Triple Ugh... Another Not So Positive Post

 

Today I should gather my Tax Paperwork together and organize it to take in to our CPA and get that part over with.   So much is pending, I just need to bite the Bullet and at least get Taxes out of the way and be done with it.  Ugh.  No idea whether we'll still Owe... since, who knows what this Regime has or hasn't changed, they talk a lot of Bullshit to string the other 98% along who actually pay Taxes.  The Weather Advisory already has a Heat Warning in effect and it's barely past 7:00 in the Morning!  Another Ugh.  It will likely be another staying Inside kinda day then.  And with Gas nearing Five to Six Bucks a Gallon all around Metro Phoenix here in these parts, there will also be many staying at Home kinda days as well.  Triple Ugh.

I know, another not so Positive Post, sorry.  The Young Prince was really Sick when he got Home from his Dad's, more Stomach Problems.  He's having as many as his Sister did before she saw a Specialist for it.  But, he doesn't have Insurance yet, so we'll have to wait 'til they push it thru with his Caseworker's help, coz he still owes too many places Money right now.  I'm running out of new places to take him, coz, they all wanna get paid, you know?   We're spread too thin now to cover any more expenses for Grown Children or Grown Grandchildren who have no means of support or paying for their Emergencies.  I suspect many Americans, Millions in fact, are now in the same predicament? 

 Once the Nation has been Bankrupted by Donnie Two Dolls, like he's Bankrupted everything else he's touched, I have grave concerns about how much of American Infrastructure will just crumble and fall apart?!  We're now spending TWO BILLION a Day, and that's just on Military expenses... not counting everything else... that is not sustainable.  There's only so many Tax Dollars and we know the Billionaires aren't contributing to keep any of that solvent.  But their Grifting and Looting The System sure is paying off for them.  They got quite the Racket going on now and nobody is stopping them.  The System, as it stands in any form of Opposition, said they're Writing Letters and preparing Lawsuits... swell... WTF?!

They're overwhelmingly Winning Lawsuits, yet, is any Restitution actually being Paid?  No.  Is anyone actually being Imprisoned?  No.  They talk about Impeaching a Guy they've already Impeached Twice!  Nothing Happened.   Since, he's still there, the Impeachments were completely Impotent and Useless that they did before, so how's a 3rd Impeachment gonna Work for us?   I'll wait...  That's like saying STOP!  Or, I'll say STOP again!!!  As your Threat... and that's not something you can take Seriously.  And I'm not taking any of the Political Opposition all that Seriously becoz it's been completely ineffective and completely Impotent so far.  It's so Limp Dick in fact, that I don't even think they can get it Up anymore?   It's a flaccid bunch just telling an Adjudicated Rapist, quit Raping... and... he's not.  And telling them boldly, I'll Rape anyone and anytime I want to... and he therefore does... becoz he's found he can.

The Epstein Files, since, that Statement took us there, didn't it?  Now we know that the FBI never did anything from way back.  Several Administrations back in fact, so clearly he's not the only Problem, not that I ever thought he was, not even close, to tell you the Truth.  And mebbe becoz Women and Children really aren't Valued by The System that Claims... ooops, I meant used to Claim... that they actually Cared about us.  Oh, and not just us, I forgot to add all People of Color, all LGBTQ+, all the Disabled, the Poor, the Aged, all the Marginalized and Disadvantaged of our Society.  Let's just cast that Big fucking Net of not actually Caring that is now so evident.  Nobody can really dispute it or pretend anymore that they ever did Care in the first place.

Yeah, I got a lot to do this Morning and here I sit instead banging out another not so Positive Post.  *Le Sigh*  I'm getting to where my Fucks to give are running out and Dark Dawn has become more apt to tell Dawn Of The Light, shut the Fuck up Bitch!  Becoz I really just am not the One to pretend shit is not going on when it's all really just hitting the Fan full on and the Shitfest and Fuckery is Knee Deep already and flying everywhere.  Not just from my little Vantage Point of Reference, but, everywhere, Locally, Nationally, Globally... it is quite the Shitfest and I can't Feel Good about it or put a Positive Spin on that, I. Just. Can't!  The Guarded Optimism I'd like to hang on to, well, it's grown Wings and has flown off like my Fucks to Give have.  Will it fly back?  I dunno?

So, now that I have no more Fucks to give, well, that's actually a little bit Liberating coz Dark Dawn generally has better Survival Instincts anyway.  It's the more Savage Feral unpredictable side when Dominant and Fronting, so, we'll see how that goes?   Since, apparently this Fucker and his whole Posse have a Hard On for War.  They're Lovin' it coz it's not like they've ever Fought one in their Lives, nor their Kids, nor will their Grandkids... No, they always send the other 98% to Fight their Battles and risk being maimed and killed.  To Defend WHAT this time tho'?  We used to say Freedom, Democracy, the Righteous Thing, to Protect the American People and way of Life, to Free the Oppressed in the World.  But, now that all of that would be total Bullshit and not what we're going to War for and being sent to do under this Regime... what EXACTLY is the Mission Statement and for Whom?  I'll wait...

I think the Enemy this time is within and that's what we ought to be Fighting Against and not For.   I know... I know... Peaceful Old Hippie that I am, that goes against my Core Beliefs that Peace, Love, Light and Harmony are what we should strive for and preserve.  And, I still Believe that, but sometimes it's time to roll up the Doormat and make it a Club and add a little Go Fuck Yourself... and not have your Adversaries mistake your Kindness for Weakness and just Bend Over and be Fucked... Raped if you will... would be a better term of what he and his Posse are doing to America.  Picture the Statue of Liberty, our Visual Mascot, just being his next Victim, of many Victims, and absolutely no consequences whatsoever having ever been actually meted out.  Follow the Money... and the ones who wouldn't be Paid Off who just happened to be Offed... there were sure a lot of alleged Suicides of those Victims who wouldn't be Bought again or Shut the Fuck up.   But our FBI did none of that and ya have to Wonder Why?

We'll Open an Investigation.  Well, Holy Mother of God we got so many going on now that haven't done a fucking thing no matter how much Proof, Evidence, final Investigation either turned up a whole Helluva LOT.  Or, in the Case of some of the more ridiculous Investigations into things that never existed in the first place, like Election Fraud, turned up Nothing coz there was never anything in the first place, all fabricated.  You can't even, stretching your Imagination as far as it might go, truly Believe that when he Won in 2016 and 2024 we had NO Fraud, but every other Election, HUGE Fraud.   Coz the same Fucking Public are Voting, it's not like we got New Public who didn't also Elect a President in 2016 and 2024 that was completely different than the Public that Elected someone else!!!  Come On, get fucking Real.   Yes, lots of F-Bombs will be dropped Today, brace yourselves for it, I Swear a lot.

 If he Wins it isn't Rigged, if he Loses it's definitely Rigged... hey that is a Win-Win then, huh?  I'd like them Odds when I play the Lottery... if I Win I Win... but if I Lose I Won too, now give me the fucking Money!  Imagine if Life just Worked like that for the rest of us and we insisted that it did or we play the Victim Card too and waste everyone else's Money pursuing that End.  That's what he's doing, all the time... and has been his Pattern and M.O. {Modus Operandi} since forever actually, it's not New.   It's the specific behavior Patterns, Methods, and Habits a Criminal uses to commit a Crime... and... if they've gotten away with enough Crimes, especially over Time, they get sloppy with it.  He's at the sloppy phase now coz he feels quite untouchable and immune from any consequences.

Okay, enuf of Politics and my Bad Head Space.  I will try harder to let Dawn Of The Light come forth now and Salvage this Post.  Otherwise Dark Dawn could get really Dark, you have no idea.  To a Scary Dark Space and Place, that can be difficult to Hold.  *Bwahaha*   Becoz I was in a shitty Head Space I knew I had to do a "Me Day" again, but this time, with no Time constraints.  It worked out perfectly coz Princess T got off Work at 11:00 a.m.!   Earliest ever, so that left the rest of the Day for me footloose and fancy free.  No obligations, no Appointments yet, on a Saturday Morning!!!   Whoop Whoop!!   I knew I was gonna get in Trouble... coz... I was in Need of an Emotional Release of epic proportions to come back to Center and keep the Wheels from coming off.  *Winks*

I decided to go back to "Sweet Salvage", it's Day No. 3 now of the 4 Day Event, but, it was still Mad busy.   So I hadda Park in the Lower 40 and Hike in.  It was 109 Today BTW {See Evidence Below on my Vehicle Temperate Gauge, which is ridiculous for March 21st!}, not Hiking Weather, but I's a Soldier!  *Winks and Smiles*  I got the things I had to abort and just ditch on Opening Day, they were all still there, so, it was meant to be.  I thought I went a bit over Budget there in Retail Therapy with my Four items.  But, it was nothing compared to what I was gonna do next.  I decided to go to another Event not too far away, and at "Rusty Saturday", a fav Vendor/Fabricator's Booth, and another fav Vendor's Booth, I got a Primo item from each.  Some major Retail Therapy but I'll have no Buyer's Remorse, if I don't deserve it, who does?  *Winks*

So, yeah, the Budget is busted, but I had a really good time and it was therapeutic in a way that only Good Retail Therapy can be.  I got to visit with all my Friends and most know me well enuf to know what's been going on in my Personal Life that Sucks.  So, a couple of my Designer Friends Surprised me with Generous Gifts!!!  It was Moving me to Tears I had to fight back, coz it was so unexpected and Three items I'd admired, but resisted, and they insisted I just be Gifted with them!!!  OMG, I can't even tell you how much that meant to me!!!   They didn't have to do that and they wouldn't let me refuse, so, Thank You Michelle and Cyndie!!!  "Rusty Saturday" gave me a Discount too on the spendy item I purchased.  I've been Buying from them a very long time and built up quite a Collection of their Assemblage Art Display Pieces.

And I finally decided to Spring on the other spendy piece which was a Vintage Carnival Midway item I'd been Admiring for Months and finally thought, Fuck it, I'm getting it!!!   You know those 1920-1930 Era Carnival Games where they had the faux heavy Metal Milk Bottles Trio and some Colorful Gypsy Painted Baseballs to throw at them to knock them down?   I did Photograph my Set, but the 2nd Ball wasn't in Frame coz they had it off to the side and I forgot to put it in Frame... but Above my Set is a similar set being Sold on E-Bay for more than Double what I Paid.   And their Balls aren't as Cool and Gypsy Painted Colorful as mine and my Trio of Weighted Metal Milk Bottles has more Paint left on them, and I got mine less than Half the Price any Online are, so, I knew it was a Deal even tho' it was spendy.  And when will I find another one, Locally, Right?   They're heavy as little Boat Anchors so Shipping would be a Bitch Cost too.

I'd had my Lunch at a fav Thai Restaurant near the Event called "Thai Longan" and tried something new on their Menu they had on Special called Avocado Curry.  Never had it before, but the Owner said I'd like it, I've been going there so long now she knows my preferences, so I gave it a whirl and LOVED it!  It's a Green Curry and I opted for no Meats and just the Veggie version of it with the Sliced Avocado, Carrots, Broccoli, Bok Choy, Cilantro, Bamboo Shoots, Lime, Eggplant, Coconut Milk, Green Peppers, Shallots, Garlic & Ginger Base.   You can spoon it over your Jasmine Sticky Rice but I preferred to eat mine like a Soup, coz the Curry of it is quite thin like a nice Soup.  {See Above}   

I get mine Medium Hot, which is Hotter than most Anglo Customers usually get theirs coz I've always eaten Spicy Foods and have a Stomach like a Goat.  But, I'd know better than to get it Thai Hot.  I've had many Thai Friends and their Stomachs are way more sturdy than a Goat's!   My Butt would Pucker if I got mine Thai Hot.  *LOL*  I'd order this Avocado Curry again for sure. And I always get the Thai Eggrolls, which there are a Vegetarian Eggroll and Lovely, with a Sweet/Spicy Dipping Sauce.  It was busy in the tiny Restaurant this day and a couple of Young Handsome East Indian Guys were sitting at the Table in front of me.  I was intrigued coz the Guy facing in my direction was doing most of the talking and he was Drop Dead Gorgeous in a Bollywood Movie Star kind of way.  *Winks*  I'd guess he was the Age of my Grandson or thereabouts. 

 The most Handsome one, wearing a Blue Patka, and facing me, was complaining about his Traditional Parents not liking his choices of Career or his Work Ethic being too Laid Back, like an American Hippie.  *LMAO coz he did look very Granola Guy, Smiles, but in a very Handsome attractive Cool New Age Hippie way!*  He was typically Americanized 2nd Generation, no accent, and the Culture Wars at Home were definitely causing problems.  *LOL*   I wasn't sure if he still lived at Home or not, but most Immigrant Families are very tight and close even if you're not still living at Home.  But, it's not like they'd kick you out when you turn 18 either, we don't do that... that's a very Americanized Thing.  And our Tables were close enuf you couldn't help but overhear the Venting Session going on between him and his Buddy.  Who was the kind of Friend you really Need when you are having your Bohemian Rants. 

 *Not Unlike you Guys... Winks*

I did Buy the 2001 "Team Tony" Breakfast Bowl Set, New Old Stock, and I got all Four for $32 so I couldn't resist, great Display pieces, and who doesn't Love some New Old Stock in Original Packaging in great condition?   They weren't ever meant to still be pristine and unpackaged like that all these Years later... and especially as a whole Set of Cereal Premiums!   I got those at our other Antique Mall Location since I did swing by there too while I was in the City and talked to my Friends.  My Friend Ross just became a Father again, to another Baby Girl.  {See precious one Below}  It's his 2nd Child, last time he was a Dad was 10 Years ago and he Raised his Oldest Daughter as a Single Parent and then got Married in 2025 to a Wonderful Young Woman and so now they have this Baby together.

  He said he thought it would be like riding a Bike, but after so long he was afraid to even hold the Baby!  *LOL*  He's been a great Single Dad Raising his Oldest Daughter.  He'd let her Paint his Fingernails and all the Things that The Man would let Princess T do when she was little and we were Raising the Grandkids.    His Oldest is Platinum Blonde and Adorable, but so is this New Baby, she is a very Pretty Newborn.  I'm so Happy for him, he's such a Good Guy and is in Management at our other Antique Mall Location.   I'd say he's about the Age of our Older Grandkids.   I've gotten along fabulously with all of the Young People who work at both of our Antique Mall Locations.  They are so Sweet to often tell me they don't think of me as a "Boomer", coz I'm not at all like all the other Old Ladies they know or who are Vendors... so they never think of me as "Old", coz I'm so Lit/Fire... which is like saying I'm Cool, in my Era Slang... ha ha ha... awwwww, ain't that so Flattering?

 Okay, so, back to Retail Therapy, I also got the Retro S&P Shakers below coz they're huge and in this House we used so much Salt and Pepper that our Shakers have to be refilled all the damned time.  So, I thought, these will hold more and last longer between refills.  *Winks*  Plus, the Vendor had a ridiculously low Price on them so, hadda have 'em, they MAKE you Buy something when they Price it so low for what it is!  *Smiles*  In fact, I don't think I've ever seen a S&P Set so Big before, so that kinda fascinated me too.  And for their Age they were in great Shape.   They were being Sold Online for Three Times what I paid and not in as good a shape {Mine are pictured Above and a Set for 3 x the amount are pictured Below them}.

The one thing I really Love best about Technology is that now I can Google something in Real Time before deciding on a Purchase to get current Price Points of Value.  To discern how good a Deal... or not... what someone is asking for it really is?   I can be swayed when clearly it's an even better Deal than I suspected it was.  Anyway, I Love a Retro Kitchen look and I still have a 1950's Retro Kitchen Dining Set in The RV Garage Mahal that we sit at near the Big RV Door that when Opened, is a perfect spot to be inside the RV Garage Mahal, yet, look out towards our Front of the Property and the Street, watching Life go by, bucolic and feeling Rural, yet also Urban, coz we're in the City, so, the best of both Worlds combined and melded together.  I feel quite Blessed to have Scored this Property, it's a rarity now, a lot of the Properties with Acreage have been gobbled up by Urban Development.

The Daughter tried to Call me Today but I didn't take the Call coz I'd fallen Asleep on the Sectional, and so didn't catch the Call on my Cellphone but it woke me while ringing.  Then she Called the House and apparently her Dad then picked up the Call, so I just let him take it.  I wasn't quite ready yet to speak with her again, since our last Call had gone quite Sideways and she hung up on me, knowing how upset she'd made me.  I know she'll apologize for that, sincerely, coz none of my Kids or Grandkids ever wants to make me Upset or Angry at them, and I never wanna stay Upset or Angry at them either.  That's not how our Relationship has ever gone no matter what has happened that isn't good and has been sometimes really bad in fact with Choices they've made that has impacted all of us.   A relapse was fairly predictable, how she handled her relapse was the more upsetting part for and to me, she knows this, don't Shit where you Eat tho'... Bad decision, never Okay.  Never disrespect me that way or Lie to me either.

Anyway, Moving On... all that will get resolved, over Time.  I didn't give up on her for over 25 Years so I won't start to now.  I just worry about her, you can't punish your Body so much and not have it do collateral damage to you or risk a fatality eventually from the abuse.   And that part always Scares the Shit out of me.   Her Serious Mental Illness does impair her decision making process considerably and she always has had to self-medicate to Deal with her Mental Torment from Schizophrenia.  It usually meant a reasonable amount of Drinking, which, I could roll with, even if she used Medicinal MJ, it's Legal in Arizona now, no problem with that either.  Dispensaries abound and it and Wellbutrin is how her Son manages his Schizophrenia and it works well and is regulated and much Safer.   She's already on AHCCCS so could get Rx Meds and MJ is very reasonably priced now at Dispensaries.  I'd rather she consider that instead of self-medicating with Illegal Street Drugs, or even Alcohol.

Anyway, we'll have a more reasonable Come To Jesus about it when I'm not so Emotionally Raw and she's not so defensive and Owns her shit and just comes Clean about it.   Everybody now knows, so there's no use denying the proof and evidence against her now.  Moving On...  I got some Incense from my Friend Nancy, who just got some in and had Nag Champa Base to a lot of other different incredible Scents like Palo Santo, Frankincense & Myrrh, White Sage, and various others.  I picked up a few Boxes of it, so my Truck smelled Divine on the Ride Home.  *Smiles*  And now it's Scenting up my Livingroom, which I keep all my Incenses handy in there by the TV in a Box for The G-Kid Force to use anytime too.  We all burn a lot of Incense and Scented Candles daily.  No Home or Space should ever not have to smell Sublime IMO.

I did drop some Inventory off at our Antique Mall on Friday, in preparation for the Weekend.  Our other Location was very busy too, so our Heatwave has not yet run off all the Snowbirds and Tourists yet, which is rather Surprising now it's already reached 109 this early in the Season... first time ever in Recorded History of Triple Digit Temps being this early and this fucking Hot already!  It's even Scaring the Locals about what that could mean for Late Spring and Summer?   We can't be 22 Degrees above those fucking Average Temps coz 118 is Typical, but 140 would be Deadly as fuck to all Living Things, probably bring the Grid Down, and Cook everyone, plus all the Wildlife too and the Plants.  We've had Cacti exploding for Two Years now with the increased Heat they can't sustain, even the Ancient Saguaro are dying off in record numbers due to Climate Change of just a few degrees above Average, 22 Degrees above Average, not sustainable for Life.

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Trying to stay Cool in the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Until You Are... It's No Mas

**Trigger Warning, Dark Post Ahead, Heavy Content**

 Chuck Norris Died Today, so The Son and I were Teasing his Dad that, Hey, you're Tougher than Chuck Norris!   *LOL*  There's a lot of Bad Jokes about Chuck being an immortal and Tougher than any Human, that have circulated over the Years.  And The Man is a HUGE Chuck Norris Fan and watches old reruns of "Walker Texas Ranger" still and all the time, which, it's so Cheesy and Badly Acted that it's more a Comedy than an Action Sitcom really, but, most Sitcoms of that Era are/were.  Of coarse Chuck was 86, so, he had a good run and stayed fit into his Old Age, so, was quite a Role Model for Fitness and Health into your Senior Years.  He hawked a lot of Exercise Equipment and knew the same Styles of Martial Arts from the Military that The Man knows.  Which isn't so much the Art of Self Defense as the Art of Killing.  Big difference.

I remember when our Kids and The G-Kid Force were Little and he Schooled them all on how to defend themselves, I was a little nervous, coz, like me as a Kid, mine aren't Right in the Head.  So, you didn't wanna make them Little Killing Machines, so it was a fine line to show them how to best defend themselves and not just go around Killing people they felt Threatened by!  *LMAO*  My Dad had a Military Martial Arts Friend when I was little too and did the same thing, had his Friend Teach me some basic Skills to stay Safe from an Adult who might pose a Threat.  But, by Age 10 my Dad told his Friend not to Teach me any more maneuvers or give me more Classes coz I sent a Boy who was a Bully and Senior in High School to the ER really fucked up coz he beat up my Grade School Aged little Brother and I went Bananas on that Guy.  So I didn't have the Temperament to use my Skills with any Wisdom when I went full on the Warpath with whoever posed a Threat.  I still lack the appropriate Temperament to actually.  *LOL*  If you pose a Threat to me or mine my Intent is to Neutralize your Ass and Eliminate that Threat.

Even in Psyche Lockdown that Big Young Insane Murderer found that out quickly when he decided to Square Off with me in the Lunchroom.  *LOL*  I think they sense it or see it in your Eyes that you are not Victim Material and it might be best to choose another Victim then and not make an Enemy of you, I dunno?  I just know that only an Hour in to being there in Psyche Lockdown, the Scariest fellow there had backed down from me and so then everything was much Calmer and copacetic for everyone else there and established my Dominance.  Which is how I fucking LIKE it to be if I'm gonna be anywhere, especially in Lockdown Involuntarily and being Held against my Will with Mixed Company, Young and Old, Male and Female, of which the Insane are Housed with just those of us having some Caregiver Burnout or a Suicide Attempt.  It was worse than being on the Streets of any Rough Neighborhood I'd ever experienced... and I didn't Like it. 

 So, it worked out nicely that the Big Young Homicidal Insane Maniac Dude they were also Holding against his Will, waiting to be determined Clinically Insane in the Court System, and I, had that Situation play out quickly, within an Hour of my arrival.   So that we had an Understanding of each other and no more fucking Situations between us.  Neither of us had anything left to lose or fucks to give... but he decided, when Questioned Calmly by the New Crazy Old Lady, that he did NOT in fact want to Die Horribly tho'.   I would have made it Legendary Horrible, I had decided in that instant.  I had even formulated a Plan on The Fly to take him Down Horribly and permanently.  Over a fucking Brownie he tried to take from me, that I couldn't even Eat coz it was Chocolate... and I just then calmly gave away to another Crazy Person right in front of him, after I wouldn't let him Threaten me and just take it from me!  That's a level of Crazy I guess the Insane Respect, I dunno? *Winks*

Could it have gone very Badly?  Of coarse, it can ALWAYS go completely Sideways, Life just can on the turn of any Dime.   But I Bow Down to no Man, it's how my Dear Ole Dad Taught me to Be... 'tis always better to Die with Honor than to be Enslaved by anyone who doesn't Value your Life anyway.   Which is why most Indigenous Tribes, no matter how Small, were very difficult to make Enemies of or Control.  And our Government has never Liked that about them, and why they tried to commit Genocide against them.   And it's also why all my Indigenous Relatives and Friends know that this current Administration wants to finish the Job and they Plan to Resist.   Since the MAGA Cult is quite capable of reverting to that kind of tactic with any other Humans they deem problematic or undesirables, and we should Resist with every ounce of our Being, to the last Person, if that's what it takes.   Cults are Crazy, just like that Insane Murdering Motherfucker was.

Sorry to go so Dark so early in the Post, but, that's where my Stream of Consciousness just headed right away this Morning.  My Dear Friend Kendra just got out of Facebook Jail, where she'd been for Weeks coz of her Political Views and Criticism.   She'd been unjustly Censored, when none of the Far Right ever are for what they Post Politically.  Coz I see their vile Political Views all over Zuckerberg's Platform, along with Hard Core Porn.  When he once Censored me and put me in FB Jail for showing an 1800's Cabinet Card Tasteful Nude in a full Vignette... so... go figure!!!   I have shown Imagery of that same 1800's Cabinet Card here in The Land of Blog and not even my more Conservative Readers had to Clutch their Pearls over it or ask me to please take it down coz they couldn't handle it.  *LOL*   She's doing a Full Monty, but, please, it's not distasteful, and it's an 1800's Nude, when things were a LOT more Conservative than Modern Society, and they could clearly handle it!   But, 2025 FB couldn't.   *LMAOROTF*

And then I have to Wonder, are the same folks that might have complained or Moderated that Image be MAGA and perfectly Fine with their Dear Cult Leader and his Cronies buying Children to Sex Traffick?  Coz I gotta tell ya, these White Christian Nationalists sure have a skewed version of Christianity and interpretation of Jesus and God that they follow when I see all that they can be in Support of and condone!!!  It lines up more with Demons and Devils from my perspective.  Seriously, even the Church of Satan has voiced some Reservations about those folks, and that speaks Volumes, doesn't it?   Which of coarse spawned some hilarious Memes about comparing Satan to Donnie Two Dolls and that Ole' Lucifer was like, I defer, that's some fucked up Evil shit he's doing!

I took The Man out for his Belated Anniversary Meal {See Below}, we went to "Applebee's" and I picked up my Check from the Antique Mall and deposited it.   A Heat Warning is is effect so I took him right Home before the Triple Digits hit, coz it was already 98 Degrees by Noon.  I'd gone to the Discount Grocer earlier in the Morning, as they Opened, Gas in Peoria was already at $5.79!!!  Yikes!  That's a Dollar increase since just Yesterday in some areas of the Metro Cities!!!  It's hovering at about $4.79 on the LOW Side Locally.  This is spinning out of Control fast coz transporting everything will spike Inflation and the Cost of literally everything, along with the ridiculous Tariffs and the Cost of this ridiculous Illegal Ego War.  I do hear tell that some Active Duty Military are refusing to be Deployed since the War wasn't Legally Waged. 

 They do not have to follow Illegal Orders and our Patriotic Senator, Mark Kelly, reminded them all, and us all, of that Fact.  That's why Donnie Two Dolls called for our Senator to be EXECUTED!  Let that sink in for a Moment!  An American Military Patriot and Hero, having an American Draft Dodging Criminal President calling for his Execution!!!  You can't make this shit up!   Anyway, we still know a lot of Active Duty Military and Pray for their Safety and Well Being during all of this Fuckery.  It's absolutely Disgraceful how this Administration is making a mockery of War as if it's some Video Game they're Playing and not with the Lives of our Servicemen and Women, and of Civilians being also killed, like the almost 200 Innocent Iranian Grade School Aged Girls blown up in their School!!!  That's a War Crime and all this Administration would even say was a belated Ooops, we had Old Bad Intel, after unsuccessfully trying to blame it on the Iranians!

As you can see we had the Appetizer Special they're running, loads of Choices.  I had the Chicken Wonton Tacos, Boneless Buffalo Hot Wings and Honey BBQ Riblets.   The Man opted for another Flavor of Riblets, their Crispy Popcorn Shrimp and Mozzarella Sticks.   We took most of his Home coz he's still got a very poor appetite right now.  His Kidney Docs did finally call and Schedule an Appointment but can't get him in 'til late April, which is Fine, March is already filled up with Appointments.  And they Scheduled him for their Labs too which are Two Weeks before the Appointment, so April is already filling up with Appointments now too as well.  *Whew and Le Sigh*  But, at least now everything is Scheduled but our Taxes, which, I got to gather up all the Paperwork for that and get us in to get those done too before the 15h of next Month... AND get my Military ID Card Renewed since it Expires in Mid-May!  I should be at the Age now where they Issue me a Permanent one.

I'll fuss with my Tax Paperwork over the Weekend and get it gathered up to take in to our CPA.  It's not that it takes me long once I gird myself to do it, just that I always Dread The Process of the doing of it.  And resent it, coz, Billionaires aren't paying theirs and it chaps my Hide that us regular folks are funding the Government and not the Wealthiest of Taxpayers who just aren't paying their Taxes at all and contributing!!!   The Meme Below expresses my Sentiments exactly... and like my Friend Kendra, I do circulate my Political Opinions now militantly and boldly becoz far too many Americans are not being part of the Resistance and thus Democracy is in peril.  If you know and see something Wrong and do or say nothing, you are complicit, it's just that Simple.

Anyway, we had a good little jaunt out and it tired him out even tho' it wasn't much.   I got my errands done to stock up before the cost of everyone goes way up and my Check deposited.  So, that's enuf Todaying for a Friday Morning in Real Time.  *Smiles*  I plan to price some Inventory but likely may not get it in for the Weekend???  After Dark if it Cools off enuf I might take it in since our Antique Mall is Open until 9:00 p.m. and I didn't foof the Showroom for the Weekend or tidy it up coz I had The Man sitting in the Truck when I picked up my Check, with the Air Conditioner on, waiting on me, so I rushed in and out this Morning.  He wouldn't have been up to going in while I worked on my Space.  I have Vintage/Specialty T-Shirts and Collectible Toys to Price and get in there.   Those all Sell well so I'd like to get them in there for the Weekend, when it's busiest.  And Car Race Fans are in Town and so are Spring Training Baseball Fans right now.

With the Heat Advisories, some may Opt to leave and go Home early now that it's already well over 100 every Day.  The Tourists are not used to that and so many of them are White as Ghosts, so, they Toast out and have Heat Strokes and Heat Exhaustion easily.  The TV is already Warning how many Guests to the State are flooding Emergency Rooms with Heat Related Emergencies.   The Locals usually know better and do better, plus are acclimated, but, it is dangerous and you can't be foolish and not pay attention to your Body Warning you it's overheating, dehydrating, and in crisis.   If you go past Heat Exhaustion into Heat Stroke, it can and often is Fatal.   I'm seeing a lot of Race Fans and Baseball Fans since we live so close to both PIR and the Spring Training Grounds for various Teams, and the Stadium, and so many are already seriously sunburnt Red as Boiling Lobsters!!!

It was 106 again this Day, I'd priced a bunch of Inventory for the Weekend and decided to ask The Son to watch his Dad for me and go put it in Stock.   My Sales were very Strong for this 1st Week of the 2 Week Pay Period, so, all Body Parts Crossed it stays as Strong for Week Two.  I Sold some decent priced Primo Merch for a change, so I know the Tourists are still here and spending, probably the Baseball and Race Fans in Town coz only Die Hard Sports Fans would stick around for their Sport during this Heatwave in March and not say Fuck It and go back Home!  And it will be a brief Window of Opportunity for them to drop their Money here before they do.

The Daughter did finally Call me and that Call did NOT go Well.   So, she called her Dad while I was out at the Antique Mall, his Call with her went better, coz he isn't the one that found the Contraband in the 5th Wheel and spent 8 Hours cleaning the mess she left behind in it.  So, he's like, you got a LOT to put Right with your Mother.  And that's the Truth, so, we'll just leave it at that.  Her Brother and her Daughter had heard my end of the Call with me, they just both said they were glad it wasn't them on the Receiving End of that Call... but, since I was still Yelling loudly, they knew I wasn't in Homicidal Mode of going Dead Calm on her Ass, but they both did come out of their Rooms when it was over and say... that Call was her, huh?  *Bwahahahahahaha*  The Man did not come out of our Room to inquire, he let me come back to Center and then tell me much later she'd Called him next.  So, how did THAT Call go then Hon... since mine did not go Well.  *Smiles and Winks*

In fact, she hung up on me, which is the Wisest thing to do if you can't shut the fuck up and stop Talking, which is only digging yourself in deeper, it really is.   If what you're about to say isn't an improvement over Silence, I highly suggest you just shut the fuck up actually.  Listen, I can take you ending the conversation any kind of way much easier, when you know you are just pissing me off more by what's falling out of your fucking Mouth.   See, I'm really big on Honesty and Trust, if you have broken Trust with me with deception and dishonesty, you gotta know Earning it back is gonna be rough, coz I won't be Played.  She knows now she's Lost my Trust and I feel it was misplaced and I was deceived, I don't like deception or Lies, I can handle your Truth, whatever it is.  And respect you more if you come Clean with me and Own your fuck-ups.  Don't try to throw anyone else under the Bus to deflect blame either.  And don't dare try to make yourself out to be the Victim when you did the fucking Crime.  Or were an active participant in any way. 

 I'm very Evidence and Proof oriented too, so I'll never make a False Accusation against anyone, no matter how Suspicious I was, how many Clues you dropped that raised Suspicions, or how many other people will make one without the Evidence and the Proof to back up an Accusation they might make.  Sometimes they could be Right, but they could be Wrong without Evidence and Proof.  And I always make sure I have a Strong Case before I Accuse anyone of anything.  I won't Convict anyone without Evidence and Proof tho', but once I have it, you're fucked.  Better you just Plead Guilty or No Contest then, than try to cop a Not Guilty Plea with me.  Listen, I don't know whose Contraband it was or who brought it in and onto my Property?  But, that is where she was Living and so she's responsible for whoever was stupid, reckless and foolish enuf to have it there, period, full stop.  Case Closed.  I know Substance Abusers relapse, it happens... a LOT.  Often, TOO OFTEN.

So the Disease is not exactly what will Wind my Ass up, this ain't my 1st Rodeo with Dealing with someone Addicted, so I'm no Fool.   I'm not Stupid, so don't try to deceive, deflect, Lie, or Play me for a Fool.  THAT will get you in so deep you may never dig yourself out of the Hole you dug and jumped into, burying yourself.   Your Disease causes a LOT of Collateral Damage and that Winds me up way more than how disappointed I am that a relapse happened AGAIN. 

 And the Well Being of everyone in the Wake of your decisions is what I have to run the damage control behind.  That involves my Grandkids and what it all puts them thru and always has, they are the hapless Victims of the Substance Abuse Issues any Parent has.  They can roll with the Mental Illness part coz that wasn't a Choice.  Deciding to Drink or Drug WAS a Choice... Yes, it becomes a Disease, but a Choice was made that led to that and Accountability is what I'm all about.  Every Action has a Reaction.  Every Choice has a Consequence.

You don't get a Pass with me just coz now you've got hooked on something and everyone else should be long suffering about it.  Fuck that and whatever your Enablers may have said everyone you've hurt with it ought to FEEL or how they should Receive it being your constant.  If they're not personally Living it, then I would tell them to go fuck themselves too.   To their Face, coz you either Choose to be In The Life, or you Choose to be In The Relationships... it's either, or... coz it's Rare both are going to Play Well Together... or End Well at all.  If you've ever Lived with a Drug User or Alcoholic or Habitual Gambler, you know it wrecks every Life around it... the Wake of it's destruction on other Lives is far and wide.  The Road to Hell is paved with Good Intentions, but you can't get Clean and Sober FOR someone, that's on them.

 So, at some point the other Lives have to cut you the fuck loose until you get your shit together and hold onto your shit so that you're Safe to be around.  Nobody has to Feel Guilty about that, except mebbe the Addict themselves.  Nobody else has to go Down with the Ship either.  They do have to Go for Themselves eventually.  We've all suffered and made the Sacrifices that the Collateral Damage has caused for something none of us even Did.  My Heart has Ached for all the Innocents that it Touched and wrecked, leaving me to pick up the pieces time and time again.  We all Love You, Want you to Be Well and attain sustained Sobriety, but until you are... it's No Mas.  Tough Love.  But we all know you can get the Person out of the Mess, but if you don't get the Mess out of the Person, they just fall right back into it.  That's the unfortunate Fact about this.

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It is hotter than Hell right now, in more ways than one... Dawn... The Bohemian