I Can Take My War Paint Off For Now... Ooops No I Can't!!!

I'm only a couple Blog Posts ahead now so I'm gonna get busy with it.  *LOL and Winks*  It's been nice to have a few Unpublished ones hanging out there and Posting when Scheduled without me being here behind the Screen.  It's been busy but I do carve out some Me Time Online when I can't carve out Me Time outside of Home, which, is more challenging these days as The Man's Health and Appointments demand more of my Time and limited Resources.   I'm getting buried in Paperwork from all of it, but so far everything has been covered, so that's good, no Battles to wage on that Front at least.   So I can take my War Paint off for now, since I've remedied the T-Mobile Fiasco and Battle waged with that Company. *Whew* 

 They got Paid so they're Happy, I finally got a compromise we both could live with, so I'm Happy.  Everybody's Happy!  Coz when I ain't Happy, ain't Nobody gonna fucking be Happy!   I Share that robbing of Joy Forever and Ever if you're gonna make me Unhappy and compromise or threaten my Joy, you hear me?!  *Winks*  I must say the Two Young Ladies I dealt with last at T-Mobile were exemplary and on top of their Game.  They also were not in Agreement with what the Company is doing forcing folks to use Apps and not generating Paper Billing for Clients who still want that method of paying.  I don't use Apps, I don't wanna use Apps, it eats up Data and then you get charged for more Data Storage, it's intentional extortion the way I see it.  I already pay too much for Phones & Service!

We did find out we get some Free TV Channels via our Phone Plan, who knew?  Becoz I ain't getting a fucking Bill, that's why I didn't know!!!  But, The Young Prince grilled the Gals on what Freebies our Plan is offering us that we don't know about coz we're no longer getting Receipts showing what's on our Plan that we're on.  I don't think anything is actually 'Free', coz the Plans are all expensive.  Even the Military Discount Plan we're on ain't Cheap, but it's Cheaper and has Two Free Lines for the Two Grandkids.  So, I didn't really wanna lose that Plan or Benefit for them, they use those Phones a lot more than The Man and I do.  But there's some Movie Channel they're giving us Free right now so that was good to know, I think it may be NetFlix.  So, I wouldn't have had The Son or the Niece paying for Months had I known that Fact!

The Man loves his Walker I got him from the "Goodwill" Yesterday for Five Bucks, it's a really nice one and Walking Height so he doesn't have to bend over to Walk with it.  So, now we don't have to ask the VA to provide one for him.  The Laws Of Attraction were Activated when I spoke the Words that I Needed one and there it was, the 1st "Goodwill" we went to.  They didn't even have it priced and so the Young Man I asked to price it for me gave me a Hood Hookup on it and Winked when I said, that's all?!  *Winks Back*   Plus I got 20% Off that Price with the Coupon my Vendor Friend John had let me take a Screen Shot of while we bumped into him and his Wife there and stopped to chat.  I like John and his Wife, they HATE their Retirement Community HOA, which are The Devil.  As most HOA's are.

John is White but his Wife is Hispanic and he said his HOA is very Racist and harasses all the Residents of Color, who are few, coz it's an exclusive and expensive Community.  But John Retired from Frito Lay where he's worked for Years and has a great Pension Retirement.  So he wanted a Lakeside Community and didn't mind paying more for it.  But he said his Wife gets harassed all the time and so does an Elderly Black Male Neighbor, they get stopped by the HOA People all the time asking what they're doing in the Community!!!!!!!!!!!  As if they aren't Residents and therefore look Suspicious by Virtue of just their Skin Color!!!  Oh, John has confronted the HOA about it numerous times coz both he and that Neighbor still get stopped and asked what they're "Doing There?", and by now the HOA knows they are Residents of the Community!  John said if it wasn't so expensive and a hassle to move, they would.

John knows the affluent Subdivision Hell we owned the Villa McManse in was Racist like that too, so me and the Grandkids were always given a hard time while living there.  The Man wasn't, coz he's White, and our very Sweet Elderly Black Neighbors next door suffered even worse discrimination than us.  They had Rocks thrown thru Windows with Racist Notes attached and their Front Yard Vandalized.  And so did our Dear Young Friends across the Street, who were a Couple from Sri Lanka, get harassed constantly and have Threats made.  And both of those Families were decent Neighborly folks, owned the most Expensive Three-Story Villa's that were over 7,000 sf in the whole Community!!!  They could afford to live there, had Paid over a Million for their Properties and were Corporate Executives in their Careers.  But, the Community really was a lot of White Fundamentalist Christian Types with Bougee Careers, who were openly Racist and Pretentious as fuck, the HOA were The Devil, so, it's why we Sold and Moved eventually. 

I Battled them fuckers for over Five Years and as soon as I could Turn that piece of Real Estate and Sell it to an Air B&B Party House Investor *winks... Yes, on Purpose*, I Sold it to them and Cashed out my Profits.  I'd only bought the damned ridiculous sized Luxury Property coz I got such a Steal on the Price when the Luxury Home Market had tanked, and I needed to get my Grandkids Adopted.  The Adoption Board wouldn't approve our Historic Home as "Suitable", coz it had Lead Paint and was over 100 Years Old and "Substandard" by their Standards and Criteria coz we didn't have it completely Restored yet.  CPS had no problem with the Kiddos being placed there since Birth tho' and living there 10 and 15 Years respectively as a Kinship Placement, and not compensating us a dime to Raise them, so, go figure!!!  The Home was Paid for and was supposed to be our Forever Retirement Property Debt Free.

But, I digress, bumping into John, with his now failing Health, he's having to downsize even his Retail Spaces at the Mall and Close out some he had at other Antique Mall Locations coz he's too sickly now.  So I know he doesn't wanna keep Fighting the Good Fight and making Good Trouble in that Retirement Community they're stuck in now.   His Wife being Hispanic, tho' she's a Mexican American, she worries about the whole ICE Raid bullshit every time they're out and about now anywhere, even going to Doctor Appointments for John.  Coz, many Spouses have had their Partners of Color picked up and just Racially Profiled whether they're American Citizens or not and Legally here.  It's a worry now with this Racist Regime legitimizing Racism and ramping it up again.  Even our Native American Friends have been stopped by ICE and some have been detained even showing Tribal ID... and the Indigenous are the only Non-Immigrants in this Country!

Actually, many of my Mexican American Friends go back Generations before America bought these lower States from Mexico.  So none of their Ancestors had to cross a fucking Ocean to get here, they've ALWAYS been here and have a Right to remain here!!!   My Friend Pauline can trace her Ancestry to Arizona back over 10 Generations.  So she gets really angry when anyone tells her to go back where she came from, she says, I came from here Motherfuckers, we've always been here, where have your People originally come from?  Coz it's NOT HERE!  Usually she said it's some Racist Person who just assumes America is White... and Christian... and... it's not and it never has been.  It's American, made up of many different Ethnicities and Demographics now and many Religions, or Freedom From Religion, and it's that Freedom and Opportunity we wanna Protect and Cherish.  It's why everyone always wanted to come here.  You get so tired of telling ignorant biased folks those Facts!!!

I feel badly for anyone feeling trapped in a Situation, Area, or around People they are constantly having problems with thru no fault of their own and about things they can't do anything about.  There's not much you can do about other folk's Biases, Hatreds, and Prejudices, they are who they just are.  I don't wanna Live around them either frankly, becoz it's stressful to have all that Hatred, Bias, Prejudices directed and projected at and against you.   When you're just trying to Live Life in Peace, with Love and in Harmony with all around you.   It can be quite dangerous too becoz Hateful People tend to commit atrocities and violent acts that they feel quite justified to commit.   And History has shown us time and again how Deadly that can become against their Victims and who they're Targeting and want to Eliminate.   It's almost never Harmless and rarely is Safe either.  I don't want my Family Unsafe or to come to Harm over whose around us that poses any Danger.

The Young Prince got up really Early, I know he's Anxious about this Social Security Disability Interview and doesn't know what to expect since previous ones have never gone Well.  And he's always been Denied in the Past no matter how much he should have easily Qualified, you almost always have to Appeal and so he and Allen didn't know how to go thru all that, I have Experience at it, loads of Experience at it, too much Experience at it in fact.  So I go in preparing for Battle.  The Best Case Scenario is I don't Need to go to War with them and they just Approve him.  *Winks*  Worse Case Scenario I will bury them in Appeals becoz we have nothing to Lose and they've given us nothing to Lose.  I can become the worst Nightmare of anyone choosing to Deny Services to someone I'm Advocating for and Caregiver of that desperately Needs them and shouldn't have ever been Denied them.  I don't Care what Flavor of the Month they want you to Be.

I frankly don't know how Disabled you have to be for them to Qualify you actually???  It's all quite a Crap Shoot.  Coz it can get Bat Shit Crazy, Donnie Two Dolls Crazy, and... sometimes it's just not Crazy Enough for The System!!!   Back when I Applied for him when he was a Teenager, back when instead of Writing his Protective Symbols in just Chalk all over the place at our Home, he was often using his own Excrement to do it all over his Furniture, Walls, Bed... I took Photographs for Proof, the Social Security Shrink thought that wasn't Crazy Enough!!!  Why?   Coz back then he could still Feed himself, Bathe Himself and Dress Himself!  He couldn't be Educated coz Schools wouldn't accept him since they considered his level of Mental Illness too Extreme, that didn't matter.  He couldn't take his Psyche Meds anymore by Age 15 coz it was shutting down his Kidneys and Liver, so his assigned Shrink had to take him off of them.  

Which is why things were unraveling so much, I had an Unmedicated Seriously Mentally Ill Teenager who was Self-Harming all of the time, had been turned away from every type of School so was being Denied an Education too!!!  I couldn't Manage him without Help coz he was full sized by then and Strong as most Adult Men, sometimes Stronger when completely Psychotic, coz they got that Whacko R Strength!  He wasn't receiving maximum Services, but, Social Security said come back when he's an Adult and we'll Reconsider his Case.  And so... now here we are!!!  Back Again for Reconsideration... and he's worse now at 25 than he was at even 15.  Now becoz his Food is Moving and he assumes it's Alive, and assumes someone is trying to Poison him, he needs help Eating.  He often needs help with Bathing regularly and with Dressing and maintaining proper Hygiene and Sanitation of himself and of his Living Areas to keep them Safe and him Safe and properly Cared for.  We've moved on to Chalk Protective Symbols instead of Protective Symbols in his own Shit, so, that's Progress I Guess... *Eye Roll and Sighs, we Celebrate the Small Victories*

And I Swear on the Holy Bible that this time he's coming with a Check coz I'm sick and tired of him being Denied any way to Survive except on the Charity and Mercies of Family and Friends alone, and for all of his Life!!!  I'm not gonna become an Immortal so when I'm Gone, he won't have any means of being Supported and Cared for otherwise.  His Mom can't do it, she's as Mentally Ill as he is and couldn't Raise her Children or Care for her own Self appropriately due to her Schizophrenia.  She's had a Hard Life with no Services.  I'm still trying to convince her that "They and Them" won't be waiting at Social Security to "Get her" and put her away... at least with him he's assured I'd protect him from involuntary Institutionalization.   She's been involuntarily Institutionalized too many times now in America and Mexico to have that kind of Trust in anyone or any Agency that allegedly is providing Help and has only caused her more Paranoia and Mistreatment, sometimes even Abuse, Physical and Sexual, which happens in those places, all the time.

 

So, enuf of that for now, I'm Bracing myself for going too, I Dread it coz it's never NOT an Ordeal and is never NOT Stressful to go thru with them.  If he gets Triggered by whoever the Caseworker is, it can go very Badly, and he's very Grown and Strong now, much more so than he was at 15, so no Hope of Restraining him if they push him into a Mental Meltdown Episode by too much Stress of going thru The Process.  The Home Caseworkers go better coz he's in his Safe Space to do those Interviews and receive that level of Care provided in the Home.  Also, there's not all the Sensory Overload of a Social Security or DES Office or Psychiatric Hospital or Offices.  He doesn't like Doctors, whether it's for Physical or Mental Health, he Imagines them all to be potentially Harmful to him, so he's suspicious of them and doesn't LIKE them.  

So, there's THAT too.   And when he is not LIKING something or someone, it can be an Ordeal to gain any Trust with him about it or them.   He is okay with taking the Psyche Meds he's on and the Anti-Seizure Meds he's on, but both are running out by end of April and he has no Coverage now to receive them.  Ruh Roh, that will be very Bad, both Physically for stopping his Seizures, and Mentally without his Psyche Meds.  So, we do desperately Need both and I'm going to convey we've got less than Two Weeks worth left and he's not been Accepted and Approved yet for anything we've already Applied for.  So, Tick-Fucking-Tock.  If you don't want for things to go totally Sideways, it would be good to push this thru now ASAP and quit dicking around or jerking us around with all the Bureaucrazy involved.  I can't circumvent it all on my Dime anymore, that's just the Reality of the Situation.  

I don't have Magic Fairie Dust and supernatural shit to access like Potions and Healing Spells, or a Wand to Wave over his Ass to Cure him.  This is how he'll be Forever and Ever.  Fervent Prayer hasn't done it.  Unless God starts Curing Serious Mental Illness, which, so far, He hasn't... nor has Modern Medicine and Science.  So, here we are.  I'm not diminishing the Power of Prayer, but I do know some Prayers go Unanswered, so you can't just rely on Thoughts and Prayers.   Any Offered with all sincerity, they are Appreciated, but right now I could use some Present Help for a change.   With Caring for so many Loved Ones who are in dire straits and rely solely on me and whatever I can only provide, which, isn't Enough and will never be Enough to meet any of them at their various Points of Need. 

 I've given Shelter, I put more Water in the Beans to stretch the Food to Feed this many, but I'm not Crazy enuf nor Blasphemous enuf like Donnie Two Dolls to liken myself to Jesus and generate Offensive AI Images on Social Media of myself even trying to perform Miracles.   And feeding the several Thousand with the Seven Loaves and Basket of Fish Miracle hasn't transpired here at Forever Boheme' either for us Six.  I can only Budget usually $200-$300 for Groceries Monthly to Feed Six of us out of our Pension/Disability Income, and sometimes that's a stretch even for me and I'm frugal as fuck and can stretch a Buck far!!!   If he Qualifies even for just the Nutritional Assistance for One Disabled Adult Male, he'd get just over $200 Monthly, which would double what I could do to feed us all, so, that would indeed be Helpful if parsed out.  Of coarse I feed them all anyway, but, I'm not Legally required to feed this many Adult Relatives who have no income, are too Disabled to be Employable, or making Minimum Wages, so can't afford their own Shelter and must live here or be Homeless.

Princess T did feed us well when we were out Yesterday, most of the other Food Porn Images is Old Imagery gleaned from the Food Porn Photo Archives, when Times were better and so we could indulge ourselves.  *LOL*  Those days may be coming to a halt for most of America if things continue to worsen with this shitty Economy he's Created.  And every day when people say, "Is he Dead yet?", he's the only person ever who doesn't even have to be Named and I know exactly who they're talking about... and ain't that pathetic that we now have an American President that probably more than half the Country wouldn't be Sad if he just FOADed?  

  

We'd be Celebrating the Liberation from him and no more Bat Shit Crazy in the White House... coz, perhaps the Sycophants then would not be cowering, kowtowing, bending the Knee and Kissing the Ring, since they will never have a Spine or Balls while he's among the Living, they've proven that unfortunate Fact.  And not done the Job for the American People they were Elected to do to represent us properly rather than being beholden to a Man.   And I do Hope our People can do what the Hungarian People have done to oust their Leadership that was Oppressive and a threat to Democracy in the next Election, we shall see tho'?   There's still so much Wrong and I think American Voters now are just so fed up with it ALL that they want a viable choice they can confidently feel will represent us, ALL of us, not just a selective few who become Cult Members of a President.   And only represent the Fringes on either Side and Extremist Minority in the Country.

The Niece, on the Right in this Pix and dressed in Black, is holding up under Caregiving for her Mom, who is lasting longer than her Expiration Date Docs gave her, but is in the Final Stage of her Fight with Cancer.  Her Bestie, pictured with her, comes over to Help her with the Extreme Caregiving, coz it's definitely too much for one Person and the Home Hospice Palliative Care Help only comes once a Week to Minister to her Dying Mom.   I'm glad to see that The Niece is taking Care of herself, she's Adorbs even without Makeup {see further Below her all Natural and Fresh Faced}, but, they were Celebrating something for her Husband recently, who is away a lot for his Career, so she's often Caregiving AND Single Parenting their Three Children, and so she was all dolled up for this Selfie.  *Smiles*  

 She Shared some Easter Videos of the Kiddos getting their Easter Baskets.  The Oldest Daughter and their Son, whose the Youngest, look like their Dad, but their Middle Daughter is the spitting Image of her Mom at that Age!!!   Takes me back Years to see that one.  {See directly Above}   This Kiddo looks like her Mom Cloned her.  *Smiles*   And her Big Sister and Little Brother look so much like their Dad that it looks like he Cloned them!!!   I watched The Niece grow up so it's Nostalgic for me to see at least One of her Kiddos that looks so much like she did growing up, takes me back.   Loads of precious Memories our Families Share and a long History. 

  I so Miss them and Wish they still lived in Arizona, we could be a Present Help then, coz we've always been Ride or Die and that close to each other's Families.   I am close to their Mom, she's been like a Sister to me even tho' we're not actually Biologically connected.  She helped me out when my Dad was Dying and we Partnered to delay him going in to Hospice and remaining at Home for as long as possible.  I'd like to be there for her as she's Dying in much the same way so she can remain at Home to Die if possible, around Family.  She still looks Beautiful and Radiant even while Battling this Brutal Disease and totally Rocking losing her Hair. But, they do seem to have a relatively decent Support Network of the Niece's Husband's Family and New Friends they've made there in Texas.   Which is where her Husband was from, she met him while he was still in the Military and Stationed here in the Air Force at the Base.  Their Family lived just outside of Luke AFB back then. 

 

Her Siblings have not been there for this Niece or their Mom, and she has Four Older Siblings.  But all live in other States and Three have demanding Careers and so does her Nephew, whose Grown.  One Brother is an Addict, so nobody expects him to surface.   LATER:  Well, Social Security was the Ordeal I thought it would be, different than the Ordeal Process of Twenty Years ago we went thru with The Daughter and my Friend Kathie, who both Qualified for SSI way back then, but an Ordeal that is just different now.  Even with a Scheduled Appointment you still get Assigned a Number when you arrive and they don't call any of the Numbers in sequential Order.  After about an Hour our Number got called and you go to a Window where then they Assign you another Number and you wait again until that Number is called!!!

It's quite the Human Sideshow there coz it's the Inner City Location they send you to for SSI Applications and Wow... that's all I can say about what was filing in.  So, our Second Number got finally called and we sat in a not really Private Space in front of another Bullet Proof Window with little Holes to talk thru and the Interviewer asks her Questionnaire.  Even tho' they wanna know how long you've been Disabled, they let you know they'll only pull Medical Records from the last Five Years.  So, you get no consideration for having a Lifetime Serious Disability, which, one would think that would be important in determining extent of Disability, that's it not recent and you've had it since Childhood or that there is no Cure and you'll never get Better??!  But, I gave up long ago trying to figure out criteria for Government determinations of Qualifying Factors. 

They want to know what Medications you take and how it affected you in School {Special Ed, and him not being able to finish School coz his Disability was too profound for any School to Manage}, but, other than that the Questions were very Generic and Basic.  They don't Schedule you {Yet???}, to see any of their Doctors, but said it will take... wait for it... FIVE TO SEVEN MONTHS to Process and Review your Case for either Approval or Denial!!!   Seriously, I don't know what Disabled folks are supposed to do for 5-7 Months in the interim to Survive???   But, that's the time period for them to even get around to your Case now!!!  So, after that whole Ordeal and knowing it could be damned near all of 2026 before we even know one way or another if he's Approved or Denied, he was in Tears!!!  He'd had to put his Noise Cancellation Headphones on to even spend that many Hours there with all those People waiting... many with their fussy Children and lots of Street People.

I needed to Eat coz by then it was Lunchtime before we got outta there, but he was Emotional and unraveling so didn't wanna get out of the Truck.  And had been picking his Skin until it was Bleeding, so I just stopped in the Parking Lot of a "Farmer Boys" location and got it To Go and we ate it in the Truck.  It was Okay, not great, I usually only eat a Breakfast there, which I always like, their Lunch Menu didn't appeal to me that much.  I had a Spicy Chicken Sammie which looked as Editorial as their Menu Pixs of it.  But, they throw everything but the Kitchen Sink on it and call it "Loaded" and I could have done without a lot of what they slapped on there.  I didn't mind the Lettuce, Tomato, or even the Bacon... but they put a Guacamole and a Thousand Island Type Dressing with Cheese also on it, could have done without all of that on my Spicy Chicken.  I'm not a Fan of putting everything under the Sun on my Sammies, Burgers or Hot Dogs. 

 

Their side of Fruit is big tho' for a Side.  The Young Prince could barely eat coz he was so Emotionally distraught, so he brought most of it Home and his Grandpa will probably need to eat it.  Plus, Allen keeps Texting him and dumping how HE Feels on him... which right now The Young Prince does NOT Need.  Nothing he can do about how Allen Feels!  He has to know The Young Prince isn't doing Well and that all the Caregiving and Financial Support now is once again on me, so, I don't Need him winding The Grandson up by dumping his emotional baggage on him.  They're getting a Divorce, that's gonna be Hard, and Allen is the one that wrecked the Relationship in The Young Prince's opinion.  And I still feel that the Caregiving got to Allen and was just too much for someone as Young as him and with their own Disability.   But, they just need that clean break and The Grandson is trying that but Allen isn't respecting that Boundary.  And is holding up the Divorce now too, which is problematic for The Grandson receiving Services while still Legally Married!!!

Anyway, so I got Home to get a Call from the Kidney Specialist's Office, after already waiting much too long to get the EOM Appointment on the 29th of April, they are now Cancelling that one!!!  They said the Doc isn't available on that Morning now so they have to Re-Schedule for... wait for it... fucking JUNE!!!   I told them, you know his Kidneys are failing and very problematic, so waiting 'til the end of April was risky, I don't think he can manage thru June to be seen!  They insisted nothing is open 'til June now... so sorry... but, if his Labs come back really Bad, then they will TRY to Schedule him sooner if someone else Cancels!!!  WTF?!?!!?  I may ask our Insurance if there's another Kidney Specialist they can refer him to?  I'm definitely gonna inform Dr. Pham, his Cardiologist, of this, coz they are worried about his Kidneys too!!!  Every Doc that saw him during his ER Visits and his Hospitalizations was.  His Kidneys aren't doing Well.   So, anyway, just more bullshit and hurry up and wait, just like Social Security!!!  *Le Sigh*

So, forget what I said earlier about I can take my War Paint off for now... Ooops, No I can't!!!   Dammit!!!  Fighting these Battles to get the Services and Care very Ill and very Disabled Loved Ones desperately Need has become a full time fucking Job.  An unpaid Job at that, I'm getting no compensation for all this Caregiving, Advocacy Work, Driving everyone everywhere they Need to go coz none of them can Drive, EVER!!!   And nothing will improve and get Better, so, this is as good as it gets.  So, anyway, at least OUtside it's been a Cool and Breezy 78 Degrees, so quite Lovely out there.  Which, since it was a long Traffic heavy commute back and forth into The Heart of the City, was a good thing.  We had the Windows down on the Truck and let the Wind blow thru our Hairs.  *LOL*   And at least Social Security is behind us for now and I can Focus on what lies ahead yet to get Done... while waiting more than Half a Year for them to get to his Case and make some determination!!!!!!

I borrowed this Meme from another Blogger and it's appropriate right now coz I do Feel "Understaffed" at the Moment.  Well, shit, more than just a Moment, I have been Understaffed for fucking YEARS, Decades in Fact!!!  Generationally Understaffed actually.  *Bwahahahaha*  You do have to see the Gallow's Humor in it tho'.  Our Interviewer at Social Security had some very Interesting Tattoos all over her Hands and Arms, at first I thought it to be Mehndi and then realized it was Tattoos that were permanent and quite Unusual markings.  I don't know if they were Ethnic Tattoos, since, they seemed to be either Ethnic or perhaps even Religiously Spiritually significant ones?   Or they could have been older Gang related Tattoos since many were Four Dots, which in Maricopa County is significant for "Crazy Life" {or Three Dots}.  

She had the Tats, especially Four Dots, along with other Symbols in Black, on every Knuckle of her Fingers and in between the Knuckles too, on her Wrists and up both Arms.  I don't know how much further it all went where you couldn't see, since, she was sitting behind a Desk and behind a Bullet Proof Window... with us on the other Side.  She didn't appear to be a Black Latina, but, she could have been affiliated at one time or another with Nuestra Familia or other Maricopa County Gangs.  I know there were a lot of OG Gang Members of my Generation or slightly Younger Sixties Plus Aged, in the Waiting Room.  Some real Hard Cases too, and most of them Disabled quite significantly, but with loads of Prison Flash and Gang Flash, Gang Hairstyles, Hairnets, and Clothing/Accessories of OG Gang Members still affiliated.  That Office has Double Security Guard presence and they Need it, clearly.

Also, don't you know the Parking Lot there at Social Security now wants you to Scan one of those Codes to pay for fucking Parking by the Hour, at Three Bucks an Hour... and you'll be there for Hours!   Three Bucks an Hour to me is excessive for Federal Benefits Parking, it should be Free Parking, plus, my Phone had lost it's Charge so I couldn't Scan that Square QR Code, and so I asked Security about how I'd be expected to Pay?   And he told me, listen, if you don't have a Ticket on your Windshield when you come out, just drive off, I don't think anybody even expects anyone to Pay Up even if they get Ticketed for the Twenty-Five Dollars!!!   Thankfully I didn't have a Ticket so I just drove off and have to Pay either Nine or Twenty-Five Bucks for Parking there.  *Whew*  I mean, most folks going there are trying to get Benefits they don't already have, or are required to Apply for, so why try to price Gouge/Extort them for Parking to TRY to receive them?

I thought he held up pretty good, considering, I think the Noise Cancelling Earphones really Helped.  He just mostly closed his Eyes and had me Tap him when it was our Turn so he didn't have to Hear anyone or See anyone.  He kept telling me that there was a lot of Bad Energy there and his Hallucination Demons were everywhere there walking among the People.  Oy Vey, I didn't Need to Hear that, coz Honestly, even NOT seeing Demons walking about, I could Feel the Bad Energy and Despair, it was palpable.   And I'm not even a Schizophrenic or Paranoid, but, just looking at that Crowd, there was a LOT going on with many of those folks that was visibly Evident.   There was a Middle Aged Asian Lady and an Older Hispanic Lady who had such a Ghostly Pallor to them and Halos in their Eyes that I do see, that meant they were close to End of Life, very Close.  Mebbe they'd not receive their Benefits ever kinda Close to their End.   The Young Prince saw my Face and asked me if I could see "The Dying" Ones, and I said, Yeah, it's real Sad they're having to go thru all this too in that latter State Condition.  

He doesn't see "The Dying" and doesn't ever want to, but he knows I do and can predict it with uncanny accuracy, as could my own Mother.  He knows when I say someone hasn't got long, they don't have long, but you never, ever tell the Person, you're not meant to.  I used to as a Child coz I didn't know any better and my Mom had to tell me you mustn't ever.  I don't know why you should know such things if it has to remain Unsaid, but, whatever... I don't Like Seeing it, but I do and you can't NOT See it.  I Smell it on them and See it in the Eyes especially, but sometimes their Skin isn't Right either.  I've always Wished it would just go away, but it never has.   I don't see Dead People, just the Living that are actively Dying and very Close to Death even if they don't yet know it.  There was at least a few of them there, I tried not to make Eye Contact with them or sit near them, coz Death smells Sickly Sweet.  And it would bother me to be too near them Smelling it.  Not the foul Odor of the Already Dead.   More like Unbaked Bread Dough.

At 3:00 we have to leave for the Cardiologist.  I guess not only did Nurse Remi come, but that PT Guy John came again too while I was Gone!!!  I didn't think he was Approved to come Weekly, guess so, coz he had said it wouldn't cost us anything when he comes, coz he won't come until and unless it's Pre-Approved.   So, he changed out The Man's Foot and Leg Dressing again and liked the Style of Walker I'd gotten him at the Chazza.  Nurse Remi liked it too and both said it was the kind they wanted him to have for around the Home.  It's narrower than his VA Walker and doesn't have back Wheels, just front ones.  The only problem is he bashes around the House in it like he's in a fucking Bumper Car at a Carny Ride!  

I'm like, Honey, be more Careful and Settle Down, you don't have to go crashing around with it like a Bull in a damned China Shop, flinging open Doors into Furniture and shit too!!!   I sit behind our Bedroom Door in a Corner of our Bedroom at my Computer Desk and he flung the Door open so hard it shook my whole Table here and startled me!  He likes using it tho', he has to just Learn to use it less aggressively.  *Ha ha ha*  I notice a lot of Old folks in Walkers and Scooters are Wild as fuck with them tho', I don't know what gets into them, but the moment they have some Medical Device for to remain ambulatory, they lose their Minds.  I should have known The Man would be coz I don't allow him to use those Electric Scooters when we go Shopping coz he's a Danger in one, he'd be running over People and bashing into things!!!  *LOL*  The Son found a couple Tennis Balls to put on the Legs of his Walker that don't have Wheels so it's Quieter and glides smoothly across surfaces. 

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Several Posts Ahead now... Dawn... The Bohemian

When A Disability Becomes An Ability Of Sorts

 I missed a call from Social Security, likely about The Grandson's Appointment and you can never get thru to return a call... dammit!  The Phone was ringing in another Room and by the time I dug it out of my Purse, JUST hung up!  *Le Sigh*  It may have only been confirmation of our Appointment for Tomorrow, which is a Tuesday?  He's worried that since Allen is dragging at getting the Divorce finalized it might disqualify him for benefits since his Spouse is supposed to be supporting him and providing his Care, but, isn't now. 

 We'll have to see if his extenuating circumstances of escaping Domestic Violence and having Family have to even pay for him to leave the State to come to a Safe Space will give any sway to their decision to give him Benefits in Arizona.  His Benefits in New Mexico have now been terminated.  So, he has no Income, no Healthcare, no Mental Healthcare, no Nutritional Assistance and if we didn't give him a place to Be, he'd be Homeless too.  So, he is destitute and seriously Disabled and he's Grown, so Legally I'm not responsible for him anymore to cover all his expenses and extensive Needs, nor can we on our Fixed Income.

As I knock out all these lingering Appointments with various Agencies, Doctors, Specialists, Labs, etcetera it's easing the strain of a too loaded up Calendar.  The Daughter has another Cleaning Job next Sunday in Chandler so I don't mind that, it give me Four Hours of Me Time while I wait on her to finish up her Work for a Client.  And I must say the Eastside has much better Quality of Shopping Experiences and the type of places I like to actually Shop.  The Outdoor Malls they have there are very nice and replaced the Indoor Malls.  They have them Tree Lined and with loads of Shade and more like an Old Town Main Street Experience within the Cities, I really Like it.  The Outdoor Shopping Concept has made a comeback after Indoor Malls have had a Death Spiral.

The one I attended this Sunday was called San Tan Village Mall in nearby Gilbert, first time there, I was impressed and would return.  Even just walking around it was pleasant and with a nice Weather Day it was exceptionally pleasant.   The Cities of Gilbert, Chandler, Mesa and Tempe all blend together with Metro Phoenix, just on the Eastside of the Valley, we're on the Westside and have as many blended Cities that incorporate into Metro Phoenix.  You often don't know and can't tell when you're leaving one City and entering another coz the Boundaries touch each other with all of them now.  I don't get over to the Far Eastside often, it's a long commute across the Metro area and traffic is heavy usually.  With Gas prices over Five now and Diesel over Six, it's too spendy.

T-Mobile sent me a Survey and I gave them the shittiest Rating... of a Zero Highly Dissatisfied.  After Princess T's Dental Appointment I might see if there is another Store Location that has more than just One Employee trying to do it all with ridiculously long waits???  If there isn't then they won't get Paid until I get the Paper Billing Statement Mailed to me that I've been requesting since fucking January!!!  It's halfway thru April now, and I've called numerous times, tried to go in to their Store In-Person Locations, all futile and haven't Solved the Problem thus far.  I'm assuming they'd like to get Paid, but, we just found out they turned off our Phones coz they've refused to fix the Billing Problem they made!!!  So, they're not being cooperative or trying to retain Customers, clearly.

LATER: After the Grandchild's Dental Appointment, which was just a Fluoride Treatment, we went to a different T-Mobile Store which had more Employees actually working so we got helped right away.  The Young Ladies, both who helped us, were great and sympathetic, showed the Grandson that their APP is already auto loaded to his Phone and we were able to pay that way.  Plus T-Mobile had turned our Phones back on when I left that scathing review.  So, The Grandson said every Month he's willing to pay that way if we can't ever get back on Paper Billing Statements.  The Girls there said it was their understanding that the Company is discontinuing all Paper Billing involuntarily, which is upsetting a lot of Customers who wanted to Opt Out of APPS and involuntary Paperless Billing.

We did some Retail Therapy afterwards as a Threesome and Princess T paid for Lunch for all of us at "Wildflower Bread Company" too.  We had a Fun Family Day out with just me and The G-Kid Force.  The Son babysat his Dad for me since his Sister was working another Side Job all day out at some Ranch.  They pick her up and bring her back Home.  Social Security had called again and talked to us about wanting to do his Appointment/Interview TODAY instead of Tomorrow, but no way we could agree to that on such short notice.  So, they said it was Fine, we're still on for Tomorrow Morning and I got all his Paperwork from early Childhood to current day to substantiate how long he's been SMI... from Age 7 when first Diagnosed.

He just wants to get on with Living his Life without worry that he'll be on the Streets again ever, due to the extent of his Disability that limits him, makes him a Vulnerable Adult for all of his Life, and gives him few Options, that's all, it's not a Big Ask.  I want him to feel some sense of Security and have a little Money of his own to buy absolute necessities and essentials.   It gives him some sense of Independence even if he'll never be fully able to live Independently.  His Sister bought him some things while we were out on our Family Day Out Together, she's good to her Big Brother, she feels very Protective of him.   She's seen, firsthand, all her Life, how Mentally Ill he really is and how hard it's made Life for him... and how hard it's made Relationships and sustaining them, for him too.  I guess while he was at his Dad's Yesterday things went very badly, not on account of him either, but between his Dad and the New Wife, who The Young Prince really, really Adores his Dad's New Wife.

But his Dad is his Dad, and how Bobby Acts has always been very Narcissistic, it's how all his Dad's Relationships have eventually gone South... so he's worried that the New Wife may eventually not be able to Deal with it?   So, The Young Prince's Bestie, Sadie, was there with our Grandson and Witnessed the whole Drama play out too and it was very awkward for her and The Grandson.   Apparently he and Sadie have been like a Couple lately, which, isn't so surprising to me, they are good for each other.   The Grandson is rather Gender Fluid and has had no problems with Female Relationships even tho' he feels mostly attracted to Males and doesn't consider himself to be Bi.  I don't know the difference, but I realize there are some Women he's always been closer to than any Guy ever.  And they Like him coz it's like being with another Woman, he understands Women more than most Guys ever would. 

I found these Memes and liked them so much when they showed up on my Algorithm Feed that I hadda crib 'em and Share.  I completely agree with the above one especially, it's so obvious, but so many people don't understand that's what he's had a pattern of doing with all his Businesses.   And thus he is running the Country like he ran Businesses, Asset Stripping all of them and driving them into Bankruptcy and complete Insolvency while enriching himself in the process, often by illegal and immoral means, and no ethics or conscience.  I don't know how quickly he'll Bankrupt America and make every part of the Government completely dismantled, corrupted and destroyed, rendering it all non-functional for the American People, but it's well along the way now in just the short time 2.0 and his Sycophants have been Elected.   Along with the Unelected ones like Musk and Kushner, who nobody Elected and shouldn't be representing us at all and Negotiating any Deals on our behalf.

 

They are like Locusts upon the Land so this Meme was particularly accurate in a Dark Gallows Humor way.   Since, the Far Right Religious Fanatics and Extremists do fully Believe he's sent by God... so it's layered Humor.  I don't usually like Candy but I've found a new one that I do like a lot called "Nerds Gummy Clusters Candy", it's Sweet, Tangy and Crunchy and comes in Flavors.  So far I've tried the Rainbow Flavor and the Cherry Lemonade Blitz Ltd. Edition Flavor.   They also have Very Berry, Strawberry Punch, Punch Rush, Tropical, Valentine, & Frosty Flavors.

I have the Clusters, and not the Rope, in the 8 oz Bags.   I got a couple at the Discount Grocers for $1.99 for the Rainbow Flavor, which is well below the $5 for the larger size Bags.   I'm not a Fan of Sweets, so I like the Tangy and Sour Crunch NERDS Coating that this Candy has along with a Fruity Gummy Center, which, isn't too Sweet and is pleasant.  We went to "Five Below" and got the Ltd. Edition Flavor Bag of the Clusters, they had a lot of Flavors but only One left of the Cherry Lemonade Blitz that we got, Princess T bought it for me.  I found out I liked these when I found that big Easter Basket full of Candy someone left at the Park, it had Candies in it in Single Serving Easter Size Bags, that I could eat that weren't Chocolate and I'd never tried before, including this Candy.  It also happens to be The Young Prince's Favorite Candy now too, he'd had it before tho'.

Most of the Stores have Sold Out of their Easter Merch marked down.  And there's no more Holidays coming up that will have Seasonal Merch for it really.  I don't Count the 4th of July coz the Merch for that is limited and nothing I'd Buy.  And, with the condition of our Nation, I'm not even Celebrating it this Year, I'm too disgusted with America right now and what we've Become, it's shameful and embarrassing, so I am ashamed and making apologies for it to our Foreign Friends and long time Allies.   And now this Demented Loser has committed more Blasphemy doing an AI Image of himself as Jesus and threatening the Pope!!!!!!!!  Just becoz the Pope, the first American Pope BTW, is standing Christian Values Ground about promoting Peace and Love.  And this Prez, who so desperately wanted the Nobel Peace Prize only wants and promotes Hatred, Violence, Cruelty and War... not Peace or Love towards Fellow Human Beings. 

Anyway, looks like a Storm is moving in from the Southwest so we'll probably get some Rain and extend this nice Cooler Weather we're enjoying now for the past few Days.  It's only 76 Degrees at 6:00 p.m. with a nice Cool Breeze, I'm Loving it.  We don't need the Heat on or the Air Conditioner on when it's temperate like this.  And every bit of Savings is crucial now that the Economy is so jacked up.   The SWEET SALVAGE "Down To Earth" Themed Event is coming up within days now.  I cribbed just a couple Sneak Peek Images I liked from their Social Media preview of it.  I don't have Space for large Furniture now but I sure did Love this Old Vintage Industrial Style Desk {Below}.  If we didn't already have Two Old Vintage Industrial Workbenches on the Back Patio I'd get something like this to use as a Workbench and to Display items too back there.

We've been fortunate to get some Work Benches given to us that are Vintage Industrial from some of the Farms and Ranches that The Daughter has been Working at.   One is Selling his Property so disposing of a lot that isn't conveying with the Sale.  The more Rustic, Old and Functional it is the more I dig it, I have a fondness for Vintage Industrial Style anyway.  Wouldn't mind an entire Loft Style Living Space Decorated with that Genre of possessions and furnishings.  If we ever do get around to taking some Equity out and building a Two Story Bunkhouse out of Old Brick in the Back Pasture, I'd Decorate at least the Lower Unit in Vintage Industrial Style and move in there in my latter Years.  I'd relinquish the Main House to the Kiddos and the Upstairs Unit to whichever one would want to live there separately.   I think once I'm in my late 70's and beyond, I'll want a more simplistic smaller Living Space for myself and let the Kiddos inherit the larger Living Spaces early to live in and Maintain.

My Long-Term Care Plan involves trying to live on my own Property with Adult Kids or Adult Grandkids being my Caregiver and getting Paid to be, since you can get a Caregiver Income for Caring for a Parent or Grandparent.  A Spouse doesn't Qualify for Paid Caregiving by the Government.  But The Son has Friends already Caregiving for an Ailing, Sick or Elderly Parent and they get an Income for doing so.  The Government knows that's still Cheaper than paying for Long Term Care in a Nursing Home and most folks could never afford that.  So, keeping them at Home being Cared for is preferable and more Economic, also better for the Individual if their Caregiver is up to that level of their Care.  The Man's Caregiving, if a Paid Caregiver were to be doing it, would be around Twenty Grand or more per Month.  If they could even find anyone willing to do it coz he's requiring Extreme Caregiving now.  I'm Free so... that Saves the Government a fucking shit ton of Money per Month. 

Anyway, just musing about possibilities for the Future, as Grim as it might end up, we just never quite know, do we?   I ran into my fellow Vendor Friend John from the Antique Mall while we were out and about.  He's been in failing Health with severe Kidney damage caused by taking one of the Medications he knows I also have to take for Diabetes.  He was taking Lisinopril for something else, I think his High Blood Pressure, so had been on it for over 20 Years and it's crapped his Kidneys out coz his Doctor neglected to Monitor his Kidney Function as he should have!!!  He's having the Rarer Side Effects of Kidney Damage and High Potassium Levels from taking it.   So far I've had no adverse Side Effects from taking it, thank goodness.  And my Doc checks my Kidney and Liver Functions regularly due to the Med Regimen I have to be on to Stabilize Type II Diabetes.  I knew I hadn't seen John in a while, or his Wife, now I know Why.  I feel so badly for them, coz he looks frail now and is in constant Pain with his Kidneys.

I've had so many Friends Die recently that I don't wanna add to the List. But, when you get Older it's what ramps up, the Losses of people you know of your peer group and generation.  Even some Younger than you from other generations actually, who didn't get the privilege of growing Old, which is not afforded to many.  I always grieve terribly for anyone taken too soon and prematurely crossing over.  At least us and our peers have had a good long Run and so it's more expected and not unusual at a certain Season of Life that your Lifespan is pretty much complete.  I'm not sure how long a Run I wanna have, depending on the shape I'm in more than any specific Age achieved.  Quality of Life is more important to me than Quantity of it.   And I don't think anyone wants to suffer or see anyone suffering.

I just realized that along with taking The Grandson to Social Security in the Morning, I also have to take The Man to see his Cardiologist, Dr. Pham, who performed his Heart Procedure, by 4:00 p.m..  He will have seen Nurse Remi that day too, so it's a busy day.  Then on Wednesday he has Lab work scheduled and I've got to Work, I'm covering for someone for a few Wednesday Night Shifts this Month and next.  Then on Thursday is the event I mentioned earlier in the Post.  The Calendar has been very full all of April and is filling up for May too.  I still have PT Dates I know they want The Man to have which aren't yet Approved by Insurance so haven't been Scheduled until they are Approved.  They want to pack quite a few of those in every Week so we'll see what happens and how effective they are at monitoring his condition or improving it some?

 

It's Tuesday Morning and I woke at 4:00 a.m. instead of 5:00 a.m., which is when we have to be up to get Princess T to Work by 6:00 a.m..  The Grandson's Social Security Interview is this Morning and Nurse Remi is coming this Morning for The Man.  Then at 4:00 p.m. I have to get him to Dr. Pham's for his Cardiac follow-up with who did his Surgical Procedure.  Dr. Pham has been very worried about the subsequent Hospitalizations and ER visits we've had since the Surgery.  It's been a LOT.  It's No Bueno if the Surgery was a Success but the Patient still Dies.  Or keeps trying NOT to!  *Le Sigh*  His Blood Pressure has been good so I haven't had to administer that Medication out of the 18 he's now taking daily, sometimes several times daily!  Every Sunday when I fill his Medication Organizer I'm almost in Tears so The Son and The Grandson have to help me to do it so I won't be overwhelmed and anxious about it.

 

I don't wanna get confused or mess up, so having a 2nd or 3rd person involved is Helpful.   Nurse Remi said she'd do it for us, but we don't know how long we'll qualify to have her coming, so it's best to get used to doing it yourself if you can manage that.  She assisted The Son on how best to Organize administering so many Medications and he's Autistic, so Order and Organizing shit that has a repetitive Routine is his Super Power.  *LOL and Whew*  Even he said, Mom, this is like being a Pharmacist, it's Crazy and no wonder you got overwhelmed doing it, especially when they keep changing Dad's Medications or dosages all of the time, it's confusing!!!   I'm sure we're not the only Clients who struggle with so much Medication and how demanding and extreme the Caregiving can get.  The Man could never do this if he didn't have us.

I think he'd even refuse to take any of it since remember how much Medication he'd hidden over 12 Years that we didn't know about until quite recently?!!!!!!!   So now he's not allowed to go get the Mail or open Packages delivered, since the VA sends all his Meds by Mail and now I told him me or the Kiddos will manage ALL Mail, since, he can't be Trusted not to hide it... or forget what he did with it or where he put it.  He'd hidden Bills too so now it's one of his numerous Safety Prompts, no more Touching of The Mail!!!  *Le Sigh*  He doesn't even know nor can he explain why he was hiding it all, or putting it in weirdo places and then forgetting about it without any of it even being opened or used by him!?!   He's hidden some of his Underwear before and I have to try to find where he's spirited it away or just go buy new ones!!!  Same with his Socks... so now The Daughter goes thru his Closet on The Regular to find any 'hidden' shit he's squirrelled away like a Packrat!!!

Other than all of that, everything is Swell.  *Bwahahahaha*  I won't go to The Gym this Morning, usually I go on Tuesday Mornings coz I'm up so early and at 6:00 a.m. attendance is real light there.  But, since I have so much on the Calendar Today it would wear me out too much to add that to the itinerary for the Day.  It might rev me up nicely to have a Workout to begin the busy Day, but I might run out of Gas before the Cardiac Appointment this Afternoon?  *LOL*  I did fill up with Gas and spent even more this time since now Gas is up to around $5 for Regular and $6 for Diesel, and the better quality Gas is in between both of those prices.  So those of you still paying around $4 are among the more fortunate in America right now actually.  The News always cites YOUR lower Prices and say how outrageous and unaffordable THAT is, but for States like Arizona, California and Hawaii, you Guys are paying WAY less than us by a Dollar or more a Gallon!!!

When The Son was applying for that part-time Work at the Dollar Store the Manageress was telling him they're having to raise all their Prices again!!!!!  *Le Sigh*   Since Pandemic the Dollar Stores have almost Doubled Prices already, went from 99 Cents to $1.25, to $1.50 currently... and now I'm sure it will go to $1.75 or $2.00 next?  Still cheaper than most other Stores, so, whaddya gonna do?  I Shop the Discount Grocer and the Dollar Stores for a lot of our Essentials now.  And for Clothing we always buy from the Chazzas and get secondhand Wardrobe, have for Years.  It was the only way Custodial Grandparents not being compensated for Raising a 2nd Generation could afford to keep The Grandkids in Clothing and Shoes as they grew so frickin' fast!!!  So they were used to wearing secondhand Clothes and still do to this day.  It gave them their own Fashion Sensibilities since they weren't buying or wearing New Clothes and following Retail Trends like their Friends.

Princess T and The Young Prince are Fearless about Fashion anyway and said Kids and Adult Peers who were Buying Full Retail all looked so "Copy & Paste" anyway, they didn't wanna look so Pedestrian and so Boring and Unoriginal!   *LOL*  We often go Chazza Shopping together and did on our day out Yesterday, doing some Goodwill Hunting.  My Friend John ran into us at a "Goodwill" and let me take a screen shot of the April 20% Off Coupon coz I no longer have an E-Mail to receive it.   John trawls the Chazzas for Inventory for his Spaces at the Antique Mall, unlike me, who is downsizing, he has to Buy what he's reselling.  He and his Dear Wife Downsized Years ago when they moved into a Retirement Community at Pebble Creek near the "Goodwill" I almost always run into them at.  I think they must go there daily?  *LOL*  I've never dropped in at that location and not seen them.  *Smiles* 

John always has his Coupon on his Phone so I take a Screen Shot of it since he knows I no longer have an E-Mail to receive it.  I Wish that the "Goodwill" just had what SAVERS has, various Discount Days where you don't need a Coupon Online.  Yes, they do have Military Day and Senior Day too, but, the 20% Off requires their Coupon on other days.  SAVERS has Coupons but has more Discount Days for Customer Appreciation and Half Off Day.  So, there's very few Days you have to even have the Hard Copy Coupons they give you for Donations and I've not had to get sent one Online to perpetually have to Save.   "Goodwill" did away with their regular 50% Off Days and now makes it a Big Deal if they have One Day a Month half off.  I no longer Donate to them ever... and don't shop there as often either anymore until they treat their Customers and their Donations better than they currently do.

But, Princess T wanted to see what the 'competition' was like, she likes to gloat over how much better Customer Service and better they Showcase and treat their Merch is at SAVERS, and, it's the Truth.  *Smiles*   Her Store is exceptional, all the Employees and how they treat their Donations respectfully and keep their Stores Organized and Clean.  It's a well oiled Machine and I like shopping there and did even before they wanted to hire my Grandchild and urged her to apply after High School was a wrap for her.  She won't always wanna Work there but it was a good First Job to get.  She's been working alongside me in either unpaid Ministry work or the Antique Mall Spaces for Years so she already had an excellent Work Ethic and Experience beyond her Years.  That Kid has liked Working since she could Walk.  I was like that too.  We were those Toddlers Working our Hustle!   Born to do it I suppose?  *LOL* 

I don't remember ever NOT Working actually and was Earning Money from the time I could remember and working my Hustle even when I had no Money to Negotiate with!!!  *LOL*   Princess T was identical, so she's a Chip off the ole Block.  When she had no Money she'd still manage to Negotiate Deals and get Free Stuff!!!  *Smiles*   Handy, since, that was less I hadda come up with the Money to Buy for her.  If she REALLY wanted something and I couldn't afford it, that Kid would find a way to get it with her own Negotiating prowess or Hustle!!!   The Son was always like that too, he was an expert Hustler by Age Two.  He'd Hustle Grown Men at Arcades just to be able to play the Video Games for Free!  *LOL*  And he'd Hustle the Carnies at the State Fairs and Carnivals to be able to play the Midway Games for Free too.  As most Autistics, he could figure out Angles and Trajectories and shit to Ace almost any Game they had, effortlessly.  Basketball was no Challenge for him, or hitting Targets with anything, a Dart, a Gun, a Ball, a Rock.  That's when a Disability becomes an Ability, of sorts... *Winks*

 

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Blessings, Love and Light from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian