More Bad News To Process

The Mornings are Overcast and Gloomy, but Cooler, so I try to get a bit done during them, 'til the Humidity wipes me out, and the Rains hit.  There's so much to do but a lot of it requires assistance and so isn't getting done.  Even most of what The Son is doing Solo, he should have Help doing.  It's why he's upset that his Sister hasn't been here to assist him coz he doesn't feel I should have to. 

 I've fallen before during Irrigation when Helping him and so it concerns him that it's now too much for me to risk it.  Hey, if you're unable to Hire Help to do it, and doing so for Irrigation is damned near impossible coz SRP sets the Scheduled timing of Rotations and more than half the timing is insane Hours, then you have to do it yourself.  The Water comes when it comes and you must receive it.  I don't know how anyone still Working manages it?

The Yardwork too is more than One person should attempt to do without assistance, but he's doing it when he's not Working.  Right now he's still getting less than 30 Hours at the Part Time Job so he can manage to fit it in to his Work Schedule so far.  Anyway, to whom much is given, much is required.  So, we just manage it as best we can and what isn't getting Done we have to be pragmatic about.  Lower Maintenance Home Ownership is a Pipedream.  In fact, we're not sure our Irrigation Pump will even work with next Rotation, something went Wrong at the end of the last Rotation.

  And when you don't have Water in the Ditch you can't turn it on without risking burning it out.  We didn't know if it was extension cord problems, a Fuse Box problem, or a Pump problem?  It just quit pumping at the tail end of last Rotation and that feeds Water to the whole Front and East Side Yard where our largest Trees are!!! There are things I'd like to change about our Irrigation distribution System on this Property, but, that would take $$$.

Blogging is my Therapy and right now I'm a Fortnite ahead in Posts so they're Publishing about Two to almost Three Weeks after I've Written them now and I'm Okay with that.  Real Time Posts just are sometimes harder for me to get Published in Real Time and I'm trying to shorten my Posts, also challenging for me.  There's always so much going on that there is much to always Blog about, and so, of coarse I will.  *Winks*  I Nap a lot and I think part of that is the Heat and part of that is a kind of chronic Depression lately, as things are really weighty, so are very heavy upon the Soul.  I don't necessarily Feel Depressed per se, but, I'd rather Sleep than remain Awake and pushing myself hard all of the time, it's Rest, and it has been more and more necessary as a brief daily Respite.  

I'm taking Supplements to energize myself, but you can only push an Aging Body so far, as some limitations are the inevitability of Aging.  I kind of resent when anyone implies or pretends they're not, coz if I still CAN do something, I fucking DO it!  So, I can tell when I CAN'T anymore... or shouldn't.  And what has Changed is Time passing.  The Son just did all of the Yardwork and it took him over 3 Hours and he's 40 and used to a lot of Manual Labor, so imagine how long it would take me if I had to do it myself.   And I get inside my own Head too much sometimes, I often require someone making sure I don't.

And he said to Hire someone to do a Mini Farm would probably cost you $800-$1,000 Monthly coz it has to be done every Week to be properly Maintained.  Same with Hiring Movers, I couldn't Believe the Quotes were around $35,000, which is why we did a Self-Move and even that still cost me a couple Grand to Hire some Muscle of folks I knew to do the real heavy lifting of stuff I didn't Sell Off that was big.  I can lift heavy shit, I just shouldn't anymore to be Safe and to avoid Bone Fractures in the doing of it.  Just coz you still CAN do something doesn't mean you SHOULD.  *Winks*  

I remember when you could Buy a Home for Thirty Five Grand.  *LOL*  And a Vehicle for Two Grand.  I know, Young Readers are like, Whoa!  And when my Parents first moved to Arizona in the early 1970's some of their Friends had bought a Home in the late 1960's for Eight Grand, Imagine that!   These ain't Jokes... those are what it used to Cost in just half a Lifetime ago, and look at what it's Costing now... ridiculous!!!!  Inflation should not have gone up that much for Essentials like Housing and Transportation.

Anyway, I got Four more Eggplant Color Fiesta Ware Cereal/Salad Bowls at SAVERS, for Four Bucks the whole Set.  Princess T got a Write-Up Today coz she joked about Hating her Job.  I guess they didn't share her Sense of Humor?  *Bwahahahaha*  She doesn't mind her Job at all actually and likes her Co-Workers with the exception of one of the Older Spanish Speaking Ladies whose a Bully and talks smack in Spanish all of the time and is confrontational. 

 Princess T said the Lady is really Mean Spirited to any of the other Latina Americans who aren't Spanish Speakers.  My Granddaughter isn't fluent in Spanish but knows enuf of it to know when someone is talking Shit so she has gone Toe to Toe with Puta Lady, as she's Nicknamed her.  *LMAO*  Princess T is shy and quiet usually, and very well Liked becoz she's a Darling Young introverted Woman.   But, don't underestimate her as an Adversary, coz if you are Foolish enuf to Test her, she can go damned near Pre-Demonic in the Blink of an Eye.  She is a Chip off the Ole Blocks of her Mama and Gramma Dawn after all.  *Smiles*

  And that Old Puta found that out the Hard way when she realized, Oooops, I tried to Bully The Wrong One. *LOL and Winks* Yep, you can take the Girl out of da Hood but you can't take da Hood out of the Girl, as we always say.   And Princess T might look Harmless, but she can hold her own and stand her Ground like a Boss.  She once cut a much Older lil Gang Banging Homeboy with the Razor out of her Plastic Pencil Sharpener in 3rd Grade when he Bullied her.  After that nobody Dared. *Winks*  And Yes, I Backed her 100% in that incident and told School Admin why.  Coz the Year before in 2nd Grade that same lil Bastard had pushed her off a Swing and seriously broken her Arm, and no Responsible Adult interceded or did a damned thing coz they were scared of his Gang affiliated Parents, so, he had it coming and we Handled it ourselves.  Our Kiddos were like The Children Of The Corn to the Locals in the Old Barrio.  *Bwahahaha*

 

And I and The Man didn't fear that Kid's Gang affiliated Parents and they thought our Family was not only totally Unhinged and completely Mental, but would and could put Curses on their Asses and The Man's Military Skillset was also very well known.  *Smiles*  So, I didn't have any Trouble in da Hood with the Gang affiliated Families or OG's, we had instilled their Fear if not gained their Respect and either/or, Fear or Respect, that Works for me and mine.  We Bow Down to No Man.  And it makes Princess T more upset when Puta Lady messes with any of the really Nice Women there who won't fight back or tell her to stay in her own Lane.  She won't point her out to me tho, I've asked her to... *LOL* coz she knows I'd really mess with her, for messing with my Grandbaby.  *Winks and Laughs Maniacally*  It's Okay Gramma, I Got this.  And so long as she does... I'll let her Handle that Old Fool.  *Smiles*

Anyway, she does a really good Job and she was Joking, I just told her, well, don't Joke like that then, not worth a Write-Up to.  I mean, really who doesn't Hate their Job these days?  *LOL*  In fact, The Son Streams the AI Song Artists that do Satirical Songs sung very well and the Lyrics are great, and the fake Artists have hilarious Names too, we'd listen to them all day long.  So we were all listening to Songs by a fake AI Singer called "Butter Knife Shawty"... what a Name, I was rolling!  And the AI version of "F*ck That I'm Tired" by B. Devon is hilarious too, and that fake Artist Sings "I'm Not For Everybody", which is good too.   And "Don't Piss Me Off" by Del Fountain.

Timmy and Matthew, Princess T's Gay Boy Posse, just showed up to take her somewhere.  They always come in and give me a Hug, I Love those Young Men, and she has such Fun with them and they indulge her as if she's a Date or Family.  *Smiles*  Rusty knows them both and so he's okay with her hanging out with her Gay Boy Posse, he's as reclusive as she is and he knows they will insist on moving her out of that reclusive Comfort Zone to go do Fun activities and draw her out of her Shell.  She'll Dress Up when going out with Matthew and Timmy coz they always Dress Up and look so Handsome, it's a Gay Thing.  *Winks*  No way they'd go out in Public looking Busted.  *Bwahahahaha*

Timmy's Boyfriend used to be jealous of Matthew and Princess T, so he'd always wanna tag along and neither of them Like him, so Princess T started Opting Out.  Then Matthew Opted Out, so now Timmy comes Solo so that The Trio is back Together, kind of like a Famous Band getting back Together.  *Winks*  He's still with "Mr. Wonderful", as Princess T has dubbed the Boyfriend Timmy has that she does not like at all and thinks he could do better.  *LOL*  She will muse that she doesn't know why Timmy is still with that Guy... and I look over at her Sarcastically and make Eye Contact without Words and then she Laughs and says, "OKAY, so we KNOW why he's still with that Guy..."  *LMAOROTF*  

Matthew is still going to NAU up North and near the Rez, he's Native American so I think some of his Relatives may live on the Rez up near Flagstaff and the University?  He's still Single and not seeing anyone, she's been with Rusty over Two Years now and I think Timmy and Mister Wonderful are about Two Years in now.  Matthew is Adorable, I just think he's very discerning about Dating and he is putting his Education first coz he Won a Full Boat Scholarship and is a Brainiac.  He's no Party Animal either, not in the Straight Party Scene and not into the Gay Party Scene, rarely Drinks {mostly due to being Indigenous}.  He and Princess T are very much alike, Timmy is the Wild Child one and they keep him Grounded and out of Trouble.  *Smiles and Winks*

Once Princess T refused to be Friends with Timmy for about 18 Months coz he was starting to get too Wild and into the Party Scene and she disapproved.  So, to Win back her Friendship he Dialed it way back and his Grandparents were so Grateful to her for that.  Of coarse his Grandparents, who Raised him too, would like that one day he end up with our Granddaughter.  *LOL*  Timmy and Princess T have made a pact that if neither of them Marries by Age 40 they'll just Marry each other, regardless that he's Gay and she's Straight.  Who knows... they might just do that coz she said he'd make an excellent Housewife, is very Clean and tidy, a Great Cook, and she wouldn't mind Working and Supporting them.  *LMAOROTF*

The Kiddos are so funny coz I'd ordered and been drinking my RYZE Mushroom Coffee and for some reason they thought it was the Getting High kinda Shrooms and concerned about me drinking it.  *LMAO*  They insisted on Reading the Ingredients to make sure it wasn't a Psychedelic Magic Mushroom Blend.  *Bwahahahaha*  It isn't and I like it and feel it has therapeutic Health benefits.  My Parents always swore by Mushroom Blends for Health, and Kelp too, their Cultures use such things for Health and Well Being.  Now that the Kiddos have a Peace about the Shrooms in my Coffee... *winks*

I got some Bad News from the Rez from one of my Cousins, she's the Youngest of my Uncle's Three Kids {One of Dad's Older Brothers}, that I kept in touch with over the Years.  Her Older Brother {Pictured Above in his USMC Days during Vietnam} Died last Year and now her Older Sister is Hospitalized and probably Dying, so she informed us Yesterday that Wewokajanna might not make it.   Wewoka is pictured Below with her Brother in the 1960's.  When she was Younger she had more the Cherokee lighter Skin of her Mom's People than our Dads side of the Family who are Dark Indians.  So she isn't even as Swarthy as I am even tho' her Mom was a Native American too and not European, and she has Beautiful Green Eyes like The Young Prince has.  I was very sorry to hear she's so Sick that she's likely at End of Life, but she's lived longer than most of that side of the Family has, she's a few Years Older than me.   

Her Sister DeAnna losing Two Siblings in less than Two Years is gonna be hard tho'.   Coz she also lost her Husband and One Child already too.  That's a LOT of recent Loss all at once and a lot of Grief to Process.   Apparently Wewoka has TB, which is rampant on Reservations, they often get Bubonic Plague too on Reservations still.  The Living Conditions are not good and never have been and the Mortality Rate is still way higher than the rest of America for all Indigenous Populations.   My Cousin is very Thin and Frail, but she'd lost even more Weight quickly so they knew something was very Wrong.  The Indian Hospitals are so-so with Treatments, so I don't know the level of Care she'll receive, her Lungs are already apparently badly damaged.  And I do Hope they're now Testing all Loved ones coz TB is highly contagious and often Fatal.

The Son told me he's got Company Invited over for Lunch with their Kids, so it Motivated me, FINALLY, to Tidy up most of the Common Areas of the House.  I've been procrastinating on doing that terribly, it was all MY mess, I was the only Offender.  I had Inventory all over the place and I wasn't even busy Pricing it most days, so it needed to be Crated up until I do and get it out of here and into the Showroom or Locked Case at the Antique Mall.  I do Hate Clutter and Chaos, but I tend to mire myself in both habitually.  It is indicative of my Mental Illness so I know the Cause, but trying to Overcome it is always challenging, I can do it if I really push myself to but it takes supreme effort to maintain that level of better Behaviors with consistency.  As soon as Mentally I'm not doing Well... then it spirals downwards.

My Brother did Survive his recent Heart Surgery, so that was Good News Bad News, coz the Surgeon was unable to do anything once he got in there.  Just see the mess of his Heart more clearly and ascertain, well, nothing can be done and we don't really know how you've managed to still be among the Living?   I view it as a Positive only becoz he Survived one more thing they didn't think he could or should, defying grim Prognosis again and again, not Dead 'til God says so.  I quit being worried about all his Surgeries only becoz tho' he's usually got a 5% Survival Rate for each one, he's been Lucky.  And, if he Dies while knocked out on an Operating Table, he's Okay going that way, I would be too. 

And I needed Blog Fodder Imagery so my Brother always obliges coz he does still go to Events and do Media Coverage of them for his Friends in the Entertainment Industry.   I think this was some California Western Re-Enactment I hadn't seen Pixs of before, tho' he said he'd done them about a Year previously and just not downloaded them Publicly, just Privately for the Friends he took them for.   Tho' I just Love the Pixs he takes of People and Places, I think some of my Favs are what he takes of Animals.  He's like the Animal Whisperer to get them to Pose for Photos, so he's always gotten and captured thru the Eye of his Lens the Essence and Personality of each Animal he's ever Photographed, whether Wild or Domesticated.  The Brown Horse particularly was a Natural in front of the Lens.   Of coarse it could be a Hollywood Horse used in Movies. *Smiles*

I didn't attend the Renaissance Festival Last time it was here, in early 2026, but I think I will next time in early 2027, we'll wait and see.  Just so much was going on that I Opted Out of a lot of the Traditional and Ritualistic things we typically go and do.  Plus, Finances have been a problem coz I've had to funnel all funds into Essentials, Medical Emergencies, Helping out Family in Crisis, and Home Repairs, that were a Priority.  So Recreational Pursuits were just low on that List of what we could or would spend anything on.  The Budget was not there for it and was stretched tight as Hell for just what we HAD to divert all Resources to.  There's very little Breathing Room these days Financially coz the Economy is not good and I do predict will worsen under this Regime and their poor decisions, Nepo Hires, corruption, greed, grifting, and unprecedented incompetence.

But we're so much better off than most people and I am Aware of how fortunate we still are.   Plus, around this time of Year, even tho' it's the height of Summer, I'm thinking Autumnal Thoughts already.  And so I always look forward to Autumn and the Holidays and Events for it that I so enjoy and gives me abundant Recreational Opportunities, most of which cost me nothing.  I shall probably whip things into Shape by September to start the kickoff of our Autumnal Decorating, which we tend to go all out for still.  My Birthday is in August and I already bought myself the Main Pressy at Auction and have had it a while now.  LOVE it, got a Deep Discounted Bargain on it, tho' it was still Spendy, the Seller accepted a ridiculously Lowball Offer that was all that I could afford to Offer her.  She told me how Happy she was to Accept, knowing I was a long time Collector of the Line, and this is one of the Original Handmade Pieces of it by the Founder of the Line, when she still made her own Product. 

With the Economy being in the shitter, I will say I'm seeing more Vintage Lines of Collectibles that normally would never be put up For Sale by the Consummate Collectors who've Owned them, hitting the Auction Sites, people Need the Money, clearly.  They are reluctantly Letting Go of what they Cherish in order to have the Liquidity of some Cash to Live on and Buy instead what they Need.  That's when I snap up such things becoz frankly, I have so much that I easily can Resell and have no serious Attachments to.  So, it's none of my Primo and most Beloved Pieces I wanna Keep Forever.  Therefore, I don't have to Sell Off what I don't want to ever Let Go of, and my Heirs will have to and be Free to profit from after I'm Gone.  *LOL*  Yes, I could Pay a lot of things Off if I did put up those Items For Sale... but, why should I?  I wanna Enjoy them for the rest of my Days... and if I don't deserve it, who does?  *Winks*

Plus, paying off shit at this juncture seems temporary relief only.  Since something else always comes up that you have to then Finance if you don't have huge amounts of Cash stashed away or accessible instantly without Penalties for early Withdrawals of it.  So, fuck it.   This Property is Financed at 2% and is too much to ever fathom realistically Paying Off at my Age, and at that low Rate, why even would I try to?   The various Home Improvements or Repairs also were Financed and I typically pay them off early.  Just got one Paid Off this Month in fact, but, I don't stress about how much more I should add to the Payments in order to Pay less Interest in an earlier Payoff.   

Yeah, I have the Lenders always run an Amortization Schedule for me to calculate how much Interest I can knock off any Loan by making additional Principal Payments... but I won't create Financial Hardship to Pay it all off stupidly early either.  Otherwise, what was the Point of Financing it to begin with?  The Old Bank Exec in me is always looking at the Front and Back End of any Financial Agreement made.   But, we've had to Finance more than we wanted to in Retirement coz Life just happens and Shit just happens... so the initial Retirement Plan was shot all to Hell a long time ago already.  Shrugs.  Whaddya gonna do?  Keep on Living and Shit just happens.  It's all quite unpredictable what the Future holds for any of us or our Nation at this juncture especially, so I'm Playing it Day to Day now.   This Prez may have only been in for around 200 days but he's already done around 200 unpredictable fucking harmful things to America and the Economy!

He said in one Speech that he was Talking to the Presidents of The Virgin Islands and Puerto Rico!!!  Yeah... if that don't blow your Mind to hear, since he clearly doesn't know HE IS the President of Puerto Rico and The Virgin Islands... so the Question then begs, who the fuck was he Talking to?   But, he's also the Guy who thought the Country of Belgium was a nice City, said so in another Speech.  And he's said he's talked to People who've long been Dead too.   He's constantly saying he's Spoken to Deceased Individuals on National Television!    During a July 2026 Speech in North Dakota he said he Talked to former Prez Teddy Roosevelt, whose been Dead since 1919, about the Panama Canal!  And he claims to have had recent conversations with long Dead Celebs, that I guess he knew when they were Living... so he's clearly no longer tethered to Reality or the Present and mixing shit up with the Past... clear Dementia behaviors or making shit up and Mental Confusion of Past and Present.

The Son's Company just showed up, it's a Childhood Friend, his Wife and Two little Boys, Nice Family.  They're gonna go Swimming and then The Son will likely set the Boys up with Video Games in the Guest Bedroom so they won't get bored, they're Grade School Aged and well behaved and polite Kids.  I've known their Dad all his Life so he's like another Son to us and calls me Mom.  Some people don't even know he's not one of our Adult Kids and The Son's actual Brother.  *LOL*  Their Youngest has a lot of Health Issues he was Born with so Q Works a lot of Overtime to pay for his Son's Medical needs.  I've had Kiddos with Fragile Health or Chronic Health needs and it gets expensive real fast.  If there's no Cure for what's Wrong with them it's gonna be a Lifetime of Pre-Existing Conditions.  Many Insurances you get from Employers have Lifetime Caps on how much they'll pay for those kind of Illnesses that are Lifetime Conditions and very expensive.

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Well, that's all folks... Dawn... The Bohemian

Flood The Zone

Strap In, we're going Long on this Post.  *Winks*  The Young Prince will be back by next Weekend, he said, and perhaps, you just never know for sure.   I guess Allen will be moving to Arizona, he finally got his VA Disability Approved, so, he can then afford to Live and Work in Arizona with the addition of the Disability Pension he's Entitled to.  Those Disability determinations take a very long time to process thru, I know for The Man it took Two Years before he got his first Check and then what they owed him from what he should have always been receiving of it.  So, Allen should get a lump sum too of back pay on his Disability now that it's finalized.  He has a lot of Trauma, most Disabled Veterans do.  And thinking he could be his Husband's Full Time Caregiver was always Too Much and a tall order for a Young Man with Disabilities of his own, I knew this when they got Married.  So, I guess Allen's Family have disowned him again becoz tho' they won't Live together anymore, he still wants to be in a Relationship with a Man, our Grandson.  And they're Fundamentalist Christians, they want their Son to be Straight... and... he's just not.  You can't Pray the Gay away.

  And, so now, Allen will be getting more Services from the VA for his own Mental Health and Disabilities, which are considerable and evident. So that's only a Good Thing and I'm Happy for him receiving it finally, it's been a very long Wait.  And them deciding to be "Friends With Benefits" is what Princess T said they probably always should have just been, coz they're both dealing with their own Special Needs and Disabling Factors that complicate their Relationship... and all of their Relationships in general really. I agree.  Allen is Autistic, more than Mildly Moderate on the Spectrum as our Son was Diagnosed, and he's Bipolar.  I'm Surprised that the Military didn't recognize that he was Mentally Ill any more than they recognized him being Gay actually, the Autism to me is more Apparent, he can almost Pass for not being Gay coz he's a very Manly and very Macho Gay Man!  He even likes doing a lot of Straight Man things.  *LOL*

    Now our Grandson, on the other Hand, is Fabulous and he ain't flying under any Gaydar whatsoever, ever.  In fact, he has trouble "Passing" for being a Man rather than a Woman most of the time, people can't always be sure.  Even when he's Presenting as a Man, he's so Gender Fluid he's never looked entirely Male or entirely Female, or Acted entirely Male or Female, even as a Small Child.  *LOL*  Allen will also probably continue to help our Grandson Financially until we know if he'll receive his own Disability from Social Security... or not?   I had told them they had to Work Out their Relationship, they are both Grown.  The Young Prince told me that Tyson our Grandpup Pit Bull also got attacked by Two Fighting Pit Bulls that trespassed into their Yard!  He was a Rescue and Shelter Dog coz he was given up by a previous Owner coz he would not Fight.  The Grandsons wanted me to know about what happened, so I wouldn't Question his now messed up Ear and patches of missing fur that might never grow back.  My Poor Baby, he's not a Fighter!  Unless he's Protecting his Humans, he's as Gentle as a Lamb and won't Fight back.

 Today is really Overcast with heavy Storm Clouds, so we'll get a Storm, probably before Nightfall Today, but it brought Shade and lower Temps by a lot, which made it nice to be out in.  The Humidity was higher but the Sun was behind all the Clouds so it was pleasant enuf to go do a few Hours of Environmental Cleanup and take The Man with me this time.  Yes, he mostly just stayed in the Truck with the Windows down at the Nature Preserve, tho' I did bring a fold-up Chair for him to get out and sit in, so he could just enjoy Nature.  And I brought a Cooler with Iced Drinks, but they were Healthy ones and so it was a chore to get him hydrated and drink even just One.  *Le Sigh and Eye Rolls*   They're Ocean Spray Cranberry Drinks with different other Fruits, very good, I can get him to at least drink some, coz he won't drink the Bottled Water at all.

But, he had a nice time and it was Breezy and only around 80 all Morning, by Noon it was still under 100, which for July in Arizona is considered Cool.  *Ha ha ha*  We traded in our Aluminum Cans coz I had the back of the Truck filled with Bags of them.  So, then I Treated him to Lunch at "Robeks" so I could get my Acai Sorbet Fruit Bowl that I'm now seriously Addicted to.  I got him a Margherita Pizzolo, which was similar to a Calzone.  He said it was 'Okay', if it's a Health Food Joint anything on the Menu, no matter how tasty, he'll only say is 'Okay' coz he'd prefer Food that isn't as Healthy, what can I say?   And if I claim it's "Good for him", then he'll claim he didn't like it at all.  *Le Sigh, and more Eye Rolls*   Personally it smelled delicious, was piping Hot from the Oven, and looked more than just 'Okay', so, I didn't react to his lack of enthusiasm about my choice for him.  Coz, he refused to get out of the Truck, sometimes now he doesn't wanna bother walking at all even with his Walker and no matter how close to a Restaurant I get the Truck.  I think I'd have to drive the damned Vehicle right INTO the place to get him out!?  *LOL*

Now, it was nowhere near Sundown, but he was getting belligerent early Today, might have been coz it's a gloomier Day so looks like it should be Sundown, I dunno?  He was becoming contrary about getting out of the Truck, it was nice enuf to leave him in there with all the Windows down tho', so I choose my Battles wisely with him.  And I did consult Dr. Google about gloomier days triggering the Sundowning Syndrome and sho' nuff, they do!!!   It says, and I Quote: Yes, People with Sundowning Syndrome {late day confusion in Dementia}, often experience Symptoms earlier in the day when it's gloomy, overcast, or raining outside.  Well, Thank Baby Jesus and all the Saints then that we don't live in England!  *Bwahahahaha*   Coz if he was like this all of the time I'd possibly be up on Charges.  *Winks and Laughs*  So, I took him Home before Noon, coz it was evident he wasn't having Fun anymore and it was gonna Sour my Good Mood to try to drag him around trying to have a Good Time.  *LOL*

When I'd picked Princess T up from Work I Scored Four Bagged Big Lots of Pokemon Cards from SAVERS, whoop whoop, Easy Sell at the Antique Mall, great Margins!!!  Definitely will Stimulate Trade for our Locked Case... Yay and a Happy Dance!  I also Scored a Bagged Lot of POP Figures, another Easy Sell for Resale purposes, those are Madly Popular no matter what Characters they are and even Unboxed.   I got some Bagged Lot of Mini LOL Dolls, those Sell well and can be Priced to Move, they're still very Popular with Younger Kids to Collect and Play with.  I also got another Bagged Lot of those Mini Foods, which is good coz I've damned near almost already Sold Out of them and I had a lot in my Inventory just a few Weeks ago.  Those are the kinds of Smalls that a Single Customer will spend a lot of Money on, buying out most of what I have, which, is what I want for the Quickest Turns and Repeat Customers who will spend the Money and Buy in Bulk.  I don't Care why they're Buying so much, just that they are.  *Smiles*

I have no idea yet how I'm doing this Pay Period, I haven't been Focused or Fixated on it, last Pay Period had been dismal, so, I can only Hope that the Summer Slump isn't prolonged?  It's been Hot and Cold with Sales.  Before the dismal Pay Period I had a really Strong one, and then things flatlined again.  And they flatlined with Two Holidays and Sales, so, that was a Surprise.   Some Businesses during those Holidays did very well, we at BAAM did not, I spoke to multiple Vendors, we Sell a variety of Products, and nobody did good last Pay Period, all of them said it fell flat and the Holidays {Father's Day and 4th of July Weekend} did absolutely nothing to boost Sales at all for them either.  Of coarse the Mall did absolutely nothing to Stimulate Trade really for either Holiday, so that was at least part of it... but certainly not all of it.  People were not out spending Money and being more calculated about what, where and when they spend it if they are spending it now.  I know I am!!!

 

Right now if I can make Money off spending some, I'll do it, but not unless I can on Non-Essentials.  Otherwise, the majority of our Spending now is on Essentials only, and it's becoz of this Economy and this Administration's poor handling of it and making it intentionally {or stupidly} worse.  I can't really tell if they are intending to crash the Economy of not only America, but Globally, or... if it's just stupidity, ignorance and only focusing on enriching themselves at the expense of the rest of the Nation and the World?   Most of America is hanging on by an Economic Thread while the 1% are raking in the $$$ in Spades.  So, why would they, those that have all the Power and all the Money, wanna Change it to benefit everyone else and not themselves, I ask you?  Do you remotely think they'll ever admit they have Enough, more than Enough?  Or have a Conscience about who doesn't and is so far Below having Enough to Survive that they have extreme Lack or at least Worries that things will get Worse for them? 

I have tons of stuff that needs doing and I could be and should be doing, but I'm rather overwhelmed by the volume of it actually.  So, I've chipped away at it slightly, but not really with enthusiasm or motivation to do more, so I confess I'm avoiding some of it, it's easier.  I didn't use to procrastinate so much, and do try to still set aside a couple Hours a day to do unpleasant tasks that just can't be avoided, but then, I don't do anything Extra... I'm being a real Basic Bitch about what needs doing around here lately.   Suddenly being real Basic and not Extra is so out of Character for me too!  I'm without the Energy mostly to tackle everything on the To Do List and so I do Moderate, Okay, what absolutely cannot be avoided and HAS to be Done every day, and isn't Optional?  Then, if it's not on THAT List, it isn't always being attended to lately, or just barely.  The just barely days are when I try hard to knuckle down and Just Do It... as the Iconic Commercial says.  *LOL* 

I'd rather just be Blogging or Resting most of the time when I don't HAVE to do something, absolutely HAVE to do it, anyway.  I do HAVE to do the Caregiving, Feed and Water everything Alive around here to keep it all Alive {Smiles}, administer the Essential Medications, pay the Bills, keep up the Basic Housekeeping duties, and do those few little Side Hustles that make some supplemental discretionary Income to ensure we make it to the next Payday and stay out of the Red Financially.  But, then, whatever else needs and should be Done, isn't.  I do try to encourage myself of what I did accomplish so I can feel the least bit accomplished and think, well, that was Enough... Enough for the Day anyway.  Tomorrow will be a Brand New Day... Rinse & Repeat.  It Feels a little like a Treadmill that the OFF Switch is broken on and you can't get off either.  So, it is Important to do some Fun stuff, so that all Work and no Play doesn't make Dawn go Mental or go get the Matches.  *Ha ha ha*

The Haboobs have put a thick layer of Dust on literally everything too, mostly Outside, but it tracks inside.   And The Man keeps leaning on the New Fridge across the Control Panel, you know that one we couldn't see initially and didn't even know was there?   And I felt like a putz when the replacement Fridge Guy came out and showed me, oh, this is the Problem, not defective, they should have instructed you of it in the Showroom tho'!   Anyway... the one that if you touch it, can change temperature settings, shut off the Water Feed and Ice Maker, and then take 24 Hours to re-set to start filling the refillable Water Pitcher with Ice Water and start making Ice Cubes... as well as keep everything the temperature it needs to be!!!   So we had Drinks in the Middle Drawer almost Freezing coz he bumped it to too Cold on it's Control Panel, and things in the Crisper and Veggie/Dairy Bin not getting Cold enuf coz he bumped that Control Panel too when getting something out.  

 

Oy Vey, so I have to remind him, don't lean on the Panel up there across the Top when you open the Fridge Door and stand there looking in there like it's some form of Entertainment!!!   I know he's unsteady, but he has a Walker to lean on, so I told him to lean on it, not the Panels or Drawers and such of the New Fridge and fuck things up... it's New, I haven't even made the 3rd Payment on it yet!!!  As it is the Alarm goes off coz he stands there so long with the Door Open gazing blankly inside like he completely forgot why he opened the Door to begin with, which, he probably did.  *Le Sigh*  He has to be Supervised in the Kitchen and follow Safety Prompts,  He's not even allowed to use the Stove or Oven... and now this is just another one I guess we have to implement and remind him incessantly about.  

Every day I refresh him with his Safety Prompts and go over them all, so mostly he follows them.  He doesn't want me getting Cross with him when he breaks them and puts himself in Harm's Way.  You can't have Eyes on him all of the time, it's impossible... as impossible as Herding Cats.  He's not allowed to handle his own Medications, and when he takes them someone else has to be watching him to ensure he did take them, did swallow them, took the Right Injection, etcetera, coz otherwise it would be impossible to know what he's taking, not taking, hiding, grabbing mine instead of his... any number of things that can't happen.  Plus, he thinks he did things he didn't do and does things he can't remember doing now all of the time.   Above is some of The Young Prince's Art.

 Anyway, The Man's fabrications and complete lapses of Reality are so Real to him he could pass a Polygraph, he's that convinced.  I think we're seeing that with this Prez, detached completely now from Reality.  And so all the Lies and Stories being told so openly and shamelessly, he probably does Believe and why he gets defiant and angry when challenged about it.  Thank God that The Man isn't running the Country or making any decisions that are important tho', or affect anyone else's Lives.  This President IS and it's becoming more and more disturbing, more alarming and out of Touch, so untethered to Reality that it's fucking dangerous and risk filled beyond all Belief or comprehension!!!   And what his drunken, incompetent, Gender Obsessed, Racist U.S. Secretary of Defense... um, I mean War, Hegseth, who is Obsessed with War and Masculinity and being all White Cartoonishly Virile Males, is now doing to our Military... I have no Words!!!  Just OMG!  That Guy has some Issues!!!

He wants to get all Military Personnel over the Age of 30 Tested for their T Levels and mandatorily take Hormone Enhancing Drugs to ensure they are Masculine Enough!!!  Just WTF?!  Of coarse he's also Obsessed with Purging our Military of all Intelligent and Skilled Personnel, all Women, all Minorities... pretty soon it will be an Aryan Nation Recruitment Requirement any day now!!!  And it's hardly making the News... which, that is kinda scary in and of itself really... that so much that is so Wrong is being glossed over as if it's not even News worth covering or just a Blip on the fucking Radar!!!  Well, Bannon did Advise them to "Flood The Zone"... and well, seems they took that Advice quite Seriously and that's exactly what they're doing.   An Avalanche of Shit simply overwhelms and confuses the Opposition and the Public... it's too much to wade thru or Process effectively, before more Shit literally then buries you in it. 

The Niece {Far Right on Two Bottom Pixs and in Center Front on Top Pix with her Two Younger Sisters}, called the other day and I missed the Call coz I was in Bed early.  She goes Long on Phone Calls, as Long as I do on Blog Posts, so, you have to be able to take a Long Call and I just couldn't, too Tired.  *LOL*  So, I've got to remember to call her back now and see whatssup?  She hadn't called me that long ago, just Days actually, so I am Hopeful it's not Bad News?  Her Dad isn't in great Shape and she's his Caregiver now and lives with him in his Subsidized Apartment for Down and Out Veterans.  She thinks he's got Dementia too and it certainly sounds like it, so she's been bouncing off of me how similar is her Dad's Behavior to The Man's?  Coz we know that The Man has Dementia that is progressing but in earlier Phases of the Disease... but since her Dad lived alone for so long, nobody was able to see how much or how rapidly he may have been declining? 

She said he takes Spam Calls Seriously who Prey on and Con the Elderly.  He's gotten himself in Trouble with that.   He gets really Angry and Defensive if she tries to take the Call and report any exploitation of a Scam someone's engaging in.  I know we get those Calls all of the time, they must have access to Information that Targets your Age Group, Medical History, who knows what... coz, I don't recall getting so many of these Calls until I was a Senior and particularly of Social Security Age.  The big Fraud now are the Medicare and Medicaid Scams, and Scams to Target Veterans as well, especially Disabled Veterans.  So I do Wonder if Social Security, Medicare, Medicaid and VA Data Bases have been seriously and successfully Hacked, and Sold to unscrupulous Sources?  I'm no Conspiracy Theorist but there are some Questions I have that are without Answers about how much Data is being Breached these days and how much of our most Sensitive Information is For Sale, even to Criminals. 

 We all know Elon did it during DOGE and accessed and gave access to Sensitive Information... probably Sold it and also used it for Financial Advantages.  He's not the World's 1st Trillionaire for nothing.  And you don't ever EARN Billions, let alone a Trillion Dollars.   And Today when I visited the Old Southside Barrio we used to live in, which mostly has a lot of Low Income Families, they have built not ONE but THREE huge Data Centers right there by it!!!   OMG... first of all, Arizona is a Desert with Water Shortage as it is... and an Electrical Grid that can barely keep Pace with a growing Metropolis that is the 5th largest now in the Nation with over 5 Million to provide Water and Electricity to.  And the Environmental Damage is a huge Unknown, and they've built these not far from Three Major Rivers and a Big Nature Preserve.  They already know it will heat up, around each Data Center, for a Six Mile Radius, temperatures by in excess of 15 Degrees! 

 We already get up to or over 118 in the Summertime... 15 Degrees more than that would be not Sustainable to Life Forms, any of them.   No complex Animal or Plant Life can Sustain Long-Term Survival at 133 Degrees.  Some Microbial might... but we're not Microbial and neither are most Plants or Animals we rely upon for Life.   Those Three Centers will suck up all the available Water and use up all of the Electricity or at the very least, jack up the Prices, and that area is too Low Income to then be able to afford it or to move elsewhere.  Or to have Lobbied against the building of them in their Communities.  The Data Centers are springing up around Small Town America for the same reasons, they can't successfully fight the building of them. 

 Or ICE Facilities too... another Big Red Flag as to why does America NEED so many enormous Concentration Camps suddenly?  Ones that aren't even giving the required Congressional Access to them to see what's going on to those being Kidnapped off the Streets of America and Held in them without Due Process.  Or at least the Ones that are still Alive and not Shot Dead in our Streets by ICE or Dying in those Camps with no Real Investigations or Consequences for whose Executing and Murdering them, when no real Charges were ever Filed.  Even Heinous Crimes get Due Process and not every one of those gets the Death Penalty and instant Execution, even if they've been Found Guilty and put on Death Row.  Right now ICE seems to be Judge, Jury and Executioner even if they Kill the Wrong Person and admit it wasn't who they were even allegedly after!!!  Even if it's an American Citizen, or someone in the Country Working Legally and with no Criminal History!  

 And it's happening with more and more regularity, every Week now.  Same bullshit reasons ICE is giving for using Lethal Force.  Seems all Citizens are now apparently trying to run over ICE with their Vehicles... they're not even getting Creative with the Lies being told.  Even if it totally contradicts any Evidence that someone else Records, coz they ain't Recording a damned thing they're doing or Processing any of these Incidents like a Crime Scene or giving Access to Local D.A.'s. Offices to do Independent Investigations, they're Stonewalling them in fact and trying to restrict or even deny Access to Evidence.  Very Curious and reeks of Coverups.  So... just Asking for a Friend.  And everyone should be Asking these Questions and Demanding Answers.  

 It's all very concerning and so now I'm more glad I Sold both Properties I did Own there at various times while our Kids and Grandkids were Growing Up.  *Whew*  Too many Data Centers and potential ICE Warehouse Camps springing up in these Westside and Southside Communities... but not in Affluent predominantly White ones.  There are presently 80, Yes, you didn't read that Wrong, additional Data Center Facilities planned or under construction in the Metro Phoenix Area!!!  I'm a Stats Person so I always want Stats on this shit, the sooner it's made available, the better.    There's 150 already Operational Data Centers in Maricopa County alone!!!  Yep, you didn't read that Wrong either, in a fucking Desert!!!  Making us the largest and fastest growing in the U.S. for these damned things, which, nobody wants in their Neighborhoods, nobody.   And One Planned right outside of Luke AFB!!!   You shouldn't Live within 2 Miles of one, is now Suggested!  These are right up against Communities already Inhabited by Big Populations!

Says they're Carefully Evaluating Power Grid and Water Sustainability Goals... ummmm, shouldn't ya have done that BEFORE letting even the first fucking One be built?  Not over 150 later with 80 more already in Progress or Projected?   Meanwhile Affluent and predominantly White Neighborhoods in Scottsdale, Paradise Valley, oh, let's not even bother to go thru the List, coz actually ZERO are Built or Planned in ANY of the Region's most Affluent Residential or Commercial Areas... now ain't that Interesting and handy for them too?   So I'm putting on Blast all of the decisions of where and how many were Approved as being quite Selectively Biased and harmful to the Populations of least Influence or Affluence.  Typical.   And I'm sure Small Town America is suffering the same Fate as any Urban Area that don't have Influence or Affluence to block what they're being harmfully exposed to involuntarily.   And it's not "New"... remember Flint, Michigan's contaminated Water... and what Erin Brockovich fought against too {BTW she was on as a Guest talking about this very thing not long ago.}.

Sometimes when I'm Reading someone else's Blog Stories it stirs one of my long forgotten ones and I dust the Cobwebs off and recall it.  A Blogger Friend had Written about the 1970's Movies that have become Cult Classics, but recalling them from the Seventies, when they first came out.  One Movie I hadn't seen, but, I had Read the 1971 Book of Xaviera Hollander, better known as "The Happy Hooker".  This was long before Heidi Fleiss.  I was in High School and so of coarse, bought the Book and was fascinated by her Memoirs, a Dutch Call Girl and Madam who became quite Famous and had Celebrity Clients.   She's still Alive and is 83 now.  In the 1980's I knew a Woman from Amsterdam that had been a Call Girl and so had her Mother, she had Stories of being put in the Windows of De Wallen.  She eventually moved to America and Married an American Serviceman, which is when I met her.  She was very Open about her Past and Cultural differences of the Oldest Profession.

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The End... Dawn... The Bohemian