The Prez Just Said Out Loud He Never Thinks About The American People!!!

 

The VA Delivery of the Wheelchair was on time, it's a nice narrow one but still a tight fit thru most of the House, but, it will work.  This is just a Vintage Home and everything was narrower back then, not as narrow as Historic Home Floorplans and Doorways tho'.  He's not gonna need or use it all the time for now, just on Days when he is feeling Weak or having more Mobility Issues.  I'll probably use it more for when we go to Shop anywhere and rather than try to Walk around a Store or Mall, I just Wheel him around for convenience and ease for both of us.  That way he can get out more now. 

 It takes up too much space while not folded up to keep it in any Room all the time, it would always be in the way.  This is not the most Wheelchair Accessible Home or Property.  As his World get Smaller tho', I know limitations will increase and we're just preparing for that continued deterioration and Physical or Mental decline.  We're just trying to slow it down since we cannot stop it.  And he's embracing some of his Medical Equipment usage now.  Which means he's realizing he really needs it and so isn't as resistant as he used to be, stubbornly refusing to use any of it before, no matter how hard he knew I Fought for him to get it.  

So, his cooperation now is an improvement.  When someone is resistant and being very stubborn and non-cooperative, it's just hard to meet them at the actual Point of Need appropriately.  You can Fight Hard to get them all the Help and Equipment in the World, but if they're not On Board, you're wasting your Time, Resources and Energy going Hard for it all on their behalf.  I've wasted YEARS of Time, Resources and Energy in the Past.  Fighting to be able to get him Services and Equipment or Medical Treatments, that then, we I got it for him finally, he would end up not using, refusing, or pretending he'd cooperate with, and then balk and be totally resistant to it.  I don't mind Fighting Hard for someone I Love, but not for nothing.  So, dammit, tell me in advance we're wasting my Time, Energy and Money, so I just won't bother!

I did go to the Gym after dropping Princess T off at Work on Tuesday Morning, I also did some Environmental Cleanup, all before it got Hot.  And it got HOT, it got to 114 Degrees, which blew past and was even higher than the Record Breaking Prediction they had of it going to be 109 again for the 2nd Day in a row!  I ventured out in the Heat tho' and bought us some Ice-Cream and Ice-Cream Sandwiches for the Family, since we now have a totally operational New Fridge/Freezer.  When our Old Fridge went on the fritz, it was the Freezer Section that totally went out and we lost half our Frozen Food.  Including, but not limited to, every bit of our Ice-Cream, Ice-Cream Sandwiches, and Popsicles I'd JUST bought, in preparation for record breaking Heat returning.

And as you can see by the Lead Tease Food Porn Pixs, they had Covered Strawberries on Sale since Mother's Day is over and they had to clear the overage out.  So they were 50% Off and they only had one Heart Shaped container full of them covered in White Yoghurt, which, I can eat.  The rest were various Chocolate covered ones I can't eat... or had the White Yoghurt Coating but drizzled in Dark Chocolate, which, nixes them from me eating them too.  I also treated myself to a belated Mother's Day Breakfast at "First Watch", on Mother's Day they were slammed and had long lines waiting for a Table, plus, The Son had made me a little Breakfast in Bed at Home that Morning, which was Sweet.

I'd also wanted the "First Watch" Cookbook, so I bought it too.  Not that I Cook, but I do Collect and have an Obsession to Hoard Books, Decor and Cookbooks in particular, the more Pictures, the better.  When you're Obsessed with something, there doesn't have to be logic or reason to it.  *LOL and Winks*   I Love Books, I have a vast Library of them that rivals any Major Bookstore or Bookseller.  And that's not hyperbole, I literally have more Decor Books than any of them now.  And, my Cookbook section rivals theirs too.  I Love sitting and looking thru them no matter how many Years I've had them.  I have Culled my Library systematically too when I no longer want to keep a Book, or find I had a duplicate or find a better condition Copy to replace a Beloved Book.

I am finding to be Housebound mostly due to Gas Prices being crazy more annoying than being Housebound for the reasons of the Pandemic.  The Pandemic made sense for going nowhere, it was necessary to mitigate Spread.  This was entirely preventable and makes no sense, so, it's highly annoying and infuriating.  I know the purpose of this illegal War is to enrich themselves and their Cronies, it's making them very Wealthy.   Donnie Two Dolls just said out loud that he doesn't even think about the Financial situations or hardships of the American People!!!  Just, Wow, a Stunning Admission... in case anyone had delusions that he does or even Cares one iota.  Well, at least he said out loud what I already knew and have always known, so that nobody can be in complete Denial about it.  Out of the abundance of the Heart, the Mouth speaks.  Every so often he slips up and tells the Truth... oops.

 

Politically Fired FBI Agents who are highly Respected and illegally Fired, who have done so much for our Country, and aren't being Legally Protected by our corrupted Justice System, are now spilling the Tea in Interviews, I'm Glad.  It's disgraceful what was done to all of them, the FBI is not supposed to be Political.  Firing them for Political Reasons, robbing them of their Careers and their Retirements and Benefits when they did absolutely nothing Wrong and had exemplary performance, sometimes for Decades and were sometimes just a few Years from being able to Retire, is Punitive, Revenge, and 100% Political by Kash Patel, the raging incompetent Alcoholic unqualified for FBI Leadership, nobody in the FBI Respects him!!!  Why not spill the Tea then, they did nothing Wrong... but, they've lost their Pensions, or forced to take Early Retirement if eligible to, lost their Healthcare, been Politically Targeted, persecuted and had revenge and retribution exacted for just doing their Job properly and with integrity.  Or won't follow Illegal Orders or be Political, which, the Job requires them NOT to be. 

 

They have Lawsuits, as they should, and I Pray they prevail and Justice is Served, and they are compensated from what was illegally done to them.   We've got Unqualified, Incompetent, Alcoholics and Podcast Bros in the highest Positions of the Military and FBI indiscriminately, maliciously, and without just Cause, Firing the best of the best of our Military and FBI.  It's not only Unjust to those Public Servants who are Devoted, the best of the best, and Sacrificed so much for Country, it's a National Security Risk.  And I'm sure Morale couldn't be worse and it won't attract Good People with a Moral Compass to making our Military, FBI, or any Public Servant Career a consideration, seeing what's going on.  We have a President that Out Loud, and I Believe Truthfully, just said HE NEVER THINKS ABOUT THE AMERICAN PEOPLE!!!

It's still 109 Degrees at almost 7:00 p.m. Tonight, Toasty.  I was doing a light Grocery Run when it was 114 at 3:00 p.m., don't know if it got even Hotter.  I don't go by Official Temps coz they're always lower than actual Temps all across the Cities and Metro area.  But even the "Official" Temps, however skewed to reflect temperatures are lower than they actually are almost everywhere, are still Breaking Records.   I have a very Green and Shaded by very Old Mature Trees Property and my Temperature Gauge registered 114.  So, could have been higher where there's more Density, less Greenery, than here at the Mini Farms where everyone has at least 1-3 Acres each, and most have lots of Pasture and very Mature Old Growth Landscaping.

 

  

The Son's Store Manager likes his Work already so much she's been calling him in to ask if he'll work more Hours.  Except for his Court Day, which couldn't be Cancelled, he has told her he can, she knew why he couldn't that day, but asked anyway.  He had to decline that day but generally won't even on short notice.  He'd like more notice, but Employers these days often don't give any, so, you do what you can to not turn down Shifts offered beyond your usual Schedule and commitment to the Company.   

He'd prefer to go on Full Time rather than Part Time eventually anyway, coz it's only a Minimum Wage Job, which, he hasn't had to Work for that low a Wage since his Teens and he's almost 40 now.  So, its quite humbling and with humility he accepted Work without a liveable Wage.  About $25+ an Hour in Arizona is considered liveable Wage, but, truly, that isn't enuf for even covering Rent anymore.  In Metro Phoenix you Need at least $42 an Hour for just bare Essentials like Shelter, Food, Transportation to get to Work.  Even in The Trades, with all his Years of Experience, nobody was Paying even close to that much.  In Arizona Minimum Wage is $15.15 an Hour and usually only given Part Time Hours and no Benefits.

Anyone not Earning at least triple digit Income, or is Retired on a Fixed Income, will struggle Financially with the current Economic Trends.  And like Donnie Two Dolls just announced shamelessly, he NEVER even THINKS about the American People and their Financial Situations!!!  And he Ran On that Platform of Lower Cost of Living and Improving the Economy and Jobs Market... so, it all was a farce and Long Con.  The only Improvement of Economic Gain he had in Mind was for himself, his Family, his obscenely Wealthy Elite Friends, to enrich themselves further so they have more Billions, and Rob Americans Blind 'til they Bankrupt the Nation and Take all you've got left.  MAGAts better get that Revelation real fucking fast!

So, it's good anyway he's already shown out with his strong Work Ethic and skills to add Value and impress who Hired him.  He really likes working there and for him, it's easier work and less stress at work than he's ever had anywhere.  So, that's Priceless really, even if the Salary doesn't cut it.  Right now we've got so many personal stressors going on he Needs to have less stress where ever he's Employed.  Hearing his Uncle {my Brother} and his Dad {The Man} are both having extreme Heart Failure at the same time has been devastating News for us all.  You never wanna Risk the Loss of One Loved One, let alone Two, potentially at any time soon.

I try not to think about it, tho' your own Mortality looms ever larger at a certain Season of Life near the National Life Expectancy Average.  My Dad's Ancestry Line is not very long lived, my Mom's is, so I got mebbe a 50-50 chance of getting much Older???  The Son said he forgets I'm almost 69 becoz I can still do anything he can do and at the pace he can do it, so I don't seem that Old and nobody else thinks of me as that Age.  That's flattering, but, I accept the Age I am means shit is slowing down for me and sometimes getting harder.  I do Strength, Flexibility and Stamina Training all of the time, it does Help.  I challenge myself Daily and push past any Pain... whether it be Physical, Mental or Emotional.

At The Gym I do see folks that at least LOOK Older than me in their Faces, but have a Banging Body, so perhaps they're Geriatrics too beating back Father Time, but, you cannot always tell.  I've seen some truly Busted Looking 30 and 40 Something Year Olds I thought were my Age and been fucking Shocked that they're Young enuf to be my Kids!   *LOL*  So, I will never try to Guess someone's Age by Appearance, I could be way off and offend someone rather than flatter them.  *LOL*  And with Old Folks, it gets difficult to gauge, for me at least, what someone 60-70-80 SHOULD Look like?  Old generally just Looks Old at a certain point, with not a whole lot of differentiation.  *Ha ha ha*   I don't know how flattered I'd still be if I'm 80 and someone says they only thought I was in my 60's, tho', it IS still a compliment?  *LMAO*

Who am I Kidding, if I fucking MAKE IT to 80 I'll be flattered that I'm still ALIVE!  *Bwahahaha*  I will fully have expected that my Vanity better have diminished to the point I'm not being ridiculous about it!  I never thought my Mom looked to be in her 80's tho', she had such a Youthful Spirit that she just never SEEMED OLD to me... and she certainly didn't LOOK her Age, so everyone was shocked when she'd give her Real Age.  She tended to like to ADD a Decade to it for the absolute certainty of Compliments and the look on People's Faces tho'.  She always said Women Lied about their Age in the Wrong Direction, she was Right. *Smiles and Winks... try it, you'll Agree!*

So, anyway, I'm up at 4:00 a.m. coz The Son has to be at Work before 5:00 a.m., but it's about a 2 Minute Drive there.  Princess T has to be at her Work by 7:00 a.m. and lately I TRY to get dressed and out of my Jammies by then to hit The Gym more consistently and then go do some Environmental Cleanup for about an Hour too before the Heat of the Day kicks in to where it wouldn't be Wise to.  I do Need to drop off my Recycling of Aluminum again, I got a full Truckload too already.  People have been drinking heavily and discarding that Aluminum more than usual now it's Spring and Heating up!  By Summer it tapers off coz folks drink more Water in Plastic Bottles than Soda or Alcoholic Beverages in Aluminum Cans.

Since I have to be up early for the Adult Kiddos anyway to get them to Work, I'm trying to become a Morning Person and flip it to where I'm developing a Routine and Regimen for Early Morning Exercising and being out in Nature to set the Tone for my Day.  I know it will have Positive Benefits and start each day on the right footing and be Mood enhancing and stabilizing.  With so much stress and Bad News all the time it can deplete you if you're not Careful about recharging and renewing yourself.  I did stock up on what we Need for if and when the Bottom falls out, which, I'm Predicting it will.  It's already well on the way.  And I'm not usually a Pessimist or Doomsday Prepper by any means, but even Guarded Optimism now is hard to muster with what I'm just Observing and Witnessing playing out in America, and Globally. 

So, Eat, Drink and Be Merry, for Tomorrow we may Die, is kind of my Attitude and Outlook right now.  And I don't think I'm the Lone Ranger in that grim Assessment by any means either.  If you're even paying any Attention you see that things are FUBAR {ie: Fucked Up Beyond All Recognition}, and worsening Daily now.   At least now Polling is showing over 70% Disapproval Rating, should be at 100%, you know, but, we have to account for Stupidity and those in the Deepest of Denial.  Along with the Elite Select Few who IT IS better for them, they're killing it becoming even more Obscenely Wealthy actually.  So it is indeed their Golden Age of America, they've never had it so good or so easy to Loot, Rape, Pillage and be Legally Immune from consequences... he's got THEIR Backs and his own as the Supreme Looter, Rapist and Pillager.

It's not mutually exclusive to be the Worst of Times for the Many and the Best of Times for the Few.   And we each KNOW which side of that we're standing on right now, it's no Mystery and the Why of it is also KNOWN.  LATER:  Before 10:00 a.m. I'd already dropped both Kiddos off at Work, gone to The Gym, did Environmental Cleanup at Two Parks and the Nature Preserve, went to the Recycle Center and traded in my Aluminum, and gone Grocery Shopping at Two different locations.  I'm making Corned Beef, Cabbage, Baby New Potatoes and Mixed Veggies in Bone Broth in the Crockpot for Supper.  So, I got a lot done and it's only just turned 11:00 now!  Wow!  When you get up real early it makes a big difference in what you get done and you still have the whole day to yourself afterwards.  I may indeed LIKE becoming a Morning Person.  *LOL and Winks*

I was Surprised how many folks are at The Gym at 5:00 a.m., usually I'm not there quite that early.  But, after dropping The Son off at his Job I went to The Gym before it was time to then take The Granddaughter to her Job at 7:00 a.m..  I got to use all my Equipment with no waiting since folks that go to a Gym at 5:00 a.m. tend to be the dedicated Buff Gym Rats who look like they Live there and Breathe Exercising.  So, LOTS of Guys who were Easy on the Eyes.  *Smiles and Winks*  The Women also are Toned, Bodies Banging, but sometimes some of them, they've had 'Work' done on their Faces that doesn't look Natural or even Attractive, and a great many clearly have fake Body Parts as well.  The fake Titties I'm used to seeing everywhere now.  But those fake Asses look ridiculous, often grotesquely disproportionate, like if you go too far for the End of the Alphabet sized fake Tits!  *LOL*

 

I'd had a light Breakfast before I left the House this Morning of Deli Greek Yoghurt with fresh Multi-Seed Granola and Whole Berries in it {Blueberries, Raspberries, Strawberries}.  Some Million Dollar Bacon left over from my Breakfast at "First Watch" the Day before, and some Pineapple Chunks with Coconut Meat.   And some Cranberry Juice.  Breakfast is my favorite Meal of the entire day and if I have a good one, I usually only then Need one more Meal for the rest of the day and Refreshments to keep hydrated when it's so Hot.  I'm not a big Eater, never have been. 

 My excess Weight is more from Hormonal disruption when I had the Hysterectomy.  Prior to that Surgery that I'd had after Age 50, I'd only ever Weighed between 98-130 Lbs. my whole Life and always eaten Light.  I just don't require a lot of fuel I guess?  But having the Surgery packed 60+ extra Lbs. on me and it's been a Yo-Yo since to keep it Off... I'd Lose it... Gain it back... Lose it again.  With the Weight Gain then came Type II Diabetes.  Above is Today's Crockpot full of Corned Beef, Cabbage, Baby New Potatoes, Two Kinds of Squash, Baby Carrots, Broccoli, Cauliflower and Beef Bone Broth... not yet stirred so you can't see all the ingredients yet.

On the Maternal Side my Mom and Welsh Nanna had to have the same Surgery for the same Reason and also Gained over Sixty Pounds, they'd both been Super Skinny their whole Lives too beforehand.  Then they also got the Type II Diabetes.  But, had any or all of the Three of us NOT had the Surgery, we definitely would have Risked Cancer instead.  As it was, Mom got her Hysterectomy becoz they didn't catch it in the Pre-Cancerous Phase like me and my Nanna, and so her Hysterectomy also included other things removed to Save her Life.   She spent Months in the Base Hospital at Luke AFB during the time she had Cancer and her Major Surgery due to it.

 Above is Mom directly recovering from her Major Cancer Surgery back then, with me Visiting her.  She didn't really wanna be Photographed coz she always wanted to look like a Million Bucks for Photos, and Bless her, she'd been thru A LOT and it showed!!!  Her Odds were negligible to even Survive.  I thought we were gonna lose her prematurely.  She had what looked like an Autopsy Scar, from her Breastbone all the way down to her Pelvic Bone!!!  She beat Cancer and Lived to be 84, but, Advanced Dementia finally did her in.  My Welsh Nanna also got Dementia in her Eighties and I'm Guessing it's what finally did her in as well?   Dad's Side I don't think anyone ever made it into their Eighties and a great many Died in Middle Age.  Native Americans have a much Lower Life Expectancy than any other Americans, often more than a Decade less.

 

Anyway, at The Gym the Early Birds were mostly Youngsters, and the few Seniors there were so Fit you know Exercise is something they take very Seriously.   Some Seniors always talk to me when I'm there now, they've been very Nice, some have been quite Humorous with a great sense of Humor, I know I'd Like them, but, not there to Socialize.  So, I keep it Moving and Socially Polite for now.  It's not that I'm all Friended Up really since now most of my Inner Circle has either Moved Away or Passed Away.  But, with the Caregiving consuming me, I just don't have a Social Life and couldn't fit one in either.  And I do protect my Time and my Privacy, since, I enjoy Solitude and Family Time more than I enjoy Social Activities all the time.  I just never know how much a Friendship that is New will demand or require of me to Invest in someone?

And... tho' the Kiddos have their Friends dropping in all of the time,  so I usually have Guests, I don't have to Entertain them.   I can Visit a bit... or just say Hi and not have it intrude on whatever I was doing, or not doing, without seeming Rude, coz it's THEIR Friends.  *LOL*  I Like all of their Friends and both Generations of them always interact with me when here a bit if I'm up to it, but they don't expect me to hang out with them either.  I Like that.  *Bwahahahaha*  I Love my Kids and my Grandkids too, with all my Heart and Soul, but, do I wanna always hang out with them?  No, I do not.  *LOL*   I enjoy it when we do, coz they're all Fun to hang out with, so are their Friends, but I'm one of those folks who Needs the Right Balance of Togetherness and Apartness.  *Smiles*  Plus Generation Gap exists in what I enjoy and what they enjoy... or for how long.

I'm not even gonna Pretend that if we go to an Event, or The Mall, Socialize, or engage in some Recreational Pursuit, each of the Three Generations are gonna wanna do it for exactly the same amount of time, we don't.  Sometimes they have had enuf Fun first, sometimes I have, I've found that the Adult Middle Aged Kids tend to Tap Out more often than the Grandkids or even I... which, is Surprising.  The Daughter is very Social however, the rest of us Five, not so much.  We all have Friends, but unlike her, we don't wanna be around our Friends all of the time or without breaks in Social Activities.   And she has an abundance of Friends, the other Five of us have a smaller Inner Circle.  I don't think that The Daughter has ever met a Stranger.  *LOL*  She'll sometimes introduce someone as her "Friend" and then turn and ask them, "What was your Name?"  *Bwahahahahaha, True Story, I'm not making that up!"

Often, in Mexico, she was Homeless and just stayed here, there, everywhere, from one place to the next, staying with various people.  So, she never had her own Phone there.  So when she'd call me from Mexico I'd ask whose Phone she was on this time?  And once, she said, "Oh, my Friend's Phone.", and then she turned to the Guy and said, "What was your Name?", so that she could tell me the Name of this "Friend", it was fucking hilarious!!!   And sure enuf, he did become her Friend, once people meet her they almost always Like her and become Friends with her.  She Invests herself in people and their Lives.  She'll usually know more about you within Hours of meeting you, than most people might know who you've been around for Years!!!  She's very easy to talk to and confide in I guess... coz people open up to her, Rando folks who JUST met her, will often tell her their whole Life Story!!! 

She's very much an Open Book herself.   She's not at all a Private Person.  Either you are or you aren't.  I'm more Private in Real Life than I am as a Blogger, don't ask me Why, I just don't know Why???  It's not that I don't like to Talk, I'm a Talker, but I usually will Talk about more random stuff than my Life or my Personal Business.  And most of the time, I may go all day without saying a Word to anyone either.  And I don't Need to nor want to converse on those days.   Silence is preferred then.   I did once try the Wordless Post tho', thinking it would be just as easy for me as Not Talking... it wasn't.  I Sucked at both the Wordless Post and a Post with only a certain amount of Words used in it.  It made Blogging NOT Fun for me so I ditched it and went back to my Excess Writing in my Posts... and my Excess Photo Dumps in them too.  *LOL* 

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Blessings, Love and Light from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Keep Hanging Tough

 Everyone was so Emotionally Raw that it came to a Head on the Evening of the 11th, the whole Family has just been thru a LOT.  So, every one of us, in our own way, had a Meltdown and we just Needed to, so I fully understand.  Everything evened out and Calmed Down, I told each Family Member I completely understand, but try to Dial it Back a little so we all don't Melt Down completely.  The Son spent the Heat of the Day doing Yardwork in preparation for the next Irrigation Cycle and to tidy things up in the way of our Lantana Bushes and our Trumpet Vine Hedge in front of the House.  We've had so many Bees collecting from the Blooms he had to wait 'til the Heat made them go back to their Hives so he could trim them all for me.

The Daughter, he, and Princess T had helped me all day with the Fridge Project, taking it all out, then putting it all back in and re-arranging what we have had to move out of the way.   The Young Prince, whose prone to faking not feeling Well in order to avoid requests to Help with Work, actually wasn't Well and was puking.  I'm thinking his Brown Recluse Bite may not be Healing appropriately and another Urgent Care Visit might be needed?  It's been draining a LOT, and he's finished with the Antibiotic Regimen, but that particular Spider's Bite can have serious consequences and get out of control in spite of Medical Interventions.  So, I am worried about that.  He's also Emotionally Raw about Allen just dumping a huge pile of Divorce Paperwork here and saying, you'll need a Lawyer for to get this concluded!!!

Well, other than all that, and The Man's continued Health Spiral, everything has been Swell.  *Bwahahahaha*  So, I'd been in a Dark Head Space and Depression for Two Days and that Scares all the rest of them more than I can say.  I have to tell them when I'm crashing tho' and having Burnout.  Coz everyone has to step up and do what they can while I'm Wrestling with my own Balancing Act of keeping my Head on Straight.  I had bought the Food, but didn't have it in me to Cook it.  Everyone else was Wiped Out too, so nothing got Cooked for anyone.  I loaded The Man up, while some of the Spawn were fussing amongst themselves, and took him to "Subway" then for a Sammie, we ate it in the Truck so I didn't have to Unload and Load him.

So, we sat in front of a small "Subway" near the House that Timmy used to Work at, and ate his Meatball Monday Special Sammie and my Club Sammie, with Chips and a Drink, and didn't then feel so Hangry.  *LOL*  It was 6 inches of Goodness, we both felt we couldn't do 12 inches... and get your Minds out of the Gutter now you Naughty Dear Readers whose Minds immediately went THERE.  *Winks*  Too Much is just Too Much, even if we aren't talking about Sammies anymore?  *Bwahahahaha*  And when we got Home, the fact we bailed on them all and took off, even tho' they know me loading up Dad/Grandpa is an Ordeal for me, especially since it was still 107 Degrees out there, they all knew to Calm Down and Dial it way the fuuuuuuuck Back!  *LOL*

The Man didn't mind going out for a Sammie to eat in the Truck coz it got him out of the house and he knew I've had a couple of Mental Health Days I was wrestling with.  He still tries to be very Supportive when I'm hitting The Wall Emotionally, coz I'm not usually an Emotional person, so showing them isn't something I do very often.  We were Laughing by the time we got Home coz it was rather absurd, sitting in a Truck with the Air Conditioner on in front of a Strip Mall "Subway", it's 107 Outside, and we're scarfing down our Sub Sammies and Chips. 

 He's actually still wearing his Jammie Shorts, which look like Gym Shorts so nobody would know and he's not getting out of the Truck anyway.  I was at least Dressed to go inside and get our Meal.  Not that I haven't sometimes worn what obviously are Jammie Print Pants out before, I can Roll all Ghetto like that when I don't give a shit.  I've gone to a Park before in them to do Environmental Cleanup some Mornings, people will leave you the fuck alone, even Street folk.  *LOL and Winks*

Nothing Screams being either Mental or Hood, mebbe both, than wearing Jammie Pants out in Public, Slippers if you have 'em!  *Smiles*  Sometimes the Kiddos will joke with me when they know I've done it and say, all I Needed to complete The Look of not messing with, was a Bonnet.  *Bwahahahaha*  For anyone unfamiliar with who you should NEVER mess with, it's The Bonnets.   Any Female wearing one, especially if she's wearing her Jammie Pants too, and perhaps her Bedroom Slippers, whether in or out of Da Hood, she would be a Gal you definitely don't wanna mess with, Piss Off and get in a Street Fight with!  *Winks* 

 Tattoos on the Face you'd fare better getting Scrappy with than a Gal wearing a Bonnet!   And if she's got Tats on her Face AND wears a Bonnet, Hell No... you say whatever it takes to smooth any potential Beef she might have with you, for any reason, no matter how trivial!   Lessons from Da Hood 101.   Then you will more likely Live long and Prosper my Friends. *LOL and Winks*

On my Mental Health Days is when I'm more likely to just tool around in my Jammie Pants and a mismatched T-Shirt anyway, it's a Clue I am not doing Well.  So you needn't even Ask... NOT Well on them days.  So it was rather Rare I had bothered to actually get Dressed that day to go to the Subway for Sammies at Three in the Afternoon on a Monday and it was The Man still in his Jammie Pants instead.  Coz he's usually never been Unwell enuf he won't throw on some Pants before going Public *Bwahahahahaha*

  But Listen, if you've been Urban long enuf, you realize that the average Big City Dweller doesn't bat an Eye at seeing ANYTHING, and I Kid you NOT.  So, mostly nobody even pays attention or notices, coz there's lotsa Crazy out there on them Streets any given day of the Week, so it's just another Day in Paradise.  You will not particularly Stand Out.  *LOL*

I seem to be doing better on Day Three of a Bipolar Low tho'.  I don't mind being Manic High, which is my Usual, and more MY 'Normal', but the Lows do Suck and I'm glad my Mixed Episodes are few usually.  When you have a Manic High AND you're ADHD, you just get a lot done and can or will tackle anything, no matter how daunting, so, it has it's Benefits.  I've yet to find a Positive Benefit to the Bipolar Low tho', unless it would be to tackle ANYONE that might be Fool enuf to Cross you during one and start something. 

 That would definitely be a Benefit then coz you won't have ANY shits to give.  They will quickly find that out, Win, Lose or Draw... so the less Foolish won't even Go There when you're Bottoming Out like that, wouldn't be a Wise Move.  And a Bipolar Low is usually quite obvious, even to a casual uninformed Observer, if they're paying any attention at all.  Even if your Wardrobe communicates loudly, I have no Shits to Give, and they Miss that Part.  *Smiles*

So, for example, if you see me and I'm wearing my Space Cats Jammie Pants and a Grateful Dead T-Shirt out in The Wild, probably NOT having a Good Day or my Best Day Ever.  You could still approach me with the Right Attitude, but with more Caution and Hesitation than usual.  Thus why I say people generally just Smile and leave you Alone or don't make any Eye Contact at all.  It's an excellent way really to become Publicly Imagined Invisible.  *Bwahahahaha*   This Morning The Young Prince is on a Dual Day Bender of not Feeling Well.  He's been throwing up and I asked if it's his Brown Recluse Bite, he doesn't think so, he thinks that's draining well and Healing okay.  

He isn't sure if it's a Mental Episode or he caught something going around and it's Physical Illness?   So he's staying in Bed mostly and away from Peopling, just in case he has something going around any of the rest of us could catch?  Especially Grandpa, everyone is trying to not give him any contagions in his weakened condition.  The Two that Work don't wanna catch anything either and risk missing Work and calling in Sick.  But when you have a Three Generation Family Sharing Space, chances are, someone could be Sick with something you'll catch, at any given time, especially during Seasons when there's lots going around. 

 We're not as Socially Isolated as a lot of Seniors tend to be, with having Two Younger Generations around us 24-7 and 365, with their various Social Contacts as well.  I have to ask "Safeway Pharmacy" if The Man and I are up to date on all our Vaccines, I think we are???  I do hazily recall we were in there this Winter getting all Vaxxed up, and they gave us a Discount Coupon from the Pharmacy to use for Buying our Groceries???  They give you $20 Off your Grocery Purchase and take all Insurances, and it's no Co-Pay for us.  Also, no waits and a nice little Private Waiting Room tucked away with no Sick folk in it.

I appreciate how many weighed in while I was having my Fridge Fiasco Meltdown and were as Happy and Relieved as me that it had a Happy Ending and Positive Outcome.  The fact it was completely Avoidable had a Sales Team and the original Delivery Team known more about their Product and conveyed important crucial information to the Consumer to avoid the problem in the first place, was something the 2nd Delivery Guy and I discussed in detail with each other. 

  He agreed and lamented that IF people knew their jobs and the Products they're either hawking or delivering, so much of the Customer confusion and irritants could be completely avoided, to everyone's benefit and satisfaction.  I mean, how hard would it have been, while either Buying it, or having it Delivered, for both the Salesfloor folks and/or the Delivery folks, to go over some basic functions with the Consumer of an expensive Product that's New to them?  This is where the Control Panels are located, just press this to Activate it, would have been Nice and so fucking Helpful! 

 

Sometimes I get the impression that either most Employees they just don't Care... or... they don't have the Skills necessary to know their Job and it's Product or function and the Company doesn't adequately ensure the Training to provide it... or they make assumptions that you already are All Knowing about every Device on the Market now being hawked and constantly changed?  The "Smart" Features are usually crap and not all that well made or "Smart" actually, coz they malfunction a lot and it's intentional obsolescence. 

 I'd prefer less Technology on an item and more length of Service of it, especially if I've invested a lot in purchasing it.  I'll opt for less Gadgets on anything every time coz I'm not particularly up to speed on all new Technology and I don't like a lot of it, keep it Simple is more my Mantra.   I'm Tech Challenged and if it's needing Specialized Training and Knowledge I don't already have, in order to own, work or use it, then it's just not for me.

This past Mother's Day I had to be Mindful not to be Careless and/or Tone Deaf to those we know who just Lost their Mom or a Child.  Since, it would be a particularly difficult one for them and I know this in advance.  Just like I rarely, if ever, Celebrated the Day anyway while being a Custodial Grandparents to The G-Kid Force, whose absence of either Parent Raising them made it a Hard Day for them to move thru on a Mother's Day or a Father's Day, that would rather be avoided and is not the same as when you have a Mom or a Dad.  If someone Loses a Loved One too, that the Day would require for you to have one for, it's difficult to tolerate the day without being Emotionally Raw or just ignoring the day entirely to not be a Trigger.  Sometimes people just don't Think and it's not Intentional.  

They may have the knowledge of a Loss... or mebbe they don't.  Mebbe the Loss was Fresh... or mebbe a long time ago, but the Holiday is just a Trigger and always will be hard?  I don't Like Mother's Day anymore becoz my Mom is departed.  I can't even Imagine Losing a Child.   And some of those I Care about have to still try really hard to make the Day Special even if moving thru it themselves is difficult.   Coz tho' they may have just Lost Mom or a Child, they still have their own Children who want it to be a Special Day to Celebrate with them, or other Children who want to Celebrate them despite the profound Loss of a Sibling.

  For those Moms who never got to Raise their Children or had to give them up for Adoption, that too can be a Triggering Day for them always.  So many people I know almost Wish it were not a Celebrated Holiday at all and just done away with coz it's too Painful for them, either now, or it always was.  I have mixed Emotions... I enjoyed the Holiday when it was worth Celebrating for me... but I'm okay not Celebrating it now or ever again.

I refrain from Wishing a "Happy" Mother's Day to anyone Publicly, especially Strangers, I don't know their Back Story, some folks have been Childless and not by Choice, how would I know?  Who knows if someone has their Mom... or their Child... if we don't know them well enuf to have that intimate knowledge.   And Father's Day, forget about it.   I learned beaucoup Years ago how many folks don't have a Dad... and even if they certainly had someone who Fathered them, that Male wasn't always or perhaps ever present even if he's still among the Living and never Earned being called "Dad". 

 Anyone can Father a Child, not everyone is Dad Material and committed to Fatherhood as they should be.  Fewer Single Parent Dads exist, but they are out there too.  As are the many Custodial Grandparents Raising Grandkids now.  Or other extended Family Raising Children.  Anyway, glad that Mother's Day is officially over... I'd rather ignore it. 

The Son said that tho' he likes Celebrating Father's Day for The Man, having the perspective of Raising or helping to Raise other Men's Children himself, but having no Biological Children of his own, it was always an awkward day when he was in a Relationship where his Significant Other had Kids who had Deadbeat Dads.  He didn't expect to be Celebrated, but didn't know what Triggers the day might hold for the Children?   He was only Three when I met and Married The Man, so tho' he doesn't know his Biological Father, The Man has always been Dad, so it was never a Triggering Day for him personally.

  The Daughter spent Seven Years having Father's Day be difficult and avoidable when I was a Single Parent and had her before I was ever Married.   And he and I weren't together anymore even before she was Born and he had zero interest in Relationship with her or I, so be it.  She used to call my Dad, her Dad, and Gran-Dad never minded that and chastised a Day Care Worker once when the Woman ignorantly and perhaps well intentionally, tried to tell my Four Year Old, that he was her Grandpa, not her Dad. 

 I guess the Woman feared it looked like and implied Incest, I dunno?   But it was just that almost everyone else had a Daddy and she didn't, so she just started calling Gran-Dad, Dad, and we let her and didn't correct her, coz my Dad was standing in The Gap until he didn't Need to anymore, to be that Positive Male Role Model every Child should have.  He was Raised without his Father, so he had a Point of reference, being Raised by a very Young Divorced, then very Young Widowed, Mother.   

And my Parents were the Type who would have all kinds of Kiddos "Adopt" them as Surrogate Parents or Grandparents and let anyone that Needed or Wanted to, call them Mom, Dad, Nanna, Gran-Dad if they just started doing so.  People never really knew how many Kids or Grandkids, Nieces and Nephews, my Parents actually had!?  *LOL*  I'm the same, I have so many Non-Biological "Adoptees" who I'm Surrogate Mom or Gramma or Aunty Dawn to, and they ARE like Family to us now. 

 Sometimes they're closer to us than many Biological Kinfolk are to each other.   So, hardly anyone knows whose Biologically connected or not in our "Family"... and that's Okay... and we don't differentiate and never will, it's just not necessary to.   People often say you can't Choose who your Family are, but, you kinda CAN Choose Who to BE "Family" with.  Above is our Oldest Daughter when she was a Tween.   Two of her Five Grandkids look so much like she did as a Child and have the very Dark Eyes and Dark Hair.  The other Three are Blondes like their Grandpa, our SIL.

Above is The Daughter as a Teen, the Year she had The Young Prince, whose her Oldest of her Five Kiddos.  Mother's Day is always hard for her and for all her Kiddos.   I did check-in with everyone I Care about who I knew had experienced Loss and see how they held up for Mother's Day.   Most did Okay, or as well as can be expected, for as hard as I knew it just would be.  Grief has no Timeline, it takes as long as you Need for it to move thru various Stages of and try really hard to Recover from any Profound Loss.  It will be different for everyone, there's no Right way or Wrong way to Grieve.

The Son's Court Date couldn't have gone better, since he has a Free Phone that doesn't do well with Zoom Check-In, he Opted to go before the Judge again in Person.  Which was fortuitous coz every single Defendant had E-Mailed all their required Documents, including him, but never gotten confirmation, the System of the Courts must be either not functioning at all or so backlogged they aren't updating anything in time for anyone's Hearings!!!   So, Lucky for him he had all his with him to show her he was in compliance, as she'd asked, he provided everything required to show Three Years of Driving Record.  

He'd done all the requirements except the Interlock Ignition Device, since, you have to own an operational Vehicle to do that and he hasn't had one in a long time now.  He's been using either Public Transit, Friends, Co-Workers, Family for Transportation, or just Walking or using a 10-Speed Bike until he can afford a reliable Vehicle.  Then he will be required the One Year of having that put on, so she Closed the Case.  He doesn't intend to do any Driving until he can pay for a Used Car and put that Device on, and have regular paychecks to provide Insurance and Maintenance on that Device that is required... all an expense he can't bankroll right now.  All his Fines, Classes are Paid and Completed.

He was the only one she had who wasn't making a Host of Excuses, or in non-compliance for invalid reasons, so he was the only one she Closed the Case of.  He didn't expect any Excuses would Fly, so he never gives any.  The Judges tend to Like that, when you take it all Seriously and do what you're supposed to do without Excuses galore as to why you didn't or couldn't.  Everyone has their Hard Luck Stories and I'm sure they've heard them all.   They're not Social Workers, and Traffic Violations are all about the Money Maker they tend to be, and so if you've Paid for everything, and shown Good Faith, that's the City's Priority, and they will put it into Collections if left Unpaid and add more to it.

 

He gives me Gas Money and doesn't usually need many Rides.  So it's worked for us when he hasn't had his own Transportation or the Income to have Car Payments or pay Cash for something Used and unreliable or needing too much Work, which can be a Money Pit.    Those Electric Scooters for Adults, that look like a Kid's Scooter {See Below}, are fast and affordable, I see a lot of Youngsters using those instead of having Car Maintenance and Gas expenses.  They're only about $400-$500-$600, depending on Model, some are All Terrain.   Most go 20-28 mph with a 30-35 Mile Range on a Charge... the higher end Models have a Premium Battery and All Terrain Tires and Rear Motor rather than Front Hub Motor.

And, while I was at Court with him I got an Emergency Phone Call from my Younger Brother in Cali, who just had his Surgery to replace his Morphine Pump.  He was High Risk for the Surgery, but the Pump needed replacement, his Heart previously had only been at 50% function so they don't like even Elective Surgery.  But, he doesn't mind Crossing Over during a Surgical Procedure, seems a Peaceful way to go when you're Diagnosed as Terminal anyway and just haven't Died yet and outlived all your previous Expiration Dates.  So, the Surgery went well, some complications he Survived... but now his Heart is only at 20% function now... which means he's fucked per his Cardiologist and Heart Surgeon.  They just said to Live every day as if it's his Last, coz, it could be. 

   

They cannot give him an exact estimate of when it will give out, could be immediate... or not, at 20% it's gonna happen soon, probably in his Sleep, so, he just wanted me to know.  He'd sent me some Pixs he'd taken at the most recent Ren Faire and they were excellent, I'll Share some in another Blog Post.  But he said for Sure it's the last Gig he'll be covering coz he almost couldn't cover that one, too Weak now, hard to catch his Breath now.  He said Marcie, his long time Girlfriend, they've been together over 30 Years, isn't taking this well.  She's a lot Older than him so said she expects to Go First.  He told her he has no Control over when God says so, that it's Time.  I guess I took it better than she did.  He has been Diagnosed Terminal since he was 30, he's 66 now... he surpassed many an Expiration Date given him.

 

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I told him what I always tell him when he's been given yet another grim Prognosis, You're Not Dead 'Til God Says So... Love ya Lil Bro', Keep Hanging Tough... Dawn... The Bohemian