Still Imagining Living The Whole Dream

 I'll know if Princess T bought a Car by Saturday Afternoon.  Then she has to learn to Drive.  It will give her more Independence to have her own Vehicle and be a Driver, but I wanted her to do it in her own Timing when she felt ready to.  Her Friends have been Driving since their Teens, but she has Anxiety Issues and wasn't keen on Driving.  But she knows it will be Helpful to me to have a 2nd Vehicle and another Driver in the Family, and free me up from providing her transportation to and from Work too.  Plus, she can look for a better Job if she doesn't have limitations on her own transportation.  She likes where she works but it's minimum wage and now she's not even getting full hours anymore either.  With people who are good Workers being constantly Fired, she just feels there's also no Job Security for being a good Worker, it doesn't seem to matter.

Anyway, the Manager of the Dollar Store did contact The Son and said they're just waiting on a Background Check and he'll probably start.  It's also only Part Time and minimum wage, so it will be temporary until something in the Trades opens up and hires again for him.  And, until he gets a reliable Vehicle.  He Sold his untitled Celica to a Scrapyard last Week and is thinking of Selling his Car that just needs too much work, he's tired of sinking more Money into it, it's an Older Malibu and has had issues with it from the purchase of it.  But, it was what he could afford to pay Cash for at the time and I'm hopeful whatever Princess T pays Cash for isn't just a Money Pit Older Vehicle?  Her Boyfriend is a Mechanic and can fix it up, so, that's Helpful, she doesn't want a Vehicle payment and Car Debt, which, I don't blame her, too expensive Monthly, Interest Rates are High, and Employment isn't very stable for anyone right now.

I stocked up on Essentials/Perishables, I have nothing on the Calendar for Saturday, but Sunday The Daughter has a Cleaning Job in Chandler again.  The Man was complaining by Friday Night that he felt 'funny', and went to Bed real early.  I don't know if he was vying for attention coz I'd been having a Medical Emergency that day and had to be sidelined from giving him any attention?  You just never can be sure with him, when he's not the focus of being the center of attention, he'll sometimes act up like a Kid will to get the attention back on himself.  I told him I am supposed to reduce my Stress levels, so unless he was having a REAL Medical Emergency, just go to Bed.   And he did, and is Sleeping like a Baby, so I think it was more for the attention.  Coz he couldn't say what was Wrong or what he meant by feeling 'funny', with no specifics, it was probably a bid for attention by saying something to get a reaction and heightened focus on him.  *Eye Roll and Le Sigh*

I just don't have it in me to play that Game, and I didn't even have it in me to spend another half of the entire Day and wee Hours of the Morning taking him to an ER again.  Especially if it's a false alarm and he's just making shit up.  I know he doesn't feel Great, but everything is checking out okay enuf for him to be Home and not Hospitalized or needing Emergency Treatment.   His Blood Pressure has been excellent lately, which is a big improvement coz usually it's either sky high or dangerously low, it's normal right now and has been for Days.  Enuf so he doesn't even need to take his Blood Pressure Meds for it.  His Sugar Readings have been Normal too, probably better than mine actually.  His Oxygen saturation has been Normal as well when they check it, and his clogged Arteries have been Stented and are now open and his Heart is Healing now it's working more efficiently.

But, I can't be taking him places coz he's not up to that yet and needs to strengthen himself from that Heart Attack, which, will take Time and Work on his part with the PT.   And tho' he's doing it, I know he's impatient to put in the Work for as long as it might take to get back up to Speed.  I reminded him how many Months I had to Work hard on Coming Back after my Stroke last December, I had to put in the Work on the Daily to have a decent Recovery.   I made as close to a complete one as you can have after a Stroke, so I was fortunate, but it was a lot of Work and tenacity to attain that, it didn't just happen.  Nobody could do that Work FOR me.  And nobody can do that Work FOR him to Recover, he's got to put in the Work himself and we'll assist him and encourage him, but we can't do it FOR him.   

How hard he Works at it determines how far he takes it and attains what's possible.  Even if it's deemed impossible, we've done the impossible before.  It's only impossible until somebody does it.  I watched some Comedy on Cable to unwind Tonight, but I think I'll still go to Bed early, coz my Chest still hurts and actually De-Stressing when everything is constantly Stressful and intense, isn't as easy as just wanting or trying to manage it.  It's like folks telling Caregivers to take more Time for Caring for themselves, easier just said than actually put into practice and done.  It's not like you get Time Off or Vacations like if it was a Paid Job on a specific Shift with a starting time and ending time to said Shift, it's all the time, 24-7 and 365 without Benefits, Pay, or Staff/Co-Workers.  I'm fortunate I do have some Family here who can help out some, but it's overwhelming them already and they all have their own Issues going on.

 If something happens to me first, there is not even one of them that could take Care of The Man and become his Full Time Caregiver in my place and absence.  We all know this and it's scary for them to contemplate, so when I start not doing Well, everyone gets very Stressed Out and panicky.  Literally everything would have to be liquidated in order for him to qualify for any Services or Placement.  And he's been refused Placement before due to the level of Care he requires.  Facilities don't wanna take him, not even at the VA Long Term Care Facilities, which, he should have Earned a Placement at.  Anyway, I try not to even Think upon such Dark Realities.  Too depressing and too much to unpack or even contemplate again, seems Hopeless and with no Happy Endings.  We went thru all that shit Years ago, when he initially had his TBI after his Catastrophic Accident, and gave me a Mental Breakdown.  Which got me that Interesting Week's Vacay in Psyche Lockdown involuntarily.  *Winks*

There are times I do Wonder, did I actually Recover from THAT?  Or have I just been Coasting Along on Auto Pilot since then pretending to be Sane?   *LOL, it's Subjective, you don't have to Answer.*  Things are never the same and so you never Feel quite the same again.   I don't wanna revisit a Dark Period like that again and so try to not Mentally Unravel completely again or drop Dead from the Stress.   The latter would at least finalize it all for me, but leave the Family in real Crisis then, all of them, and I can't Want that for them.  Otherwise I wouldn't actually Care what happens or attempt to avoid it happening.  And that's the Dark Space I don't wanna Hold, so, Moving On.  Coz I don't wanna Hold that much Darkness for long.  Things at Home have settled down to a reasonable semblance of Order and relative Tidiness, tolerable enuf now.

Sayde has been coming over a lot so The Young Prince has his Bestie and that's improved his overall State of Being.  We Like Sayde and glad they reconnected.  She and Allen didn't get along.  I've been spelling her Name Wrong and only found out when I got a suggested Friend Request.  *LOL*  I don't initiate those kinds of 'suggestions' by FB, if someone sends me a request and they are someone I want to reciprocate with on Social Media, I Accept.  If I find a long lost Friend via Social Media I'll always send a Private Message first or they will if they manage to find me first.  I've kept my Friends List short and sweet, with my Page Private, you can access my Blog but not my FB Page unless Invited specifically.  I like it that way so I don't get lots of unnecessary Feed.  If someone sends too much crap to me on Social Media, I block them.  Don't send me Candy Crush requests or drag me into Personal Drama.  *LOL*  I'm always amazed at the in-fighting on Social Media between Family and/or Friends, in a Word... Why?

I finally ran into my Old Friend Charles on The Book of Faces and shot him off a Friend Request.  Hadn't seen him but a few times since his Dear Wife CeeCee Died, apparently he's remained Single.  They used to own the most Charming Restaurant and Antique Shop in a Historic Home in Glendale called "CeeCees on the Corner" and that's how I met them, then they became Vendors at our Antique Mall too for Years.  They lived on the Property coz it was such a unique Old Home with a Garden that Charles grew the most Amazing Roses and other Landscaping on, he's got the Greenest Thumb ever.  You should see it now tho', they had to Sell when CeeCee was Dying, she went Blind first, then became Wheelchair bound and Charles was her Devoted Caregiver for Years until she succumbed to her Illness.  They both were so knowledgeable about the Industry, but Charles just quit when CeeCee Died, the Thrill was gone for him he'd said, last time I saw him at the Antique Mall Years ago.  It's good to see him looking good and still local.

I'm doing a load of Laundry and tho' it's gorgeous outside, I'm loathe to drive much with the price of Gas.  The ripple effect of transportation Costs to Citizens and Businesses is gonna be far reaching and cost the Health of the Economy and affordability considerably on everything, both essentials and non-essentials.  I just can't afford to drop damned near a Hundred Bucks to fill up my Tank very often.  My Budget is already strained to the maximum and I'm thrifty and not reckless with finances.  I'm trying to Save $$$ where ever I can cut back and stretch it further, but, there's only so much you can do with a Fixed Income.  Sales are Flat at the Antique Mall so no discretionary income came in for this Fortnite, I ended up owing a little less than Two Bucks to the Mall, even tho' I Sold items AND Worked a Shift!!!  Es No Bueno.  

Nobody there is gonna do that for long before Tapping Out and leaving.  We're having a Vendor Exodus of those doing way worse and in the Hole considerably.  My Losses have been minimal, but I can't depend on that and I want NO Losses, I'm there to Make Money, not Lose Money.   And I Need Income Supplements to make the Ends Meet anymore as Inflation is going up far beyond any Cost of Living Increases us Retired Folks might get.  Usually when I get one my Medicare Premiums go up to eat it up anyway, so there's no actual Benefit to having a COLA, to me, just to my Insurance Provider getting it all.  The Government is giving it with One Hand and taking it back with another, thinking we don't notice the Sleight of Hand.   We're not Stupid just coz we got Old.  Well, some of us, Stupid does seem to be abounding, I ain't gonna Lie, I'm amazed at the level of Stupidity and running of Low Information out there Collectively!!!

While at the Dollar Store I ran into a Gal I'd met Years ago who had a Disabled Veteran Husband and an Autistic Adult Son and she recognized me and called out my Name.  She hadn't seen me in Years, we'd met Years ago Junquing at various Chazzas and struck up conversations every time we saw each other.  Well, Sadly her Husband has passed away now, she'd been his Full Time Unpaid Caregiver, he'd Served in Vietnam too and like The Man, many of his ailments were from exposure to Agent Orange.  So she told me to make sure the VA Documents that coz she wasn't aware until her Husband Passed that she'd be compensated for it and should have been while he was still Alive!!!  We've filled out VA Paperwork before about The Man's exposure to not only Agent Orange in Vietnam, but Toxic Chemical exposure our Troops had during all the Middle East Conflicts that The Man also was in and exposed to that our Government used.  She said it's a considerable amount of Money, so, look into it.

She was amazed that The Man was still Alive and I joked and said all his Doctors are too.  He's like a Timex Watch, takes a lickin' and keeps on tickin'.  It was important she said to know what to do when Heaven Forbid your Loved One passes and is owed this compensation coz nobody volunteers this information to the Families.  To me it's shameful that they don't, but I can't say I'm surprised, no information is ever volunteered about anything, you have to find out for yourself some kind of way and then fight for what you're Entitled to receive!  Her Autistic Son is on SSI and she gets a Caregiver Stipend Monthly too, so he must be worse off than our Son on the Spectrum?   She said I should request a Caregiver Stipend for being The Young Prince's Caregiver when and if Social Security gets around to his Case.  I had heard I should receive one for Caring for a Disabled Adult Child or Grandchild.  Unlike being a Spouse which disqualifies you from receiving one to Care for a Husband or Wife whose Disabled.

Anyway, Serendipity like that always wows me... with chance meetings you are meant to just have, what are the Odds?  The Daughter came Home and Cleaned and Organized the whole Kitchen and Fridge for me.  The Job she had was helping her Friend Jennifer set up the Home Hospice for Jennifer's Mom so that she can Die at Home.  Hospice delivered the Special Bed and everything, but they had to get everything ready and her Mom situated.  The Daughter said most of the Family is not handling it well so they really needed some Present Help.  Another Friend drove her Home, who'd also been helping Jennifer's Family.  The Mom didn't want them to leave coz they'd been so Calming and getting everything done without Emotionally unraveling.  But, they're not related so it's easier to Deal with when it's not your own Loved One Dying.  Both of them had to leave Today tho' coz The Daughter had no other Ride Home and has that Job in Chandler Tomorrow Morning.

I went to another "Dollar Tree" to get what ours didn't have.  So, now I got everything I'd needed from there.  And we've watched a Sci-Fi Movie and Amber brought over some Green Chile and Cheese Tamales, they were delicious.   She was on her way to Work so just dropped them off on her way there.  And she heated one up for The Man and I, Bless her, she's like a Niece to us too and we've known her since she was a Kid.  She and The Daughter have been BFF's since they were in Grade School and her Family used to live on the same Street as us back then when all our Kids were Small and when I first Married The Man and we bought that Property.  Then Sold it, and bought the Historic Property.  Her Family bought another Property too and still live there.  Then we bought the Villa McManse, and now this Property, but kept in touch with a lot of our Friends from the Old Neighborhoods.

But if I do lose Touch with someone it's hard to locate them again even with Social Media becoz I don't always know anyone's last Names.  Even if I've known them for Decades!  I don't know if that's unusual?  But, I have no Need to know your Last Names usually and most of my Friends don't know my Last Name either.   I don't use our Surname on my Social Media anyway, on purpose, to make it harder to Find me, sometimes I just don't wanna be Found, you know?  There's People from the Past that just Need to stay in the Past and I have no desire to reconnect with at all.  Plus, tho' I Blog about everything, in Real Life we prefer to be more Private, I know, that's Weird, to have such a dichotomy, but Blogging is different than Real Life.  

I have Blog Friends who have Secrets in Real Life that nobody knows, but their Blog Community knows.   For example, I know a couple of Trans Bloggers who only in this Safe Community anyone knows that side of their Life, and accepts them unconditionally, in Real Life, nobody knows and it could cause problems for them.   It's Sad that Society can't be more accepting and inclusive like The Land Of Blog Community is, but, it isn't.   And so some folks can't be as transparent in Real Life as they can be on their Blogs.   Some don't even want their Real Life Circles to know about their Blogs.   Quite a few of my Real Life connections know I Blog and most of them just never Read Blogs and would never come here anyway, even tho' they know me well in Real Life... or think they do.  *Winks*   And, some of my Best Friends in Real Life have never visited a Blog, not mine, not anyone else's either, and probably never will.

And some Blog Friends eventually met me in Real Life and we became really good Real Life Friends too.  It's actually easier to become close to those you meet via this Community coz you've already Shared so much... and probably spent more 'Time' together Online than anyone does in Real Life.   Some of you visit your Blog Friends almost Daily, whereas in Real Life you probably don't do that, I know I don't.  Most of the folks I know in Real Life I'm Lucky if I'd have contact with you Once a Month... but a fav Blog and Blogger I may visit quite often.  And I Blog Daily usually, it's my Creative Space for right now and I enjoy just doing it with consistency.   I don't Talk much to anyone in Real Life so this is where my Stream of Consciousness can be released and I can Say some Stuff in the Written Content of Blogging.  And Share more of what I'm doing in the Visual Imagery too.  In Real Life most folks have no idea what I'd be doing on any given day and I'd never even Talk about it or Share the Pixs.

I do think in Real Life most folks aren't Socializing much anymore anyway, they just don't have the Luxury of Time to do it.  Life is too full, too busy, too hectic, too demanding of them to.   We watched "The Silence Of The Lambs"  {1991} again, it's a Cult Classic.  I didn't enjoy the Sequels as much as the Original tho', especially when they replaced the Clarice Character of Jodie Foster with Julianne Moore.  I don't know why Foster declined to reprise her Role, I think it would have been better with her in it.  Not that I don't like Julianne Moore, but I don't like replacement Iconic Characters as a rule.   But I did like "Hannibal" Series {2013} 39 Episodes with Mads Mikkelsen, coz he played the Lead Character of Hannibal Lecter as well as Anthony Hopkins had, which was a tough Act to follow coz Hopkins was superb in his Role.  And I didn't mind the replacement, which is rare for me, even tho' I always think of Hopkins as the Character, Mikkelsen did it superbly too.

I don't know if Princess T ended up buying a Car or not, she hasn't come Home and I probably won't see her 'til Monday Morning now.   The Suspense was killing me tho' so I called her and she said, yep, they got the Car and her Boyfriend Negotiated it down by $400 and it does run.  So, I'm delighted for her and if it needs any fixing up or Work her Boyfriend will do all of that for her too.  Can't wait to see it, and then of coarse she needs to learn to Drive.  She'd been Fixated on getting a Celica and her Uncle had one but it didn't have a Title and wasn't in the best shape so he didn't wanna Sell it to her.  He Sold it for parts to a Salvage Broker instead since the older Celica's are desirable Vintage Vehicles.  She Loves the Lines of the Model and it is Sporty.  She didn't go way back to a 1970's Model, but the Model she got is older than her.  I wanna say she said it's a 2001.  I don't know what Color or Mileage, the Model has very good reviews, higher than most used Vehicles. 

I'm delighted for her and she got such a good Deal on it that she has plenty of her Money she's Saved left over and really didn't make a dent in what she'd Saved Up for a Used First Car.  I remember how Proud I was when I bought my 1st Car, it was a 1973 Orange and White Maverick Grabber and I bought it off my Dad and paid more back then than she paid for this 1st Car actually, so, she did good.  I also bought Vintage Mustangs too, and made Money buying and Selling them coz back then my Brother used to fix them up and Resell them as well, we both liked the Mustangs of the 1960's and 1970's.   I also had a 1966 Mustang that was Silver and 1970 Mustang Mach 1 in Green with Black Racing Stripes.  I had to Sell the Mach 1 when I got preggy with The Daughter coz the Seats were low and practically on the floor so rolling out of one when you're 8 Months Pregnant was difficult.  *LOL*  I dated an Italian American Professional Racecar Driver who had a 1968 Shelby Mustang, damn was it fast!  They're still worth around $170,000.

I always liked the Old Muscle Cars and so did The Man when he was Younger.   He had a 1960's Super Sport at the time he had to go to Vietnam, left it with a Family Member to hold for him and they Sold it by the time he did his Two consecutive Vietnam Tours of Duty.  They're still worth around $70,000-$112,000.  Arizona has a lot of Vintage and Classic Cars in excellent condition coz they don't Rust out here.   Some of our Neighbors in our Mini Farms Community are Serious Vintage and Classic Car Collectors and have some really spectacular ones in their Collections.   Some have Vintage Airstream Trailers too that I Lust over.  *Smiles*  It is still on my Bucket List to own a Vintage Airstream and Pimp that Pull.   I would have Loved to have bought the Vintage Airstream that "Magnolia Pearl" had and Sold.  {See Below}  I would have just given the Kids the House and Lived in here on the Acreage.  *LOL*

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Still Imagining Living the Whole Dream... Dawn... The Bohemian

My Trip To Urgent Care Now...

 

There's a Monthly Event I attend that has Opening Day Today in Real Time and I can't drum up the enthusiasm to get out of my jammies yet to head Downtown to it.  *Le Sigh*  Just crawling back in Bed or Blogging is feeling preferable at the moment.  And, a big Storm looks like it's rolling in and I feel congested becoz of it and whatever is hanging in the Air.  Ugh.  I saw the Sneak Peeks and was underwhelmed, but that happened last Month to and yet when I attended it was better than what they'd enticed us with on Social Media Sneak Peeks, it happens.  So, I should go, it's a Me Day I really need given what the rest of the Month's Calendar looks like.

I'll probably go but I don't know I'll arrive early enuf for good Parking at this rate of ambivalence and lack of motivation.  And there's nothing I Need to Buy and no real Retail Therapy Budget, Sales for the last Pay Period at the Antique Mall Flatlined to where I Owed... only just under Two Dollars... but, that means no Check.  I Worked and I Sold stuff, so that also means a Loss of really more than the One Dollar and some Cents I will let ride and carry over that I Owe them for Rent.  *Le Sigh*  This Pay Period started out Stronger, so all Body Parts Crossed it makes up for the flatlined Pay Period before it?  A new Big Antique Mall Opening won't be Helpful, Customers are likely to now go there.

I hear it's really nice and some of my Vendor and other Industry Friends already procured Spaces at the new Mall.  I don't have it in me to set up New Space and go somewhere unknown and New.  Better the Devils you know than the Devils you don't as my Nanna always used to tell me.  I know what to expect at our Antique Mall and have been there since the very beginning when they just Opened.  I had their first Sale to another Vendor before they even Opened or had their Point Of Sale up and running!  Bragging Rights to that.  *Winks*  And, I do have Customers who are my Regulars and know where to find me there.  One of my Fav Customers and her Two Daughters came in last Night while I Worked.

Everyone Working this Shift didn't show up for Wednesday Night, so all of us were filling in for someone else!!!   This is happening a LOT... a whole Shift will call in or just not show up and they have to scramble to fill it with us Fill-Ins covering for whose not there who should be.  So, all Three of us Working it were not Regulars and none of us have a permanent Shift.  Some of the Ladies even have Big Girl Jobs so they said they can't always accept a Shift if it conflicts with their Real Job.  One works at a Wal-Mart doing the Personal Shopping for those who get their Product Delivered or just come and pick it up when it's ready.  She really likes doing that, being a Personal Shopper.  I think I'd like that kind of Work too.

Both Ladies were Older and really Nice, I didn't know them before Last Night's Shift and we worked very well together.  They Need good Workers like them for the permanent Shifts actually, instead of Slackers and those who aren't reliable or very committed to their obligations.  It was pretty busy for a Wednesday Night, but mostly folks buying Pokemon.  I Sold all the Pokemon Merch out of my Locked Case within Days of bringing it in.  I had a New Old Stock Pokemon Digital Watch, a Pokemon Backpack and a Pokemon Beanie... got good Margins on all of it coz the Pokemon People don't haggle, they pay whatever the Price is without a blink of the Eye.  Even Stratospherically Priced Pokemon!  Some Boxes of Cards are $125-$400, I kid you not!   I can Buy this Retro 1940's-1950's Era Dining Table and Chairs {Below} for only $295!  Or the Lucite 1960's-1970's Era one {Further Below} for only $200!  My Vendor Friend John that I ran into at the "Goodwill" recently is selling the Set Below:

I Wish I'd of Invented Pokemon, I'd be a Made Woman now!  *LOL*  And the Pokemon People are such Nice Customers, mostly Young Adult Males, but they're very Serious Consummate Collectors of it and some have been for over 20 Years now.  You forget sometimes that Pokemon has been around a Vintage amount of Time!!!   Since February of 1996!!!  Our Son Collected it and then handed his Collections down to The G-Kid Force and they Collected it.  None of them are Passionate about it now, they prefer Anime Product and Collect that now.  Anime is also Big, if I have any, it Sells right away.   Of coarse the 1st Anime came out in February of 1986 so it's been out a Decade longer than Pokemon.  The Son Collected that before any of his Peers got into it and when it was hard to get it from Japan and here in the U.S..

Anyway, Work was Okay but I was disappointed I'm not getting any Profits or a Check for this past Pay Period.  It would have been Helpful with the Price of everything Essential going up so much.  Every time I fill up with Gas I'm having to re-calculate Budget and then evaluate where I should drive anywhere not absolutely Necessary?  I Hate that, I like the Freedom to do Unnecessary things in Retirement, it's how Retirement is meant to be IMO.  It's aggravating enuf it's filled with so much Medical shit and Appointments for Social Services that The Family really Need, which takes up the hugest portion of my Time.  So I don't have a lot of Free Time or Me Time to actually enjoy Retirement.   And I see most Seniors I know are in the same Boat and have to Work some Supplemental Income Hustles to make their Ends Meet now too.  Many are still Working Full Time Jobs well past Retirement Age coz they simply HAVE to now.  Even if they're Octogenarians and not in great Health!!!

 You now must Work 'til you literally Drop Dead in this Economy that's Failing us Regular Americans.  Only the Obscenely Wealthy don't have to Work or Earn their Fortunes and just run their Grifts off the rest of us and not pay Taxes on their Income or Wealth either.   And, I still kinda hafta Work off and on to Supplement a Fixed Income to make ends meet.  I don't mind Working, but, I don't feel like I should HAVE to for purely Financial Existence Reasons.  Our Pensions, Social Security and his Disability Income don't always cover expenses so I have to find other streams of Supplemental Income now.   To ensure we all Three Generations can Exist in One Household and have the Essentials like Shelter, Food, Water, Utilities, Transportation, Medical Needs met, Emergency Funds for any Crisis that comes up, Preventative Maintenance on Home and Vehicle or Repairs when they come up.  It's a big drain now financially and every regular Income American is Feeling it all the more now.  Yes, First World Problems, but Problematic nonetheless.

I did Buy myself something Special for Mother's Day coz I don't expect anything, The Family, except for Princess T, is broke.   I put it on a Credit Card and will pay it off in increments, coz if I don't deserve it, who does?  *Bwahahahaha*  Princess T may be Buying her first Car this Weekend, we're all going to look at a Celica she wants to possibly Buy.  It's Vintage, Older than her actually, but Rusty negotiated a good price on it for her and he can work on the Older Vehicles.  So any work it needs he can do for her at no cost to her.  *Winks, Boyfriend Mechanic Perk*  His Dad even has a Tow Truck lined up in case they can't drive it away.  Rusty's Family often Buy Cars, fix 'em up, and flip em for Profit.  It's a Mexican MacGuyver Thing.  *Bwahahaha*  The Son and I are going to ensure the Kiddos are Safe at the Transaction, so, The Son is The Muscle, coz the Kids have Cash.

I don't like Kids in their 20's trying to handle Business if they're carrying a fair amount of Cash to do it.  It's just Risky and with The Son and I going along a whole lot less Risk coz we will go Full On Hood if the Seller ends up being a Problem or a Stickup Scammer pretending to Privately Sell something.  Listen, it happens, but Dealerships now have no Good Deals on Used Vehicles, they're all priced in the Stratosphere where to pay Cash for one you better have in excess of Twenty or Thirty Grand, and Tariffs and Taxes are The Devil for all Major Purchases now too.  Forget about it, better to get something Privately so that it's affordable if you don't wanna Finance and have Vehicle Payments.  Princess T wants no Bad Debt like Vehicle or Credit Card Debt.  I'm glad she's a Young Person not already getting deeply into Debt and good with Money Management and disciplined at Saving.

I'd be Debt Free if everything had worked out as Planned, but Life Happens, Shit Happens, so, I've had to reluctantly come to Terms with having a heavy Debt Load in Retirement due to circumstances that were all beyond my Control and became necessary.  I didn't Plan for The Man to be Medically Retired, I didn't Plan to have to take Early Retirement to become his Unpaid Caregiver as my main full time "Job".  I didn't Plan to Raise nor Adopt Two Grandchildren, I didn't Plan to have to give up my Paid Off Home to get them Adopted and take on expensive Mortgages again.  I didn't Plan to move Three times in less than Six Years and have that expense, anyone whose done a Major Move can tell you that it costs as much as what Buying a Home used to Cost!!!  And the Cost of each Home went up exponentially... I paid $49,000 to $385,000 to $488,000 respectively!  Granted the one in the Middle was a Million Dollar Property but the Luxury Home Market had Crashed and devalued by a LOT and never has Recovered.

I didn't Plan for all the Adult Children to Need to come back Home and find Space for them all here, after Downsizing livable Space, and also need our Financial Support.   I didn't Plan for my Paid Off Vehicle to be the one The Man had his catastrophic Accident in that Totaled it, and so now have another expensive Vehicle Payment, when Vehicles now Cost what a Home used to Cost.  I didn't Plan to have to buy a 5th Wheel to House extra Family here, but we thought we were going to have to Raise Three more Grandkids when the Paternal Grandmother Died and left them without anyone.  I didn't Plan for so many expensive Home Repairs at the Villa McManse and this Property, major outlays for shit like Air Conditioners, Water Heaters, Water Softeners, Major Appliances, Ductwork, Pool Equipment replacement.  It's always something now to have to Finance every 5 Years or so!  I don't even expect to be Debt Free and pay everything off anymore now.  It would take a Lottery Win to.

 The Historic Home was over a Century Old but never required this much Maintenance for shit that doesn't hold up or last more than 7-10 Years, they built everything to LAST a Century ago.  Now it's Designed NOT to last, so you have to perpetually Replace it rather than be able to Repair it, and it's never inexpensive regardless of not holding up very long.  Every time you replace just an Air Conditioning Unit it's Five to Ten Grand depending on what that Home requires!!!   The replacement of the whole Ductwork System in this 1980 Home, coz the Original one was now like Swiss Cheese, cost me $36,000!   That's damned near what it cost me to Buy the Historic Home and only slightly less than what a New Vehicle now costs ya too!!!  The 5th Wheel cost me more than the Historic Home had cost me in 2000... a 5th Wheel will set you back around $65,000-$125,000 now!!! 

  So, do the Math.  I'm just fortunate I got a 2% Interest Rate on this Mortgage coz Homes in Arizona are right around Half a Mil now.  They are saying that to afford a Mortgage in Arizona now you should make a Minimum of $59 an Hour!!!   I don't even know anyone making that much working in Arizona at the vast majority of Jobs.  Most People aren't even getting Full Hours either now and the Unemployment Rate is as high as I've ever seen it.   Coz those New Jobs that the Media report that the Government/Administration say exist every Month, and Parade Out as if they are Real Jobs to make their Numbers look Good, either aren't paying Livable Wages or aren't Full Time, and most are Ghost Jobs saying they're Hiring to Appeal to Investors and look a lot healthier than they are, but really aren't Hiring at all.   The Son can't even find Part Time Minimum Wage Work to temporarily Settle for so he has any Income!   He's Applied at them all, doesn't even get an Interview or Callback!  The Niece had the same problem and she's an I.T. Guru and Genius Computer Programmer!

 And some of the Shit that AI is now doing at an accelerated pace, and according to AI Company Execs and Designers of it, is some REAL Scary shit they didn't even know AI could do or become Self Aware of by itself!!!  It's outsmarted it's Human Designers by far now, outsmarting any Human in fact, and is finding Human Flaws and exploiting them already, especially in the Realm of National Security.  And tho' the Geeks might be getting a little excited it's doing things they never fathomed it could do on it's own, I think that's some scary shit and a slippery slope where Humanity is now in way over our Heads with this Artificial Intelligence which is way smarter than we ever could have Imagined it would be and it's Learning FAST and become Self-Aware, like it thinks it is a Human counterpart.  The Sci-Fi Apocalyptic Shows weren't far off about Warning us of The Machines taking over.   And us Humans are quickly becoming Obsolete and Unnecessary to the Wealthy... except as their perverse Playthings that is.

And now for some Food Porn since, enuf of the Doom N Gloom, let's have some Comfort Food shall we... Eat, Drink, and be Merry, for Tomorrow we shall all mebbe Die!!!   So, I'm Down with that, ain't got Nothing left to Lose.  LATER:  Well, I got my Ass in gear, got dressed up and went to the Event, it was a really good one.  I got a Holy Mother Labradorite Carved Stone and Sterling Silver Necklace from my Talented Artisan Friend Cyndie.  Hadn't intended to get Jewelry, but OMG it is Ahhmazing, especially when Sunlight hits the Labradorite Stone, which is quite large and Beautifully Carved Mother Mary, resembling a Virgin Of Guadalupe Image of her.  The Silver she's encased in is also a Party In the Back coz it's very Ornate Silver. 

 I also got a Decor Book I've wanted, it was the last one left and I've not been able to find a Used one Online so I finally relented and paid Full Retail for it.   And when you can find it Online it's 2x to 5x more expensive than it was Retail.  I went to the Native American Owned "Fry Bread House" for Lunch and had some Fry Bread with Grilled Veggie Medley, delicious.  I'd missed Breakfast so this was more a Brunch than a Lunch Meal.  And all my Industry Friends were asking about The Man and how he's doing, everyone has been Prayerful about his continued Healing, even my Pagan Friends.  On the way Home I stopped by "Sprouts" for Essential Groceries and everything I Needed was on Sale, so I was jazzed.  Deep Discounts too, so it save me a lot of Money.  I got Home JUST in time to pick Princess T up from Work.  One of her Male Co-Worker Friends got Fired, so she was wondering what happened to him, he didn't inform anyone.

Of coarse she herself has been on Notice before due to Attendance when she gets Sickly, and she has Chronic Health Problems, so someone can be a good Worker and still end up being let go these days for inflexible Policy.   It's Minimum Wage Work so I Hope he finds something better that is more a Career Path than just a Job that won't even Support you.  As one Door closes, another usually opens.  All the Young People who work there are so nice and good Workers, so they'll be an Asset anywhere they go.  I had a very good day after all once I Motivated myself, and Traffic wasn't too bad going in to the City or coming back, but it was getting heavy coming in to the City by the time I was coming back from the Inner City.  So my Timing beat a lot of Rush Hour Gridlock.

One of the Jewelry Designers told me it would be her last Weekend at the Event, Sad to see her go, I would like one day to get a piece of her Work.  She said she'd be at "Junk In The Trunk" but I only went there once Years ago and Honestly wasn't my Jam.  Too crowded, too many Vendors who weren't Selling what I'd ever Buy, you have to pay to get in, and Parking was a problem.  So it's been a Hard Pass ever since even tho' it is a very Popular Event and many of my Industry Friends are a part of it and do well there.  Anyway, at this Event I did get loads of Blog Fodder Imagery, got to Socialize quite a bit, which was nice, even some Random Nice Customers Socialized with me, which was a Surprise.  They liked how I Smelled and what I was Wearing and that initiates conversation when you get a Sincere Compliment like that.

It also is Advertisement for my Friends who I Buy from so I can tell these New People where I got it and from Whom, so they can check out the Designer for themselves.  Most of mine is OOAK Pieces but the Designers make lots of lovely Pieces and they'd be sure to find something equally nice.  And some of the Statement Piece Clothing isn't OOAK and is part of a Line where they could get one like it.  My Mothers Day Pressy to myself came Today too, it's even better than I thought it would be.  It's a very Early Magnolia Pearl Backpack made with Vintage and Antique Fabrics, Vintage Jewelry, and Two whole Minks, I LOVE it!!!  I squealed like a Schoolgirl when I saw how much better it was than it's Photos!  And I got it at a Price way lower than even the Earliest Pieces ever Cost, so I couldn't resist, since the E-Bay Seller had it on a Buy-It-Now Option at that Low Opening Bid Price!!!  Booyah!!!  It still has original Tags on it from over Twenty Years ago, so is like New Old Stock of a OOAK Creation from Robin's First Line.

I haven't uploaded any of my Camera's Images yet, but some will end up in this Post when I do.  I had to take a long Nap, for some reason, even tho' all I did this day was go to the Event, I felt like I was beat up from a Cage Match, I literally hurt all over and it was painful.  After a LONG Mid-Afternoon Nap I Woke not as sore, which was good, don't know why I had such Body Pain for no apparent reason?  The Son made Dinner, woke me up, I Ate, then went back to Sleep for a couple more Hours.  So, he made sure his Dad got his Night Meds so he didn't have to Wake me again to do it.  The Man was in our Bedroom watching a Paranormal Show Marathon while I Slept.  I Woke just after 7:00 p.m. and do feel a little better physically.  I mean, when I was Body Sore it was all over, even my Toes were hurting!!!

The Daughter did make contact with her Brother and say she was staying with her Friend Jennifer and doing some Work for her.  I haven't been bothering her so long as I know she's doing Okay and is somewhere Safe and doing Work she's getting Paid for.  Jennifer needs Housekeeping Work and I think she met her thru one of the Older Men she's been doing a lot of Work for on their Property.  Word of Mouth being the best Advertisement for Side Work as folks will share a good experience with who they know and it cultivates Contacts and more little Jobs.  She's kept the 5th Wheel immaculate since the Boyfriend hasn't been in there, he was clearly a lot of why it was unkempt and overwhelmed her.  The Young Prince I've got to make another Inspection soon to ensure he isn't Hoarding dirty Dishes or dirty Clothing or barricading Doors again?  He's mostly been Sleeping a lot since the Social Security visit, it wrecked him Mentally/Emotionally and he's Recovering from that.

My Firewall had apparently Held so the Hacker attempts weren't as successful, Whew, but Microsoft located them IN our Neighborhood and we remembered the Two recent big SWAT Raids on both of those Streets!  So, I'm wondering now if new Criminal Types have moved into our Community and trying to Hack everyone's Wi-Fi to steal information and Victimize the Community?!   This Community is more financial secure than most around it coz these are expensive Mini Farms, most are now worth $700,000 to over a Million, so a more affluent Community of mostly Older Residents and Multi-Generational Households that are doing better than Average.   Some have lived here since the 1960's when the Community was first built.  Microsoft would have called me back Today if their Scan didn't come back Clean, to tell me what to do next, but, their Scan came back Clean and notified me on my Computer.  *Double Whew*  It scared me a lot tho' to be Targeted by professional Hackers.

So, you can now see some of the Retail Therapy I indulged in for myself for Mother's Day.  *Winks*  I've downloaded Images from the Event and what I Won at Auction.  And Yes, I was very good to myself and no regrets about that.   I work very hard and make a lot of personal Sacrifices for the Family so they wanted me to get something I really wanted for Mother's Day.  If they could have they would have covered all the costs.  I didn't want Princess T covering it all coz she covered the Taxes we Owed and the Prep for them, which, was already a lot and exceedingly generous.  Plus it might make the others feel bad that they can't do anything for me.   The Man always wants me to enjoy whatever Special Day is dedicated to Moms, coz I have Raised Two Generations of Children and mostly had to do it on my own, while also holding down demanding Careers or also doing Extreme Caregiving.  He knows it's always been a lot to juggle and Sacrifice my Needs for everyone else.

So, if I get myself a Book, a Backpack and a Bangle, they all were very Supportive and encouraged it.  I had waffled on whether or not to and they knew I wouldn't if they didn't speak up and say, do it.   No, I didn't NEED any of it, but I Wanted it.  *LOL*  And I did have an enjoyable time even just enjoying and being Inspired by what I didn't Buy and had no Temptations to Want either.  I talked with a Lovely Lady in Line at Checkout who says she comes almost more for the Visuals and Inspiration than to Buy anything, tho' she had chosen a lovely Denim Jacket with a Fun Accessories Jabot made from Vintage Ties and a Bling Brooch, very Clever.  She had said her Daughter had bought one of the Jabots last Event and she decided she should try to pull it off, I think she can.  She was a very Attractive Classy Stylish Older Woman who I think could totally Rock what she'd chosen and I told her so.  I enjoyed our conversation while waiting to Check Out our Purchases.

Okay, so a Funny Story, coz this Saturday Princess T and her Boyfriend are going to look at and potentially Buy that Celica, for Cash, and since they'll be carrying Cash, and People have been Killed for a lot less, I insisted The Son and myself go with them to ensure their Safety.  Well, Princess T delicately told Rusty this and it made him all kinds of nervous, not about potential Robbers, mind you, but he's like, do they have to come, coz they're way too Crazy and Hood and if someone did try to Rob us!  You know how they are, they'll both go Hood Postal and I already saw your Uncle do that when your Mom's Boyfriend got aggressive, and I thought he'd Kill the Guy before your Brother Mediated and got your Uncle to Stop beating Mando down!!!  So, Rusty asked his Dad to come instead, and his Dad will be Armed, so they will be Safe.  I just thought it hilarious that Rusty thinks we'd be more Crazy and Dangerous than any potential Robbers who'd try to Stick us up or be foolish enuf to try to hurt them!  *Bwahahahaha*  He could be Right... *Winks*

I agreed, that as long as his Dad is coming and is Armed for their Protection while viewing this Vehicle from complete Strangers, I'd be Good with that.  I just want the Kids to be Safe and not harmed or killed over a couple Grand, you know.  Life is Cheap to most Criminally Minded Folks and my Grandchild knows I've seen too much while working for the DA's Office to not be Cynical about People I don't know or Trusting the Motives of Strangers.   I am Cynical as Fuck and I don't Trust you until and unless you Earn my Trust, even then, don't Cross me, ever.  And definitely don't even Think about harming someone I Care about and Love, or I'll make it my Mission in Life to take you down and out for it, you'd become my Obsession if you harmed a Loved One of mine.  And The Son or The Grandson can handle themselves just Fine, so, they're both Street and Hood enuf to handle someone who becomes a Threat.  I think Rusty's Dad can too, so I entrust my Grandchild's Safety to him.

The Man has been good about doing his PT Exercises for me, coz he's supposed to do them Daily or Twice Daily if he feels up to it.  We only had to modify a couple that he couldn't do as many reps of, but, overall he did good.  And it only takes 5-10 Minutes to do what they want him to do, so, it's not too much.  And it strengthens his Body, what they'll soon be scheduling him to do at the Hospital Cardiac Rehab will strengthen his Heart and be monitored closely by Health Care Professionals in a Hospital Setting on the 5th Floor of the Hospital he had his Heart Procedure at.  Which is a Cardiac and Stroke Care Hospital and why I took him there opposed to the Hospital even closer to our Property.  You get a lot of Calls from Subcontractors of HUMANA tho', I've had to decline some offers that apparently HUMANA will cover, but we already have so much coming and Approved, I don't wanna overwhelm him with Home Care Visits, or me either.

Later Friday Morning:  I just got back from Urgent Care, for me this time!!!   For a couple days I've had tightness in my Chest behind my Right Breast, Shortness of Breath and considerable Pain all the way thru to my Shoulder Blade.    At first I thought it might be Allergies, with everything in Bloom and the Weather being Windy, I had congestion and a slight productive Cough, but otherwise didn't feel Sick.  I didn't have a fever, but I did feel quite exhausted and after my Event Yesterday spent most of the rest of the day Napping and still fell Asleep early, so The Son knew I wasn't feeling good.  Then I thought, wonder if it's a pulled Muscle from helping lift The Man into a standing position, which he always needs help with and he's well over 200 lbs. and like Dead Weight.  Then by this Morning the Pain was worse and I thought, better find out if it's Bronchitis or Pneumonia or something to do with my Heart, coz this isn't feeling right.

The Son went with me, I spent over 3 Hours having various Tests, but they got me right in, so no waiting at that Urgent Care Location.  Which is my Fav one for that reason, it's a Satellite Emergency and Urgent Care of St. Joseph's Level One Trauma Center Downtown in Phoenix.  Anyway, luckily the Tests came back favorable, no obvious Lung Issues, no Pneumonia or Bronchitis evident, my Heart seemed Fine, but he was worried about my Stress levels.  And, sure, I knew that could be it, not like I haven't had a shit ton of Stress, prolonged Stress, and heightened Stressors recently with Family Emergencies and Health Crisis they've had.  So, the Doc wants me to do follow-up with my Primary and said to try to manage my Stress as best I can.  When I said I'm a full time Caregiver of more than one Family Member he said that can Kill you just as easily as any other Health Crisis, I know this.  Many Caregivers drop Dead first, I've known some who have from the demands of Extreme Caregiving.

So, that's how I spent almost all of Friday Morning until 2:00 p.m. this Afternoon when they finally let me come Home.  I may lie down again and Nap after Blogging a bit coz I feel exhausted again, but relieved it wasn't my Lungs, Heart or an Infection/Illness.  With being at Hospitals and ER's so much with The Man, and Social Security with The Grandson, I've been around a lot of Sickly People more than usual and it is the Season of increased Contagions and exposure to them if you're around a lot of folks.  Especially in Hospital settings and ER's, lots of Illness that could potentially be contagious abounds.  Luckily at this Urgent Care it was just me and one other person when I first came in and I got a Private Room, not just Curtains separating you from others like in Emergency Room Settings that are overcrowded.  I watched the Vintage Game Show Channel on Cable while there, Oldies of "The Price Is Right" and "Let's Make A Deal" were on.  Gives perspective on what things used to Cost opposed to now.

People were Winning $7,000 Cars and TV Sets that looked like a Box of Bricks, they were so bulky.  *LOL*  The Furniture being Won was hideous, definitely late 70's to early 80's Decor/Furnishings, hilarious to watch even People's Hairstyles and Clothing from that Era... all hideous.  The Polyester abounded for Men and Women, and the feathered Mall Hair and bad Makeup application for the Women, and the Porn Star Mustaches for the Guys and very Bad Haircuts.  The Men's Leisure Suits were gaudy, and the Women's Fashions for Contestants was frumpy, not a Fashionista among them.   And I forgot how goofy a lot of the Contestants were in those days on Game Shows.  They had one Gal from Phoenix on, and Bob Barker was still the Host. 

 I forgot how Misogynistic the Game Show Hosts were towards Women back then, saying Offensive shit like, "And what's on you Girl's Tiny Little Minds?" to the Barker Beauties Models, who'd give Bimbette Answers in return.  *Shudder*  I do remember the Personal Scandals later on of Conflicts with Barker.   But of coarse that was the Era I was in my Corporate Lives and Sexual Discrimination was Rampant and Misogyny was the Status Quo too, as well as Racism.  So, it wasn't "The Good Ole Days" for everyone, that's for sure, and why none of us wants to go backwards to those practices and archaic blatantly discriminatory times.  I do like some of the Old Game Shows tho', so don't mind watching the Old Reruns of them, Nostalgic in a good way too sometimes.   While also reminding us of what the Past was like, lest we forget and tend to look back with Rose Colored Glasses.   We can often Cherry Pick our fondest Memories and discard the rest.

I'm up from my long Nap coz The Son made Dinner for his Dad and I, told me it was time for his Dad to have his Night Meds, and wanted me to administer them.  His Dad can be resistant to The Son and The Grandson telling him to do thing, it's a Male Pride Thing I think.  So, now he's fed and Medicated.  *Winks*  And I do feel quite a bit better after an almost Four Hour Nap.  I hadn't intended to be Asleep that long in the Middle of a Beautiful Day after having spent all Morning at an Urgent Care having Testing and Evaluation, but, clearly Needed it.  I could only eat half my Meal, but The Son had gotten me a Taco Bell Meal Deal Box while at the Urgent Care, it's next door to a Taco Bell and he knew I hadn't had Breakfast or Lunch and was having Blood Draws twice and Meds administered on an empty Stomach.  The Doc said it was okay to bring it in for me to eat.

For only $7 I had a Chicken Chalupa, a 7 Layer Burrito, a Crunchy Beef Taco, Cinnamon Twists and a Soft Drink, not bad Value for the low price and it was very good.  The Son went over to Church's Chicken across the Street from the Urgent Care and ran into his Lifelong Friend Q there.  Q is like a Son to me and calls me Mom, so was concerned that both The Man and I were now having Health Issues at the same time.  He knows that Stresses The Son out.   Bless him, he's trying to be a Caregiver fill in and cook Meals, he's not very adept at Meal prep so you get some very 'interesting' offerings.  He kind of makes it up as he goes along, Bless him, and we try to eat whatever it is coz he means well and tries really hard, having the best of Intentions.  Let us just say, none of what he's presenting looks anything like my Food Porn Imagery AT ALL... but I know he's really trying and his Heart is in it, he Cares, so I don't wanna be critical or hurt his Feelings.

If I had Photographed the Meal he just made for me, his Feelings would have been Hurt coz, I didn't even know what it was supposed to be until he told me what he'd made for us and it was supposed to be!!!   He SAID it was a Grilled Ham and Cheese Sammie with a side of Italian Wedding Soup.  Grilled Ham and Cheese Sammie sounds Basic enuf to prepare, and easily identifiable, right?  Well, the presentation was Two very soggy pieces of Bread sitting side by side, they looked Wet.  On top of one was a very shiny square piece of Cheddar Cheese, it didn't look exactly melted, but it looked almost plastic, I don't even know how you do or manage that???  *LOL* 

 On top of the Cheese Slice was some thinly diced Roma Size Tomatoes sprinkled with heavy Seasoning.  On the other piece of soggy Bread was some enormous chunks of Ham, which tasted good but was too thick and long to make a Sammie Close and they were just piled up on the Bread Slice!  I ate the Ham, left the rest of the Sammie concoction, and ate the Soup.   And I hid what I didn't eat in the Garbage so he won't know I threw it away and it was inedible.  It was so Sweet of him to prepare it for us and he'd be embarrassed and upset that we couldn't eat it.  The Man is actually eating his, but he's one to mash food together in an  unrecognizable mound anyway, so, there's THAT.  *Smiles*   And he seemed to be enjoying his, I just couldn't, I did try coz I was hungry.

  The Daughter had come Home but was gone again all day at some Side Job, she's trying to Work as much as anyone will Hire her for little Jobs for them and provide the Transportation too.  Princess T had Rusty do for her Today what I was supposed to and couldn't due to my Medical Situation playing out.  We're doing many things on The Fly and I do appreciate each Family Member stepping up as much as they are able and despite their limitations and disabling factors that make some things harder for them.   They're trying and I'm appreciative of that and not trying to make Fun of it in a mean Spirited way.  But, it is Blog worthy, since, well, you can't make this stuff up.  *Ha ha ha*   And we're just all muddling along, including our Kiddos trying to handle their Parents/Grandparents seemingly falling apart Medically in Real Time.  While, everyone is totally reliant on us for their Housing and Essentials, since, none of them is earning enuf to provide it for themselves.  So, it's Scary stuff for them all, all Four of them.  

So, I wouldn't wanna be in their place, I really wouldn't.  Almost all of their Generations are in dire straits right now Economically and many don't have enuf for Essentials, don't have Jobs or Jobs that pay a Livable Wage, don't have Insurance or any Hope for a Pension or Retirement in their Future.  They don't even know if they'll have a Future!?  Princess T told me this Morning that she doesn't expect that Civilization will Survive long enuf for her to reach Age 50 and she's 20 now.  She literally thinks in 30 Years or LESS, there will be no Future for her entire Generation or anyone else still Living at that time!!!  It's part of why she doesn't want any Children, she doesn't think anyone can ensure bringing a Child into this World right now is giving that Child any chance of having a Future or a good Life, let alone a long one.  I Hope she's Wrong, but I have similar concerns for all the Young People currently already Born, I can't even think yet upon those yet to be Born and what the Future holds for them or if there is one?

And News just broke that the Criminal in the White House is gonna give himself a Billion more of your Tax Dollars to himself via the IRS!  So he's Suing the IRS, while being in Charge of the DOJ, to Pay himself coz he's on both Sides of that Lawsuit.   And, this from a Guy whose never Paid his Taxes and openly Brags about not Paying his Taxes, saying that just makes him 'Smart' to commit Tax Fraud!!!   I guess all the Bank Fraud made him 'Smart' then too, another Get Rich Quick Scheme, among many.  And, furthermore, more of your Tax Dollars are paying out "Restitution" to some of the People he Pardoned, who Pled Guilty to their Crimes and had Committed those Crimes, and got their Get Out Of Jail Free Cards handed to them by their Presidential Bro', to the Tune of Millions to each One, and Fines and Restitution Wiped out to their Victims. 

  There's a long PARTIAL Laundry List of these recently Pardoned Cronies he's having YOU compensate for their Crimes.  So these Convicted Felons are profiting off their Crimes even more now with you paying them Restitution for them being caught and successfully Prosecuted for their Crimes... and this is just a Partial List.  Plus, he's still actively doing this and it's not always making The News as a Major Story.  So more will be shelled out by us, The American Taxpayers to his Criminal Friends... and their Victims now won't receive what they should have in their Legal Restitution Owed... in already over a Billion in Restitution and Fines, so Crime DOES Pay with this Administration, and you're footing that Bill:

Trevor Milton $550+ Million

Paul Walczak $4.4 Million

Ross Ulbricht $183+ Million

HDR Global Trading Ltd. BitMEX $100 Million 

Todd & Julie Chrisley $22+ Million

Jason Galanis $80 Million 

Devon Archer $43 Million

Imaad Shah Zuberi $15.7 Million

This ought to concern every Taxpayer, if any other President had ever done even a fraction of this, it would have removed them, caused them to Resign and be Prosecuted, and caused an uproar.  I'm not hearing a whole lot of consequences for this and now Donnie Two Dolls wants a Billion for himself in Lawsuit Restitution to pay him for doing his Crimes, ain't that Rich?!  You do the Crime, but if you're part of this Administration, you not only don't do the Time, but now you get compensated by the American Taxpayers Millions or Billions of your Tax Dollars for having done said Crimes!!!   Sweet!   And I think his Voters probably always knew how shamelessly Corrupt he is, but thought they'd get Windfalls like this too.  So were willing to overlook it if they got Paid Off to look the other way and enable him.  Only... that ain't happening and now they're like, "Where's OUR piece of this Criminal Action?!"

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And the Fuckery continues unabated... America should be Asset Stripped and Bankrupted very soon at this rate... Dawn... The Bohemian