Foodie Eye Candy And Medical Tests Galore

 Okay, so my Mammo went first and is easy for me coz I got plenty to fling on to the Machine.  *Winks*  But the Ultrasound was more invasive and uncomfortable coz it was External AND Internal, which nobody had mentioned that!  I was not expecting the latter, which is an Internal Probe, and that is NOT comfortable to go thru.  Fun Times and a Surprise!  Now I have some cramping, but, at least they got all the Imaging done that they should need and I've just got to now wait for the results and findings.  She spent a lot of time Imaging my Right Side on the Ultrasound Internal and External, so I'm guessing that's the problematic side???  Both Technicians were Females and very nice, very efficient, it wasn't even that hard to drink the 32 oz. and 16 extra oz. they then wanted me to drink without needing to Pee.  *Whew*  You get to Pee in between the external Imaging and the internal one, Thankfully.  *LOL*

I then went to "Lowe's" to have my List bought, with my Military Discount it came to $105 for the Rake, Toilet Snake, 6 AC Filters and a 100 ft. non kinkable Fabric Mesh Garden Hose... one of those Hose that Grows you see on TV that grows then contracts.  *Smiles*  Those last longer than Rubber Hoses and don't kink up, but, in our Weather the Fabric does deteriorate too, but I like that they're easier to handle and use.  I got the cheapest Metal Toilet Snake coz I couldn't tell much difference between the $17 one which I bought and the $50 one.  It did the job, The Daughter had it unclogged in less than a Minute.  *Whoop Whoop!  And Hallelujah!*  I went to "First Watch" for my Breakfast after that and brought Home some Honey Biscuit Beignets Bites for The Man.  Nurse Remi was still here when I got Home.  We had some Laughs, as we always do, Gallow's Humor Style.

Nurse Remi knows how many Mentally Ill we have in this Family and she used to work in Prisons and State Mental Hospitals as a Nurse, so she has an understanding of The Systems.  She also has a Nephew, her Sister's Son, whose been a Schizophrenic since he was only 8 Years Old.  Our Grandson was diagnosed with it at 7 Years Old, it's Rare in Children actually, mostly it manifests in Teens to Early Adulthood.  Anyway, her Nephew had a Psychotic Episode at an Airport and now they've got to go thru The System with him, it's always very Sad for Families coz there is no Cure.  She said it lightens her Heart to come here becoz we handle our Situations with Serious Mental Illness with Humor and Grace, which Uplifts her about the Family Situation they're currently going thru.  I'm glad it's Helpful, she's so Helpful to us being The Man's Home Nurse.

Anyway, I had the Paperwork Social Security sent to The Grandson, for us to fill out, only to find out he's halfway to New Mexico right now with Allen!!!   And will be back somewhere around July 4th... I had no Idea that was happening... such is Life with a Schizophrenic tho', so, not that unusual for them to take off and come back whenever.  So, I'll just fill out the Paperwork for him, as his Caregiver Grandparent/Parent, and send it in by the Deadline, which is the 26th of June.  Whaddya gonna do?  If they want to Schedule his Psyche Eval or Caseworker Sessions before he returns, I'll have to say he took off again, if they know anything about the Nature of the Illness, they realize these afflicted with it go Off The Grid a LOT. 

 Sometimes it's for Days... sometimes for Weeks... Months... even Years.   Nothing you can do about it, I have Medical Power of Attorney for him that he voluntarily gave me, but I'm not his Warden and can't keep him here involuntarily and against his Will.  The Daughter disappears still for Days or Weeks at a time, I'm used to this with the Schizophrenic Loved Ones.  So, anyway, it's probably better I fill it out anyway, he'd struggle with it and not be as accurate at answering the Questions... often he's not in Touch with Reality and is in his own World... which I call Planet Young Prince.  I don't reside there and unless you had the same Diagnosis as him, you probably don't either.  So, I don't even know what Color the Sky is on Planet Young Prince?  *Winks*  It's kind of a "Lucy In The Sky With Diamonds" Song Lyrics kinda place tho', that's for damned sure.  *LOL*

Picture yourself in a boat on a river

With tangerine trees and marmalade skies

Somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly

A girl with kaleidoscope eyes

Cellophane flowers of yellow and green

Towering over your head

Look for the girl with the sun in her eyes

And she's gone

Lucy in the sky with diamonds

Lucy in the sky with diamonds

Lucy in the sky with diamonds

Ah

Follow her down to a bridge by a fountain

Where rocking horse people eat marshmallow pies

Everyone smiles as you drift past the flowers

That grow so incredibly high

Newspaper taxis appear on the shore

Waiting to take you away

Climb in the back with your head in the clouds

And you're gone

Lucy in the sky with diamonds

Lucy in the sky with diamonds

Lucy in the sky with diamonds

Ah

Picture yourself on a train in a station

With plasticine porters with looking glass ties

Suddenly someone is there at the turnstile

The girl with the kaleidoscope eyes

Princess T got me an early Birthday pressy, a Blind Box of some little Figures we both like, mine was one I actually preferred of the Line, sometimes you Luck Out and get the one you like best.  This one is called Axel-Black from the Dark Forest Series.  She'd bought a bunch for herself and her Boyfriend bought her some too, most of hers are the Mini Anime Characters, all Blind Boxes.  I don't like Blind Boxes as I want the one I want... so when I buy any for her I pay the Extra to get exactly the one she wants.  *LOL*  Her Boyfriend didn't even know you could do that... so now I told him he can, he'll probably pay the Extra too so she gets any in the Line she's either missing or really, really wanted.  A lot of the Collectors prefer and like the Blind Boxes for the 'Surprise' of not knowing which one they'll get.  It is a brilliant Marketing Strategy to increase Sales.  They don't make it well known you can pay Extra to just get the one you want.  *Smiles*

I filled out all of The Grandson's SSI Paperwork, found out he could have me fill it out, just not a Doctor or Therapist.   The Daughter helped me, he even called me to Answer some Questions I wasn't sure about... and we were inappropriately Laughing about some of the Questions and what I 'should' put, but I was discerning.  Like the Question:  Do you get along with other People?  And I told The Daughter, well, I'm putting down that sometimes he does and sometimes he doesn't.  And then she added in a Deadpan Voice, "And sometimes you Need a Restraining Order!"  *Bwahahaha*  Okay, so, that was Funny, yet True, in a Gallows Dark Humor way.  And, no, I didn't put the Restraining Order Part on his Paperwork's Answer.  *LOL and Winks*  And I sent it in and so now I just Hope they don't Schedule him for Interviews or Eval while he's still in New Mexico until early July?!

And just now SimonMed the Lab called already, so that was Surprising, I knew they couldn't have results from my Two Tests Today this fast, just a few Hours later!!!   Now they have a request for another MRI, with and without Contrast!!!  That doesn't sound good, since, the Urgent Care did one and that was only a couple Weeks ago and I know they could get a copy of that coz I Signed the Release Form to.  So, not sure why now they Need/Want yet another one?!  Mebbe the Finding Needs more Detail?  Coz it's not like I'm having Treatments, the only thing that was prescribed was for the UTI and was just Antibiotics for 10 Days and now that has cleared up and I no longer have Pain or an Infection.  So mebbe they wanna see everything now that's Healed, I just don't know?  So, anyway, Scheduled the MRI for next Week coz they wanted to do it this Weekend, but I had Calendared and Confirmed a Job The Daughter is doing on that Day already, to take her to.   They got me in just a couple Days later, so, no Big Deal or delay.

I'm trying not to Read too much into all the Testing they're requiring, but, a part of you gets concerned, I ain't gonna Lie.  Nobody likes an anomalous finding that then needs more exploration and possible Diagnosis.   I've had False Positives before tho', for things that at first they thought were problems, and turned out not to be anything to be concerned about at all.  So, anyway, until results come in and are conclusive, I'm just not thinking about it too much so that I don't get anxious or concerned for no reason.  When I have something to worry about, is when I will bother to worry.   Above and Below is another Great Grandpup that belongs to The Young Prince's Little Sister, Pictured with him, it's his 3rd Birthday apparently.  *LOL*  She's our Youngest Grandchild and slightly Older than some of our Great-Grandchildren, tho' one Great-Grandson, at least, that Princess T's Older Sister has, is Older than her.

Angie, Bobby's Ex-Girlfriend, and the Mother of his Two Youngest Kids, who are The Young Prince's Younger Siblings, still keeps in touch with me.  Even tho' she doesn't really keep in touch with hardly anyone else.  She and I always got along fabulously and I knew eventually, their Union wouldn't hold up, coz, well, Bobby is Bobby, what can I say?  *LOL*  She and The Daughter even got along great, and now Bobby is both of their Exes, so, they have that in Common.  *Smiles*  I get along with Bobby just Fine and he's got a good relationship with his Son, which is the most Important thing.  He's always been a part of his Oldest Son's Life and been very good to Princess T over the Years too.  Always also buying her Gifts when he'd buy his Son anything, so she wouldn't feel left out.  Even tho' she's not his Child.   I always appreciated that, coz her Dad has never done anything for her.  So, Bobby's Family treated her more like one of their Family too, just due to her being The Young Prince's Sibling.  And I treat Bobby's Younger Kids like part of our Family too, coz they are, to us... being his Siblings too.  They're great Kids.  And Angie always appreciated us being Grandparents to them.

So, Angie sent me Pixs of the Adorable Great-Grandpup and his Human, whose our Youngest Adorable Granddaughter.   She has significant Autism, so this is her Emotional Support Animal.  She doesn't connect to too many people, but she always connected with The Man and I, also her Big Brother and Princess T, which was Huge, from what Angie and Bobby said.  She doesn't connect very often and the Autism was pretty significant on the Spectrum, she was Non-Verbal for a very long time.  Now she Talks.  Since Allen is also Autistic, she Loved Allen too, and he can relate to how she is, so he and The Young Prince were the only ones Angie would let Babysit, coz her Daughter wouldn't accept just anyone Caring for her.  The Young Prince and Allen liked Babysitting for the Kiddos, the Brother was easy, he'd play Video Games with his Brother and his Brother's Husband.  The only problem they had with her, when she was smaller, she'd get naked all the time.  So, keeping Clothes on her was a challenge coz she doesn't like how they Feel on her Skin.  Now she's overcome that, which is good, since, she's Older now.

With my Autistic Son when he was little, Clothing was a problem too, so I understand that challenge.  He didn't like Buttons touching him and would Cry, saying they Hurt.  Yet, he'd really hurt himself and that never 'Hurt' him, go figure!!!  Transitioning from Winter Clothing to Summer Clothing was HUGE and a lot of Tears as well.  He'd just get used to Short Pants and then he'd resist Long Pants.  Sometimes I'd just let him wear Shorts all Year long just not to have the High Drama that came with Change.  Autistic People don't handle Change well AT ALL!!!  He couldn't ever Tie Shoelaces but could hack into a Computer!  He could never open a Combination Locker at School with only Three Numbers, but could Calculate Complex equations like a Savant, that would take you longer to key into a Computer to get the Answer, he was quicker than the Computers!  That's just how Autism works. 

 He had a Photographic Memory and Total Recall... yet, would Forget to turn in the Homework he'd spent all Night doing!  If he sits in a particular Chair all the time, if someone else sits in it, then he melted down and was Lost on where to sit, even if every other Chair in the Room was empty.   His Routines are Sacred to him and he really unravels if you Change them or mess with them.  He has a Place for everything and everything in it's Place... if you move it even a smidgen, it will set him off!   Even if done as a Joke, it's not Funny to him.  I don't like anyone messing with my Stuff or moving it, so I do understand that part of it... pretty sure I'm on the Spectrum, undiagnosed too, so I do understand how a lot of Autistic folks Feel.  I just probably don't have a really bad case of it I think???   A lot of OCD, and I'm definitely Bipolar with Mixed Episodes and definitely have Adult ADHD, but Autism, mebbe only slightly?  *LOL*   With Mental Illness you hardly ever just have one fucking Issue/Diagnosis, it's usually a Cocktail of 'em!

So, Today it got to 116 and I watched my Temperature Gauge in my Truck go up in increments of Two Degrees for a while after 2:00 p.m.!  It just kept going up in rapid succession at one point, as you can see Above!!!   It finally capped out at 116, whew!!!   The Son had to Walk Home in it since I was still at my Appointments.  Luckily Princess T's Boyfriend Rusty picked her up since I couldn't due to my Appointments.  And Below some Political Meme Dark Humor, since... well... why not?!

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Let's Hope I just look Fine on the MRI's, Ultrasounds and CT Scans... Dawn... The Bohemian

The Walker Demolition Derby

 I'm up early coz I gotta get Kids to Work before 6:00 a.m. and 7:00 a.m. respectively, then drink 32 oz. of Water and NOT Pee, to be ready for my Ultrasound {Which I Pray is done 1st}, and then my Titty Squash Mammo {Which I Hope is done 2nd and after being then allowed to Pee, Smiles}.  Busy Morning, The Daughter will be here for her Dad and Nurse Remi's Visit.  The Master Bathroom Toilet is still plugged up from whatever The Man did to it, and can't be used, so I may have to either buy another Toilet Snake to unplug it myself, or Hire a damned Plumber to, dammit!  The Man got up early and was crashing around with his Walker, I swear he deliberately aggressively crashes into things with it to get my attention and be yelled at about it?!  *LOL and an Eye Roll*  He rams it into things rather than gently trying to maneuver it around furniture, doors, people, he's a menace with that damned thing!  I Promised him if he crashes into ME with it, I'm laying Hands on him!  *LOL and Winks*

I also Warn him, if you start breaking or damaging things with it, after already putting One Toilet out of commission in a Household with Seven People needing access to use a Bathroom, I'm wrapping that Walker around your Head, I swear to God!!!   He actually thinks I'd do it and it's not an idle hyperbolic Threat, so then he more calmly pushes it around and not so aggressively. *Smiles*  But, every single time he is like a Demolition Derby Driver with the damned thing!  And every single time we have that exchange when I've had enough of hearing him crashing into everything with it and mumbling swear Words under his Breath.  I know he doesn't like having to adjust to using his Medical Equipment and being careful becoz now he has to when you've got Walkers, Wheelchairs, Electric Scooters you have to use.  The Electric Scooter People are the WORST demographic ever, so I won't allow him to use one lest he commit a Vehicular Homicide with it!  Oh how I Love that Man! *LOL and Winks*

I've had Electric Scooter People get mean, aggressive, entitled, rude and dangerous with their Equipment and almost run me over, try or threaten to! Oh, Hell to the No, I will confront them about it just as aggressively as they're driving that damned thing and being a menace with it to Pedestrians!!!  Hit me with it and we'll definitely have us a Situation.  I will push your Ass right off of it and you best be able to then Walk coz I'll destroy that thing right in front of you in Real Time.  Then let the Police sort out whose getting Arrested, you for running me over and abusive use of a Motorized Vehicle, or me for protecting myself from you misusing your Scooter and ramming into or running over Pedestrians?  *Winks*  Even the most aggressive and confrontational Scooter user will usually then back that thing up and throw it into reverse when confronted with an Angry Crazy Pedestrian they just tried to foolishly run over or bully becoz they assume they have the right of way, No, us Pedestrians do when you're in a Vehicle and it's frowned upon to run them over!  *Winks*

The Man can't be trusted not to ram folks with his damned Walker, no way I'd put him in charge of a Motorized Vehicle of any kind with how aggressive the Dementia has now made him at times!  *LOL and Eye Roll*  He's pissy this Morning coz he knows I've got back to back Appointments and one of the Kids will be in Charge of him again.  Tho' The Daughter can Handle him better than her Brother, she's good with Finessing Old People, and especially Old Cranky Bastards who can be difficult and very unlovely.  She's dealt with Old Cartel Bosses she Cared for in Mexico and wasn't the least bit Intimidated, and she made them Behave, so no way her Dad is Intimidating her one iota.  *LOL and Winks*  She's a Trip and her Dad knows it, so I probably won't be getting any Phone Calls from Home about him Acting Up and not Behaving while I'm gone.  *Bwahahaha*  He just crashed around with his Walker 'til I gave him the Stink Eye and then he went back to Bed and fell fast Asleep to avoid me going Dark Dawn on his Ass.  So, the Walker Demolition Derby ceased and desisted.  *Snort*

On the way to Work Princess T looked up Drain Snakes for me to see how much they cost, coz I need to get to "Lowe's" anyway to buy a new Rake {next door took ours and swore they loaned it to us and they hadn't, I'd bought it}, and a new Garden Hose for the Front Yard too.  Even the "Lifetime" Garden Hoses in this Climate deteriorate in a Season. I'm not fussing about the Rake with the Neighbors, they have loaned us Tools before and Honestly seem to Believe the Rake was loaned coz they apparently had one just like it that they can't find now.  So, The Man told the Kiddos to Write our Name with Markers on the Handles of anything we do Yardwork with that's ours and keep it in the RV Garage Mahal rather than just beside it.  Where Rob or TJ often come over and then think, oh, we loaned that and need it back now... then we have this dilemma. 

 They're Old Men and The Man often thinks things are his that aren't now, so, we extend some Grace that our Old Guy Neighbors genuinely assume they left something over here they loaned and need back.   It's no Big Deal to me coz our Neighbors have often loaned me expensive equipment to borrow and use so I don't have to buy something I might only need a couple times.  They are very generous people and what's One Rake misidentified as theirs?   The Son, due to his Autism, is more like a Dog with a Bone about it and Fixating on the Rake Situation.  So his Sister has gone Twice now and taken the Rake Back, to shut her Brother up about it, only to have Rob or TJ come over and think she just borrowed it again, so... it's just easier to buy another one, mebbe in a different Color Handle?  *Ha ha ha*  I'm not getting worked up and doing a Hatfield-McCoy over a fucking Rake with Good Neighbors I Like and have been great at being Neighborly, Helpful and nothing but Kind.

The Daughter was teasing me about the plugged up Toilet, that there is a Solution for FREE... and saying I could get it Fixed... coz... you know... Allen is here hiding out in The Young Prince's Space now they lost the Hotel Room and wanna just be Friends With Benefits.  And... or... she could call Mando.   And we both started raucous Laughter, coz I knew she was busting my Chops with inappropriate Humor, coz we're both Sic like that.  *Bwahahahaha*  And I've had my Come To Jesus Meltdown Psycho Dark Dawn Moments with both Allen and Mando.   So they haven't dared to even be in my Presence after meeting Dark Dawn up close and personal just the One time.  They both are pretty sure now that I could be a full blown Psychopath when angered, and, they could be Right?!  And that suits me just fine coz they each foolishly stepped in my Waters and certainly weren't strong enuf Swimmers to venture into that Lane and not stay in theirs!!!   And they're both Crazy as Mad Hatters, so I wasn't having it, we're all stocked up on Crazy here.  *Winks and Laughs*

Anyway, there's a 4th thing I need at "Lowe's" and I forgot to put it on the List so now I don't recall what it was... dammit!  I really require Post-It Notes now to remember Shopping Lists even if it's just 3-4 things.  Mebbe I won't do so well on my 3 things to remember Old Person Eval next time, I dunno?  *Bwahahahaha*  Sometimes I'm trying so hard to recall the 3 things they told me to remember, that I can't then Focus on what else they have you do 'til you get back to it, ADHD be like that too, not just Old Age.  *Ha ha ha*   Let's just sit here quietly in Silence until you need me to recall, and then ask me, it will work better.  If you fucking distract me with more Questions or chit-chat, I sure as Hell then will completely erase what we talked about 5 Minutes ago and you told me to Remember!   And Honestly, do we REALLY NEED to remember what we Thought or Talked about even 5 Minutes ago?  That's Ancient History to me now, Tick-Tock... the Clock is running out on us Old People.  Keep it Moving.  We're Wasting whatever Future I might still have left?!   *Winks*

The Man never remembers his 3 Words, he'll Question whether you even gave him his 3 Words.   Or just blurt out 3 random Words that pop into his poor damaged Brain and swear they were his Words!   Then he'll get Cranky with you coz he's making things up now as he goes along and if you're not in that Realm of Alternate Reality with him, the Battle is now ON!  *LOL*  I choose my Battles wisely so as not to get him agitated for trifles and for nothing.  It's too much of a Torment to him, and too much Drama for me, and he's not making any Big Life Altering Decisions anymore.  So I just leave him be to Imagine whatever he wants and Needs to, in order to stay Calm and Happier, he deserves it.  Why disrupt his Calm about something that doesn't even really matter?   When I see he's really upset about Nothing now and he doesn't even know why he's upset, I'll ask him what might make him Feel Better?  Usually it's something Simple that will easily distract and Mood Regulate him to a better Space Emotionally.  Yesterday it was a Blizzard Shake from "Dairy Queen" at 9:00 p.m. and I got me one too.   Why not?  *Winks*

I think Allen's gone now and so my Petsitting gig for Tyson, the naughty this time Great-Grandpup, is Mercifully over.  Him getting out Twice scared me, Heaven Forbid if something had happened to him or we couldn't have Found him and it happened on my Watch!!!   I don't know why he was so undisciplined this time, he's usually a very obedient Dog, but, he's getting Old, so probably has Canine Memory Care Issues now, who knows?  He's Greying around his Muzzle and showing his Age when he Walks now, Bless him, Pit Bulls have a lot of Health Issues even when they're Younger.  His Pica seems better, he used to eat anything, so you have to do like with a Human Toddler and secure anything he might swallow.   His appetite was off this time I noticed, like Old People, his metabolism is clearly slowing down.  He used to eat a lot and now coaxing him to even eat his Treats sometimes was like trying to get The Man to eat something... some days being better than others.  He does like his Winnie The Pooh Dog Cookies tho'!   The Dog... not The Man. *Smiles*

I think this was a very good Visit for the Grandsons, and I'm glad about that, the more amicable their Relationship can be, the better.  I don't know how long before their Divorce will be finalized, but so long as Allen is putting Money in The Young Prince's Account and having Amazon Deliver Groceries for him, I don't Care so much.  We're waiting on The Grandson to be able to Hopefully Qualify for SSI Disability, we still have to help him fill out his mountain of Paperwork they sent him for it to get done by the 26th to be reviewed for Approval that he's Disabled Enough this time???  I don't know how much more Disabled you really hafta be, but with Budget Cuts to all Social Service Programs, any excuse to Deny Applicants is probably gonna only increase, and it was never good to begin with to get Approved even if you should have been Eligible and in dire Need just to Exist and Survive.  Frankly, they don't Care... how we're treating the most vulnerable of our Society is our actual Measure of "Greatness", when we cease to be GOOD, well, we've already then ceased to be GREAT.

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Keep hanging tough my Friends... chances are, we'll all Outlast him, he's not long for this Earth, that Devil of a Prez...Dawn... The Bohemian

Any Other Torture Is Optional And Not Mandatory

 

I guess the Blood Sport on the WH Lawn, akin to Gladiators suffering and harming each other to amuse a King, to Celebrate the Oldest Prez in History's Birthday Trashy Spectacle, pretending it was all about America's 250th Birthday, went off with so little fanfare they aren't even talking about it Today.  It was talked about more before it happened and I'm glad it's a wrap so I don't have to hear anymore about another embarrassing trashy spectacle he's done and spent a fortune on to amuse and aggrandize himself or just piss people off on purpose.  *Yawn, get over yourself Donnie, your schtick is getting predictably Old and Stale now, just like you* 

So, that was another big enormous waste of Money to have Rich folk amused at Taxpayers expense, while those same Americans funding it all suffer hardships economically daily now.  France needs to send us another Gift, this time of a Guillotine.  I'd appreciate a Marie Antoinette Moment at this point halfway thru his Term, so we don't suffer Two more Years of this Let Them Eat Cake nonsense.   Two more Years of this pillaging and grifting will surely Bankrupt America since we're being Sold Out and Sold Off like an E-Bay Auction, and rapidly.  He's done more expensive damage in 2.0 to the Nation, than any Administration in American History.  He's got a knack for Bankrupting things, even Casinos, that he does excel at.

The Grandsons have been gone all damned day and Tyson is beginning not to be Happy in his imprisoned Space, so he's doing mournful howls.  He can't escape it, it's comfortable, we've got Ceiling Fans on for him, more than 2/3 of it is completely Shaded, Food, Water, and he has access to the Pool Area, even tho' our Pool Guy did not!!!  We're gonna have to allow the Pool Guy to get in thru the House for our Weekly Pool Maintenance, since the Padlocks and Chains that The Young Prince put on the Gates of Tyson's imprisonment area only he has the damned Keys for.  I thought Allen would be leaving Today, or last Night, so I agreed to it only coz I didn't want the Dog escaping again, twice in a Day had been more than enough excitement for the Weekend.  I'm 'Over' Fur Babysitting... truly 'Over' it!  Once they begin misbehaving, it's time to Go.  *LOL*

I Napped a good part of the day and had to move all my Potted Herbs that had been on the Front Wall, under into the Shade of the Front Porch now.  Most of them were moved there some time ago anyway, now only the Rosemary is by the Mailbox on the Wall, it's hardy enuf.  Everything else was feeling the escalation of Temperatures, including Yours Truly, past 110 and now it's brutal, especially coupled with Monsoon Humidity now that the Monsoons have begun their Season.  It's supposed to be an incredibly fiercely Wet one so I really pray we don't have Flooding?  I never did get the Rain Gutters installed out Back on the Roof of the Porch becoz the Economy crashing and everything going way up in Price, plus the Fridge needing replacement, tapped me out of the Rain Guttering Savings intended for that Project.  Ah well... we'll Sandbag it again. 

And then... The Man clogged up our Master Bathroom Toilet!  And, so far, Hours in now, I've been unable to unclog it!  I don't know what he did?  With his Dementia you just never know anymore, it's like when your Two Year Old might have clogged a Toilet, you wonder, did they put something down there they shouldn't have?   Mebbe he used an insane amount of TP, I just don't know?  It keeps overfilling the Bowl with Water now, then drains out, but upon a flush it fills up to the brim again, but at least it's not Fecal Water.  That's a Plus, and probably rules out a big Turd that's stuck?  *LOL*  I have to see the Gallow's Humor in it coz when you got Seven People here right now, Six on an average Day, you really need more than One Functional Toilet! 

 I thought we had a Sewer Snake, we used to have one, now nobody can find it... dammit... or I'd Snake it myself.  Coz there's no Funds to call and pay for a Plumber!   Our AC Folks we have on Retainer for our AC, also do Plumbing, but I'm not sure our Contract with them covers our Plumbing, I may have to ask if I can't unclog it.  Tomorrow I have my Ultrasound on the Ovaries and my annual Titty Squash Mammo back to back, so I don't wanna Schedule anything else.  Nurse Remi also comes for The Man's regular VA Home Nurse Visit that same Morning.  One of the Kids will have to be here for that coz I doubt I'll be back in time.  I'm having my last Caffeinated Drink of the Day before those Appointments, I can't consume Caffeine after that.  No Deodorant either , so I shall smell wonderful when it's 110+.   And I have to consume a lot of Water that Morning and NOT Pee.  Any other Torture is Optional and not Mandatory.  *Bwahahaha*

I'm not expecting The Girls to display anything problematic, but, the Ovary, I just dunno whatssup with the Mass they saw on it during the Urgent Care MRI I had done?   Haven't had Cysts Post-Menopause coz I no longer Ovulate, so, I kinda ruled that out as a possibility, I'm no longer a Breeder and more than 3/4 of my Lady Plumbing was removed when I was in my Fifties.  *Winks*  I'm right now more concerned about the Arthritis, or whatever it is, in my Right Ankle and the Top of my Right Foot, it's become excruciatingly Painful on a daily basis now and nothing is alleviating that.   All those spendy MJ Products that Princess T and Rusty bought for me, haven't worked really for whatever it is, so I told them not to waste their Money on it again.  The Young Prince claims CBD doesn't absorb thru the Skin... I wouldn't know if it does or it doesn't?  It's one thing he didn't have correct when I Googled it, Yes, it can, but how it Travels depends on the Product.

I'm just Surprised that The Grandsons didn't know literally everything there is to know about MJ.  *Bwahahahaa*  Transdermal absorption made sense to me, but I wasn't finding much relief using all Three of the Products the Grandkiddo and her Boyfriend spent so much on, and they got me the Good Stuff.  I like Holistic alternatives and so was Game for at least giving it a go, since nothing else was working either, I'd Iced it, put Heat on it, taken Anti-Inflammatory Meds, Bandage Wrapped it, Massaged it, did Exercises and used Equipment at the Gym to alleviate Pain and increase Blood Flow to the Area... Nada... Nothing... all seemed a waste of Time and expense.  If it persists or gets worse I will want them to X-Ray the damned Foot and Ankle to make sure there's not a Fracture or something going on?  Old Women's Bones can do shit like that and you're walking around on Broken Bones, which will be painful and Heal all Wrong, if at all.

 And speaking of Bones...  Right now we're having a Monsoon Storm and it's pissing in Rain at 5:00 p.m. now.   I knew it was coming, my Bones hurt more right before a Rain, I FEEL Weather in my Bones, always have, even when I wasn't Old.  *LOL*   We had Irrigation from 11:30 p.m. last Night until 1:00 a.m. this Morning, so our Property is right saturated and won't absorb a lot more Water.   I'm glad I got the Grocery Run out of the way before the Storm hit tho'.   I did watch a Jurassic Park Movie on NetFlix that we'd gone to when it came out at the Theater last Year for The Son's Birthday... "Jurassic World Rebirth", it was worth watching again on TV... I'd enjoyed it on the Big Screen at the Theater tho'.  It had debuted July 2, 2025, The Son's 39th Birthday had been June 29th.  He turns 40 this June 29th, a Milestone Birthday.  He's having a bit of a Midlife Crisis I think with the turning of 40? 

It didn't help that all the Twenty-Something Young Women where he Works have been telling him he's still very Handsome and doesn't LOOK like someone Old enuf to be their Dad!  *Bwahahahaha*  He knows he IS Old enuf to be their Dad, but it doesn't quite come off like the sincere Compliment they mean it to be to him.  *LMAOROTF*  Plus, having Women the Age of his Niece telling him how Hot he still looks, isn't so much flattering as makes him feel a bit Creeped Out.  He likes much Older Women, as been his Track Record of Dating Beautiful, yet Older than they Look, Women.  *LOL & Winks*  It didn't used to flatter he and Ex-DIL Solina when they'd take the Three Girls in to Register them for High School and Administration would tell them both, oh, they Need to have a Parent Register them, not a Sibling!  *Bwahahahaha*  Then they'd have to prove, but we ARE the Parents!  Coz nobody would Believe them until they produced I.D.!!!  *Smiles*

I know that The G-Kid Force would get highly upset when I was Raising them and the Schools, or anyone else out in Public, would refer to me as their 'Mom'.   And they'd instantly and angrily correct them and say I wasn't their Mom, I was their 'Gramma'.   And then people wouldn't get the hint it was upsetting to them, and then say I didn't Look like their Gramma, I Looked like I could be their Mom, which I guess was meant to be complimentary.  But the G-Kid Force didn't LIKE it one bit, forego the Compliments, she's our GRAMMA!!!  *LOL*  And then when I Adopted them, well, now I WAS their Mom, Technically and Legally speaking.  *Ruh Roh and Laughs*   And it just sounded Creepy and Crazy to them, coz now their Mom was Technically and Legally now their Sister and their Uncle was now their Brother... and Grandpa was still Grandpa, coz he wasn't allowed to Adopt them due to his extent of Disability.  *Ha ha ha*   Well, at least they were 15 and 10 by then when the Adoption finalized, and got the Dark Gallow's Humor of it all.  *Smiles*

It used to be Funnier to them if we were in a Doctor's Office for any One or more of who I was Raising and the last Names were called out.  Coz, there were FIVE different Surnames in the Family, including my Married Surname and each of their Surnames.  Each Kiddo of the Four I've Raised has a different Surname and had a different Dad... and The Man didn't Father any of them, just the Oldest Daughter.   So, I'd pop up and respond to each Name called out and the confusion on the Faces of the Staff would indeed be fucking Priceless!!!  They'd look down at their Paperwork as if there had been a Mistake... isn't that the same Woman whose last Name we called out was ___________?!   And when I'd Sign for anything of coarse it was a different Surname Name again!  *Bwahahaha*  We are one of those New Nuclear Families... or whatever they call our Anomalous Blend.  *Winks*

And I already joked about the only way they got the Adoption pushed thru after Three Years of Courts and Adoption Boards, due to the complexity of our "Situation", was for The State to hire a Fancy very expensive Scottsdale Lawyer.   Who somehow found a loophole in the Law and the System, and pushed me thru as an Adoptive "Single Woman", which, I'm NOT... but... whatever.  *Shrugs*  And so their New Birth Certificates and all of the Legal Adoption Paperwork uses my freakin' Maiden Name, which I haven't had or used since 1985!!!   Tho' The Daughter has my Maiden Surname coz she was illegitimate. *LOL*  But The G-Kid Force kept their Birth Surnames... only The Young Prince opted to Change his First Name at Adoption, coz he could!!! 

Adoption Day

  Adoption Day Above, after 3 long YEARS of fighting hard to Keep them in our Care, due to changing Laws regarding Kinship Placement and Forced Adoptions if Reunification wasn't possible with Parents of Wards of The State Children.  And our wonderful Female Judge who finally Ordered me to get a small Monthly Stipend from the State, after 15 Years of Raising the Kiddos on our Dime exclusively as a Kinship Placement!!!  So, the Young Prince initially busted my Chops by saying he wanted it changed to Crimson Rose!!!!!  OMG, I almost had a fucking Heart Attack, sounded like a Tranny Stripper Name and he was only 15 at the time... and a Fabulously Gay Trans, Racially Mixed, Seriously Mentally Ill Child, who had already been kicked out of every School coz they couldn't handle a Schizophrenic Student, so also would be a High School Dropout, and already had enuf to overcome in Life! 

 Why, wails I... well, coz CPS {Idiot} Caseworker Miss Gretchen said I could!   I thought he was fucking Serious, about the Choice of Name he'd tell the Judge he wanted to change his Name to.  Not about Miss Gretchen not even consulting me about telling the Kids they could change their Names to anything they wanted... coz that was a Legal FACT, I felt she should have at least run by me first, as the only Responsible Adult in the Room!  Then, Mercifully he says... Psyche... you should have seen your Face Gramma!  *Yeah, he's a fucking Riot like that!  LOL*  I looked like a "Sanford & Son" Episode where Redd Foxx is clutching his Chest and saying, "This is the Big One Elizabeth!  I'm coming to join ya Honey!!!"  *Bwahahahahaha*

  So, wasn't that interesting when I'd have to produce those Legal Documents at School and none of it matched my current I.D. and Legal Name either, or The Young Prince's previous School Transcripts!!!  Explanations would abound, our Complex Story, Journey, and Family Dynamic was at least Novella Worthy.  *Winks and Laughs*  And I did Survive it all and get them fully Raised to Adulthood.  My only Prayer every Day would be: "Dear Lord God, Baby Jesus, Mother Mary and all the Saints, let me at least LAST 'til all these Kids is Grown!!! Amen!"  *Smiles, NOT Kidding, I actually Prayed that every Day until everyone was an Adult, and I managed NOT to Drop Dead prematurely! whew!*   Bless the Heart of Saint Maria, the Paternal Gramma in Mexico who had the Three Younger Siblings of The G-Kid Force to Raise and Needed to LAST, but at Age 90, was ALMOST there... but couldn't.  So those last Three hadda finish Raising themselves coz we couldn't get AMERICA to allow them into the Country!!!

Not that I wanted Three more Teenaged Girls to finish Raising that couldn't even Speak or Understand English.  And I'd never in Person even seen the Youngest Two and the Oldest One was only 18 Months Old last time I saw her and now she was 17.   But, I was willing to Take One For The Team and do it.  But when the American side just kept trying to extort copious amounts of Money out of us, an American Attorney Friend of ours told us not to risk it and be Victims of Extortion by our Immigration or Government.  The Mexican side was no problem, no Extortion even attempted, just process THAT about our illustrious Immigration System compared to Mexico's!  Mexico usually known for it's levels of Corruption more. 

 It was sure a fucking Surprise to Yours Truly about how much more corrupt our Immigration System and Government now already was... and worsening daily under this Leadership... as you all now well know.  Due to the Concentration Camps and ICE brutality, lack of Due Process and illegality going on in plain sight now shamelessly.  Separating Families, many of which ARE American Citizens or have an American Parent if not Born here.  Just sayin'...  But, it all worked out in The End, by God's abundant Grace and Mercies, the Oldest Grandchild of the Three in Mexico turned 18 and was Legally allowed by their System to then finish Raising her Younger Two Sisters until everyone was over 18... which, they're not yet, but close.  And they all have Good Boyfriends from Good Families who help them out, gave them all Jobs and an Income so they could Survive without expecting Charity to sustain them. 

 The Oldest Won a full College Scholarship AND works Two Jobs, a Retail Job and Models.  The Middle One, who is the Prodigal, is also working Two Jobs tho' she had to drop out of School coz they could only afford the Tuition for her Younger Sister.  The Middle One has severe Learning Disabilities like Princess T did, so felt it a waste of precious resources to try to finish School, and is running her Boyfriend's Mom's Bodega AND Modeling too.  The Youngest is still in High School, but her Boyfriend got them a Home to both live in and she Works after School at a paying Job.  Those Kids are Hustlers and Survivors, they will be Okay.  But, I always was very concerned about their Safety, Three Beautiful half American underaged Girls all alone in another Country that has a lot of risks, so far from our Family to be able to be a Present Help.  But, The Daughter has made her influential 'Friends' there who look out for them.  You Need Friends in High Places in this Crazy Mixed Up World!!!   Below is my Mom's Immigration Green Card Photo she carried around to prove Legal Immigration, until they made them Pink Cards.

I remember Mom always being Worried about being Deported for any stupid reason or minor infraction, and I never understood Why.  Now I fully understand Why.  It took my Parents over Two Years of being Engaged before they were even Married, becoz my Dad wanted to Secure that he could bring her Home to his Country as a Legal Immigrant and not have to leave her behind.  Where, Believe it or not, most Tribal Indigenous People weren't even considered fully American Citizens yet in the early 1950's!!!   The Indian Citizens Acts was enacted in 1924, but the Reality of their Rights was heavily restricted in the 1950's.  Dad's Commanding Officer was Aware of that Fact and was trying to convince my Mom it would be risky to Marry an Indigenous American becoz their Status in the United States wasn't even all that secured until after 1952!!!   Yeah, they don't Teach that in the History Books either and Whitewash a lot of Bad History and unpleasant History that is 'uncomfortable' to Speak Truth to Power about and "Own".  But I will and do, often... coz like all Human Rights violations and atrocities against any Human Beings, for any Reason, it NEEDS not be Forgotten or handily 'erased'.

I have a lot of Photos of my Mom, not many of my Dad, he was Superstitious about having his Photo Taken... so didn't agree to do it very often.  Tho' he did it more often than his Parents Generation, who were way more Superstitious about Photography.  My Native American Grandmother only allowed me to Photograph her Once... during a visit from Oklahoma to Arizona, my Dad's Older Brother brought her.  She rarely left the Reservation so it was a Big Deal.  She obliged for ONE Photo of herself, me and my Uncle, which, I have Shared here on the Ole' Blog Before.  She does NOT look Happy to be Photographed, not at all!  *Smiles*  My Paternal Uncles and Aunts had very few Photos... and honestly, even on my Mom's side of the Family, there were few.  My Welsh Gran-Gran was pretty Superstitious too, so I don't know how many Photos of him existed at all?   I'm glad that my Mom, tho' a very Superstitious Person as well, didn't have any Qualms about being Photographed.  So I Cherish the abundance of Photos I have of her, and of coarse my Younger Brother became a Professional Photographer in Hollywood. 

And you all know what a Pathological Picture taker I am!!!  *Winks*  So, I've broken the Family Curse of being Superstitious about being Photographed and perhaps why I do it in excess actually?  I remember envying my Friends whose Families freely had their Photos taken, often Together for Professional Family Portrait Photography.  I think only perhaps One Photo exists of an Old borrowed Brownie Camera pix of my Family together that some Friends of ours in Michigan insisted upon taking and gave to us.   Thank you 'Aunt' Betty for convincing them to pose for that shot, it was a Big Deal.    Us Kids were really close with their Family's Five Kids, especially their Three Sons, their Two Daughters were a lot Older than their Brothers and my Brother and I, and we were therefore Younger Nuisances who'd Spy on them with their Boyfriends.  *LOL and Winks*

 Betty was our American Neighbor across the Street in Base Housing at K.I. Sawyer AFB in Michigan.  My Mom's first "American" Female and White Friend, since most of our Friends in those days and up until that time, were other Interracial International Union Military Families.  And you were kinda Outcast from Civilian Society and even a lot of White Families in the Military.  But my 'Aunt' Betty and 'Uncle' Leon, tho' White, were different and didn't have the Era Biases of that time.  They were Lifelong Friends of my Parents until the Day they all Crossed Over from Time into Eternity.  Above is 'Uncle' Leon, I never had a Photo of his Wife Betty, she Passed long before he did.  But for the rest of his Life he'd come visit my Mom here in Arizona, as did their Oldest Son Gary, and make sure she was doing okay after our Dad Died. 

 I think Leon lived to be over 90, I remember he smoked a Pipe and had the most fragrant of Tobaccos he'd smoke in it.  I abhor Smoking of Cigarettes and Cigars, but some Pipe Tobaccos smell really fragrant and Leon's Pipes were like a fascinating  Collection from around the World and he looked so Important smoking one.  *Smiles*   Their Family were from South Dakota and Retired there after the Military.  So they'd always tell our Dad they had known many other Native American People where they were from... mostly Sioux {Nakota}, Lakota and Dakota Tribal Members.  They had no Racial bias against Indians like a lot of folks did...  and often still do in America.  My Mom said the bias against our Dad's People was as strong as against the Gypsies, and perhaps how my Parents bonded, with the shared Persecution and Prejudices both of their People had endured...

 

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Dwi'n dy hiraethu di, Mam... Love Dawn