Let's Just Go With An Untitled Post Hook Coz I Got Nothing Clever

 

Let me just make this an early Publishing Two-Fer Post since I'll be out the Door very early Tomorrow Morning to attend an Event.  But, for Today:  After dropping Princess T off to Work I had to go to Two different Convenience Stores to get what I wanted/needed coz each was having problems with their Technology and out of a lot of product.   Circle K uses the dreaded Kiosks, which sometimes Work and more often malfunction.  Their Cashiers no longer want to do Cashiering and provide Customer Service, it interrupts them being on their Phones, so insist you use the Kiosk, then get bent out of shape when it malfunctions and they then have to Help you anyway and actually do their Job!   Such was the case this Morning when the Kiosk malfunctioned halfway into me paying Cash for my Coconut Macaron Hot Coffee!  I'd Paid Down to about the last 98 Cents of a Two Dollar Twenty Nine Cent transaction, when it got an Error Cash Code, rebooted, gave me only 8 Cents back and wanted to charge me the full amount again!!!   WTF?

I didn't know what to do, it had withheld about half the purchase price I'd already inserted into the damned thing and now wanted the full amount again!  I didn't wanna pay double so I asked the Cashier what to do?  She got surly and irritated right away coz she couldn't figure it out either or be bothered.  She then acted like I didn't wanna pay for my Coffee and angrily said, just take it.   I told her I expected to pay for my Purchase, but, just didn't wanna pay double, and Why I don't like using these Kiosks, they malfunction too often.   She waved me off like a nuisance and a Resting Bitch Face and so, fuck it, I left with my Coffee partly comped coz of a lazy surly Employee becoming agitated that I'd interrupted her Not Working.  *LOL*  I had to go to the 2nd Convenience Store to get what The Daughter needed for me to pick up for her, they were out of one item she needed, again, and I substituted as best I could, wasn't going to a 3rd Convenience Store, too Inconvenient.  *LMAO*

Well, their Technology was also on the fritz and their Card Reader couldn't do Tap Payments or Slide, but, he said that the Insert of a Debit should Work.  Handy, since I didn't have Cash to pay for her Stuff like I had with mine.   And, even Weirder, a lot of places now aren't taking some forms of Cash!!!   No Big Bills and Wal-Mart recently put out that they're not taking some Dollar Bills!  Just WTF, no taking of U.S. Legal Currency is just Wrong.  Wal-Mart is transitioning to a Cashless Payment System since they wanna Track you and your Purchases.   Now, I've heard not every Wal-Mart is at the place of implementing the No Acceptance of Cash Policy, but, it's deeply disturbing to me that they are even contemplating it.   And tho' initially I thought it was just a baseless Rumor, apparently, it's more than that.  I've run across Stores already not accepting Cash Payment!  Or, say they do but don't give Change back if you don't have the exact amount!!! 

 Perhaps they think it will cause less Robberies too, or Employee Theft, to have no Cash on Hand, I dunno?   And the whole App Thing really annoys the Hell out of me, I don't wanna use them.  And if Cash becomes Worthless, what IS that actually saying?  Anyway, Vent over, it just is the way things just are now.  But, I don't have to like it or not have my concerns and theories about it.  *Smiles*   I remember my Welsh Gran-Gran giving me an Anglesey Mines Coin from the 1788's that is Copper with a Druid's Head on it and says along the Side parameter it could only be Earned and Spent in the Anglesey Area, London or Liverpool.  Liverpool is across the River Dee from my Mom's Home Town of Flint, North Wales.  That is the way they used to control People and force them to Earn only Tokens/Cash that could be spent in a limited vicinity they Controlled and probably Set Prices of.  I still have that Coin, it's worth quite a lot these Days.  My Gran-Gran did Die of the Lung Disease of Working Mines and Nylon Factories before they had any Health Requirements for Protecting Employees.  

 My Coin is in better condition than the one I cribbed Images of off the Internet, I Cherish it coz it was a Gift from my Gran-Gran.   I remember my Nanna HATED to be called Nain tho', which is Welsh for Grandmother and pronounced like Nine.  Taid {pronounced Tide} or Tadcu, is what we could have called Gran-Gran.  Our Welsh Grandparents knew that being Americans, we'd have trouble properly enunciating their Language, so, they kept it Simple for us American Grandkids.   *LOL*   My Nanna's English was fluent and understandable, Gran-Gran's was not, nor was most of the rest of the extended Family.   The Man never could understand my Welsh Uncle, Mom's big Brother, so I always had to translate.  When I was a Teen I didn't understand him either and it grieved him coz I was his Favorite Niece, no brag, just fact, and he wanted so badly to speak English well enough to where I could understand him.   He attained that by the time I was Middle Aged and he was in his 70's.  *Smiles*  He even got to where he could Write Letters in his broken English and it tickled me to read them.  My Native American Grandma and my Welsh Gran-Gran could not Read or Write and I didn't realize that for a long time.  So I'm extremely Sympathetic to those denied an Education or a good one. 

These Wonderful Quotes and Images are via MAGNOLIA PEARL and I Believe are Uplifting Reminders that there is still Hope, Light, Wisdom and Beauty in this World and in some of it's People.  So let each of us Be the Change that we Desire.   I've spent almost all day in Bed Sleeping, I'm Tired so I probably needed it, but had to make sure they woke me up in time that I won't be late picking Princess T up from Work.  I Woke Up to TWO of Amber's Daughter's here now tho', things aren't good at Home since their Mom lives with her Boyfriend's Family and not a good scene there.   Both her Daughters are grown and in their 20's now, one Works, the other is unemployed, I don't mind them visiting, but they can't stay for Days becoz it's chaotic at Home and they don't wanna be there.  I'm sympathetic, and it's Zen here so I know they feel comfortable and relaxed.  They Adore The Daughter, she is closer to them than they are to their Mom.  Amber didn't Raise them, their Dad did, but they didn't wanna live in Yuma, more opportunities in Phoenix.  Neither of them has a Vehicle, I guess TJ gave one a ride here and the other one's Boyfriend gave her a ride here.  They don't have a ride Home or to their Grandma's House tho'.  *Le Sigh*

The Daughter is quite ready not to be Adult Kid Babysitting anymore, she likes both Young Women, but, their Situation is such that it's awkward for her, since, Amber is one of her Best Friends since Childhood.   So, she doesn't wanna become deeply involved in their Family Issues of Life and that complex dynamic, which is Wise.  She's listened to the Girls, she thinks they don't feel Heard at Home and their Parents don't treat them like Young Adults and they resent that.  We treat anyone 18 and over as a Young Grown Ass Adult, and you really have to.   As my Parents used to say, the Lord may still be Working on them, but, at 18, you're Grown and need to be Respected as a Brand New Young Adult and not a Child anymore.  I think the Girls are immature becoz they've been treated like Kids too long, Princess T is far more Mature and she's quite a bit Younger than both of them.  Amber's Youngest is Princess T's Age, but that one is Gay and lives her Life Independently, becoz her Sexuality wasn't so well received by the Dad and his side of the Family, it happens to a lot of Gay Youth.

So, I told The Daughter that after I pick up her Daughter, then I can take Amber's Daughters to their Grandma Rosemary's House.  It's not far from the Historic Home we used to own in the Old Barrio of our City.   I don't wanna play Taxi but I also don't want to have House Guests Days on end who have outstayed their Welcome.  *Sigh*   Nice Kids, but, they can't remain here forever, we got a full house and we're not "Adopting" anymore People with Issues.  *Bwahahahaha*  Princess T doesn't interact with them becoz she doesn't really know them and isn't a People Person, she's kind of part of the Anti-Social Social Club, so, she's been asking when they're gonna leave?  *Ha ha ha*   She knows her Mom is too Kind Hearted to tell them to leave and that I wouldn't have any problem with it, tho' I'd be Kind about it.  I will be loading their Asses up to go to THEIR Grandma's House after I pick my own Grandchild up from Work.   The one missed Work Today becoz nobody came to take her... and I'm not Taxi Service or Uber and don't have Gas Money to expend on other folks right now.  Or have Extras for Meals every day... if they're here, of coarse we Feed and Water them.  *LOL*  But, as The Man complained, we already got a lot of Kids around here... we don't need any Spares or Extras.  *LMAOROTF* 

Other than that, everything is Swell.  *Bwahahaha*   The Son had come Home from his first Day back at Work to say it hadn't been too bad.  The Village Idiot Boss is now bothering some new people and leaving him alone, so, that's a relief, the Guy tends to pick certain Employees to Dog and Lord over.   When The Son was "The One" just before being Laid Off, he was pretty sure part of the reason Why he got Chosen as well to be Let Go was that the Boss resented those who have more knowledge and experience than he does.  Perhaps he feels threatened and insecure, and, he kept saying The Son was their Best Worker but had an "Attitude".  *Eye Roll*  The Son didn't see it as Attitude so much as Explaining things when the Guy would say Stupid Ineffective Incompetent Shit or have unrealistic Expectations for Production and not be Managing Employees well.   He'd tell The Son to do something that would compromise the Quality of Work or wouldn't Work at all and cause a Finished Product to be rejected and have to be done over.  That costs the Company big Money.

 So The Son would speak up and explain Why it shouldn't or couldn't be done that way.  He was diplomatic about it but the Guy clearly felt challenged, pretty sure he knows he's not Qualified for the Job he's been given.  Most Unqualified folks actually do and they'll get testy and have an Axe to Grind when anyone brings Light to their inexperience and incompetence.   The Son is experienced and they knew he knows what he's doing and does it well, he'd gone up the Chain of Command, to no avail, lots of Nepotism Hires had happened when the Trust Fund Baby Bought the Company.   And clearly Trust Fund Baby has Money, but, that doesn't mean he has Expertise in running anything Successfully.  Sound familiar?  The parallels don't escape me and it's a good Lesson for The Son to Learn firsthand.  Since he didn't wanna involve himself in Politics Nationally, but the Politics and Posturing of things will involve you whether you like it or not in Life.

 But, The Son didn't want his own Quality of Work to suffer for an Idiot Boss sabotaging it and making him look bad or throw him under the Bus and deny he told him to do it in a fucked up way.   So, they called it Insubordination and Attitude.  It was a Double Edged Sword to fall upon.  He said his first Day back the Big Boss called him in and said just Chill the Attitude with this "Second Chance"... The Son just told him he wasn't Fired for anything HE had done Wrong and he didn't Quit, he got Laid Off, so what's this Second Chances 'Talk' all about, I don't Need Second Chances when I never fucked up the First Time?   He has a decent rapport with Upper Management and especially with the Sherman Williams Reps that they get their Paints from, and they all know he has Autism.  Autistics lack Filter and there is no way in Hell you're gonna be able to install one in their Heads or their Mouths, I don't Care Who you are.  If you can't handle the Truth, Unfiltered, best just to not Hire one.  *LMAOROTF*

 The Big Boss just said to try to Chill the "Attitude" coz Duane {the Village Idiot Boss} thinks it's a Problem and Insubordinate.  The Son just straight up countered with, "No, you KNOW that Duane IS THE Problem, it's not a Bad Attitude to want to do Quality Work we can be Proud to send out to our Customers.  I refuse to send out shitty Work on my Watch, that will have to come back and be redone, and you should back me up on that and want it too, that's all.   And Why is THAT a Problem?  I'm not trying to be Insubordinate, I just want to give you my Best Work and am refusing to compromise my Work and Reputation."   Arguing with an Autistic is an effort in Futility and I don't Care if you think yourself to be superb at Debating, to shut one down will take everything you have in you and then some, it's just not worth all the effort once you get them stuck on a Tangent they're Passionate about.   Your Sanity is more Valuable than forfeiting any Need to be Right, even if you ARE Right, but especially if you're Wrong.  *LOL*  He said no more was said to him all Day and they left him alone, which is exactly all he wanted.   

He said so long as he's not "The One" Duane fucks with and harasses constantly, he's Fine with the Village Idiot Fixating on someone else.  Other Employees that hadn't been Laid Off and weren't 'New', had come up to him all Day and said how relieved they were he's back becoz things have been so fucked up since the Layoff, which, went without saying.  Production has been compromised, Quality of Product has been compromised, Staffing has been compromised, it's caused Slackers to have to pick up the Pace and do their Jobs.  *LOL*  Since, all the best, most Qualified, Productive and Experienced Employees had been Laid Off.  They now have mostly Unqualified or Inexperienced Newbies and Nepotism Hire Grifters and Slackers, kind of like the incoming Administration, and you know that will never End Well.  Grifting and Incompetence just Sinks any Establishment, it's a Given.   Not a matter of IF it Goes Down, just WHEN?

My advice to him was tuck his Head in and Roll, no matter what they have him to do, no matter how menial, he's on the Clock at Top Salary no matter what, so, fuck it.  Be the Highest Paid Sander ever, even if that's an entry level Position they need you to fill coz they lost all the low paying Sanders and have none, so what?!   You're on the Clock at High Pay no matter what they have you to do Son, exploit it and don't Complain about it, put Pride and Ego aside.  *LOL*  Do his Quality Work and Excellence in Production Numbers, don't get involved in the Posturing or the Politics.  Since, he doesn't intend to stay any longer than he has to and it's their Ship, let them Sail it or Sink it, not his Circus, not his Monkeys.   That's what I did at the end of my First Corporate Life in Banking, and they Sunk it.  I didn't Care, I Retired early as an AVP with a good Reputation in the Industry.  I got mine while there was still some left and hosed them to come back as a Consultant when the RTC were shutting them down and they had to be in Compliance while it was all dismantled, restructured and reorganized.  *Winks*  No Negative reflection on me, my Excellent Reputation was Preserved and Valued by who Counted, I saw it coming, I see it coming with the Company my Son is at, it's a Sinking Ship that is Going Down and taking on Water.  

 The RTC had no Problems with me whatsoever, just who they'd replaced me with that Sunk a Financial Institution that had thrived for over 36 Years until a Shitshow came into Power there and folks started getting Indicted.  As for our Political Shitshow, they might have given 45/47 complete Immunity, but not his Flying Monkeys, they'll all Go Down with the Ship, many already did from the original Shitshow.  It's why they wanna Crash the Criminal Justice System, they know they're all Criminals and what Crimes they committed or intend to.  And how far they're allowed to get with it will depend on how far Down the Country wants to go or can go before it just fucking Bottoms Out?   I don't particularly think once Reality hits them upside the Head hard, that even those who Voted for him are gonna be All In anymore when they feel the Squeeze of Hard Knocks Life, a really Bad decision, and realize the level of Oppression and Fuckery they actually Bought into and installed.   Capitalist Fascism might actually be the worst.  Authoritarianism, Nationalism, Totalitarianism may end up with our much Creepier Hybrid of Fascism dreamed up by greedy insatiable American Oligarchs.

The Young Prince dislocated his Knee while moving a piece of Furniture while he's packing up to move back to Arizona.  So, that might delay his arrival, he's been told to take it easy and allow it to Heal.  He said Allen got on Meds for the Autism Outburst and inability to Mood Regulate.  He has VA Benefits since he's a Disabled Veteran, and so it's a good thing he was receptive to managing his Mental Health Issues, hopefully the Meds are Helpful?   The Anger Management was becoming very problematic when he simply couldn't Mood Regulate and then would Trigger the Young Prince's Paranoid Schizophrenia, which could End badly!   We didn't want that.   Allen is much bigger and stronger, but, he's not as Mental and once a Paranoid Schizophrenic goes Postal, it can become quite dangerous.   The Young Prince is Isolating himself so that he doesn't get Triggered into a Psychotic Break and keeping in contact with me as a Support System.   Until he arrives I'll have my Concerns that things could go Sideways on the turn of a Dime. 

  

But, I am very pleased to hear Allen is on Meds.  The Young Prince Microdoses to Manage his Mental Illness, it's actually been very effective and less dangerous than Psychotropics which he can't take anymore, being on them too long had compromised his Physical Health and damaged his Kidneys and Liver over Time.  So between Ages 7-15 we used them, but after that his Medical Doctor and his Psychiatrist said he had to be weaned off them since it was causing Harm to his Body now, we could no longer Manage his Mental Health with Mental Health Drugs.   He'd been on damned near all of them and required high doses since his Condition was severe... now Medicinal MJ does the Trick without the extremely Harmful Side Effects.   And it is Legal in Arizona and New Mexico, so, easy to obtain for him.  Of coarse no Insurances cover it, but, we'll find a way to budget for what he requires, it's essential.   He's actually in good Spirits considering his Marriage fell apart and he was initially distraught about that and done all he could to preserve or salvage it, in vain.  I think he's now in the Acceptance Stage of Grieving over it ending.  And perhaps even now relieved?

He knows that here at Home it's Unconditional Love and Acceptance and we run a Zen Household.   Nobody is allowed here to be verbally or physically harmful or abusive to anyone else or cause Drama and Headaches for the entire Household.  Mental Illness is an Explanation for Challenges but can never be used as an Excuse.  There is never a Good Excuse for Bad Behavior, period.  We have Boundaries and I'm the Enforcer of said Boundaries, which will not be Crossed.  Everyone stays in their own Lanes.  *Winks*  Everyone Respects that since I'm the Matriarch and we run a Matriarchal Tribe here at Forever Boheme'.  The Man has seen it works far better than the Patriarchal one he came from and was Raised in.  My Dad's People are a Matriarchal Society and Mom said it worked far better than the Patriarchal one she too was from and was Raised in.  I do not like the Patriarchy, I find it woefully Oppressive and less Zen and Kind in it's Function.  I think we call Earth, Mother Earth, for a reason, she is Powerful and yet Giving and Provides our Needs.   I personally do not Believe my God has a Gender, tho' most folks often refer to the Lord as a Male Pronoun.   But, Earth is my Mother Earth, of that I'm certain.  *Winks*

Amber's Kids did go to the Store with TJ and bought Food to prepare for Dinner, and cooked it, before they're leaving, so I appreciated that.  We had Pizza and Chili Cheese Home Fries, becoz that's what Kids in their Twenties like and know how to Cook.  *LOL*   I'd told them to Tone down the Chaos coz The Man was getting Sensory Overload with a bunch of Giggly Animated Young Adult Girls talking loudly and in unison, Young People can be louder and rowdier than they think they are.   They're good Kids, but I do think both have some Autism like their Mom has, they Stim and have no Filter, a lot of their Behaviors are very indicative of an Adult on the Spectrum.   One stands on her tippy Toes a lot and flutters her Hands when looking at TV or waiting for something.  They just blurt out what's on their Mind and it's not always Socially acceptable dialogue.  Example, they Adore TJ and he has told them he's battling Cancer. 

 So, the Older One, who seems the most afflicted, said matter of factly, that she wanted to spend time with him now coz "He's gonna Die real soon..." and she said it about Three Times!  And The Daughter is like, "Julissa, you shouldn't say that, he can and might hear you!"   And her Maternal Grandma currently is battling Cancer, so I Hope she hasn't blurted that out to Rosemary too?!  OMG, it reminded me when Allen once blurted out matter of factly that I probably only had Ten more Years left and he didn't even know Why The Man was even still Alive?!  *Bwahahaha*   We have Gallow's Humor and I know he has pretty severe functional Autism and no Filter, so, I didn't take Offense and it just cracked me up.  But my Kids and Grandkids got Mad at him for saying it out loud and to my Face, not picking up on Social Cues that it's not appropriate to say shit like that.  I just laughed and said, "Yeah, Allen, we can do the Math Darlin'..."  *Winks and LMAOROTF*   If you're easily Offended or have Delicate Sensibilities and get your Feelings Hurt easily, an Autistic Person might Wreck you.  *Bwahaha*

I got my Gold Metal Table Christmas Tree out of The RV Garage Mahal, since it's all Metal I doubt I can put Lights on it.  But, I want to put it up on a large Military Olive Green with Black Stripe Footlocker and make a very Interesting Christmas Tree Vignette that is Different than previous Years.   I Love this Vintage Tree and have never used it as the Main Tree before, so, it needs to Cycle thru at least the once and is small enuf to be easily put up and taken down with very little effort, but, with a big impact visually.   I've got to reposition some things in the Den, or temporarily move them out during Christmas, near the Fireplace, to put the Tree there again.  I'm kind of excited now to start Decorating for Christmas now that I've decided upon which Tree and a loose Theme I'm going for, it will Evolve Organically as a Theme and Style.   Of coarse I'll Photograph it when it's Done.  We will have a very small Christmas this Year with probably no Exchanges since everyone is broke right now and won't Economically Recover before Christmas is here.  That's Okay, we're all Grown, no Minor Children in the House now.

We have everything we Need and Want, so, there's no Pressure to do Gift Exchanges.  We enjoy more the time spent together during the Holidays and doing Fun things and Spiritual things that represent the Reason for the Season to us.   I don't like Christmas being too Commercial anyway, in our Household it's never been about that and probably never will be the primary focus.   The Kiddos all don't mind it being kept very small, intimate and no stress during it.   The Man knows I like Decorating for Holidays and Celebrating them in a way that we all find the most pleasing to us, regardless of what everyone else might be doing or focusing upon during Holiday Seasons.  I find a lot of folks feel very Stressed Out and Pressured into spending Money they don't really have during Christmas, and making it somehow some Idealized Perfect Christmas they fall short of, I find that diminishes what they should be enjoying of it and about it.   We're just not ever feeling any of that and have no point of reference, since it's not how we choose to Celebrate it.

I've always thoroughly Enjoyed all the Holidays and Holy Days and look forward to them, I don't have Dread about them.   They do kind of rush up on me sometimes, since as you get Older, I swear Time goes Faster and I don't know Why that is?!   And then they warp past too fast and I Miss them almost immediately after it's all a Wrap.  I Miss the Festivities and I Miss the Atmosphere and the Joys we experience during them.  I am transitioning right now from my Attachment to Autumn and embracing moving into Winter and it's Holidays and Vibe now.  I won't Let Go of Autumn and my Decor completely until the Day After Thanksgiving tho', that's my Timeline I usually go by to fully transition from one Holiday and Season into the next.  Even if we forego Thanksgiving and the whole Ham N Turkey Feast, we might Buy Turkey TV Dinners and call it a Day.  *Bwahahaha*  Yep, a Ghetto Thanksgiving it will then be, or, Family can choose the Holiday TV Dinner of their preference.  *Smiles* 

I'm having trouble getting the Show on the Road with Amber's Kiddos, they're over at TJ's and reluctant to just leave.  Rob had come over and said he was pretty much hanging out here so he didn't have to Entertain the Twenty-Somethings over there or be Rude, we all Laughed.  I gave them an ultimatum as to when my Ride Offer Expires and that they wouldn't be coming back over to our House and would have to figure it out how they get Home or to Gramma's House if they keep dicking around.   Not my Problem, not my Circus, not my Monkeys, Amber will have to arrange whatever they need if they don't take me up on my Offer on my Timeline, I don't Play or Bluff.   They'll be sitting on a Park Bench in the Rain, I don't Care, they Need to go Home now.  *Eye Roll*  This is Why I told The Daughter not to offer Invites to Younger People since, it's too much like Babysitting. 

Finally got her Kids gone and dropped off at their Grandma's House safely.  They're just typical Twenty-Something Year Olds and don't always pick up on Social Cues of when they're really overstaying a visit.  They really LIKE us and it shows and that's Sweet and it's flattering, but, they're too Young to wanna hang out with a lot.   And Rob didn't want them hanging out at his Parent's Home either, not appropriate, he felt uncomfortable that they wanted to hang out there with people in their 60's and 80's, they just don't know them to have a comfort level about that.  Anyway, I got it all resolved.   And now have watched a bit of The News to get somewhat caught up with Shitshow Two Point O and the Insane Clown Posse of Cabinet Choices being made.   And hearing some saying, well, let's see how it Works out... as if they don't know it's gonna be a Three Ring Circus and Cluster Fuck of epic proportions.  None is remotely Qualified or Experienced at the Positions they're being nominated for.  And this isn't a Reality TV Show and he's no Super Star, he's a numerously failed Businessman and out of Touch Trust Fund Baby who is a Consummate Conman, is seriously in cognitive decline and isn't Mentally Sound, he wants to be permanently installed.

The whole Political shitshow of picking the most outrageous Cabinet Choices to Flood the Zone, is like we're gonna be watching Four Years of a terrible replay of Celebrity Apprentice.  Which was a cheesy 'Reality' Show with no connection to Reality at all.  Just a Ratings grab and what could be the most controversial and outrageous to titillate those who eagerly consume Trash TV and those who Imagine it's actually Reality Based.   But, it's certainly no way to run a Country or provide competent Leadership and Guidance, that's for damned sure.  Half his Lineup now for Auditions is by various B Rated TV Personalities and Faux News Anchors!   I mean, Dr. Oz now... who indulged in Quackery for Profit, even tho' he is a Surgeon and should know better.  He was an Oprah Fixture for a while, or nobody would even know who he is, he's dangerous to the Public if he's willing to promote Quackery for personal gain.   He shouldn't be in charge of anything National regarding Public Health and Well Being.

But, I have to Imagine that a huge Voting Block feels these people Share THEIR Values, becoz they keep telling us so when they Interview any of them that Voted for him.   So, when all is said and done, they're gonna get exactly what they think they wanted and asked for.  When that blows up in their Faces, I have no Pity.  I save my Caring for those who never wanted this and stood firm against it.  We'll be the actual collateral damage, the rest will get exactly what they deserved.  And they really don't like you saying that to them, but, tough shit, I mean it.  I don't LIKE their poor choices fucking up everyone else's lives either and unraveling our Democracy intentionally.  And, it will if their Boy and his Insane Clown Posse manage to attain their Goals.   I don't wanna spend the next Four Years with Chaos, Hopelessness and threats of Violence, Revenge, Retribution exacted against American Citizens, I don't think anyone who didn't Vote for him did either.  An Elected President is SUPPOSED to Represent ALL Americans, even those who didn't Vote for them... and puts Country above Self, he gives no Illusion or even Pretense he will do that whatsoever.  It is in fact looking like an Extinction Level Event they will be Hosting for America... Fun Times.

In Real Time Tomorrow will be the Opening Day of the SWEET SALVAGE Christmas Event, so I'm not missing that.  The Man wants to go to and I think it will be a good time for us to immerse ourselves in the Holiday Spirit fully and visit with our Industry Friends there.   I know how much hard work they put into it and I had to miss Two other Christmas Events in the Far East Valley becoz I just couldn't commute that far and justify the expense with Gas still being relatively expensive, tho' down some from what it was.   We made enuf Money with our Recycling of Aluminum Cans to have a nice Breakfast out first, before the Event begins, I think we may go to 'Snooze' after dropping Princess T off at Work.  We're just gonna have a nice Day of it.   We can't get Brittany to Customize his Cowboy Hat yet, will have to wait for the December Show for that as his Gift from me.   Sales are still wayyyyy down at the Antique Mall and Unseasonably Soft, so it's looking like another abysmal Pay Period right AT the Holidays when it should be Strong, so... I just dunno... 

My Friends at all the Events are saying Sales are Softer than usual tho', so it's across the board sucky in the Industry.  Some Events are doing better than others at least in getting people to show up, but, whether they're spending is always questionable.  You can have a big crowd and still have them not spending/buying.   People want something Uplifting to look forward to and do, but might not be in a position to spend.  We'll be in that position ourselves so I totally understand.  I'm not spending on anything I don't have to and am bracing for a worsening Economy once the Insane Clown Posse is installed and dismantling the America we knew and replacing it with God knows what? 

  Even Project 2025 might not be foreboding enuf to foretell how fucked up it's gonna get.  And frankly, a lot of shit is performative and silly, creating a wedge and just being punitive.   And go to Cruelty to Prove a Point instead of establishing sound Policy.   Becoz Cruelty apparently IS the Point and News Cycle Domination as well.  What used to be Sacred for Liberal Democracy seems compromised and dying, so Russia is Celebrating that, so are other Adversaries as 45/47 got Elected again.  And they had a Russian Dissident who has Written an Op Ed about what an Insider Viewpoint thinks about what's happening, very Enlightening.  He knows how his previous Government in Russia works and thinks, how it operates, and what it's Goals are.  He claimed that Russian Officials feel America is going to Fall during this incoming Administration.  I'm in Agreement with that Assessment actually, and when our Adversaries are thinking that, it's Telling.

   

So, anyway, having Slept most of Wednesday away, perhaps I'll be well Rested for Fun on Thursday?  *Winks*  We'll see.   The Daughter and I stopped at Dairy Queen to have a Blizzard each after dropping Amber's Adult Kids off at their Grandma's and we Laughed a lot about totally inappropriate things.  *Smiles*   She's at the Age now where we both can be a couple of Sexually Liberated inappropriately dirty Older Ladies with our Minds in the Gutter and making crass Jokes with one another.  *Winks*   It was good to Laugh a lot, we Needed that, it's just been a Lot lately and Humor is a great Coping mechanism.  And we have really Sic Humor.  And we shouldn't be left Unsupervised  *LOL and Winks*  We were supposed to stop in at the Antique Mall, which is in the same Parking Lot at the DQ, but, we didn't.   I'd called in slightly earlier to get what my Sales were at and they were so Soft and Low that I couldn't see wasting our Time foofing the Showroom for nothing.   Didn't sound like anyone was there Shopping really coz Sales have been Flat all Week.   Plus, I didn't want them asking me to pick up even more extra Shifts than I already have for early December and Sales they'll be having.   I don't mind Working if I'll be Making Money, but if we're not... no incentive whatsoever.

Some other Streams of Income have been more profitable lately and so I'm focusing on what IS making me some extra discretionary Income now with consistency and less effort.  I'm not Lazy, but I do prefer Working Smart rather than Working Hard.   My Volunteer Work Days are mostly behind me now, since if I gotta spend the Time Working now, with the finite energy and stamina at this Season of Life that I have, I need it to have some sort of Benefit to us too.   I don't feel bad for asking what do I get out of it?   *LOL*   The Man just doesn't wanna put in Work anymore period, whatever he's doing now has to be Enjoyable or he's just not doing it.  *Smiles*   He doesn't want me knocking myself out for nothing and discourages me putting in the Work if there's no Payoff to it.  

 

We could be doing so many other things and prefer to be.  If it wouldn't benefit the Family and boost a Fixed Income trying to Support Three Generations who are all struggling Financially, I wouldn't bother to still be working and not fully enjoying Retirement.  Unpaid Full Time Caregiving is enuf of a Full Time Job for me frankly.   But, anyone on a Fixed Income these Days, Retired, Disabled, anyone Unemployed, Underemployed or otherwise for whatever reasons is barely making the Ends Meet, knows the Struggle.   I don't have to spell it out that it just takes more now and so you have to do more, whether it's convenient to, uncomfortable to, challenging to, doesn't really matter.  And so you do whatever it takes and however long it takes... if you want to remain Solvent and enjoy any semblance of a Quality of Life and not just barely Existing.   And right now a lot of Americans are in that Situation.  Didn't matter how long or how hard they Work or have Worked.

A lot of Erosion has happened and most except the most Elite and most Privileged are Feeling it.   And, it swayed a lot of them clearly to risk a Vote that most likely will come back to bite them personally in the Ass.  Desperate folks are prone to doing desperate things, seems a lot more were desperate than was noticed, for the outcome we got.  That's how I see it... desperate for Change and not really certain what kind of Change would be Good Change or Bad Change, that kind of confusion and Need causes vulnerability.   I know when I even talk to a Family Member struggling in Today's Economy, they don't feel Hopeful regardless of whose in the White House anymore.  The Son said regardless who Won or Lost, he felt he still has fewer Options than most Generations that came before him no matter how hard he Works or how well he Performs.  So, he really doesn't Care anymore, he's been Homeless and would still be Homeless if we didn't give him Shelter, even tho' he Works his Ass off.   I see his Point, I don't have Solutions or Answers for him.

I really feel things will get worse and so I can't offer Encouragement I don't feel or have to give my Adult Kids and Adult Grandkids.  I think the Future Generations are having their Future Stolen from them and it Grieves me tremendously.  As a Collective they Deserve better and they won't be getting it... and worse, most of them know it and are aware of that unfortunate fact.  They're not blind to what's going sideways, and, to be sure, some of them were swayed by the whole misguided Machisimo Chest Pounding and Anti-Establishment Fascist tough talk.  But, when I've asked most people under 35 what Fascism is, they have no idea and can't even spell it.  So, there is that disconnect to where we have failed a lot of them to obtain critical knowledge and critical thinking about the World around them and perhaps even compromised Educational Opportunity unless they had Families who could Bankroll a better one.

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The Untitled Post Hook coz I had nothing Clever... Dawn... The Bohemian

Cheaper Than Therapy

 I liked the above Meme, but, suppose I Swear too much to Qualify?  There would definitely be some F-Bombs on there!  *Winks and LOL*  Princess T had a meltdown coz her Mom was using her expensive Body Scrub, that she bought with her own Money, so she told ME to tell her Mom NOT to use it.  *LMAOROTF*  Of coarse The Daughter didn't know, she thought I'd bought it, and I Share my shit... coz, Sharing is Caring, Right?  *Winks*  Kids are so funny, once they have to spend their own Earned Money and begin to realize what shit costs.  *Bwahahaha*  I remember once, her Boyfriend took her to a Restaurant on a Date, that we've taken her to since she was little.  She comes Home incredulous, "Do you know how much he spent!!!???!"   Well, Yeah, we've been taking you there for damned near Two Decades now!  *LOL*  Too damned funny!

So, she went out again with her Gay Boy Posse, now she's Free and Single again, she doesn't have to set aside Time for a Boyfriend.  *LMAO*   She likes being unattached, I'd venture to say she prefers it in fact.  She just doesn't like having to Deal with other People's Emotions and Feelings, too complicated.  *Smiles*  I do understand, that's how I was until I was in my late 20's actually, and preferred not having a Boyfriend or any long term commitment or attachment to another Person.   I was Surprised at myself for even wanting to be Married and sustaining one for well over Three Decades now, who knew?!  *Ha ha ha*  I can be very detached and I know that about myself.  It's not that I have Hate or Dislike for anyone I would spend Time with, I just don't enjoy spending too much Time with anyone without some Apartness from them too.  *LOL*

What's funny about that to me is that I can become very attached to Stuff.   But with People, not so much, becoz how a Person might Act can really cause me to not want to be around them much, if at all.  Stuff is inanimate, so, uncomplicated to have around all the time.  You've got to be a very easy to get along with Zen Individual for me to want to be around you a lot.  Coz if you even Smell like Drama and a Headache, forget about it.  Some folks are very easy to get along with and be around, and with some folks, I Like them, but a little bit of them goes a long way, you know?  *Smiles*   And, I Cherish my Solitary Time too much to forfeit it.  The Balance of Togetherness and Apartness has to be appropriate.

So, I totally Connected with how Princess T feels about being around People or having a Significant Other.   It can be suffocating if they're too Needy or want to do everything together.  It's a Wonder I adapted to Motherhood so well and Raised Two Generations of Kids, coz, Kids can be very Needy and wanna stalk you.  *LOL*   The Adult Kids and Adult Grandkids still Laugh about how they hadda have Mom/Gramma Radar, so that I couldn't Sneak Off, even stealthily.  Lord knows I tried!  *Bwahahaha* The same with The Man, especially now he's Older and seems to have developed a Dependency upon me, to where he gets Separation Anxiety!!!   I Sneak Off sometimes and tell the Kiddos to Watch him for me, they say he almost has a Panic Attack!  "Where's your Mom/Gramma!!!???"  *LOL*

Then he'll sit in the Livingroom, in the Media Chair in there, which he almost never does when I'm Home, so that he can tell the moment I arrive back Home.   And the Kiddos tell me it's kinda Sad, coz he has no concept of Time anymore, so he's anxiously awaiting my return, even if it's a short errand or I've gone to Work.   And I think that becomes common with Dementia too, coz my Mom did that.  She lived Independently for a while, until we realized she couldn't anymore and was formally Diagnosed.  Well, I'd JUST have visited her or taken her somewhere... left, a Friend of hers would call her, and she'd swear she hadn't seen me in WEEKS and was out of everything we'd just resupplied her with!!!  So, then they'd call me!!!  And I'd have to tell them I JUST left, or had been there a Day or so before, and taken care of everything for her!!!

At first I thought mebbe she did it for the added Attention and Companionship, so that more of her Inner Circle would visit more often?  She did live Alone and didn't Drive, tho' she often took the City Bus if we didn't take her where ever she wanted to go or while we were Working.  Both The Man and I Worked long Hours and were On Call for our Careers.  Plus, we were Raising Children, Two Generations of them while she was still Alive.  But, then it became clear that she really wasn't remembering to a degree we had to get it checked out and figure out what was going haywire.  And getting her involuntarily placed into Long Term Care was a Living Nightmare I'd never wanna go thru again and cannot afford at all.  So, we do Hope The Man can always be met at his Point of Need by us and here at Home.

Kamala was gonna help the Sandwich Generation provide In Home Care and have it Covered by Medicare/Medicaid... and of coarse now that's off the Table.   With having 3 Generations here helping one another, we have it covered for now and how he currently is, but, many Families do not have backup or any present Help.   The Daughter does very well Caring for her Dad, she's done In Home Care for Elderly Friends and Family off and on for many Years and enjoys it.   She'd Clean, Cook for, Shop for, Visit with, help Dress and/or Bathe, some of her Older Friends here and in Mexico, often just Volunteering the Service, since they all were so good to her and Adored her.  She has a lot of Patience for Old People, even the really difficult ones.  She doesn't put up with anyone's shit either, so, challenges them when they're being Unlovely.  *Winks*

The Son doesn't do as well, nor did the Ex-DIL, when they'd Help me with The Man, he could be too difficult for them and exhaustive to Watch in my absence, so I could get Caregiver Respites.  The Young Prince simply can't be responsible for his Grandpa, it overwhelms him, and frankly, he's not Well enuf to do it, tho' Allen could take one for the Team if it wasn't for too long.  *Bwahahaha*  Princess T is a lot like her Mom, she enjoys Helping with him and doesn't put up with any nonsense by him.  *LOL*   I know if he's been extra difficult or misbehaving for The Girls becoz he'll be in a Time Out when I get Home.  *Bwahahaha*   He won't want them to Tell on him either, but, it's a Given that they will.  *Smiles*  And I'll have The Talk with him about Why he was giving any of the Kiddos a hard time?   I KNOW WHY, but, have to remind him I need Breaks unless he wants me having Caregiver Burnout again?  He does not.  *Winks*

The Kiddos are really all good with him, so it's not as if he's under any duress having them filling in instead of some Stranger coming in to do it.  Mostly all he really has to do is sit in our Bedroom in his Media Chair watching his Big Screen TV like he always does anyway, and being Served Meals by them when I'm gone.   It's not so Hard.   He's the one that makes it Hard.   And now I leverage it with saying if he can't behave, we're not gonna go do the Fun Things he likes to do with me that he looks forward to.   They are Simple things he can still do, but, he does really look forward to them and so he's more inclined to behave if that's the incentive/reward for not giving everyone a hard time and acting up.   Full Time Caregiving is not for the Faint of Heart. 

 If you do it for Pay as just your Career Choice, then at least you get a Salary, Time Off and Vacation Time... Unpaid Family Members Caregiving do not!!!  For us it's 24-7 and 365 with no compensation for what we had to give up or sacrifice in order to do it.  Qualifying to be a Paid Family Caregiver is very Specific, Spouses do not Qualify.  Even if you had to give up your Income to do Unpaid Caregiving and your Spouse became too Disabled to Work.   And, none of the Kiddos could do it Full Time due to their own Disabilities, it would overwhelm them if I wasn't here.   So, it does concern me if something happens to me first.  Not that I want anything to happen to him, but it's like wondering what would happen to your Kids or your Pets if you weren't around anymore.  If you have Adult Disabled Loved Ones, you always have that concern hanging over your Head and your Heart.

This Great-Granddaughter turned 5 Months Old.   I know I'm highly biased, but, she's a Cutie Patootie.  *Smiles*  Her Mama is the Granddaughter whose currently going thru a Divorce and now doing the Single Parent Ordeal with the Two Great-Grandchildren... a Toddler and a 5 Month Old, so, it's exhausting Physically and Emotionally for her right now.  She waited so long to Marry and start a Family so I know this is very hard for her that the Marriage didn't last long at all and there was no way to salvage it.   Much like The Young Prince, it's a bitter Pill to swallow when you're All In but your Spouse is not.   At least with the Gay Grandsons not being Breeders and deciding not to Adopt, they have no Children that have to Deal with the Relationship ending.   The only good thing is this Granddaughter's Two Kiddos are so Young, they won't really remember their Parents ever having been Married or Together.

The Older Granddaughter and her Hubby just Celebrated another Anniversary, the Color Photo is them as they are Today.  They've been Childhood Sweethearts since they were only very Young Tweens and are Best of Friends as well as being Life Partners.   The Black N White Pix above is the Couple as very Young Tweens.   They look as Happy and in Love now as they did way back then as Kids.   That's the Storybook Union, when you've been close since Childhood and then get to spend the rest of your Lives Together still so close and now Raising your own Children.   They have Two Girls and a Boy.   I'd like all of them to live closer, so we could spend actual time with the Adult Grandkids and the Great-Grandkids who live on the East Coast and in Mexico.   We can't Travel so much anymore due to The Man's Fragile Health and inability to Travel well anymore due to cognitive decline and TBI making it hard for him too.  Disruption in his Routines and what is unfamiliar is hard on him.

I'd like to be able to Travel more while I still can, but, if we can't do it as a Family, or even as a Couple, it wouldn't be the same, so, I abstain too.  So, I'd really like all of them to be able to Travel to Arizona for Visits, a few times it's almost happened, but, something always came up that didn't make it happen.  I'm Grateful for Social Media so we can vicariously see all of them growing up and living life, but, it isn't the same as being there.   I feel any of them we never get to spend time with in Real Life, don't get to know us, nor do we really get to know them, as intimately.   You do the best you can from a distance to establish some Relationship tho'.   Kind of like this Community, we get to 'know' one another, and even become close to some, but it's rare that we get to actually meet in person.  It has happened tho' and the Online Connection was Real enuf to translate into In Person Relationship as well.

The Man isn't keeping regular Hours, so he's often wandering around the House like a Lost Soul when he should be Sleeping.  So long as he doesn't wander out of the House I'm Okay with it.  I told him the first time I have to put out a Silver Alert on his Ass at Three in the Morning tho' will be the last time!  *LOL*  Then, once I'm up and checking on him, which interrupts my Sleep pattern, wouldn't you know he crawls back into Bed and Sleeps like a Baby... just WTF?!   So, he's like an Infant that way, it's similar to having a Newborn and not getting your Sleep coz of their wacko annoying habits.  *Le Sigh*  This is Why I'm often Blogging at ridiculous Hours, to try to wind back down after checking on him coz he wasn't beside me in Bed and I have to be sure he's okay and still in the damned House?!   Usually I find him sitting in the Media Chairs in the Dark, either in our Bedroom or the Livingroom, staring into Space!!!

The Son is up by 4:00 a.m. to get ready for Work and Princess T is up by 5:00 a.m. to get ready for Work, so, if he's up at those Hours and I'm not, they'll come Wake me to tell me Dad/Grandpa is acting Weird.  Well, now Weird being his Normal, we're less alarmed about it and just more annoyed about it.  Telling him to go back to bed.  *Bwahahaha*  Then I'll often take him Canning and doing Environmental Cleanup for a few Hours to wear his Ass out and give him some Exercise and Vitamin D in the Sunshine, hoping that might regulate him to Sleep better?  Otherwise, I swear to God, he might not Sleep at all!!!???!   I do know that Dementia can damage the parts of the Brain that regulate and control your Internal Clock and Sleep-Wake Cycle and have Pain and Discomfort... he seems to have all of that going on.   I give him Melatonin Supplements since I know his Brain is probably producing less of it Naturally now he's got onset Dementia.

We do all the Calming shit for him to make a relaxing Atmosphere to Help him be Physically and Mentally soothed.   He fidgets and paces a lot, sometimes doing or saying things inappropriate and having to be gently reminded not to, or just distract him from doing, since he often seems unaware.   A changing or overwhelming environment can easily Trigger him now, or anything painful, confusing or causing him discomfort.   So it's my Job to reduce as much of that as possible so he remains less agitated, anxious or fearful.   I avoid arguing with him, or reminding him he forgets,  tho' for now, at least some necessary confrontation works, but I know from the experience with Mom, later, avoiding confrontation is just Wise.  *LOL*   They can get Madder than a Wet Hen and often for no apparent reason anyone can fathom, so, confrontation just escalates that behavior.   I discuss the Challenges Openly so if anyone else is going thru this as a Caregiver, mebbe it might be Helpful?

So, saying all that at 4:00 in the Morning means I JUST got him back in Bed and now he's Sleeping like a Baby and I'm up and unable to get back to Sleep!  So, I Blog.  *Bwahahaha*   The Son will ask me Why I'm up and I'll just One Word Explain, "Dad...", and then no more Words are necessary.   If I run into Princess T at an Ungodly Hour, same Explanation, different Word, "Grandpa...".  *LOL*   The Daughter, due to having Schizophrenia, doesn't keep regular Hours either, so, sometimes she'll tell me to go back to Bed and she'll Watch her Dad for me.   She often has Psychotic Symptoms that cause unnecessary Fears or Anxiety that keeps her up and pacing around, so, they can just do that in Unison, Works for me.   I've had Decades of not having to Watch her so I'm less inclined to fret about her erratic behaviors now like I used to when she was a Teen/Early 20's.  *LOL*  She's been on her own from early Teens to just a few Years ago and Survived everything, so... I Imagine she'll be Fine.  *Smiles*

Plus, she's always been highly resistant of anyone attempting to be her Caregiver, whereas her Son's Schizophrenia doesn't seem to Manifest that way, he knows he Needs one and isn't resistant at all.   Perhaps with his IQ being so High he has more Awareness and has had it earlier on, even tho' his Symptoms of the Schizophrenia and D.I.D. seem much worse than hers ever were.  He has 7 Alters, she has 4, so he has more Personalities I might be Dealing with at any given time.   But, he's been exhibiting them longer and Diagnosed earlier too.  He was 7 when we were told he suffered from his Conditions and got formally Diagnosed, she was 15.  Since this has been my Normal for a very long time, sometimes a whole Lifetime, since Mom was SMI from as far back as I can even remember, I guess it doesn't Freak me Out like it does most folks. 

 You develop ways of Coping that Work for you around those with Mental impairments of various kinds.  Not that I'm spared, I am Bipolar and have Adult ADHD and OCD, I Cope with Methods I developed for myself.   *Bwahahaha*   Seriously, I try to avoid what I know are my own Triggers and Warn anyone if they're heading there with me, so that they can choose to knock it off before I am Triggered.   And not all Coping Mechanisms are Healthy of coarse, so I limit those that I know aren't the best ways, since they'll potentially be just as Bad as Not Coping if I rely on them too much.  *Winks*   Retail Therapy and Hoarding even Valuable Objects, for example, I try to keep in Check... since, I always figured it was probably less damaging than Self-Medicating with Alcohol or Drugs, or a number of other unwise and Self-Destructive ways of Coping.  There's a Laundry List of those that can become highly Addictive and Wreck you and your Family.  *Winks* 

The Daughter was telling me something quite Interesting.  She's finding that going into The RV Garage Mahal or Art Studio to Work on and Organize The Gauntlet, is Therapeutic to her and she doesn't need to Drink Alcohol or Smoke Medicinal Weed as much to feel Calmer and more Mentally in Control.   Interesting.  She said being around all my Cool Stuff and immersing herself in it has been like Good Therapy for her Conditions too.   And, there's so much for her to do, and go down the Rabbit Hole into that is Pleasant and Calming, it's likely to be long intensive Therapy that is Beneficial to her... and to me... Win-Win.   Booyah!   Sometimes things just Work Out like that, go figure!!!   She's having such a good time I often find her in there and have given her carte blanche to do whatever she wants to in her Process of Assisting me with it all.   Her Son will too, since he had claimed the same benefit from it.  So, when he returns, they're likely to more quickly Help me Attain Goal with it all!!   Cheaper than Therapy for us all!!!   Yay!!!  *Winks*

Being out in Nature does it for me too, which is Why I particularly enjoy the Environmental Cleanup, so many Benefits to myself and to my Community by combining both.   I could just be out there doing nothing as a Community Service, but, if you can combine doing both, Why not?  I'd much rather see Pristine Nature unmolested like this, than to see Trash laying around that the Environmentally Unconscious leave behind in their Wake.   Often, Environmentally appreciative Folks will Stop and give us their Aluminum Cans and fresh Cold Drinks to consume, while they also Thank us for what we're doing.   And, it's funny to me how many of the Environmentally Unconscious will feel Guilt when they see us and start cleaning up their mess or feel the Need to claim it's not theirs and they didn't make it.   It's so Infantile, I do have to Smile on the inside, it's like catching Children doing something Wrong they know they shouldn't be doing and try to convince you it wasn't them.

 Becoz here's the kicker when they do that, even IF I'm giving the Benefit of the Doubt that it WASN'T THEM.   If I decided to be somewhere and stay there and it's messy and littered when I arrive, I still feel compelled to Clean it Up, Okay.   So, to be there and do nothing, and ignore it, to me is almost as bad as whoever was Guilty of being just that Environmentally Unconscious they did it, coz, it SHOULD bother you enuf to DO something about it, No?   But, so many people do opt to see what's Wrong and Do or Say Nothing, which, is being part of the Problem and not part of the Solution.   And frankly, if you're not part of the Solution, I just SEE you as part of the Problem.  I don't differentiate between whose Guilty and whose just complicit by their Silence or Inaction.  

 And, I realize you can't do it all, none of us can, we simply can't run damage control behind it all, only each do our Small Part.  We pick up the Aluminum, but if there's no Waste Receptacles available to deposit the rest, we do have to leave Glass and Raw Trash where it just is.  The City or the County does Hire folks from time to time, or get bulk Volunteers doing a Sweep, who do the bulk of running damage control behind the piggish Humans in Parks, Nature Preserves and Roadside Cleanups.   Lately we've been seeing that some folks are posting Signs angrily saying such things as "Pick Up Your Fucking Trash", in areas that are most afflicted by Litterbugs, it makes me Smile.  And Guess What, it Works, where there's a Sign Posted like that, less Litter!  Perhaps Shaming still Works on some that can be Shamed and have Shame???   Of coarse even at highest levels of Government now we see some who lack that capacity to feel any Shame whatsoever.  *Winks*

Of coarse the kicker there is that now the Spin seems to be that folks on TV are tempering their Judgment, probably out of Fear or Retribution or Retaliation being exacted, and saying such shit like Pretending that these COULD BE some Good Cabinet Choices of the incoming Administration. {Insert Flat Affect or Resting Bitch Face on Yours Truly}   Pleeease... are you fucking kidding me, let's Pretend like that, Nope, I been Grown a long time now, and know whatssup, I quit Pretending shit when I was still a Child.   I don't Need to reside in La-La Land and Pretend that what's going sideways COULD BE something Good or Successful... I'm more tethered to Reality than that and Speak Truth to Power my Friends.   I'm not gonna Spin some Bullshit just to appease whoever is fucking things up for all of us and Go Along.  That's a Punk Ass Move if you ask me, to be Silenced and Kiss The Ring or someone's Ass.  

 Tho', to be sure, some folks do have Cause to be Fearful or in Danger. Becoz they for sure have been Threatened as definite Targets of his Wrath, and are on The List of the Revenge and Retribution Tour, and you do have to take Serious Threats Seriously, especially from Violence Prone Lunatics and Psychopaths in Power.   They are Courageous People who continue to Stand Up to him and for what is Righteous and Defends the Constitution and are True Patriots of our Democracy being Protected and Preserved.   People have thrown the Word "Hero" around a lot in recent Years, but we'll truly now know whose REALLY one and who isn't and just got called one but never would do anything remotely Heroic.

  There is a difference, wearing just a "Uniform" doesn't make one a legit Hero if no actual Heroic Action was ever taken, anymore than wearing a String of Pearls makes one an Oyster.  Overusing the Word always bugged me coz I'm Married to an Actual Hero whose highly Decorated for real Heroic Actions and Real Heroes aren't that Common my Friends.  As Old and seriously Disabled as he now is, he'd still be Willing to Defend what is Right and risk his very Life to do it again, that's a legitimate fearless Bad Ass and not some Poser.   He gets really incensed when he sees these Pussies Posing as Bad Asses and Pretending like they are Patriotic.   When they Support Fascist Leaders who are no better than Domestic Terrorists, and when they Kowtow to Bullies and Kiss the Ring and his Ass, or are Bullies themselves and only threaten and intimidate the most Vulnerable of Society and those unable to Fight back.   And if you're not even willing to put up a Fight, then fully expect to be Conquered.   And very likely badly Abused by the Conquerors who See No Fight or Resistance In you.

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What I'm saying is, don't just Lie Down and Roll Over... some things are worth Fighting for and Standing Up for... so it's time to roll up the Doormat and make it a Club... Dawn... The Bohemian