Wednesday, July 1, 2020

Rising Above The Fray



Yes I'm Future Posting into July now, will it make November come any faster, perhaps this is all subliminal?  *Le Sigh*  Just Twitler having Peaceful Protesters of a Righteous Cause harmed, so he can have a hypocrisy Photo Op done to rile up a certain Base he Orchestrated it for, of him in front of a Church holding up a Bible, was just too much for me!  Of coarse, everything he says and does, that is a new Low, is just too much for me!  I've never seen anyone so adept at reaching new Lows, so I fully Believe his Source isn't God, but Satan himself!  Enough of that tho', I just can't go there Today and give it any Life or Space, it's too exhausting and grotesque a Spectacle, the whole World watches in Horror and disgust!




On a Positive Note, since I MUST connect to my Source and maintain my Faith, Hope, Positive Energy and Love thru this all, I'm determined to rise above the fray for this Post.  Yes, that's no easy task, is it?   Princess T conveyed it best Yesterday while she got super Emotional and Silently wept, while watching her Social Media.  Since all her Young People were focusing on the injustices and Posting, making Videos, of how they must BE The Change... God Bless them, they will inherit this mess the World is in!  If anyone can Change anything for the better, these Young People, willing to risk their very Lives during a Plague, to Protest and Rise Up, will be the ones to FINALLY do it!  My Generation failed, but some of us at least tried to BE The Change.




I don't know how many Generations it's going to take, people aren't Born to Hate, it's a Learned response often passed down from Adults to their Offspring.  It's not as if the Hate Mongers aren't Breeding and repeating toxic Cycles.  But I have met some Offspring, that grew up and formed their own Opinions about Right and Wrong, despite upbringing filled with Hatred and Racism or various other Prejudices, Evil Teachings and Bias.   Yes, it often estranges... but sometimes you have to intentionally separate from Toxicity lest it threaten to infect you and infest your environment.   Those types of infestations are difficult to control or eradicate, they are a Plague unto themselves.  Rise above the fray, we can be better than all that, any of us, hopefully ALL of us one day!?




A Dream deferred... it is so much all about that.  Lately I've been Hopeful of having more Positive and Peaceful Dreams and less of the Nightmares that both the Pandemic and then the Civil Unrest has triggered.  Well, that's when I can Sleep at all or Calm my range of Emotions and Outrage at how badly things are unraveling in my Beloved Country now.  I know when I bought our Forever Home in late January and moved into it in early February I was so Jazzed for New Beginnings.  Well, Pandemic had already hit by then but not everywhere yet and the full impact of it hadn't arrived and so there was a very brief interlude of full enjoyment of our new Location and all it had to offer.  Stuff that had been sadly lacking in Subdivision Hell and I'd waited almost Five long Years to Escape from!




So then, here we were, with everything at our fingertips again, which was Blissful... and then, BAM, Society as we knew it slammed shut and was virtually a thing of the Past.  Things from there continued to worsen, to unravel, until now here we are... and Lord knows where it will take us as a Country?  So, each Day that I get up and have the Safety of a Forever Home we Love at least, I count my Blessings, while also having major concerns for the Future of us all.  Difficult mix to sort thru Emotionally, isn't it?  Economic collapse is something I feel is eminent, but I don't know to what degree, I don't Believe anyone does, not even the expert Economists.  What level of desperation and despair that might ignite is anyone's Guess, but it's likely not to be good.  Things already are NOT good for the most vulnerable, affected, infected and marginalized.




Isolation is Safest of coarse but it's not really sustainable.  And I don't know that I'd want to live that way, I happen to really like most people.  It's only a scant few that I strongly dislike when they've become or are so unlovely, that tolerance is even difficult.   And I reserve my strongest Negative Emotions for those who are absolute vile Human Beings, which lately, seem to be teeming out of the woodwork and into the bulk of Society, the Cockroach People as I've Labeled them.  I guess they were always there, many in disguise of being Normal Human Beings and not abhorrent Beings, that are exhibiting very few qualities of Humanity whatsoever.  To varying degrees they exist tho', no getting around that now, their Spectacle is on Display now for all to Witness and decide what to do with?!




I don't know there's a lot of Positive ways to Deal with Negative people effectively, but I guess we have no choice but to try to co-exist somehow with them in our midst.  A tenuous attempt at Harmony, if that is even possible now? There almost seems to be Two Countries now as the divide widens under absence of Leadership that intends to be divisive and create 'sides'.  I used to call it Poor Leadership, but we're actually without Leadership at all and have been for some time now and it shows... OMG does it show!  I've seen a lot of things, endured a lot of things... this is the worst by far and with no intention of exaggerating that Statement, it's a FACT... a Truth!  An Ugly Truth that seems to get Uglier Daily and counteracting that with what I can dredge up that is Beautiful, Loving, Kind, Unifying, has Positive Energy and Higher Vibrations is really a lot of Work and more High Maintenance than I can Sustain for long periods of Time!  But I'll try... that's all I can do from my End...




The Son called to say he already risked his Sobriety, the Pressure of everything has been too much and The System is flawed to where he couldn't obtain the Psyche Meds the Rehab Center put him on.  So, he's off the Psyche Meds and thus self-medicated once and now he's panicked about slipsliding away again on that downward spiral.  His Caseworker had said they could try to get him into a longer 30-Day Program if the 7-Day one Failed... so he's Open to that if they can find him a Bed/Space in one.  So I'm waiting for The Call that would indicate he's got Placement and I can take him there, since he lives where there is zero Transport available.   Ironic how way out in the middle of nowhere, Temptations will still seek you out and find you when you're most vulnerable!  Of coarse I want my Beloved Son back, I know it's his Battle to Fight and Win.




Of coarse I Worry about the Younger Siblings of The G-Kid Force in Mexico being Raised by their 90-Year Old Paternal Grandmother during a Plague!   What can I even say about the potential implications of that which are so glaringly obvious and absolutely terrifying?  Would I, Could I, Should I... well... wouldn't even be the Questions to answer, they are a part of me.  Losing one Great-Grandchild to COVID is already too much... I couldn't bear any risk to take of losing any other Precious ones or them having no Safe Place to Be.   One of the Younger Sisters of The G-Kid Force, above, has considerable Respiratory Issues since Birth, so I'm concerned her risks are perhaps higher than many Children.  So many Worries swirl thru my Brain all of the time now... I cannot reconcile them all or compartmentalize most of them adequately enough.




I often now don't feel as Kick Ass I I used to be, as I want to be, as I NEED to be during these times when Kicking Ass is probably a Strength and Asset required, more than ever before.   Some Days I do feel Being Older, tho' my Spirit doesn't, the Mirror reflects otherwise.  I Nap too much, I do so much Less than I want or Need to do, I feel very Tired and Worn Out sometimes.  Other times I am Outraged enough to DO something, anything that might possibly make some small difference in a Positive way.  I do Need to pass the Baton of Resistance to someone Younger and Stronger, more able to take it further now.  I am aware of the risks being part of any Righteous Resistance and Activism creates tho', no delusions there.  Sometimes you're Labeled too Radical if you are Passionate about any Cause, no matter how Worthy and Righteous it is.




I think Governments in general are more inclined to Promote a compliant, unquestioning, Herd Mentality that is just easily led and manipulated effectively... even if that is led astray or led to the slaughter when exploitation of the Herd is no longer Useful.  I am a deeply Spiritual Person and I find it more than Interesting that Jesus referred to us as Sheep and Himself as The Good Shepherd.  My Observation about people is that we are very much like Sheep and require Good Leadership, Good Shepherding so as not to easily be picked off by Predators.  We are a Flock that needs proper direction and Care that is appropriate.  I don't Care if you Share my particular Faith and Spirituality or not, I Believe we are Equals and I don't Feel Superior or Inferior to any one of you... we are all Human Beings, period.




  But I am certainly Triggered to Rage when Twitler harms Innocent Hurting People, in order to have his Photo Op of Propaganda standing in front of a Church and holding up a Bible!  My Sacred Book, which he defiles by even holding it while doing what he does... it's all Too Very Much!  And it must be Stopped in it's tracks, the sooner the better since each Day, Hour or Minute we tarry, is one step closer to destruction and further unraveling of our Beloved Country.  Perhaps even the upward trajectory of Loss of Precious Life to levels that will be more shocking than they already are.   I will continue to Fight to Rise above The Fray and to have a Loud Voice, regardless of who it offends the delicate Sensitivities of.  Since, I'm really Fed Up with the Karens in this World too... and for those whose Urban Dictionary is lacking: Karen, is a mocking slang term for an entitled, irritable middle-aged white woman.




The Fires that Rage just aren't in burning Buildings... but within so many of us who have been Ignited!





Above: Mother Hearth {my Name for it}... Creation by the Amazing Sunray Kelley.

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Coming to you Hopefully well above The Fray Today... but mebbe not... Dawn... The Bohemian

14 comments:

  1. I admire your attempt to stay above the fray. Not easy, is it, when so much ugliness is going on. Virtual, germ free hugs coming your way.

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    1. I needed a germ free Virtual Hug Today, Thanks!

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  2. OMG! I fell off my bed...My real name is Karen! I AM A KAREN! lol! lol! lol! I'm sorry...Your words were so heartfelt and truthful. I was with you as I read each word, but then I got to the "sheep" and I'm not ewe. I've never been a ewe. I get what you were saying about the whole herd thing, but whenever I get thrown into a herd, my natural instinct is to take charge immediately. I've done it since I was a kid. My mother always tells people that she stopped trying to tell me what to do when I was about 11 and that I've always marched to the beat of a different drummer. Somehow I think that drummer is a whole orchestra at times...it's a pretty powerful force when it calls me. I get the feeling that you aren't a ewe either! :)

    Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I hear you...I see you and that I feel you. You need to get through this madness anyway you can. If writing, is the glue that keeps it all together for you then please stay right here and be the glue. I think writing for many of us is a therapeutic outlet and a way to stay positive even if at times we write about negative topics. It's all about venting and ridding ourselves of toxins and lies and garbage. What better place to do it, but right here?

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    1. OMG, you're a Karen in a difference sense/definition, not slang terminology I'm sure... and now a Ewe either, nor am I Truth be told. I don't know if Women who have the Balls to be set apart from any Herd could be Ewes? *winks* I just think most people do act like Sheep, cute Creatures but sadly, not as intelligent as the Predators that would make short Work of them. It was a musing of Scriptural reference I guess that I found Interesting. I do think Writing helps, I Love to do it anyway, even when times are great.

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  3. Keep up and keep on keepin' on, sweetpea! You're doing what you need to be doing right now. xoxo

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    1. Well, Today the Doing of Nothing was my main task. *winks* Except for the Blog Post and cooking for the Family, I never even got dressed in Real Clothes!

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  4. The young ones are going to have to do a lot of cleaning up as they are going to inherit a big mess. I am seeing that they are ready to take on that responsibility. I just hope it isn't too late. Best of luck to your son and his fight to get healthy.

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    1. Thank You, I am encouraging The Son to do just that. And Yes, sadly the Young People will inherit probably the largest mess from a cluster fuck of previous Generations ever. No wonder so many are resentful of the Generations before them screwing things up. I am always saddened when a Young Person tells me they like me because I don't act like or think like most of the Seniors they know... it makes me sad they seem to know so many that are difficult for them to like or respect. A sad testimony of my Generation if I do say so myself, given what we'll be leaving them as a Legacy and to clean up behind us that muddies their Future and that of subsequent Generations they will Hope for a better Future for.

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  5. You refer to the USA as a country and of course you're entitled. In my fleeting (six years) stay I saw it as more of a continent or perhaps as a sub-continent (Like India) though that prefix "sub-" would hardly go down well with many residents.

    In my mind's eye two US residents swap homes and stay put for a while. One comes from Jackson Hole, Wyoming, a place I never visited but would have liked to, having read about it quite a bit. The other comes from Statesboro, Georgia, which I have visited.

    If both shed certain prejudices would they imagine they were living in the same country? Weather would be the first gross comparison. Poor guy from Ga. slips down to the liquor store in his Go Gators! tee-shirt and dies of hypothermia after one block. The Wyoming guy starts buying A/C units in bulk, even for the garage and the john. True they both speak English (of a sort) but oh the difference in the sounds they make: one high nasal, the other kinda blurred. Politics? Food? Expectations? Only in their attitude towards the Federal Government would they find common ground.

    Just a thought. From an interfering Limey who doesn't know his ass from first base (but who has wanted to use that phrase since the Later Nixon-ocene Age.).

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    1. Roderick you are correct in that all 50 States actually have a distinct Culture of their area, including but not limited to dialect, cuisine, ways of Life. I found that to be True in so many Countries tho'. Even in England and Wales the dialects differed drastically and often even the sub-culture from location to location. I know my Mom being Welsh, Wales really is Culturally divided between the North and South distinctly in so many ways. I think a sense of National Unity is important tho' to bind Purpose and keep a Democracy functioning best and right now we don't have that at all!

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  6. Well, I certainly can't follow the last commenter, but I had to peruse his blog and join. In this isolationism we are inflicted with (and living with a half-deaf husband whom has never been a conversationalist...I sometimes covet words strung together in some sort of acerbic and meaningful order. Hugs, to you Dawn...and we carry on. Hope all goes well, in the desert. Sandi

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    1. Roderick is indeed Masterful with Words and Why I Love his perspective and his Blog. The Man is not a conversationalist either so I'm sure he's glad I Blog to have the deep discussions. *LOL* We will carry on my Friend and I remain Guardedly Optimistic that at least some of us will get thru this with a semblance of our Sanity intact. *Winks*

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  7. I really hope your son is able to sort out his problems and get healthy again. My younger daughter has BBD so I can relate.

    I know only God can judge us, but Trumps views on Christianity have nothing to do with the Bible I know and read.

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    1. I doubt that Twitler has ever opened a Bible and he's Baiting the Evangelicals, which anyone of any depth of Spirituality, regardless of their Religious affiliation, should be able to see right thru a fake like him. He's so vile that a person really have to have some deep Issues of their own to align with him and his way of Being. I do Hope that The Son can find his way thru his Addiction and not self-medicate, he actually felt good back on the Psyche Meds so I Hope his Caseworker can sort out why he has been unable to get the prescription filled that his Specialists want him on. Of coarse, our Health Care System in America is very convoluted and marginalizes the most vulnerable in every way imaginable as far as appropriate Care.

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