Friday, September 14, 2018

Random Acts Of Beauty



With having so many Family Medical Crisis hit all at once I just haven't felt like Blogging.  I've wanted to keep most of my Posts upbeat and having Positive Topics... random acts of Beauty are so much easier to cover than any Issues of Life.  I've actually been managing the Stress quite well, perhaps because I have a Meditation Room now to retreat to and restore my Soul, I dunno?  Perhaps because there was some Positive News and outcome to it all, so wasn't the worse case scenarios after all... Whew!




I do know that Beautiful Things and Beautiful Surroundings are like a Balm to my Soul so I intentionally expose myself to them whenever I can.   For a while I was rather fixated upon culling possessions and downsizing like a Mad Woman because it seemed to be what I should do at this Season of Life.   Now I'm not so obsessed about purging stuff... I rather like most of the stuff I have left even if it is still a lot!  I'm rather a person of extremes and perhaps it doesn't bother me so much to have Maximalist tendencies after all?  *LOL*




I have decided to just Keep our Big Home and not try to squeeze everything into a more Modest Space for now.  In fact, just contemplating that... and another epic Move... was rather Stressful to me and I just didn't Need unnecessary Stressors like that!  I almost did it, Thankfully both Properties I was considering went under Contract just in the nick of time and I took that as a Sign to just stay put!   I decided to personalize this Home rather than holding back on putting my Quirky Stamp on the place just to make it perhaps more Appealing to the masses if I put it up for Sale.




I think that too has made a difference, I no longer Feel as though I'm a temporary Resident in a Lovely turnkey Home that somebody else chose everything about and was devoid of my Essence in the chosen palette and vibe.  The previous Owner did have impeccable Taste and I Love what she did with the place, the Warm Tuscan Palette is soothing and Beautiful, the Sepia Tones are Ideal for this Architectural Style so I totally dig it.  But I did NEED some of my Jewel Tones... my Black and Blood Red Walls... well... Kabuki Red according to the Paint Card Sample Naming of the Hue.  *Winks*




I also NEEDED to finally totally unpack... I think I had hesitated to unpack everything lest I might Need to pack it all up again, I dunno?  I'd kept a detachment to this place and it wasn't Settling for me to Feel that way about it.  I had to get the place in Order too and have more Organization so that I wasn't so overwhelmed by any Chaos languishing about in various Rooms, where it had sat seemingly indefinitely.   I couldn't recall if we'd been here four years or five yet... isn't that funny since I could tell you exact dates of moving into our Old Homestead and exactly how long it had been Home!




The Grandkids felt the same, finally we established that we'd moved here in the Summer of 2015, so this will be our 4th set of Holidays here this Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years!   Sometimes it seems so much longer, sometimes it seems Time is dragging because we aren't in the City anymore where everything happens so Time warped by and there was so much to always do!   I do find that being Rural it has a way of bending Time so that each day kinda blends into another and I just lose track of Time and it almost gives it the illusion of stopping and standing still!   I'm just still not used to that!




The Man actually prefers that leisurely pace to his days, where you hardly even know which day it is or what time it is and everything is quiet and serene almost all of the time in the environment.   The Man is not ADHD like the rest of us, where being Still and standing Still is almost torturous... and Boredom is like being in Pergatory... so restlessness is therefore your constant state of Being when there is little, to no, stimulation or activity!   When any of the three of us starts pacing around like Caged Animals he suggests we head into the City for a Respite and he just enjoy his solitude!  *LOL*




Sometimes it is Nice to come Home to... when I Need a Nap... because I can fall asleep around here standing up, Honestly, some days I can hardly even stay awake!   So for those with Racing Minds, having your Mind stand Still is something that we're so NOT used to that it puts us to Sleep immediately, it's like being unplugged or drugged!  *LMAO*   I'm not kidding, it's barely 6:00 p.m. and my Eyelids are already droopy and I'm fighting Sleep which is Crazy!  I was wide Awake when we were in the City earlier Today, as soon as we got Home I could have immediately gone to Sleep and have to fight not falling Asleep no matter what time of the day it is! 




Now, if you totally dig Sleeping your days away I guess that would be Bliss... but I find if I Sleep too much absolutely nothing ever gets done!   Yeah, my Bed feels Sublime once I lay down, but before I know it I've slept five hours in the middle of the freakin' day and gotten up just in time to go back to Bed for the Evening!   Luckily The Man and The Kiddos now can all fix their own Meals because I sometimes have slept right thru every Mealtime and didn't know if anyone ate or not?!   With The Man and The Young Prince being Grown Men they don't Care... and with Princess T soon becoming a Teen she keeps Weirdo eating habits anyway, so it hardly matters.




But my Maternal Instincts and the Caregiver in me feels that twang of Guilt all the same even if they act nonchalant about it... because I'm chalant as fuck about forgetting to feed my Family!  *Gasp!*   The other day when I apologized to The Force for Sleeping thru yet another Mealtime they reminded me it was Okay, they're not Five anymore!  *Whew!*   Besides, they joked, now you only have to Cook one Meal instead of two different ones at the same time, since you only have to prepare your fake Vegan Meats now!  *LOL*   It's true, they won't eat my restricted diet so they are considerate about preparing their own Real Meats, even tho' I'm not really missing any of it or feeling deprived on my Nutritarian eating Plan.




And Tonight we are Childless since The Young Prince has gone for a Job Interview for Seasonal Work at "Fear Farm" Halloween Haunted Attraction... and Princess T is at a Birthday Party and then going to a Movie for some Boy she is Friends with.   And I smell that The Man has already prepared his own Dinner... so now all I have to do is fix some Vegan Cuisine for myself and feel quite accomplished that at least I got this Blog Post with it's random acts of Beauty completed before I fall Asleep way too early!  But then, The Son is out of the Hospital now and The Young Prince is on the mend too, so NOW I actually CAN catch up and get some Sleep... so... it's all Good my Friends!!!  *Smiles*

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Blessings, Love and Light from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

4 comments:

  1. Stress can run me different ways. In the midst of a lot of stress I am sometimes awake a lot other times especially once things he's up I really crash hard and I'm exhausted. That may be why you need to sleep your brain needs to organize and integrate all the things that are happening. So happy to read that you are really settling in to where you are. That makes such a difference. Feeling conflicted about where you are doesn't allow roots to grow. And we need roots in order to thrive. There's all kinds of ways to grow roots but the most important ways in our own Hearts. Sounds like that's what you're letting happensnow.

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  2. I'm glad you are getting the rest you need. Sometimes a nap is just what is needed. My problem is that if I take a nap during the day, then I am unable to fall asleep at night.

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  3. Good to hear things are turning around with health and becoming comfortable in the home. The days do tend to blur and hum here too and it is because we are in the quite country, and not in the gun shot filled ghetto. Get all the rest you need!

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  4. Burning candles from all ends---conjures up a great visual---but not really not for comfortable positions. Settling yourself in your mind, and for your family---has to help. Not knowing the future in the midst of chaos---only adds to stress. The house is great---and long term it has helped your husband. And, really there is nothing that can't be fixed 'for sale', if you need to sell. Move on and enjoy what you have. All we really have is the 'now'.

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