Sorry... it's a Two-Fer and I caved at Scheduling it for Tomorrow instead! Because... well... I'm Bored as Hell and never got out of my Jammies all Day Today. I Feel quite a bit like the Meme below actually, I'm rather a Hot Mess! T.J. also cancelled on taking The Man on that Guy's Day Out, he'd so been looking forward to it, so I Hate when that happens. He'd been talking about it for Days and I do Hope that the re-scheduling works out or he'll be really bummed. So, I'm trying to think of what to do that might cheer him up and not make the day a total bust for him now? But... I got Nothing... and so a total bust it is!
Of coarse Yesterday we had a full Family Day Out together, but I understand that the Guy's Day Out for him is as important as the Girl's Day Out for Princess T and I. T.J. has all the Recreational Vehicles that The Man used to have and so Sharing that with The Man is something I can't do, we got rid of all that after his Catastrophic Accident since he couldn't use it himself anymore. There were numerous tough decisions that had to be made Post-Accident, for him and for the rest of us, it was all quite overwhelming and we muddled thru it as best we could at the time. I can't say I was 100% on making the Wisest decisions, but I tried.
The cost of Recreational Vehicles and Maintaining them being prohibitive, I unloaded it all when he wasn't going to get Well enough to ever Drive anything again. It was just a Painful reminder of what he could no longer do and had lost when he got so badly permanently injured. T.J. doesn't keep most of his Recreational Vehicles, he buys those that need work, fixes them up, and re-sells them. So, he tries them all out before he puts them up for Sale again and often invites The Man to do the Test Runs with him, which they both enjoy tremendously. They're both like Big Kids with those Man Toys, I think most Men are when it comes to their Recreational Vehicles. *LOL*
I'm pretty sure T.J. will take him, he's just had some personal issues pop up that required him to attend to first... Life happens. He did tell The Man that Anna is probably coming back, glad to hear that, she probably just needed a break from RV Living. The Pandemic has been rough on them, like it has for so many others that lost employment and housing during it. Plus, I'm sure that Maine was a lot Cooler and more Liberating than living in an RV in someone's Driveway in the Heat of a Record Breaking Arizona Summer. T.J. has had so much going on with his ailing Elderly Parents too, who live next door to us, they're both in their 80's now and Independent Living for them may not be possible too much longer.
They have a bigger Home on their Acreage than we do and lots more to Maintain, so T.J. and his Older Brother Rob, who lives with the Parents, have a lot to do and to sort out as this progresses with the Parents. Been there, done that, don't envy them that task and those difficult decisions that I'm almost certain their Parents are strongly resisting. The Dad particularly is a Proud Old Farmer who has been very hands-on up thru his 80's and the strong Patriarch of the Family. When you see your once strong Dad deteriorating rapidly and becoming a Vulnerable Adult, that is never easy and can create tensions during their decline that previously didn't exist.
Their Mom is one of those strong and vibrant Independent Women clear into her 80's, who cooks everything from scratch, active in her Church Ladies Groups, and was also the strong Matriarch of the Family. Their Parents are adorable and the Guys are fortunate both Parents stayed so fiercely Independent and Able up thru their 80's. But now they're taking lots of Falls, having serious Health complications and lengthy Hospitalizations and Rehabilitation. Both did manage to be able to come back Home, but if Rob and T.J. were not so present and available, Rob in the Home and T.J. right next door living in the RV in our Driveway, I doubt either Parent would still be able to be living from Home. T.J. is declining Job Offers in other States due to his Parents needing him here.
The fact is, both Rob and T.J. are no longer Spring Chickens either, tho' both are very strong and active still, they've got their own Age related stuff setting in, as it just happens when you Age. Anna is much Younger than T.J., so I think at her Season of Life it's all rather scary and perhaps even terrifying for her to be confronted with all of this strain? I know just Witnessing what their Family is now going thru brings The Man and I to the realization that our Kids probably fear all the same stuff eventually happening to us here? As it is, Dad/Grandpa requires the full time Caregiving and has his obvious limitations they would have to inherit if God Forbid, something happens to me first.
When The Son invited me to the recent Luncheon, he did bring up some stuff that obviously he's concerned about, especially with his Dad and the Kidney Failure situation. Yes, we've been thru a lot of Stuff with his Dad's Health and Disabilities over the Years, so we're not New... but, it's never easy when it's just one more thing. And, now I'm not 100% anymore and all the Adult Kids and Adult Grandkids know this, I keep things 100% and transparent for them, no facades, tho' most days they think I'm doing just Fine, sometimes I'm not and it's a bit of an illusion that I appear to be. Anyway, Growing Old usually beats the alternative, Right? Unlike a Fine Wine, I don't know I've improved with Aging tho'! Whaddya gonna do? *LOL*
Lately I've been browsing Old Photo Archives of Events that Used To Be and Are No More, being all Teary Eyed Nostalgic about it and Grieving what has been Lost. We've just Lost so many great Venues and Places over the past few Years, even before Pandemic struck and put a Death Knell on so many others. Most of these Images in this Post are from several Years ago at Events and Shows I used to attend Religiously and still would if they were still in existence, but, they're not. I see how much Inventory used to be on the Market then that is not now. Now you really have to Hunt for authentic stuff since the vast majority of what's being offered up anymore is Mass Produced or just New and readily available damned near anywhere, since everyone is doing it.
I don't embrace those Changes as well as I probably just should and Move On. I Miss too much of what Once Was you see, and long for those times to return, which they won't, I'm fairly certain of that now. And hey, Listen, mebbe now they wouldn't even make it or be struggling to? Times have changed, people have changed, Trends have changed, it's all ever Evolving and in a constant state of flux and renewal, especially in the Retail settings. Shops and Shows have had to keep Pace with the times, such that they just are now, I Get It, I just don't Like it very much, that's all. Are all Old people kinda that way I wonder, struggling to keep Pace? *Ha ha ha* I would like some shit to just remain the same and constant... SOME... Okay?! Is that too much to ask? *LOL*
You don't even have to answer that, apparently it is too much to ask or some things would be the same and not ALL of it have to change all of the freakin' time and at a breakneck Pace! I dunno, when I was Growing Up, it seemed to me that tho' there were Changes going on, they went at a slower Pace of Evolution, so, mostly you could keep Pace, have sufficient Time to adjust, embrace it all more easily because you got to take a Breath, you know? On the Inside I don't Feel any different than I ever did in my Youth actually, but I realize I do come from a different Generation than is running the Show right now and they want what they want and they want it quickly and differently to the point of stimulus overload!
I mean Seriously, the Condition now seems to be the current Environment presents too many Stimuli to be comfortably Processed by any Individual. I think this causes considerable stress and behaviors designed to restore your equilibrium and get some Balance. The Sensory overload can be a bit much at times, when everything has Changed and will Change again before you get your Balance back. Or have a firm grasp or footing on what Just Was and will be irrelevant in a Minute, as the Next New Best Thing is rolled out and forced upon us to embrace, replace and dispose of everything else or shut it down. I can do it, under protest tho', I don't Like it, I don't even Pretend to Like it most of the time and I can become part of the Resistance.
No, I do not want to replace my perfectly functional, yet now obsolete, Smart Phone with the ridiculously expensive one that does everything but wipe my Ass. The one that will break more easily and be obsolete too in a few Months anyway, before I even learn how to work it, if I ever do!? So we'll be repeating this vicious Cycle of Tech Advancement and buying into the Disposable Society Mentality constantly, until we're financially broke and broken down too into Addictive Consumer Junkies, craving the next Fix, Jonesin' for what's Next before we've even had Time to enjoy what's just been replaced. It's all Addictive by Design and I don't wanna be an Addict involuntarily... bad enough when you're one voluntarily! And then we Wonder why folks are such Fiends... well... Hell... in this Environment could they even Be anything else??!!!
Just Tired and unlike a Fine Wine, being Served Up and Celebrated... I just sometimes Feel we're considered disposable too, all of us...
Dawn... The Bohemian