Wednesday, December 17, 2014

The Salvage Yard

One of my Modified Holiday Expeditions since being Sick was to THE SALVAGE YARD on Opening Day of the Event... it was a brief visit since I still wasn't feeling Well, but it was good for my Morale so I'm glad I went even though I didn't stay long.

I'd had to spend so much time in pain and in bed resting this past week that it was a huge Morale Booster to get out even for a little while as I Recovered.   My two best remedies for when I do succumb to anything is a lot of Sleep and doing something exceedingly positive when I am awake... it helps me to Heal faster.

And it must have paid off since when I went to the Hospital today for the dressing and packing changes they couldn't Believe how quickly I was Healing!!!   It was answer to Prayer since I'd had that talk with the Lord about needing His Healing Touch of Intervention to get me through all this as expediently as possible!   I didn't want anymore agonizing packing changes, I wasn't sure I could bear anymore of that torture and trauma to my afflicted arm, so I was already 'Over It' and needed that part of the Recovery Process to be over and done with already!

So I was completely Elated when the Nurses inspected my wound and said they couldn't Believe it was already healing over and had pushed out the packing on its own!   Guess my Body felt pretty much like I did about it and was rejecting it too?!  *LOL*  Well, that meant I didn't have to endure the agony of them yanking it out again... but they still had to have the Doc come in and release me from needing it repacked Today and then again on Friday!?!

I was absolutely Elated when he came in and said he couldn't Believe it either, but it had already healed over so quickly that they wouldn't even be able to repack it!  *Whew*   So, unless anything takes a bad turn, my Healing Process is finally taking hold over this severe Infection and my body is successfully fighting back and reclaiming Good Health!  *Yay!!!*   And just in time since The Sweet will be having their Flea Market Event Opening Day tomorrow and I really, really didn't want to miss that either... even if I can only stay a little while and Modify yet another Holiday Event for what I feel up to.

It's always great to get together with my Wonderful and Talented Friends... their Positive Energy and Passion for what they all do always Uplifts and Inspires, they are always a great Source of Encouragement when I'm not feeling 100%.   We get to see each other during these Events and particularly during the Holidays that is really Special since everyone is so busy and scattered all over the Valley that getting together any other kind of way can't really happen.  

I really fell in Love with that Vintage Eye Chart... so Hypnotic... but I kept the visit and my purchases Simple, short and sweet so that I didn't overdo it on any level.

Just the Atmosphere of the Holidays and the Decor of it and the Inventory representative of it are usually enough to take me to my Happy Place anyway.   Christmas is the one time of year where I don't need or want a lot of Stuff for myself... to me it's more a Joyful time of Giving than Receiving.  And since I'd done all my Giving Early I was totally On Track and didn't need to purchase another thing or save up for anything else to Give... everyone was already covered.  That's a good feeling... and especially when you unexpectedly end up facing a Health Crisis during the Holidays!

All of the Grandchildren had received their Gift Money and/or Gifts... as had the Adult Children... so The Man and I could finally relax knowing that we'd stretched the Budget sufficiently this year to make it happen.  *Whew*

If you have a large Family you totally understand what a relief that is when there are so many to buy for, especially once the added Blessing of Grandchildren and Great-Grandchildren begin arriving and expanding the Family considerably over the years!

I sometimes like to joke that we have an expansive 'Collection' of Grandchildren now that there are so many of them!  *Smiles*   It's harder to Spoil them all when there is such a bounty of them, but we try.   We're up well past a dozen now so that's a lot of Kids!  *LOL*

And a half dozen of them have Birthdays from late November thru early January so Holiday buying is much more than Christmas for us since there were so many Holiday Babies that came Fresh from the Father around this time over the years!   Now I don't think there is a single Month of the year when we don't have a Birthday for an Adult Child, a Grandchild or a Great-Grandchild, but Nov. thru Jan. are the most packed with Birthday Celebrations!!!

So... that said, Gramma Dawn kept her own purchases exceedingly Modest for this Event, to one of these Vintage Metal Typeset Stamps. {The big one in the foreground which has cool Ledger info.}
And four inexpensive pretty International Coins to make Gypsy Jewelry with.

This is an Adorable Christmas Decorating Idea with Vintage Toy Cars and mini Bottlebrush Christmas Trees tied to their roofs!   Wish I'd thought of doing that one with some Old Hot Wheels Cars before I Donated them when the Kiddos de-stashed their rooms!   Ah well... maybe I'll remember it for next year... yeah, right!!!  *LOL*

This wasn't exactly the year that I got around to completing too many Holiday Projects, which is kinda the Norm for me actually, way more Ideas and Vision than Time to make it happen!  Even when I'm not Sick I am finding that I don't have sufficient hours in the day to get around to everything I Imagine that I will do before the Holidays actually arrive!

Even my Holiday Pickin' was lean this year, but luckily Sales were still strong even though I didn't have but a nod to the Holidays in the way of my own Inventory and Styling in the Showrooms.

I always Adore these Style of Vintage Graphics that they used to have on Children's Furniture.  I remember having them on my Furniture and some Toys as a Child... and I even found an Old Crib that had some when one of the Daughters was a Baby and she Loved that thing.  It was a Pale Yellow Wooden Crib with Pastel Blue and Pink Nursery Style Lambs on each end.  I Sold that Crib years later, after it had been thru a couple of my own Children, for more than double what I'd paid for it.

So Cute these Graphics are... they just don't make Graphics like these anymore... wish they did though!

Having my Spirit Uplifted along with all the Sleep and Rest has been Therapeutic as I've battled this Infection and endured what the Recovery required via Western Medical Treatments.   It may be a while before I'm as Trustful of Preventative Medical Practices in a Hospital or Clinical setting though, that will have to come with Time to rebuild my Trust that when I go in Healthy I should come out and remain Healthy!   But it sure feels Good to begin to feel Better again!
Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Way Worse Than I Expected


Well, things have gone from bad to way worse than I expected regarding being really Sick after my Immunization fiasco last Wednesday!   I couldn't have even Imagined things could go this far Left when you walk in Healthy to receive something that should keep you Healthy and walk out with a potentially Life Threatening 'Situation'... but a 'Situation' is what we now have!!!

By two a.m. Sunday Morning I really looked and felt like I was dying... literally... not figuratively... so after I got the Crew here sound asleep I drove myself to the ER, which turned out to be a timely decision.  Since apparently I was not having an Adverse Reaction to either of the shots serum after all... what I was having was a now rampant severe deep tissue Infection that has spread throughout my body from "unsterile procedure" when the shots were administered!!!   WTF!?!???!??

It happens... I know this because fairly recently in an AARP expose' I'd read that one of the leading causes of death in Seniors is being given an Infection when they are receiving Medical Treatment... you just never think the odds are that high that it will be YOU... you know!?!   You assume that happens to the very frail and Sick Seniors that might be more susceptible... not the Robust Healthy Seniors just practicing preventative medicine to STAY Healthy... clearly that assumption was dead wrong and now I'm facing a 'Situation' over someone else's Carelessness.

Not that I could have prevented what happened to me, unless I opted not to receive any preventative medical treatment like an annual Flu and/or Pneumonia Immunization to attempt not to get those illnesses, but it never should have happened in the first place!!!  

And so I'm Angry... I'm Angry because someone got slack at Sterile Procedure and Protocol... and because of this now my Family and I are suffering the severe consequences... and right in the midst of the Holidays when we should be Enjoying Life!   Yes, I Reported it... and the Base Clinic is now seeing me regularly to attempt to help me fight this severe Infection and recover... but it's a running damage control kinda thing... what has been done cannot be undone.  But it can be a valuable Lesson on how important Proper Procedures are to protect Patients.

I'm Angry because I'm also a Full Time Caregiver of three Loved Ones who cannot look after themselves without my Assistance and they NEED me to remain Well enough to Care for them properly and get them to their myriad of necessary Appointments.  I cannot do this when I'm extremely Sick and so that puts my entire Family Structure in jeopardy. This is exclusively why I practice Preventative Medicine because it's more than just being all about me.  I always make this very clear to my Health Care Providers.   My own Health and Well Being is vitally important for us all... so that the Caregiver is able to continue to do what I need to do so that my Loved Ones don't need 'Placement'... and believe me... that's a whole other Story I could go on an Epic Rant about, but I won't Today.  *Smiles*

Trying to have The Man and The G-Kid Force take Care of me is a tall order for them because of their Health, Mental Health and/or Age limitations, they aren't capable of it and so I'm SOL if I go down.   I know this and right now I'm in an SOL kinda 'Situation' where I still have to press on because there is no other choice regardless of how I 'Feel' or what I am Enduring.   And what I've been Enduring since Wednesday is excruciating Pain that I cannot even adequately describe!  From not only the Infection, which is like being on fire from the inside out and not being able to escape the flames... but also the Forty-Eight Hour changes of 'packing' the extremely ulcerated and tender lanced site to keep everything draining and hopefully Healing... and without the benefit of being numbed up or knocked out because I have to drive myself and not be too doped up to Care for everyone else!
It's times like this that I'm Exceedingly Grateful to my Dearly Departed Dad who raised us Old School Apache Style when it came to Endurance and over-riding Pain in a Natural way so that your tolerance is exceedingly high even during Suffering.   But though I'm no Coward, when I must Endure something fairly Constant with no Relief Date... and Procedures that make me Cry and want to Pass Out because I'm struggling to get thru them fully conscious and without strong drugs to dull the Agony... I just want it all to end as quickly as possible and not have to do it too much longer.

This has been an Ordeal... a Test like none other I've ever had to Experience and Get Through... and it was totally Unexpected.   Most days I don't want to do anything but stay in bed and try to Sleep it off if the Pain will ease up long enough to allow any Sleep.  What strong meds I have been given to take when I'm not driving and can catch a break in Caregiving, well, they haven't even taken the Edge off of this type of Pain, so it totally sucks.  We've had to Cancel or Modify every Special Holiday Plan and Activity we'd looked forward to during the Christmas Season now... and that makes me Angry as well as being extremely disappointed beyond words.

The Grandson was in his first ever Parade this past weekend and I was exceedingly Proud of him.  So tho' I felt absolutely dreadful I meticulously Planned it so that I went to the very tail end of the Parade Route and arrived just moments before his School Band walked by so that he'd be Surprised. He wasn't expecting me to be able to make it you see... and tho' he had said it was Okay, I could tell by his Countenance that it really wasn't Okay and he was just saying that for my benefit.  He beamed the moment he saw me and really came to Life in his Performance... he'd worked really, really hard for this Special Moment to Perform and it WAS a Big Deal.  I would have had to be on my literal Deathbed to miss this and let him down.
Capturing and Preserving the Moment in Time thru the Eye of my Lens was worth it... even tho' I stayed so briefly that it took more time to get there and find a place to park and stand than how long I was watching or Enjoying a Parade... I would have liked to of Experienced it Fully... but it was better than missing the whole thing.   That's how I'm feeling about this Holiday Season now, Experience what I can Salvage whilst Recovering... its Good for my Emotional State, which is at a particular low as I battle the Serious Health Implications suddenly impacting my Life.

Being a Diabetic my body is particularly vulnerable and High Risk when it comes to battling Infections and Healing without Complications... so this has been some very Serious Business and the Doctors have tried to be Encouraging yet also Keep it Real to what I'm facing.   I know that being Angry solves nothing... so I just acknowledged that I am Angry and upset... but must move past the Anger. And Hope that what has happened to me will ensure that Patient Safety and not being slack about Sterile Procedures is addressed so that it doesn't happen to anyone else, because it should never happen... I wouldn't want even an enemy to go thru something like this, I really wouldn't.

The G-Kid Force must still receive their Immunizations on Friday... and of coarse after what has happened to me they are afraid... and I am Concerned... so Trust and Believe I will be watching everything like a Hawk and insisting that things aren't prepared in another room where I can't see how and where everything is handled!   The only thing I am Glad about is that this happened to me and not one of my Loved Ones instead because I would have probably flipped out by now and gone on a major Rampage.  As Luck would have it, feeling this Sick I haven't had the Strength to go on an Epic Rampage, it just isn't appropriate for The Season after all!  *LOL*

And even tho' in many ways it is the worst of times... it is also the best of times... there's irony in that fact, but our Joy remains intact... just Adjusted considerably.   Having a sense of one's Mortality and the Fragility of Life and Circumstances turning on a dime has a way of making you all the more Appreciative you see of THIS Moment in Time given as a Gift.

I do so Enjoy Living in the Moment anyway... and the Gift that is Life... and Enjoying Good Health can be taken for Granted until you find yourself not able to.   So I realize this Holiday Season will be filled with Unexpected Health Challenges of my own now and I've got to find the way and the Spirit to Endure it with dignity and Grace... and Strength, because I've still got numerous Painful Procedures to Endure that I'd rather not have to, but must.

Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Friday, December 12, 2014

Winter Immunizations Are The Devil!

So... after already Ministering to a steady rotation of Sick G-Kids and The Man dropping like flies since the Weather has turned so unpredictable... and Tourists flooding into the Valley and ramping up the prospective numbers of Sick People you could be exposed to exponentially... I decided it was time for everyone to get their Winter Immunizations to avoid succumbing to serious Flu and Pneumonia.

As a Full Time Caregiver I cannot afford a Hospitalization since I don't have backup coverage for the Crew here to fill in for me... so it seemed like a Good Idea at the time.   Until the after effects reminded me that Winter Immunizations are the devil!   Now I've been feeling dreadful and can't hold my left arm up more than just a few inches... I've been spending more time sleeping and trying to recover than doing many of the Fun things I had planned this week... or ANY Housekeeping at all!

Of coarse there HAD to be Events I didn't wanna miss like my Monthly Pilgrimage to The Salvage Yard and our Dealer Christmas Party this week, so I put in a brief appearance at both and left prematurely since the shots certainly have taken the wind clear out of my sails and I'm left completely exhausted and not eager to do much but climb back into bed and try to sleep it off!

Even the Fur Babies seem to sense Human Mama looks and feels like Death warmed over... usually Miss Priss will scatter like I'm pointing a gun at her anytime I break out the camera and point it her way.  Instead, she seemed to give me the look that this could be my final request and she'd oblige a dying Woman?  *LOL*

See... I'll even Vogue and lie down for another shot and I think you should too coz you look simply dreadful she seems to be communicating thru her intent gaze at me!?   The Animals are much more Compassionate than the other Humans in the house.  I don't even have the strength to be aggravated by any of them tho'.   The Man feels equally miserable after his Immunizations and he's much frailer than I... and the Kiddos know they have to get their Immunizations next week and how the Old People are looking, so they're strenuously resisting the Plan!

Yes, initially for their sake we pretended it was no big deal... but clearly we weren't fooling anyone and they're not blind.   Plus, they're not used to seeing Gramma Sick, I'm usually the picture of Good Health, and now I appear like I could be circling the drain... so these Winter Immuniations are NOT looking like a Wise Idea to either of them.

Princess T has already been really, really sick and suffers from chronic Respiratory Issues, so it's not a matter of Choice for her, we are strongly advised by her Specialists to have it done for her and Grandpa since he has COPD.   The Young Prince isn't usually prone to Sickness, but this year he has been and was out of School again today, so I'm not taking any chances with him either.   Seems we're caught between the devil and the deep blue Sea on this one!

Remember my Plan to just Relax and Enjoy the Season now that I'd gotten everything necessary done?  Well, that's not happening clearly... tho' I am Thankful I got everything necessary done before I started to feel like this!  Otherwise it wouldn't have gotten done at all!

And when I'm Sick strange anomalies begin to happen around here... The Young Prince who in Teen Angst Fashion is typically resistant to eating Healthy or being cooked for suddenly NEEDS nutritious cooked foods and will practically stalk me as I'm lying there feeling like death in order to have a full coarse meal prepared!   Really, NOW you want and need what I'm always suggesting you ingest?  When you finally have the Golden Opportunity that Gramma doesn't care what you eat... or even if you eat... so long as you leave me alone!!!   *LOL*  So... at least while I'm feeling like this the Kid is eating like a Jack LaLane prodigy!  *Smiles*

And of coarse this is also the busiest time of the year for my Showroom Sales where I could make Bank if only I felt well enuf to drag some Inventory in there to replace what's being Sold... which I don't.   So stacks of Inventory are languishing everywhere and Name Your Own Price Sales are coming up that I probably won't participate in, in the flesh, if I can't feel better than this?!
 Dammit, this is precisely why I thought I NEEDED these damn Immunizations folks... so that during the Holidays I'd remain a picture of Health, so I could keep on track and not succumb to illness or catch whatever the trio drags Home from School and their endless Hospital and Doctor Appointments.   Coz we all know Hospitals and Doctor's Offices are where all the Sickest people congregate!   And Kiddos bounce back way quicker than us Seniors... so it seemed like a Bright Idea!?!  *LOL*

And next week we have a slew of Appointments I can't put off since it involves the G-Kid Force's Health and Well Being so I'm trying to psyche myself into a speedier recovery from whatever these shots were supposed to give me resistance to.   I'm thinking if this is a mild dose of whatever is going around I certainly wouldn't have wanted a strong dose of it that's for sure... I couldn't Imagine feeling any worse than I do right now!

And I'm taking short bursts of getting things done around this Old House for when the Kiddos Caseworkers come by next week... but its taking SO long to get even the smallest housekeeping chores done... Thankfully I have Princess T and she's gone into Merry Maid Mode to try to help Gramma out... the Guys are Hopeless at it and their version of an Orderly and Tidy Home is a far cry from mine!

Of coarse Prince R looked around at the disaster it all is and says that perhaps now I might be able to get some respite and resources I've been asking for forever and a day when they see our Home wrecked when I'm not feeling Well enough to have it be as they usually see it?   I'm not so sure or confident about that so I don't wanna take that risk frankly... I've GOT to run damage control before Monday so I've got three days to pull it together and hold it down, regardless of how I Feel.

And another anomaly that happens when I can't get to the Showrooms and keep them stocked up and looking nice... more stuff Sells that's already there and looking like a Hot Mess!  Go Figure... sometimes I think that if everything looks Curated and Styled the Customers either think everything is too expensive or they don't wanna mess things up, I dunno?   Maybe they just like to dig and think they'll find Hidden Treasures?

During the Dealer Christmas Party I saw that one Showroom had all the Mannequin Heads laying everywhere like they'd had a Wild Off-The-Hook Mannequin Party or something in my absence... and I didn't bother to pick them up... I just couldn't really Care... that's how awful I was Feeling and wanted to just get Home after the Family had eaten their fill of the delicious Meal prepared for us all.   And wouldn't you know that in the carnage some of the Gals Sold!   Crazy... maybe they just looked like a whole lot more Fun and Attractive in a 'Day After Intense Party Mode'?  *Winks*

And there's very little Vintage Christmas left now and I'm not even gonna bother to re-stock it this late in the game...  I figure that unless anyone Feels worse than I do right now they probably already have all their Christmas Decorating done already?

But I still tell The Man that how we Feel right now is probably better than the Risk Factor of succumbing to the full blown Flu going around or Pneumonia and ending up Hospitalized or worse.  Especially keeping ME out of the Hospital since that would probably put the entire Trio in Social Services Care until I could get out... or have to ask extended Family to make a hasty Road Trip during the Holidays to cover for me... which I'd feel terrible wrecking their Holiday Plans and creating such an Imposition.

So... even tho' I strongly feel that Winter Immunizations are the devil and a necessary evil sometimes... it's still probably a good thing that we chose to endure the after-effects of having them rather than risking the potential alternative.   Now... I'm gonna go lay back down in my Sickbed my Friends... until I have to pick The Princess up from School wearing my Pajamas!  *LOL*  The Young Prince was Home Sick again Today so at least it halved my trips out to drop off and pick up Kiddos on a School Day... should I feel Wrong for being Grateful for that I Wonder?   Or for telling Potential Holiday House Guests to stay away for now til we're all sufficiently Resurrected...  I dunno... *Smiles*

Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

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