Tuesday, September 29, 2015

How Could I Resist... Well It's Easy I Just Didn't!



I don't buy mass produced items unless they're a certain kinda thing... MY Thing... and so when September and October roll around I do seek out the mass produced inexpensive Decor that caters to my particularly Morbid and Quirky Aesthetic!  *Smiles*   Recent years haven't disappointed... My Style is apparently becoming more Mainstream or something, I dunno?  *LOL*  All I do know is I can now obtain Fab Skullies like this one inexpensively, On Sale... at a Grocery Store!  *Gasp!*




My Autumn Decor is probably the only Collection I consistently choose to expand upon each year and upgrade on Purpose.   Most other Collections I've ceased and desisted upon in recent years and harshly Culled in fact.  The reason being, I Live with this Style of Decor more than just the Autumn Holidays, it's my Preferred Aesthetic and there is only the brief window of Opportunity in which to obtain it so I Seize the Moment!




I mean how could I Resist such things as a Dia de los Muertos Inspired Cookie Jar at The Spirit Store, which is only in business barely two months out of the entire year and rents empty Retail Spaces during September and October?!  Well, it's Easy, I just DIDN'T Resist!  *Ha ha ha*  I keep an Emergency Cash Stash just for Opportunities such as this so I don't have to go into a Fit because there's no Budget for them during this Season!  *LOL*




Because Seriously, September School begins with all those added expenses... and during a six week period during this time of year about five of our Grandchildren have Birthdays... so even if I hadn't of bought a New Home and still been Maintaining the Old One... it usually is tighter than most other times of the year for us.  And I HATE that, because this is when MY kinda Stuff is gonna be abundantly available to buy!!!   And so I usually devise a Plan of Action... I can be Wicked Resourceful when I have to you know!  *Winks*




And sometimes Surprises just seem to fall into my lap by Serendipity.  Like when I took Princess T to the Dollar Store to get some mini Hand Sanitizer bottles for School use and they had some with these Amazing Lady Muerta Rubber Sugar Skull Faces attached to each bottle that I HAD to buy for her anyway!  Booyah!!!




"Here, you can have the Hanitizer {as she calls it} for School and Gramma will have the Sugar Skull Gals for the Altar, Okay?", so I'm ripping these suckas off the rubber carrier the bottles have that attaches them to backpacks like a keychain!  *Bwahahahaha!!!*   I kept one of each and she said she'd add the rest of the duplicates to her Collection after she uses up all her Hanitizer and is ready to throw the bottles away... Win-Win, right?  *Winks*




They do look Sweet on the Altar and Jazz up our Stone Dishes that hold Candies and Altar Notes to our Dearly Departed.   Yes, I put the Halloween Candy out early because it makes Life so much easier when The Man and the G-Kid Force are on a Sugar High... it's like kiddie crack and I use it as Currency and Leverage.   I won't replenish the bowls if there's too much Drama in the household and creating Trouble in Paradise!  *Winks*




In actuality the Kiddos don't really eat that much of it, but just having it there and available seems to soothe their Inner Beasts and make them Happy.   And The Man, well, if he's got Candy Bowls filled with Treats he's Golden and doesn't Care what else I might buy during the Holiday Season that makes me Happy!  A Sugar Blaze makes him very Agreeable!  *Ha ha*




And this Season they were everywhere... these came from the BX on Base!  Yeah, who'd of thunk, right?  We're out there filling Prescriptions for The Man and I... pop into the BX Food Court for Lunch afterwards and see these front and center near the entrance on the Halloween Display!




And then there are the No-Brainer Purchases like double insulated Inexpensive cups with lids and their own straws that we use incessantly here in the Desert because you almost always have a Cold Drink in hand!  *LOL*   This one came from The Spirit Store and I did have to go to two locations to get the last one at the second location because the Ouija Merchandise was Selling Out fast and it's not even October yet!   They won't be getting any more in before they close for the Season, luckily those Stores are all over the City and not too far from one another... they can call ahead to other locations that haven't Sold Out and put a Hold on a Coveted item if you ask.




And Wal-Mart had these Cute Dia de los Muertos double insulated cups for under five bucks apiece... the one even matches my Cookie Jar!!!   




They keep your Cold Drinks icy Cold and your Hot Drinks nice and Hot... and for the price they're quite sturdy and if not totally manhandled should last a while.




I got enough to make a Set for when we Entertain and have Company or the Kiddos have Friends over, since I got tired of my glasses getting chipped or broken so we usually don't even use glasses for drinking or serving refreshments anymore.




I just think these are really eye-catching and Fun, they go with most of my Vintage Kitsch in the Kitchen quite well too.




Spirit Store also was down to only one Ouija Tray so I got that, it's large and great for Serving...




There were still several of the Ouija oversized Coffee Mugs and we needed one of those to hold our Colorful Permanent Markers which we've been using a lot to Create and Color things with lately.  I Plan to use them on one of these Skullies I bought from the Grocery Store to Color it... and keep the other one as it is.  Also have to get some faux Marigolds for the Eyes of both since with the Move I didn't have time to grow any in the Garden this Season to use on the Altar.




And I got the last Ouija Throw Blanket at The Spirit Store too... they held that one at location No. 2 for me when location No. 1 called ahead.   Now... to keep a certain Princess or Prince from confiscating it and making it theirs will be my next Trick!  *Ha ha*   My Marilyn Monroe Throw Blanket got confiscated from me by a certain Princess and I haven't been able to procure another... it's one of the Risks posed when your Family like what you like and are prone to Liberating it from you!




Okay, so our Master Bedroom is still rather Spartan and we still have the Mattress on the floor since we haven't even begun to get everything Organized and set up in that room yet.   I had thought I'd Decorate it first, but Truth be told, who goes into your Master Bedroom anyway, so it turned out to be one of the least visible Spaces, thus, I put it further down the To-Do List to get around to!  *Ha ha*  

  


So my feeble attempt to even make it look Inviting will have to do for now... The Man doesn't Care anyway... he's not that Into Styling of the Boudoir as I am... if he's got a comfy Mattress and a TV in there, and me laying there beside him each Night, well, what more can a Man ask for, right?  *Bwahahaha*




Besides, The Master in this New Home is so Freakin' Massive that we could Square Dance in here like it was a Ballroom and so we don't even have enough Furniture for it!!!  I'm standing in the MIDDLE of the room taking this shot!  There's completely Empty Space behind me!  Our Queen Size Mattress looks like a Postage Stamp... as does the large Persian Rug that used to fill our other Master at the Old Homestead and looks Lost in the dimensions of this Space!  So... 'til I have the Funds to Decorate and Style it properly and put in a Seating Area... I'm Ignoring it for now!   Because frankly, I'm not even certain yet how I want to Style it!?  *Ha ha*




Besides that... it was all I could do to getting around to Decorating for the upcoming Holidays I J'Adore Styling for so much because of still trying to empty out the Old Homestead and dispose of Stuff!  Which has eaten up any time I've been able to squeeze into my Insane Schedule completely... I will be SOOOOOO Glad when this Move is behind me and I can get the Old Place ready for Sale and SOLD!




For I want to be able to Enjoy this point in time thru New Years Eve if I can, because it Truly is my Favorite block of Seasons due to all the Holidays and Holy Days, the Sublime Weather and all of the Events going on from Mid-September onwards!




I mean Great Stuff is overlapping Great Stuff on the Calendars now so it's hard to even choose what we want to do and what we must Pass on now due to constraints!?  *Le Sigh*   I missed Junk In The Trunk this year... hadda... and I'm afraid there will be more that I will have to Pass on coming up as well.  *Sighing heavily*




But... at least our Home is looking like Autumn is here and we're already Reveling in it!  So most of the time I just Enjoy staying Home when I don't have things I have to do.  And that's such a Great Feeling isn't it?  Living The Dream... right here at Home Sweet Home!   Now... it's off to Work at the Antique Mall I go... see you Later my Friends!!!!!!!!!!!




Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian


Sunday, September 27, 2015

The Seasonal Decor Purge








Today Princess T and I began the Seasonal Decor Purge in earnest at the Old Homestead... we blasted through Easter and most of Halloween... Christmas will be next.   I have come to the crossroads where I just don't need or want as much Seasonal Decor for the Holidays as I have amassed over the years, so I'm ready to let a good deal of it go.   We got rid of perhaps two thirds or more of the Easter Decor, I haven't Decorated as much for Easter in recent years since she's the last Child that still wants to do Egg Hunts and revel in the Enchantment of Easter Decorations.  For me Easter is more Spiritual so I'm not all that into the Pastels, Bunnies, Baskets and Chicks that Whimsical Enchanting Easter Decorating was about anyway.   Princess T Curated the Plastic Eggs to a manageable amount of absolute Favorites now that she's the only one still Hunting them.   Halloween we still Decorate extravagantly for, but weeded out Decorations that we weren't that intent on Keeping or had an excess of.   Christmas is a bigger Stash, since we used to Decorate several Trees but now we're down to the Main one and not so much about the entire Christmas Village Scenes.   And I'm also Culling my Nativity Collection to just the most Collectible, Antique and expensive ones... the rest will eventually be Showroom bound in time for the Holiday Shopping Crowds ready to add to their Christmas Decor and Collectibles.   It feels good to just have a Curated Seasonal Cache for each Holiday and Holy Day... something that doesn't take up a lot of Storage Space or take weeks to Style with.  Yes, Life is still in the Process of Simplifying and I must say that it has been a breath of Fresh Air for Yours Truly to move in that direction.

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Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Friday, September 25, 2015

The Two O'Clock In The Mornings



The Two O'Clock in the Mornings, I know you've probably had them too, those Nights where you started out overly tired and then Insomnia set it because you had a lot on your mind that wouldn't turn off so you could drift off into Blissful slumber.  It's been one of those Nights for me and so it's Two O'Clock in the Morning and I just gave up on lying there awake.




I had taken a deep breath from the earlier reaction to the Lost Adoption Paperwork floating somewhere in The System now... and just allow it to play out as it will, Trusting in God's Perfect Timing to line things up in our Favor.   When there is nothing you can do about a Situation it's just best to be Still and know that He is God.  With Faith that He has your back when you're in His Will and doing the right thing opposed to the Path of least resistance.




I even got through the Grandson's IEP, though only one of his Teachers showed up along with his School Caseworker and the School Psychologist to hammer out an Action Plan with me to hopefully Help him Succeed.  I would have Hoped every Teacher would have been there to be part of the dialogue and contribute to a possible Solution, but I was Pleased with the input from the three that did attend.  He's Failing again and the Issues remain the same as they always have due to Mental Health barriers.  So they didn't tell me anything about that which was a Revelation and I hadn't heard before for years now.  But they told me he's consistently scored 145 on IQ Tests, even being re-tested at this School because they thought perhaps the previous Test results had been in error... they weren't.  He's always scored at least a 145 or higher every time on numerous occasions apparently.




They clearly were very Impressed and even Astounded at that Score and my reaction was perhaps not what they expected since I didn't have a Clue what that even meant until I Googled it later... so I'd been non-reactive!  *Ha ha ha*  Because I didn't want to seem like Dumb Gramma raising Genius Grandson by having it explained or asking, "So... that's Good?"  *Winks*  You see, my Score clearly isn't high enough to even realize the significance of that Good news or I wouldn't need to ask, right?!  *LOL*  And besides, if he's Failing anyway I was more depressed about that news than being told once again how Brilliant the Kid is... IF ONLY we could Reach him??!   I already know he's Smart, he Outsmarts me all the time and talks way over my head when he does Connect to something that Excites and Stimulates him enough to be Dialed into it.




This is a Kid that at the tender age of Two years old was using words in the right context that weren't familiar to me and I had to look up in the Dictionary to even know what he was talking about!  Trying in vain to figure out how he even had such a vocabulary in his repertoire when we hadn't taught it to him?!  He's always been a Mysterious Child I haven't been able to figure out and so he often gets frustrated and annoyed at the rest of us not being able to keep up or understand... guess now I have at least some understanding of why.  But unlocking that Mystery to tap into his Potential Academically is still far beyond me... and apparently most Educators as well.   Now I understand why a Professor at the Science Center told me last year that our Grandson was perhaps the smartest human being he'd ever met and discussed things with.   All I'd been able to muster was, "Oh, really?"


  

It is difficult to Rejoice in statements like that when the Child is always struggling Academically and Failing just about everything, often just falling asleep in Class and unable to remain awake no matter how much Sleep he gets!   He sleeps a lot, even at Home, and with Clinical Depression I realize that is often a form of Escapism and even Medicated his Down Cycles are pretty intense.  Clearly coupled with Boredom since he's constantly Bored no matter how much Stimulation we provide.  Okay, so during this Meeting I Discover he's doing Well in Chemistry, which should be his hardest Class, so that was a ray of Sunshine since maybe he will earn one Credit and not Fail everything again?




He didn't attend this IEP Meeting, he Opted Out since he says they only serve to Discourage him further, so they didn't require him to be there for input.  Usually he doesn't have any input anyway, he just stares blankly and shrugs, so instead he attended one of his after School Clubs that he finds to be Stimulating and Enriching, talking about constantly.   His Peers always Vote him into Leadership roles and he thrives in Environments he's Passionate about, so maybe that will have to be enough for now, I dunno?   The Man tries to Comfort me when I got Home by saying many Highly Successful people did lousy in School and yet found their Niche and Purpose in Life, he probably will too?!  I sure Hope so because one day he'll have to try to Live Independently without a Caregiver unless I become an Immortal before then.  




And I'm still Hopeful that one day Princess T will be able to read... more than thirteen words a minute... and get thru a Chapter Book in less than two months of laboring with it to get a Book Report done?   We Sold Off all the Dr. Seuss Collection, so each Night it's the same drill of twenty to thirty minutes to get a page or two more read on the same Book I've checked out of the Public Library so often now they should just probably Donate it to us because this could take a while to actually finish it!?  *LOL*   Well, the twenty-eighth deadline is looming so maybe we won't reach THAT lofty Goal?  But her Presentation Work is Artfully done and she's Excited to turn it in, so I just Hope it nets her a decent grade regardless that the Book never got finished and we'll have no idea how it ends?   My eyes glazed over weeks ago so I'm not even certain anymore how it began?  But we know the Horse's Name is Rocky... *Smiles*




And if they try to tell me this Kid tests Genius too then I'm going to have to take a look at that damn Test!!!   *Ha ha ha*   Yes, she appears to be Smarter than how School is playing out for her too, but there has to be some kind of Learning Disability going on here that they haven't been able to put their finger on the pulse of yet and identify!?!   And Eight more years of this is going to be rough... I can handle that her Brother only has two more years to go, I think I could maybe get thru two more years of this Sane?  Maybe...




Because I've been unable to figure out the Mysteries of these Kids and the Universe when I'm having trouble even figuring out how to hang my Taxidermy on the walls of a new Home without them falling off!?   And the Two O'Clock in the Mornings, though few, make me realize that I have to find a way of slowing down my own Thoughts from racing and contemplating how to Solve numerous Issues that are happening simultaneously at the present time?!  The tedious pace of the Move getting completed is working my last nerve too!   Just showing up at the Old Homestead now is hard to face some days.




I had Imagined I'd be so much further along and am glad the weather is cooling off so I can tackle most of the Outbuildings that don't have air conditioning with more of a concerted effort now?  The humidity has sapped my strength so most days I can handle about an hour's worth of Work before I Fade and have to stop for the day there.   Seniors and strenuous labor don't happen to be good Partnerships I'm finding.   Had I waited just a few more years I doubt a Move would have even been possible given how tough this has been for me already!  *LOL*




You have no Idea how glad I am that I didn't know that when I first started this Journey... or I may have just stayed put regardless of it not being the Ideal thing to do!  *Smiles*   Sticking with something that turns out to be really Grueling and hard is no Fun... my self-motivation wanes sometimes to press forward diligently in several of these areas where I'm meeting with such resistance.  Yes, the path of least resistance sure would have been easier... and probably have less sleepless Nights...




Awake in the Arizona Desert... at almost Four O'Clock in the Morning now... *Smiles*... Dawn... The Bohemian


Thursday, September 24, 2015

Color Me Upset And Frustrated... No, Color Me Mad As Hell!



Well, it's not because I WANT to be Colored Mad as Hell, especially since we have the Young Prince's  Important IEP Meeting at the High School this Afternoon, which will Modify his Academics to accommodate his Disabilities and focus upon his Abilities instead.  I am Optimistic about that since Princess T's IEP Meeting at her New School went so Well and Resources and Training in this District seem to be better to Assist the Families of Special Needs Kiddos.




So, I'd much rather be Colored in a Peaceful Zen Hue rather than being Distracted by Upset and intense Frustration at The System!   But, when you're Dealing with The System and a bunch of Agencies regarding your Loved Ones it is bound to happen and subject to Change Without Notice... and usually not in a Good way!




Ah yes, I got the Call Of Torment the other day from one of our Caseworkers, she's No. 5 Caseworker we've been Assigned in just a few Months from this same Agency, so just when I thought things might be finally in Order with the Adoption Process and they couldn't possibly Screw Up anymore on our Case or lose any more Important Paperwork she calls and hits me with it!?!  Clearly I underestimated their Ability to Screw Up yet another Important thing in our Process!   *Arghhhh!*




"So, when are you going to get your required Fingerprinting done so we can submit it for Clearance and move Forward with the Adoption and submitting the Adoption Subsidy Request?" she casually says.   WTF!??!?!?!?   "Uh, we submitted that IN PERSON to the Caseworker that visited our Home almost THREE MONTHS ago and Clearance should have been DONE within Ten days from THEN!!!",  I says, barely concealing my Alarm at this News that they now profess to think it wasn't even done yet!!!!!!!




Long Pause and Silence at the other end before she then asks me who I hand-delivered the Package to at our Home?  Yes, there was a Package, of much more Important Paperwork than just the Fingerprinting Cards, which BTW we had to pay for and Travel to the Inner City and spend an entire day getting done since outlying areas charged too much per card and weren't available very often to even do it!  There were Affidavits from every Doctor and Therapist as well in that now obviously Missing or Lost Package that is absolutely Critical to Proceed and comply with the new extended Deadline of!




"Well, you mean which of the Eight Caseworkers from Three different Agencies we've been Assigned in the past Three Months and have Quit had it first or last?  Crap, I don't Recall, there has been so many of yous!??!  But I know it was a Female, because the Guy Caseworker only lasted a day and one visit!", I hear my voice getting louder and more Menacing!   I had also ruled out the one Competent Female Caseworker we once had, she never lost anything and was up to the Job but Quit, I don't blame her.  So that narrowed the Field only slightly as to where it all now was??!




Another pregnant Pause at the other end of the line, "Oh, WE have a Problem then...", she says!   Duhhh, ya think?!?   "NO, YOU have a Problem then!", I respond.   I then regale her with just how many times our Paperwork has been Misplaced, Lost, had to be re-done and re-submitted not only twice, but sometimes three times already and how Fed Up to Death I now was that so much of our Personal and Highly Sensitive Information was floating around all over the place God knows where?! 




 Not to mention cocking up and greatly Delaying this whole Adoption Process and receiving Subsidies to Help defer Costs of raising these Children. Subsidies that we've never received in Fifteen years and were now Approved Months ago by the Judge and we still haven't received a Penny of!  Just when we get Hopeful things are in Order, they dash our Hope with more Screw Ups or Additional Requests that just seem Endless!  




So, I called the Attorney's Office that was Assigned to Represent us in the Adoption to tell them our most recent situation... only to hear that as Kin we shouldn't have even had to submit Fingerprints!?  I had questioned that myself but am not well versed on Adoption Law so I just Complied when the Agencies Caseworker Insisted it was. 




 Oh well, perhaps that will now work in our Favor if the ones we submitted at the request of another Agency that told us is WAS a requirement can't be found?   That's another Pet Peeve of mine, depending on who you're talking to, and differing from Caseworker to Caseworker, the requirements Change at the speed of Light as well... and sometimes you are told things are Required and are Demanded of you, which are NOT required or necessary.




As if Raising two Special Needs Grandchildren and Caring for a Brain Damaged Spouse isn't enough you're asked to do Complicated things that aren't even necessary nor Required by Law!   It is very difficult for me to remain in the Fruits of the Spirit when Dealing with several different Agencies and Caseworkers when this kind of thing is the Status Quo with the majority of them!




I'm just Grateful I haven't been having to Deal with the VA for a while since now The Man doesn't want anything to do with them because they Agitate him too much and set back his Progress because having to rely on them just makes him Despondent.  I haven't had a lot of Help from them anyway so if I don't have to Deal with an Agency that is ineffective and too much Red Tape, I choose NOT TO now!




It could drive you to the verge of Insanity sometimes when you have no Option but to... so I choose my Battles and which Agencies I can just NOT be Required to Deal with.   In my Perfect World I wouldn't have to Deal with any of them, but that isn't likely to happen, since all three in my Care always need substantial Medical Care.  Care that many Insurances won't or don't cover or have strict limitations on covering, so I have to play the Game in order to get them what they Need and we don't have the substantial Wealth to cover out of pocket or be in endless Litigation about.




So anyway, I'm trying to change my being Colored as Upset, Frustrated and Mad as Hell to a more Zen Color of Being before I have to sit in a Boardroom with a group of Educators on behalf of the Grandson, the Young Prince.  You know, the one who misses at least one day of School a week with severe Anxiety, Panic Attacks or Clinical Depression and Psychotic Breaks.   The one who has a Brilliant Beautiful Mind, looks perfectly Normal on the Exterior and Tests at near Genius Level but fails most Classes and most Educators don't have a Clue how to Reach?  Yeah, THAT ONE!  The one who resides most of the time on Planet R in his own little World.




I'm bringing in a Newspaper he was Featured in when he Worked as a Volunteer for the Art and Science Center and was Inventing all kinds of things at a level that the Professors Teaching there were Astounded of!   Just so that his Abilities will Shine instead of his Disabilities clouding all Judgment of what he is or isn't capable of and being Focused upon exclusively.   I don't want him Defined by a Diagnosis, nor does he.   I don't want him Feeling Hopeless about his Future or what he has to Offer to the World in the form of his God Given Gifts, which are Evident, but which his Mental Health Challenges sometimes get in the way of him seeing Clear of.




I've got a few short hours to get in a really Good Head Space and Center myself with sharp Focus of Purpose so that I can be his most Capable Advocate at that Meeting.   You never know how many will be on your side... nor not... so I'm always Guardedly Optimistic.  I've had to be an Army of One many times and that is not the best strategic Position to be in during any Battle to Protect the Rights of someone you Care about enough to do whatever you have to Ensuring it.




So far this Group hasn't tried to Pawn him off on someone else to Teach him so that it won't be something they even have to Deal with anymore.   If they do suggest Alternatives I want for them to be Appropriate ones for a change that meet him at his Point of Need and aren't just Warehousing him somewhere they send the Misfit Kiddos nobody wants to have to Deal with and don't prepare them for any kind of Life or Success outside of an Institution... and I don't mean a Good kind of Institution!?




We'll see... with any kind of Luck the Missing Paperwork will Materialize and all will be right with the World to get this Adoption Process back on Track?   And the Grandson's IEP will actually Help him to Succeed this time instead of being a Dismal Failure like all the other IEP's have been and where it got to the point with the other District that they had Zero Expectations for him and he never would have earned enough Credits to Graduate if he'd lived to be a Hundred!?




And Thank You my Friends that have stuck it out to the end of this Post to allow me a Good Bohemian Rant and to Vent so that I could Clear the Air and be a whole lot Calmer than I was at the beginning of writing it!  *Ha ha ha*   As always, it's much Cheaper than Therapy and much more Effective since you aren't just gonna ask me how I Feel about all that and slap me with a weighty Invoice I couldn't pay anyway???!  *Winks*

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Blessings and Peace from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian
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