But sometimes we have to do things we were never Prepared to do, don't have a Skillset for, and maybe don't really want to have to do in Life, regardless of how we Feel about it. There is the sense that your own Life and Opportunities are slipping away as you fulfill this Role and since this is no Dress Rehersal, what are you willing to Sacrifice of yourself, for how long, and will you have Resentment or Regrets for having done so? You have to find a Peace about it within yourself... and that can be something you wrestle with often.
The most difficult part for me is making all these Personal Sacrifices in my own Life and often meeting with Resistance and Resentment from those Loved Ones I am Caring for. Since not everyone with brain injury or Mental Health Issues is cooperative in Receiving being Helped or Dependance upon others. It is quite Humbling to need a Caregiver... Humility, Dignity and Pride is at stake, it can be Frustrating to be dealing with Limitations, Disability and Infirmity, especially when it burdens others and you can't be as Independant and Functional as you want to be. So they may not always Receive Help or Intervention in the right Spirit and can even be resentful of it and refuse at times to do what the Medical Community Ordered or Suggested.
That's tough because it is their Life, they have Free Will and I try to Balance Respecting their Wishes and Feelings, while still Ensuring Options to Improve their Quality of Life are at least Considered and Hopefully Implemented so we can see the results. We can then disregard and discontinue what isn't Working and weigh the merits and possible side effects of what is Working... and be on the same Team rather than Opponents in their Care.
I know that I wouldn't want Care Forced upon me and I couldn't Imagine not being capable of making those important decisions for myself and Entrusting someone else to do it for me, sometimes against my Will for my Alleged own Good. So... for all the other Caregivers out there... or even those with Loved Ones or Friends in that Role... I Hope that in Sharing my Story you are able to gleen something that resonates with you. Something that Helps you in some way... to Do what you have to do, Become what you need to be, Support another in the Role or at least have more Understanding of what it is like to walk this walk... which can be a very Lonely and Isolating one.
Blessings and Love from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian