The Japanese Stock Market already hit their Circuit Breakers, for a Trading Halt to address significant Market imbalances and allow for dissemination of material information and help curb panic Selling. If we hit 7% Losses in a Morning ours will do the same. This is NOT good. The last time it happened was in early 2020 due to the initial shock of a Global Pandemic. Which is way different than this intentional Administration decision to crash the Market on purpose!!! The Circuit Breakers were implemented in 1988 due to the 1987 Crash, this one could be worse, we just don't know yet definitively, but I fear it could be. We don't wanna slide right from a Recession into a Depression, but it's looking ominous to me!
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I stocked up on some more Essentials before prices increase dramatically on everything. I'm trying to be preemptive about it all and forestall what I can for at least a while. So, our Freezers and Pantry are full and that's all I can do in preparation. I did end the last Pay Period at the Antique Mall pretty Strong, considering the Week beginning to the Fortnite of it being so Soft. I did go in on Sunday late Afternoon to finally bring more Merch in and tidy up, it was slammed busy, you would have thought we were having a Sale, and, we weren't! I was nervous about them asking me to Work, but dodged that Bullet, they didn't have Time to even take a Breath. *Whew*

We have so many new people there, both Paid Staff and Vendors, that more than half the people working, I don't even recognize or know now. Customer Service was suffering due to everyone's inexperience and being so New. All the Locked Cases were going to Last Call and it was so hectic I was Thankful I wasn't working. *LOL* The start of this Pay Period is relatively Strong so let's Hope it stays that way, you never know tho', it could Flatline even tho' it's busy right now. Depending on how nervous people get or how tuned in they even are to what's going on, things could turn on a Dime. So many stay in their Bubble and insulated, which is part of the problem.

There are Protests going on Daily now with big Crowds and that's good, we need the Good Trouble to pressure those further down the Food Chain of Government to fear for their Jobs and re-election Hopes. Otherwise their Political Careers are doomed and they know it. Even in Ruby Red Districts the Natives are finally getting restless. It's about time, even tho' a Day late and a Dollar short, better than never. The Young Prince and The Niece allegedly will be leaving New Mexico on the 11th and arriving here as soon as they can get to Arizona. I'll have more of a Peace about the Grandson's Situation when he's Safely back Home again. I'm so Thankful The Niece is going out of her way to Help.

I Hope she intends to stay a little while and just have a semi-vacay while we Host her here? She Works from Home so can do her Job anywhere. They'd wanted to be here for the Holidays, but, Spring will be a nice time for them to arrive too. I haven't spoken a lot to either of them, but so far The Young Prince said things are on track this time, I sure Hope so, it's been delayed again and again due to their circumstances and I don't really know how all of that is actually playing out really? I don't know what Allen is actually Bankrolling and going to help out with, so, a lot is contingent upon that and him doing the Right thing even tho' they're breaking up.

At this point mebbe he too wants to move forward with his Life and will be agreeable to just passing the Baton of Responsibility back to us for our Grandson's Care, relieving him of it? Since we're willing to do that then he has the ideal opportunity, since, it seems to me that he is the one that was no longer All In. The Young Prince had done everything he could to stay Married, but, it has to be mutual or it's just no use. Too much wasn't working out and the whole Union was so complex and a lot for Two Young People with significant Disabilities, IMO. If they gave it their best and still genuinely Care about one another, which I Believe they do, then going their separate ways is for the best now. I don't know how much Family Support Allen has now?
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He had reconciled with his Family at their Wedding, after Years of Estrangement, so I really do Hope they can work things out in that Relationship, for all their sakes? I do feel bad he doesn't have a close knit Family and Network of Support, he's a Good Guy and he Needs that. But, with his Autism and where he is on the Spectrum, Relationships are very hard for him and remaining close is difficult, he tends to self-sabotage and not Read the Room. And choosing a Life Partner who also has Serious Mental Illness and requires a Full Time Caregiver was making a complicated Situation already harder for him. I think he probably did his best, so he's not a Villain in this not working out. It didn't work out with him living here with us either. But, I Wish him Well. I didn't take 'Sides'.

I am one to stay Neutral about other folk's Relationships breaking up or having complications. I've always gone by the adage that there's always Three Sides to any Couple's Story: Partner #1's, Partner #2's, and The Truth. *Winks* So, I've usually stayed in good standing with any Ex my Kids have had, my Friends have had, becoz I wasn't IN that Relationship as intimately. So, whatever Relationship I had with the person usually wasn't affected the same. It's served me well and actually served my Kiddos well. Becoz their Ex's still liked and had Relationship with me, eventually they had a Peace among themselves {usually, with a few exceptions of coarse} and we could include their Ex's in some things amicably.

I had been unable to do that with my Ex's who I had Children with, but, it was beneficial to be able to do that with the Ex's of my Middle Daughter that she had Children with and which I Raised Two of. I'm in good standing with The Young Prince's Dad and his whole side of the Family and Princess T's Dad and his whole side of the Family. It doesn't mean I approve of much of what choices they've made post-breakup in their own Lives, but, it's their Lives to screw up and I was just the MIL, not their Mama. *Winks* I'm still in good standing with Bobby's Ex, Angie, who was The Young Prince's Siblings Mama, she's a nice Girl and she knows I Love her Kiddos. I felt I was in good standing with almost all of The Son's Ex's, he's still Friends with most of them actually.

He chose not to have Biological Children, but every Ex he's had does have Children and are good Moms. So I always ask how their Kiddos are doing and our Family Cares about them and their Families still. Anyway, I try to stay in Touch with everyone and they know if they ever had a Crisis they could count on me to do what we could for them, even if it was just Emotional Support during difficult times. Relationships are hard to sustain, even the good ones, Life gets busy and complicated, doesn't it? Even here in The Land Of Blog there are folks who I had interactions with Daily for Years and then suddenly you never hear from them and have no idea what happened? Sometimes it's not Good News, like, they Died... but, sometimes they just quit Blogging or Visiting The Land and Moved On, nothing Personal at all. Life is like that.

With the Stock Market continuing to Crash I wouldn't be surprised to learn a lot of Insider Trading went on with those corrupt fucks insiders in this Administration. The likes of what got Martha Stewart sent to Prison and harms the integrity of the Markets. Over Six and a Half TRILLION has been Lost in only 2 Days!!! And over Eleven TRILLION since he took Office only since January, let that sink in for a Minute!!! I wouldn't be surprised to exceed the 1987 drop of over 22% soon in a Day. The Ketamine King has probably lost the most Money of anyone, notwithstanding the massive amounts of Money he voluntarily already pumped in to Buy the Presidency, assuming it would make him Money and not make him hemorrhage Money instead. I think their Bromance could be over and he'll make a break of it.

I think many of his Billionaire Boys Club Buddies are nervous right now, they expected to get Richer, not Poorer. And tho' they can weather losses more than the Average American whose 401K has bottomed out and whose Small Business will go Under, nobody is Happy about someone else's bad Financial Decisions tanking their Finances needlessly. Or risking the permanent consequences on the World Market when no Trade Partner will wanna do business with America. Becoz they feel this has proven to them we can no longer be Trusted to be a Team Player with any Country, to promote Fair and Free Trade anymore between us and them. We're seen Globally now as Adversarial, and Pariahs, which is never Good.

Okay, so I'll easy up on the Economical Doom & Gloom, except for those deliberately keeping their Eyes Wide Shut, everyone already knows what's going on that's catastrophic due to this Administration's stupidity exclusively. Yesterday it was a balmy day in the 80's so I took The Man for a long drive and day out. We need to do it now coz the Weather Forecasters say it'll be triple digits "Officially" this time for the rest of the Week, breaking all previous Records, Splendid! *Le Sigh* We went to my Friend Nan's Antique Store in the Northeast Valley, I got a small Canvas Mail Cart with Industrial Wheels she gave me a good Deal on. I need it for our Laundry. Right now everyone has Laundry Tubs but you have to lift them, so I end up kicking ours down the Hall to the Washer and Dryer, now I can Wheel ours. *Winks*
I took The Man to Brunch at "Snooze", as always it was sublime tasting and Editorial for Food Porn Pixs. *Winks* I had the Bella Bella Benny and substituted the Prosciutto with Soyrizo, while The Man had the Smashed Avocado Benny. He wants to get his Avocados in before Tariff's with Mexico make them only affordable to the Elite. *Le Sigh* And Bakers, when Madagascar quits Exporting Vanilla to us, which we cannot grow here, and Coffee from Nations that produce the bulk of that too coz of all 50 States only Hawaii can produce Coffee, there are gonna be things we don't really wanna live without. Trade Deficits are not always Bad as the Orange Moron would have you to Believe.
Madagascar for Example supplies most of the Global Vanilla, but doesn't Import as much from anyone, becoz, well, they're not only a Poor Country, but what they bring to the Table in ability to Trade is very limited. They're not being unfair to or ripping off America and a Tariff against small Poor Countries is just Cruelty, not good Economics, good Business or good Trading Practices. Okay, I know, I know, I got right back onto this Topic but it bears discussion. There are many Jobs better off left to other Countries and not better to be brought back to America. If we want to bring Jobs back to America, do we really want to bring back Sweat Shop Low Paying Production? I doubt it, and, even IF they did, how much would we Pay an American to do that similar Job to compete with a Global Market that can do it Cheaper in order to be the least bit competitive?
Ask any Business, large or small, why they had to outsource some Product Production Overseas and you'll get the same Answer, even if at first they really tried to use American Production first. In a Word, COST. They Interviewed Small Businesses that will Fail due to these Tariffs becoz they rely so heavily upon their Overseas Trading Partners for Product, Production or even the raw Materials to create what they do here in America. One Small Business Owner, who is Suing the Government over Tariffs coz she has a Set of Balls, said she used to Source from American Companies and it cost her $38 to Produce it here and then Sell it for $50 with very little actual Profit, since, it was a Journal... who wants to Pay Fifty Bucks for a Paper Journal just to say it was Made in America? Few, that's Who. You just won't Buy it or couldn't Afford to even if you Need one.
So, she has a good Trade Relation with China now to Produce the same thing to where her Customers can afford to Buy it and she can make a Profit and grow her Business and Hire more Employees too. Even when the Tariffs were 10% it cost her a Million Extra in Tariffs. He's now levying OVER 100% Tariffs on China now, no, that's not a Typo. Her Business will now Fail, that is not sustainable for any Business to pass along to their Customers or Pay to an Exporter, becoz China isn't eating that, they're retaliating, as they should, becoz it's punitive and ridiculous. And, China can do Business with anyone and everyone else and become an even bigger Super Power and World Trading Partner while America flounders and becomes Nationalist and thus Isolationist, hurting Americans too.

Okay, I Promise, I'll Stop now. *Bwahahahaha* Hopefully the Food Porn tempered some of the tough Read? *Winks* Anyway, The Man and I had a good day out and hit a couple of Chazzas having big Sales. I picked up some 1980-1984 ROLLING STONE Magazines in Bagged Lots of Six per Bag with major and Iconic Celebs on the Covers. I picked up a couple of the most Ornate Vintage Tambourines I've ever seen. Some Numbered Metal Gym/Locker Baskets. An 1800's Bronze Arched Receipts Holder that Mounts onto a Clipboard. {Below} I Scored a LOT of Specialty Tees to Re-Sell in our Showroom. We've been Selling a lot of the more Expensive ones lately so Inventory was needing replenishing. Tariffs won't affect the Secondhand Market so Hopefully we'll benefit from that Blessing? People may have to start Buying Used and not New now.
I'm learning to use my New Camera, I've sprinkled some of the Pixs in here that I've started taking with it, along with some that I've taken with my Old Camera and my Cellphone. I'd of taken more with it, coz they're turning out good and no mishaps with the quality of pix, but, I did have a Memory Card malfunction that I didn't get fixed until I got Home. Don't know what happened, but taking it out and putting it back in again seemed to have done the trick. So far no Buyer's Remorse about having bought it to replace the Gifted one that got Stolen. It helped me get over the Theft of that one, tho' being violated by a Theft of something, even if it hadn't been New and a Gift, would be difficult to get over completely. Thieves are a pet peeve of mine and I don't know why anyone would think it's no big deal to Steal?
Anyway, the New Camera is working fine and I am pleased with the quality of Images it's giving me to Share. I now bring all Three of my Cameras with me so that I have backups to my backups, I'm OCD like that. *Bwahahahaha* Plus, if a Battery or Charge Dies or a Memory Card gets filled, no problem, I have a backup with me at all times now. I bought this large fancy Box filled with coiled Incense from my Friend Minnie's Booth. I don't know that she realized what was inside was Incense and was mostly Selling it for the Graphics of the Box. Asian and East Indian Packaging is some of the best ever IMO. I often buy their Products just for the Packaging sometimes, to Keep it after I've used whatever Product was in it. *LOL*
I've told the Story before of when my Cambodian now Ex-DIL and I were shopping at her Aunt's Asian Grocery Store and I bought Funeral Papers for some Paper Arts I was doing and one of her Relatives was the Cashier, gasped and ask who in the Family had Died?!!!!? Poor DIL had the embarrassment to explain that her American MIL just thought they were Pretty, nobody Died! *Bwahahahaha* Recent Pix of the Ex-DIL above, I miss her terribly, and the Kiddos, who are all Adults now and so Grown Up. Yes, I can keep up with how they're doing via Social Media, but, it's not the same as spending time with one another, is it? That's the difficult part when Relationships fail with your Kiddos and their significant others, even tho' you didn't break up, becoz they did, well, now you rarely, if ever again, see them in person anymore. I don't know if she and I will ever see each other again in person, since, she and The Son don't at all and haven't remained friendly, which is sad, coz they were together over a Decade.
But, becoz her extended Family own all of the Asian Grocery Stores in the Valley, I do still Shop there all of the time. They are a Lovely Family and I still Love her and the Girls very much. The Son ruined that relationship and owns his part in why it failed. Had he gotten Clean and Sober, well, things might have been different. At least now he's been Clean for Years, but still has to Work on the Alcoholism and of coarse will always have his Mental Illness and Autism, so, there's that aspect of why his relationships often don't last too. He's a good Guy and a Handsome one with a good Personality, so Women really are attracted to that. But, there's a lot of baggage that someone would have to take on in order to be in relationship with him and he knows that, so, hasn't been dating at all. He feels it's best he remain Single and Childless and he could be Right. But, it's not coz he doesn't want companionship or a Family, he Loved having both.
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The Daughter feels the same way and why she's never Married, she said she realizes a little bit of her goes a long way with the Serious Mental Illness Diagnosis she has and which has no Cure. She couldn't even Raise her own Children becoz of it, they would have involuntarily been taken away if she hadn't voluntarily given them up to be Raised by extended Family, which to this day grieves her. She Adores her Children and they Adore her too, but they're almost all Adults now, Three of the Five are now Grown, and realize, she could not have successfully Raised them, they have complete Awareness of that now. And it's Sad, but, it's the Reality of the Hand Dealt. You Play your Hand Dealt in Life.
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Anyway, here's the ornate Tambourines I got, they're all inlaid on the Sides with Mother Of Pearl and other inlaid Shell, they're Animal Skin, Vintage and probably came from Egypt. They were priced Fair and I don't have any like this, tho' I do have a Collection of Vintage Tambourines from around the World. About half of what we Sourced we'll Resell, but not these. It was a productive day out and The Man was in good Spirits until Sundown and I didn't manage to get him Home before Sundown, so he deteriorated rapidly then. He gets Unlovely and yells a lot, having mini Meltdowns over practically nothing and not able to Emotionally regulate. He likes the Comfort and Familiarity of being Home once he's started unraveling, he wants to be left alone and so it was a relief to get him Home where he could Calm Down and not be so agitated and anxious.
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It had been such a good day for us that I didn't want it ruined by the last couple Hours, but, Traffic was heavy... and... another fucking long Train at the Crossing! I have to get Angry back at him once he's becoming too difficult, that usually is enough of a challenge to make him behave until I can get him situated to where he can decompress from the Sundowners he's got going on. I don't like to have to get Angry with him, but I do have to assert a Caregiver Dominance or he'd be impossible to Manage and that's why we've not been able to get a lot of Help. Even Trained Caregivers do not want to Care for a really hard one to Manage and he can be very High Maintenance and scary to some people. He knows he doesn't scare me and I bow down or back down to no Man. *Winks* So, once I've had enuf of the Sundowners nonsense, I can become just as difficult and he really isn't comfortable with that and wants Dawn of the Light back again... not Dark Dawn, who is no Fun and no Joke. *Winks*
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A Gallow's Humor Incident happened tho' during our Day out that we Laughed about, but had to Apologize to The Daughter for. Becoz it really wasn't Funny, she almost had a Heart Attack about it and called me in a Panic. You see, early in the Morning I was going to the SAVERS that Princess T works for and it's half price day so I knew it would be Sensory Overload for The Man. He was still Sleeping anyway, as was Princess T coz it's her Day Off on Mondays so she Sleeps in and wouldn't want to go in to where she Works anyway on a Day Off. So, I told The Daughter where I was going and to watch her Dad for me when he got up. Okay, fast forward about 2 Hours later I come Home and get him to go have his Fun Day with me, but she doesn't know that. She doesn't know I ever came Home yet!!! I know you're getting the gist of this and the direction it's going...
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I should have told her I was Home and taking her Dad, but, I didn't think about it, her Brother was at Work and Princess T was still Sleeping. She apparently was either in the 5th Wheel or working in The RV Garage Mahal, so, we just left. Fast forward a couple Hours, when she goes to Check on her Dad, who now isn't in Bed Sleeping anymore and so she goes looking for him. Now, my Truck is gone so she knows I'm not Home, but didn't think I'd ever come Home either. So, she is looking in Vain for him, she even checked the bottom of the fucking Pool!!! *LOL* She knows he's a Wander Risk and sometimes has Separation Anxiety when I'm gone and he doesn't know where. So, now, since he's nowhere to be found on the Property, she gets Mando and Princess T involved in trying to find Dad/Grandpa, they're all in a Panic, thinking he went looking for me on Foot and Wandered Off!!!
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They're thinking, Oh Shit, we Lost him on our Watch, what are we gonna tell Mom/Gramma?! Should we put out a Silver Alert on him or risk Calling her and make her really Upset with us and mebbe have a Stroke about this!??! Thankfully they had the Courage to do the latter first *Whew* and she was in a Panic asking, "Mom, do you have Dad?!" I'm like, Yeah, Why? But sensed the Panic in her Voice and realized, shit, I forgot to inform anyone I had him!!! And she says she didn't know I'd ever come Home to get him and thought I was still out and about just having a Me Day, so she'd panicked thinking he'd gone looking for me!!!
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We all then Laughed with Relief and I felt Terrible, I really did, and apologized profusely to her. My Bad, I didn't even think about the fact she's just think he'd gone Missing and I had come got him and forgot to tell her. Usually I tell everyone where I'm going, who I've got with me, expected return times etcetera, just out of Consideration and Safely. So they know it's out of Character for any of us NOT to do that. We all do, even the Adult Kiddos. So, I'll never do that again, I didn't mean to Scare them so badly. She was just glad he was Safe and with me and that we were having a nice Day Out together. So, she didn't even get Mad about it, just Relief. I would have been Mad about it if I'd been her... but, hey, I've Lost a Kid before and know the Panic and then the Relief when you Find them again, so... often you Get Over Mad and just go straight to Instant Relief that all Ended Well. *Whew*
Plus, the Kiddos realize my own Memory Care is slipping and that kinda Scares them a bit. So they don't want to make me feel worse by bringing up that I too am having Senior Moments of Forgetfulness. I don't Like that I am, but I am Aware that my Short Term Memory is worsening now and I'm trying to do Brain Games and shit to improve upon it's slippage. And to challenge myself Intellectually, tho', it has been said that Intellectuals actually have a higher rate of Brain dysfunction later on than Simple Minded folks, so... Individuals with higher intelligence may experience a faster rate of decline cognitively once Dementia develops. I don't know that I'm all that Intellectual, but I do know I'm not Stupid and have held down very demanding, complex and difficult Careers and had major Success in them. That would have been impossible if I wasn't all that intelligent I guess? *LOL*

But, I know what I know and I don't know what I just don't know, while having the awareness and the discernment to not think I know shit that I don't know. Far too many folks THINK they know shit that they don't know anything about really. It's just as important to have awareness about what you do not know. So... slippage, Yeah, it's happening and so far it's not all that bad, but it could worsen and we're trying to slow down that scenario as much as possible. The Man is in such cognitive decline now that I don't have the Luxury of going to shit myself. *LOL* And, it scares him and the rest of them when I'm faltering, and I know it, and so sometimes we do have to discuss it coz I can't stop what is just gonna be a Natural progression of Aging Out. Scary Stuff tho', every Senior and their Family knows you have to contemplate the possibilities.

Hereditary Factors considered, I have a 50-50 split. With my Dad, he had no cognitive decline and Died at 74, his Body gave out before his Mind did. My Mom was more an Intellectual Being, in fact, I'd venture to say had she been Tested, she might have had a Genius IQ, a very Smart Woman, I couldn't hold a Candle to my Mom's Intelligence, few could. But, she walked that Fine Line between Genius and Madness, as many do that are just that Intellectually Gifted. So, her Mind gave out long before her Body did and she Died at 84 and of the complications of end stage Dementia. I'd rather go Out like my Dad did actually, with the Body crapping out before the Mind does. He didn't have nearly the Torment that Mom experienced being Lost in layers and eventually Losing herself and all her Memories... she often didn't even know who any of us were anymore, she forgot all her English, since it wasn't her First Language and nobody in Hospice spoke Welsh.

It created a Communication Barrier even for my Brother and I then, since she had refused to Teach us much of her own Language, for fear we'd have an Accent and it be a disadvantage to us in America. She had a thick Welsh Accent and I'd even have to Translate her English to damned near everyone all my Life, which was rather hilarious. But, at her Hospice they thought she was Babbling and I had to inform them when I came for some Visits, No, it was a legitimate Language, albeit a Dying Language, of her Home Country of North Wales. So, show her the respect that she's speaking an actual Language that they just didn't understand, it wasn't Babble due to her Dementia, she was trying to communicate and getting frustrated that she couldn't becoz nobody could understand her. Which had to be horrible for her there in the End.

Almost everyone in Nursing Homes and Hospice who Work there are Immigrants from other Countries anyway in Arizona and Cali, so, she had exceptional Care by them tho'. Most were from the Philippines, India and Africa, where taking Care of their Elders is a Cultural Priority. So they Treated my Parents with the same Devotion and Dignity they would have Treated their own Family Elders. I appreciated that more than Words could say, since, I've had bad experiences with American Caregivers who were not Family, to the point of having to Report it. So preferred Immigrant Caregivers from Cultures who revere their Elders and were brought up as I was, to Honor them always and know that Obedience is better than Sacrifice and it's Godly to Honor your Elders. Both of my Parent's Cultures revere their Elders and so I do also, as do our Children and Grandchildren, having been Raised with that Mindset and that Family is EVERYTHING.

Mom could be very difficult and ornery, but, she had Personality galore, even with the Dementia, so, she was Beloved by Staff at both her Nursing Homes and her Hospice. She got Gifts from Staff all the time and they spoiled her as if she was their own Grandma. Especially the Young Men were Devoted to her like Grandsons. And they always made sure she looked Pretty since they knew that had always been important to her to be a Fashionista and look Elegant and Classy. Now with Dad, his Caregivers in the Hospital and then Hospice really Liked him too. Coz Dad had a Wicked Sense of Humor and kept everyone Laughing. He was so Strong and Stoic that they thought it incredible that he could refuse all Painkillers and be so Pleasant all the time while his painful excruciating Illness ravaged his Body. He would just sit Indian Style on his Bed and Meditate, then tell them Pain is a figment of the Imagination and he could override it, which, he apparently did.

He taught me those Methods too and so I have a very high threshold and tolerance for Pain, there is much of it you can override with the Power of your Mind. That's Why Placebos Work actually, so, it's not a Myth. Dad told me that if you give anyone in Pain something and imply that it's very Strong, so to use it sparingly, even if it's a Placebo... as a Person Thinks, so they Are. And, becoz they have Belief of the Strength of what they took or the Power of whatever it is, it will Work for them even if it wouldn't Work for someone else who Disbelieves. Anyway, Dad Died quite Peacefully, one day he looked out his Window on a Glorious Day and said it was a Good Day to Die, and lapsed unconscious and never Woke up again. So his Body just wound down in the Normal process of Dying and he just looked Serene while it happened. That's how I will want to go if I can choose my End. Mom fought her End and so it was hard. She didn't have a Peace about Dying and Letting Go, and my Dad did, it made a difference.

I don't think it was so much that my Mom Feared Death coz before she even turned 80 she said she didn't want to Live very much longer. She'd Outlived almost all her Friends and all but One Brother and didn't want to Outlive any Children or Grandchildren. But when the Dementia became very advanced, I don't think she knew anymore that she could and should Let Go, so, she Fought it very hard, which made Death prolonged and agonizing for her. And when you get to a certain Age you do begin to contemplate Mortality since you got more Life Behind you now than in Front of you and that's Okay... it's how it is and should be at some point. How each of us will Cope with that inevitability will vary as much as we all are uniquely ourselves.
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This is not the end, it is not even the beginning of the end, but it is perhaps, the end of the beginning... dawn... the bohemian
Those Rolling Stone magazines are from the period when I subscribed to the magazine. I looked forward to getting each issue in the mail.
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DeleteThe death of your mother is something that remains with a woman forever. I am sorry she had a difficult time understanding in the end. I know it has affected me in many ways. Mostly I miss her so much.
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Yes, losing Parents is really tough and you miss them terribly if you had a good close Family relationship. I did a lot with my Mom, from about the 1980's she was alone and needed a lot of help, Dad remained more independent and less in need of me doing things for him in his latter Years. Mom didn't drive and had a slew of medical issues, so we did a lot together since I was her transportation while living in Arizona, then my Brother took over in the final Years and moved her to Cali, where he could get her more Services. Being in the Entertainment Industry he had a lot of celebrity contacts who could help him get what she needed, here I was more limited, CalCare was better about Services and she was happier in California, she liked that State a lot. Dad and I liked Arizona more so he stayed here after Retiring from the Military and made trips to the Reservation he was from annually too. I personally think he would have gone back to live on the Reservation had it not been he wanted to stay closer to me and his Grandkids.
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