

As The Daughter was helping me unpack my Groceries I'd bought from "Whole Foods" and "Trader Joe's", she mirrored my Sentiments that the Doc should have called me BEFORE I went and bought a bunch of Foods that now I cannot eat and she forbids me to for my new Regimen of only eating Vegetables and Proteins!  *LOL and Le Sigh*  It's not that it's necessarily "unhealthy" Food, coz it came from a couple of Health Food Grocers, but it's just Foods that due to my Condition not being adequately Controlled, I have to refrain from partaking of now... dammit!

So, now when the Family has Meals, I have to eat something different, which will be a pain in the Ass and more Work and more expense to buy what I can eat and still have Foods in the Home they can eat and want to eat instead.  I have to possess the willpower not to partake of it when they're cooking and enjoying it, which, I've had to do before while Dealing with this Disease, so, I know I can, it's just not always convenient or comfortable to when Dining with other folks.  When you are on a very restricted Diet due to Health Problems, you aren't the best Dinner Guest to have coz there's so fucking much you have to say you can't have or eat.

I might as well go Vegan 100% at this point... but then the only thing I'd REALLY miss, is having Friends.  *Bwahahahaha*  That's a Vegan Joke, and my Vegan Friends tell it coz their Friends usually HATE that they're Vegans.  Especially when it comes to Foods they don't eat or even the preparation of them.  *Winks*   And I know this coz The Young Prince had a few Vegan Female Besties and when they'd come over and join us for Meals you had to be SOOO Mindful of what they didn't eat so that you could still serve them SOMETHING and not just eat in front of them.  *LOL*

I do eat partly Vegan Diet anyway and have for Years on account of the damned Diabetes, to see if it would be Helpful?   I also went completely Vegetarian for Two full Years to see if that would be Helpful?  On both accounts the answer was NO, so the Docs had to keep adjusting my Medications constantly, as they still are now.  After a while my Body just becomes too used to a Medication and it no longer has the efficacy it once did to Control the Disease, no matter what I Eat or how much I Exercise, so, it's frustrating to the Nth Degree!!!

But, to keep vertical and healthiest, and limp my faulty Pancreas along, since, I guess I was Born with a Pancreas that wasn't working optimally and I'm not getting a New one, I do whatever it might take to keep it limping along.   As said in a previous Post, my Parents were told when I was only 5 that I would not Survive to be 6, so, I've had a very good long Run beyond that and therefore cannot complain.   I'm Up by Faith and knowing it WILL Hold is my Life's Mantra.   So Veggies and Proteins it is and we'll see what happens in Six Weeks when she re-assesses if that even Helped at all when they do new Labs?

Plus, I have to start the Ozempic earlier due to the A1C Crisis unfolding rather rapidly on Trulicity now.   So, I'll have unused Trulicity I had to Pay for and Ozempic replacement that I had to Pay for, being Diabetic is expensive.   I did get all my other missing Meds that the hefty Billing Statement said I Owed for, so at least now I know I wasn't being overcharged or had some of my Meds Stolen that I was getting Billed for.  It's not as if it comes in discreet packaging when it arrives, it pretty much is evident it's Medications and some require immediate Refrigeration and are packaged with Ice Pacs in Styrofoam Boxes.

Anyway, I've told the Family to eat all the things I bought for myself that now I can't have, so that they'll just be gone.  The Daughter was sweet enuf to make me a delicious Caldo de Pollo after my Shift so I'd be eating a Soup with just Protein and Veggies in it.  I appreciated that coz I was Mad hungry and couldn't bring the items I usually bring to Work to Snack on.   Being Mindful of what has Carbs in it, or any Sugars in it, or is White Processed, can be a challenge.  I watch Carbs but there's things I did eat on occasion, just not regularly, that are Carbs, like some Pasta, Rice, Potato or Bread Products.  Now I have to completely eliminate them.

You have to adjust your Habits considerably.  So, even the small Veggie Burrito, nope, can't have it anymore, coz I can't have the Tortilla, not even Whole Grain or No Fat Tortilla.  Eggs for Breakfast, now they have to be Scrambled, coz I won't have the side of a single slice of Whole Grain Toast or half an English Muffin to dip into my Sunny Side Up or Poached preferred way of cooking my Breakfast Eggs.   No Hash Browns or Cottage Potatoes with Breakfast, just the Bacon is Okay now, or whatever Protein I choose.  No Cereals, not even healthy Grain ones.  Limits severely on all Fruits, coz they are Natural Sugars.  And the List goes on and on endlessly of Can't Haves.

You get to where what you can have is quite restricted to the degree even making a Meal is challenging to pull together until the new Habit is engrained.   And having to put that much forethought into Foods makes it so I just don't wanna eat, and that's also discouraged.   Diabetics have to eat regularly or you get Sick, and if you take your Injections and Orals on an empty Stomach you get Sick.   But, Breakfast when I take my Shots and Oral Meds is now a fucking logistical Pain in the Ass to figure out, can't have this, that, the Third, what CAN I have?!   And have on hand to even eat?!   The Kiddos were Cooking for all of us, now they'd have to Cook for me differently and separately.

So, it's Fun Times and I'm really very weary of it all Living Rent Free in my Head to have to Think about all the time as my Disease progresses and worsens no matter what I do to combat it.   It stabilizes for a while and I begin to Feel like I Got This, then it destabilizes again even if you're doing everything you should have.   The Daughter right now is trying to coordinate a Breakfast for me I can actually Eat.  So, she's making a Veggie Omelet with Mexican Seasonings in it to give it a more palatable desirability since I have to forego how I usually eat my Eggs.  And she's making some Bacon.   I'll drink a V8 and some Water with it.  Done Son... Whoop Whoop!  Breakfast Day One figured out satisfactorily while the rest of them eat whatever they want to that isn't restricted.  *LOL*

Restrictions can be The Devil until you get used to them just being your New Normal, which, I will.   I just spent Seventy Bucks at the Grocery Store tho' that in hindsight, I'd of bought more of what I CAN have and am restricted to, had I known in Advance, dammit!   So, I gotta go back now and buy Salad shit, Fresh Veggies galore, and some more Proteins coz I just don't usually eat much Meat anymore.   Now I'll have to coz I'm on a heavier Proteins Diet restriction.   I can get Plant Based Meats which I like some of those like Soyrizo, and regular Meats, so that I can go heavy on Meat and Veggie Meals and fill up with what the Doc ordered.

The Kiddos are being very Supportive, especially The Daughter and Princess T who've had Dietary restrictions all their Lives coz of their Gut Issues and Lactose Intolerance.  Princess T especially has a very restricted range of Foods that don't cause her actual Pain and Suffering to Eat, poor thing, it's why she looks so Pale and Frail.   Her Brother, The Young Prince, not only the same Problem Gut Wise, but, becoz of his Psychosis with the Paranoid Schizophrenia he often Imagines his Food is still Alive and Moving, so, when it does, he can't Eat, it Freaks him Out.  So, he's Pale and Frail too due to all that.  We should all look like a Family of Fragile Waifs once I mirror how Tiny Built they already are!  *LOL*

The Son has Gut Issues too but he powers thru them most of the time and said as he's getting Older tho', it's catching up to him and he'll have to relent and refrain as well.   It could all be Hereditary Factors at Play, we just don't know?   The Man has a Sensitive Stomach so can't eat Spicy Foods, the rest of us have Stomachs like Goats when it comes to Spicy Foods, doesn't bother us and we Spice Up everything except for his portions.   So, we've always had to adapt to Family Members Diets in one way or another, I'm just Bitching about my newest Restrictions becoz they're "New" and so I'm petulant about them right now.  *Bwahahaha*

I'm particularly upset I can't have the Tri-Colored Couscous or the Exotic Heirloom Rice Blends I JUST fucking bought at "Whole Foods" for myself, dammit!!!   They have the best Heirloom Products there that I prefer and eat sparingly, coz they are a Carb, but eliminating them means they'll now sit in the Pantry for an inordinate amount of time unless the Kiddos go for it, which, they probably won't, they don't eat much Couscous and they only like Jasmine sticky Rice.   They eat a lot of Pasta and it's Cheap, so I'd stocked up on Pastas and various Gourmet Jars of Pasta Sauces too.   So, all of them will be well fed and I'll be... well... Meal Challenged for a while it seems.  *Sobs Pathetically*

I got a bunch of fresh fucking Berries too, so they'll have to gorge on those so I won't be tempted to get into the Fresh Raspberries, Blueberries, Blackberries and Strawberries I JUST fucking bought at "Whole Foods" too!!!   And my hand of Baby Dole Bananas as well!!!  *Whaaaaaaaahhh!  Cries like a Baby!!!*   I will load up now on Spinach, Fresh Greens, Heirloom Tomatoes, Squashes, Peas, Carrots, Broccoli, Cauliflower, Celery, Onions, Peppers, Jackfruit, Cabbage, Jicama, Mushrooms, and any Oddity of Veggie they have at my Grocer that will expand my Options considerably so I don't feel... deprived and Suicidal.   I did get good Food Porn Pixs of shit I can no longer eat tho', you're Welcome.  *LOL*

Just coz I'm on a Diet don't mean I can't Look at the Menu.  *Smiles*  Work had another Gal Quit the Friday Night Shift, Donna, who was New anyway and now can't Work it, conflicts with her Real Job Schedule... so they asked if I wanted it permanently?  I don't!  The Man and I went and did some early Environmental Cleanup and stopped at a SONIC for drinks and while there heard trajectories falling hard out of the Sky and hitting the Metal Roof hard of SONIC and Cars parked in the Bays.  Turns out it was Sockets falling out of the Sky and bouncing around the Parking Lot!!!  At first we thought mebbe someone was working on the Roof of Sonic and their Tools were falling off, but then we realized the trajectory of these Sockets raining down was much higher, mebbe from a Plane or something or someone shooting them out of something?!   The Carhops at SONIC weren't Safe, coz one of those hit you that hard and you're as Dead or injured as being Shot!  I didn't want damage to my Truck either.

Two hit the Bed of my Truck, which has a Liner so didn't do damage and we got the Sockets, they are the larger kind.   At least a half Dozen or more fell out of the Sky, the Weirdest and scariest Situation to be in coz you didn't know what it was at first or where it was coming from?!   Q and The Son said when we got Home they felt someone was shooting them out of a Potato Gun or Slingshot intentionally, and they could be Right.  Management at SONIC did call the Police coz that poses liability for them while Customers are on their Property and being Targeted.  We left as soon as we got our Drinks, it didn't feel Safe being there, but, we'd already Paid for our Order and were Mad thirsty.

So, that was our Excitement for the Day.  When we got Home Q and The Son were working on his Car and had gotten Pizza, forgetting I can't have any.  *Pouting*  They apologized but I don't expect anyone to have to accommodate me, I have plenty to eat that we just bought that are within the restrictions I now have of Dietary Purgatory.  *LOL*  They bought Two large ones too and they sure smelled good, The Man had some, he's going to try to do my Diet with me, but he can start Tomorrow.  *Winks*   I'm having a nice Diet Cherry Limeade from SONIC, a good thirst quencher on a very Hot day.  The Man likes their Peach Iced Tea.

Actually, this Breakfast I'd had before I got the Doc's terrible News Call wasn't really all that Forbidden off what I have restrictions on now.  I didn't eat the English Muffin on the Smashed Avocado Bennie, and the teensy bit of Carb under the Soyrizo Bennie was not too bad to eat, tho' I won't be eating such things now.  everything else was allowed, tho' I can't eat that much Fruit now.   My Friend Big Kenny said what he did when restricted similarly, was to use his Fruit as a light Garnish, just so he'd have a 'Taste' and it wasn't enuf to wreck the regimen.  I think I might try that, a light Garnish of say a single Strawberry, sliced, or a couple Blackberries or Raspberries or Trio of Blueberries as a Garnish isn't gonna wreck my regimen either and will use up the little bit I still have without wasting any of it, which would be Sinful.

I wasn't a Fan of the Smashed Avocado Bennie, tho' it's a Fav of The Man, so I'd decided to try it with their Bennie Duo Option on the Menu.  I would prefer the Avocado to just be sliced and not mashed like Guacamole, it just tastes better to me and is more enjoyable that way.  Anyway, I went and spent $149 at the Grocer for my Fresh Veggies and Proteins, along with Spicy V8 in individual small Cans, and lots of Bottled Spring Water by Arrowhead and Fiji.   I've probably already drank my Gallon for the Day and it's only 2:24 p.m. in the Afternoon!   It really does help you to not only be hydrated and flush your System, but not feel at all hungry either.   I didn't mind watching everyone else eat Pizza.  I just wasn't the least bit hungry anyway and will have a Raw Veggie Snack with some Cheese Sticks before I eat a whole Meal now.

I know, it doesn't sound exciting, but I actually enjoyed shopping for all this Fresh Produce, Proteins I enjoy, and Cheese Snacks in various Cheese Types at the Deli.   I think we got 11 Types of Cheese in those small sizes that go on a Cracker, and Mozzarella Sticks, but I'll eat them sans the Cracker, The Man got Crackers to eat his with.   The Produce Section had pre-made Carrot & Celery Sticks, Heirloom Cherry Tomatoes in several Colors in a Tri-Pac, Grape Tomatoes, mini Cucumbers.  A Fresh Relish of Roasted Street Corn with diced Tri-Color Bell Peppers, and 3 Types of Diced Onion, that I'm gonna use to make Veggie Omelets with.  I got Fresh Spinach, 3 Types of Squash, Organic Carrots with Stalks still on, Fresh Cilantro, Fresh pre-sliced Mushrooms.

  I got Two types of Fresh Chorizo, some Steak Skewers that have Bell Peppers in Colors and Onion chunks, and some Breakfast Ham.   I got Four different Pre-Made Salads that are Individual Serving Bowls and have everything including the various Toppings of Cheese, Protein, Nuts, etcetera and the Dressing.   I think one was a Santa Fe Salad, one was a Cranberry Walnut Salad, one a Cobb Salad, one a Chicken Caesar Salad.  I like these Salad Kits, they never go to waste like buying lots of Salad Fixings and failing to use them all up in time before they go bad.  The Daughter eats so much Salad, she could live on it!  *LOL*   I like a good Salad, but only at Lunch, not as a Main Meal of the Day, it doesn't last me long enuf before I'm hungry again.

 

In this Post I included some Pixs of the T-Shirts we just brought into Inventory to our Showroom for the Weekend, some of them have already Sold right away.   If it's not Vintage Band Tees I like them to be Specialty Tees that are popular Characters or have a strong Message.  They've been very well Received and the Youngsters Love our Showroom and often say so to us and we have Regulars now that Buy most of their Wardrobe there, they tell us.  That's a good thing, they're getting it at better prices than going to the Trendy Specialty Boutiques like Spencer's, Vans, or Hot Topic that Sell Counterculture and Alternative Styles that my Kiddos and Grandkids always preferred and wore.

There is a new Jurassic Park Movie dropping on July 2nd called "Jurassic World Rebirth" and I want to go see it at the Theaters, which, we almost never do, but I will for a Dinosaur Movie from that this Syndicated Genre does coz I've liked them all, some were of coarse better than others, but the Dino's were always Cool even if the Story was Weak or some of the Actors were lackluster in their Roles.  Of coarse the Original {1993} is my Favorite and that Cast, with the except of Laura Dern, who I always thought couldn't Act and had the same half Dozen Facial Expression in her Acting Range Repertoire, Bless her Heart.  She had to be Sleeping with someone Important I figure to Score these Leading Roles?  *LOL*   I Loved Jeff Goldblum's Character in that one and glad he was in some other Sequels.

The new one has none of the Cast of previous ones to keep the Story Line going with any continuity.   And with the exception of Scarlett Johansson, I don't recognize the rest and hope they are decent in their Roles and memorable Characters?   If not, the Dinosaurs should Deliver it from being a total Bomb I think, or just Eat/Kill the Bad Actors to get them out of the way?   Which is always handy.  *Bwahahaha*   Do you know that "Jaws" {1975} is having it's 50th Anniversary already?  Yowsah, has it already been that long?!   Yes, Yes it has.  

 I also Graduated High School that Year and I remember Disaster Movies being all the rage then.  The 70's had a slew of 'em: "Towering Inferno" {1974}, "The Poseidon Adventure" {1972}, "Earthquake" {1974}, "Meteor" {1979}, "The China Syndrome" {1979}, "Airport" {1970}, "The Andromeda Strain" {1971}, "Avalanche" {1978}, "Alien" {1979}, "Close Encounters Of The Third Kind" {1977}, "Soylent Green" {1973}, "Logan's Run" {1976}, "Mad Max" {1979}, "Invasion Of The Body Snatchers" (1978}, "A Clockwork Orange" {1971}, "Orca" {1977}, "Piranha" {1978}.    It clearly was a very Macabre Decade!!!  *LOL*   And I remember going to Theaters back then that had incorporated "Sensor Round", Sensurround, for some of those Disaster Movies, remember that?  *Smiles* 

When picking Princess T up from Work a Toddler Boy was screeching his Head off with a high Ear piercing Scream, and I said, "Well, somebody isn't Happy at SAVERS anymore..." as we passed by the Mother and the Cart with the screaming Kiddo.  And without missing a beat Princess T deadpans, "NO, that IS his Happy Noise, so, Imagine what his Unhappy Noise must sound like?!"  *LMAO*  Indeed, the Kid wasn't Crying, he was squealing with Delight apparently!  Well, I couldn't contain my Laughter and the Mom quickly got the Kid to shut up and settle down.  *LOL*  Just my Grandkid sarcastically calling it his "Happy Noise" had sent me over the damned Edge in Dark Humor.

 

Needless to say, my Granddaughter doesn't like Children and doesn't plan to ever have any if she can help it.  *LOL*   Her Older Brother likes Kids even less, so says he's glad he's Gay so he's not a Breeder.  *LMAO*   So, no Great-Grands should be forthcoming from that Duo, at least with their present stance on Children in general.  *Bwahahaha*  Switching Topics, I been Googling what has Carbs and I can't eat and it includes shit I didn't know has Carbs like Beans, Dairy, quite a few Veggies I like, most Salad Dressings... shit!!!   That about eliminates most of the alternatives I was going to substitute while not eating all Breads, all Root Vegetables, just about all Fruits and Juices, all Pasta and Rice, all White Food Products!!!   What's left, according to Google, is a depressing array of Foods that are very limiting to make a Meal out of. 

Well, unless you're a straight up Carnivore and eat like a Predator.  Or perhaps like a Giraffe and eat only Leafy Greens, plain of coarse, since Heaven forbid you put something on them to add Flavor!   I'm gonna hafta talk to the Doc about this coz having a nice Meal is about the only pleasurable experience you have left when you're a Full Time Unpaid Caregiver!!!   So, just Kill me now!!!!!!!!!   I look forward to a nice Meal even if he's eating one with me and pushing it around his Plate playing with it and I gotta remind him to eat it and then not choke while doing so.  I'm already having some deep Funks to climb out of, take away anything worth eating and I think I'll be treading Water and just wanna hurry up and Die.   

That's not being hyperbolic either.  I'm thinking, Jesus, Joseph, Mary and all the Saints... let's just get this over with then, apparently this Body can't even Process most Food anymore!?  What I had carefully bought and planned out for Breakfast now to be in compliance has to be nixed, it has Dairy.  They didn't tell me I couldn't have Dairy, so, that was substituted for what they told me on the Phone I definitely can't have.  *Le Sigh*   I mean, I won't buy any more Yoghurt, but I have the expensive kind I like and I'm not wasting what I have either, so, eating that until it's gone.  And drinking what Milk I have left too, fuck it... I just bought it.   Google did say many Cheeses are low in Carbs, but most Foods do have Carbs it seems, of some amount, more than I realized aren't for a Carb Free Diet.  I could roll with a Low Carb Diet, but this is ridiculous.  And I am not Happy!!!

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In diet purgatory hell... dawn... the bohemian