The Fuckening & Post Storm Blues

 

I didn't Invent the new Word for my Blog Post Title Hook, my Guy, Andrew Yang did about the AI Situation.  I was part of The Yang Gang in 2020 when he was running for President. I really wanted him to Win, whether as a Democrat or part of the Forward Party, coz I know he's not a Partisan Leaning Two Party System Advocate.  He has too Sensible an approach and Intelligent Observations about what's Wrong and what would be viable Solutions for it.  He's been Right about a lot of what he Predicted and it's Aged Well what his Warnings have been, so accurately so that one would think he has the Gift of Premonitions.  But, I think he's just very astute, very Smart, very observant, very Solutions Oriented and not you Average Politician in the Pocket of Special Interests and Mega Donors.

  He had a Book Signing of HEY YANG WHERE'S MY THOUSAND BUCKS? {Regarding his Signature Universal Basic Income Proposal - UBI}, on Cable TV and I watched it, very informative and he took Open Questions with candor.  There are Pros and Cons of UBI, but with AI likely to eliminate about 50% or more of White Collar Jobs too, it could provide a Cushion to Automation.  He is a Tech Entrepreneur but calls AI "The Fuckening".  Taxing it and distributing those proceeds to all Americans he feels is a logical way to be a buffer to what it will do to the Workforce and what it will ultimately replace.  Coz it's not as if Corporate America is providing alternative Employment Options to who will be displaced.  Just that they will be displaced.

  I'd still like a Man like him to be President, tho' America isn't nearly Progressive enuf to ever Elect a Woman or an Asian Man IMO... no matter how much better they were than some Old White Man, no matter how incompetent, Corrupt or outright Senile.  He was saying that several Major News Channels, including CNN and MSNBC refused to Air several Candidates, including him, and had a List of who not to Cover.  We all really know how Selective and Biased our Coverage received is, well, most of us do anyway.  I've got a couple of his Books and am Hopeful he and the Forward Party have a Candidate in 2028 running for President? Coz I'm so done with our dysfunctional deeply divided Partisan Two Party System, which is infected and corrupted to an extreme, and having piss poor options to Vote for.  As a Moderate and a Lifelong Independent I want somebody WE can Vote into Office for a change, who Represent the People properly.

And even besides Politics, the whole AI Thing is loaded with Questions I NEED Answers for too.  Nobody is Talking about the Money or the Outcome when it comes to AI Revenue and that concerns me.  Why, why are none of the Big Players in it not talking about Revenue from it?   Crickets.  So, the Investment in it all seems Questionable, to Subsidize it for me at the levels they are, since it all costs a lot and it's not getting any Cheaper.   I'm Tech Challenged so I don't pretend to know the Industry at all.  It could be a Bubble that will burst and that's my Instincts about it actually, it will collapse in upon itself due to Debt Load, which is Insanely high already.  And AI Hallucinations also concern me, I don't Care how smooth what AI makes up is, if it's just made up information based on Math Patterns.  And most people probably can't tell the difference.   But back to the Money, coz I ALWAYS follow the Money. The Global AI Revenue estimated annualized Run Rate is roughly $150-$220 Billion.  The broader Net Economic Gain across the Tech Industry is deeply Negative due to Capital Expenditure and Infrastructure Funding which have surpassed $1.4 TRILLION.  

 Seems like a depreciation problem waiting to happen too and instant obsoletion.  Since it takes a very long time to build the Infrastructure, but they are churning out the Chips all the time.  Which, by the time everything is built, it has floods of Chips now already obsolete and a few Years Old.   What's profitable about it?   Some Data Centers are already losing a Million Dollars a Day, that doesn't sound like a good Business Model to me!  Stress Tests and Equity.  Loans already are in Stress Test Mode and starting to Default.  I used to run damage control for Major Lenders with Defaulted Loans.  Data Centers are heavily in Debt.  But shit has to be Profitable and you have to make Money.  I think an AI Bust is coming, sooner than later.  And, I have so many Questions, No Answers, and I don't like AI anyway.  So, I'm just finding more and more reasons NOT to like it and be more concerned about it.   And, I don't think enuf people know what other people do on their Jobs frankly... to assume a Computer can just do it all.  Judgment, Taste and Conscience are things Humans bring to the Table that AI can't.  

 

We had such a bad Monsoon Storm last Night it had 80 mph Winds and Torrential Rain that came Sideways!  We lost Roofing off our RV Garage Mahal and Shingles were in the Pool and scattered all around it, so we'll have to get damage assessment on repairs.  Luckily we didn't have any significant damages, as I'm sure there was some around the City, our Phones put out a Seek Shelter Alert all Night long saying to stay away from Windows due to flying Debris.   So, some debris blown into our Pool and some Shingle loss on just the Roof of the RV Garage was probably not so bad, tho' I'm hopeful not too expensive either.  Depending on what it costs will determine whether to file an Insurance Claim or not?  TJ and The Son have replaced Shingles up there before, but we've never had this many torn off by such high Winds.  We already have the Shingles, we bought a bunch and keep them stocked for minor repairs.

We're getting Irrigation this Morning regardless of how much Rain came last Night, so, the ground is already pretty saturated, Splendid!  I just Hope no more of that intensity hit, but they are predicting another one Tonight and said to wait for cleanup becoz you might need more.  I'm thinking of going to Wal-Mart and Buying some of that Flex Seal spray for the Guys to go up on The RV Garage Mahal Roof and just spray it where Shingles are missing until they can replace them.  Next Door's Irrigation was Flooding coz their Ground is too saturated to take on all their Water so we're taking ours on early so to alleviate their Situation, we can hold more Water than their Property can, we have more Pasture and bigger Trees that drink it up.  I Lost a nice Talavera Pot, Storm smashed it to smitherines and the Big Peruvian Cactus in it's Pot got knocked over again.  We're gonna relocate it to around the Pool and up against The Garage Mahal this time.  All in all we had Minor damages.  Online Buckeye to the Southwest of us and Glendale to the Northwest of us got hammered more than Avondale.

Look how Cute The Young Prince was as a Tween, he had such a Babyface and a very Androgynous Look, I liked his Hair like this.  It was when he was finally Old enuf to manage his own Hair coz I didn't know anything about how to do Type 3-4 Hair, with his Puerto Rican Ancestry, he has a Black Great-Grandfather and got that Hair Texture.  He also has such thick Hair that he now shaves 3/4 of it off and still has more Hair than me with just 1/4 of it left long!   He keeps it shaved short on the Sides and Back, just leaving a Mohawk Section long and it's still a massive amount of Hair that's very coarse and frizzy.  He could do well having Dreadlocks and has considered it before, his Hair would take to it well and grow faster and longer with Dreads.  They wouldn't take very long to form either and look mature quickly.  Anyway, I Hope he had a very nice Birthday Yesterday, he got his Money we'd sent to use for it, so he was Happy about that.   Allen is now Working and finally getting his VA Disability Checks and Disabled Veteran Status, so they're doing better financially now and why he's going to move back to Phoenix, he can afford to live here now.

 

And if Allen is willing and able to still help Support The Young Prince financially, it will be Helpful to us, coz he has no Income of his own lest he Qualify for that SSI Disability Status and Payments Monthly?  That's still Questionable given the Criteria Social Security is using.  Which makes no sense to only go back One Year for the Seriously Mentally Ill, rather than when they were 1st Diagnosed and the whole Medical History supporting that of Treatments, Hospitalizations, Medications over the Years.  Makes more sense to me that you can better assess level and severity of Disabling Factors using all the Applicant's Medical History and see that nothing has changed for the better, in most Cases it worsens in fact, and it is PERMANENT.  Nobody I have ever met Diagnosed with a Serious Mental Illness has EVER been Cured of it.   It doesn't go away, ever.   And Social Security fucking knows that already, so it's a total Sham and Scam for them to deny Services, Support, Treatment, and Disability Status AS IF someone just Miraculously got Better.

Anyway, The Systems are all rigged, and not in Favor of the Disabled or the Poor, the Indigent, the Geriatric, or the most Vulnerable of our Society, that is for damned sure.  But it is skewed in Favor of the most Elite, that is also for damned sure.   I do think this Caseworker he Lucked Out in getting is better and more compassionate than most, from the times I've talked to her and she is willing to talk to me as his Caregiver, which is huge.  Sometimes they make a big Dog and Pony Show about insisting the Disabled Person do everything, when most of them just can't and never will be able to, and they know this too.  I did tell her up front, you can talk to my Grandson, I'll give you his direct Number.  But he's not always tethered to Reality, even tho' he's highly Intelligent, and often he's too Paranoid to speak to someone New that he doesn't know or Trust.  She told me it was Okay, talking to me would be preferable, I agree.  Not sure, but they may forego a Face to Face with him, knowing he's a Paranoid Schizophrenic, due to Psychotic Risk factors during any Interviews or Pressure/Anxiety Triggers?

Even during Advocacy Meetings at places like Chicanos Por La Causa, he was looking Anxiously at their White Walls in the small Interview Room, coz he said they were Moving and closing in on us.  His breathing got rapid and shallow, Thankfully they rushed thru the Process to get us out of there before he Melted Down.   At DES he's often had complete Meltdown just applying for temporary Nutritional Assistance, so we just don't do that anymore.  Not worth what little Benefits they parse out for a very limited time frame of only 30-90 Days of Food Assistance to put him thru all of that, it's too traumatic for him.  I can put more Water in the fucking Beans and stretch it out enuf to Feed One more, you know?  Coz a Meltdown in a Federal Facility means Security is called, they always have Stud Muffin Security Guards at Federal Facilities, and he'll Fight them as surely and fiercely as I will, so it just wouldn't End Well.  *LOL*   

I often had Security called on me at the VA when they'd be jerking The Man around to receive timely Treatment, I wasn't having it, he's more than Earned anything they do for him.  I Go Off the Deep End if you mess with my Loved Ones or Neglect them.   So now I Greet the Stud Muffin Security Guards warmly at the VA the moment we arrive.  Coz we'll get to know each other real well if things go Sideways for The Man while we're there.  *LOL*  And some of the ones who've had a Situation with me before do remember me!  But they're all nice big Young Stud Muffins and Smile Sweetly, even if in their Heads they're thinking, Oh No, not her... I Hope her Old Man gets everything he needs and they call his Ass right away to receive it so they get them out of here?  *Ha ha*  We don't usually have to Deal with a long Cattle Call once we arrive anymore.  In fact, they always try to Transfer him immediately to a Civilian Hospital and give him a Ride there.  *Smiles*

 Last time they did just that when he had his most recent Heart Issues, got to us right away, they even had the VA Shrink come down and talk to us!  He said he distinctly remembered our whole Family {and he did}, and I was thinking to myself, yep, I bet you do, we're quite Memorable like that.   *Smiles and Winks*   He's East Indian, been there a very long time since The G-Kid Force were little, and a very Nice Guy.   I think his Name is Dr. Patel if I remember correctly?   Anyway, it's been awhile since The Man had to see him for PTSD or his Brain Damage TBI Issues, when initially we needed Placement and couldn't get it at the Old Soldier's Homes, they have Two of them but it's like Country Club Placement for Officers whose Wives have Died and they don't wanna take Care of themselves, but actually could, makes me pissed off.  But the Shrink asked how things were going while we were there for The Man's Heart, and I said the Dementia now is complicating things further.  He said if Placement becomes necessary he'll see what he can do to Help, I appreciate that, coz it's always a possibility.   

Dr. Patel thinks I'm doing a good Job for Extreme Long Term Caregiving of so many Family Members, and always asks me how I'm doing too.  He knows how I am.  *Winks and Smiles*  Anyway, The Daughter is helping me wrap up the Irrigation, we're going longer coz now the Head of Water we're getting isn't great so it's slow to fill up the Yard and we haven't taken on all the Water we're allotted even tho' it's now past time to receive it for our part of the rotation.   So, we're letting it run past our timing and won't drop the Gates yet or turn off the Pump until even later than dropping the Gates.  The Water is Cold and I've got Princess T here too so she and her Mom said they'd be the ones to Walk the Planks, so I don't have to or risk a Fall.  Which is good, I don't need to Fall and break a fucking Hip or something.  I've still got to go to a nearby Wal-Mart for that Flex-Seal.  We can see where Shingles blew off mostly the East Facing part of the RV Garage Mahal Roof... you have to go out in the Street to see up that high and Neighbors I don't really even know have been walking up to ask how much damage we've sustained and tell us how much they did. 

 

Nothing brings Community Together quite like catastrophic events.  Stuff got blown around our Property but not much was actually damaged, just created a mess to clean up really.   And it's so humid out there now that I only did minor cleanup for now.   And if another Storm is coming Tonight it seems pointless to tidy everything up now just to do it again after Tonight's Storm hits.  They even are saying on the News to just wait to do it or to have repairs done, so you don't have to do it twice.  But I want The Son spraying that Flex Seal up there where Shingles are missing so we have no Water leakage into The RV Garage Mahal that might damage the contents if it Rains that hard again Tonight.  We had some minor Flooding from last Night's Storm but our Sandbagging helped keep it at bay mostly.  The City had been handing out Sandbags all Week, now I know why.  The Daughter, Princes T and I got most debris out of the Pool and picked up.  I forgot it's Pool Cleaning Day so I was Naked doing it, but no Pool Guy came yet.   Naked Old Hippie getting debris, Shingles and Signs out of her Pool.  *LOL*

I almost forgot about Princess T's Dental Appointment at Noon, so I'm glad we got Irrigation done too, we never did get all the Water we should have, but it dumped enuf Rain last Night that I'm not too worried about it, especially if it dumps more like that by Tonight.   And we have a List of what we need from Wal-Mart to pick up after her Appointment.  I'm thinking I might go to TARGET instead coz I get a Red Card Discount on purchases there and they should have everything there too, I'd think?  But, after I You Tube temp Shingle loss repairs it warns not to use Flex Seal Products and why, so, dammit, I'm gonna have to give The Son actual replacement Shingles to do the Repairs properly and get him some Roofing Nails instead.  There's no easy temp fix it seems, so we'll just have to re-roof the areas damaged.  So, that's the Bad News and he's not gonna wanna hear that but we gotta do it Right.  And I don't know he can do it before the next Storm hits either, which sucks coz I don't want Water damage on top of Shingle Loss damage.  But, whaddya gonna do when it's back to back Bad catastrophic Weather hitting?  *Le Sigh*

I did look Online to see if any Local Companies do Repairs for Monsoon Roof damage and did find one that I'll call and at least get an estimate on what a Professional Team would charge.  But, looking Online, for a Two Story Structure with about 25 Shingles or so Lost, it's expensive, so I don't think we can afford it actually and I may not waste time getting a Quote, The Son and our Neighbor will have to do it again.  They've done it before and The Son said it's not hard, and he's not afraid of heights, I'd be terrified myself to be up that high doing anything.   God I Hate these damaging Storms and we have them with more frequency now each Year and they do so much structural damage and devastation each time they rip thru.  I don't wanna risk filing smaller Claims coz then your Insurance goes up and Costs of everything are high enuf already.  I Save filing Claims for something Major in Cost so that if they increase Rates afterwards, at least it was worth it and still Cheaper.   Anyway, other than that everything is fucking Swell.  *LOL and Eye Rolling*

Okay, I can't Fixate on Repairs I just can't afford that happened, it bums me out.   I don't even like sending the Guys up there to do it either, but, it's gotta get done or a small Problem turns into a larger more expensive and extensive one.   I think Roofing Companies exploit when demand is high for Storm Repairs too.   So I don't Trust they don't inflate the Costs after a big Storm coz they have high demand and will only do those willing to Pay whatever they ask for, even if it sounds like they're exploiting Emergencies.  And this time more Shingles blew off than ever before, so it's a small job but probably not the least expensive one to get Quotes on either.  And I don't have a Grand just sitting around doing nothing.   And I can't tolerate more Debt Load either.  *Eye Roll*  So, just Color me frustrated right now that everything is Costing more and Money is already Tighter than ever.

I went Grocery Shopping late last Night just for Essentials we were out of or low on and I noticed Inventory/Stock was really, really low, they were out of a lot of things and low on many others.  That is something I always pay attention to since the Pandemic and Supply Chain Issues.  And now Tariffs, and all the outbreaks of Disease coz we have an Idiot Conspiracy Theorist Roided Out Worm Brain Imbecile heading up Health and Human Services as Secretary, I knew that soon, shit's gonna get Real Real.   Coz I know eventually all these faux pas of incompetence, extortion, and intentional fuckery will catch up to us and be really evident and totally unavoidable.  The Man had wanted some Macaroni Salad, usually the Deli has it and they have pre-made Containers of it too... they had ONE Container of it in the whole Store!!!  I thought, that's Odd.  I wanted Chorizo, usually there's an abundance of it in the Meat Dept. and pre-packaged, that too, was almost Sold Out of every Brand!    Shredded Cheese, they were Sold Out of some types too.  And I'm like, this is really Weird and a bit disturbing actually... it doesn't portend well, what's going on?

 

I Googled to see if there's some Supply Chain Issues or Cyber Attacks again going on that I didn't know about?  Not seeing anything being reported, but it's noticeable, so something has to be disrupting Supply or Delivery?   I know Businesses like SALAD TO GO filed Chapter 11 recently and are going out of business, not surprising given the Produce scares right now and explosive shits it's giving people.   And the Screw Worm scare is pretty disturbing, they're claiming the Commercial Beef supply is Safe, but I dunno, not Risking it right now.  Coz who knows how containment is actually going with this Cabal of Vulgarian Idiots at the helm?   All of who often can't find their Asses with both Hands and do not make any Sense at all when they do National Televised Interviews now, and have no Proof or Evidence to back up anything they do say?   I just feel like they make shit up as they go along and Hope it sounds good enuf so that everyone is buying into it?   And Dementia Donnie, well, what falls out of his Mouth is beyond the Pale now in extreme Cognitive decline.

I'm having a Roof Guy give us a quote, he actually came by twice in a row over the past Two Days but I wasn't Home both times and The Daughter talked to him Today and Yesterday The Man got his Business Card.  So, we'll see how much the Quote is when he sets it up for an Inspection?   I may have to transfer Money from Emergency Savings to cover it if it's doable and affordable to.   We got the Dental Appointment done and she has just one more Fluoride Treatment before she turns 21 next Month that will be covered for Pediatric Dentistry on her Insurance.  He said she can keep coming but he's not sure if her Insurance will cover it or not, I think it should for preventative maintenance, which is all she's ever needed coz she takes good Care of her Teeth.  So a couple Cleanings annually and a Fluoride Treatment should be covered even by her Adult AHCCCS Dental Insurance I'd think?   She took me to "Wildflower Bread Co." for our Lunch, her Treat.  We were disappointed coz all their Breads were soggy... Weird... high Humidity to blame?

You can't tell by the pix, but the Bread on this half a Veggie Sammie literally fell to bits when I picked it up and nothing is worse than soggy Bread!  Even Princess T's side of Rosemary Sea Salt Bread, unbuttered, coz she just had 12 Vegetable Soup, was soggy too!   So, I hadda eat my Sammie as if it was a damned Salad and got Cream Cheese and Smashed Avocado all over my Hands when the Bread fell apart picking it up as a Sammich initially!   Yeah, messy and not pleasant.   And I accidentally fried The Son's System when I unplugged it last Night, but he'd fallen Asleep with loud Head Banger Music on it and I couldn't figure out how to turn off his System and he wouldn't wake up, so I just pulled the plug on it so we could get some Sleep.  I won't apologize for that, since, I've told him, don't play your Music so damned loud, use a Headset like your Niece does to listen to her Music.  Not everyone wants to hear it blasting, especially what he listens to, they Scream like they're Mental, it's disturbing to hear that incessantly.  Listen to me when I tell you NOT to do something in our Home... and then shit like that won't happen!

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Post Storm Blues... Dawn... The Bohemian

Keeping it 100... And, Yet Another Loss

The Son's Native American Friend, Garrett, Scored both of them some Tickets to a Downtown Concert on Saturday Night.  Garrett have driven into the City from Casa Grande and I said I'd drive The Son Downtown.  What we didn't know if there were massive Freeway Closures for Construction improvements, so Traffic was insane, ADOT had cocked up Detouring Traffic and the Police had made it even more chaotic and nonsensical.  They were diverting Eastbound Traffic WEST for Miles and Miles.  So you spent about an Hour going in the Wrong Direction due to their incompetence at diverting the Closures!  It was horrible and it was 116 Degrees so people's Vehicles were breaking down and overheating in the melee or running out of Gas, impatience and chaos abounded, it was Nightmarish!!! 

I managed to still get him there before it began, but only coz they'd delayed the Concert for some reason.  And then it was an equal Nightmare for me getting back Home even zigzagging thru Surface Street Detours of my own creatively to avoid the worst of the Traffic Jams!  I used up so much Gas going nowhere and being stuck in Traffic.  Had I known about the Closures I might have taken different Routes getting there at least, but they didn't even Warn anyone about them adequately or put Signage up well in advance of you just finding yourself in the midst of a Cluster Fuck they'd created on a busy Saturday Night!  Online, when I Googled WTF was going on, coz nobody knew for sure, if it was a big Accident, or what, it's Closed until MONDAY!!!   Would have certainly been more Helpful to make that more widely known, but, ADOT {Arizona Dept. Of Transportation}, didn't!  Which is typical.

 OMG, you better not need to get anywhere then in a 10 Mile Radius of said Freeway all fucking Weekend then!  And we live within that Radius!!!  Traffic is heavy now on a good day due to overbuilding and not improving infrastructures first!   Poor City Planning, they should have done Transportation Improvements before all of the Development Building and expanding of Population density in an area.  Not running damage control behind what they did to profit off of, it's just messy and chaotic for whose already living there now and must deal with the City doing things Ass backwards.  Anyway, Urban Sprawl tends to work like that, the Short Term Greed of Development means long term Problems for the Communities they've intruded into and made complex Issues for to now try to Solve.

As it is the Zoning has now been mish-mashed and Industrial is being put right by Residential.   High Density Multi-Family Residential is bumping right up against Luxury Residential Properties, badly Negatively impacting their Equity.  Agricultural is being gobbled up too quickly by everything they change the original Zoning to.  So they no longer can Source what used to be Grown Locally anymore, driving up Prices to Import it in now from a distance and have it be nowhere near as Fresh and Healthy, but Cost way more.  It's part of why I Invested in a Mini Farm so that if it all worsens, we could grow what we need ourselves to Harvest and Sell the overage of.  So, anyway, Garrett at least gave The Son a ride Home even tho' he had a very long Ride back Home in the other direction to get back to Casa Grande.

The Son got a helluva Black Eye and Mouse under and over it at the Concert, total accident.  Some Young Teen in front of him got pushed and his Head slammed back into The Son's Face!  He was more concerned for the Kid at first, becoz he was only about 17 and hit hard.  The Son has a very hard Head, but he knew it was a hard hit and thought at first he was okay, then it immediately swelled up and closed, so he had to watch the Concert thru One Eye!  *LOL*  It was a Heavy Metal Concert so... at first I thought he was dumb enuf at 40 to do a Mosh Pit?  *LMAO*  Nope, no Fight, no Mosh Pit, total accident of someone getting shoved and backing into him hard.  The Teen said he knew he'd hit something hard and no Wall was behind him, but felt like he hit a Wall.  *LOL*  The Kid was like, Owwww, the Back of my Head really hurts and The Son is like, how do you think my Face feels?  *LOL* 

Nope, no Wall, just the Old Guy's Face behind you... and of coarse The Son was way bigger than this Teen.  So it was like the Kid had hit a Wall, The Son is sturdy and Muscular.  And asked if that Kid was alright?*Bwahahahaha*  He knows he'll get Teased at Work now, looks like he's been in a Fight and Lost.  He's finishing up our Yardwork this Morning coz we need to bag the Grass and the Garbage goes out Tomorrow Morning for Pickup, so needs to be gathered up and put in there Today.  It started out real Hot, otherwise I'd help him, but he said he's got it and I didn't have to risk re-injuring my sore Back by bending a lot out there and getting overheated.  He's used to working Outside or in Non-Climate Controlled Spaces {in the Trades the Warehouses and Work Sites usually are not Air Conditioned}.

I just had Princess T do a Cash App of the Birthday Money from me to her Brother, I don't know how to do all that and put it into his Savings Account, which he couldn't access from New Mexico.  So, now it's transferred to where he can access it for his Special Day.  He had decided not to come back to Phoenix for his Birthday on account of there is some current Drama between he and his Dad... and The Young Prince's Girlfriend, Sayde.  Yes, he was going out with a Girl who has been a long time Friend, and it has not worked out, so I think they are best off just being Friends, without Benefits.  *Winks*  Sayde always had a Crush on The Young Prince, but he made the mistake of an introduction to his Dad, who has always been a Player, and need I say more, it got awkward fast.  Yes, his Dad is in a Relationship too, but that has never stopped Bobby from being a Player and having no Boundaries, and once a Player, always a Player.  And thus now Allen is back in the Picture anyway, so... so much for the Switch Hitting.  *LOL*

Young Love can become so complicated these days, I can't keep pace with the makeups and breakups, I really can't.  *LOL*  In my day if it was just a Booty Call that's all we made it out to be, not pretend it was a Relationship!  Not so complicated.  *Winks*  Anyway, The Young Prince just didn't wanna Deal with all that here in Phoenix on his Birthday so he decided he wanted to spend it with Allen in New Mexico, which seems like that will be less complicated or awkward really, and I told him so when we discussed the Drama.  My Grandkids and Adult Kids tell me EVERYTHING, so we have those candid discussions about anything and everything, straight up, and keeping it 100%, so I know what's going on with them.  You're only ever as Sick as your Secrets, I've always told them that, and I Believe that, so I'm not a Secretive or Deceptive Person at all.  I'll keep it 100 with you, and if you can't Handle the Truth, that's on you, it's not on me.  I'll always tell you what you Need to Hear, not just what you might Want to Hear.

And The Son was in Tears this Morning, just Yesterday his Childhood Friend Tabitha had been on both our Hearts and Minds and we didn't quite know why, but, we'd talked about her, just Yesterday.  I hadn't seen Tabitha since before her Mom Died and she didn't handle it well coz she and her Single Parent Mom were very close and she was an Only Child.  If you saw Tabby, her Mom was always by her Side, a Team.  Well, The Son found out just this Morning that Tabitha has Died!   A mutual Friend informed him when she found out.   In Grade School, Jr. High School and High School they were very close coz they both got picked on a lot due to their Disabilities.  The Son was Tabitha's Bodyguard thru all those Years, coz we all lived in Da Hood, rough Neighborhood, predominantly Hispanic and lots of Gangs.  Tabitha was Black, a Type 1 Diabetic with Serious Health Issues her whole Life and a very big Girl her whole Life.  Above is the only Pix I still had of Tabby, since, once they all grew up, you didn't see them as much as when they were Kiddos in School and played together a lot.

 Above is a Pix of her Dear Mom, Toria, who Passed in 2025.  She'd been a Teacher and Taught at their Schools, and she'd grown up in the Military and Traveled the World extensively, Military and Ex-Military Families stick together.   So The Son was close with Tabitha's Mom too and so she and I got to know each other thru our Kids being so close and being such good Friends.  There were not many Black Kids in the Student Population, or White Kids, or Native American Kids, or Asian Kids.  The Student Body and Barrio was 99% Hispanic.  Their Friend Andrase used to joke that most of the Black Kids in School there were his Siblings or his Cousins.  And that was the Truth!  *LOL*  So, anyway, The Son could Fight, was Scrappy and Fearless, so if anyone Bullied or messed with Tabitha, they were then Dealing with him handing them their Ass in defense of his Friend.  He was known as the Loco Indio.  It was well known, mess with Tabitha, and he had her Back and she always appreciated him standing up for her, ever since they were little.   Below is Tabitha in Grade School, as I remember her when our Families first met and our Kids were in Kindergarten together, always a Big Smile, such a Radiant Child.

 And he stayed in Touch with Tabitha all thru their Adulthood, but hadn't seen her in a while and knew she'd been not doing well since her Mom's Death.   She dropped off all her Social Media sites too, so nobody knew what was going on with her anymore.  But she had been on our Hearts and Minds at the same time recently... and now we know why.   She Died almost a Year after her Dear Mom.  RIP my Dear, you always were such a Beautiful Spirit and a Ride or Die Good Friend, you will be missed.   The Son was broken Hearted to hear of your Passing.  It made his not Black Eye Swollen too, you'd Laugh about that.  Since he got many a Black Eye standing up for you, but Winning every Fight. *Smiles*  She was Single, no Kids, and her Mom had preceded her in Death, so I don't know if there was any other Family still living?  I think Mom had been her Caregiver right up 'til the End of her Mom's Life, and sadly her Daughter didn't last long after that on her own.  The Worry of every Parent whose Caregiver of a Special Needs Child(ren).  You don't wanna Outlive them, but don't know what will happen to them when you're Gone?

I finished putting all the Grass in the Garbage and to the Curb since The Son is taking his Late Morning Early Afternoon Siesta already.  Now I'll be going down for mine since this was more of a Workout in that Heat and Humidity than going to the Gym and sitting in their Wet Sauna!  I must have Sweat out any Impurities in my whole Body, it was so Swampy out there.  *LOL*  I'm jumping into a Cool Shower or The Pool to Cool Off, mebbe both, then changing into Fresh Jammies newly Organized.  *Ha ha ha*  Since The Son is Asleep I can Skinny Dip and not risk Visual Trauma to him in his One Good Unswollen Eye.  *LMAO*  What with getting Head Butted and Grief, he's had enuf Trauma for one 24 Hour Period!   LATER:  Well, that was refreshing and I feel a lot less grungy now and freshened up, but I'm staying Inside now for the rest of the day, it's brutal out there.  And I figure I've done enough Todaying for Today as well in the way of Home Maintenance.  And there's more Flan in the Fridge and Jell-O with fresh Berries and other Fruit in it that The Daughter made.  Nom-Nom.

Tomorrow Princess T has a Dental Appointment, we're trying to get everyone done before she turns 21 and can't go to her Pediatric Dentist anymore that she's known and gone to all her Life.  She has good Teeth, no Cavities, so it's just preventative Care.   She has Dental on AHCCCS but she also has extreme Anxiety Issues and someone 'New' is never easy for her to transition to.  The Daughter needs a lot of Dental Work and has Insurance for it now too but is Paranoid about going.  The Dental Work she had done previously that I Paid for, didn't last, I think she's going to require Implants or Dentures, which I don't know AHCCCS will pay for, they don't cover a lot, and absolutely nothing remotely Cosmetic or for better Function to Eat, but it's better than having no Dental Care or Coverage, so, not Complaining either.

  I spent a lot on her Dental and The Young Prince's Dental before they got AHCCCS Approved, for Emergency Dental Procedures that couldn't be avoided and had to be Paid out of Pocket.  Neither has Money or means of Support, no gainful Employer will Hire Schizophrenics, so it was on my Dime.  To get her in for Emergency Dental I bought her Two Mike's Hard first and told her to slam them to take The Edge off her going Psychotic once we were in the Dental Chair.  I almost passed out watching what had to be done, that's never happened to me before but I got Faint, probably coz it's my Kid and I'd rather have something awful happening to myself than watching it happen to one of my Kiddos.  She thought it was Funny that I had to drop to the Floor to avoid Fainting dead away, so it made her Laugh and endure what was happening better.  *LOL*  Yeah, we're Twisted in our Humor like that... Hey Look, Mom's almost Fainting and I'm the one having the Procedure... ha ha ha!  *Winks*

Over 25 Years of Meth Use before she managed to get Clean, and living on the Streets with no Medical or Dental Care, or Prenatal Care for having had Five Children, and it's a Wonder she has any Teeth left actually and still looks so good.  She is a Survivor, that's for damned sure, so she never worries about Tomorrow, she's Learned to Live in each Moment and make it Work.   She said her Son is just having to Learn the same coz there is no Cure for what they have and really Society as a Collective isn't sending in the Cavalry to Save anyone.  So only the Strongest will Survive and whatever doesn't Kill you only makes you Stronger.  It's a very Pragmatic approach to Life, but it Works for her and has been why she's probably even still Alive given all she's gone thru already in Life in Two different Countries!!!   I remember she said Long Beach was Scarier than any place she ever lived in Mexico, even areas run by the most ruthless Cartel.  That spoke volumes.

She said when she was trying to find the Bus Station in Long Beach, at Night, after crossing the Border and trying to make her way to Phoenix, the Cops stopped her asked if she was Lost?  Coz, she didn't quite look like a Local at all in the area she was in with a Demographic that looked nothing like her, so she definitely Stood Out. *LOL*  And she told them if they could give her a Ride to the Bus Station, coz indeed she wasn't sure where she was or where it was, she was trying to get to Phoenix, and she didn't wanna have to Stab some Fools if someone took her for an Easy Mark.  She wasn't kidding, I think they sensed she wasn't kidding, her Crazy is sometimes very Innocently apparent... so they gave her a Ride to the Bus Station.  She said in Mexico you'd never ask Police for Help tho'.  And she made it to Phoenix, where we picked her up, and now, several Years later, here we now are.  *LOL* 

 She had a tiny Backpack with One Change of Clothes to her whole Name and that's pretty much how she'd Lived Happily for over 20 Years in Mexico without a Worry or Care in her Heart!  I'm glad that no Gangsta in Long Beach approached her, and the Cops did first, or she may have been up on Charges instead if a Self Defense Plea  didn't work out, or Committed to a Mental Health Facility, when she filleted them like a Fish.  Let us just say she's very handy with a Weapon and Crazy enuf to use one if she feels an imminent Threat confronts her.   But she had no intentions of ever visiting Long Beach again, that's for sure.  If she says she is Scared of some place, then that is a very Scary fucking place to be.  Coz she doesn't Scare easily, if at all, usually, so I can only imagine the Neighborhood she wound up in there that she got dropped off in after she Crossed the Border!!!   She knows folks in L.A., American Friends and Mexican National Friends who live there, but she didn't wanna go to L.A., Phoenix was her destination and she'd already contacted me that she was on her way and coming back Home.

She'd been Clean for Three Whole DAYS, so we weren't sure any of it was gonna Work Out?  And what could go Wrong?  *Bwahahaha*  Especially with Sobriety Holding.  Her Kids didn't know she was even coming and they hadn't seen her in about 18 Years... so... SURPRISE!!!  They Surprisingly are doing better at forming a Relationship with her as she is, and acceptance it won't get better than this, and is WAY Better than she was 20+ Years ago, than I thought was possible, and I'm Happy about that.  I'm Proud of her for doing so much better than I ever thought she would or could actually, especially Mentally and Behaviorally.  Coz, that's never gonna Change and there's no getting "Clean" or Well from Schizophrenia and Dissociative Identity Disorder, that's Forever and no Cures exist.  Psyche Meds typically don't even work that well at all to Manage it, so Two Mike's Hards a Day seems to be Working Out better for her Self-Medicating and not being so Crazy.  Insurance doesn't cover that tho'.  *Bwahahahahaha*  Okay, had to insert some inappropriate Dark Gallow's Humor, coz, why not?  That's Funny, I don't Care who you are!!! *LOL*

So, our Local Chevron Mini Mart Owners, who are a Dear Immigrant Family, know how Crazy my Alcoholic Spawn are, and that they are Not Well... so they give me Deals on the "Medicine".  *Winks*  They know I don't drink, and they make Jokes with me about picking up the "Medicine" for "The Kids", so that we're not Dealing with Mental so much at Home.  *Smiles*  Their One Elderly Uncle wears a Pale Grey Turban and has the same Pale Grey Eyes I do, so he always tells me I have Beautiful Eyes, and then I tell him he does too, and we both Laugh about it.  He's Swarthier than me, so his really stand out and look a bit Eerie and highly Unusual.  For South Asians to have Pale Grey Eyes is even Rarer, and Grey Eyes are already the Rarest Eye Color, less than 1% of us Worldwide. 

  Northwestern parts of South Asia it's less uncommon, so he's probably originally from Kashmir, Punjab or parts of Rajasthan or Uttarakhand.   His Eyes are almost transparently Palest of Grey.  And his Turban and Kurta are Grey so no other reflective Wardrobe coloring that his Eyes pick up.  Mine pick up Color from whatever I'm wearing, I guess it's reflective, coz otherwise they are very Pale Grey too.  This Rarer variant recessive Gene Color of Eyes runs on the Paternal Side of my Mom's Family, my Welsh Roma Gran-Gran and my Mom had the same Grey Eyes I have.   We have quite a few Family Members with Unusual Color of Green-Amber Eyes too, which are striking and people comment on all of the time.  The Young Prince and my Maternal Nanna had them on the Maternal Side of the Family and on Dad's Paternal Side of the Family my Cousin Wewokajanna has them too.   I think Princess T's very Dark almost Black Eyes are Beautiful as well, so Dark they don't look Brown and you can't see her Pupils.

I realized just Minutes ago that my Diamond and Gold Nose Stud had fallen out and I don't know when and I don't know where!?  Never felt it coming out and it doesn't come out easily.  Panicked a bit coz I don't change it out coz my Nose Piercing tends to be difficult to change the Jewelry out of and the Hole has closed up quickly before and needed to be Re-pierced.  I didn't wanna hafta do it a 3rd time coz the East Indian Family that did it the other 2 times closed their Shop and I don't know where they went and wouldn't have anyone else do it.  East Indians have been doing Nose Piercings for Generations as a Culture and do it Right.  Anyway, I called Princess T, who was with Rusty, and told her if she could lend me a Nose Jewelry and if I couldn't get it back in would she do it for me?  She has a Nose Piercing and changes out her Jewelry easily and all of the time, so she agreed.  I found one of her Fancy Diamond and Gold fancier Studs, larger than mine had been but I like how it looks, and lo & behold, I got it in without much trouble at all.  *Whew*  Panic averted.  *Smiles*

As you can see I've done a bit more Decorating, putting some of my favorite LP's in their Covers on Display.  One is CREAM and one is IRON BUTTERFLY.   A clearer look of both Album Covers is Below:

I also Displayed my LAUGH-IN Album Cover behind the Lamp on top of the new Medical Cabinet... clearer look of that LP Cover is Below:

The Album Cover I have {with LP's in every one I still have}, that I most want to Display but need to find a Frame for that is the Right Size for the Fold-Out type Cover it is, was a JIMI HENDRIX EXPERIENCE  Album, my all time Favorite Album Cover:

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Chillin' in AC inside all day in the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian