Thursday, April 27, 2017

Spring At Grungy Galz And A Rant...



So on my way to foof my own Showroom and bring in fresh Inventory for our Weekend Sale, I stopped by my Friend Bridget's Fabulous Shop GRUNGY GALZ.
I needed a Zen Moment as I'd flipped my shit this Morning with the house being in total disarray again and me not at all feeling like playing Merry Maid Service! To run damage control behind the three Stooges Larry, Moe and Curly around here again is just an exercise in futility... not to mention giving me extreme Anxiety coupled with Angry outbursts!




It's very much like trying to Train that stubborn and destructive Lovable Puppy not to create chaos around your living spaces, to try to Train these three in similar habits.  Of keeping things in Order and to have Consideration for the Head Cook and Bottle Washer, which would be me, whose trying to Maintain everything alone without becoming completely overwhelmed.  *Le Sigh*  Caregiving alone wipes me out most days, so Domestic Goddess Duties can stack up if everyone isn't even trying to do their part... which they aren't!  I just get pissed off and feeling quite defeated, not wanting to be in my own house surrounded by it all any more than I have to be... which is almost all the time!!!




I cannot function in chaos or disorderly environments, it saps my Positive Energy when the Home is messy and I cannot find things because it blends in with the messes around it.   It took me about 15 minutes just to find my Vehicle Keys because I'd laid them down on the large Kitchen Island, which is cluttered again to the hilt with the catch-all shit everyone just dumps there unceremoniously!   Initially I Loved my huge Kitchen Island, now I have a rather Love-Hate relationship with it, since it becomes the dumping ground for shit that shouldn't be there and should be dealt with another kind of way... as in put away or thrown away!!




So that delay then left me running behind in picking up The Young Prince, in another City, from his Charter School!  So I'm rushing Angrily then thru heavy traffic on a piss poor infrastructure that hasn't caught up to not having Rural Traffic anymore, with all these Subdivisions they've crammed out here, but without improving the two lane once Rural roads!   And which runs by gravel pits at the River bottom and Farmland everywhere there isn't a Subdivision, so there's way too many Gravel Trucks and Tractors you get stuck behind too, driving at a crawl since there's no areas to pass them safely!




  Yes, he's doing Well there and likes it, which is a Blessing... and Yes, I still Hate all that commuting thru heavy Rush Hour traffic to get him there and back every day... an hour a day of my Life I'll never get back!  And knowing I've got tonnage of Housekeeping and Laundry stacked up at Home... and Inventory to Price and get Showroom bound for The Sale which starts Tomorrow... means my thoughts drift to what can I do to diffuse my Anger and Anxiety and get me back to Center stat!?  Because I don't wanna be pissed off at them all every day, starting at daybreak and start each day with a lousy countenance, I really don't, I don't wake up expecting to be THAT Woman!




So I'm in the middle of my Epic Morning Rant and flipping my shit... and Princess T has a flat affect and says, with no hint of sarcasm and being dead serious... So... after School what are we gonna do to Hang Out together then Gramma?!   I give up... I'm a raving lunatic spilling my Heart out about how the condition they've left the house in is making me go Insane... and rather than being Heard, she's fixated on what grim Adventure she wants me to do with her after School... like I'll have any Energy for wanting to do any of that?!?  Why she'd even WANT to Hang Out with me when I'm clearly Losing It and unraveling just shows you how 'Special' and disconnected these kids are!!!  That just makes it even more Surreal really, like I'm in an Episode of The Twilight Zone being Invited to Hang Out with the Lunatics at the Asylum!




 We've tried the lets Clean Up first 'reward' method to 'earn' Fun Time, that doesn't Work with ANY of them!   There would be NO Fun Time EVER if we stuck to that method... and that would leave me in Solitary Confinement with them all trapped here in the messy house endlessly, so forget that shit!  And we do Clean Up, but it doesn't stay that way for more than a nanosecond since the Chronically Disorganized and Loosely Wired tend to be oblivious to the chaos they leave in their wake.   I can tell every move they've all made, without seeing in Real Time.  Because they leave a Trail, like Hansel and Gretel, so you know exactly where they've been and what they were doing by the Crime Scene Evidence left behind!   I don't need Mad CSI Skills, they don't even try to hide the evidence and look blankly when confronted with it, wearing the Zombie Face!




Sometimes, perhaps to appease me in the heated Moment of my free fall into Madness, they shake their heads and Agree to everything... AS IF they will actually DO any of it!!!   They are so Sincere in these Moments so it's all very Creepy when you realize, Nope, you're not getting thru to them in actuality, they don't even seem to know what they're agreeing to, do they???!???!?   I've even gone on Strike... didn't work either... things just backed up to Hell and back since it wasn't as if there was anybody else to do it.   I don't have Staff with this gig... I am as the Recruiting Commercials like to say, am an Army Of One fighting this Battle... and unlike Charlie Sheen, I'm NOT Winning... but I'm clearly going just as bat shit crazy as the guy!!!   *LOL*




So in between bringing him Home and dumping him off with instructions to get his laundry downstairs before I returned Home {didn't do it until I flipped my shit again upon returning and said I wasn't doing ANY of his Laundry unless it migrated Downstairs stat...}... and before his little Sister, the Hanging Out Stalker, returned from School... I headed into the City again to drop off my Inventory and visit Bridget's Lovely Shop... to recharge and restore my Calm!  Bridget was preparing for the Junk In The Trunk Show, but her Lovely Mom was there and we chatted.  It's Nice to have conversations with people who are NOT on the Crazy Train, like at Home where they're ALL on board ay ay ay... so you cannot have a Sane conversation most of the time!




And it did restore my Calm enough that I could be Civil and almost Cordial to Larry, Moe and Curly once I returned Home after working my Showroom.  The Man had even made Deviled Eggs with the rest of the Dyed Easter Eggs, and washed some dishes, to put himself back in my Good Graces so he'd be the Favored One while I'm on the Warpath!  *LOL*   Princess T is staying under my radar and dropped the Lets Hang Out Obsession for Today, after hearing the threat NOT to wash her Brother's clothes unless he did what I'd asked him to do 4 hours prior!  She can be perceptive just enough not to be a casualty of this War being waged on the Home front!   She's gathering her laundry to bring downstairs without prompting, while the Bulls Eye remains squarely fixed on her Brother for now and he's in my Crosshairs!  But hey, he made himself a Willing Target!  *Winks*




You know, when Love was Young and filled with Promise I never anticipated the Battlefields that would play out daily as you're going thru Life and shit happens with Loved Ones.  I certainly thought I could go Merrily thru just as this Zen Hippie Chick who strives for this Peaceful Copacetic existence... yeah, I was just that delusional!   Perhaps in a house by myself that could actually happen... throw some peeps with Issues into the mix and the whole Plan went to shit and fell apart!   Every day I anticipate starting out Zen, Peaceful and Copacetic... but usually they're up before me and the shit has already hit the fan before my Eyes even opened so rather than Living The Dream it kinda goes Dark and Nightmarish a lot of the time instead!  {BTW: Vintage Wedding Cake Topper... New Inventory... as are everything in the Images here on out...}




Don't you guys WANT to have a Happy, Peaceful, Zen Existence, especially at Home, I once asked them all??!   They claim that is what they Want... so... WHY THEN CAN'T YOU ALL GET ALONG AND PLAY WELL WITH OTHERS!?!??!?!?!?!  And don't you Want a Nice, Clean and Tidy Home you can be Proud of and Function in, I once asked them all?!?   WELL THAT DOESN'T HAPPEN BY FREAKIN' MAGIC, IT TAKES MUTUAL MAINTENANCE THEN!!!  Of coarse I didn't get thru then either and you get weary of trying to Train the seemingly untrainable... whose habits and behaviors do not change... and so my reaction to it somehow has to Mellow and embrace how they are with unconditional Love... easier said than done!




Kinda like the Losing Weight Thing... so a lot of really Cool Wardrobe just has to be Let Go of the delusion of ever wearing... and head from my Closet into the Showroom... like these awesome Vintage Italian Dolce & Gabbana Jeans that my fat ass is never getting into again except on the Canvas of my very fertile Imagination too!  *Le Sigh*   The likelihood is about as Real as the Three Stooges here at Home altering their ways Miraculously to be in compliance with helping me in Maintaining our Home!!!   They'll probably be serving ice water in Hell first I'd venture to Guess!?!




I shed a little tear, which is why the Image is a little blurry, every time I have to Let Go of Killer Wardrobe that I'll never squeeze into in this Lifetime again!  They just don't make Wardrobe in BMW Sizes that are this Trendy and Awesome and I Hate that, since I abhor being forced into wearing Wardrobe I don't Love... or sometimes even Like!  When I have to walk into the BMW Specialty Shops I almost gag at the selections, I wouldn't be caught dead wearing any of that hideous stuff!  *Shudder!!!*




Anyway... I did get the Showroom foofed completely, took me over seven hours last week but Sales increased dramatically so it was long overdue.   I got my Book Section all in one spot now, mostly Decor Books and Vintage Yearbooks from the 1920's thru 1960's, some being Local Schools or Colleges.  I have a total Book fetish and had to cull my personal stash recently while doing the Great Edit and Purge Project.




And Indulged in a bit of Retail Therapy to keep my head on straight by Negotiating a Killer Deal with my Friend Michael for this Vintage Statue, which is now residing in our Master Bathroom.   Don't worry, about 50 things went OUT as this came IN so my five to one Rule was greatly exceeded!  *Smiles*  BTW: This Fri-Sun our Antique Mall is having a 15% Sale off everything in the Store and Michael of "Scallywaggs Design" still has a wealth of Killer Inventory he just brought in for it!  He's got several Booths in the 800 Row Downstairs {#805 #806 #807} just straight down the Isle from my Showroom... and also Upstairs in some Loft Booths.




And to be sure it hasn't been all chaos, doom and gloom on the Home Front, I've actually made slight progress in small enclaves Decorating.  I recently re-framed the Antique Religious Print with an Antique Frame I Sourced that fits perfectly, so now it's finally hung up.   So many things have languished going on two years now waiting for me to Get Around To It since moving in to New Villa Boheme'!   So when I'm not flipping my shit about the mess the Family is leaving in their wake I'm actually using my Energy reserve in accomplishing some things that aren't a complete waste of Time and Energy!  *Smiles*




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Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian


3 comments:

  1. The beautiful vintage things you show from your own collection and the Antique Malls always have me wishing that I could visit them. The stuff in Ohio is never this cool! Doesn't the whole thing with kids not wanting to clean up, do laundry. . .doesn't it happen all the time? It's frustrating for sure.

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  2. Aw, Dawn, glad you scored the statue. It's beautiful. Children and hubbies don't have to be 'special' to be difficult. I went on strike once for an entire week--well 6 days---they gave in when mom didnt' wake thump and drive them to Little League on Saturday morning. With hubby's blessing---this managed to wrangle my 10 and 13 year-old boys into somewhat responsible beings. I did sneak food to the dog after two days..., but totally went on strike---placards on the lawn and everything.

    Sometimes, you have to do the ridiculous---to show the Ridiculous what they are really like. That was before the internet and video games, I don't know if you would have to unplug everything too?

    Hope it all comes together---but remember what the downtrodden do---Resist---lol, and Strike! Sandi

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