Wednesday, January 7, 2026

The FUBAR American Medical Insurance Nightmare



 Let's see if I can manage to get this Post Published in Order now? *Smiles*  Sorry the last Two were out of Order, forgetting that I had one already pre-scheduled to publish for the 5th in the Queue and instantly Posting the one I wrote later first by accident.  Luckily I'd set a Time on the Unpublished one that was later in the Day, so I could just go back in and change the Date then to Publish the next Day instead.  *Whew*  Otherwise they would have Posted together and been really confusing and harder to clean up my mistake.  And speaking of Mistakes, ones I didn't make... here we go... hang on...




Just fuckity-fuck-fuck on a Monday Morning in Real Time, as, I'm currently waiting for 8:00 a.m. to call my Humana Representative who Signed me up and Enrolled me, to see if he can fix the mess Corporate made and is hounding me about now on Two Issues?  The first being the erroneous Late Enrollment Bullshit they are now telling me they'll charge me Extra for every Month.  I Thankfully Keep Paperwork, so I have their Welcome Letter that is Dated prior to the Enrollment Deadline the Government gives us to Enroll in a Plan.  I didn't Enroll Late so I shouldn't be assessed a Penalty and they need to Fix that immediately.




Secondly, the whole thing about them sending me the same Verification Documents again and again proving that I do have TriCare For Life as my provider of required Prescription Drug Coverage the Feds and my Advantage Plan apparently Need to Know.   They've been informed of this Three separate times now.  Once when I enrolled, which is why my Representative, Paul, signed me up for the fucking Veteran's Dependent Plan they have in the first place, and they KNOW all Veterans and their Dependents have TriCare Coverage as part of our Earned Medical Benefits!




The Second time I filled out their Documents and sent them in with their Postage Paid Envelope.  Which then they claimed they couldn't process it coz my Signature isn't "authorized" becoz I don't have a Power Of Attorney?!??!   For my OWN Signature?????   And, I'm not incompetent so I don't Need someone else to Sign FOR me or even have a Medical Power Of Attorney issued!!!  And if they're inferring that my Sponsor Sign on my Behalf, that's what they should have said and explained, so I Need to verify all of THAT.   The Man never has Needed to Sign anything on my behalf for TriCare or Medicare EVER, so it would be a New Requirement they've implemented for 2026 if he has to now.




And Why would I give a Spouse I have to provide Full Time Unpaid Caregiving FOR a Power Of Attorney to Sign Paperwork on MY behalf, I haven't a Clue?   It's all quite nonsensical, he's not even deemed Incompetent yet so he's still Legally allowed to Sign his own Paperwork and have it be valid until such time as he's Officially deemed Incompetent to!!!   So, I don't Sign anything FOR him yet, I don't Need to yet.  I didn't even Need to for my Mom or Dad up to and including their Deaths!   And I did everything for both of them when they got Older, so that they didn't have the hassle or stress of doing it without Help and Advocacy!




 It was never necessary for them to have me Sign anything in order to receive whatever they received thru TriCare and Medicare!!!  They both always Signed for themselves.  And Mom DIED of complications from Final Stage Dementia!!!   And she was almost 20 Years Older than I am now!  So, I'm calling Paul first, coz I was impressed with that Young Man when he Enrolled us, he's on top of his Game.  Mebbe this is a common error his Company makes, easily rectified, I dunno?   I just want no Drama and no Headaches with my Medicare Coverage, it's enuf Drama and a Headache to Deal with TriCare or the VA, Trust and Believe.  Medicare complicates things enuf without your Advantage Plans making it even more complex and confusing.  And you HAVE to Deal with them as a Senior, it's mandatory and required.




They know they're Dealing with Old People, and Heaven forbid some of them are in cognitive decline and would have trouble on a Good Day wading thru Bureaucrazy.  I'm not of the Cognitively Declined Variety of Senior yet, Thanks Be To God!!!   But, I am Mental Enough to go Ham on them if they Play me Hard that way.  *Eye Roll and Le Sigh*  It's like what is expected of my Loved Ones with Serious Mental Illness by The System.  It's virtually impossible for the majority of them to get thru it on their own without Advocacy and having an Advocate present at all times.  And many of the Seriously Mentally Ill don't have one so they don't receive what they should all be Entitled to Receive as Help considering they're Vulnerable Adults. 



 The Elderly, we're ALL considered Vulnerable Adults by Law.  ALL of us, just by Virtue of Age. That's why if you involve us in the commission of a Crime you commit, it's a more Serious Felony Charge you'll catch, just like involving a Minor is.  A lot of Younger Adults don't know that Fact, so if they're gonna decide to commit a Crime, don't take your underage Kiddos or your Grandparents with you and involve them in any way when you do it!   Or now you'll catch additional Charges for contributing to the Delinquency of a Minor or of a Vulnerable Adult.   TED Talk now over. *Winks and Smiles*   Yep, leave Granny or Pawpaw Home when you go on your Crime Spree, just in case you get Caught.   And don't choose any their Age Demographic as your Crime Victim either or it's more Serious Charges you'll be facing in front of them Judges and Prosecutors that will sending you Up.  *Public Service Announcement, Winks*




I think Humana Rep Paul was in Florida so I'm trying to gauge when Humana Reps on the East Coast start Work, with the Time difference and all compared to the West Coast?  I want to call early before their Phone Lines get busy and you're put on Hold indefinitely.  The earlier I get this shit sorted out, the Calmer I'll be for the rest of my Monday.  Right now it's all disturbing my Calm.  Not a good way to start any Day, Right?  *Winks*  I left a Message on Paul's Voicemail and Hope he gets back to me soon so we can discuss it at length and see what can be done to Fix this?  I Like things Fixed and Solutions to my Problems.   I'm like a Dog with a Bone until my Problem is Fixed in fact.   *Winks*   The Daughter came wandering in and saw I'm already on the Warpath with some Agency all Bright and Early, she Laughed... she knows how I am... and how Not Good it will be to be THEM and Start their Day now!  *Snort*




Usually I'm the Fixer of Problems, but sometimes you must rely on someone on the Inside to Fix a Problem FOR you and so cultivating those important Contacts is crucial.  I felt I had a good rapport with Paul when I Enrolled and he gave me his Personal Number and Extension should I have any Problems, well, now I got Two.   And since Life can be 99 Problems already with the Hand this Family has already been Dealt to Play to the best of our Abilities, that's Two more I don't Need, you know?  *LOL*  I don't Need for Humana to become not even ONE of them!  *Eye Roll*  But, Listen if you're gonna jerk my Chain, expect me to go Junkyard Dog on your Ass and Hope to Hell that Chain is short enuf I don't reach you, or, you're Mine and there will be carnage.  It won't be Pretty.  I'm quite Agitated right now and ready to go to War and take Scalps as Trophies!




Okay, so that was another almost whole fucking Post about Medicare Woes.  And the FUBAR American Medical Insurance Nightmare.  So, are we having Fun yet?  *LOL*  Let's Hope and Pray you all aren't having equal amounts of Fun with your own Medical Insurance Coverages my Friends, or lack thereof, of Insurance... or Coverage... I suspect Millions of Americans ARE tho'!?   And I mean, come on, every other First World Nation on the Planet has figured theirs out satisfactorily for their Citizens, including some 3rd World Countries BTW, so Why is America acting so incompetently Third World about it?  I'll wait for an Answer...





And Why is this all even Necessary?  Today's Rant now over for now... the rest of the Day should now go swimmingly?  *Bwahahahaha*  I see my Doc this Wednesday in Real Time, so I really do Need for my Medicare Provider to be on Point and not dicking me, or my Medical Team, around about Coverage.  That would not be Good, in fact, it would be very Bad and perhaps interrupt my Treatment Plan.   And neglect of any Client's Medical Situations and Needs only means pay now or pay much more later.  I don't mind costing them a fucking Fortune, so, to get it Right now would be beneficial to any Provider whose Wise and Frugal about their Costs and Bottom Line. 




 Lord I Wish The Man was as Lethal with his Tongue as he is with a Gun, I'd just have him to this FOR me so I don't Snap and go Off Rails about it.  *Ha ha ha*  That's Handsome Him when he was a USMC Special Forces Baby Face Sniper in Vietnam.  Well, shit, he WAS a Baby, he was a Teenage Soldier sent out to Assassinate whoever our Government wanted Neutralized!   {Above Pix}   Yes, the Average Age of our American Youth being sent to Fight for our Country, and mebbe Die for it, that we involve ourselves in War with are only 19!!!  And in that Pix I don't think The Man was even that Old yet... but, he'd be Ordered to start racking up his Body Count of Specific Targets the Government wanted Assassinated.




 Consider that for a Minute, how that would Weigh on a Teenager?  And some are Younger, my Dad was 17 when he Enlisted and was Recruited off the Reservation, and The Man never finished High School before he got sent to Vietnam!   My Dad was only 35 when he got sent to Vietnam and he was considered an "Old and Short Timer" almost ready for Retirement!!!  This is Why I am incensed when the Cowardly Draft Dodger Warmonger In Chief is making Threats towards numerous Countries, Kidnapping their Leaders and their Wives, and saying he's taking over their Countries illegally!   To Seize their Assets for enriching himself and his Cronies.  Oh, Mylanta!!!  The Ride will get even recklessly Wilder with no Guardrails, Seatbelts, Safety Net, Exit Ramp, regard for the Rule of Law, or anyone Sane behind the Wheel.




The President Of Peace my Ass, he'll get us into more unnecessary Wars and deep shit than any Prez in History, out of his Greed and Ignorance, which knows no bounds.  Losing ones, coz he's a notorious Loser, everything he Touches Dies or gets fucked up in fact.  And now he's Threatening Cuba, Mexico, Columbia and Greenland that they're 'Next'?!  And that's for a START!!!   Fuuuuck... What could possibly go Wrong?  He'll start shit he can't finish and on many fronts.  Think also for a Minute, the Heavy Hitters of Serious Crime Organizations and Syndicates who are in just Four of the Five Countries he's making Threats towards.  How do you think they will Receive being Threatened and what tactics they will take if we go to War with not only Countries, but also the major Cartels all around the World that are IN them?  




And the 5th being a NATO Ally, since Denmark controls Greenland.  He's getting in way over his Motherfuckin' Head pretending to be Tony Soprano or some pretend Fictional Mob Boss Wannabe.  This ain't some cheesy Reality Show or your 'Brand', Fool!!!  They may have Hollywood that Fool Up and Made Up how Successful he never was for Ratings and Hollywood so they could have Cheesy 2nd Rate Reality Show Successes, but, this is Real Life now.  Not some Imaginary Alternate Reality he Lives in coz he's so fucking detached from Reality now he's never coming back.  And about that Oil he's wanting so Bad... there's a reason that Kind of Oil hasn't had major Production... too expensive.  And not a Major Supplier, mebbe 1% Worldwide and extremely costly to Refine... tho' there is a lot of it.  Just coz there's a lot of something doesn't make it most desirable nor Economical or beneficial.  Jey-sus I Need a Drink and I don't even partake of alcohol!  *Ha ha ha*




 Has anyone tried to explain any of this to DonOld?   In Toddler Terms of coarse, so he MIGHT understand?  Not that he'd Listen to Experts who know what they're talking about.  He'd rather surround himself with incompetent unfit Nepo Hires who'll just ask How High, not Why, when he tells them to Jump and do Tricks for him like trained Circus Animals, and Stroke his Ego as the Ringmaster of this Shitshow.  That's no way to Run a Country... are we making America 'Great' yet?  Asking for a Friend.  *Huge Eye Roll*  We seem only to be getting 'Great' Exposure for being Criminally Led on the Global Stage and NOT to be Trusted, our Reputation now is in the shitter and might never be Restored due to this Senile Psycho whose been Elected to 'Lead' us right over a fucking Cliff to our utter destruction as a Nation.    Now I think I also need a Dessert... something with a Sugar High preferably.  So that when I Wake Up from my Sugar Coma, it'll be a Brand New Week!  *Ha ha ha*




All the Kiddos are telling me, just don't keep Informed at all anymore Mom/Gramma, we all know the Country is fucked and we're all fucked. So why go wade Deep into the Weeds to get the Details of how badly we'll be fucked and how hard?   Does it really matter... fucked is just fucked.  They could be Right?  Out of the Mouths of our Youth who know for a Fact their Future is Questionable at Best and at Worst, they won't even have one.   So, most of them are like, Listen, at least YOU had a Good Run, so, Eat, Drink and be Merry... for Tomorrow we probably all may Die and definitely will be fucked first. 




 And that Calm Pessimism and Resignation they all seem to have of the Younger Generations, is becoz our Generations HAVE fucked things up for them all.  It's evident we have.  We got a near 80 Year Old Senile Dying Man with No Future, so he doesn't Care if anyone else on Earth has one either.  And he's doing whatever the fuck he wants to.   I'm dredging up Archived Imagery for some of this Post of Blast From The Past of my Loved Ones that make me Smile and feel Happy.  Coz right now, I'm struggling to stay Centered, I ain't gonna Lie.  In a Maniacal way too, where you'd Hysterically Laugh instead of Cry, that Type of Losing it, due to circumstances beyond your Control, so, you have no more Fucks to give about any of it either and Merrily the Wheels come Off and you don't Care.



I wanna still Care and hold out some semblance of Hope for America, coz I Love my Country.   I've Lived in many Host Countries as a Guest during Military Service to America that my Family have made many Sacrifices for.  There's been nowhere on Earth I'd rather be... well... until 2016... and then when 2.0 happened for a Repeat Performance of Insane Fuckery and blatant Criminality and disregard for the Rule of Law on Steroids.   Now I'm Questioning... where will an Exodus take us {Americans}, if it becomes necessary? 




  We aren't, as a Nation now, Winning Friends or Influencing Enemies, that's for damned sure.  Our Friends and Relatives abroad are Worried for us as a Nation, they see America going Down like the Titanic heading straight and furiously fast for an Iceberg and a totally Mad Captain sailing and then sinking this Ship.  I doubt he's willing to go Down with the Ship, Hopefully he's gonna be the First Casualty, he has it coming and caused it.   We're just Passengers and Collateral Damage on this here ill fated Voyage now.  And there's not enuf Life Rafts to go round, that's for sure.




And I needed to call my Agent at Humana again to leave a Message for Paul to call me on my Cellphone Number rather than our Home Phone, since I got things to do Today.  Well, since Paul wasn't available they transferred me to another Agent called Mary.  Fine, I'll talk to Mary and if she can't Help me, Paul can Help me later, I don't Care who Solves said Problem so long as they Solve it.  Well, Mary sounds Elderly and she starts fucking Singing, "Holy is the Lord", like she's in fucking Church and going full on Praise and Worship!!!!!!!   OMG, you can't make this shit up!!!   And I'm deciding I don't want "Holy Roller Mary" Helping me at all if the only way she's getting thru her Shift this Early in the Morning is by Singing Pentecostal Style Hymns while she's on the Phone with Members!  *LOL*  I didn't then Need her then to break out Speaking in Tongues, coz then we're really fucked and Peace Out.  *Bwahahahahaha*  Below, me and my "Flotation Devices" Mae West Style are The Girls, I have no Inhibitions or Shame in my Game.  *Winks* 




So, anyway, I'm Sharing said Pix coz I'm trying to be all Zen, and all, on this Crazy Surreal Call that's getting very Weird, and feel all Floating in Blissful Calm and Space... so, I tell "Holy Roller Mary" that tho' she's been Swell, I really have a good Relationship with Agent Paul.   So would it be Okay if I wait for Paul to not be so busy, or come in to work, whatever, and remedy this Situation/Problem for me?   Since he's 'My Agent' who Enrolled me and I really Like Paul and feel an attachment and "Called to Paul Dealing with it"?  *Winks, I can Speak Crazy Religious too, when it's necessary to Deal with the Religious Nuttery or someone really so ready to Lose it that they Need the Lord and their Hymns to get them thru it?!  LOL* 




 Thankfully, Praise God and all the Saints, "Holy Roller Mary" quits Singing "Holy is the Lord" and tells me that would be best.  *Whew*  I just think my Problems sent poor Religious Mary over the fucking Edge, I really do.   And I didn't Need an Agent unraveling in Real Time when I'm already Dealing with Problems regarding her Employer, so I don't really want to Talk her Down off her Ledge if she's about ready to Jump and Go Be with The Lord?  *Bwahahahahaha*  Like I said, I got 99 Problems and I don't Need for Mary or anyone else to be One of them, I just don't have it in me to be doing anyone else's Crisis Intervention right now.




And Agent Paul called me back right away, I Love Paul, he's a Riot and when I told him about my experience with Mary, he was incredulous!  He asked me what I said, and I told him and he said at least I had a sense of Humor and they aim to Please and to Entertain, but Bloody Hell!   {LOL... He's British}  That could get poor Mary Fired.  I said I know, and that I also know Mary must work with him coz she said she knew him, she sounds Elderly, is definitely Religious {winks and a giggle}, and that if she breaks out into Hymns any more Today he might wanna keep an Eye on her coz I don't think Mary is Okay!?  Well, he was laughing so hard, as was I.  




He told me my Silver Sneakers with them is all Tiered up, so he has no Idea why our Codes Humana gave me wouldn't Work at Lifetime, coz they should.  But, I told him that's not as problematic for me, but if he can remedy that too, Cheers, get to it then Boy-O.  As for the rest, he said it would be Medicare imposing the Penalty and not Humana actually, and they probably think it's something to do with me not having Prescription Drug Plan required Coverage Evidence or what they Believe to be some Lapse in it?  Which, there hasn't been and I've now Signed Two Documents Verifying Coverage thru TriCare/Express Scripts.  So he said if the 2nd Set of Docs won't go thru, and NO I do NOT Need a Medical Power of Attorney for my own Signature, then he and I will do a Conference Call with Medicare to remedy this.




That all was good News, I feel in Good Hands with Paul.  He'll keep an Eye on Holy Roller Mary and we both Hope she'll be Okay.  You never want some poor Soul, especially an Elderly one who still has to Work at a very high stress level Job, to go off the Rails or get Fired for not Coping in an appropriate way that won't garner Complaints to her Employer.  I just find it hilarious Blog Fodder, it made Paul's Day too and we both had a good Ole Laugh about it.   And now you all can have a good Ole Laugh about it too and Humor is like a Good Medicine.  




My Brother then calls and he's having similar serious Issues with his New Medicare Program he had to Enroll in coz his previous one dumped him too.  Now the New One lied and told him all his Docs and Specialists and Pharmacies will accept their Coverage... but, NONE of them do!  His Morphine Pump broke down and this Insurance won't Pay to replace it!  The Tests his Docs Ordered before the Transition, this Insurance Medicare Advantage Plan won't Cover either so it was all Denied.  He can't get any of his Life Saving Meds, it's a complete Cluster Fuck.  Luckily, his Cardiologist happens to be a Lifelong Friend of our Family.  His Family and ours have been close since the 80's and he's the Nephew of one of my Mom's Best Friends, they are Immigrants from Jordan originally.  So, he'll still see my Brother regardless of the Insurance Situation coz it's a Family Favor he'll Honor in Memory of my Mom, who his Family Adored.




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Always keep your sense of Humor my Friends... Dawn... The Bohemian


Tuesday, January 6, 2026

Timing A Post... And Tales Of Kidnapping For Oil



 Lately I've had some curious inquiries as to how long I take to knock out these Posts? And for The Inquiring Minds, tho' I've never formally Timed it, since it's never in one sitting, and usually wee Hours of the Morning before the Family is up, or late at Night when they've all gone to Bed, I'd say, mebbe a couple Hours or so combined sittings, give or take.  I've never actually Timed my Creative Time and Relaxation Time, I just know I don't have much of it, so have to pack into it as much as I can. Fast Tracking it.   This Post was actually Written before the one previously, but I Fucked Up and forgot I had it Pre-Scheduled and Published the later one First... but, bear with me.




 But even when I'm doing anything else, even at Work, the usual Comments are, "You're already Done!?"  So, being so Hyper as I've always been, and Manic as fuck, I guess I get stuff Done in record time, according to those that think I do everything very fast and seem amazed that even at my advanced Age, I still can.  I can Work circles around most people, so can The Son and The Daughter, as well as Princess T, it's Hereditary apparently.  *Smiles*  It made me very effective in my Corporate Lives, and successful.




I always got the highest performance Reviews, especially for Speed and Accuracy of anything I was doing.   For Example, at the DA's Office the requirement was to Process a minimum of 30 Files per Shift no matter how complex some of them might be for some of the Bureaus.   Gang/ROP Bureau for example often had a File with multiple Charges and multiple Defendants, so could be quite complex.  Most in my Department hustled to do 30 and some couldn't ever do that many and didn't last long, their Speed and Accuracy didn't cut it.  




Didn't matter if you had a Masters Degree in Criminal Law if you were too slow and inaccurate, you weren't making the Grade.  The average Tenure in our Department was usually not even thru their Probation Period!  I could do 60 or more Files on Average, with excellent accuracy close to 99%.   No hyperbole, no brag, just fact, and I worked most of the Complex Case Files as well, it was a personal Challenge to do the harder Cases.  Not great for your Head Space tho', Homicide, Sex Crimes and Family Violence Cases are some of the worst Crimes.  You can't unsee what you see or unhear what you hear and read.




The Son asked me only last Night how I compartmentalized what I did for so long without it wrecking me?   Especially Cases involving Child or Animal Abuse, which, those can wreck you Mentally and Emotionally no matter how fucking long you do the Work with such things.  It takes a Toll.  Now I can't watch anything involving either, coz it's no longer my Job to expose myself to it and I already know far too much of what people are capable of doing that is abhorrent, twisted, cruel, wicked and evil.   We only have to look to our present White House to Witness a shit-ton of that... and know that some Americans are complicit and perfectly Fine with it.





 This is why I KNOW this President is such a person as all of that and not fit for the Office he holds.  He's totally Mental, Dangerous and an Evil Sociopath/Psychopath.   I'd say most Shrinks worth their Salt and competent at their Jobs, and not being Bribed and Bought Off to say otherwise and Rubber Stamp him as competent or fit, would concur.  And I heard he now Kidnapped Maduro and his Wife... apparently that's what he's done NOW, while I was Sleeping!!!   You can't make this shitshow and fuckery up!!!   There is no bottom to the illegal shit he's doing now, taking the Guardrails Off means it's all Wheels Off now.   And America bought the Ticket, so we're all on for the whole fucking ride now!!!  And absolutely nothing will shock nor surprise me anymore at what he and his Sycophants will do... and not even try to Cover Up most of it anymore... all the Quiet Parts have been said Out Loud and Proud.  And now he thinks he's running Valenzuela!  What could go Wrong?



The Topic came up with The Son coz we only have Five Days of NetFlix left before we won't be renewing it, so we were perusing what we haven't yet seen.  There were a couple I told him I could not Risk seeing.  One a Documentary about Sexual Abuse of Boys in the Boy Scouts that went on since it's inception.   And was covered up until they had to File Bankruptcy once Exposed, coz they got Sued by over 80,000 Victims Worldwide!  Yeah, that's conservatively a figure, since how many didn't come forward or Sue?   For all the Secret Pedo Red Flag Perversion Files they had compiled and covered up for Decades!!!   And let Pedos who'd been banned, back in to easily have access to more Children!!!  Even the Pedos admitting it was all Too Easy to infiltrate the Scouts and have them Cover for you if Caught and just move you around to a new Location!!!




  But, was never Shared with Authorities or Parents and the Public, to Save and Protect their Brand and their Image as a Safe Institution for your Children.   Becoz their Brand and Profits meant more than the Safety of the Children you entrusted them with!!!  And it wrecked a lot of Young Lives for Generations!!!   Way more Scandal than even the Major Churches who covered up such incidents with Pedo Priests, Pastors and Youth Directors.  Which is where a lot of Molesters tend to Source their Victims, in Religious Organizations.  The other also a True Crime Documentary called "Don't F*ck With Cats"... and just the Title told me, probably not a Wise Idea to even try to watch that one in case it showed actual Animal Abuse Cases.




  I worked all the High Profile Animal Abuse Cases in Phoenix during my Career, including DMX the Rapper's Animal Abuse Cases he Caught.  And I'm a very Stoic and Unemotional Person on the Exterior.  So, anything Traumatic that I have to Internalize and Process, I do it without showing any Emotion.  But it's not like I don't Process it Emotionally, I just don't outwardly express that I do.  It takes a lot to make me Cry, or even Show Anger... I will be scarily Calm even when I'm Angry, it unsettles people more actually.  But, not Showing Emotions doesn't mean you don't have any. 




The Man always knew which Bureau I'd Worked during any Shift by my countenance when I returned Home.  If I was very Quiet and withdrawn, it was probably a lot of very heinous shit I'd had to Process at Work and expose myself to.  File after File of it, averaging 50-60 Files of it a Night, which was my usual Pace.  Since, we did ALL the Data Entry and Audit of every File that had flowed thru all Bureaus in Superior Court in Maricopa County and sometimes Yavapai County, if we were helping that County out, and were going to then be Archived.  Plus, many Bureau Chiefs would request me to do Transcription Work for them on High Profile Cases, coz I was very Fast and very Accurate.




Anyway, I still watch a lot of True Crime Shows coz Forensics has always fascinated me.  At one time I did consider transferring to the M.E.'s Office, but my Friend and Co-Worker Christina had Worked for the Medical Examiner for 25 Years and said Burnout was even higher than at the DA's Office.  So, I reconsidered.   And Honestly, I'm so used to seeing Human Carnage of all Kinds, that if it's not a Child or an Animal, I can handle almost any of it, no matter how gruesome.  Then go have a Sammie or eat while watching any of it, including Autopsies and actual Crime Scenes.  You had to Learn to be able to still Eat in that Line of Work or you'd become Anorexic or Bulimic I think and waste away otherwise.



It also greatly helps if you appreciate Gallow's Humor, which, I do, and can handle really Crazy Shit, which, I can.  After all, look at the Family.  *Winks and LOL*  And our Family isn't even one of the Crazier ones, I know you find that hard to Believe, but, there's levels of Crazy you can't even comprehend or Wrap your Head around.  I once processed a Homicide File that had Three Whole Boxes for the One Defendant, which meant it was a really Big Case and very High Profile.   Most Boxes are Banana Boxed Size and could hold numerous Case Files, as many as 30 different Cases from a particular Bureau they're sent to us from, to give you some perspective.  And the Defendant's Name was, wait for it:

"Lucifer The Devil"




Yep, when that File was given to me to Process and Work I knew that was gonna be some Interesting Bedtime Reading and a doozy!  And Oh Mylanta, was it!!!   A 21 Year Old Schizophrenic Male that The System didn't handle appropriately and led to the horrific Deaths of his Grandfather and Father.   And he'd been committed to ASH {Arizona State Hospital}, but the Board had deemed him "Restored".  Yep, even tho' the Dude was still calling himself "Lucifer The Devil", which, should have been a Fucking Clue, one would think, right?!   I got Two Schizophrenics in the Family, the Day they start referring to themselves as Lucifer, time for Permanent Involuntary Institutionalization.




And the 1st Photo in that 1st Box of Ole' Lucifer's Crime showed a Young Naked Man strapped to a Gurney absolutely covered in Blood, so initially I thought, oh, One of the Victims?   Nope, that was Ole' Lucifer, the pieces of his Victims was strewn all over the Apartment, no B Horror Movie looked so Surreal and Over-The-Top, lemme tell ya!  When The State Hospital had Released him to Family, his Mom knew her Son was not ready for Release and refused to come get him.  Which likely Saved her Life, Mom's usually have that Instinct and know when something is Off and not Right with their Kiddos.




  So, Dad and Grandpa did, they lived together, the Parents being Divorced.   And against Mom's better Judgment of refusing to have Lucifer Released to her, came and got Ole' Lucifer, took him back Home to their Apartment... and by the end of the Night, they were Dead, horribly Butchered while still Alive, and dismembered.   Had nobody voluntarily came to get him, perhaps ASH might have held him longer, but, mebbe not?   And I've had Loved Ones released prematurely by and from Mental Health Institutions, happens all the time in fact.  More often than anyone knows or wants to formally acknowledge.  At least not On The Record.  Whistleblowers mostly and generally are maligned, discredited by their Employers and lose their Jobs, so Coverups are common.




 Can't let The Public know the Truths out there, most couldn't handle The Truth anyway, would upset their Bliss and delusions that all is Well.  One time they released The Daughter in Central Phoenix, late at Night, in a Paper Gown with no back to it, no Shoes or Underpants, when she was only 19 and completely Wheels Off the Rails, it was Winter!!!  An Old Couple saw her and picked her up, took her to me, and I called the Institution to file a Complaint, as, it was all inappropriate and put her and perhaps others, at grave Risk!  That Old Couple took a Risk to get Involved.  This is what Families Deal with.  And often it ends very badly when The System fails all of them and all of us as a Societal Collective.




And they ended up sending Ole' Lucifer to the DOC for a 10-Year Stretch, which, he didn't belong in The Dept. Of Corrections being THAT fucking Insane.  But I guess they didn't think him Insane Enough???!!!  I don't think at 31 he's gonna be much Better or less Dangerous actually.  He should have gone back to ASH, permanently I'd say.  AND, I think whoever deemed him "Restored" should have been Indicted as well, coz they were directly responsible for that very bad decision to release him, when, he's still calling himself "Lucifer The Devil", coz if that isn't fucking Insane, and potentially very Bad and Violence prone, I don't know what is???  Even if you think The Devil is Talking to you and telling you to do bad shit would be enuf, thinking you ARE him, worse I'd think, humbly IMO.  *Eye Roll*




Sometimes I do Wonder if Ole' Lucifer is out now, he could be?  He was a nice looking, yet quite Ordinary Regular looking fellow, no Tells he was Cray-Cray Mental, Straight White Male, you'd have no fucking idea he was as Insane as he clearly was.   And his File is not even the Worse one I ever had to Process.  Humans can do some pretty fucked up stuff and do all of the time.   This is how I Became both Cynical AND Jaded.  *Smiles*  Our Family really think that both The Man and I are totally desensitized about horrific stuff, him due to his Military Experiences and me due to my Career and Life Experiences.  They could be Right?   He definitely has extreme PTSD and I probably could have it?  *Ha ha ha*




And, I tried to just sit thru this entire Post in one sitting and Time it, took an Hour and 56 Minutes from start to finish, which I'd Guessed was my Average, give or take.  So there, Hard Data for your Inquiring Minds that Need to Know.   So, there you have it.   My Stream of Consciousness and Creative Process Spins in Whirlpools and Flows like a raging torrent all of the time... so, this is what I do to RELAX!!!   So, Imagine if I wasn't Relaxing... and trying to slow it all Down?!?   *Winks and LMAO*



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Happy New Year my Friends... Dawn... The Bohemian


A life touched by God always ends in touching others. - Erwin McManus

I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars. - Og Mandino (1923-1996)

For creativity to flourish one should try to look at everything as though it were being seen for the first or the last time. - Quote from "A Thousand Paths To Creativity" by David Baird

Is what I'm about to say an improvement on silence? ~ Galen Pearl